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Thank you for 12k!

You are fabulous! Thank you for visiting my blog and reading my words! Thanks for your likes, comments or shares! Thank you for returning to read more! Thank you for following me if you are! I am grateful for each and every one of you no matter where you are in the world! It means so much to me that you take the time to read my poetry.

Here is a quick thank you video because I wanted to be able to tell you verbally how much it means! You also get a chance to meet me very briefly. But I will be posting more soon on my YouTube as I am venturing into spoken word despite having a very bad case of stage fright! Direct link to my thank you video is here: https://youtu.be/IcNLKgwjL_U

12,000 visits!!! I LOVE YOU!!! MORE WORDS COMING!!

p.s. I’m aware this should have probably been completed at 10k but I am always late to the party! =)

Unrequited Love

I love him like a breeze passing me by in the spring
Like a cathedral in the night with secrets in its beam
Like a sailor clinging tightly to a raft in the sea
I love it when I’m down and he lifts me on his wing
Or how when he smiles after looking right at me
That’s the best gift he could ever bring

I love him like the art you can’t afford to buy
Or when he leans in closely so I can hear him sigh
Like the last delicious bite in the best homemade pie
Or the breathing moon in a mostly cloudy sky
I love him best when both his eyes are dry
I love him, even though for us, there will only ever be “hello” and “goodbye”

Fell

I lived, I died, and I didn’t concur a thing
Even love evaded me
When angels fall, they don’t have a wing
But I fell, so I could hear him sing
I broke, for he is a king

Shadows

I don’t have alot to sustain me
I guess that it probably shows
I always prefer the shadows
This is the cons and pros

You can find me under a tree
Writing a bit of prose
I am a living zombie
Trying not to decompose

I live near the sea
I love how the wind blows
I listen gently
And think of him I suppose

Words

Words got my tongue
Down deep they run
Rushing into sun
That’s where you’re from

Sundown

I love you best in waning light
When all conditions are so right
While conversation eats the night
How darkness takes away the blight
You whisper in my ear instead of fight

I love you best in silhouette
When real life hasn’t struck us yet
The resting world is on reset
But darling, this is our Corvette
You know the best to come is here to get

I love you best before sunrise
When all the world’s before your eyes
Where dreams are ours to analyze
There’s never pain, and never lies
It’s where the fever rest and darkness dies

Consequences

People grow, people change
You can stall or rearrange
But the journeys all the same
And mostly people are to blame

We can fight or we can pray
Or we can find another way
But the dark will come to play
Death will come to all one day

Was it worth all these fears
That you brought all these years
We’re living ghosts with too many tears
It’s like I’m speaking on deaf ears

Alien

What message are they trying to send?
Is it even a lesson I can comprehend?
Why do I always feel so alien?
I know you’re speaking English but I don’t understand

Arms are flaring, lips uncaring, that’s not even my name!
Now I’m under threat, and this is not a fucking game!
You’re yelling, acting crazy, saying that I’m insane

Battles come at you and it’s important for knowing
I know I’m marching right but the exits where I’m going!
Pick your battles wisely or they’ll constantly be flowing

Reflections

I saw you in the reflection of my smile; decided to linger around awhile
It’s not the same as living in denial; not by a long-mile

40 Years

40 years been packing and on the explore
Can hear his cries bounce off the distant shore
Stranded in deserts and pulling on my core
I would go there, if only for the lore
But I would search for forty more
If it meant I’d find his door

Net It

I would give you all and not even sweat it
Every single word and not even regret it
I would lose it all so you can net it
There’s space for healing if you let it

Nine Lives

I’ve lived so many decades
I’ve lived a hundred lives
I’ve let down so many faces
I’ve met a thousand knives
I’ve ran around in places
Where nothing else survives
The weight of my own cases
Carry all of my nine lives

Distance

I don’t understand how it is we’ve got so far
The distance so demanding I can’t get there by car
Spiraled out to feed you and you turned into a star
Everything erupted now I’m feeling so bizarre

Fort Worth

I will follow you like budding winds wherever they may blow
We can get there quickly or else we can take it slow
I know we both are driving, but to what direction though?

Time we’re always biding and how much no one can know
Some never realizing we don’t choose the highs and lows
Death can waltz right by, and what shall be our final pose?

I can feel my body dying or perhaps I’m paranoid
Been functioning in life like I’m a rusted, broken droid
T.V. on at night, and they proclaim an asteroid

I want to follow you maybe until the end of Earth
Sunlight from your body puts my soul through a rebirth
But, still, to me you’re worth more than the gold that they secure within Fort Worth

My Favorite Lie

It’s what I tell myself to get by, my favorite lie
And one I never use but on myself

If said with a sigh, it’s likely I’ll cry
So I smile and draw a cross upon my chest

There may be a time, I hid more in rhyme
But now there’s really only one left

If put in a book, I know you would look
So I hid the only one on my shelf

Trying to Forget

You’re coming to town, I heard in the news
You mention her name, it gives me troubling blues
I’ve been that girl, and I’ve fell in her shoes
I forget why I care or how I still hate you
They don’t think I’ve moved on and it’s probably true

But I don’t want you back, I’m the one who left
And the only one who apparently felt
It makes no difference now how many women you get
I was number one and your best asset
I spend all of my time just trying to forget

Lesson Number One

The first lesson in life there’s not a soul you can depend

You’re standing on a slope and you think you have some friends

You see an edge of hope and you try to rope it in

You have a moment, feast on it, and hope it never ends

You build it up, then break it down, and wish it works as it intends

Laughing all the way while you write your long amends

This will be enough, you hope, to finally settle all the winds

Soon you’ll find it shocking there’s even less who attends

Apparently you’re not the only one who pretends

You shouldn’t ignore lessons that the uni recommends

I gave it to you straight but you took a thousand bends

Now you have a list of a lot of ex-girlfriends

Nothings Impossible

No I don’t dream, I beam with possibility
As fragile of a thing it may seem

There are things better than a king
A princess no, heaven maybe

Of things that I see and feel
Even you can make me kneel

These things count to zero
When I see you as a hero

Underneath your mask and cape
A gentle heart and one that aches

There is a girl who can fix the scrape
She may even cause you a few earthquakes

Revive

You take as if I never meant to give
You retreat when nows the time to really live
You forget when all I ask is you forgive
You shine a light when the coast it isn’t clear

I regret but I’ll change another year
You can fret but I’m still around to cheer
I did laugh but instead you saw a tear
We could try but you took a different road

Our lives tied to the lies that we sold
I could love but I’m really not that bold
Their touch it has always been so cold
It was never a dwelling where I could survive

I live in a shell but I’m barely alive
My feet are planted and ready to thrive
I may be depressed but I’ll likely revive

Happy Mother’s Day

The year was 1995, I was 18 and my child was only nine months old here. There aren’t many photos left that exist of us due to fires, moves, terrible exes, etcetera etcetera. It was a lifetime ago. I was someone else. Whole. Not broken.

Could Have, Would Have, Should Have

I could have been a lawyer
But I studied instead to mope
I could have loved you better
Now instead I hate you most

I would have wrote a letter
But this poem instead should work
I would have ripped your heart out
And put it on a perch

I should have sought out shelter
When it started to get worse
You should have loved me better
But now instead I’m broke

Last Call

I hid my heart so it wouldn’t get stolen
I got an injury and now it is swollen
Can feel it throbbing though it never was open
I stored it away so it wouldn’t get broken
It’s never been loved and I’m not even joking
Now it’s getting late and the window is closing

If

If you never leap
Our hearts will never be fulfilled
I will slowly be climbing
This hill until I’m killed

If you never wake
I will always stay asleep
Trapped in a nightmare
With only fear that I can reap

If you never jump
My heart will always be on stall
Waiting on a spark
Where no one ever heeds the call

If you don’t believe
I will never love at all
You may take in hope
But it’s likely that I’ll fall

Things

I don’t need a fancy dress, I don’t need a king
I don’t want a gold headdress, or a diamond ring
I won’t ever make you guess, just keep me near your wing
A kiss or two though I confess, would make me feel something

Pieces

Here, here are all the pieces
I’ve donated them to you
For you to assemble and mend

I’ve signed all official forms & releases
Your package will soon be in view
It’s stamped and addressed to you my friend

Hopefully you can teach me what peace is
My heart is now yours to attend to
Please make all this loneliness end

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