Hi. Some have asked about my activity (or lack thereof). My dad died. I still don’t know the cause of death and there’s legal matters still to attend.

Today is his birthday and I want to celebrate life.

A smile is all I can do.

When I surface for air, and see my blog readers, my followers, my patrons and my subs, it invites me to keep going. But, I gotta deep dive a bit longer. And I appreciate the life support I do.

If you could keep your fingertips on me a bit longer, I fancy the stars and the moon (also helps keep me from drowning).

I paused my Patreon campaign for the month of December, my patrons will not be charged.

I’m posting some photos and videos on my OnlyFans but I have not been in a mood to write.

Thank you for your understanding while I take some time for myself to reflect on the meaning of life.

But also while I deal with life. I am facing things in life I never considered or prepared for.

Like my dads last words to me via his will and testament.

I am still awaiting the arrival of that plus news of his autopsy report. 😭

I just need time to not do anything. And not doing anything still consists of having to take care of my pets and bathe and eat and it’s about all I can muster right now.

My last conversation with my dad was an angry one and I didn’t even give him an opportunity to respond.

I have that cross to bear as well.

I’m going through some shit right now.

The only thing I need right now is time.

Time to cry.

Time to breathe.

Time to grieve.

Time to be.

But, some people use this time to kick me while I’m down. I see you. I read your slights.

I see everything which is generally why I like to be alone.

I’ll get back to writing and creating artsy videos and vampire cosplay soon, it’s what I do. I’m a content creating machine.

2021 is a year of transformation for me, that’s the good ole’ plan anyway. More tattoos, more piercings, more newds. Getting a new wardrobe too.

I’m gonna be hella active, I hope you stick around. I got big plans for my Patreon and my OF.

My blog is my lifeline. Not gonna quit writing anytime soon. Sometimes just need to bury my head in the sand.

Which is a better option than drowning myself in the ocean because we get a thousand pound Great White visitor from Australia that visits us here. I’m sure I’d be a tasty treat.

I don’t get in the ocean because there are fish in there with teeth bigger than me. 👀

I’m petite. 👀

(But also vampire daylight sun gross)

If you need more of me though, there’s currently over 280 photos, 75 videos, and lots of love on my OnlyFans! 💋

I’m coming up with more ways to reward you for your love. Give love, get love. And I’m behind on writing (per my own standards) but life happens and currently life.

I still have bills to pay and food to eat so your support is helping another human exist. It all goes back into the art. It nurtures my soul. I miss you too.

You can come lie in the dark with me if you want. But the gravity will make you cry.

xoxo still alive xoxo