I saw you in the reflection of my smile; decided to linger around awhile
It’s not the same as living in denial; not by a long-mile
© Delia Ross. 2019
Net It
I would give you all and not even sweat it
Every single word and not even regret it
I would lose it all so you can net it
There’s space for healing if you let it
© Delia Ross. 2019
Distance
I don’t understand how it is we’ve got so far
The distance so demanding I can’t get there by car
Spiraled out to feed you and you turned into a star
Everything erupted now I’m feeling so bizarre
© Delia Ross. 2019
Fort Worth
I will follow you like budding winds wherever they may blow
We can get there quickly or else we can take it slow
I know we both are driving, but to what direction though?
Time we’re always biding and how much no one can know
Some never realizing we don’t choose the highs and lows
Death can waltz right by, and what shall be our final pose?
I can feel my body dying or perhaps I’m paranoid
Been functioning in life like I’m a rusted, broken droid
T.V. on at night, and they proclaim an asteroid
I want to follow you maybe until the end of Earth
Sunlight from your body puts my soul through a rebirth
But, still, to me you’re worth more than the gold that they secure within Fort Worth
© Delia Ross. 2019
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My Favorite Lie
It’s what I tell myself to get by, my favorite lie
And one I never use but on myself
If said with a sigh, it’s likely I’ll cry
So I smile and draw a cross upon my chest
There may be a time, I hid more in rhyme
But now there’s really only one left
If put in a book, I know you would look
So I hid the only one on my shelf
© Delia Ross. 2019
Trying to Forget
You’re coming to town, I heard in the news
You mention her name, it gives me troubling blues
I’ve been that girl, and I’ve fell in her shoes
I forget why I care or how I still hate you
They don’t think I’ve moved on and it’s probably true
But I don’t want you back, I’m the one who left
And the only one who apparently felt
It makes no difference now how many women you get
I was number one and your best asset
I spend all of my time just trying to forget
© Delia Ross. 2019
Lesson Number One
The first lesson in life there’s not a soul you can depend
You’re standing on a slope and you think you have some friends
You see an edge of hope and you try to rope it in
You have a moment, feast on it, and hope it never ends
You build it up, then break it down, and wish it works as it intends
Laughing all the way while you write your long amends
This will be enough, you hope, to finally settle all the winds
Soon you’ll find it shocking there’s even less who attends
Apparently you’re not the only one who pretends
You shouldn’t ignore lessons that the uni recommends
I gave it to you straight but you took a thousand bends
Now you have a list of a lot of ex-girlfriends
© Delia Ross. 2019
Nothings Impossible
No I don’t dream, I beam with possibility
As fragile of a thing it may seem
There are things better than a king
A princess no, heaven maybe
Of things that I see and feel
Even you can make me kneel
These things count to zero
When I see you as a hero
Underneath your mask and cape
A gentle heart and one that aches
There is a girl who can fix the scrape
She may even cause you a few earthquakes
© Delia Ross. 2019
Could Have, Would Have, Should Have
I could have been a lawyer
But I studied instead to mope
I could have loved you better
Now instead I hate you most
I would have wrote a letter
But this poem instead should work
I would have ripped your heart out
And put it on a perch
I should have sought out shelter
When it started to get worse
You should have loved me better
But now instead I’m broke
© Delia Ross. 2019
Last Call
I hid my heart so it wouldn’t get stolen
I got an injury and now it is swollen
Can feel it throbbing though it never was open
I stored it away so it wouldn’t get broken
It’s never been loved and I’m not even joking
Now it’s getting late and the window is closing
© Delia Ross. 2019
If
If you never leap
Our hearts will never be fulfilled
I will slowly be climbing
This hill until I’m killed
If you never wake
I will always stay asleep
Trapped in a nightmare
With only fear that I can reap
If you never jump
My heart will always be on stall
Waiting on a spark
Where no one ever heeds the call
If you don’t believe
I will never love at all
You may take in hope
But it’s likely that I’ll fall
© Delia Ross. 2019
Things
I don’t need a fancy dress, I don’t need a king
I don’t want a gold headdress, or a diamond ring
I won’t ever make you guess, just keep me near your wing
A kiss or two though I confess, would make me feel something
© Delia Ross. 2019
Pieces
Here, here are all the pieces
I’ve donated them to you
For you to assemble and mend
I’ve signed all official forms & releases
Your package will soon be in view
It’s stamped and addressed to you my friend
Hopefully you can teach me what peace is
My heart is now yours to attend to
Please make all this loneliness end
© Delia Ross. 2019
Viral Outbreak
I’ll never be anything to anyone you see
I’m not even certain I’m anything to me
I can’t sell you on something I do not believe
God didn’t equip me with eyes that can see
But he gave me the ability to feel
I feel it all without being able to heal
This was never ever part of the deal
It’s like daily I’m having to bow down and kneel
But not for you and not for him
A vast ocean without the knowledge to swim
A country on decline and it’s all looking grim
I’m tired of aching with a broken limb
Everything I do is a potential mistake
Every move I take another reason to ache
Any chance I give you just another heartbreak
Love it needs a vessel like a viral outbreak
© Delia Ross. 2019
Sad Empty Pathetic Lives
One from my private vault, and from two years ago (April 2017). Completely raw and untouched for April Poetry Month.
sad empty pathetic lives… what reruns they are
he’ll never have my love or respect again. he’ll never have my forgiveness and he’s never going to be worthy of my friendship.
but now, to get up and move again… i need to mend.
sometime in the years end
i need to mend
sometime in the years end
i’ll need a friend
you said you would never hurt me again
a weight off my shoulders
yet seven feet in…
sometime in the years end
i need to mend
sometime in the years end
i’ll cry again
behind those large blue eyes
a monster lurks
never a day that ends-
always at work
he said he would never hurt me again
he said he would never
i hate you
and no amount of time
will ever change that
you know what you are,
you know what you did
how would you think
i’d not wish you dead
how did you think
i’d not wish you dead
i need silence inside my head
but there’s violence inside your bed
how did you think i’d not wish you dead
sad empty pathetic lives… what monsters they are
lurking and lusting and
draining souls
i will never relinquish control
i was head deep in
before i could swim
i’m learning how to live again
i’m learning how to live
oh for a brief moment you made me believe
in a fairytale
(but you’re really a monster from hell, tell tell)
oh ye sloth
you were treated like a king
even out of cloth
and lying on your knee
one or two or a thousand
how many hearts now bleed?
i didn’t want to be her, i plead
but you’re still not listening
you have no heart, you see
oh, and good luck on the baby
what hurts most of all, i believed you
and the thing that hurts most is, you knew all along
you knew
this is cruel deception
you are evil incarnate
the dead, risen again
he has no soul
(might as well call me a widow, i’m mourning my soul
the death of my heart)
nocturnal mourning
every morning
i should have seen
all the warnings
hating you is the only way to get through, it’s the only way i will survive. but is it wrong to hate a monster?
© Delia Ross. 2019
Lies
It doesn’t stop the ache
At night when I’m awake
Or morning’s when I’m broken
And words are barely spoken
My eyes will say I’m fine
Even if I’m on decline
You’ll never see me crying
But now you know I’m lying
© Delia Ross. 2019
Ingredients for Ruin
Pulled straight out from the mire
One sweet heart now gone sour
Leave it to cower for an hour
Diminish the balance of power
Make it feel your fire
Left unattended it should expire
© Delia Ross. 2019
Lines
I never know when it is that I’ll cross a line
Between each state, my next mistake, or maybe when I rhyme
It’s guaranteed, I will succeed, it shouldn’t take much time
I’ve been practicing since I was young like I’m meeting a deadline
Some would even say that I was born without a spine
It’s difficult to receive help even if I hold a sign
If given any choice they’d likely toss me with the swine
Do they know it’s not the mud from which I begrime
© Delia Ross. 2019
Transfer Request Pending
I’ve never had anyone look at me the way they look at her
Although I am fully grown I must be an amateur
I wonder when they look at me I appear to be a blur
Similar to a black hole, is there nothing to observe?
Many times I have been told I’m just not what they prefer
But why do they always get to decide what is that I deserve?
I applied to move to Mars, I hope they put in my transfer…
© Delia Ross. 2019
Emotional Cargo
I wish I didn’t know what it is that I know
I’d stop myself from going down a path I never grow
Then I’d never sneer when I see an old photo
I’d never ever wonder who I’d be without the woe
I wish I didn’t know what it is that I know
I’d stop myself from packing all of this emotional cargo
I seem to carry it with me no matter where it is I go
I’d gladly give it to you but there’s no place left to stow
© Delia Ross. 2019
HEADCASE
Mostly clear with periodic downfalls
You can reach out but I’m ignoring most calls
If you drop by might find me clawing the halls
I’d communicate but my voice it just stalls
I don’t want to go out or browsing the malls
Just say goodbye, it’s better to avoid any pitfalls
© Delia Ross. 2019
Rejection
Tired of dudes hitting on me and then rejecting me
Most of them probably need a vasectomy
They shouldn’t make children no matter the necessity
I’m over you and that’s a guarantee
© Delia Ross. 2019
UNAVAILABLE
I’ll never be available to you in any capacity
The feeling is mutual, I’ll fuck off rapidly
Tired of being shamed for my hospitality
You’ll never have my adoration and that is reality
© Delia Ross. 2019
Tomb
She laid down her head on top of his tomb
It’ll quickly be over, it’ll be over soon
She’d been planning for days, it’ll happen by noon
Finally time for a nap, resting below is her groom
© Delia Ross. 2019
RSVP Declined
Why send an invitation if it’ll just be declined
I want to be seen but I stand with the blind
Every rejection makes me more aligned
I still look confused though I’ve made up my mind
You warned you were bad but you are the worst kind
Oh teacher, oh teacher why’d you leave me blue
Another desertion what more can I do
We barely had started but now we are through
I may have been late but I can’t outrun you
Give me the full movie not just the preview
© Delia Ross. 2019
Sad Parade
I can think of better things to do than to march in a sad parade
They wanted to demote me and give me a lower grade
Slow it down they said, you ain’t working to get paid
Your life doesn’t concern me, you’ll be charged if you complain
© Delia Ross. 2019
DEPRESSED 101
My depression is working overtime and charging me extra. Can’t bribe him with a day off no matter the weather. Told him to get moving but he dropped the anchor. This lake is filled with tears and I ain’t getting better. I put it in a memorandum and even wrote it in a letter. He just laughed at me, shouted, and gave the middle finger. The only way I can quiet him is with some liquor. He follows me every year but here’s the kicker.
He mirrors me and worries me and is in every picture. The funny thing, the longer he dreams, the less I remember.
© Delia Ross. 2019
Love Story
It’s a love story from the dead to the dead
Rotating cyclones of he said, she said
It isn’t what I meant here’s what I mean instead
Constantly sending each other gifts of dread
You wanted to be heard, now your face is turning red
But I’m sorry, you’re sorry, it’s all we ever had
Now we’re feeling worse, we are always feeling bad
Our circles quickly dropping unless we stopped trying to add
Try to greet you all and you respond like you are mad
I’m certain all I wanted was for us feeling a tad less sad
Actions and words never meeting in the middle
And every single wound leaves us all so very brittle
Consequences come at you hard to read like a riddle
But everyone thinks they know how to love just a little
You swear it isn’t you but here it comes another missile
I know we’re all in hell it doesn’t take a degree
You’re always on the run, you barely ever take a knee
I know I’m paranoid the devil’s always after me
Blinding us with hate or lust I can’t convince you all to see
I’m just curious if any of you really do feel free
You build these walls and cages but who do they protect
You haven’t convinced me that your life is so perfect
I wonder if any of you clearly understand yet
It’s doubtful though so I’m passing on this bet
I’ll try again and maybe this time I will be more direct
Okay another verse, perhaps a message you can understand
None of this can work if we don’t give a helping hand
I live here, you live there, we all share this land
Love is not something to hoard, set it free unmanned
Love it knows the way so let it lead our command
© Delia Ross. 2019
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Heart Failure
All my plans haven’t gone away
They’ve really just been delayed
People they fret I can’t explain
They all just sort of strayed
It’s not my style to beg or plead
I sometimes require aid
They all want something from me
I have nothing for trade
Many years spent on this journey
Every direction came a grenade
You tell a different story
That isn’t the life that you portrayed
Why do you get all the glory
While I’m prisoner in this stockade
No need for you to hurry
My heart rotted and decayed
© Delia Ross. 2019
Love Is
Love is-
Leading them to an empty well
Deserting us someplace in hell
Love is-
Building them up before they fall
You never loved any ever at all
Love is-
Demanding devotion eternal to you
Lying no matter what you have to do
Love is-
Tainting everything you touch
I really never loved you much
© Delia Ross. 2019
Permanent Winter
She owed them a pretty picture
Her soul was pretty injured
She sold it but never got richer
She kept it hid under a fancy fixture
The ones who buy it always get triggered
Pointing at you with their middle finger
Too far away you can’t hear them whisper
The season there is a permanent winter
With a sign that reads “winner winner”
You’ve been fed that lie since you were a beginner
© Delia Ross. 2019
Invisibility
Both of us lost what neither could win
Choosing to struggle over complying
But I guess you know best, why else were you spying
Maybe after her you simply gave up ever trying
Some may live close but they aren’t as gratifying
The effects won’t last long, about as quick as when you’re flying
You know I’m always right, there’s never need for clarifying
In these words I fight because you’re so electrifying
I need for you tonight to realize that I’m dying
To die never loved it sounds so very terrifying
I’m leaving this for you it’s why I’m always writing
You already live a beautiful life, it’s why I’m never prying
It’s a bit unfair, I’m invisible, you’ll never catch me crying
© Delia Ross. 2019
Community Chest
Conversations you’d rather have with somebody else
Written so many lines there’s none even left
I wish this pain could be stored on a shelf
Left with a label for another to regret
No expiry date, no value for theft
Just a community chest for the depressed
© Delia Ross. 2019
Cross Your Mind
Crossed our wires, wrong hands for hire
and now they’re blaming me
Shooting blanks and loading tanks
with riots in the street
I’d rather bid my precious hours
where two lovers greet
And if it seems it’s worth my time,
perhaps I’ll move my feet
Into the light, we sail tonight
I brought for us a treat
You’re feeling sour, my mood can tower
it’s best that we shall meet
I promise skies, and never lies
we can be discrete
You can’t deny, I’m on your mind
I think that’s pretty neat
© Delia Ross. 2019
Just a Number
Congrats, you make me feel just like a number
Can’t hear my voice for the crowd and thunder
It’s time I put my soul to slumber
Touching me must have been a blunder
Would you even notice if I fell under
My dreams of you are full of wonder
My heart it aches being just a number
© Delia Ross. 2019
Never Thought
She never thought she could again feel
Her heart was paralyzed with fear
His words weighed heavy & cut through steel
Wounds so deep one had to kneel
It never seemed the wounds would heal
The lessons never appeared clear
Just gashing pain brought from his spear
The crowd behind him full of cheer
Lashing out at you every year
She must hate him a great deal
© Delia Ross. 2019
Sheepskin
Falling, falling, falling again
Into another vortex I spin
Down, down, down I’ve been
So far below there’s no light within
The pressure it builds & rattles my skin
It’s like a daily battle I’m in
The system is built for it to win
Remember the enemy is in sheepskin
© Delia Ross. 2019
Love & Whiskey
I grew up on Tennessee whiskey
Tequila Sunrise, Bloody Mary, Long Island Iced Tea, daiquiris
I’ll have love on the rocks please
© Delia Ross. 2019
Shadows
I would never take the spotlight from you
I will follow your shadow, I already do
If you fall behind, I’ll a clear path to get through
No obstructions shall impede your view
In your honor, I’d erect a statue
That’s probably something you already knew
A shadow always exposes what’s true
Just look how long my shadow grew
© Delia Ross. 2019
Love Is Always On
It’s the age of constant distraction
Beauty defined by plastic fashion
Such savagery over the next caption
Going to extremes to prove an action
Hate on the menu for us to ration
One kiss you’ll learn he fakes the passion
His love is always on automation
An impeccable liar, the best in the nation
A list of broken souls should be confirmation of his vocation
He’s never been out of rotation
I hope death will be his next vacation
© Delia Ross. 2019
Seek Me, See Me Not
Seek me, see me not
500 meter target, take your shot
Get your line set up, don’t get caught
Better hope it’s worth what you thought
Here I am, in your sight
Too much rain, may cause blight
You want a lick then take a bite
Practice wounding hearts like a ceremonial rite
© Delia Ross. 2019
Community Garden
His smile will make a flower bloom
Like sunshine hitting over you
It feels a bit like morning dew
While burying your sorrows in a tomb
His smile is a community garden
Your wounds he will certainly pardon
He can make a heart unharden
It’s like my soul he’s always guarding
© Delia Ross. 2019
If These Were Last Moments
I don’t know if this will get through to you
I don’t know that I can quilt the right words
If these were last moments I’d run out of fuel
Now’s a good time to listen while still
Surrounded by people, unsound energies accrue
Negative actions come at you in herds
They’ll tell you a diamond doesn’t start out a jewel
Poisoned so slowly you never feel ill
Whispers and laughters “we know you’ll pull through”
On and on it’s always pain you move towards
I guess I’d want you to know you are cruel
For inviting me to climb then kicking me downhill
© Delia Ross. 2019
Ten After Sunset
Pain after sunset
denial and regret
It’s now ten after sunset
you haven’t admitted anything yet
Blame during sunrise
But never a tear in your eye
Aim for shock and surprise
It’s so much better when they cry
Shame morning and afternoon
You’ll catch him singing the same ole tune
Same lying up under the moon
He wasn’t born with a silver spoon
© Delia Ross. 2019
Tight Ropes
Such tight ropes we weave and trample
A love like yours I deserve to sample
Your flame is brighter than any candle
There’s not much that we couldn’t handle
I’ve never seen a face like yours
I’ve seen them all and lived through war
Walked every land, touched distant shores
You’re the only body I want to explore
© Delia Ross. 2019
Trial-sized Regrets
Smirnoff nips
Packet of mints
Old travel sets
Lips hardly blessed
Trial-sized regrets
Candy cigarettes
Trails of fur & feathers
That’s our time together
Girl you still don’t matter
I know it’s hard to fathom
No forever after
Hearts he’ll always shatter
© Delia Ross. 2019
#PoeEternal
Copperhead
Like a snake he will shed
images that fill your head with dread
Under disguise in a flower bed
hissing & denying anything he’s said
Ole Copperhead is seeing red
He’s like an atomic warhead
A nasty fungus here to spread
disease & lies & pure bloodshed
© Delia Ross. 2019
Fields of Gratitude
Dark hair brown-eyed boy
get to know me
There are fields of gratitude to plow
The crown of my joy
and topic of every story
With you anything I’ll allow
© Delia Ross. 2019
Depression
Standing near a cliff waiting for the wind to blow
Years I must be waiting time is moving very slow
Lost so many hours no longer know where to go
Might have heard you shouting, guess I’ll never ever know
Always seeing others with someone on their side
Leaning towards the edge, no one even says goodbye
Even broke a rib on my own trying to climb
The pain so excessive I think I’d really rather die
© Delia Ross. 2019
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