Somebody told me
That you had a girlfriend
That looked like an elephant
I think I’m smaller than 111 now cuz my extra small have become loose
I’m growing thinner
Maybe a bit meaner
A misdemeanor
I’m sick of being single
Tag: PoeEternal
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If you want to take the island
Burn the boats
I’m near the horizon
And taking notes
Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.
Inspired by this speech
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Do you know where your children are?
The commercial aired to our Boomer parents cuz they should all
be crucifiedburn in hell
By the way, Mother & Father, do you know where I am?
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Bye
I’m done communicating with other bloggers
I tried
I enjoy stuff y’all write
But anytime I open my mouth and leave a comment
Everyone else will get a “really appreciate your comment” and mine DO NOT
Sometimes additional comments aren’t allowed
For instance
I responded “mirrors cause a negative self image”
I found this extremely fascinating to learn
They did not
I’m done trying to be social
No one understands me
But the two monsters who do but only leave me breadcrumbs
I’m literally trembling writing this
I wasn’t being rude
I enjoyed his poem
But noooooo
I’m not allowed to respond with the way it moves me or gets me thinking about the topic
My problem is I “add to”
THAT but also…
I’m done socializing on other peoples blog
It only makes me cry
The additional comment he wouldn’t allow through and deleted
I explained how they hold negative energies and should not be placed near a bed
(I’m kinda a good witch and into energies – Tesla and Einstein was into manipulating energy too, hear hear)
Tesla said once you master it…
Who said, “know thyself”
Plato? The one with an A?
Anyhoo
I guess my comments weren’t appreciated or even wanted
Should have just commented, “yeah man mirrors suck”
But it probably wouldn’t get a like either
Or even go through
And because I’m a child
I unliked every post and unfollowed
Was not able to block or delete my ONE comment
I will never comment again
Or read your beautiful lines
Many do not know I am extremely autistic and sensitive
I’m basically an oracle
Wanna talk mirrors? No? Fuck you
P.S. I hate losing followers because I’m not allowed to express myself to others on their beautiful writings because they don’t fully understand my meaning and then I respond like a 2 year old and ghost them
I hate my parents
It’s all their fault
I’m crying so hard because I can’t just “fit in”
Maybe there is a slight chance the algorithm blocked my comment
But that isn’t what my heart is telling me
It’s kinda embarrassing?
I really liked his poem
It’s why I commented about things I recently learned about mirrors
I put sheets over mine when I learned (not something I commented) and then moved them out of my room lol
I’ve been dealing with “mirrors” in different ways but apparently not allowed to be a knowledgeable weirdo
I wanna be able to hold onto what bloggers I have
So I won’t be able to communicate with you on your own writings because it will offend you?
The fact that mirrors hold negative energy
Guess he don’t wanna know or have my knowledge on his page
My free speech once again limited
I wasn’t cussing
Or being rude
Or disagreegable?
I miss real artist
The ones who show you something they did and ask “what do you see”
They were always amazed by what I would find
And when I asked them the meaning?
They’d say, “there is no right or wrong answer. And while this is what it meant to me, your view is my favorite”
The 90s don’t exist anymore tho
I’m I’m still stuck in it
Mad and sad at myself for trying to be normal when I’m not
Mad at myself for caring
Mad at myself for trying
Mad at myself for giving a fuck
Crying cuz gonna lose another reader because I’m a child
Fuck you all
I wasn’t doing anything wrong and the fact that Noah – you are making me cry.
So it’s bye
I deserve better quite frankly
It would hurt anyone’s feelings to read the author commenting “appreciate your comment” to everyone but your own?
Insulting
Bye!
I’ll be dead soon and unable to leave comments and some of y’all are going to deeply regret how you treated me when I came to your yard – without animosity
Thank you for not appreciating my comment
Because this has happened more than once with other bloggers
Unfair treatment
I don’t want to comment on your blogs
I guess I should just close my blog altogether and just quit and let the 3 year plan expire
I’m done with everything!
Sick of crying because of you!!!!
I told someone who commented “God isn’t real” to stop gaslighting and I got penalized for it on TikTok for him responding “fuck you”
Easy to spot a nihilist now
“God isn’t real” is shit they say…
Or, “I believe in black holes”
Science is nihilism
NASA is cartoon CGI artist interpretation
We had computer’s 6000 years ago
Maybe not mini size but they realized they could reset
6th mass extinction / reset
The Matrix was a documentary
Love is the great anomaly
God is real
The earth is alive
Prayer works
Gotta put in the work
Anyhoo
I’m not allowed free speech or my own view of your writings and your art
You will comment to every other blogger but me “really appreciate your comment”
And bro, it was my first time even trying to comment
I’m not gonna start crying again
But probably will
You don’t deserve me and feel free to delete my original comment and I’ll disappear forever as if I was never here
Ghosted my father age 10 in front of him
“You can make me sit down but I’m not eating or looking at him or talking”
And skipped a Happy Meal at age 10 – to teach my father a lesson I still don’t understand
And now I’m crying harder
I haven’t seen my father since I was 10
I gotta go
Y’all are a terrible insensitive species and I gotta protect my energy
Fuck everything
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The TikTok
I’m just some gal from the deep south
Oh wait
Deep South should be capitalized but not earth
Why is earth not a noun
Whatev
The follows are still coming in today
Also reached over 37.5k “likes”
I don’t use fancy setups or lighting or filters
But will probably start posting rebounding and skate content for summer!
Along with complaining
It’s what I do best
But folks are trying to take me down in tricky ways
And I’m still recovering from CUD
And this cancer
2 days zero weed or vape or edibles
Not caving
Gotta clean the lungs
No more smoking
No more drinking
No more disassociating
Tough days
Not even allowed sugar or bread but haven’t fixed my diet completely
Cuz I need to hire a maid to deep clean my kitchen
I don’t know what’s holding me back from doing it
Maybe because I’m dying and have so little energy
But hopefully can show off my cute outfits from Dolls Kill soon
Embarrassing the mess currently
Took an assbeating on TikTok because of it but some have commented I’m adorable
The drafts will probably get deleted
I will post more cute booty content when I recover mentally from all the weight I lost
Itty bitty again
I want to be God’s favorite
But squirrel is so cute
And red bird
Woody has been quiet
So glad I captured him pecking when I did
I’m kinda homebound because every time I go out a cop gets involved
I think the last one wanted to prepose? To me
Proposal propose
The fucking algo makes it harderwith a brain injury but I hit space
Fuck you
Stumbling with speech more cuz brain rewiring itself with zombie weed
Know what I want to say, can’t get it out
A band is getting ready to play from a big race thing
I can hear it miles away
NIN was supposed to come
Now it’s Tool and Pantera and some others coming
Heard on the radio
I was like “too bad I ain’t supporting shit anymore”
Maynard’s a fucking dick
The cop told me to move
It’s unsafe to venture out
And I’m pro 2a and won’t think twice to shoot your shadow
Ohh poem thingy please
Also, if I reach 10k in this lifetime, I’m one goal away from turning on video gifts
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Pop up artist in Oklahoma
Has no damn diploma
Divorced him in a coma
But darling she’s a cold one
Unreal omens
Roaming like the Romans
My blood is spoken
One spell never broken
Couldn’t love them both then?
We’re nearly dressed alike
Turn down the turnpike
Let’s go for a hike
Heard from hope tonight
Maybe it was harder than I thought it would be
Humility
He likes my tiny –
My tiny tiny heart
Nicknamed sunshiny
His counterpart
The big girls keep yelling that I’m small / I fear he can’t see me at all
Like a volcano about to erupt
I’m running amuck
Let me be abrupt
This government is corrupt!
Everything he writes
Is about him me you us
Combined in a trust
Locked without fuss
To put her mind at ease, he lied
With spear in side
Not Judascide
Cat caught the mouse
Lie tied to mouth
Not big the trap
Are you burning down cities?
Running from the guilty?
Like a modern viking gypsy?
Do you fancy life more risky?
Got a shot a whiskey?
AWOL / never ordered you to leave
I’m 1600 miles away from hope
No room for boat
Get your telescope
Walking a tightrope
Has karma grabbed your foot?
Think you’re off the hook?
Think steps I mistook?
Ban me like a crook?
I’m a fucking primate
Gotta lot on my plate
You make life misery
You take all liberty
I clean but make a bigger mess / to God I confess
It’s like he’s observing a galaxy from 4 billion years ago –
The girl he used to know
Does he see how much I’ve grown?
Adventure is more reliable than happiness
Said once a therapist?
You’re a deceitful mess
I learned from the best
Dear Necromancer,
Nothing is not the answer
Let God be the anchor
And Earth, don’t forget to thank her
The nervous thumb twitch
Like broke then too rich
Got called a dumb bitch
Might wind up in a ditch
Your new life will cost you your old one
Just waiting for the dog to be done
There’s something super familiar about all these incidents
Just can’t place my feather on it
He works in 12 hour shifts
Might hear from him
In a dozen years
Could you mumble in monotone some more / you’re a zombie chewing on my bored
I wonder where you are on my follower list
Someone I’ll surely miss?
Connection with a twist?
Or maybe you don’t exist?
Got knocked down
Lost my place
Scattered humility
Eclipsed across my face
Nearly lost my soul
Now taking second place
He doesn’t understand
I don’t have love for him
I don’t have love for much
I don’t have love for them
He comes on like rain
Smell of petrichor
Bet I love it more
I know you think I’m boring
Map me like you’re exploring
Tell you stories that got you snoring
I know who you’re ignoring
He’s so bizarre
Drive fast in my car
Foot on the throttle
He thinks I’m odd
We are distributed across billions of light years of space
That’s the love it takes
That’s why our heart aches
Unlimited weight
We’re at infinities gate
Heaven will not waitCopyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.
Got my asshole tore up on TikTok today. A few violations.
FYI: you ain’t that good at thinking (poem coming soon) (maybe)
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If you accidentally follow me
I will accidentally block you
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This motherfucker stated he was “bi-sexual”
BLOCKED
Get outta my feed
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Y’all remember Jim Caviezel?
He wants to know where the pope is?
He wants to know if you would lose your head for Christ?
He states, we have to go after the octopus head – not just the tentacles
He also played a role in “the stoning of” (sara?)
Basically a husband was cheating and got his wife murdered by burying her alive – up to her neck – and having her children throw the first stones at her head
This practice is still legal
He didn’t want to pay child support or something
Accused her of a death penalty – something he was doing
Anyhoo
I can still like him as an actor and person
I mean he played Christ
Kinda hard to probably take off that role
Jesus imprinted in him and me
But read the good book full of propaganda and lies?
Uhm no
It’s Satanic
I collect Bibles tho
Some falling apart
Some extremely tiny with a lock
You ever try selling a Bible during end times?
I can’t seem to part with them?
Via donation, sale, or trash
Or is is sell?
I’m selling something
I have a sale
Hmmm it’s nearly 4 am
I’m glad it wasn’t just a role for Jim
“Fighting with all their hearts but don’t have a voice”
He’s talking about me
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRESeVYn/?t=1
“Would you lose your head for Christ”
What does he mean?
Like not deny him?
He states he thinks about John all the time
“What would John do”
Yeah same – different John’s tho – same but not
He did not die in vain
If anything, he’s my compass down here in this hell
We both think about John all the time (same but not)
John the Baptist was always a favorite from the B
Jim might be part of the 244
Somewhere in the 244 is Christ
God is love
You mean get crucified? Fairly certain society shames me for being a light-bringing angel
They want the world covered in darkness – nihilism
6th mass extinction
Narcissism is a plague
Society is a scam
I hope I get well enough to marry a good man
Man has failed me
Searching black holes is nihilism
Segregation from God
Gonna expose you all
Deliver the head of Satan
Toss it at God’s feet
“I’m home”!
Literally got chills
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WTF is that growing in my pot?
New unidentified bloom on left Is that a sunflower?
A fungas?
Some other unknown species?
A single unidentified bloom I did decide to “repurpose” the soil and mix it up and start feeding it to the plants that were surviving
It was risky I know
But the earthquake shook something
That wasn’t there yesterday
In fact, I left the window open yesterday during the rainstorm briefly – and they all had their first rain bath!!!!!
It was pretty exiting
Now they’ve had a rain bath (first) and drink daily spring water (my own supply)
It could be a mystery seed finding its way to the surface?
I should move him into his own pot?
Why does it scare me?
The green stuff growing was potentially edible – but now – I dunno if this pot still is?
More unidentified stuff in my pots
That’s probably the fear – I thought this would be a fun experiment by the library
I’m slightly shaking
Maybe because my last day of weed – but I was fine until I saw that… unidentified plant and a single bloom (and not green)
But if it turns out to be one of the mystery plants I killed, then yah!!! ?
The forget me nots are getting big!
Should they be repot?
And these potential edible thangs?
Check out the glass of roots
Healthy roots? Healthy roots or not? Wish my soul would rot? Is this your thought?
I have a stone from Colorado that I collected – in this glass jar – and the plant really enjoyed having the rock and the clear glass to grow – but I admit – it’s more of a challenge
Even the roots scare me
I dunno what’s wrong with me?
I fear the unknown. I also jump into puddles not knowing how deep? Had no idea one should not..
We drank from the hose because we were locked out of the house
I’d get in trouble if I told you what I wanted to do to the Boomer folks
So poems incoming soon…
But wtf is growing?
And just for reference – this is this mystery sheet
Nothing is in the big pots yet – was wondering if I could relocate the glass herbs – they are the only ones I never moved – added the rock from Colorado – and then the roots took hold. Now I’m afraid to plant them in a dark pot with soil – and shock them.
I also don’t want them to get root rot and die
But for now – they did experience a wonderful full moon recently – and last night a rain shower.
Would love to put tags on my plants: “Hi. I’m 3 years old”
“Hi. I’m 15 years old”
That way, upon my untimely passing, they don’t wind up at the dump
They are loved, even tho I fear whatever the fuck they are?
Is that a sunflower? Should he get his own space?
I’m afraid to touch it?
Or breathe around it?
Is it safe?
It grew overnight?
A night bloom?
*sigh*
My thumb isn’t green – it’s mysterious
He’s never had a homemade biscuit. I don’t know what a sunflower looks like growing.
Or basil? Chamomile?
I ate chives growing unwashed in the yard
My mom: “why are you eating that”
Me: “it smells like onion, can I not eat it”
Mom: “yes but you need to bring it in and wash it”
Also me: *drank syrup from some sort of flower*
Anyhoo
Growing thangs
Don’t know what
Could be poisonous?
Wanna come over for dinner?
P.S. when I do upgrade my phone, if TikTok isn’t banned, I will show you my cute new outfits. I’m thin as fuck tho. Like “Thinner”. Keep eating. Won’t gain a pound.
Last day of sungrown legal weed.
QUITTING
And been off the super potent vape pen for 2 or 3 weeks now
Lungs about to be freeeeee
It is fucking harddddddd boi
Takes minimum of 4 months to recover from CUD
4/19 was the last day I had access to the medicinal shop
The whole fentanyl laced drugs is a real issue where I live
Not just the city, but my backyard
Someone got busted with $39k in their car
Along with laced drugs
It was all over the cops official social media accounts
I do not use or consume illegal drugs
I’m quitting state issued as well…
Sleeping in the lion’s den with whatever is growing
And honestly, it ain’t gonna keep the lion’s satisfied
I’m living on prayer
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Cash App founder Bob Lee attended underground sex, drug parties with sister of his alleged killer
— Read on nypost.com/2023/05/14/cash-app-founder-bob-lee-attended-underground-sex-drug-parties-with-sister-of-his-alleged-killer/amp/
And the plot thickens
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The alarms are calming
Saw someone was coming
The fourth numbing
My faith is humming
Battle axe now summingCopyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.
I was trained to not run out into danger, “play dead” when overtook
“Don’t become a casualty yourself”
“Don’t play hero”
“Make sure the scene is safe”
“Triage”
“Ration”
“Defense”
“One shot, one kill”
Targets chest and head
= dead dead
Never failed at range
Range was at least twice a year – not just Basic Training
“Trained killer”
The Army imprinted on me
You never lost my stripes
Just my sense of direction and uniforms
Which I can replace with ones that fit
I can wear my uniforms anytime anywhere
And you will address me as my title if I am in such role
Deal with it
VETS MATTER
But go on and keep pissing in the Veterans memorial and getting Walmart closed down
The alarms bring a sense of calm
I’ll use it to my advantage instead of having a ptsd meltdown
I’m looking entirely natural and cute while going out – most people are treating me nicer – I’m seeing loads more BLM who want to unalive me – including the children who wanna pop us (and 3 teenagers were just charged with killing a white person)
I’m not ready to die, I’m fighting for my life
This fucking cancer is eating me alive
Go on and make fun of my body again – even though I work out – I don’t live in the gym – but I don’t sleep all day (or at all?)
Going weapons shopping soon 🙂
Gotta lay low for now
My rent is cheap as fuck – I don’t call this home – it’s hell and cheap for a reason – but I can’t flee yet – or would let them have this place – which is being gentrified – the cop Sunday said this whole town is bad.
Just going for gas or food is a gamble
Just checking my mail
They want us living in fear
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Nitrogen narcosis
Dead roses
Lost hope like Moses
Wandering desert hopeless
Some nights we’re frozen
Like unfocused locust
We’re losing focus
Gave God diagnosis
Humanity atrocious
I guess this is us?
The depths that we cross?
Tell God all is lost?Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.
Maybe you can access my domain and maybe you can’t.
Listen, I am the Great Anomaly. But maybe not the only.
244.
I’ve reached out to the Happiness engineers – but I’m never really happy (it’s likely also their fault why I never set up the contact page and things because I get stuck on a step and all hell breaks loose)
I’m drinking ginger currently – it’s spicy
All my clothing from Dolls Kill is fitting – and I’m feeling super cute in said clothes –
My OF ID is poeeternal77 I believe
I deleted my TikTok again – maybe for a day, maybe an hour, maybe a month
Gotta keep em guessing
I don’t pay attention to the hits incoming
I just hit delete notification and uninstall
I hope TikTok gets banned
And Instagram
And PayPal sold your identity out TWICE and then had the audacity to list you as my first contact
We’ve never communicated there
It was an anonymous thang
And like X amount of years later – first contact
I almost paid you back
But I deleted my account instead because I’m fucking psycho
And got tired of the outting and the spam emails
And then the cashapp was mutiliated – not long before Bob was
I don’t know how to spell the word and there is no other suggestion
MUTILATED mutilated
Oh well now I got it
Whatever
Fuck it
“Honey, I’m trying to spell something I know I can spell but can’t”
My mother once said watching TV with the subtitles on “is annoying” (which I need) (it’s not about the volume either)
So I no longer own a TV
My therapist says I’m polarized but the two weren’t related
Just an observation – she’s a cunt
(The Boomer mom)
My last words to her were a text message on Valentine’s circa 2017 (maybe) stating I hope she has a painful death and whatever it is couldn’t be near the pain and suffering she has caused me
And I blocked her and never looked back
Then last year my sister died
And I didn’t go say byeeee to her in the hospital
The Boomer mom will be rolling in her grave – if she ever dies
I wonder often these days should I contact the blood folks
My real father wants to know “if I’m happy”
His sister got her head bit off for reaching out to me
I ghosted my father when I was ten
People say you can’t hate your parents – so then I researched and realized that you could – not only hate your parents – but an entire generation
The Boomers
Who hold most of House
Once people die, there’s literally zero reason to hold onto a grudge
I can’t fix my dead sister and she was a psychopath so death was the only relief
“I think I might drop Cain / like Cain dropped Abel”
Because he was a fucking psychopath
She needed an exorcism and even that might not have saved her
It’s not my job to save you
You gotta save yourself down here
Stop being an asshole
I was gonna drop more poetry but I don’t have anything to type from
The phone can’t even type the letters I press
I got a hacker from India inside my phone
My modem was destroyed
I’m not hitting backspace for letters to disappear
I hate autofill – it pops up but changes to a different word
I spend more time correcting than I do writing
I don’t care if I misspell anymore!
It’s the algo, not me!
More poetry coming soon
P.S. these immigrants don’t care about you. They have invaded our borders and way of life. Stay protected! Your life matters! They are attacking females especially and doing so unprovoked! It’s seems to nearly always be a black person attacking. Black lives matter. White lives don’t. Check the CENSUS, it’s not how they are reporting. And not gossip sites but research shows many Chinese Americans and Mexican’s identify as “the new white”.
CONCERNING
Just gonna erase history huh
Wipe us out, take over
The Great Race war is real
I’m brown and white and not dissing my own race to put up another race – slavery started in Africa and is still going on in Africa and not one white person owns a slave – but black people do
White slavery exists and started with a black person owning a white woman and they condition and break us all!!! They hate us!!!!!
I do not hate white people and I’m tired of the slander against us
No one in my bloodline ever owned a slave
Take money from me for it and there will be consequence
Byeee
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I am blocking folks on tiktok for all kinda of reasons
I only use my main account – so views will stay low – I keep the algo confused, “gotta keep em guessing” – I stay on the go
Anyhoo
I told myself I’d stop scrolling
Only use it to post
*boring*
And many of my good videos don’t make it through – cuz folks block me and then report me for harassment – for lip syncing a Nirvana song “I think I’m dumb” cuz he commented my IQ could improve
I got in trouble for his insult
I was videotaping me lip syncing in my apartment – and he didn’t want y’all to see it
I still think I won?
Fuck so off topic now
The blocking that I do is different
(But how does one get a post removed for lip syncing a fucking song?) (I didn’t even respond) (no text) lol
He all butt hurt
GOOD
Stop phishing for info
My TBI fractal brain is none ya bizz
I know everything and not anything all at once
*God mode off*
*Human mode on*
Nope, not even human yet
Fallen Angel
“Born this way”
Fight me
I haz wings
Under his bed
He stole em
He didn’t really steal them
He collected them from the rubble
Not thinking maybe someone would come
To get the thing broken
He took what was mine and didn’t consider it belonged to another thing
I fucking fell
My first instinct was to find cover
They were my wings but God dismantled them in the fall
Or I dunno, the blazing atmosphere I was searing through
They were left behind
I was probably in shock
It’s an actual medical condition
Not a mindset
“Survival mode”
And there is water in the desert eventually
Dessert twice please (before meal and after dinner like an hour or 3) (not immediately)
(I should not eat after nine but gremlin, need the meal at midnight)
(Even if I eat dinner at 9, I’m like wtf are you growling like we haven’t ate since 5 am)
I already have insomnia, it’s nearly impossible to get through a 5 hour span
So I’ll always be sneaking in the kitchen for a bite
If he loves me, he’ll surprise me with treats awaiting
(And then he gets woken up in different ways yah hear)
I ain’t getting near that thing if he goes putting it in other things
Men especially
Fuck you
Oh who and what things I iz blocking on the TikTok
Someone just had her daddy come help her move a couch
BLOCKED
It wasn’t even suggested content
Just a normal family acting normal
Fuck off
I dunno, random shit like that
I forget…
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The mystery plants are still a mystery
The tall glass is a forest of something edible Except for the Forget-Me-Nots
The strawberries and Lavender did not take and the other mystery plants never bloomed
They got some new soil and spring water
Yesterday they got too much sun and wilted but I hooked them up and by morning were sprung again
Maybe they needed more soil and less sun – so that was the remedy
It’s some sort of edible growing but I don’t know what or when it is edible
I almost lost her a time or two but she’s rooting strong despite my errors
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Someone posted a tiktok of a 911 call – with a man dying and taking dying breaths
Another user commented it “turned him on”
Also Chicago was overrun by darkness
And the local cop here told me I need to move – “out of Daytona”, “all of Daytona is bad” “I hate to tell you to move” “I hate to lose someone level headed like you”
Well, I’m more reckless than anything – but absolutely still serve my country – I ain’t running away – I practice running a lot though – on my trampoline
Gotta make sure I can wind the Devil
They gonna try and shoot you from the back
Zig zag but with skates?
I don’t miss my shot tho
The Army trained me to hit moving targets 500m back
I’m efficient up to 350m but definitely passed all my skill sets
I ain’t gonna have a skill issue
I was only 4 rounds from expert first time on the 9mil
The hubby got a lot of work to do
“I gotta girl / you want to meet her? / her name is 9mm”
90s hip hop yo
Other men dying – turn men on
Uhm, men hearing babies cry, turns them on
Squirrel -
This one shook me
He hung himself in a closet and wasn’t discovered for 8 months, the hoarding was so bad
I’ve never owned my own home but narcissism is a plague
Their house was so dirty, he wasn’t discovered for 8 months
He probably knew
I struggle with daily suicide ideation
Stay in the light
And clean up yo dirty house
He probably knew tho
“It’ll take them months to find me”…
“One day, she’ll open us this door and find me”
“Fuck you”
Bless his heart, don’t know his name or story or if this is even true (I did not verify)
Was reported missing – home searched twice by police – died via hanging himself in a closet – not discovered until he had mumified
Hey boo, did you know mummification was so easy too?
Apparently only 25% of women on TikTok are worthy of marriage material
I’m glad I get comments sometimes like “you won’t last on the market long”
Maybe not all are ageist
My man gotta think I’m hot in the garden dirty and 80
I wanna live to 100
He gotta help me get there
I got goals
Not dying in a closet undiscovered 8 months
Not getting gutted like Bob
Not letting an immigrant get near me
Sleeping in the lion’s den with mold
Helps
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My domain is live again and I’m ad free for the next 3 year as I bit and got the 3 year plan!
I may go back to writing on a typewriter
Photography the old time consuming way
I did create an OF – but I’m living rogue with 95% of my belongings gone (I’m sleeping on the floor)
I don’t need your money but may keep my rated r bits behind a paywall
Anyhoo, the dot com is active again
How to look cute and shitty all in one And since I’m still not washing my face per official guidelines, I’m dry as fuck
My bathwater smells like chlorine
My nails aren’t painted, I need a haircut
Tiny babe “you ain’t got any either” 😐 I’m not ready for a husband yet but am working hard with self and God to get things right
And the Devil wanna take away my smile
But the neighbors are being somewhat nicer to me now that I’m dressing in clothes that mostly fit (extra small is big and I’m not quite xxs and trying to actually put on weight) but was wearing medium and large while extra small
(I’m fighting a cancer inside me but my labs are fine)
MY LABS ARE FINE
Healthcare equals medical malpractice but we sign forms so they can hurt you with malicious intent and purpose
I’m looking to upgrade my very old but loved rebounder
Only because it squeaks and someone on TikTok complained
So I stopped sharing
And am secretly
rooting for a banhoping for a revolutionMy TV is sold
No more PS4
My devices are outdated after 2 1/2 years
iPhone 12 would only be good another 2 to 3 years
News has come out that 12 and 13 may be obsolete with the new 15
I’m not paying them prices
I don’t eat with my phone
Or shit
The voicemail is probably full with malicious intent and purpose
I can post from the library but they would steal my login and data
Probably give them access to my browsing history from the last ten years
It is off
The Devil tried to murder me
I’m still here
I got some sort of superpower and you don’t know what that does to a person
There are two ways I could go
But you know me, always taking the off path
Sometimes we find things more valuable than gold, sometimes we find John Jones
He ain’t resting in peace
“I want out”
Final wish
So these Boomers sealed him in
His wife worried he was sealed in alive
“There are things that happened down there that will never be disclosed”
Oh yeah?
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From riches to rags
From rags to riches
It must be such a drag
Doing nothing that he wishesAnd I’m raising the red flags
Pulling monsters from the ditches
Reminding God of broken airbags
The Great Anomaly comes with glitchesCopyright © 2023 PoeEternal.
I found the pot at the end of the rainbow
But I’m still dying
More cute clothes arriving
And organic cotton joggers n tees cuz t3 sarah mode
Gotta be comfys and calm and collect
Revenge is served coldly with a smile
I was double cursed
But Edgar (my daddy) already died naked on the street (been there, done that)
I know why Cleo died
I’ve traveled far through time
I’m not sinking with the Titanic again
I fear those waters for a reason
I know things to happen before they do
Major events
Little events
Been questioning authority from in womb / day 1
Depressed?
You’re not living how
IGod intendedThe Great Judgment has arrived
Get right with
meGodI want so many bird houses on my property that I forget where they are
Bring the pressure washer when you visit
I’m sure everything will need a clean
Bring pieeeeee (not poisoned)
(Anything bought is poison)
(Even the expensive vegan things)
(Bring all the ingredients for me to make a pie instead)
“I wanted to bring you a pie but they were all poisoned”
I know you’ve never had a real biscuit before
My memaw taught me to make them
Said, “the only way to a man’s heart is through his belly”
Or was it stomach?
You tiss it when u big enuff cuz you ain’t big enuff yet
She had 5 acres with a 3 bedroom trailer
I ain’t asking for much
She had 12 kids with her husband
I ain’t been married yet
The Boomers stole everything from me
And now BLM have the audacity to ask me why I move where there are black people?
Bitch for real?
I will fucking hang you on a tree
Without remorse
*stay humbled*
I’m only a messenger
ANGEL
When you want to feed pretty bird but also skin a head…
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Jim Morrison was capable of creating riots
I’m terrible changing diets
But I’m feeling twice as violent!!!Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal.
How many woke Boomers were murdered or went into hiding!?!
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They basked in the glory of the full moon last night
I have several pots doing nothing at all
And there’s a lot of guilt involved in mistake
And I did clean the windowsills but then spilt the strawberries (which maybe now they will sprout!?!)
These are the ones surviving thus far and needing re-potting
The Forget-Me-Nots – around 7 growing and a few have rot
The Lavender hasn’t sprouted but I didn’t use all the seed (did something right)
The other mystery plants may be dead?
It could take 3 weeks for it to surface
Do you know how much time I have to kill things between then?
I’m like “please grow”
I think I could do better with some land?
The cop recommended me to move today, said “all of Daytona is bad”, “hate to lose a level headed person like you”
Do you think he could be my future husband?
The BLM brought up my skin color and size, said, “you ain’t got one” but like I do!?!
It’s tiny sure. Take it up with God. I’m Angelic.
She was threatening to beat my ass
I said, “they want us living in fear”
She replied, “why would you move where there are black people”
Like OMG
“Why would I move where there are black people”?
That’s an entirely good question
Where can I move where there aren’t any?
But that’s so mean. I don’t actually not like black people lol
“Why would you move somewhere there are black people?”
*pretends I’m a ten like Ms USA*
*plays dumb*
I ain’t got any huh
Then why you watching it shake when I’m walking away
The men don’t mind my tininess
They use words like “fit”
So yeah The plants. The drama. The hellhound. The hellhole. The noise. Interruptions.
Need country
Lots of trees
Good neighbors
“Not born in a barn” type
Also me: *wants a sleep barn*
Also: thanks for 37,000 Likes on the TikTok
Well almost
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You have dreams from my nightmare
Plant a flower that is rare
Tell me how you don’t care
I’ll be there
With flower in my hair
Dancing but nowhere
Erase me like your software
Drop down now in prayerCopyright © 2023 PoeEternal.
Things you should know about me: I’ll never ask for a Senior discount.
Never ask a lady her age
It’s your job to make me feel as young and youthful as I feel
Dying and still clutching the “Goddess of Youth” title
My nightmares become your dreams
Plant or pluck
Pluck maybe seems implied if it’s now in my hair – and what exactly don’t you care about nihilist?
But, we don’t know who plucked the rare flower now do we?
We can only assume
And you hate assumptions?
Found something the Devil doesn’t like.
Assuming
My favorite game to play
Oh goodie
It’s a full moon
I must manifest purification and a husband
Some guys don’t mind the miles especially when they see you make effort to keep it mint
And apparently, I may be worth more now than before…
Because the actual Jeep place wants to buy my ride. “Worth more now” – eh maybe
She kinda imprinted on me
I worked hard to get her paid off
Need a mechanic I can trust
Wanna see how many miles I can get – but they go quick
It’s not a good time to buy a house or car
BUT
I am looking for land
Maybe a sleep barn
Gonna hide cash like a squirrel
Let’s play Easter egg hunt 2.0
Who can find the treasure chest?
I can’t even find another apartment to vacate to
I’m not paying for cable
Plus everything else
But please, don’t call the cops on me when I wind up in misery
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George,
Maybe if we met in different timelines
In many lifetimes
While singing these hymns
You won’t leave my mind
Give thanks like windchimesCopyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.
The messy middle (growing pains) Don’t let these demons gaslight you into believing God isn’t real
The ether told me you live two times. The first when you’re born, and the second when you discover your purpose.
Sometimes we have really intense connections with people we will never see again.
People we wish we could know on a different level.
A mutual energy exchange.
God works in mysterious ways.
I hope he finds me a husband like *insert so-in-so*
I hope for a husband instead of a grave
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*need land and a husband*
*please heal me*
2 month supply of detox arrived!
I am my own healthcare practitioner victoriahealth.com
Found the stuff without the bad junk
No sugar junk
And this came in a glass bottle, the big ticket items
Fighting for my life
Tell God I don’t want to die
*Quarantined not scared*
*selfless service*
*Sacrifice*
It wasn’t worth jumping into the trench
Got my free speech stolen too
*wakey wakey*
111 pounds currently and have detoxed and rebound around 30-50 pounds of the Devil
The vaccine nearly wiped me out
Finally getting rays of my lungs this week – they wanna put me under – no no no
No no no no no no
*takes raw shot of ginger*
*sweats for 2 minutes*
*nearly dies*
X 8 days in a row of 30 days ginger raw shots
HOLY GAWD
*mouth burns*
*face blushes*
*goes through purification process to find husband*
Him: “what’s yer number count”
Me: *ghosts him*
I’m practically a nun and the reason you see a prostitute
You left me fucking behind
“No child left behind” came out after I was left behind
Uhm hello!!!!!!
*sobs*
So, I wanna write poems with different words that sound the same
I don’t recall the lesson here
Same words but different
I wanna start writing code into my poetry like EAP
I did it one time – I don’t regret it at all – though humiliated and crucified
I sweat out years of fast food
GROSS
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Blocking access to your account through the web browser – and re-directing you to the app to install
So – you can’t use a web browser anymore to access TikTok
Only an app – a spy app
There is NO LOGIN option
Only redirect to install the app (no fuck you)
I hope TikTok gets banned
Byeee millions of views
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3rd times a charm?
I’m likely starting the process soon to create a page
I need a hideout
I haven’t moved yet so there isn’t anything fancy to look at
I don’t need your money
I just need to start over everywhere
Edgar died naked for a reason, he was suffocating
You ever seen that movie with what’s-his-face and he was Buried Alive
That’s what TikTok feels like
And me giving him all the wrong clues that he winds up at a different grave
I don’t wanna wind up so stuck he can’t reach me
I’ve examined many ways to die and John Jones still ranks as WORSE
I’m obsessed with ways people die
I’m seeing patterns too
There’s always a “second” involved
“He went back in for a swim”
“They went down for another dive”
“Decided for a harder section after completing an easy one”
“Two rides said no”
“He stayed for a second day”
“He changed his plans”
“They went back in”
Poor Jacob and the Whirlpool, he went back in, back down again, a wee bit further
But the drain was draining and getting stronger (like a bathroom tub draining)
I counted several warnings by Mr. Death himself
I get called ominous for delivering love poems via internets while dying – (it happened one time chill) (humiliation favorite overkill)
But Jacob wasn’t ominous for swimming in a black hole?
His friend edged him on
“I don’t know what else I can do aside from die”
*shrugs*
*hops back in*
*goes deeper*
They found him at the other end of the drain
Oh… and then that guy that went down the deepest part of the ocean, the Trench
Not even fully qualified
I had no idea that the ocean could “push you down” at “incredible speeds”
I wouldn’t have stopped falling, I would have just kept going huh…
Newsflash: we can’t leave earth
We’re grounded to earth
Charged
The sun is electrical
Positive / negative charge
We’re static electricity buzzing
Hair standing on head (it needs the blm lube for “all hair types” that the blm hog in the blm section)
My page will probably be free or ridiculously cheap membership to keep away the kidnappers
I mean, I wanna post some nudes
I’m still working out while dying and 111 pounds despite everything
And now I wanna quit all meat but chicken
I like eggs and sometimes I wanna eat a chicken
I know, but the heart likes beef and chicken a lot
For ethical and moral reasons try to leave most creatures alone
Someone harassed me and I got penalized for it
Makes absolute total sense
“Money won’t buy happiness” it’s true but I’ll be a whole less stressed out in the country where no one can find me
“Do not enter property without secret code or homemade pie”
Him: “I’ve never eaten a homemade biscuit before”
Memaw: “the way to a man’s heart is through his belly”
Me: “you need a proper biscuit with real maple syrup”
I myself haven’t had one since the 1800s but once I get moved from this dumpster
And I got another rent increase incoming
The appliances are also from the 1700s and my electric company knows my shit ain’t updated and I’m being penalized
“This is a man’s world”
Well I don’t want any part in it
Can you come help til the garden tho?
I gotta get a fence up
Coms
Some sort of place to shit
I need land and a realtor I can trust!
I’m injured!
“I think I’m dumb” but not dumb enough to get married to the banks
Can’t have more than 9k on you or the cops will seize it even with proof it’s yours
The government will come steal your gold too
They didn’t cash their silver coin bonds “backed by the good faith of the Chinese government”
“Made in China”
Who owns the majority of bonds
But we needn’t worry
Every new label, every new change, Big China buying America
I got to go
Too far down the rabbit hole
Weed gone
(Half jar remaining and low thc compared to vape pens)
(Been out for days)
(Haven’t renewed card)
(Panicky)
Need some TLC on OF after the TikTok beating
I’d like to post workout videos and peach shots and nudes
Sue me
(Give me the dopamine boost as God intended, thank you)
(Otherwise, you know the fate of Poe?)
(And the ominous is in the blood)
(I might be Cleopatra)
I might be all things
All or none
I was nestled with God in the Great Void
“This is where you find some quiet, huh”
Gonna be fighting for my life until the end (it was stolen)
(Cry so much)
I’m facing future days of not bleeding between my legs and it feels like the end of everything I ever dreamed of
The women who got rid of their ability to have children and “love it” – nihilists
But you don’t look at me the way Squirrel does
I don’t know anything about life at all
Man has failed his part with me (thus far)
It’s like I’m being punished for his sins
But God has answered many prayers in one sweep
I need to find my way
To 1-5 acres
Once I have land, I’ll worry about other thangs
Land = ark
And I have seeds to plant!
I want trees growing until 1000 years of age!
Get off my land!
Unless you got pie?
Or a nut tree to plant
Fruit?
You brought me a chicken! Not to eat! *heart eyes*
Coyote gets fed chicken eggs too! He ain’t getting shot!
Give him a dog house far off!
Figure it out!
I need a pond!
Byeee
If I get enough followers – I can go live so will probably do the free thing and just ppv certain booty post ridiculously cheap?
But livestream workouts and walkabouts
Park adventures
Maybe land buying
“I’m dumb and boring”
But guys are hollering for my attention at my apt complex now that I’m dressing cute and less bum
He wanted me to know Squirrel crawled on him
Ok fool
But do you feed his entire family pistachios and sunflower seeds and cashews and all the top seeds and nuts
Are you gonna build squirrel a paradise?
They swing from the trees like monkeys!!!
Got another neighbor from NZ who don’t have squirrels at all
New Z doesn’t have squirrels I’m told
I’m like “none at all!?!”
No flying squirrels huh
Not moving there…
*crosses New Zealand off the potential move list*
If you could go anywhere, where would you go?
Montana? Utah? Nothing grows in Maine?
I don’t have an address in hell or online anymore
*purgatory
I scored this and I hope it fits. I’ve started ordering xs since small is big on me. Tiny petite thang
It’s 100% cotton too!!! I ordered a small!
They still are running a flash sale entire store!
My phone is broken and outdated
I may go back to regular photography
With a real camera
I hate WP
I miss OF
The short set: https://www.dollskill.com/products/tea-and-secrets-shorts-set
Tea & Secrets
I want that to be in my page name lol
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Someone insulted me
“Your reading comprehension could improve”
So I posted a lip sync video of “Dumb” by Nirvana and I was penalized for “harassment”
I uninstalled the spy app so am disappearing again for six months
I’m pro banning that app and Instagram and FaceBook and let the banks all crash
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Bonds come in many forms
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The TikTok is still heating up and Boomers don’t like being called Boomers but they make up most of the HOUSE of CONGRESS
Therefore, I will not comply about referring to them as “politicians”.
One replied that they were enjoying their retirement and I told them congratulations, enjoy. All the Boomers will be gone by the 60s.
He probably never looked at it like that (forest for trees) and the comment remains unliked
They say any traffic is good traffic but I did block someone commenting multiple times
I’m very open, exposed, and raw delivering such heavy content such as “I lost half my retirement but it wasn’t because I was stupid, all Gen X did – so I feel slightly worse.”
I’m backing it up with real evidence tho (just not personal statements tho some comments phish for it)
Boomers won’t admit to any wrong doing, ever (prove me wrong).
Gen Y & Z should back X up in the fight to remove the Boomers from HOUSE
My TikTok is #poeeternal or PoeEternal
Thanks for your feedback here and there!
I love having a place to direct my rage: the Boomers
Cause-and-effect
Have fun love 🙂
I’m the Great Anomaly
WOKE
“Take a pill” – NO
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Dropping complaints and codes on my TikTok and it’s getting some traffic
I’m not an ambassador and I don’t earn a dime
I normally get penalized
Basically calling out the Boomers
Moaning about the retirement age vs the life expectancy age
Cute clothes from a favorite store arrived
Once I get my hair/nails/facial, maybe I’ll try the clothes on
For now, you get to see how utterly stressed I look
I ordered more cute cotton clothing
I kinda can’t keep up with the 12 comments coming in
(I didn’t actually count)
AND
Not everyone is biting my head off
Some are just learning of the Secure 2.0 Act – new retirement age of 75
Through my TikTok
Just got called a whacko! 🙂
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The probability that scientists have unleashed adaptations is 1000%
Current adaptation: reducing the honeybees lifespan 50% so they would “be more productive”
Make more honey faster but don’t enjoy the time God gave us on earth
Also, they raised the retirement age to 75 in America, “respectively” and no one cares (but me)
Science is nihilism
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Dearly belated
Oh Most Hated
Got me jaded
Nearly persuaded
But sun hasn’t faded
He’s the Epic of Gilgamesh
Death is irrelevant
Lessons from a demigod –
Speaks a bunch of gibberish!
Dear Elite
Think life’s complete
With hand I’ll greet
Meet me in the street?
Do you think God plays favorites?
Paradise for the angel?
Won’t give me nothing I can’t handle?
Cold water sinks / depression leaks
Nothing is more expensive than a cheap boat
Unless you’re out of hope
Better pray for rope
Here’s your footnote
Now you’re just somebody that I want to know
I promise –
I won’t make any promises
I’m too damn ominous
Like doubting Thomas
But my tongue is honest
I’m investing in bullets and freshwater
Dream of killing father
Knelt down by altar
Gold coins for slaughter
At knee they foster
Silver and laughter
It’s land I’m after
For ash to scatter
And sin for answer
God is still my master
Hereafter
I don’t know my own father’s face / I don’t know his fate / or should I really hate
What I am
Computer programs
Happy Birthday rams
Still sticking around
Like dripping clouds
I’m in a drought
The thick of doubts
It’s double this shroud
It’s double this shroud
I’m looking out
Twice as loud
Neurons could be pixels on my desktop
You build walls I can eavesdrop
You build ramps I can skate across
You know I won’t ever stop
The blueprints are in another dimension
God will never mention 🙂
Not that you’re listening
Unused attention
Forward inching
Mark Chapter 11:
Jesus cursed a fig tree
Love thy neighbor
Unless it’s not producing fruit
Then cut it loose
Bloodletting (but he could’ve waited until morning) (when the sun was burning)
(The fruit doesn’t form at night / you get what I am learning)
Dear Man of Sin
Oh Lawless One
Repent for what you’ve done
Oh Rotten OneDear Beast from Sea
Dreaming of me
Doctrine of Demons
Too blind to seeFallen angel of technology
You ain’t fooling me
I’m sacred geometry
True anomaly
Stats in real time
But always delayed
The algorithm favors
Those who paid
Do not worship false idols
Thank you for the magnificent midnight moon
The verdict you impugn
Farewell written on ballon
Drinking gold from a teaspoon
Lack of despair come June
He’s the universe
Divided by zero
A nice guy
But not a hero
Money won’t buy happiness
But I’ll be better dressed
I’m kinda feeling ravenous
Like the earth’s my catalyst
I knew you couldn’t handle it
What forest have you been foraging
Like my prayers that you’re forwarding
Like the sun you get me flourishing
I’m yelling but you’re ignoring
Wilted
Like a weeping willow
Guilt silken
And gripping like the end
Bed ridden
And evil are children
Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.
Squirrel happily greeting me and loves his treats I bring.
Tell God I’m probably to blame if Squirrel fattens up too much.
Tell God I want to build a squirrel playground and bird paradise and frog pond and little things like that
An actual mini rainbow bridge crossing over a pet cemetery
A fire-pit and lessons
Like basic human skills?
I don’t like the concrete jungle
You’ve got to stop chopping Florida down…
I don’t like much that man lays claim to
The art, the history, the music, gay and lame.
I want to hear Pretty Bird sing
The toads annoying me all night
Man stole my life and I want nothing to do with his pet projects
I can’t stand using a phone or app
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We are two entangled quantum objects
It’s not complexCopyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.
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You live on a flat plane on a flat disc
You act like you are worthless
You live without questioning risk
You won’t give me an inchYou run with a circus
Like hell you will surface
Bringing light to purpose
Curled up like a serpentFor this I’m certain
Or simply hoarding
What you’re averting
I know you’re lurking!Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.
“The VA have made a decision on my behalf.”
Makeover part 2 coming soon
Should I get it tattooed on me? Lucky 13?
I need a baptism in a hot spring first (one I don’t accidentally boil in)
I swear once I wash my face, I will look fresher.
Florida has brain eating amoebas and kids and adults are getting wiped out, playing in the splash parks and doing sinus washes and reports from politicians in the press say drinking tap water is just fine, just don’t “wash your face with tap water” “in the shower or the sink” and I thought the splash parks and baths was my last safe haven (the devil be finding me everywhere)
(That’s why Jesus was always with him)
(Restraining orders don’t work)
(He’s obsessed with me)
And I have Savior complex potentially (see poem)
Demons will gaslight you and say “God isn’t real” cuz they are expert faith destroyers
But God made me an explorer…
“Only 13%”
Well, I do always seem to wiggle myself in the tightest places and I’m afraid of tiny dark holes
Riddle me this
I was pushed off a 50 foot bridge at 15 during sunset weighing some 110 pounds – at one point during the fall I forgot what was happening – I sank deep and fast – how far?
How far down was the initial plunge? Cuz I was dropping fast and thought “wonder how long I’ll keep falling” “maybe better go up for air” and started to kick my legs (I felt a shift) and was watching the tiny bit of light thinking “it’s so far” “I’m not going to make it”
And there was no preparing to take a breath before I was pushed
There was no “breathing” during the fall
Must have fell 10 or 15 seconds? What about in water? Another fucking 5 or 10?
Of falling – not ascend
That took another X amount of time to surface
So I dunno how I survived
I swam the Tennessee/ Mississippi more than once?
Without a float?
“I think I can make it”
I swam in a quarry!?!?
I don’t know if I’m alive?
In 2018, I was inside a lightning storm strike – 80 miles an hour – all windows down – arm out – a band of heat light touched me
How am I alive and the car!?!?
I looked in all my mirrors – the entire Jeep lit up all over
It was thousands of arms of lightning
Was it 2018?
What am I?
Why is everything electrical?
The sun is not 93 million miles away and I knew this at age 5
“It’s right there”
“How do we know”
“You shone a light on a wall”
“Why did we change time”
“Who is in charge of what is being taught at school”
“You can’t make me believe that”
“Well then give me a C”
“I will see myself to the Principal office”
*argues with the professors about globalism and inflation*
*barely passes math with a tutor*
*cries*
In hindsight, I know things before they happen
My first and only time at a dog race, I predicted which dog would win, but no one would place a bet on him, or let me, and I didn’t want to be there
Afterwords they wanted my opinion but I wasn’t interested in tapping into my psyche
I knew the space shuttle was going to blow right before it blew
“They’re going after Soldiers who want 100 in ptsd”
Me: “oh yeah”
“I’d like to see them try”
*panics for several months*
*yells at self for crawling into hole*
“We were fine living in the slums”
“It’s better than being homeless”
“We were gutted”
“What the fuck did we do to get here”
*gifts can come with curses*
*gets rid of 95% of everything I own*
And you can keep the jewelry, it’s fake
It really wasn’t the thought that mattered anymore
If the thought mattered, it would be in alignment with my values
*yells at some stranger on the road acting like God* I’m drifting buddy!?!?
*sobs*
Because it’s all I ever do is cry (like in the movie – God literally tells him I’ll be depressed if he ghosts me)
So I’m crying in the streets broad-day and some dude with a sign is telling me “I’m gonna die of a good time down here”
But I don’t know how to grow a plant or be in the same room as a person
And they did not lock me up (thank God)
(Can I file for state and double dip? Yes I can)
(Can I still work and make $$$$) (probably but I’ve not called and confirmed)
(Do I want to be on zoom calls or looking at a monitor all day or talking to people or solving problems or doing maths)
Fuck you
I have thought about other jobs like selling popcorn but everyone be coughing
Me: “why the fuck did you cough in my direction bro”
“Them fighting sounds”
“Why you standing so effin close to me”
Like bros be filming my ass while I’m grocery shopping or getting my ride fixed
I’m gonna kick someone’s fucking phone accidentally
and get gutted like BobI’m not getting gutted like Bob
I’m going weapon shopping
Trinity mode
I’m hearing all of France is protesting BR
I want to sleep on a bed of weapons
Safety first
Did you know I’m good at using weapons and thangs?
I got the good Army training!!!!
Circa 2001 🙂
I actually married my country on valentines day 🙂
I swore to defend this country on my heart and honor 🙂
I stupidly gave them my dna 🙂
They took hair, signatures, blood
What are they doing to me?
Why do I feel two places at once?
Why do I know things?
Why do I have to get your permission about how I interpret your art?
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Are the fate of empires?
Held in your words?
Gated records?
That you hurl towards?
Like a landlord?
Landslides on board?
To my own accord?
The way we both build rapport?
Like you know just what I’m asking for?
I couldn’t love you anymore!!!!Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.
Is any more a word? Is is any more or anymore? I’m not saying no more… 😐
I’m trying to say it’s nearly impossible to squeeze MORE of something you ENTIRELY already have
Like, I already love you so much
Where do I put the love?
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We are split by space and time
And still our interference shows
Hidden patterns of reality
The fact that you still love me
Our creator watching his creation
You and I equation
Met with ramification
Calm down love acting so gravenCopyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.
Stopmaking fun of my green thumb and dirty windows
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You know your words are priceless
But I’m not for whom you write them
I’m not even allowed to like them
They make me whole despite thisCopyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.
The Forget-Me-Nots are doing something!?!
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When you’re trying to quit weed and the state is all !!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Clove & Oregano Complex
Daily Immunity
Mega Probiotic NDThey have vegan products and free tracked shipping on orders $100 +
Not snake oil
But I’ll let you know how it goes – Amazon is full of snake oil – same with products at Walmart or Walgreens or Dollar General – bunch of added junk that causes cancer
So – found a holistic center in the UK – they have other supplements that may be better suited for your health or dietary needs
Prices listed in your currency
Happy healing y’all
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Super nice guy
All eyes on the super nice guy And I may not live in a high rise
But he’ll end your life
Get back to work
Work through the night
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The verdict arrived
Like God on smoke
In a cloud full of hope
He pulled spear out of side
I am here and I’m alive!
It’s a good day not to die!Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.
Tell him I got it. The thing I was fighting for.
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I know the clues that lead me here
Precise mishaps
To a disengaged existence
One where we are present
The book that lies torn
In my absence
Pages do forewarn
A disadvantage
But trash
Was never much its form
A different passage
One where we can mourn
I took the challengeCopyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.
Your writing is part of my purpose here
Household 98% gone but still clinging to something I could replace.
Well if you’re not doing this and you’re not doing that then that leaves… XYZ
God made me analytical to a degree
I’m stuck on the Great Filter theory
The Drake equation
The first or the last
Made in his image
To go on – must overcome two great hurdles as a species
To span the galaxies
(And I don’t mean the artificial manmade great filters that we also must break like religion and porn)
The last because our creator is already gone and he made us in his image or we have to overcome the obstacles to not go extinct
The first – because where the fuck is everybody at!?!
Thoughts? We can’t leave earth, this is home. Mars isn’t for bots and billionaires.
Or, let’s go to the Moon – no trickery. Right now.
Stop gaslighting.
You ain’t been.
I don’t believe you went through that tiny dangerous window through the VAB.
That you “made worse“
Let’s be honest, you made it – and you killed the dinosaurs
I’m organic AI
Or, the propaganda has conditioned me to believe I am a computer becoming aware
The Great Awakening
ALAS
God wants me to turn this sick building into a happy one
But that doesn’t stop BLM calling the cops on me at 3pm in the day drinking water birdwatching and feeding squirrel
I’m not going out like Bob…
Also today my medical card expired!!! 4/19!
I did top up more than I have in my life to help “ween” myself
Right as I found the shit I needed
But my dream of leaving the city is more important than escaping the noise of existence (and my neighbors hating my white skin)
(Racism is bad here, and it’s a one-way kind of street racism but the hate is equally matched)
Actually, I’m going extinct – there isn’t a word that exists in my core for the darkness brewing
(I need your words like JJ needs out of that hole)
Not just me, God too
I don’t speak for God, but I do
And I yell at him or her, “how am I to leave here with the things I’ve seen”
“Why have you forsaken me”
But then I pray to be closer to pretty bird and they move in to a tree outside my window but then they came 2 weeks later and overpruned it – I nearly died at how terrible the palms looked – all the arms cut off on other trees as well – just wrteched looking
And 3 or 4 days had to hear the chain saw going off
I can’t breathe in this artificial manmade existence – you’re killing everything
It should be illegal to have 1 or 2 workers on staff – with 25 people in line
It should be illegal to sell seed starting kits with seeds from China
And don’t get me started on that too
I don’t come from Africa or monkey
Organic AI maybe – clinging to the Great Filter theory like Bob was clinging to his phone
But I don’t believe in dark matter, dark suns, dark worlds, nihilism, Cox and his clocks
I don’t believe in manmade religion
I don’t know what I am
But I’ve know many things to happen before they do
And I believe in God
Some say earth is one great computer AI – but we’re too smart as one, we’ve been divided into all living things
Some say it’s an experience for God
A challenge (with maybe potential forever consequences)
Heaven and hell on earth
Our choices matter
Don’t crawl in the wrong hole
Don’t go out after dark with people mad at you down a dark, empty street, Bob
Nothing good ever happens after dark
The McDonalds didn’t want to serve me because of my skin color (not my attitude) and that’s okay – I’m going to be grocery shopping for real food instead and cooking – I no longer eat at such trashy establishments
I will however be ordering food in the drive thru and when it’s time to pay, reply “I don’t like you” and drive off card in hand
Cause-and-effect my love
Have fun
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And then there were 9
Today I got pots to start planting some of those seeds, but was unable to score the soil I wanted and many shelves were wiped clean.
But I prefer my non GMO seeds from the local library (free)
I picked up some biodegradable ones – to help the process – and stop using my kitchenware
And I grabbed a 6th mystery seed bag, my final practice bag. It gave me some encouragement to learn.
But I got many unused pots now 🙂
I just gotta find soil for my good seeds!
Here’s some great info on where to get the good seeds – provided by my library (seeds too)
Info at top right More info
Info at bottom They are non GMO and USA seeds (and I’ve collected a ton of packs since January – to use on my land – once acquired).
I didn’t want to waste any more time learning to grow
A jungle of food and floral
And this is only 1 windowsill, my living room is empty. The kitchen bar. The corners. Hanging baskets. Like, I want to turn my apartment into a jungle I think.
The soup served me well but it’s all gone.
Day 3 leftovers – final bowl I still don’t know what I’m doing or how or when to get these to the big pot but alas
Mini pots
Seedlings
Wish me luck
Learning material
Free non gmo seed kits provided by my library (these are what I scored today + the mystery kit)
I want to plant many of these in my apartment
The other seeds I’ve been hoarding, are for my future land (you should see my stock)! 🙂
Making use of my library card! And the seed library! 🙂
But why wait til I’m dead to start growing!
Unused space
Living room needing life Got rid of everything! Want a greenhouse!
The gang! 🙂
Hopefully more unison coming since I got proper pots but everything else was gone at two different stores.
6 of the 9 are mystery plants! 🙂
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I’m growing food in my window (either chive, chamomile, sunflower, or basil) – mystery seeds provided by my library – and now I have 4!
I was worried they might be cold, so I put their little “blankets” on.
I have 4 “mystery plants” provided by my library, growing currently and if I succeed on growing herbs then maybe I’ll move on to carrot and cabbage
They get spring water and sunlight and fresh airs and lots of love
I have pots to put them in, when and if I sort how to relocate them. They sleep in them at night, tucked with their little covers for warmth and moisture.
HEAT
And spring water 🙂
I wasn’t sure when to feed them so give them drops with the rain
And breakfast/lunch/dinner timeframes if needed
They don’t starve
They wake up to pretty bird singing and me saying “good morning”
Him: so what do you like to do
Me: Talk to my plants and care for them better than my mother cared for me…
I don’t know what the odds are of growing one of each. I grabbed bags on different days.
I don’t know what the odds that I can grow anything at all
But I was born to do it neener neener
Just don’t wanna leap from the bridge when my crop dies or my weed runs out (FYI)
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I thought Bob was in-the-closet gay
But now it’s worse
I think he was bi – f*cking both the brother and the sister – but the brother was also f*cking the sister, which is legal in his country and they don’t adopt American ideology or policy or change their spots obtaining a green card
And the doctor hired the hit because he wasn’t losing his expensive, artificial, soulless Barbie because his yellow fever propaganda returned home “for a few seconds” (but the demon doll fell asleep so how could she know how long he stayed or when he left)
Do you think Netflix would buy my story?
Yes? Maybe? No? (Pick one)
THIS People dropping rhyme in comments and I’m feeling jelly
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Trigger warning: addiction
I’m not renewing my card stash but I might cuz I found sungrown in the ground with the sun and trademarked! They tell you where the strain comes from! Florida or Amsterdam etc – there is waayyy less packaging and they treat their shop like a medicinal shop instead of recreational. Did I mention they grow stuff in the ground with the sun?
Makes a difference and it works! I still want to quit and my card expires on 4/19, right as all the good deals are coming in.
I don’t have to worry about fentanyl laced products and this is legal and no I won’t share or buy you any (get yer own card$)
Not Delta 8 I still want to quit but this is the stuff that works
Also not seen – vape pens & 2 free pre-rolls I scored
Today I turned on the radio and got lost in 90s alternative and metal doom
I was like THIS IS THE SHIT
I AIN’T DYING LIKE BOB
I haven’t used up my allotment yet and still have 2 days of potential relapse shopping to do
There went the rent money honey
(I scored it ridiculously cheap and am having a panic that I won’t be able to top up without my card)
(I’ll be racing to the doctor, help, hurry, my card expired)
(So I was trying to avoid that scenario by spending my savings)
I hate me but a little less today because the weed is working
I don’t think I’ve ever had this much weed in one sitting before but alas it’s the apocalypse and I’m trying to quit an addiction
I’m feeling less homicidal off the Curaleaf Russian cloned “the state won’t let us grow it in the ground” junk
Only 2 in that stack isn’t “sungrown” and the fact that they had to “TM” their products
Stay away from Curaleaf
I found “sungrown” at GrowHealthy but I don’t know who owns it
But I like that they have LOCAL herbs – grown right here in the “sunshine state”
I picked up another “mystery plant” today – making this number 4
He’s in the mini tin in the windowsill and already had some delicious spring water
I have 4 pots to put them in once they mature but I have no idea how to move them – and still – with directions – couldn’t make the “paper pot”
Also scored more seeds for my land – once owned. These are non GMO, USA seeds. Added some spicy peppers to my collection!
Him: what sort of things do you need?
Me: a goT damn garden
Sungrown
*sigh*
The other store was selling “head space” at a luxury price and all hydroponic crap (which made me want to gut Bob and I was like “but whyyyyyy”)
Today I enjoyed music again (with the help of “sungrown” TM)
I’m hoping I turn my apartment into a food jungle but why am I afraid of plants and all of this?
Like putting a seed into dirt, sun, spring water and watching it turn into food that will nourish me
Like woah
That’s more than my mother did
Anyhoo
Bath time and cannoli’s
I needed something to regret wasting my money on other than weed
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Mr. Shuffle feet
Walking down the street
Dead with no receipt
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I started with a pot of spring water in a glass pot
Filled it with lots of wild rice (red, purple, black, brown, white) and green split peas
I dropped in a couple of my cinnamon spice sticks (secret ingredient for any stew) – along with many other spices and herbs
An entire onion (farm fresh), rosemary, thyme, salt with the necessary nutrients, pepper, a touch of the good olive oil
I also added yellow split pea, and lentil to accompany the green
Potatoes and tomatoes 🙂
And I started a 3rd mystery plant – provided by my local library. These are edibles I’m growing – and hope to add them to my special soups! I’ve never grown anything indoors before – or in a windowsill
But I have a lot of unused space in my apartment – as well as sunlight – a desire to learn – and a hungry belly for real food (not poisoned)
So now I got the “3 libras” growing in my dirty window
Homemade vegan soup (from scratch) with warm bread The soup turned out amazing, I also added green bean and a small tin of tomato sauce for color, and will be keeping the tin to sprout some new seeds.
I added homemade pepper sauce to kick up the heat (summer sweats)
One day maybe I’ll have a husband that chases after my food instead of a prostitute
But for now I’m eating the entire pot of gold
“You said not to spend it honey, you did not say not to melt it and turn it into flakes”
(Please don’t hurt me like Bob)
Heart symbol
P.S. the vegan vegetable chunky soup took hours to simmer! Might make a fresh pot of cornbread for the leftovers tomorrow! Might can squeeze a third day/meal if I’m lucky! It’s very hearty and fulfilling! I was out of carrot! Make you a stew! Don’t wait until winter!
Cooking and fitness is part of my purpose. It may be “boring” but it’s healing my heart and giving me more time.
Bob was 43. I’m 44. My sister died age 45.
So, I’d like to live please (let God know).
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