Coming back to life potentially ๐
But not really because I still can’t do anything ๐
But now I know why ๐
I gotta get back to the doc and ask the big questions like: “will I need a procedure to get rid of the fluid in my sac, will it go away on its own, what is my life expectancy now, am I going to have an aneurysm any moment, is it gonna go to my brain, can you please get this shit out of my heart, am I going to die prematurely” ๐
You know, the shit you don’t discuss during a phone call but face to face ๐
This fluid is like a ticking time bomb and at any moment it could just explode in my fucking heart so I don’t like putting my heart under any kind of stress, it doesn’t want to do anything but eat, sleep, and possibly procreate ๐
Dying and all I can think about is doing the dirty ๐
And cake ๐
Treats and fucking because every day is Halloween ๐
Or maybe I just never grew up ๐
Heyyyyy it’s my birthday month
It’d sure be cool to have some birthday cake!!!
And to be honest, I’d like this cake from the Publix bakery ๐

It’d be really cool if I didn’t have to make my own box cake this year ๐
I don’t even know if I had a birthday last year ๐
This pandemic has been hell
So cake from anywhere would be cool – I’d even be happy with a cake from a box so long as I didn’t have to bake it myself ๐
That Chantilly cake is really good, I’d almost die eating it ๐
I don’t have parents or people to give me cake on special events ๐
Maybe I’m not special ๐
But I’m still alive and I want cake ๐
CAKE
So if you were wondering my birthday is on the 19th
of August
Which is coming soon ๐ค
I hope I can eat cake before then because this entire month is my birthday as far as I’m concerned ๐
CAKE – it’s absolutely the meaning to life ๐
And thanks for showing my new Instagram post so much love! It’s already got a bunch of likes and views! I appreciate the love! ๐ช
I got my heart monitor removed on July 29th (a few days ago) and it will be a few weeks before I get the results back!
I still can’t workout but I am trying to get my bike fixed.
Anybody feel like buying me a bike from Walmart pick up? ๐
It would not hurt my feelings to get a working bike for my birthday (the cheapest thing they got) ๐
A bike to ride or cake to eat give me things to live for ๐

Living in general is expensive so I just hope cake and recreation is nearby ๐
At least my expensive ass rent is paid but there’s a crack above my head on the ceiling and this is the same material used as that building in Miami ๐
I also live near the beach, not on the beach but near ๐
It’s an older building ๐
There’s a lot of safety features that don’t work like the front gate and the alarm systems are always going off but they just painted the building ๐
We just had another annual rent increase directly after a tiny COLA adjustment ๐
The government gave me a tiny pay raise but they took it back in my rent immediately two weeks after with a note on my door about my rent increase ๐
Like clockwork ๐