I don’t know how to say I’m sorry again
I know coming and going seems to be a trend
I really hope forgiveness isn’t a dead end
I really hope for me your hand will still extend
Like towering clouds of doom
Your absence fell over my wound
Huge swells of sorrow circle my room
I hope to hear from you again soon
© Delia Ross. 2019
I really am sorry 😵
Nothingness matters
Gravity in the darkest seed
Too many hers floating in his seas
Lick the hand where it bleeds
Watch the hate fill the need
His wrongs cancel any good
He’ll lie and tell you I misunderstood
Straight from the pits of Hell to a young girl’s neighborhood
He’s never known integrity anywhere he stood
I’ll never forgive him even if I could
© Delia Ross. 2019
If words had weight
If wrongs had reasons
If wounds didn’t ache
If forgiveness had seasons
If goodbyes came with rainbows
If my love was chose
If only I was enough
If only he’d show up
If hands had healing
If tears had feelings
If life had meaning
If hearts were beating
If moments were real
If love were ideal
If lights were not blinding
If you would stop hiding
If galaxies were moving
If darkness stopped the blooming
If alibis were candy
If heartaches were brandy
© Delia Ross. 2019
If only I knew how to end this fucking heartache…
My heart feels like iron
The weight of love measured
It sits with an anchor unstirred
In the center of an ever drying desert
My heart feels the gravity of burden
No hope or pill will cure it
The ache laid down its verdict
One heart remained imperfect
© Delia Ross. 2019
Taking the long journey alone
It was quite heavy lifting the stone
But alas it’s done and I’m on my own
And it’s so black, I have lost my home
Is this life or just a tomb
Is there no forgiveness for the things I do
Is there not a seat for me in this room
Is there any reason for the things I assume
Are my eyes open or are they closed
I thought I heard agreement so who opposed
Did the page turn or decompose
Why were the actual risk never disclosed
Is this pain based on reality
Why does it still hurt when I dream
Why do my eyes leak when I bleed
Why am I not anything they ever need
I know I’m not her and I never was
But if you’ll excuse me I need more gauze
It’s going to take a lot to cover the flaws
And every time I fall someone does applause
Every single hour I go through change
But when I turn around everything’s the same
I guess it’s not important to love the strange
And when it comes to me I don’t have a name
I still have love for him on the inside
I said I didn’t need him but I really lied
And there for a moment I felt alive
But it was just a trick of the night
Not even a demon could love this creature
My only goal was to make his life richer
But as it turns out I am just a creeper
And I’m not capable of giving him fever
Now I have this love and don’t know what to do
I thought I was a diamond or in his heart a jewel
I thought he was my knight, come to save me too
But when it comes to my life I had the wrong value
© Delia Ross. 2019
Narrow views, he once said
Then I killed where it bled
Narrow views, I declined
He only speaks when he’s blind
Narrow views, they bring me down
Now I roam this empty ghost town
Narrow views, is your hue
It matches every silhouette of you
Narrow views, in her mind
But still she closed his blind
Narrow views, the two will find
As they circle where confined
Narrow views, and in his knife
But the Army trained me to not feel life
Narrow views, all around
Watch us all become the clown
Narrow views, it might be true
But when it comes to him I already knew
Narrows views, to hide the shame
Take a picture, put it in a frame
Narrow views, is that your view?
I don’t remember ever asking you
Narrow views, the bell did ring
But for him, honesty was never waiting
Narrow views, his tongue did lie
Watched him clean the blade, without goodbye
Narrow views, the angel sang
But underneath the sound, he felt her fang
Narrow views, they are to blame
Even your mirror, reflects the same
Narrow views, are buried here
And with a tiny view, you watch me disappear
Narrows views, keep circling
But I’m off the freeway and already exiting
Narrow views, they make me pissed
Then I remembered, I was already over it
Narrows views, he gifted me
But I already had the foresight to see
Narrow views, he doesn’t understand
This hell he keeps, I own the land!
Narrow views, I’ll make it clear
Because I don’t need a foggy atmosphere
Narrow views, stay in your queue
Take responsibility for what you do
Narrow views, whip across my back
As I kneel, from all I lack
Narrow views, I’ll carry your cross
The weight of you, I felt the loss
Narrows views and a broken wing
It was only love I was offering
© Delia Ross. 2019
It’s half-past heartbreak
The pain grips like a snake
There’s nothing to stop the ache
Once upon a better time
Wasting youth was such a crime
Pride it only cost a dime
It’s long past sorrow
There’s no joy here to borrow
I still pray he calls tomorrow
Third times a charm or so we learn
In slavery until we are adjourned
And so the same ole pages turn
These forty years I only yearn
© Delia Ross. 2019
Down by the water
I saw her fall
Dawn by the river
She knew it all
She wore mourning
like a night dress
She was the absolute best
Her blue eyes could put you to the test
She always wore mourning best
Dawn by the ocean
She works best in motion
Her and I caused so much commotion
Down she falls
Dawn she calls
We fall like dolls
When Dawn she calls
Down by the water
She works harder
Dawn was smarter
She was my armor
I lost Dawn by the water
I was left alone to falter
I still call on her
Down by the water
© Delia Ross. 2019
For Meika Dawn Capps who died by suicide in 1993. She was the end of me.
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