I kinda stole a bible (angelic) and I need y’all to write some stories/poems/haikus or whatnot on this theme
Feel free to tag me
Kiss kiss
Delia AKA PoeEternal (can someone train the AI on me)
K, thanx, bye
LUV U 2DAY
P.S. i upgraded the blog so I can post more photos/audio/videos BUT i ain’t got the polaroid yet and i returned the new iphone17promax cosmic orange like wtf
The dot com is active again
I ain’t done died (hail mary)
Cuz if you’re like the mormons, i’ll keep your personal bible and ghost yah
AND… the first page I open to see…
WITCHCRAFT. WOLVES. SHEPHERDS IN SHEEPS CLOTHING.
IF YOU TAG ME TO YOUR BLOG I’LL BE OBLIGATED TO VISIT AND THAT’S BASICALLY LIKE INVITING A VAMPIRE INSIDE YOUR DOOR
Like when I saw him from the other side, my life flashed before my eyes. Everything I had dreamed of behold: DENIED.
It felt the same walking away from my dream home. I CRIED.
Just wasting away til the moment I DIE
The old me clashing with the new me. The old dreams. No longer fitting. And the tears they keep coming I’M ADMITTING
The fact that they still wanna work with me even tho I didn’t sign the contract, and there’s 4 more available – and he let me know he’d be showing the remaining available
And I wanna curl up but (not die)
I was approved for my dreamhome – I just didn’t have the courage or feelings of worthiness – or maturity – to take on a 3 bedroom, 3 bathroom townhome
I can barely get on most days
I once dreamed prayed while dying “if I could just see my soulmate” “even for a minute” before I die
I don’t really believe in coincidences
I hope he’s happy tho cuz I’m fucking miserable
It’s probably this fucking disease of depression I suffer from
God has imposter syndrome but he’s probably a psychotherapist
I know you never thought about it
Like that before
Did yah?
I just sometimes wish one thought could be my own
If desolate had a picture in the dictionary
I’m prepping to climb Mt Everest (or some other peak) so that’ll take prob a decade to recover from this heart injury
(Im not really planning to climb a mt per say)
(Im practicing freewill and freedom)
I know I sound depressed lmao but Im fine
But I prob shouldnt show my face at my remaining dream homes
“Cramming 1000 years into 24 hours” but no one ever questions the MATH IS WRONG
I keep saying either A. We existed with the dinosaurs (even if we looked less civilized) and dinos were hunted to extinction to make room for MANKIND CHINA NUMBER ONE
B. Dinosaurs were around more recent than not – that’s why blood and tissues are still found. But science doesn’t want you to find out that MAN was responsible for the previous extinction events
That’s why he needs you to believe a false timeline
Furthermore, as someone who has a science degree, I HAVE SINCE DENOUNCED SCIENCE AND MAINTAIN MY FAITH WITH GOD
Waking up from the nightmare nearly drove me off the edge
But I spent hours watching someone else drive off a pier instead: i muted the sound: sometimes i reduced the speed
He never once hit the break
The flickering of the lights was in passing beams (or whatever they are called) on the bridge
He drove thru an iron gate
He never wanted to be seen again
Instead it was filmed and put all over tiktok AND it took recovery days to pull him out of the water
(In hindsight, john jones wanted out of the cave but they left him there…)
(Sometimes i want to go visit jj)
Intrusive thoughts
You don’t wanna know what’s on my mind
Part of me wants to change and the other part wants to find the old me
Before I became whatever the fuck this is
The messy middle
I’m always in the middle
The Wallflowers even wrote a song about it
I’m the middle child even tho my big sister died
I havent processed that one fully
The day I came out of disassociation to try and process it, Pensacola experienced a blizzard
Not my mom in other parts of Florida
Not my other sister
Not my sister’s daughter (my niece)
Just me
A fucking blizzard
It was also her death anniversary
“You died this month but what day”
“You cold fucking bitch don’t forget”
Hell froze over but man it brought SO MUCH JOY to my cold heart
Out there in the blizzard freezing my damn toes off
Going live until the phone freezes
THOUSANDS TUNED IN TO SEE MY LIVESTREAM OF THE BLIZZARD
But not all parts of Florida got it
I literally searched on my computer the day
And then took the dog outside
“OMG IT’S SNOWING”
“WTF IT’S SNOWING”
And it had just started…
Anyhoo they’d lock me up for telling you I jumped into this timeline during an intense lightening storm
Back in 2018 I think
Still me, same me
But not the same world…
Not the same memories…
Fractal
Shhh
Today I woke up with the thought of
“Can fossils be lad made” and they sure fucking can
24 hours no less
On a scale of paranoia being 1-10 mine is nearly always OFF THE CHARTS
The animals were depressed. Their housing is small and filthy. There is little to no enrichment. They were dirty. I saw many trying to find a way to escape, including a turtle bitting at the wire. The budgies didn’t want to eat and were bored of the sticks. The seeds are glued on. The train was always full so despite heading to that area minutes ahead of schedule, it was already packed. I opted for food at the Watering Hole cafe knowing prices would be expensive – every table was filthy and sticky, the food was worse than a gas station or skating rink: The Crispy chicken was so small I had mostly bites of bread and pickles. The chicken was microwaved? Or grilled? There was no bread on the chicken? There was no crisp… I added a funnel cake and it was THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I wasted one (I just didn’t like the taste and there was too much powered sugar it’s all I could taste). The drink was flat (I threw out my Sunkist). They don’t pass out straws for the environment (good) but they do with the Capri Suns (confused). I’m not expecting 5* quality food – but after eating there twice and the staff is SO RUDE – I just don’t wanna bother supporting this place or zoo. I felt sad for most of the animals and their boredom and attempts at escape did not ease my worries. Some animals are safe and happy. The bears look like they are locked up in a jail cell. There was no movement from them. Just laying there hoping to die. I couldn’t figure out the loops of the trail even with maps and a sign so missed out on seeing a Great Ape (the walk was far, the train always full, the place was packed, it was a Sunday morning which ran into afternoon). I took my time seeing what I could. The land is nice. The animals could have so much more space. I wound up converting my day ticket into an annual pass but it will be my last. I hate it because it will hurt the animals. But it’s breaking my heart seeing them suffer. The staff seem young, dissociative, mildly rude, overworked even tho they are doing basic animal care (not very well). If the dining room is THAT DIRTY that they can’t take a few minutes every hour to wipe down the tables or AS NEEDED – then I fear how the kitchen looks. And at them prices, they can afford to give us a clean space to eat and soda with some fizz!
The photo booth was expensive but fun the 1st trip but on my return they had changed the packaging. And overall, I think I am tired with lazy, uncaring staff. This place should be SHUT DOWN. The place is filthy and overpriced in every aspect. Many animals are depressed. Squirrel seems happy. I saw a rhino use the bathroom and then drink from the same water supply. I know this part is normal, some stuff is fun to see. 🙂
3* but honestly I’d rather the animals be free.
I overheard someone at the lion enclosure say “wild captured” and that really didn’t sit right with me.
The entire place feels like an outback of Africa. I LOVE feeding the goats and pigs.
After 2 trips to the zoo including extras (photos, feed, food) I have spent well over $100 for 1 person. Close to $200. So I would make an expensive date apparently. And I would still cry…
In hindsight, I laughed, I cried.
P.S. despite making me cry on our first or second date, please take me to the zoo again. (It’s not your fault). (You just gotta get me involved with conservation efforts or something). Upgrade to the pass and let’s eat some place else. Deal?
And yeah, photo booth photos are recommended / despite the packaging changing *sigh*
I love that they physically print out from the photo booth but currently you can get a free digi version too
You can add filters or backgrounds but I opted to just be me!
I still haven’t seen the hippo (third date please?)
I like walking around, I wish the cafe was clean and the food better (the crispy chicken was a small square and grilled-like)
Mystery meat we call it in the Army
They serving “mystery meat” at the Watering Hole cafe
Oh hi. It’s been six months. I ain’t anybody new. *waves*
Got a recommendation for you.
I’m normally so depressed I don’t like nothing but the rain or sunshine. 🤨
I sat out on my deck dealing with the boredom reminding myself “this is progress” as I watched the low hanging clouds forming circles with me inside and now I’m talking to the clouds “oh you gonna be big huh. So this is what being in the eye is like. Well please don’t hurt me”.
I ain’t turned my vehicle into a storm chaser yet
And eventually I took my brand new bike out – to “weather the boredom”
Wound up going up hill and against the wind
I’m like I DON’T WANNA STOP BUT THEM CLOUDS COULD POUR DOWN ANY SECOND
*decides to cruise further*
She’s inside the laundry room locked up even tho I got an all weather bike bag
Everyone has their bikes outside – we got cameras and eyeballs watching 24/7
My bike is the cheapest I’m certain but it ain’t stopped folks from raising eyebrows
She’s pretty I know
No gears
You gotta do the back thing with the brakes
It takes some getting use to
I was use to handle bar brakes
And remember I cleaned out my closet and made THREE TRIPS to Platos Closet (a thrift store) to sell items to budget for a bike
Daisy – The Golden Syrian Hamster – enjoying my fern (by the way, Hamster populations in the wild are down 50% as of 2019. They are listed as critically endangered. They are going extinct. (This one still bites me because she knows I can’t live without her)
Daisy munching on my fern – houseplants improve mental health and air quality
I literally stopped posting because all the threats and penalties were damaging my mental health
I’ve logged in from time to time, my account was back in “good standing” for pretty much all of 2025.
But because Hitler still reigns – META is holding my account hostage and not giving me access to any of the content I worked hard on – building my community – so they could bury us under the rubble and build a new temple on top of all we did – the poetry – the digiart – pictures of my now dead sister and dad
So the only reason I was hanging on to my account was personal
I was behaving
I was following community guidelines
But in the end, it didn’t really matter
My nightmares are true
They are keeping me from you
So even after appealing, giving them my email, agreeing to captcha, they still cockblocked me and requested my fucking FACE
Had a doc appt with my primary care doc. She was spitting words out like swords, I began to cry
And even towards the end of the appointment, as if her heart ain’t black enough, she had the audacity to put a hole in my already sinking hope boat
On faith I float
Anyway, without too many details, I simply stated I’d like to live as old as my grandmother in a halfhearted tone and she replied: (wait: where’s the quote thing that automatically turns a quote into a quote, into 4 lines- QUITTING MIDTHOUGT)
He was something beautiful A storm surge Rushing through oblivion At the throne of dutiful No question he loved her
Dust forms in the cracks of your soul Exit gates where my pity can tiptoe
Try to disappear wearing red Got the killer on a bloodshed Going for the gold Glowing above my halo
He’s breathing lead Like he’s the second planet from the sun You better run
But I’ll be hiding in light I’m right in sight The guns and the knives
It’s familiarity Hiding twice as fast as speed Is he looking at me
Lying underneath the rubble Exactly where he’s slugging Disappointment ain’t subtle
The way your stillness blinds me Turns me into butter Like looking in the sun
So I escape instead Of dying in the gutter In the lattice of the young
Last time I was caring? Red herring When’s a time you never lied? HaHa you tried
I’ve been sleeping with an attitude I’ve been sleeping like you asked me to Sometimes it really comes to choice Like what else am I supposed to do?
Grossly corrupt How they grew up
Got us hanging from the line And my ears are ringing From your screaming “You gotta cut it this time” The world below spinning My head killing But I’ll need a minute To process this ending
You’re waning gibbous Saying death could be the best of us
I seek a future different the past. What right ascension and declination have you seen one at?
I never really learned to tie a knot It’s not my luck I never learned to love a lot
Can’t get a leg up Probably miss him too much Text him when I’m not drunk
Like when I give him secrets Can’t trust he won’t keep them Wrap em up beneath him
Bran scan shows I’m dumb But I don’t know how come Unlike this chair I built With all his lies I’ve dealt
I’ve got a single bullet Don’t know where I should put it Maybe under the Mistletoe Right where the axes go
Have you succumbed Down in the mire Took you how long Cutting through the liar
Coffee is on the stove There’s a warm glow And the nightmare from my dreams below Hanging from my halo A rock would be softer than this pillow I’m too low
It’s that time of the month again. Where my mood shifts like a pendulum. Can’t handle where I’ve been. It’s just my blood darling.
Can’t believe people didn’t take better care of their bloodlines.
I’m crying all the time, putting in the overtime, won’t cost you a dime.
Happy dying. Oh stop lying.
I dunno if this is an insult but it’s likely why you’ll never hear me boo’d off stage or attempting open mic cuz that’s exactly what this slam poetry was –
Thank you?
I just think it’s funny I quit posting after that comment. I mean how many straws?
No I don’t have thick skin. Poe died naked out his mind on the street darling.
There are hills I have climbed There are mountains where I’ve died I’m still lingering on the hillside There are trails where the blood dried
Your stats are booming! But it doesn’t mean I’m looming Come school me Don’t fool me
I had the worst diet Lived on his lies like it was the Hyatt His love was a riot Never peace Just wanted quiet
What am I doing holding onto these ashes? Counting midnight stashes? Wondering how long life is? Cuts like a knife when Life ends Just like yours did Where does mine begin?
The same way they think they’re game is worth waiting for They’re a fucking bore Matchmaking locked But I got a glock
I didn’t want to give another update; another reason why I am late. An outtake: for fuck sake
My favorite part of the journey is the rest Think I like it best Some call me lazy Cuz I like to nest?
Of course we would meet through the ether I’m not pure either Heaven I would not enter Just sitting here in purgatory Like a bedtime story
My love is buried in a cave Degrading Am I worth saving?
Dear Follower, I know you followed Through endless hollow Look all the years and roads we travelled Bickered laughed falling on some gravel
The places we will go You know I miss you so?
Met you at my lowest like an interlude of course it wasn’t the devil but God true and true even if you were just a man he looks just like you?
Do you think God could create a love that goes on forever? Do you think the universe is a love letter? Cuz I’ve got memories as distant as stars But not where you are Like living in a waking dream You are there in the corner of my seams WALKING WITH ME
We’re neurodivergent We spin like it’s urgent Spinning faster than the earth is Some say we’re imperfect
Error Like an arrow Straight to the center gravity Of my failure
Still I’m getting better Miscalculating data Just like the AI Counting only matter
I don’t know what I’m holding on to Will I disappear after all I’ve been through If I let her go, will I be new?
I don’t know what I’m doing here When I want to roam the streets dear But my shadow’s bringing fear
I don’t know why I’m circling Nothing I do ever stops the hurtin’ There’s just avenues of me
Burial piece cuz single never married (i think it’s real crystal cuz it’s imperfect yah?) but also the energy – the light reflecting – the weight and things (new crystal head piece) (will things catch fire if i go out in the sun – i mean that could make for a good vampire short) (and yes people do catch their houses and cars on fire over 1 tiny crystal – how many does this hold) – new superpowers uncontrolled – prob why im grinning – i could be the most hideous beast but not my headpiece) (he gonna wanna marry me)
They pass out medical diagnosis like it’s a weather forecast; “You’re 6 degrees from dying but there’s sunshine at last”…
Precognition
I said, you’re perfect Nothing would be worth it That’s the verdict
(I’ll never date or acknowledge another ten) (not even gonna look their way) (oof TOUCHE BROTHER)
RUST IN HELL
Like if a ten ever asked me out for anything I’d be like: WHAT. NO. You’re more than a ten.
I’d simply walk away.
And if he persisted I’d just demand loudly: I DON’T WANNA BE YER FLESHLIGHT
Yeah no NOT REAL – DENOUNCED – took me a whole science degree and 40 plus years WOOHOO – I AWOKE
Like standing up for yourself While backing into a wall It’s no fun at all But you will prob hear me laugh As I’m picking up my step Crying down the hall
I dunno if I’m clumsy or if it’s almost a full moon
Two things can be true at once
I get upset I don’t spend more time talking to the stars
That shit won’t even be twinkling til I ask it something specific: “did you miss me, two for yes, one for no” and I’ll be blessed it’ll blink twice
HA! knew knew
Our love is instant – no distance between the two
The sun is local
Flat earth: not confirmed
(I know things b4 they happen)
I pick up the signal before the signal arrives
DO U WANT MORE LINES?
(Im still under a treatment plan, not in remission, got tired of the constant penalties trying to game or socialize)
You don’t want me writing on *insert CGP* yet
Better let me feed the squirrels
And stop cutting down the trees
You already ran off Owl or killed him one
Im on final edge
THERE’S NO MORE WARNINGS
I’ll attempt to post some of my DBD gaming maybe – just to show you how pissed off I really am – either go all in on the killer hardcore pallet stun blind after blind or i never move
I go in without an offering item or perk
I don’t lurk
It’s either “go ahead and get yer 4k or there’s no stopping me and i’ll even get the hard save”
I was laughing SO HARD when I kept getting STUN AFTER STUN and kept shaking my head NO but the killer was heated – and I was so calm – Im learning to control my moods thru the game lmao
Get the killer all worked up and I aint even breaking a sweat
Eh sometimes I feel bad and just let them have me cuz damn i be mean
But what’s even more fun is the killer only saving me
Ive tried to die and they’re like “nah you can have hatch”
“Im suicidal too”
Sweet. Happy Halloween boo.
Squirrel enjoying the fresh food n water from the rabbit carrot ceramic bowls
I uninstalled the game. AGAIN.
And I don’t doomscrool
The one app I was left on kept punishing me after I spent loads of money feeding the enemy
Im not supporting other creators when I cant do the same (without penalty)
Im tired of appealing?
I really wanna update my blog?
I have goals but then again Im bed rotting
I was at physical therapy yesterday
“Im not ready for a walker”
But you need to get use to seeing me with a walking stick
I just wanted you to know how hard it is To let go all of this But then again What’s there to miss? Standing at the cliff No rope to climb with I don’t even have a picture Think I burned all of my sister Doesn’t mean I never miss her Writing on the sand, on the stalls, it’s my fault nobody calls
I imagine the distance that keeps us – and why heaven can’t reach us – because space isn’t just silent – it’s speechless
Maybe your name is Apophis. We’re both lost in the abyss.
THAT’S NOT WHAT I ASKED
According to Saint Peter Steele:
“April 2-0-2-9 the final time / the end my friend is not near / the hour – in fact – is quite here” (-)
(Could you pick your speed up on writing lines, even if I’m not on time, I never learned to set a clock, I never even hear a chime, it’s almost like it is a crime, but I can do a run-on, I think it has been too long, but I don’t have timer in the kitchen to help me not burn this song)
He reminds me of you. But aren’t your eyes blue? Like an angel from the sky, make me fall down and sigh. Know you saw me coming too…
Or maybe your the Jester, I’m just a guesser
Do you know how to measure luminosity? What about the loss of me?
(I really just wanted to share the first 4 lines – I’ll play catchup another day)
It’ll be easier to snap photos of my messy writings
It’s just freestyle
It’s not messy messy
It’s just – the urge – to write in cursive
With curses
Found out who you really were / didn’t make a difference cuz / you were meant for her \
You go from sunshine to icy winds The road less travelled is the road we’ve been You go from shadow to now we’re friends? I guess we’re ghosting again?
Are you paying for your sins Cuz it’s all black and white where we live Like looking at the the sky We go places planes won’t fly
Have you sat in a room with your biggest enemy? Did you have a chance to dine with me?
Where do you go when you plan to leave? Will you appear in another galaxy?
Cuz’ I don’t need a crystal ball To see the sacrifices crawl Or flowing down the river bank “It’ll never flood again you think”
Have you calculated costs? Is it buried under mud and frost? Or a thousand-hundred years Like losing lives on lies
Cuz you ain’t never shared your bread with me You ain’t never been to bed with me (But I know you would’ve bled with me)
Cuz shedding sin is like shedding ghosts? But it’s cold outside, so you’ll need your coats
I know you got an alibi I’ve been driving 80 Flooring 100 lately Just to hear your lie
Time is platinum Unlike for Juliana Sacrificed no honor Locals cheering “she’s a goner”
But I don’t know who wins this When every policy’s unfit Unclear is your last text sent Since you swore there were no fears
I saw you trembling on the mountain dear And how they took their time on getting near But I know they had “a lot of gear” An ulterior motive to carry up as well
“I’m not afraid” God is unfazed But they will pay when they return to hell
Twisted Masquerade year nine / have you been with me this whole time?
You go from sunshine to icy winds The road less travelled is the road we’ve been You go from shadow to now we’re friends? I guess we are ghosting again?
The earth could tip and the sea would swallow us wide – Everything but my pride!
I’m sorry but, imagine me in a long trench coat, with like a dozen or more of rats and rodents, banging on heaven’s door, just crawling all over me, my shoulder, my pockets, my pigtails presumably?
“Brought some things with me”
Daisy, age around 6 months, known to bite, cannibalistic, likes crickets? (Here she’s snacking on a twig with flowers)
Store said she’d been there the longest – adopted and returned
They said she likes to bite
Charlie already wants to extend the family
I told Charlie it might not be best knocking Daisy up her first night here
Not to mention the HABs aren’t even completed
I was going in for substrate and saw that sign for “50% off”
They said eventually it’d be reduced even further – to 75% and then well… she goes one more place and tries one more time (where surely she will bite and their number one rule for biting is “put down”)
It saddens me this society – this lifestyle of bartering one another at what cost
There was another girl that was born there – i really wanted her – she had a cow-like print
I NEED LAND
And a shed
I don’t care what the influencers think
“…this is animal abuse”
But mine are sleeping peacefully in their chaotic HAB
(HAB is short for habitat for those who don’t know)
They also get me as their caretaker and no one on TikTok seems to get that
I told Daisy today that the family returned her because she didn’t belong with them, she belonged here
I’m scared of Daisy
But she let’s me handle her, has not bit me, and has stopped squealing like a squeaky toy when I pick her up
She also allows me to segregate Charlie even tho she runs after him
It’s new to her
Probably hurts
She knows she wants it but she don’t
And Charlie be down there doing things that should be behind closed doors
But she could rip his head off when she is thru
And that’s the reality of adopting two Syrian hamsters from different stores
Male and female
Of breeding age
It’s almost like I needed enrichment in my life
Trying to keep two hamsters from killing one another or falling in-love
They said she was spicy so I named her after a sweet flower
Daisy seems to have already taken to her name
She knows not to bite me….
She’s learning her new HABs
She’s met Charlie 4 times – and he was ready to extend the family right away
They have been grooming one another
Licking and sniffing
Lots of face-to-face stare offs
Nose touches
Could be love or war
She’s not as fit? It was her first time on a 10 inch or 8 inch wheel. They had a saucer at the store
Prob used it to lay on
Charlie has a friend now but she could be a killer so I won’t leave them alone
I know I shouldn’t be buying hamsters while dying and not even having the correct HAB setup
But now my life has purpose
Can’t move into my Noah phase if the ark is empty
Back to the basics
They say I am a child that never grew up
So I got a hammy
Logical
(And I know you love me even more)
(But you don’t know why)
(Cuz you fucking hate me and will never speak again)
I dunno how something so tiny can have such a huge part of my heart
He’s the great love of my life and there’s nothing I can do about it
But Charlie just got his face stuck between the wire biting it and he whimpered
We both were a bit put back by the incident but he still crawled into my hand once he got free
I said, “let’s not do that again, Charlie” and I don’t reckon he’s planning to, but then again, we’re 3 weeks into this death contraction.
I told Charlie accidents happen. But that should not have happened.
Charlie is actually smarter than me. He’s cuter than me, too. I’m not smarter than a 5th grader, I’m not smarter than a hamster.
Shame on them pet stores hiring “experts” selling snake oil. The manager’s don’t even decide what to stock. No returns.
And they euthanize the unhomed / unadopted. Over 3 million animals are killed every year, including hamsters like Charlie.
Charlie’s species is on the endangered list.
Someone said, “yeah but that’s the one’s in the wild”
But a long time ago, Charlie’s bloodline was stolen from the desert, a mom and 12 pups. To be sold to someone like me. And all the unsold/unwanted are put down to make room for more.
Still, I can’t make them see two and two.
So if we’re in a 6th mass extinction, shouldn’t we be playing Moses and whatnot? I mean Noah.
They were kidnapped from their hab, so much so they’re listed as endangered, but they also get put down when they do not find their forever home.
Did you know I read sign language Even the moon spells Chris It’s half-crescent Like him He’s half-present Maybe it’s Christmas The way you kiss? Removed the space between the hiss Laid down your blade And took my fist Maybe you’re the silence On my blank list Where none can follow Your name won’t fit?
He doesn’t understand why I’m always giving gifts I ain’t tribal Don’t read the Bible But he swears I’m collecting feather wings He said he thinks he saw me growing things But you’re a liar Can’t be re-wired Always on the run Must be so tired Cuz the Devil’s in your blood Here’s comes the Great Flood Mixed with bones and fire
Don’t get it unless it’s the absolute only thing you can get but even then maybe don’t get it
With that said, he is acting like it is a piece of heaven (sleeping sound too)
It took a lot of mods, it still isn’t safe, there are sharp edges, holes, and other areas that probably hurt his feet
Despite negative reviews of potential death occurring, staff still insisted I get it, knowing I could not return it for a refund (or even gift card).
But I found the most special boy at the Pet Supermarket
You would think we’d have better choices than plastic and “no returns”
My hamster is an adult, I nearly got a newborn
Charlie fell directly on his head TWICE – he’s lucky his neck did not break or get a head injury
But I’ve since added a wooden wagon and he’s gonna have to be careful exploring tonight. Cuz I cleaned his area up, relocated items, filed down sharp spikes, cleaned his innie meany litter box, added fresh treats, but he ain’t drinking from his water bottles. I just wanna see him do it on his own.
Charlies loves AND I MEAN LOVES his new environment.
He has several new sleeping spots, one being in his tunnel where just a bit of sun comes in…
I ordered him a better wheel since he runs it all night – the little guy literally exercises ALL NIGHT
But someone since has stated even the medium size is too small (it seems I need an XL)
Charlie is a Syrian “Teddy Bear” Hamster
I don’t know what life was like for Charlie prior to 48 hours ago, but now he is resting calmly – despite the setbacks – and two death escapes – he seems to LOVE his new HAB
I prob won’t get much rest until I know he’s safe
We’ve only been together a short while but
A. Charlie is adventurous at night. He doesn’t mind being handled.
B. If the sun is up and you slightly disturb his sleep walk or existence, he will flip over and play dead in which I will respond with “Jesus Charlie, I won’t do that again”
And it’s day two and I have not. He allowed me to move his crate, clean it, just no touchy.
Not til sundown
Charlie just came to the attic
I said “you wanna come out” (and did not try to handle him”
HIM:
He’s back asleep. Like he’s in heaven…
BUT THIS HAB IS A DEATH TRAP
You gotta get it safe – and even then – it still isn’t safe
It’s not good for his paws
I’m not allowed to return/exchange the HAB
But I’m happy I found Charlie
But I’m not rich
I can’t just dump money into “the best of” when it’s actually always the worse
And the managers in charge – Gen Y or Z – SOLD THE SHOW OUT
And I don’t mean a full house
Hamsters can die from stress and I will literally die from stress if something happens to Charlie cuz I was sold SNAKE POISON everywhere I go
I know. I KNOW. I don’t drink enough water. Or I drink too much. (Somewhere, a thousand years down the road, some asshole will take that out of context. I ONLY DRINK WATER. HOPE YOU BURN 4EVA THIS HELPS
I’m not filing in a single orderly line so the AI will understand me
ME > PROGRAM IN MATRIX > DOING WHAT IT IS NOT SUPPOSE TO DO
He’s still passed out by the way. Don’t think he wanted to be there a second longer (at the Pet Store)
He accepted his hay
I’m not handling him yet
Just want him to feel safe
They can die from stress
He likes his den
He didn’t like the box
He filled up on water and hay
Now he’s sleeping on the hay?
Under the raised platform that acts more like a slip n slide – and the little guy chews everything but my fingers – so gotta be careful what I add to help him get around
And the mansion is a no-go currently
One of the tunnels fell down, it’s unsafe, there’s even a plastic spot underneath the fall little guy could get hurt
Now the reviews were bad, I told the store this, but they insisted to get the “Heaven Haven” (and now I’m questioning the name of it) – furthermore – they said they didn’t even know what the return policy was
LOOK I’LL MAKE THIS CLEAR FOR YOU
MY HUNDRED WILL BE RETURNED FOR SOMETHING THAT IS NOT A DEATH SENTENCE
Still, I have someone looking at it soon – so I don’t have to return it just yet – we might can sort it and he seems content in the smaller one – which cost more
At some point I would like to let him “hang out” but his safety is my priority and the little shit knows how to squiggle and break free
He tried when he chewed thru the box in-store
And I was attempting to hold him until a spare box arrived
He can squirm
But he ain’t never bit me as feisty as he is
Love the little guy too much
Only just met
Like 24 hours ago
(Maybe a bit more cuz I came home and slept on the decision is made)
P.S. some scammer tried to invite me to a Trump event for Soldiers
You know I didn’t vote, right?
I was part of the 300,000+ missing votes
But I ain’t missing
*hi*
And we’re an Army now
We don’t vote for the antichrist
We unplugged from the Matrix
Hope this helps
(I also don’t have a dime to give and if I did I’m taking it with me to heaven)
(Rules for me, not thee)
Ha!
This is also a good time to give thanks to God (thank you God for letting me spend all my dimes on little Charlie)
He’s so cool
He closes his eyes when he drinks his water and he comes when he’s called
It’s almost like it was meant to be – even if time is fleeting – for us both
I can’t stop thinking about his sister tho but I’m happy with one
I’m barely getting around and I don’t have to take Charlie for any walks
Had to put him in a second box cuz he chewed thru his first despite adding bedding, treats, and some food.
Charlie is my new best friend and has not once tried to bite.
He did flip over playing dead a couple times briefly and I was like “I didn’t mean to startle you” and he would just sniff my hand and go back to chewing thru the box
Eventually he did escape, I looked down and he was in the buggy
I was like, “Charlie!!!” “that’s not safe”
And he let me pick him up and snuggle him
He made it home safely and started exploring his living room den
He had water, he relocated his entire bowl of food under his den, where he also moved some straw as well as took breaks to eat the straw, before moving strands to the basement zone
Now Charlie is resting under the den and he has not even seen his bedroom double layer mansion – he’s already worked so hard
The mansion in the box…
I have insomnia so I got a nocturnal creature
Makes total sense
But I fell in-love with Charlie even tho I was going in for a mini newborn Black Bear hamster
I got a 14 month adult Teddy Bear hamster instead
I knew upon our afternoon meeting yesterday, while you were stuffing your greedy little face, that you were the one
I also bought you the exact shit you like plus shit you ain’t never tried
I think your basement needs more but also I gotta install your toilet in the mansion
That’s right, your mansion comes with its own bathroom
And the two-story mansion + roof with tunnel – is in my bedroom
So you can keep me up all night stirring
And we can sleep during the day like vampires since I can’t do much anything else
Charlie was the first to say hi
And I was okay with getting an adult
Charlie needed a home and was ready to go
Like we only got one life
Charlie was ready for his purpose even if I am dying…
Many videos were uploaded on the TikTok if you wanna see him exploring his new environment
PoeEternal 