I get this kind of thinking too. It’s why religion is so important for the narcissist because they want to believe that they can be a monster and people will still forgive them and love them￼.
They want to be a monster but take no responsibility for it and blame it on￼ “evil” or “aliens made me do it”. It’s easier to disassociate from yourself – take no responsibility for your terrible actions – and believe all those around you will forgive you – yet – you can’t even admit that you are the bad seed. Or, you know you are the bad seed, and it’s now your life mission to turn others into what you are. Vapid without remorse and soulless. But you all love to cum so much….. 👀