Learning to be human

Dying and still learning compassion and how to be human by strangers on the internet

There’s always an instant calm that comes over me when someone knows how to reign in on my outburst

I’m always expecting to be gutted or have my neck sliced open (or blocked) but on occasion someone teaches me something my family should have

I’ve been very VERY angry about dying young

But on the same pendulum I need to learn to be calm or I’m gonna have a fucking heart attack

And I was never taught that I could express myself in a low tone

And then the Army trained me to SOUND OFF

Sound off… that’s like an oxymoron or something ?

The meaning looks different spelled out with a brain injury but it literally means to speak loudly ๐Ÿ‘€

Am I using the wrong term *sigh*

This is why I’m not good with riddles or gaslighting because I can’t figure out how they got sound off soldier to mean speak loudly

Anyhoo

I want to be the silent calm version of me that I should have been before monster after monster preyed on me

Apparently the entire female population are fed up and it looks like men will be making their worst fears come true of, “I don’t want to die alone” because most women are done with men

We’re sick of being a slave for the establishment and our entire families

We want MEN not man-child

We want equality

We want organic, not tit for tat

We want our men to sexually desire us, not other women and then barely put any emotional effort in at all and expect us to do all the work

Cook, clean, perfect hand jobs too, while you look at other women, sounds like the perfect Asian bot ๐Ÿ‘€

Delusional

Maybe you should order you a mail bride cuz you’ve screwed over the entire population

You shit where you slept ๐Ÿ›Œ ๏ฟผ

And now you’re gonna die alone

And for the good men out there who are doing it right, you know that’s what all these other women and myself included have ever only wanted

There’s is nothing sexier than a real man who has his shit together and takes care of his tribe

That is what we would slave over

But you’d still have to put in 50%

That’s a relationship ๐Ÿ‘€

It’s not pretending to be something and then settling in to who you really are which is a piece of shit

Sexual urges can be controlled

It’s not like women don’t want sex

But we’ve learned that 98% of you are bad

You’ve beat that message into us

You’re very stern ๐Ÿ‘€

I’m learning to be human before I die

I don’t ever want to communicate to someone I want to die with in a harmful way

This app keeps crashing on me when I’m typing in it and I’m sick of the fucking espionage so I’m getting the fuck offline

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  1. Passive aggressive is the term they use for getting angry in a low tone, I think. Iโ€™ve found that when I got angry, those who made me angry had got me where they wanted me. Whereas, if I could deal with it without showing anger, they would be confused and usually go away.

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  2. It takes a lot for me to get angry but I’m working closely with my therapist to control my outbursts. It’s the only way I was taught – and absolutely something about me I want fixed!

    I am still climbing the mountain of life!

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