why do you leave me stranded
gasping for air
life goes on in blurs and visions
like a gold plated reward being reprimanded
the long-eyed peers staring keenly
among the clouds
my wrath is bottled in a dreamcatcher
with SOS embroidered on bloody threads

do you not know how to call my name
when thunder is falling
like lightning after rain

why do you steal the sun
then run around pointing fingers to blame

i have shuffled my regrets into patterns i can recognize

color-coded and neatly folded amongst the ruins

i don’t know if i expect you to perform a miracle or Kintsugi

piecing together life and fantasy

the moon is waning like your love

look up at the sky and you will see the stars are gone

clouded by sin and pollution

no one will even know we came along hissing and praying

forged our way through hardened hearts as tight as clay

stuck on, should i or shouldn’t i

did you call the crown a prize when your spear was in his side?

i remember when you placed your hand on my heart and refused to eat at my table

got the wilderness inside of me

said we’re too unstable

but your address is always changing

i long to be free
to be held on your shoulder

i want you to remember the person i never was but should have become

because even if i etch “delia was here” into your heart

it too will decay like radioactive waste

i just unpacked and now i am unsettled

the whole universe is a great ice wall when you’re gone

with icy rings like Saturn

encompassing our dreams and failures

if i found you in the great void we could be lost together roaming the galaxy the way pirates roam the seas

doing hopscotch among the stardust

i look out and i cannot see the good in anything anymore

i peeled off the great filter and now my eyes burn

i eat prayer for dinner and breakfast knowing it might not get me anywhere

the same way i drive on fumes

but if i could carve faith into time, it would look desolate and dusty – a great mountain range on mars waiting to be explored

i don’t want my tongue sealed any more than i do my fate

i cannot calculate the weight of the earth but i know it is a lot

for i cannot lift this stone from my heart

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