Tag: society

Stay (rant & rhyme)

June 1st, 2023

“Made in China” and should stay there
Like your feelings, I just don’t care

Kayaking all by your lonesome?
Not cuz you’re wholesome?

Those who play by the rules are the mark
I’ve got out my chalk
Refuse to talk
Right hand my glock
Born out of wedlock
Married to my walk

He thinks she should be paroled
Once she is dead

I’ve spent all my life
In captivity

Love will never blossom here again
Tie the knots
And tie the endless twigs
But love –
It won’t blossom here

Sleep in a cloud of prayer
Like running into a server farm
Have no idea if I have come to harm?
Like sleeping on a prayer
With halo in my hair
I’m so dumb I will sound the alarm

So I’m just baggage
Armed with a camera
Can do some damage
It’s an advantage

Centenarian
Want to live to then

He said it’s safer
In the lion’s den
Like hate is my neighbor
But he ain’t friend

Father,
There’s almost nothing left
My sister is dead
I’m bereft
Sick in the head
Near out of breath
Got money in the bulkhead

Compartments upon compartments
Secret dirty pockets

He’s a no outlet
I’m driving full speed
Like he’s a preacher for me to confess
But he’s a no outlet

Am I walking to the gate of resentment
Where there’s no contentment
I am so relentless
It’s a consensus

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal.

Below: rant and rhyme

Shriveling into nothingness

Weighed in at 108 pounds today despite eating $100 dollars worth of Cracker Barrel over the last 3 days.

My new small clothing is already too big, and the extra small are loose. Extra extra small exists but I’m probably too fat for it.

108 pounds because “my labs are fine” despite cancer eating me alive

Medical malpractice is common

I don’t want anywhere near a hospital when dying

And like Bob, I would call 9/11 and hang up.

I recently did that, after giving my 201? (location) and she had the audacity to ask me the location.

I responded, “I just fucking told you” and click.

Call disconnected

I did not answer the return

And spoke with the cop when he arrived who informed me that “all of Daytona is bad. Move.”

My lease is up in April

I really don’t want to renew

I also don’t know where to move?

I need land (1-5 acres and a down payment of like a lot)

Can you start dropping coordinates

Of potential places

Where there aren’t many faces

I’m stuck in stasis

Skipping over bases

We’re tied just like laces

Let the sign read faceless

Erasing traces

Following the void

God is gracious

But my neighbors are so racist

I ain’t complacent

Need new spaces

(Help pretty please)

I hope TikTok gets banned

I made my account private and uninstalled the communistic spy app cuz I’m in trouble again for sharing LGBT fashion and stating I was boycotting it

My hate extends all the way to “Made in China”

Stamp it

Engrave it

I fucking hate it

The Great Wall of deceit

WordPress too

The phone is dead come September

Don’t want a new

Not dropping $500+ every two years to be punished on social media

Literally ready to just disappear

By Uncle Sam

My parents are still alive but I don’t know their phone or address

Like a kid, I feel helpless

Acting out of will

Guess I’m growing feckless

Avoiding road of reckless

And feeling so desperate

Just need a quiet place to rest

Maybe God’s chest?

I love him the best

God 1st

Fuck AI

Stop training the AI

I will fuck him up

The Chinese will use AI to commit crime as they are attempting to avoid karma

I do not comply

With any change happening

You fucking asshole

You voted for Biden eh

And have the audacity to say “I can’t trust you”

Oh do-do

I can’t be in the same room as a man

Hardly any women

99.9% of the population denounced God

Stop gaslighting you soulless pricks

“I’m not having children”

Yeah cuz you are bad witch

Nihilist

You all went grey in your 30s

Cuz you removed yer sex organs

For plastic

To look like you’re about to have a baby

But you can’t

And are not

And I’m still bleeding

My life was stolen from me

God feels pain

The dog is driving me insane

I know who is to blame

There’s only one name on my blacklist

*insert shit that could hurt me in the future*

So which path do I take?

Revenge or forgiveness?

It ain’t none of your business

Sincerely as your witness

Kisses sealed with suspicious

Pepper sprayed cuz I’m vicious

What if all these freckles on my body are shadow burns from other stars we can’t actually see cuz our own Sun

Like how the shadow of people were burned into the wall when they were nuked

Like an xray

A mirror reflecting the cosmos

If we could really leave earth, we would

Man killed the dinosaurs

6th mass extinction

You’re gonna burn in hell

For all eternity

Reincarnation is another word for cloning

*sigh* I spend so much time fixing the algorithm

And don’t get paid for it

I no longer answer surveys or give my opinions

Unless you gonna $$$$ me

I’m not racist, I just don’t like you

Be someone worth liking

You’re a walking HollyWood soundbar

Propaganda is all you spew

Cox and his cocks, I mean clocks

Science is nihilism

I wish the dog was dead

I want my life back

Sorry not sorry

People changed him

I’m a passive nihilist in recovery

God save me

But the darkened ones in Generica

The majority

I don’t want to save

Would step back from my own family in flames

Have done and did

Regrets? Oh yeee

Going dark for 6 months or so

There are demons running this world

Satan’s domain

I’ve overstayed my welcome

Losing faith but seldom

Sharpening it like weapon

Cuz devil is depression

As above so below

You ever worry about just being ones and zeros

Like Pinocchio hoping for a soul

Like jumping in a hole

I ran out of stories of cave dying

And have moved onto “crocodile’s eating humans”

I’ve done some seriously dangerous shit as a teen

Nothing like jumping off a ship into shark infested waters at night

This one guy wanted to visit the nudest colony in Death Valley

By miracle he was rescued

But opted a second time to go again

HE DIED

There is a pattern with the seconds

Like how I got the second shot

I’m at risk for Adult Sudden Death syndrome

My immune system was compromised

I’m alive by sheer will and the grace of God

If I knew I only had X amount of time remaining

I’d probably exact my revenge

It’s extremely hard walking a path of holy

In the devil’s land

What dimension are we in again?

It’s a proven fact that Gen Y and Z are dumber than previous generations

I can’t relate to anyone but Gen X and him and him

Him and Him – new book name

I identify as a GIRL

Men cannot have babies

Everybody is a fucking pedo

Fuck LGBT

Fuck TikTok

Fuck “Made in China”

The cops: indecent exposure

Me: the clothes make me burn

Cotton or au gratin?

Apparently most cheese isn’t cheese

Why does God spare some and not others?

Potential?

Not an NPG?

Anything that can happen does and will

Possibility?

Both wave and particle

Timeline jumping

I was going at least 80 miles an hour when I moved into the middle-lane at the exact moment thousands of hands of lightning struck my Jeep, all 4 windows down, arm out

“Fuck” I cried as I whipped my arm in and looked through my rearview and side mirrors taking my foot off the pedal

The sound deafening

Lightning touched my arm

The whole Jeep was surrounded by arms of lightning

God is behind every miracle

Deny him three times no never

My love you can never sever

God gave me the cosmos

Man gave me counseling

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Blocking wars

May 29th, 2023

Just commented, “your laugh is annoying” and hit the block

I got zero fucks

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Dear Boomers

May 24th, 2023

Do you know where your children are?

The commercial aired to our Boomer parents cuz they should all ~~be crucified~~ burn in hell

By the way, Mother & Father, do you know where I am?

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Over 4500 followers on the TikTok

May 21st, 2023

The TikTok

I’m just some gal from the deep south

Oh wait

Deep South should be capitalized but not earth

Why is earth not a noun

Whatev

The follows are still coming in today

Also reached over 37.5k “likes”

I don’t use fancy setups or lighting or filters

But will probably start posting rebounding and skate content for summer!

Along with complaining

It’s what I do best

But folks are trying to take me down in tricky ways

And I’m still recovering from CUD

And this cancer

2 days zero weed or vape or edibles

Not caving

Gotta clean the lungs

No more smoking

No more drinking

No more disassociating

Tough days

Not even allowed sugar or bread but haven’t fixed my diet completely

Cuz I need to hire a maid to deep clean my kitchen

I don’t know what’s holding me back from doing it

Maybe because I’m dying and have so little energy

But hopefully can show off my cute outfits from Dolls Kill soon

Embarrassing the mess currently

Took an assbeating on TikTok because of it but some have commented I’m adorable

The drafts will probably get deleted

I will post more cute booty content when I recover mentally from all the weight I lost

Itty bitty again

I want to be God’s favorite

But squirrel is so cute

And red bird

Woody has been quiet

So glad I captured him pecking when I did

I’m kinda homebound because every time I go out a cop gets involved

I think the last one wanted to prepose? To me

Proposal propose

The fucking algo makes it harderwith a brain injury but I hit space

Fuck you

Stumbling with speech more cuz brain rewiring itself with zombie weed

Know what I want to say, can’t get it out

A band is getting ready to play from a big race thing

I can hear it miles away

NIN was supposed to come

Now it’s Tool and Pantera and some others coming

Heard on the radio

I was like “too bad I ain’t supporting shit anymore”

Maynard’s a fucking dick

The cop told me to move

It’s unsafe to venture out

And I’m pro 2a and won’t think twice to shoot your shadow

Ohh poem thingy please

Also, if I reach 10k in this lifetime, I’m one goal away from turning on video gifts

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Passion of the Christ

May 21st, 2023

Y’all remember Jim Caviezel?

He wants to know where the pope is?

He wants to know if you would lose your head for Christ?

He states, we have to go after the octopus head – not just the tentacles

He also played a role in “the stoning of” (sara?)

Basically a husband was cheating and got his wife murdered by burying her alive – up to her neck – and having her children throw the first stones at her head

This practice is still legal

He didn’t want to pay child support or something

Accused her of a death penalty – something he was doing

Anyhoo

I can still like him as an actor and person

I mean he played Christ

Kinda hard to probably take off that role

Jesus imprinted in him and me

But read the good book full of propaganda and lies?

Uhm no

It’s Satanic

I collect Bibles tho

Some falling apart

Some extremely tiny with a lock

You ever try selling a Bible during end times?

I can’t seem to part with them?

Via donation, sale, or trash

Or is is sell?

I’m selling something

I have a sale

Hmmm it’s nearly 4 am

I’m glad it wasn’t just a role for Jim

“Fighting with all their hearts but don’t have a voice”

He’s talking about me

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRESeVYn/?t=1

“Would you lose your head for Christ”

What does he mean?

Like not deny him?

He states he thinks about John all the time

“What would John do”

Yeah same – different John’s tho – same but not

He did not die in vain

If anything, he’s my compass down here in this hell

We both think about John all the time (same but not)

John the Baptist was always a favorite from the B

Jim might be part of the 244

Somewhere in the 244 is Christ

God is love

You mean get crucified? Fairly certain society shames me for being a light-bringing angel

They want the world covered in darkness – nihilism

6th mass extinction

Narcissism is a plague

Society is a scam

I hope I get well enough to marry a good man

Man has failed me

Searching black holes is nihilism

Segregation from God

Gonna expose you all

Deliver the head of Satan

Toss it at God’s feet

“I’m home”!

Literally got chills

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Cops forming gangs in LA

May 20th, 2023

Cops forming gangs in LA

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTREkbgHN/?t=1

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Cash App founder Bob Lee attended underground sex, drug parties with sister of his alleged killer

May 16th, 2023

Cash App founder Bob Lee attended underground sex, drug parties with sister of his alleged killer
— Read on nypost.com/2023/05/14/cash-app-founder-bob-lee-attended-underground-sex-drug-parties-with-sister-of-his-alleged-killer/amp/

And the plot thickens

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Invalid Date

May 14th, 2023

Nitrogen narcosis
Dead roses
Lost hope like Moses
Wandering desert hopeless
Some nights we’re frozen
Like unfocused locust
We’re losing focus
Gave God diagnosis
Humanity atrocious
I guess this is us?
The depths that we cross?
Tell God all is lost?

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.

Maybe you can access my domain and maybe you can’t.

Listen, I am the Great Anomaly. But maybe not the only.

244.

I’ve reached out to the Happiness engineers – but I’m never really happy (it’s likely also their fault why I never set up the contact page and things because I get stuck on a step and all hell breaks loose)

I’m drinking ginger currently – it’s spicy

All my clothing from Dolls Kill is fitting – and I’m feeling super cute in said clothes –

My OF ID is poeeternal77 I believe

I deleted my TikTok again – maybe for a day, maybe an hour, maybe a month

Gotta keep em guessing

I don’t pay attention to the hits incoming

I just hit delete notification and uninstall

I hope TikTok gets banned

And Instagram

And PayPal sold your identity out TWICE and then had the audacity to list you as my first contact

We’ve never communicated there

It was an anonymous thang

And like X amount of years later – first contact

I almost paid you back

But I deleted my account instead because I’m fucking psycho

And got tired of the outting and the spam emails

And then the cashapp was mutiliated – not long before Bob was

I don’t know how to spell the word and there is no other suggestion

MUTILATED mutilated

Oh well now I got it

Whatever

Fuck it

“Honey, I’m trying to spell something I know I can spell but can’t”

My mother once said watching TV with the subtitles on “is annoying” (which I need) (it’s not about the volume either)

So I no longer own a TV

My therapist says I’m polarized but the two weren’t related

Just an observation – she’s a cunt

(The Boomer mom)

My last words to her were a text message on Valentine’s circa 2017 (maybe) stating I hope she has a painful death and whatever it is couldn’t be near the pain and suffering she has caused me

And I blocked her and never looked back

Then last year my sister died

And I didn’t go say byeeee to her in the hospital

The Boomer mom will be rolling in her grave – if she ever dies

I wonder often these days should I contact the blood folks

My real father wants to know “if I’m happy”

His sister got her head bit off for reaching out to me

I ghosted my father when I was ten

People say you can’t hate your parents – so then I researched and realized that you could – not only hate your parents – but an entire generation

The Boomers

Who hold most of House

Once people die, there’s literally zero reason to hold onto a grudge

I can’t fix my dead sister and she was a psychopath so death was the only relief

“I think I might drop Cain / like Cain dropped Abel”

Because he was a fucking psychopath

She needed an exorcism and even that might not have saved her

It’s not my job to save you

You gotta save yourself down here

Stop being an asshole

I was gonna drop more poetry but I don’t have anything to type from

The phone can’t even type the letters I press

I got a hacker from India inside my phone

My modem was destroyed

I’m not hitting backspace for letters to disappear

I hate autofill – it pops up but changes to a different word

I spend more time correcting than I do writing

I don’t care if I misspell anymore!

It’s the algo, not me!

More poetry coming soon

P.S. these immigrants don’t care about you. They have invaded our borders and way of life. Stay protected! Your life matters! They are attacking females especially and doing so unprovoked! It’s seems to nearly always be a black person attacking. Black lives matter. White lives don’t. Check the CENSUS, it’s not how they are reporting. And not gossip sites but research shows many Chinese Americans and Mexican’s identify as “the new white”.

CONCERNING

Just gonna erase history huh

Wipe us out, take over

The Great Race war is real

I’m brown and white and not dissing my own race to put up another race – slavery started in Africa and is still going on in Africa and not one white person owns a slave – but black people do

White slavery exists and started with a black person owning a white woman and they condition and break us all!!! They hate us!!!!!

I do not hate white people and I’m tired of the slander against us

No one in my bloodline ever owned a slave

Take money from me for it and there will be consequence

Byeee

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Gotta get this off my chest

May 12th, 2023

Someone posted a tiktok of a 911 call – with a man dying and taking dying breaths

Another user commented it “turned him on”

Also Chicago was overrun by darkness

And the local cop here told me I need to move – “out of Daytona”, “all of Daytona is bad” “I hate to tell you to move” “I hate to lose someone level headed like you”

Well, I’m more reckless than anything – but absolutely still serve my country – I ain’t running away – I practice running a lot though – on my trampoline

Gotta make sure I can wind the Devil

They gonna try and shoot you from the back

Zig zag but with skates?

I don’t miss my shot tho

The Army trained me to hit moving targets 500m back

I’m efficient up to 350m but definitely passed all my skill sets

I ain’t gonna have a skill issue

I was only 4 rounds from expert first time on the 9mil

The hubby got a lot of work to do

“I gotta girl / you want to meet her? / her name is 9mm”

90s hip hop yo

Other men dying – turn men on

Uhm, men hearing babies cry, turns them on

Squirrel

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How is this legal

May 2nd, 2023

Blocking access to your account through the web browser – and re-directing you to the app to install

So – you can’t use a web browser anymore to access TikTok

Only an app – a spy app

There is NO LOGIN option

Only redirect to install the app (no fuck you)

I hope TikTok gets banned

Byeee millions of views

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Pro the TikTok ban despite millions of views

May 2nd, 2023

Someone insulted me

“Your reading comprehension could improve”

So I posted a lip sync video of “Dumb” by Nirvana and I was penalized for “harassment”

I uninstalled the spy app so am disappearing again for six months

I’m pro banning that app and Instagram and FaceBook and let the banks all crash

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Bonds

May 1st, 2023

Bonds come in many forms

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TikTok heat + Boomer logic

April 30th, 2023

The TikTok is still heating up and Boomers don’t like being called Boomers but they make up most of the HOUSE of CONGRESS

Therefore, I will not comply about referring to them as “politicians”.

One replied that they were enjoying their retirement and I told them congratulations, enjoy. All the Boomers will be gone by the 60s.

He probably never looked at it like that (forest for trees) and the comment remains unliked

They say any traffic is good traffic but I did block someone commenting multiple times

I’m very open, exposed, and raw delivering such heavy content such as “I lost half my retirement but it wasn’t because I was stupid, all Gen X did – so I feel slightly worse.”

I’m backing it up with real evidence tho (just not personal statements tho some comments phish for it)

Boomers won’t admit to any wrong doing, ever (prove me wrong).

Gen Y & Z should back X up in the fight to remove the Boomers from HOUSE

My TikTok is #poeeternal or PoeEternal

Thanks for your feedback here and there!

I love having a place to direct my rage: the Boomers

Cause-and-effect

Have fun love 🙂

I’m the Great Anomaly

WOKE

“Take a pill” – NO

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TikTok heat

April 29th, 2023

Dropping complaints and codes on my TikTok and it’s getting some traffic

I’m not an ambassador and I don’t earn a dime

I normally get penalized

Basically calling out the Boomers

Moaning about the retirement age vs the life expectancy age

Cute clothes from a favorite store arrived

Once I get my hair/nails/facial, maybe I’ll try the clothes on

For now, you get to see how utterly stressed I look

I ordered more cute cotton clothing

I kinda can’t keep up with the 12 comments coming in

(I didn’t actually count)

AND

Not everyone is biting my head off

Some are just learning of the Secure 2.0 Act – new retirement age of 75

Through my TikTok

Just got called a whacko! 🙂

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Maths

April 29th, 2023

The probability that scientists have unleashed adaptations is 1000%

Current adaptation: reducing the honeybees lifespan 50% so they would “be more productive”

Make more honey faster but don’t enjoy the time God gave us on earth

Also, they raised the retirement age to 75 in America, “respectively” and no one cares (but me)

Science is nihilism

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How to sum America up

April 20th, 2023

Super nice guy

All eyes on the super nice guy

And I may not live in a high rise

But he’ll end your life

Get back to work

Work through the night

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“He came quickly”

April 15th, 2023

“He came very quickly and then left”

🙂

Sounds accurate

I know I’m not well – it’s just – He left very quickly is all cuz she fell asleep so how could she know anything?

🙂

Are they Iranian? Muslim? Persian?

Now don’t be mad (you will)

But I dug foxholes in Iraq – I saw the salt lines where it had been under water – I stated “this is where Lu fell”

I was in my 20s

(I don’t condone violence but don’t they do stonings still over there)

But my kind is called savages?

Well, I’m starting to believe a Native sold us out to a white man – still MY HOME LAND

And the immigrants are doing honor killings under our policies

“Surprising details”

(They probably won’t tell and I sound racist)

(They’re demons)

(Hush now)

God loves you

Sleep well 🙂

Heart symbol

The comments: https://nypost.com/2023/04/14/nima-momeni-allegedly-killed-cash-app-founder-bob-lee-over-fight-about-sister-court-docs/

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The Sister huh

April 14th, 2023

Oh shit

Wait and he owned a unit there too

*popcorn*

So the killer’s plastic sister is married to a plastic surgeon

AND

Bob saw her

Still, you give up your own life to defend your sister from doing something she wanted to do?

Was he fucking you both?

Oh is this the “surprising details”

Well I’m all in…

Go on…

I don’t hear “great husband” in any of the articles tho

It is better than most movies coming out these days

Let’s expose the tech giant

My imagination is going wild out here

But there’s no one to call when you’re dying? Like he had a phone.

Folks say he could still be around if the car did something

He could have stayed down the first time

I would have found a tree or bashed some windows in

The peace or the chaos

He thought he owned the world at 43

Couldn’t be touched

Was he fucking the brother and the sister tho?

Maybe that would be the better surprising details – if he was bi and all 🙂

I’m allowed to write my poetry and grieve via anger – he ruined Cash App and Android and his marriage and maybe someone else’s?

I’m not going to jail because my sibling was cheating tho

What am I missing? Who got the clue or the unlocked article?

They ain’t getting my .25 – I don’t care how juicy the details get

I ain’t dealing with the devil

It is cheaper than a movie ticket tho but probably still full of ads

I wanna remove them from my blog soon – it’s just I’m protesting WordPress and that prick

Is he next!?! (I don’t condone violence nor want anyone to die)

(But sometimes I laugh when people do)

(I have not laughed at Bob)

(Bob should have kicked his teeth out – or did something with his phone)

(I’m bothered by his deep grip and apparently have an ocd about how he died)

And why did the arrest take so long?

“Came down on you hard”

“Handled it with class”

Last texts

*popcorn*

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Bob’s dead (poetry)

April 14th, 2023

He won’t give his twenty
Claims he is bleeding
Disconnected –
Call is ending
Streets are empty
Can anyone hear Bob screaming?

Angel investor
Married but not together
Machine his predecessor
A wife he couldn’t pleasure

~~All hail AI~~ ~~/ Bob has died~~

Caught stumbling all alone
Gripping his phone
Dripping blood
Like a trail of bones

Stabbed and shunned
Car with hazards on
A billionaire with no gun
City center is fun!

Close enough to be stabbed in the chest twice – with a kitchen knife

Bob was perfect at everything but being a husband eh (gaslighting)

I’m not stupid, Bob. How dare you. “I sleep with men but I’m not gay”. LOL (God)

M’kay whatever ~~you say~~

(This is how I mourn. It’s called the 7 stages of grief. I’m on ANGER)

Seeking help but wouldn’t give the one call your location – fucking lost – on a street you mostly lived – c’mon!!!!

You should have stayed down! The adrenaline spikes got yah!!!!

“Angel investor” NO BRO – DEMON who doesn’t even Tweet or acknowledge women – it’s sharing “bro this”, “bro that” and comments to other boys about “why aren’t you here already” and current posts from said person ain’t shed a tear of your passing

Delusional bro

AI is not the way

White pawns are under attack

White lives don’t matter

Bob, you should have stayed down

Your lovers fake plastic sister living in a 2 million highrise – in the same building you own

I got the popcorn out

You remember the Looking Glass?

God already won

The Devil taking his fine time drawing his last move – getting as many souls as he can – drowning demon

Image is everything to these demons – they wrote the playbook for crying out loud – in the closet gay!!!! He’s ruined the world! His daddy too!

Maybe I’m sorry but maybe I’m not!

Sidenote: they don’t get it – but I inherently get it. I wouldn’t normally either. However, this instance, it’s like a direct arrow to my broken soul. Boom this way to the singularity. No no this way to heaven. It’s like you and I play pull rope (what the hell is that rope game actually called)

I can’t recall JJ’s nn either – and he’s the one who sent it to me through the ether. I was all offended and like “no bro”. He loved it.

I’m trying to quit this Russian weed – my brain needs time to sort the pathways

I mean, if I had a phone, and I needed HELP, I’d like CALL the authorities and like “I’m at a glass building, I’m dying”

He knew them streets like the back of an Android

YOU OUTTA THE CLOSET NOW BRO

Gave it a decade huh then ran back home to live with daddy

GAG

“My best friend”

I wanted to punch my mom when she said that about her first born – as I was the family slave ghosted (triangulation)

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Like why Bob (insensitive content below)

April 13th, 2023

Like why were you walking around there at 2:30 at night?

Sources claim you moved via the crime (you helped create) – but yet returned for work – yet was trolling the streets – assumingely – without a weapon – and was stabbed twice with a kitchen knife – and all you can think to do is cling to your Android – you helped create – and chase after cars – instead of sitting down – stopping the bleeding – at least not putting MORE strain on your heart – but no – you just had to keep getting up and walking around

Like bro

You didn’t call your fam?

If John Jones could squirm in his grave, he would.

Clutching that AI device like it was God

Called the cops – didn’t say where you were or keep the on?

Just hmmm where is everybody at bleeding out?

Let me guess, it went like this

“Hi, I’m Bob, the Cash App founder, I’ve been stabbed. I’m bleeding.” *lifts shirt*

And so the cars drive off

It’s a typical after midnight don’t get involved in scenario – you must have missed the memo?

It’s literally the worse-case-scenario and you walked right in – despite knowing how dangerous California is – which is why you moved to Florida – so you could finish turning it to shit

I know you are “in the closet gay” – I have seen these types of relationships in the military – and billionaires don’t fuck fat wives (maybe out of obligation)

Looking at family photos – zero chemistry – but maybe I’m a kunt

I didn’t stab you with a kitchen knife – twice mind you – at 2:30 am

You didn’t even fight back dressed in fashionable apocalyptic wear?

You had the best and most expensive device – cops still took a slow 6 minutes arriving – despite TWO cops in the area

Bro – I’m researching who I’ve been buying my state weed from – turns out it’s the Russians – surprise!

Anything to quit this nightmare

I knew Cash App and PayPal was going down – like bro – I deleted my accounts – not long ago – and now you’re dead

I saw the red flags

America is under siege and you were bleeding out and going into shock – you might still be here – if you had sat down –

This goes without saying but women no longer can walk in broad daylight without being in danger

“It’s a man’s world” and look what you turned it into

I would have drove away too

My first thought, “safety first” and those circumstances do not scream safe – maybe you would have had more of a chance of getting said help – if you were a nobody

If it was a hit job – which would be an instant thought of “cash” “stabbed” – who would want to get involved and become a victim too? It’s the one thing our Boomer parents warned us about. “Don’t go wandering the streets after sundown”. It was our one curfew. “Be home before dark” and even then we crossed the lines. “Boy you were cutting it close” / “there’s still some pink in the sky”

The Mayor or whoever of Cali is edging us on, “you’ll be surprised” she says “at the details”

Somewhere between Bob dying, another someone got beat with a bat, and the FED launched their version of a Cash App

And Big Cannabis is Big Russia who is changing and gutting our policies

I’m ready to get rid of my phone all together

I mean, Bob helped create Android and Apple share videos on how your phone can save your life – but maybe people need classes on how and when to use it – in an emergency – because Bob was a poster board of all the things Not-To-Do

Bob separated from his wife to move in with his father – how gay (no judgement)

A billionaire living at home with daddy

Not impressed

I watched God push you down

You just kept going

Even dying, wouldn’t drop your phone

~~“In AI we trust”~~

God gave me eyes to see but not a mouth of silk

“I got a mouth of filth”

I’d really like some milk

So another Gen X white male is gone

We’re not allowed to have anything

Yeah you got that nice big house in misery (potentially) but you also got gutted in taxes and I would’ve hung myself with 10 foot rope (which means it was probably a failed suicide where I broke some bones instead)

Wait. What.

(I’m talking to a GenX who may or may not be a genx and is mostly a ghost in my head)

Your dad claims you were his best friend, but he didn’t teach you not to walk the streets at night!?! Unarmed!?!

You could afford to hire a bodyguard?

Have a gun?

Unless the killer wasn’t some random bum or hitman – but instead someone close – who could stab you in the left side of your chest – with a kitchen knife

Was it the same one from dinner?

I’ve been reading how lots of murders happen when people are dining or in the shower – by “loved ones”

Also – in bed – sleeping

Vindictive

Remorseless

No soul

Which makes therapy and treatment useless – for those who can’t change – and should be shot like a bear

And I’m tired of bear getting shot over you

Bear angry

Bear justified

I don’t believe in cultural diversification

I guess Bob didn’t get the memo

Here’s the thing, it will be so easy to take out the civilians we swore to protect – in the end – weaklings – but the enemy is using them against us

That couple got gutted in the street last year

And now poor Bob, with a kitchen knife, in Cali

Ironic he thought Florida was any safer

But then moved out of Cali for it being unsafe – but goes back for a business trip – to wander around the streets after dark –

Elon probably does have security when/if he leaves his Pedo farm

Elon pointed out something in his tweet tho – per chance hinting it was a criminal – someone with a prior arrest sheet – who offed Bob

So you had that phone the whole time and the cops were the only one you called? While dying? Clinging to your phone?

And John didn’t get a second phone call on Thanksgiving

Which was his dying wish

I wouldn’t take my dog out at 2:30 am on the 4th cuz I said “some shit is going down”, “I can feel it in the air”

I guess what I meant was the ether…

“He was my best friend”

My mom said the same thing about my sister, who recently died age 45

Strange, these Boomers are losing their first borns – almost biblical

(Was Bob a first born?)

Diversification is very very bad

Especially when it means other races are being wiped out

Hi. I’m part of the 244.

Anger is a legit mood when someone dies.

It’s part of the 7 stages of grief – interchangeably

I can stay angry for the rest of my life

“Take me from all this death”

She was chasing the Singularity

“I love you too much, to condemn you”

Wiki has already been updated and you’re not cold in your grave

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Some updates

April 11th, 2023

I dunno how I feel about “going live” again – but I probably will start sharing my fitness journey over on Instagram – and if I’m not too shy – will do some casual lives on the TikTok as well

I’m only looking to connect and be “social”, I’m not chasing the algorithm dragon for likes or paying META $15 monthly to be “verified”. Like, I would have paid that ONE TIME – but I’m not spending money to be seen.

I just want to be

I’m getting my fitness room in order and both mystery plants now have green growing (they’re in the window being bashed around by the blinds – wakey wakey)

Yoga & stretching set

Mystery plant 1

Mystery plant 2

Please note that I’m going through some sort of phase where I want to be natural – no makeup, no filters, no fancy dress, no fuss.

I am trying to fix my health, my finances, my diet, my mood, my self-esteem, and last thing I need to worry about is putting on makeup to go live or post when I’m cooking or working out.

It’s just not me.

I don’t want to have to worry about posting 4 times a day (or daily) either

And, I want to answer my inbox when I’m ready and am devoting days to be “social” so that my mood isn’t down and depressed

Furthermore, 95% of my furniture and household is gone.

I’m starting over but also want to be able to jump ship – when God allows

Right now, the enemy has us in a stronghold

Barricaded behind policy

I don’t have the latest XYZ to garner your attention

But I will share fitness tips and how I’m surviving the apocalypse

And thank you to those who have taken interest in seeing me go live again, whether to share the weather or my latest complaint

I took a long detox from social media and have been trying to find myself

I mean, I know I’m lost in purgatory/hell and am paying for my sins in this timeline

And wasted pretty much all of my life

I’m learning to be still

To stretch

Breathe

Exist in harmony with nature

I guess I took the winter hibernating

I’m trying not to climb in my coffin or a hole I can’t climb out of

I thought, how dumb was I to lose half my retirement – but then all of GEN X did –

It did help my depression to a degree (make it worse)

But it wasn’t because I was stupid

We were gutted essentially

Anyhoo, I’m a little seedling

And 4/19 is the last day my medicinal card is any good – and I blocked the doctor both via text and email

Now they’re putting less product in and calling it “head space” (and charging more)

They treat the medical shops like they are recreational

Anyway, I’m trying to get clean

It’s like the devil is coming at me

I don’t have fancy things, but what remains is what I like

I would like to follow you back – and interact – as and when I’m capable

I’m more like a turtle on social media – instead of that blazing fast coyote always getting into trouble

I mourned my social media accounts because I thought I had deleted, deleted them.

I did not.

They are there, for now.

I am #poeeternal on both accounts. My TikTok hashtag has over 20k views alone.

I’m not ready to give up my pseudonym / pen name.

I’m more present these days. More aware.

Thank you for being there.

New account: https://linktr.ee/poeeternal

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Grief changes you

March 21st, 2023

Grief changes you
Strings stay connected
But you find yourself in a new world
Strange unfamiliar settings
The navigation controls glitching
Life will never be the same

This place is cursed
From twilight to dusk
My sins interspersed
The golden hour
Mixed with rust
The dead
Blood and dust
We’re grounds for divorce
His thirst for lust
We speak in morse
Secret code of sin
And it’s getting worse
He’s first of course
For my hatred to enforce
Man’s overrule
His math and wicked verse

Would you hold my wrinkles, the way you hold the cold?
Just like darkness, you both make me old.

My name is on the lease
But this isn’t home
I blocked your identity
But you will never call

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal.

I don’t know what my purpose is. Becoming homeless? Jumping from a bridge?

Giving up on all humanity doesn’t quite feel right.

I wanna work – at least – a tiny bit – but there are roadblocks yet to overcome. Patience is something I’m being forced to learn. I guess I need to check out some library books on patience.

I’m having a hard time quitting legal weed. I never had an addiction to cannabis before. I’m not paying the state to renew my card, or the doctor. That’s one way to force me to quit. I researched. It’s extremely hard and most men get a ton of help to quit. I’ve got faith and prayer and hardly any will (to live) to quit.

I’m tired of the brain fog, the shit don’t work.

I’d rather bury the money I’m wasting on medicinal.

But things are always flooding here and I don’t have my own yard.

Apparently buying a home is not a good time, I’ve also researched.

And good luck finding a plot of land that isn’t surrounded by big farming corporations. YUCK.

America was sold out.

Some grandmother caught her 3 year old grandson watching porn and he knew how to access it

The government makes money off porn

Apparently if you’re a criminal or have a hard time getting a job, the government will give your employer a 5k bond for hiring you. FUCK YOU

Society is a scam

I busted my ass through college – to be met with hiring freezes, furloughs, inflation, and a pandemic with a snake oil cure that wiped out half the workforce – leaving the best jobs to only the very brightest – the immigrants – and the shitty jobs for the rest.

It’s also 60% more expensive to live life solo. Yay!

Porn should be banned from the internet. Period. You fucked it up and should have kept it behind closed doors and black curtains.

Some husband cheating on his wife with his girlfriend recently murdered her – and got 4 years. Men are getting punished less and less for crimes against women.

Meanwhile a wife got 17 years for killing her husband in defense – after begging the government for help.

The Great Replacement theory is real

White slavery

Sexual slavery

It’s sick what my parents did to me and my now dead sister (she was 45) (go mom and ~~dad~~ The One Who Shall Not Be Named)

Because of law Section 230 – violence against women and children on porn sites uploaded go unpunished!!!!!

They make money from it and just remove it when asked! No biggie!!!!

Sick society!

I hated porn in the 90s when it was mostly nude magazines and strip clubs!!!!! They weren’t selling anal sex toys in front of the children at the Mall or Walmart!

Y’all are sick!!!!!!!!!!

I’m very depressed among other things

The poets made WordPress what it was – and now they don’t need us – unless to buy a product.

These companies get the government involved and it loses any magic it had.

Advertising is conditioning and should be illegal.

I’m tired of complaining about this manmade world

They’re all nihilist

95% of them

They’d rather believe a math formula predicting a black hole that shouldn’t be there – is more magical – than life growing itself in the womb.

Pissed off they can’t do it themselves

Don’t want women feeling happy

They think AI is better than women

They think women haven’t contributed to society and quite frankly – they can keep their electricity. At the price, I don’t want it.

I never wanted any of this

We’re born into an unfair system

Where boys get away with murder and get paid more than us (and then the government helps them get jobs with bonds)

https://bonds4jobs.com/

Those who play by the rules are the mark

If you’re ever in doubt, it’s you…

Narcissism is a plague and easily spread by porn, Christian propaganda, and over nurturing

Test tube babies should be illegal

Dogs – cats – cute but eating up natural livestock and they were made in a lab

Apparently water buffalo are on the extinction list yet I just bought an ear from the ~~Dollar Tree~~ $1.25 Tree)

I haven’t murdered the dog with a “good day” yet

He likely suffer til the end

Today I made him an egg sandwich

Yesterday he had a toasted turkey dog

He has dog food and treats too

He wants his food, my food, plus his food

I fed squirrel yesterday

Hung out for half an hour sundown feeding her/him

The guy who murdered his 8 month old pregnant wife – dumped her from his boat, then went and turned the baby room into storage, sold the wife’s car, and tried to sell the house – he was removed from death row – gets an hour of sunshine per day, 3 meals a day – for life.

She washed ashore

He had searched on his phone “ocean tides” (or waves)

He was probably an undercover gay

They expect us to “mommy them”

Men are monsters. Guaranteed.

If they were really genius, they’d know how to make women happy and stop killing everything.

One person asked what women would do with men safely gone for 24 hours.

Most of them said walk without fear.

WALK

93% of all homicide committed against women are by men.

Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct.

Nihilist.

Under the gaze of secular science

(They think they’re geniuses)

They were conditioned to love prostitution and porn as children

The divorce rate is over 85%

They hate us

Math is stupid

I don’t want electricity

(Not at the expense of every woman’s mental health)

1 in 3 women experience assault from man (and it’s never just one man or experience)

1 in 5 men have an STD

They can give you cancer with their dick

Their cum can literally kill you

And you wanna legalize prostitution and already have in Nevada and online

Gonna spread them parasites everywhere

They don’t even test both parties in prostitution (John’s aren’t tested)

Massage parlors have prostitutes

I’m sick of fighting a war I can’t win

I once liked smoking weed and now I don’t and can’t quit (am actively trying)

Will definitely be experiencing mood swings, sweating, insomnia, for a good two weeks minimum (I’ve been researching)

Men get an entire tribe to help them quit

It seems those who were born into class are the only ones fairing well (mostly)

There’s like 30% single never married folk educated but left behind

But the crims get government bonds for their employers to hire them

They kill women and get ahead

I’m kinda pissed

I’d like to see less people deleting their blogs

Let me know where the new blogging community is going

WordPress pushed their product onto the academic platform – and students learn to blog through education (I wasn’t even allowed a phone in school or the military on job)

I wasn’t allowed a life growing up and I’m not allowed one now thanks to gentrification and narcissism

I’m exhausted

I know you’re struggling

To find your humanity

You’re a drowning man taking me down

You didn’t want to be a worker bee

Getting kicked out during winter while the Queen stays in the hive – that you likely made her

You mutilated her bond

She called crying

Now you can murder her by accident and get 4 years

And you have the audacity to ask me, “what’s the matter honey, you depressed” and then tell the person you’re speaking with via phone that I’m a “manhater”

Awe boo

I wanna cut yer dick off

You better start behaving on the road…

And please let God know I just want a tiny acre of land – to grow these seeds I’m hoarding

And please tell God I’d like to be less suicidal when I fuck things up

Also, despite all the very bad graphs and divorce rates, I still wanna husband.

A partnership.

I wanna do all the things with him.

Please get over your lifelong prostitute addiction.

I don’t know how to communicate with you over a cellphone, I come from a time before computers.

When you randomly send me dick picks online or phone, you disrespect yourself and my love for you

You never ask, you just do. I get so angry boo

I’m old fashioned and want to be surprised! In the real world!

And I want to date my husband – it’s biology and how she connects to him

It’s not about gifts, it’s about protection and nurturing

When dating for a minimum of three months no sex, it bonds and creates lifelong bongs. She’s able to imprint on him.

When I asked him would he want to date me when I’m better he replied, “I’m not competing”.

Which isn’t at all what I meant.

I never bonded or imprinted with any man at this point, and now I feel a lost cause.

A lost soul.

They want us to lose our faith.

I don’t believe in his God, if that helps anything.

Suicide is the 7th leading cause of death and I’ve been trying to self-terminate since in womb.

By kindergarten, I got in trouble on the playground for tying a piece of string around my neck

They banned me from people or going outdoors for two weeks

But the prisoners get an hour of sun a day you see…

There are more horror stories and scars on my body – proving I’m a coward

I’m more sad the lotion in the bottle gave me sunspots – some aren’t natural now

I’m tired of crying

Or looking in the mirror

I have to go now because tears

Fuck you

I’ve been trying so hard to be good and you getting bonds for being bad

Fuck you

(I can’t work yet but Bookmarked the page)

1. Hire me please. A. I have Veteran preference. B. I come with official referrals. C. You’ll get a 5k bond for hiring me. D. I smile but am disabled so may forget to cross the T or dot the I.

Them: you’re hired

Seriously tho, I’m overqualified for these Taco Bell jobs, but have been out of the market for medical reasons. I’m hoping that maybe one day I can find a job to fit my disability and I’ll be using the career source and library to help fix me up an updated resume – I’d love to jump the hiring lines with “I come with a 5k bond”

I still have hope for my future to not be homeless

I want plan B to not be a gun…

I’d also like to plan for my 50th (instead of dying at age 45 like my sister, I was nearly there)

I’m 44 today… 🙂

I mean currently (my birthday isn’t until August)

If you base it on THIS calendar

This whole timeline is off

In 2018, a big electrical storm hit New Smyrna Beach (give or two a year), in which I drove directly into it, all four windows down, elbow and arm outstretched, 80 miles an hour, the whole jeep lit up, some hot shit touched me, I screamed “fuck” and thought my life was over, while looking in my rearview and arm windows, seeing tons of bands of lightning outstretched on the pavement, I jumped into this timeline here

My arm burned for days and I blogged about not having any iodine

Kinda got touched by God

I smelled the rain prior and knew a storm was coming but opted to have my windows down

There was no rain, only lightning, the thunder was so loud

I got pushed off a 50 foot bridge once, I’m not sure how I’m even alive

I felt more human feeding that squirrel than I have in some time

I could feel my heart repairing

Somehow, feeding Squirrel connects me to my purpose

The way Squirrel looks at me

Gonna toss him/her some pistachio soon

Yesterday, pumpkin/sunflower/peanut treats.

The way he looked at me

I need husband

He will need to “date me” (not compete) in order to make the mechanics and functions of a man/woman work (AKA imprinting)

(I’m probably some sort of organic AI)

(Angel)

(Not the artificial fake shit)

They want you to believe computers have feelings so you feel less guilt when you fall in love with a robot and not a human)

Awe what’s the matter boo, lost yer soul?

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Prayers from purgatory

March 19th, 2023

Father,
There’s almost nothing left
My sister is dead
I’m bereft
Sick in the head
Near out of breath
Want money in the bulkhead

Compartments upon compartments
Secret dirty pockets

Here I sit
Here I remain
Losing grip
Can’t change the game

Mirror mirror on the wall
Reflecting curse
And where I fall
Fuck you all

Bonds come in many forms
Like my love
It comes in swarms
Electronic storms

Investments
Feels like I’m restless
I’m vested
Better than arrested

I thought investment always meant high-risk / cutting at my wrist

If a paper bond is lost, stolen, destroyed or otherwise mutilated, a replacement electronic bond can be requested.

“MUTILATED”
The wife called aggravated
Divorce threatened
Says husband is hated!

New purchase
But it won’t help my purpose
I’m worthless

Late bloomer?
But don’t be discouraged
Blame the Boomer’s

Forced obsolescence
And second guesses
Year-long stresses
Everything depresses

Secular science / sleeping lion’s / full of compliance \

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal.

My nutritionist complains that spring water “has no calories” but I get cranky when it takes me 3 days and several stores later to find it

Florida and Texas have parasites in the water – and if we can’t wash our face with it – so it won’t get up yer nose – I checked – the ear canal is also a route – but then I would think the eye

Sylvia Plath LIED

I gotta start boiling my water to bathe

If your houseplants are dying, stop feeding them tap water. Pro tip.

I’m still 110 pounds – despite eating a shit ton of mostly vegetarian food – and not rebounding for a solid week.

Kept eating like a pig – nope can’t gain any weight

Getting back to rebounding tho – just been deep down wallowing and trying to fatten up

My heart is obsessed with rebounding tho – the carpet still hasn’t been replaced but it’s still March and time is awful slow

Also me: I’m running out of time

I don’t have an ounce of patience after wasting my 20s & 30s

I cry so much

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High horse

March 19th, 2023

You’re off chasing rainbows where the rain won’t shine
You’ll love in time
My hand is aging
Like hope is tied
Sun leans in raging
Petrified

My love,
In the universe, spheres aren’t really spheres
Innocuous
Joy reflect as fears
Lingering
Like how you disappear
You are gone –
So how are you here?

I’m not marriage material
I’m grounds for divorce
I’ll stick to my high horse

GARAGE SALE:
Please buy my things
I overspent
I’ll overprice it
It’s not magnificent

If it’s Made in China
I’ve gotten rid of it
The entire toolkit
Sent it back to orbit
Omitted
Ejected from the cockpit
Calling bullshit
Burn it in the pit
Claim counterfeit
Propaganda lightening skin hypocrite
Brown-nosing misfit
Yellow fever transmit
I’m sick of it

Weakened
Lost spirit
Gifts?
Forget it
Remorse?
Acquitted

I come without bond
Broken
Look inside
Heart ain’t coping

Like leaping ledge
Just barely hoping
Your foot will land
With surface sloping

Opposition disappearing
Dangerous dictatorship
Communist country
I’m growing hungry
Purposeful spread the virus
I read in silence

The holes stop healing when you die
Like all feeling disappearing
After you cry

Dear Mother,
You are cold war.
And Father, your mentor.
Though coldness, speak no more.

Father,
You are ice age
Swimming in the current
Of my full rage
Father, you are first plague

Mother,
You are cold war.
A six foot hole I am searching for.
Like a backdoor.

And father’s picture? An eyesore.

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal.

Postscript: Mirrors hold negative energy and the creams I was using cause “spots or burns” and I cry so much seeing myself in the mirror that I’ve now moved all mirrors from my bedroom, intend to get rid of or cover the others, am not allowed to wash my face with tap or shower water, per official government guidelines, and the cream I was using to not weather in the sun, in fact, made me weather in the sun, and so bottles are being thrown out, mirrors destroyed, tears finding unholy ground. But I’m still collecting seeds from the seed library (I’m half-alive hoarding dreams).

I wasn’t scared, I was sick.

And I’m still fighting off the devil.

And the urge of mass murder and suicide.

Have you seen the amount in the news?

Also, The Great Replacement theory is real.

I fell deeper in hell.

Two banks have been shut down.

I’ve stopped disassociating (and looking in the mirror).

I’m superstitious and see demons everywhere.

I need him to contact me.

Never mind the blocks (for his own protection)

Brian Cox is a pedophile faggot and – in his very own words – called a 38 year old man “old”.

He loves a brilliant young mind

Men hate women or anything natural or God like and are obsessed with their own creations such as AI, lab made cats and dogs, and say women have done nothing to contribute to society and are only good for childbearing

According to current studies, most married men want love with a prostitute (gag) (throws up in mouth)

I literally daydream of leaping off a bridge and that ain’t right

Fuck everything

Fuck you

I’ll be back at the library collecting seeds cause it fits in with my goals and values

I’m drifting buddy

*cries*

America is collapsing

I’m not racist but simultaneously hate everyone (unless good)

(I’m barely good)

(Hate self)

Pro tip: mirrors cause negative self-image and hold negative energies. Get rid of them. Stop looking. Now go off and be a good witch.

Happy cursing

I’m casting one soon on so-in-so

A tiny box with a mirror and his name sealed with a burnt black candle buried in the swamp

Because he hasn’t died yet (MB)

I’m undoing the curse from birth on…

Hear, hear!

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From Hell (poetry)

March 13th, 2023

I’m wailing
Climbing walls
Jumping halls
Blackmailing
Tell God I’m sailing
Direct from hell to heaven
Breaking spells
Inhaling
Predicting lies prevailing
The Devil got me detailing
And if you’ve done it
I’m telling
Double dare you
I’m yelling

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal.

Postscript: (beware)

I downloaded the JetPack cuz I’m tired of fighting the current.

But my bank pulled some shady shite today and I’m ready to bury my money.

Shit like where you can only use the app now to upload a check and automatically enrolling me into Bill Pay when I clicked on “learn more”.

The app was uninstalled but then you can’t use the check deposits feature or check your check deposits via the website (I’m tired of being forced to use an app or automatically signed up for things just for learning more)

But buried cash doesn’t earn interest

But I don’t trust the banks

Now would be a good time to drop recommendations on where to stash your cash (like a checking and savings)

I looked up the top ten worst banks – I mean the Federal reserve just took down a bank.

It’s hard to get a handle on my paranoia these days – and it don’t help when folks are always calling the cops on you.

Does someone want to gift me a paper bond? I need one for my 50th.

I suddenly have goals to live to see my 50th – and enjoy it – with a big lump sum of cash.

And so I’ve prayed to God, “I’m saving for my future. My 50th.”

I probably only have a few seconds left but I’m bargaining.

I cry and ache so much.

But maybe, if I am alive, in say, 6 ish years, I could celebrate.

Anyhoo, I’m already invested into that plan – I started this very month.

Even nearly dead, I’m planning for my future

(I hope it involves my own yard to plant these seeds I’ve started hoarding)

And then this happened… and now I’ve lost all hope

The Chinese must have got ahold

It’s a gamble saving for your future when you’re already dead

I can’t believe I got this fucking death jab – I hate the medical system with everything I have

Banks are collapsing

Governments are beyond corrupt

Have you seen the amount of murder/suicide lately?

They say we can’t wash our face with tap water anymore.

And I was stupidly here and there snorting tap water up my sinuses like a dummy – after blowing my nose or something – putting a drop on my finger – I ain’t the brightest crayon in the box

But a man in Florida recently died from a brain eating amoeba doing a tap water sinus rinse

They say drinking the water is fine – but don’t shower with your face in the water, don’t wash your face with tap water but drinking it is just fine

And I had just washed my face in the shower – with the tap getting all over – mouth closed – cuz earlier reports said stop showering with your mouth open

But a kid died from a splash park

And now – a man – rinsing his nose with water

DEAD

So stop washing your face with tap water (per official guidelines)

I guess we gotta start boiling the water before we bathe

At this point, I’m afraid to brush my tooth

I had a splash of shower water get in my nose – had a headache all night – panicked – said this is it

I ain’t dying in a hospital

Only 4 folks survived a brain eating parasite – and that kid that died at the splash park – well the employees were quietly quitting and not cleaning the water properly or documenting it

None of these official employees or states or governments ever get in trouble for the shit they do

Like that mass murder suicide in 2018 with the lesbian couple and 6 blm kids – the youngest jumped from a 2 story building and begged the neighbor not to go back

She should have ran far away (bless her heart, she tried so hard) (the state stood by and let her get murdered) (all of them)

Drove off a cliff

No escape

Locked in…

State murder lots of folk scotch free

Apparently, those who play by the rules are the mark

I’m coming to terms with that

I hate all these “new changes” as if it’s in our favor, benefiting us

It’s not

I made coconut cake

It’s a meal and a treat in one

Flax, and oats, and pumpkin seeds

Eggs, coconut milk, coconut flakes

Topped it with lots of oats and seeds as well (not just in the mix)

Anyhoo

The world is ending but I made cake

Slice?

Seriously, do not wash your face with tap water…

(At this point living near an active volcano may be safer than living with this government)

(Some crushed pineapple in the batter would have made this cake divine)

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The use of WordPress in higher education

February 13th, 2023

So – were you aware – that universities are on WordPress and require students to use WordPress to post and respond to other students post – and receive GRADED reports

Cuz that wasn’t in the Privacy policy or any of the FAQ or payment policies

I’m not just paying to reach my tribe – they are flooding the network however they can – so we can chase our tails – meanwhile the younger generations get fed with a platinum spoon – this society

We’re paying in the upwards of $300 -$600 to maintain our blogs/ websites every three years – to reach students and faculty! (Or around $150 annually)

F- U – C – K YOU

Here’s an example in use: https://intothewildbyjohnkrakauerthestoryofchrismccandles.wordpress.com/

https://wpengine.com/resources/wordpress-for-education/

https://www.eridesignstudio.com/insights/70-universities-using-wordpress/

https://wptavern.com/new-report-estimates-wordpress-market-share-of-us-higher-education-institution-websites-at-40-8

Just thought you should know before you bust out the checkbook to keep growing an audience ~~you like to run away~~

They also hire hackers to blow up the place to sell you “site security”

I can put two and two together

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The Hunger (poetry)

February 11th, 2023

Did you ever think God needs you here to keep this place from going under
You’re light and thunder
Relax your plunder
I need you longer
To wake from slumber
Realize the hunger

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal.

Postscript

I write for God now.

Could you please let God know I’m exhausted and need to rest a bit longer.

These demons have not stopped pounding me since I was born.

My dreams consist of multiple murder and full vape pens.

The mind normally gets what the mind wants

The face may show sadness, the eyes show rage

“The scientists” say that once bees are dead – all life will vanish

“The scientists” have fucked around with the genetic coding of honey bees, which has resulted in a 50% life reduction drop.

The honeybees only live 50% of the life God had intended for them – now that the “scientists” have reduced their genes to half life.

They thought the bees would be “more productive”. Pay attention

These demons are killing EVERYTHING

I do not fear imprisonment, my heart would self-annihilate or I’d ensure humane ending via a cop ending my life prematurely

Keep swinging your dick on the road like you have more importance than ~~everyone~~ women

Tell me something is wrong with me again

I’ll respond: what’s the matter honey? You in-love with a prostitute?

Yes. We know you all are.

The studies say over 50% of men want love with a prostitute and would legalize prostitution

There’s also a direct link to sex trafficking and prostitution – with testimony from men, “she looked trafficked and frightened and underage but it’s what I want”

Fuck you

Cut me off again, anywhere, anyday

You only treat prostitutes with respect huh

Like this book “racing the light” that I checked out from the library just yesterday – nowhere in the synopsis did I know porn would be the subject.

So far, the writer has used his characters to complain about the daily women, one being a “skinny scarecrow”, the other being “fat” – yet glorifying the porn star on the poster, how she looks amazing wearing “all black”. How they wouldn’t fuck her during a podcast show because they have boundaries

GET IN THE FUCKING SEA

I’m done reading!

Chapter 7! He’s on his way to meet the famous pornstar!

Gag me! I’d rather die than live in this porn infested society!

Stop conditioning!

This book should not be at the library!

Walmart and the mall should not be selling sex equipment in front of children or me!!!!!!!!!

FUCK YOU

Tell God I’m angry!!!!!!!

The honeybees deserve more!

Science is unethical!

Art is sin!

90% of all murder happen by men!!!!!!!!!

The other ten percent I’m contemplating falling in!

So many men are committing crimes they are reducing sentences – opposite for women – hardly any do so punishment is more severe

Rules for thee, not for me

I’m gonna fuck you up if you smile at me incorrectly or refuse to open the door when you see me

Cut me off again

I triple dare you

Money don’t mean shit to me

Ending your pathetic society tho – like Bonnie ~~and Clyde~~

I dream of it

DAYDREAMS

Of bloodletting

With the de-lite

~~BLACK LIVES MATTER~~ / ASIAN HATE ✓

All before morning coffee

Born this way

Need him to go where I’m going

The library is no longer a safe place for me – I’m angry and contending with that now

I sensed this with the LGBT and Boomer staff lurking and the “smell of lies” and the street political thugs in gold begging for my signature

Still there was hope

Briefly

It didn’t last very long

People ruin everything

I’m finely crafting my monster and angelic side –

Men have suppressed me from sex and defense

They get sex and murder – with the slap of a hand

Cut me off again

I can’t be the only woman feeling this way

Gonna start a riot

The way doctor lady swallowed when I told her “according to the latest studies over 51% want love with a prostitute and would vote yes”

Gutted her right there in her stool

Continued gutting her with more facts

I’m maybe the Oracle but get treated like Agent Smith

I’m maybe Neo Trinity Morpheus too

“Why me Gabriel” (you’re going to hell for the life you took – you’re fucked)

Should I join the order of Satanism? I was reading over their website – I read the DR book age 16 – it cost money to join – they say titles are earned – whatev, give me Priestess or fuck off – I will keep my $$$

Also, should I join? The order?

Of Satanism?

Revenge is a dish served by an Angel rogue in hell

It’s just another form of narcissism carefully crafted

“We’re not religious but we are, we think we’re Gods”

LAUGHS

Oh yeah?

So adorable

I really enjoy spending time in the sun getting “weathered” and feeding all God’s creatures

Probably causing them more harm but the intention is good

Tell God I’m sorry for being such a fuck up

I know I’m suffering cuz I died via suicide – this hell

But when do I?

I’ve been conditioning myself to do it since in womb

Age 5 on the kindergarten – got in trouble for putting “string around my neck and pulling” – wasn’t allowed sunshine or going outdoors for weeks (fuck you)

You treat prisoners better than civilians

I’ve got scars from cutting on my body

Charming

I worry more about my stretch marks than I do scars over my big veins

LOOK: TRIED TO KILL MYSELF THAT DAY

Wanna get married?

*jumps from bridge

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Domuso – third party rental payment processors – SCAM

February 9th, 2023

A total scam

Delete your account

Write a paper check

Pay a money order

Protest

It should be illegal anyway – forcing us to pay rent online

Fucking move

Into a tent if you gotta…

I’m still waiting for my rent payment to go through – since the 31st

Paid my rent ahead of schedule – now collecting late fees – new management in the apartment instructed to “not even call Domuso support” and they have to call – to give permission to cancel it – since it’s in an “authorized status” according to Domuso – whom I contacted myself.

I guess they want me chasing my tail about my rent – worrying about fees and whatnot. I’m not.

Back to check writing.

And I dare you to make me homeless for refusal to “pay online” like you are enforcing other apartment buildings to do.

Go check the reviews about this company. They out there stealing money from folks.

It’s now day 9 and my payment is still pending and I’m not allowed to cancel it in an “authorized status” – the apartment complex must call Domuso and give the approval – but management says to “wait” and “we’re not allowed to call…”

Meanwhile, the fees are collecting and I went in with my checkbook ready to fix THEIR MISTAKE (I’m using the same bank I’ve been – no changes, my bank isn’t withholding my payment – nor do they have any reason to) but they refuse to do anything about my pending payment in cyber space and were ready to put a late notice on my door.

Do.

I dare you.

I have contacted Domuso via email and phone – same generic response, “your property needs to accept the transaction” but why should they when they can quietly quit and rack up charges and evictions on poor unsuspecting dumb folk

Touche

Hope you like your job very much…

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“What’s the matter honey, you depressed?” (true tales)

February 9th, 2023

“What’s the matter honey, you depressed?”

“Get help”

Those were the questions asked of me after I was rudely cut off on the road, so I rudely began following him, to wherever we were now going.

We wound up in a parking lot for several minutes – he threatened the cops – they never came.

Got his license plate number anyway

Stalked him until he was sweating anyway

But y’all keep giving yourself away

I should have responded “homicidal” but asked “was he in a rush to get to his prostitute.”

Of course, he called me a “manhater” LAUGHS

I’m ready to rip your veins from your neck – and your cock – with my teeth

Please keep risking my life – and then insulting me when I call you out

When he threatened to call the cops, I responded: “I hear restraining orders don’t work – and the more you have the less they work. Please call the cops.”

He retreated to inside his vehicle – but it didn’t stop me circling his vehicle like a vulture

So – y’all are making us depressed with malicious intent and purpose – so we’ll “get a job” and “see a therapist” – something must be wrong – we cry and boys don’t. Ohh boo

90% of all murders happen by men.

Please keep pissing me off

P.S. the jobs and medications to keep me asleep while you live a double and triple evil life – no longer work

Maybe you should have treated ALL WOMEN with respect, not just the prostitutes you’re “in love with” according to the latest studies “most men want love with a prostitute”

*throws up

Fuck you

Cut me off again

I double dare you

P.S.S. That’s TWO days in a row I’ve had the cops threatened on me.

P.S.S.S. Might be meeting my future husband soon and getting a new home. Do you think I’ll get visitation?

Yes. No. Maybe (select one) (please return)

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The Answer (thoughts out loud)

February 7th, 2023

I DON’T HAVE A HUSBAND – is going to be my answer for everything

*arrives at heaven’s headquarters

“Did you experience joy”

I DON’T HAVE A HUSBAND

*at the local hitler hospital deathcamps

“Are you feeling suicidal or homicidal today”

I DON’T HAVE A HUSBAND

*at the local coffee shop

“Would you like cream with that”

I DON’T HAVE A HUSBAND

The MRI doc saw me at my worse and noted it wasn’t self-image

After I scolded him for scolding me for making him late for ~~his next~~ appointment with his prostitute (I mean “patient”)

I scolded him for me “not being marriage material” – so I wasn’t worried about making him late

When I don’t even have a husband to go home to…

Caught him trying not to look as I was leaving

All 111 pounds pending surgery (I’m likely not going to get)

I’m gonna start juicing and doing a hardcore regime

When researching, one person beat the odds – but she also had people bringing her vegetables and fruits to encourage her – it took a village – not just her own pocketbook.

Ain’t nobody knocking on my door bringing soup – let alone fresh herbs to juice with so not to die.

I’m getting death threats

(But my doctors do encourage me to stay alive – the male ones anyway)

The females can piss off – they aren’t as smart or empathetic – I hate being under THEIR CARE

HELPS

P.S. don’t try to maintain a schedule – if I pick up on that – I will intentionally make you ~~late~~ lose time/money with the prostitute

I will pick up on it

And now any time he drives to a prostitute, “not marriage material she said”

Some of y’alls addiction’s are costing us

I’m out for revenge

Gonna make you late now everywhere – everyone – everybody

That’s my level of petty

You wanna call the cops on me? Giddyup!

You hate scheduling appointments? Awe. Shame you were such a bitch I’m missing all my classes.

Self help books exist and I can read and do not need a librarian to check out – we got the self checkout system – for once – I can pass go and not pay $200 or look at your face ever again.

The cop likes me there, he gets my sweet side.

Maybe he’s my future hubby

YOU NEVER KNOW

“You that girl I see at the library”

“Yea”

“Why you having the law called on you”

I DON’T HAVE A HUSBAND

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Broke the new mop cleaning (tales from the crypt)

February 6th, 2023

I. Can’t. Win.

Tried to sell my PS4 rig. Had the cops called on me instead.

I said go on, I’ll wait.

They closed shop.

Waited outside ten minutes, cops never arrived.

Left. Passed a cop. Went back. Drove through and tooted my horn and waved.

Still no cop. Shame.

I hear restraining orders don’t work – and the more you have – the less they work.

Probably cheaper to have bought my items

And before you go taking their side

I honestly had not done anything wrong

I got excited at the mention of cops

“Oh yeah”

“Well go on then, I’ll wait…”

I guess I’m done pawning shit in this town

But I ain’t done tooting!

Looks like I’m keeping the ole PS4 – I’m being cockblocked from selling or deleting my account

And if you threaten the cops on me, make sure you deliver. M’kay.

Oh and… broke the new mop cleaning.

The metal handle twisted like foil.

Gotta get on my hands like Cinderella to scrub.

And buy a new mop. Made of Iron apparently.

Fuck you

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Sick building syndrome

February 6th, 2023

Sick building syndrome – Wikipedia
— Read on en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sick_building_syndrome

Poem coming soon. Cuz sometimes your environment makes you sick. I looked into it.

I can read between the fine print.

I was making 65k annually before the government hiring freeze.

Before the manmade pandemic. Before the immigrants stole my job. Then poisoned me with their snake oil.

I’ve been hanging out in a dark void. I can assemble their wicked thoughts.

I see dead people. Without souls. Demons congregating.

The boomers and LGBT working at the library treat me like a thief – cuz I’m genz – woken – and not under their godforsaken spell.

The next time grandpa overuses his power – by staring me down five minutes as I decide on a title to check out – I’ll walk over to the cop and ask him to please ask the worker to stop sexually harassing me with his eyes.

I’ll just skip the chain-of-command, and kick him directly in the balls. Hypothetically with humiliation.

And Mrs Boomer hates scheduling for classes – people miss those – so I’m gonna start – not even cancel.

After spending thousands of dollars at the medicinal shop, the clerk decided to count her tip money before I approached, I thought, look at this righteous cunt, how dare thee.

I’ve swore off my weed spending. The detoxification starts soon – cold turkey – as that was my last bill or tip ever.

I may look cheap but FUCK YOU

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Too Calm (journal log)

January 22nd, 2023

I’m told I’ll be getting a renewal invite to remain at the heart of darkness.

It’s been nearly one year since that couple was gutted in the street – by a black immigrant – simply because they were “white” – and now they’re dead – and he gets 3 meals a day, a free roof over his head, dental, and an HOUR of sunshine for his MENTAL HEALTH – on us (the tax slave payers dollars = time/energy)

The political thugs in gold chains now want your signature – soliciting anywhere they legally can: the library, the mall, the medicinal shops.

Overjoyed.

I don’t know where I’m going – but I don’t have to prove anything to “remain here” as I’ve been stuck in purgatory so long now – I don’t have to provide any evidence of my existence.

Just keep paying the rent….

Do as say

But I yelled at the boomer Publix employee, “no bitch, you lost a fucking customer FOREVERRrrr”

Apparently we became a cashless society and she felt the need to rub it in, three times, scolding me in front of everyone around, my cash in hand, unable to pay.

“It says it right there” (honestly, you only need to point out my failure ONCE)

I’ve boycotted Publix forever

There’s poison and sugar and “natural flavor” in everything now anyway

“How did she die”

“Starved to death…”

“White people work out one time and be skinny” (latest neighborhood report on me)

The upside: they think I’ve only worked out once. Skinny. Weak bitch.

Let that be my fucking gain

In fact, at Burger King yesterday, the Mexican manager came out with two of her BLM pimps, when I told her to “step outside”

He was very upset when he heard me say, “oh you had to bring your pimps with you huh”

Very upset he got

Truth in fact hurts

I drove off too calm

The adrenal glands were not working

Even pulling off

“I’m too calm”

“Had to bring your pimps huh” I continue to yell, as traffic at the window was at a stop

They gonna run off all their white costumers with their terrible service

I ordered the “impossible king” and apparently that’s too complicated for certain species to get right

Though I repeated my order THREE times

Fuck it

I like starving anyway

I got my library card tho

And holyshit, that’s where I’ll be at the end of the world

Check the libraries

Leave clues a 5 year old could solve (anything harder and I’ll read the data wrong and wind up stuck in a fucking hole – as is now – with a heart condition – thanks to “television” and government – whom I no longer listen to in any capacity)

At least the library is ad free

I can read in silence

Love the smell of the old books

All them lies

There are perks to not being homeless (yet)

Aside from the thugs trying to solicit my signature in the parking lot – everywhere I go

In their gold chains…

I wanna puke

Stop talking to me

From now on

When someone interrupts whatever I’m doing solo

“Did I give you permission to talk to me”

And the ghosting will begin

And please cross my shadow

I know you’re trying so hard to break me out here

Of being a good Soldier, a good soul

But I swore my hand before the flag and God – and on my heart – and signed the dotted line – took my blood and all – to protect and defend the USA and its citizens – not DEMONS

And right now you stepping all up in the “fine print”

I dated for a lifetime and have nothing to show for it

STOP LOOKING AT ME

I’m ready to spit on these thug politicians in the street

FUCK OFF BRO

You can’t have my signature, my name, or my soul

Go back to your porn and prostitutes

I was trying to enjoy the jazz event – and men breaking their eyeballs to get a look

STOP LOOKING

I had to hold back the tears

Pretend the music was getting to me

Next week I hang with a cop who teaches about a Daytona Beach serial killer

Exciting! They want us living in fear!

Do I want to say yes to the “true encounters Daytona Beach serial killer” event. Yes I do.

I’m not even a jazz fan – but I went – and enjoyed (still cry anywhere)

The audiobook helped me not stalk anyone

But apparently I’m not allowed to order food anymore anywhere

Unless a yuppie place

I found something that sparked joy in me

It matches my values – it offers self-improvement and the entertainment is how it should be – without disruptions or ads

Easy scrolling interface

Eventually I’ll make my way to the science museum

The skate park and rinks

I checked out an express book

I’m 8 chapters in

I’m becoming present – and creating boundaries and discipline

My mind needs exercise – the books provide

The 2 week express lane gives me a challenge

You can’t renew those

I got my library card and it’s bringing me happies – can’t describe

So much to do too – free classes, movies at the auditorium, events…

I was also the youngest person at the jazz event

If you’re thinking about killing yourself – maybe get a library card instead

And be present

Read what you check out

Set time aside to read

Luckily – my first book was large print – that’s made reading a pleasure – no headaches or squinting – though the writer is a pedo – he’s brilliant – it’s no wonder I grabbed his book – of all books on the “new” shelf (express check out and no renewal)

I like all the digital perks that come with my card – as well as the real world perks – and I’m tapping into all

NOT READY TO DIE

But these monsters are ready for me to shed my light

I’m too calm…

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Economics of the Underground Commercial Sex Economy

January 22nd, 2023

A new Urban Institute study sheds light on America’s underground commercial sex economy
— Read on apps.urban.org/features/theHustle/mobile/index.html

Old data. Since then the pimps have overtaken the White House and now sex toys are sold in front of children!

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Do We Want Mexifornia? | Flood of Illegal Immigration into California

January 21st, 2023

Thousands arrive illegally from Mexico into California each year—and the state is now home to fully 40 percent of America’s immigrants, legal and illegal.
— Read on www.city-journal.org/html/do-we-want-mexifornia-12236.html

And now they can vote! Anyone can vote! Sex toys are sold in front of children!!!!!!

America is gone!!!! Too many hands in the cookie jar!!!!!

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US sees recent rise in maternal deaths, CDC report shows

January 20th, 2023

US sees recent rise in maternal deaths, CDC report shows – CNN
— Read on amp.cnn.com/cnn/2022/02/23/health/maternal-deaths-increase-us-report/index.html

Keep tap dancing over the fact that the death jab is the enemy! White Lab coats! Nurses in comfy shoes!

We got all these pedos running around and no mamas or babies. Just an FYI

Most young women have clotty periods now. Listed as “heavy flow”.

Been sterilized yah know

An entire race

Enjoy yer porn

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44 Shocking Animal Shelter Statistics (2022 UPDATE) | Petpedia

January 20th, 2023

Unfortunately, most animal shelter statistics paint a sad story. Though the progress in the years is evident, there’s plenty that can be done in 2022.
— Read on petpedia.co/animal-shelter-statistics/

Hail Hitler! He’s alive!

I’m old and sick! Euthanize me!!!!!

It’s not 60k annually anymore. The numbers are much much worse.

“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”

And children are being conditioned as children to support prostitution and porn. That’s why the divorce rate is 100%!

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Ex-Porn Star Tells the Truth About the Porn Industry

January 19th, 2023

Shelley Lubben, an ex-porn star, discusses the destructive, drug infested, abusive, and sexually diseased world of porn the porn industry.
— Read on www.covenanteyes.com/2008/10/28/ex-porn-star-tells-the-truth-about-the-porn-industry/

They’re all spreading diseases. Even the silent ones. The enemy knows how to destroy a nation.

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4 Dangers of Pornography

January 18th, 2023

There are dangers of pornography that ensnare people every day. Knowing those dangers will help us avoid its devastating consequences.
— Read on www.allprodad.com/4-dangers-of-pornography/

Kids are gone in America. Little demons.

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3 Reasons Why Watching Porn Is Harmful (And Research Is Proving It)

January 18th, 2023

Just like it took decades for science to prove that smoking cigarettes was harmful, we are learning a similar lesson with porn in our society today. Science and research are proving that porn harms…
— Read on fightthenewdrug.medium.com/3-reasons-why-watching-porn-is-harmful-and-research-is-proving-it-bc572b1b0abf

The elite are building a society of psychopaths and narcissists period. They serve Satan, Black Holes, Dark suns, worlds, darkness in general, they are demented demons without a soul. They are nihilistic at their core.

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Big Porn & prostitution (not opinion, FACT)

January 17th, 2023

They’re in-love with the porn stars and prostitutes (according to scientific studies)

Except, it’s not real.

The prostitutes – according to studies – create alternative personas while doing sex work – causes negative mental health – and men do not need to be tested for STD or STI – even though they are the silent carriers – often without any signs or symptoms – which can lay dormant for years – and parasites and cancer can be spread from semem, as well as simple skin-to-skin contact.

I’ve shared every study backing this up.

The prostitutes “rub their back” before doing sex work – and they do not use the same style to connect in their personal lives – they make up personas to get through the sex work – many were abused as children, forced into sex work.

Prostitution is a direct link to sex trafficking – making prostitution legal creates MORE human trafficking – which they now have undeniable proof of.

Many countries have made prostitution legal, while other countries have made it illegal but still sell sex via entertainment – creating street hookers, violence, and other negative social impacts. The doors to America remain open for sex trafficking.

Furthermore, the divorce rate is over 85%.

Prostitutes do not “enjoy” their line of work – disassociating from what they do – separating personal life from work – over 75% remain “single” and “would never marry the men they service” – even though they program them to love them (some maintaining sex relations with “repeat customers for years”)

And the fact that they can’t fall in love or show signs – makes it more exciting to them

They walk in with their dicks hard and ballsack full – ready to shoot them their biggest load

These prostitutes don’t even like the line of work

Porn and prostitution is creating monsters in a soulless society

Women and children at home – suffer extreme abuse

Porn isn’t real – it’s fantasy football. It’s soap operas in the nude on repeat. Porn stars fucking themselves in the ass with a wine bottle for decades – then taking a drink

Same story over and over

And the men get hooked as CHILDREN – many get into porn and prostitution by their own fathers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They have brain rot! Their primal side of the brain is activated – hence all the crime!!!!!!!!!

It’s the devil!

They’re selling sex toys at the mall and Walmart, CVS, Walgreens, Dolls Kill, and many more! It’s not behind a curtain!!!

It’s a society of sickness

Our very foundation is built on a sin and lie

All so men can go to war in exotic lands and experience exotic women – while the wives are at home

It’s turned into a well-oiled beast

It’s demon vs human down here (likely opinion but I identify as Angel Baby)

They say in the press that “narcissism is rare” but it’s actually a plague

They say psychopaths “are born” but a “narcissist is made”

Yeah, and it starts in the Bible (narcissism is throughout), with porn and prostitution

Big government is to blame

“The sins of the father”

Apparently you will experience 3 deaths: one when you die, the second when you are buried, and third and finally, the last time your name is ever said.

I’ll probably wind back in “Misery” because there’s only one person I want to see me dead – or bury me.

So if I wind up in his yard half-alive, it won’t be long. I will likely be nude – like our dear Edgar, to keep with tradition

Don’t make fun of my emaciated frame

You don’t know what holes I crawled out to get here

I was reaching depth blackout – but I am slowly retreating – and repenting these days – I think that’s what the holes in the wall mean – repentance and awakening

God put me down here on this earth to judge you

Taking my freedom of speech – silencing me from atrocities – will not stop me from truthmonging

But I’m still a woman with needs unmet, with a private strip club, where the devil is kept (poetry)

LAUGHS

Apparently it’s not a good time to move but I feel I will die if I stay here (it’s not just a “feeling”, there are many red flags)

90% of all homicide happen by men (verifiable)

Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct (verifiable)

We are in a 6th mass extinction (verifiable) (over never ending porn, prostitution, sex trafficking over 6000 years)

The leaders running things serve Luci

Apparently I was right about the enemy in the White House because the females are upset the law was changed (mostly voted in by men) – that they cannot show their shoulders

LAUGHS

They kept fucking with the female Soldiers changing the regulations telling us how to wear our hair, nails, makeup. I got out.

It was already strict when I swore my life to “America and our way of life” – which has been completely destroyed by immigration

Had no idea the waters I was swimming in

I had no idea the seabed could drag you down due to gravity – and with the pressure of the ocean above – you sink quickly

They are turning Florida into Dubai – but FL is limestone – and sinking – so not a good idea

The floods, the condos collapsing, I ain’t all talk

You have to turn it off if you want to change

I know you think you want how you are – but I don’t buy it

You have to remove predictive programming

I never said it was easy

I’m done supporting toxic masculinity society

I just still have hope I might get through to someone – who might change for the better

As far as the hypocrisy of doing nude art, I’m not compromising my soul, I find it therapeutic, I’m not disassociating to make photography or poetry

At the moment I’m overcoming dying and a major illness – heart inflammation and depression

I’m barely working or putting out content unless you count my blog work – and WordPress says I’m on a 19 day streak or something

I’m also in the middle of getting rid of everything I own – either in an attempt to save my life or end it

The odds are set

I’m just awaiting the verdict

And if I’m gonna be “responsive or reactive”

Don’t judge me

That’s my job, that’s what God put me here to do (potentially)

In the court room: “because God ordered me to do it”

The only thing God should be ordering you to do, is “tender mercy” (tho I’m not obliged to be telling him what you outta do)

God can hear me cursing outside his church

I live in hell…

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But it’s what men want…

January 16th, 2023

catwinternational.org/wp-content/uploads/2019/09/Ten-Reasons-for-NOT-Legalizing-Prostitution.pdf

Prostitution is a root cause of sex trafficking, but it’s what men want…

They want us living in fear, not just Black Lives Matter.

Yesterday I was having chest pains and no weed but today some birds moved in next to me and I got a nap

The sun is finally out

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Why Do Men Buy Sex? – Scientific American

January 16th, 2023

They form attachments and bonds
— Read on www.scientificamerican.com/article/why-do-men-buy-sex-2012-10-23/

I’m no longer available as a girlfriend or a wife

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Principalities and Powers

January 15th, 2023

Demonic forces never stopped running through human affairs. We just stopped seeing them.
— Read on www.theamericanconservative.com/principalities-and-powers/

People like killing dogs and cats too. Facing my own issues with an animal; I find end-of-life services to be inhumane and Hitler regime.

Many just give up, shelter’s are full – animals will be sacrificed.

I’m not making this up. They are eager to take that money too.

One humane society charges more for you to “go back”. A significant amount more.

I’m autistic, “what do you mean “go back” and she explained – “to watch – to be with them” – “that cost more”.

And, an additional cost if you want a “box or urn”.

He’s had 3 end of life appointments made – one with his primary veterinarian, two with the humane society.

I called eventually a third time and stated, “I won’t be able to do this by appointment, I’m having a hard time letting go”

Because – I researched the chemical used to stop their heart – their bodies jerking around.

When someone ODs they go out peacefully and you can call it humane, but I disagree that End Of Life Services are anywhere but “humane” when their bodies are literally jerking around.

My grandmother let her dog “die naturally”.

Anyhoo – I’m against abortion and apparently against manmade animals from a lab getting sacrificed to the dark entity

My dog has a strong heartbeat and will to live. He may be a hellhound – but he’s my hellhound for “better or for worse”.

He may qualify for end-of-life services, and that may be the “easier” path for me – but it requires ending a life, stopping a heart. I do not comply.

And I’m so fucking depressed and suicidal that I would rather jump off a fucking bridge than figure out what to do with my dog, which means I’ve quit weed so that I can figure out what to do with my fucking dog because apparently this new age weed complicates PTSD (hear, hear) and causes suicidal ideation

Also, these drugs folks are doing, probably have code written in them, that’s why they see “the same thing”.

Autistic doesn’t mean “dumb”.

Gullible sure. I know that they use art and cartoons to imprint on us.

NASA is extreme religiousness – they “the physicist” now are pushing “dark worlds” with “dark suns” and “dark planets” – made of “dark matter”.

It’s one extreme to the next – from walking on water to miracle pregnancies – to “dark worlds”.

They serve a dark entity.

Can I please have a tech free zone? Tech free state?

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Global study on homicide

January 14th, 2023

About 90 per cent of all homicides recorded worldwide were committed by male perpetrators
— Read on www.unodc.org/unodc/en/data-and-analysis/global-study-on-homicide.html

90% of all murders happen by MEN

Porn activates the PRIMAL side of the BRAIN 🧠

Females go in heat too

Learn to control your urges

Clearly you can’t handle leading a double/triple life

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Now we have documentation: Women earn less than men in the same job

January 14th, 2023

Norwegian women earn 9 per cent less than men, even if they work in the same workplace, have the same occupation and the same job. Fifteen countries, including Norway, have been investigated in a large international study.
— Read on sciencenorway.no/economy-gender-and-society/now-we-have-documentation-women-earn-less-than-men-in-the-same-job/2120512

“Never catch up”

It’s narcissism. They don’t want us in the game when we come from “rib of man” – like they see us as sex objects only. Why would we get equal pay when we belong in the kitchen.

Men do not care about us and neither do the gays.

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What distinguishes the men who buy sex from men who don’t?

January 14th, 2023

Men who paid for sex were more often dissatisfied with their own sex lives.
— Read on sciencenorway.no/mens-health-sex-sexuality/what-distinguishes-the-men-who-buy-sex-from-men-who-dont/1821864

PORN

We could be teaching children healthy sexual habits and connections – instead of traumatizing them because of the BIG PORN industry.

We’re meant to bond and imprint young.

Not take your kids to the hooker and “not tell mom”

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Why men use prostitutes | Sex work |

January 14th, 2023

The reasons why many men pay for sex are revealed in the interviews that make up a major new piece of research

— Read on amp.theguardian.com/society/2010/jan/15/why-men-use-prostitutes

😑

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“The sex was never, ever fun”

January 14th, 2023

When a man pays you for sex, you will feel many things — but arousal will not be one of them
— Read on www.salon.com/2015/09/30/the_sex_was_never_ever_fun_my_lessons_in_prostitution/

They convince themselves we want it, “so it’s okay”. He got a hard-on just looking at a 14 year old from the street.

These aren’t men, they are monsters.

But I’m censored everywhere online for mentioning “men” or “monsters” and they don’t have to be in the same sentence.

But I am a sexual abuse survivor, so why is my voice being censored.

Because China have us right where they want us. Segregated while they take command.

And the prostitutes exchange no love – it’s only transactional but the big dream by the men is they fall in love and run off together. Gag me.

Most of them say “men are terrible lovers” and it’s clear the prostitutes do all the work

The prostitutes hear them complain about fighting about money at home life but yet they’re paying for sex (and probably other addictions thus the fights with spouses)

It’s all narcissism and nihilism.

And if you’re a woman over 40 without a chechmark, are you okay!?!

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Mess (poetry & free speech)

January 14th, 2023

I don’t like showing him pictures
When I know he’s into perfection
And I’m leaning a different direction
Part of his daily “mess” collection!?!

© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal

I suppose when they’re paying for it, in their mind, they believe they’re getting top-tier sex, huh?

File me under Dante’s 7th level

You should have a file system like Inception – 9 levels deep (put me level 7)

Lucky number 7

Not first, not last. Made top ten.

Maybe with a ⭐️ on the file folder

Locked

“The chosen one”

Oddly enough my lifeline was 7 – I’ve done this seven times!?!

I’m on 7 now

The Matrix twas 6 times

If love is the anomaly, and they all think they love the fucking fake porn stars, and the prostitutes… uggggg

My grandmother stated “you must have a tapeworm”

She wasn’t far off potentially

My horoscope read age 15: “leo’s suffer from feet and heart issues”

My best friend before she died of suicide age 13, “something bad will happen to the world in 2003” – she was distraught – it was 1993

She didn’t live long enough to see her prediction come true

We went to war in 2003, I was part of the initial push into Baghdad, as a combat medic during the start of the war (she was long dead but it still fucks with me)

She literally came to school freaking out saying that she had a bad dream and that “something bad was going to happen in the year 2003, but she didn’t know what”

She died by suicide maybe a month later

She was 13…

Several years later her mother also died by suicide and they are buried next to one another. Their bones got a coffin! ❤️

A coffin plus one of those metal boxes that goes over the coffin…

Her bones have a home for now… ❤️

The point tho – predictions coming true

How!?!

I crawled into them!?!?

Someone up there is looking out for me!?!

I think it’s possible I might actually be locked in a computer against my will somewhere

The government took my DNA, blood, hair, signature, pledges and swears before the flag, like I was sold an idea about the US and that training imprinted on me 🙂

Just like porn imprinted on you

I’m trying to stay alive – get fit enough – to go down in battle

Total warrior

Like I’m still a Soldier who holds rank

They may have changed the uniforms, but I was never stripped of mine

I know the enemy wants me and my comrades dead

I’ve already lost family and friends

And I don’t know how responsible I am for my other family members who never even listen to me because they’re so fucking demented and toxic

My sister is dead, age 45

My fucking parents are still alive – and I’m growing resentful and weary of it

Agent Smith didn’t like the stench of humanity and I feel the same of narcissists

Every state should make sex offenders, lifelong. I wanna know who my fucking neighbors are.

And pedophiles say that they were born that way, they swear they were fucking born that way, so they can’t change, so it’s not like they’re going to be different in five or six years or 10 or 15 or 25, that’s just long enough for them to start fucking your grandchildren

They will have the best relationship with their own children just so they can fuck their grandchildren, and there are studies out there of this, it’s not hearsay

I also have a degree in psychology, so I study human nature

I swear pretty bird has started saying “thank u” instead of “pretty bird” lately – and normally soon after I’ve tossed out seeds n’ nuts

I swear it

“Thank u thank u thank u”

I don’t care about these abandoned cats tho – not natural to the environment – made in a fucking lab – carry disease – and are terrorizing the wildlife here

I will fuck a motherfucker up

And it’s extremely hard being an angel because I don’t know what I’m allowed to hurt, and what I’m allowed to not hurt

Fuck that demented cat, but it shouldn’t be my karma to call the pound on him

He didn’t even eat the tuna I put out

What a fat kunt

I like lions but hate “man’s best lab friend”

So the American Asians identify as a Chinese American, and probably wish to drop Americans all together once they fully take over our country – they value “Chinese culture” and are pushing their way of life on us here

I don’t recognize my own country

I come from a generation where we had to page people to communicate or go to their fucking door, and I’m kinda ready to go back to that sort of lifestyle…

I sold my TV

I don’t even want a smart phone

I want sex toys behind a black curtain because I don’t want to see it and I’m a fucking adult

I need food

But I stopped going to the grocery store buying anything and I’m trying to eat what I have in my house

When was it acceptable to blow your horn in the parking lot for someone to come down?

What is this trend of people turning their fucking cars off at the red light?

I’m done with society

They want a 15% tip for ringing you up and they can’t even get your order right or smile

I don’t want to do any of this anymore

If I wanted to live in Asia I’d fucking move there

I do not have yellow fever

And I will never support another Asian franchise in America ever again or buy anything from China, India, or Mexico

“You’re racist”

Correction: I’m homicidal

If you’re gonna accuse me of something, make sure you get it right

Homicidal is the new suicidal and we don’t fucking talk about it these days 🙂

Happy to help

Remember heal and save

Sharpen your blades (they will invade at night, at rest, they will not follow GENEVA)

I’d really like to show God what sort of warrior I am and it’s not getting gutted it in the street

And this is like minority report now, they will fucking commit you for saying something

I’m still on the good side of god (I fight and live for God) – this establishment worldwide needs to END and be dismantled and destroyed

The entire reason they do these wars is just so they can have their fucking prostitutes in different countries…

It’s mostly military and white men apparently (according to studies)

An entire nation lost

They are also making the animals suffer and it has to stop

What the fuck are they doing to these gators at the amusement parks? Selling teeth? I have some. As a reminder – of how fucked up immigration ruined my country – turning everything into a Sims theme park – creating depression – addiction – addicts – monsters – lost souls

The doctors and nurses are criminals

I still have my medical background that the enemy didn’t account for

“No one will listen to her”

“Censor her”

Me: sells TV, stops supporting society

And I spend time in the sun now without sunblock, and I don’t get burned

I absolutely can be taken down by the elements very quickly though, the cold, the heat, I have a heart condition

Thanks to the government and my gullibility

RIP John Jones

P.S. your rugs are dirty

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