“I want out”

“Why did you put me here”

You fell on your head John because humans are gullible and can easily fall into gaslighting traps

I haven’t forgot you’re down there

Mother Earth did not take your sacrifice for granted

She’s hungry 🀨

And alive….

I know you’re watching

I know you’re out there

And I’ve been crawling around these dark pits since I fell upside down spitting in a cup – agonizing pain the death – especially in the heart

“Why did you put me here”

My brother I see you

Bad management cost your life

“I thought I was somewhere else on the map”

“I’m dying”

“It’s my heart”

“I’m studying to be a doctor…”

Oh honey, you saved my life

And still are doing miracle work

I can feel your gentle stitching

They still fucking hurt…

I love you

And boy don’t I get mad at your wife for letting you crawl around in that cave late at night and not saying oh honey you did the one section come on back home but she suffered the same fucking things that I suffered when I learned of your fate – she had to live through it and she worried that y’all sealed you up in there alive so they probably did

As an expert combat medic – who also worked in an actual hospital for many years

THERE WAS NO WAY THEY SUDDENLY PUT A DEVICE ON HIM AND GOT A READING

NO FUCKING WAY

“There are things that happened down there that will never be disclosed” – Michael Leavitt

*snarls

I HOPE THE BIG BAD WOLF GETS YOU

YOU DESERVE TO BURN IN HELL

YOUR PUNISHMENT IS COMING

Does anybody else stare at the white walls like they’re staring into the either casting a spell

I NEED TO KNOW

ANIMAL INSIDE

THE BIG BAD WOLF BETTER GET HIS SHIT TOGETHER AND LEARN TO NOT BE THAT WAY WITH ME

Never enemy

Never foe

The number one reason for divorce is money and cheating so he needs to get his shit together because he needs to have some patience with me when I fall into these gullible gaslighting traps where I waste money when I’m trying to buy us good food to eat

IT’S BURNING ME UP INSIDE

ALL THIS GOD DAMN NOISE

I fucking came from the GREAT VOID

It’s the only place in the entire galaxy I can get some peace

HOLY GOD

The dark and the cold is great for storing food indefinitely for a long time food like potatoes and vegetables

If I had a little land to dig an underground shelter

The floods are coming again

I’m gonna sink with the ship 😫

My biggest fear is drowning 😩

“Florida will experience severe flooding over the next 30 years”

“Florida is basically limestone”

“SINKHOLES”

That man was in his bed one second and the next just gone…

His house, his land condemned

A tape line

DO NOT CROSS

I freak out and panic every time it floods in Daytona

“Oh it’s normal”

That’s what the residence around here will say but I’ve got videos on TikTok of one of the workers saying it’s not fucking normal and I have evidence on my TikTok of a scientific study saying there’s going to be severe flooding here over the next 30 years but still the gaslighting from the civilians – rarely ever any real news coverage – wouldn’t wanna stop the tourists or that money incoming

I need out of society but I’ll still have a postal box

I’m trying to learn how to adjust and send snail mail again

Like, I even ordered a card kit from Dolls Kills

I have a tracking number

It’s arriving Monday ish

Surely somebody has an aunt or an uncle that they can’t stand that won’t mind them receiving snail mail from time to time and I promise I won’t label it daddy or anything

Which is weird because I only ever sent my dad snail mail labeled DAD

I had no idea it was a fetish thing or could be perceived as such

I’m so fucking naive

I want to go back to the basics like I was learning in kindergarten and first grade when I was getting to have a penpal with people from other countries and we would receive letters by them and we would say hi and talk about the weather and how shitty life was sometimes

Draw a little sun

I’m that age, I need that speed

Simple things

Safe spaces of no lies

Trust zone

A place where the most efficient hunter gathers can be civilized because the threat isn’t each other – no reason to undermine

It’s not just the TV I hate anymore

It’s that mailbox full of the rainforest as spam and bills and mail to other people and Spectrum is back harassing me

Only this time it’s “whoever the fuck lives here” BUT I LIVE HERE, I HAVE A NAME, THE BOX IS REGISTERED TO ME

And they say oh well AUTOMATION

I cannot stop the increasingly amount of spam mail over pouring my mailbox

I’m going insane living in society

My doctor: “did you get your EKG test results”

“I haven’t checked the box in weeks” 😩

My doctor: “I don’t like how your heart looks. Your heart shouldn’t look like that for your age”

SHE SHOULD HAVE CALLED BEFORE I WENT FOR THE SECOND SHOT

But I crawled up in that goddamn hole anyway despite asking everybody at VA “are you sure I should go through with the second one because the first one injured me”

No one informed me of my EKG results that were in my fucking mailbox until after I crashed hard with the second shot

Yay

And then information started coming out about Johnson and Johnson and the CDC quietly pulling Johnson and Johnson but I had gotten Moderna and when I tried to let everyone know that it hurt me the establishment punished me by removing my post and silencing me and the posts that did get through I was called a fucking liar

“That isn’t on the CCD website” they’d say

And now there’s a shit ton of people going around TikTok going ha ha ha you got hurt we warned you

the fuck you did not warn us bitch

you did not warn

stop with the motherfucking lies

not one motherfucking person tried to stop me when I said I was going to get the shot not one motherfucking person tried to stop me when I said I was going to get it the second time not one motherfucking person tried to stop me from getting that goddamn shot

I’M SICK OF THE GASLIGHTING

If I tell the algorithm I don’t like something it will send me more of what I don’t like

If I try to watch somebody’s story it will send me flashing advertisements that hurts my brain and has subliminal messaging in it no doubt and I learned in college that they use subliminal messaging at the grocery stores – so if I learned in college that they use subliminal messaging at public locations, imagine what they are doing to porn and horror and certain music and art

I would not mind getting to a position where I had a decent printer and could start printing out my photography and doing a little vine with poetry and photography from time to time

I’m trying to figure out ways I can connect with you without losing my fucking mind

REAL SNAIL MAIL

God damn even a simple “hello” from someone other than a bill collector or spammer

GIVE ME YOUR MONEY

I CANNOT BREATHE IN THIS HELL

I’m so sick of mental health doctor appointments

I don’t trust the algorithm or the government any longer with my data

Anytime you do a captcha check, you’re training the algorithm

I’m fucking working overtime for free

Stop giving the enemy your opinion for free

If your opinion is so valuable then they need to pay you for it, same with your organs, stop being an organ donor, they’re not doing anything good with it I promise you

I am not an organ donor and I have never been an organ donor in my entire life and when I die I do not want my organs taken out of my body, I do not want to have chemicals put inside my body preserving me, I want to fucking rot in the earth

Along time ago I wanted to be frozen and then brought back to life for science you know or inserted into the goddamn algorithm but I unplugged

I was once a candidate to go live on Mars

WE CANNOT LEAVE EARTH BUT I BEG YOU TO PROVE ME WRONG IN THIS LIFETIME – NOW – WITH ALL THIS ADVANCED TECHNOLOGY – NOT IN 50 YEARS WHEN YOU CAN FOOL MORE GENERATIONS

By taking our free speech and 2nd amendment

I think snail mail would breathe some life into me

I would love to hear from Dracula

“Hello from the dark”

“I could never condemn you”

Like how hard is it to find some nurturing in this hell?

I’m not asking for a love affair tho lol

I mean, I’m not in dating mode yet

And I’m trying to save my pennies so I can move

“I hate this cave”

SAME

There are people out there who hear me go on and on about people and still say “I don’t know who you’re talking about” because they never seem to go research it and it’s some of the most terrible ways people have died…

It was always the second time

And people make fun of me for screaming bloody murder when I’m standing in the ocean when it’s swollen πŸ™„

I would like a husband to have a hand to hold

I’m trying to get better cuz I need him in a hurry

But he still needs to work for it 😑

The male birds in the wild clean, dance, and hunt

To find their partner πŸ‘€

To impress the females πŸ‘€

He gonna dance for me and feed me?????????

WHERE IS HE SO I CAN HUMP HIS EXISTENCE PLEASE

LOL it’s late

I have to take my dog out for a pee and get ready for my doctors appointment today

And hopefully a bit more z

Tis 4 am

Petite tongue too 🀨

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