you almost let me near you
you almost let me kill you
invitation not seen through
sitting at my table
refusing to eat food

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“why is she so pretty”

cause she takes two hours to get ready even if she takes food breaks in between

she speaks more languages than I do and she just now learned English a year ago and she’s better at it than I am

i felt bad for not having a husband or boyfriend

but she said she had a boyfriend

i might of heard “too long”

“would rather be alone”

LIKE WHAAAAA

SHE IS EFFIN BEAUTIFUL AND BRIGHT

i wanted to tip – she had a hard time accepting – it was a way of saying thank you – but she wanted to know if we could be friends “do i accept” and i fucking did “yes i accept” – so the tip felt offensive to a friend? but i asked her to enjoy her sunday, she wanted crab noodles, her favorite, with the money

cuz i even said if we were shopping together “as friends” i would want to buy her lunch

she seemed really offended by a tip kinda – like maybe just had a hard time accepting it

others chimed in – it was a way of showing gratitude

i didn’t want to cheapen her existence

maybe the tip was TOO LOW (it was $20)

but culturally they DO NOT TIP

i don’t think

based on how it went

hope she enjoys her favorite noodles tho

and maybe alone so she can really enjoy them

Because I can’t imagine that she’s not married and would rather be alone

like wha

she popped one them things when she got to 20k likes, her first

WHAT A GREAT IDEA

so fucking smart

WHY IS SHE SO PRETTY

cause she’s probably beautiful outside of all the clothing and the jewelry that takes her literally two hours to get ready

”plus eating”

her boyfriend should be her husband and BRINGING HER TREATS AND MEALS WHILE SHE DOLLS UP

i wanna be her best friend in real life *insert crying emoji*

i’m moving to China *more crying emoji*

but i did order the jade rose ring despite her telling me it’s not the same color as the necklace Jade rose

she seemed to really want me to have that butterfly jade necklace and I really did want it so I wound up getting that too

i do have my eye on some pearl

she reminds me “expensive”

but apparently they do have cheap pearl too

and diy pearl stuff

but I love when she brings out the light and discusses the quality and the clarity and which is better and which is not as good 

pearl vs shell

i like the red – i will say, and she responds “ruby” cuz she’s smart

she says i have rich taste

so sometimes she does not want to sell me something of lesser quality cuz she already knows me better than i know myself

swear

she learns quickly about what people like, she’s a businesswoman

“friends”

she has amazing pieces

i think they actually break oysters for pearls I have not seen that yet but someone requested that during a live

pearl is pricey tho

i like to pay in advance to show im real serious

cause people be claiming shit and then not paying after she works so hard

they have cloth? bracelets too

string of sorts but nice

rope prob is the correct term

and it looked like ceramic or glass or some sort of charm you could use and they could be changed out and you could wear it as a necklace if you wanted

i asked her if she had any lucky cat and she did have some lucky cat and I think I actually got a lucky cat that was just a cheaper little item you know

a lucky cat bracelet

I think I’m also getting a surprise gift but she just didn’t wanna show me

I also got a gift she let me pick out but it was something I had already picked out and claimed and paid for it but she said she was going to give to me for my birthday?

so i dunno

she kept calling me a princess

she said i looked like a princess

and i accepted a friendship tonight

it was so cute tho

“do you accept”

well i’m not saying no

i accept to the point that i repeat “i accept” so there is no misunderstanding in “yes”

my hair might be falling out but I’ve got some Jade coming

And she’s clearly not a fucking vegan or vegetarian and I would still take her to get her favorite fucking noodles crab noodles or whatever they are because I’ve never had crab noodles and you’ve never had biscuits that were homemade?

should get some flour

I said I was doing laundry and cooking this weekend and I don’t think that’s very princess behavior

going for crab noodles and taking two hours to get ready and eating while getting ready sounds more like princess behavior

I need to make some more changes in my life

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regarding the poem: Time passes quickly when you’re not having fun

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The live was amazing and has nothing to do about the poem

I was not bored during the live

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i’ll probably be putting Kaya in a poem soon tho

i mean MY GOD

LOOK AT HER

STOP LOOKING AT HER

she did invite me to be her friend and I accepted but the poem is unrelated to this

need to make that clear

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GO BUY SOMETHING FOR YOURSELF OR YOUR LOVER FROM HER

BE KIND AND DO NOT WASTE HER TIME

PAY AHEAD

TIP HER BETTER THAN ME

LIKE WAYYYYYYY BETTER

GO SUPPORT HER LIVESTREAMS

TOMORROW IS HER SUNDAY

I AIN’T NEVER OWNED A REAL PEARL OR SEEN ONE CRACKED OPEN TWO LIVES IN SO NO WORRIES

it would be interesting to see tho

most pearls are man-made these days anyway right you know this right

look into how they are made

I WANT A CLASSIC SINGLE PEARL NECKLACE I THINK

but currently I GOT JADE

A rose jade ring and necklace, butterfly jade necklace

and yeah the butterfly jade ring is nice too but I ain’t purchased it yet

i purchased the cat ring she was wearing

i stripped her bare *insert crying emoji*’

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