i was having too much fun shopping (in small increments & amounts) on TikTok
and funny how the same day congress wants to ban TikTok
PayPal is restricting my account – without any real reason attached to their claim – and have decided to hold my account hostage – until i provide them more DATA that they will sale to the enemy – that i do not want to do
therefore, i cannot use paypal for why i signed up (a second time)
(the first time they outed my anonymous donors who contributed to a pool i created – based on FAQ provided by PayPal – which they apparently can update and change at will – rules for me but not thee – and there is more to this point i’m sorry) – but not only did they expose who the anon donors were – they eventually made them priority in my contact list – who had never sent me a dime where i was meant to be aware – but low and behold – something i don’t think the therapist could understand – and even if they should – there was so much shame attached to my sense of self – that the bridge was nearing closer everyday!?!
so i deleted my obsession
i mean account
but then for stupid “i wanna shop in private and protect my data reasons” – i opted to open a new account
start again
this time not using my account to receive – only send and shop
but now PayPay is cockblocking me again
and they outed my private new email – that i will need to delete
and i had to call my bank to let them know that i need to change my identity in order to break up with paypal
because they keep doing updates and selling my data by turning on those little boxes they add in
im getting scam emails – clever tricky ones trying to get me to put my money in a shoebox and tape it up and give it to the blacked out car with the CIA/FBI agents (please note that if anyone wants me to put any amount of money in a shoebox – even $5 – i will be calling my therapist and the cops immediately and letting them know i have potentially crossed the threshold breaking point)
m’kay
anyhoo – the scam emails continue even tho i ain’t giving anyone my info to send/receive
but PayPal is
and now for no other reason than “shopping on TikTok” they have decided to hold my account hostage until i provide them more personal forms of data
and so the contract should be null and void
cuz i can’t use it how i signed up for – and i ain’t providing shit
they won’t remove my card – so the card is destroyed – bank informed – text and emails reported as spam and phishing – and a Better Business Bureau report pending to be done
i don’t owe paypal a penny
nor is anything pending
other than my random penalty “ma’am you were shopping with the enemy”
but don’t they know i got friends in China?
it’s cheaper and better buying direct from the source
fuck a third party
but now i gotta move to break up with paypal
i had to change my bank info
im gonna have to change my phone number…
i swear it’s not a joke
there’s been no fraudulent activity
no resolutions filed
no issues with bank or login
just suddenly today “tiktok may get banned” “provide data or no soup for you”
and so i said no
delete my account
but they won’t
so i gotta change my identity
i swear to fuck
genX out
(i told paypal thank you for curing me of my ridiculous obsession with love shopping)
that i will be outside more thanks to them
you should delete your account now – while you still can
i couldn’t even delete my profile photo after i canceled all my subs
when i called support back – the way she paused at the name change – and said “it’s kinda inappropriate” and i said whaaaaaa the “FU” and she said “yeah” and i responded “well the AI let me do it”
“and i didn’t need to provide anything”
so they will likely fix that glitch yee-haw
i am the anomaly in the matrix and is god is here!!!!!! he/she is everywhere!!!!!!!!!!!
paypal is holding my data hostage and unless i bow down to thee i am not allowed to shop – only receive
well im done receiving!!!!!!
im done giving!!!!!!!
and i cant spend my own money for 7-10 business days 2 weeks cuz the banker failed to tell me my new card wouldn’t arrive until then
so shopping withdrawals thanx to our good PAL
looking at a place to rent tomorrow
they aint getting my new number or address
gotta flee the country to escape ELON MUSK!?!?
who da fuk own PayPal now
he thinks hell is gonna be a party where all his friends are
they will he in hell – but he wont have access to them
lol
could you let God know i don’t really think it should be legal – what they are doing and my mistakes are so hard learned if any
the bank listening: “paypal won’t let me break up with them”
“this is toxic”
“i gotta move”
“change my number”
straightjacket or pier?
limited to shop cuz they want more data to sell to the enemy but my name change is inappropriate
*laughs*
hope Walmart still takes a check… nearly out of water
and thank god i never attached anything other than my card – that card is now destroyed – and my address and phone number are changing
maybe i don’t need to leave the country yet
giving away more items: donated books and bakingware to the library and neighbors
i had planned to do some mental health shopping this weekend
2024 i leave everyone on read (the insomnia coach says i need to see a provider) (and there is an upcoming appointment cuz God needs me to see him again!?!) (is it him!?!) (what sort of Romeo/Joolie delusional fantasy have i found myself in exactly)
no one is – nor has – nor potentially ever – will do anything inappropriate (hence la la land)
but you know if looks could kill
looks can also have a “slow the atoms down in the room and shoot to heaven” vibe too
i mean, i don’t know how to read a room (or computer screen)
but he imprinted on me and apparently i have lost many months and/or years dreaming about him
would’ve been nice if we could’ve met on a conference call, or in any other way than me over here on the other side
nearly wearing a fucking straightjacket
welp
help. still in hell. *sadface*
i’m not in / this isn’t happening
SAME
p.s. i have been trying to write a letter to myself of “what I would say to myself if I could call myself and speak to myself for one minute”
like your future self could call your past self from a decade ago (that is ten years right)
i tried to put it in a poem
it isn’t going very well
don’t hang up it’s me i’m dying find a tree and hang freely
but i signed the atf form, i passed my background check
but I don’t have a carry permit so shall not be infringed upon until the 23rd and then I can go pick her up she’s already paid for and she’s mine and the serial number has already been confirmed
I’ve already bought her ammo and a lock case; I have personal ammo and I have ammo for the range ๐
yee-haw
and wasn’t i a kid in a candy store
One of the workers offered me a job and some of the bystanders were very interested in what I bought and everyone told me that it was an excellent choice and it’s a great starter gun ๐
and it’s made in the usa
he said it fit my hand nicely
i got a picture of her ๐
this ain’t no bb gun BB
new starter gun ๐
couldn’t decide between a 38 special, a 9mm, or this 40
she comes with two 14 round magazines in the box ๐
gotta get to the range soon – got ammo for that
and these hollow points that “spread out”
happies
scored this lock box for ten bucks and he made sure the size would fit by holding my gun to the box
pick her up soon ๐
in Florida you no longer need a carry permit but if you wanna walk out with your weapons the same way you buy them you do
a little asmr gun unboxing at the store ๐
i can’t promote anything gun related or i will get penalized and my account with an “armed and dangerous” flag ๐
and possibly banned
because everything is Made in China but my fucking gun
I have been eyeing the revolvers though
and tho i have a soft spot for shotguns i dunno if i can handle kickback currently
I need to get my carry permit and I want to get to the range so I can get familiar with my weapon and be a responsible gun owner ๐
guns be selling out fast and im jumping on that train
the boys were asking specific questions about what i bought
at one point i stated i knew how to drive but not familiar with all the models lol
I don’t recall firing a 40 or a 38 special in the army but a 9mm and an M-16 A2 rifle and live grenades and grenade launcher and all sorts of other shit I can’t remember yes ๐คช
I was very efficiently trained to take my weapons apart in the dark including the firing pin and put them back together within a certain timeframe and wearing my gas mask
today I went and bought a gun and got a job offer
had several people tell me it was a good choice!!
i was like “i know i could buy a 9mil at this price but i wanted something a little smaller”
“i wanted a 38 but this kept catching my eye”
“there was three, and then two, and now there is one”
*laughter*
i just leveled up my game
and i need to refresh the skill sets i already have programmed in me
does it not come with a safety switch – lol
oh no
IS THERE REALLY NO SAFETY
babe why did you let me shop for a week for guns only to select one at 4:20 am without a safety switch
BABE
it’s his fault that he’s not here taking care of me and I selected something that I’m not familiar with or that I’ve ever been trained with
HIS FAULT
GOOD CHOICE THEY SAID
“don’t shoot yourself in the foot” was never once heard
hit the like button if you want to see how my range adventures go and I can’t post about this shit anywhere else on social media
I struggled getting the grenade launcher loaded in basic training
but once I did my drill sergeant was so impressed and he said I was the only one that hit the target which were tanks far far out but I used up nearly all my time to get it loaded
and you’re not allowed to throw the live grenade like a baseball and so it didn’t go very far and we had to jump in the hole the first time lmao
“I thought you played baseball” my drill sergeant shouted
I started with a pot of spring water in a glass pot
Filled it with lots of wild rice (red, purple, black, brown, white) and green split peas
I dropped in a couple of my cinnamon spice sticks (secret ingredient for any stew) – along with many other spices and herbs
An entire onion (farm fresh), rosemary, thyme, salt with the necessary nutrients, pepper, a touch of the good olive oil
I also added yellow split pea, and lentil to accompany the green
Potatoes and tomatoes ๐
And I started a 3rd mystery plant – provided by my local library. These are edibles Iโm growing – and hope to add them to my special soups! Iโve never grown anything indoors before – or in a windowsill
But I have a lot of unused space in my apartment – as well as sunlight – a desire to learn – and a hungry belly for real food (not poisoned)
So now I got the โ3 librasโ growing in my dirty window
Homemade vegan soup (from scratch) with warm bread
The soup turned out amazing, I also added green bean and a small tin of tomato sauce for color, and will be keeping the tin to sprout some new seeds.
I added homemade pepper sauce to kick up the heat (summer sweats)
One day maybe Iโll have a husband that chases after my food instead of a prostitute
But for now Iโm eating the entire pot of gold
โYou said not to spend it honey, you did not say not to melt it and turn it into flakesโ
(Please donโt hurt me like Bob)
Heart symbol
P.S. the vegan vegetable chunky soup took hours to simmer! Might make a fresh pot of cornbread for the leftovers tomorrow! Might can squeeze a third day/meal if Iโm lucky! Itโs very hearty and fulfilling! I was out of carrot! Make you a stew! Donโt wait until winter!
Cooking and fitness is part of my purpose. It may be โboringโ but itโs healing my heart and giving me more time.
Iโm looking to buy gold But my soul ainโt sold Iโm the cusp of the threshold Like marigold Growing nearing my household Itโll manifold My portfolio Tenfold
Copyright ยฉ 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.
And being the observant that I am, I read the details. It included a secret on the back. God wanted me to know. I feel it is a universal sign. I’ve been making many stews after all. And today, included cinnamon bark.
(Protein of choice can be used – I’m avoiding lab made proteins – but am Flexitarian and mostly consume a vegetarian/vegan diet. I’m a picky meat eater too; beef, chicken, turkey mostly and fish on the occasion).
Making stew with spring water and cinnamon bark
I made my broth from scratch again – but memaw (my grandmother passed) never tossed out the fat from the meat and today I decided to do the same. Since I keep skin and seeds on, FAT PLEASE.
Ingredients used: spring water, Tomatoes from the Vine, cherry tomato medley (later popped), cinnamon bark, fresh garlic, onion, celery, cilantro, sweet yellow, orange, and green peppers with seeds, rainbow carrots, dry green split peas, wild rice blend, rosemary, thyme, parsley, salt with the necessary nutrients (maybe), pepper, potato with skin on and washed, red kidney bean (but I can’t buy canned beans anymore because they are putting things in them that they should not and I’ll stick to adding dry lentils, split pea, rice, ect). Added half can of tomato sauce too which it absolutely did not need and the stew would have survived without it)
I cooked up ethically sourced organic beef with onion and spices and put 4 spoons of the fat into the stew. I continued cooking the beef to a nice texture and gently added it to the stew – and then a shit ton of cabbage ๐คช
I let the cabbage cook down some and then I added even more cabbage
But that wasn’t enough. So more.
IT’S THE BEST SOUP I’VE EVER MADE AND I SAY THAT ABOUT EVERY POT BUT THIS ONE CONTAINS A SPECIAL SECRET INGREDIENT
Cinnamon bark. It’ll be going in everything now. Practicing gratitude. Thank you Lord. Now maybe my stew is fit for a king.
A lump of cinnamon bark in the leftovers
And I put it with the leftovers. Apparently cinnamon is a great anti-parasitic and pet friendly too.
The dog went mad for my soup. He got second’s plus additional bites.
My bowl consumed in light-speeds – did not add a pinch of anything.
So the stew would be good without a meat protein source but the heart demanded. Just don’t add meat.
I made homemade vegetable beef this time. Probably not like anyone else makes it.
I’m terribly full but already greedy for another bowl. I’m stuffed. And definitely wanna enjoy leftovers so gotta ration and need a bigger pot! ๐
Happy holidays. Still eating my nuts and things. I’m going to a food drive on Friday. Curious to know if the universe will gift me any secrets. I’m invested. ๐
Oh and, scored my 3 pack detox for the price of 1. Grateful. The detox continues…. the heart journey, the healing.
The special Christmas lingerie sets I was picking out on Shein was SELLING OUT as I was attempting to load my cart up and shop
And there were other things I was shopping for. Sunshades for my Jeep (dashboard and steering wheel), cleaning rags, regular clothing, and special Christmas stuff (got a hat, socks, satin night cami) + silicone moisturizing socks for the feet (baby soft) ๐ผ
BUT THE BIG TICKET ITEM I WANTED WAS SELLING OUT. All I’d do is blink and another was sold. ๐
I WAS LIKE – COULD YOU SAVE ONE FOR ME
Now I know I’m not a busty 10 star but damn I’m an original so that makes have value thank you. I’m here. Deal with it. Plus this is my first time ever shopping for Christmas lingerie. I got a good tip.
I got some really cool Christmas leggings if they fit me and a really cool crop top to wear to events or to go skating in (it’s versatile)
There was a skirt from a favorite designer and I bought the last one potentially. The same designer I scored my Halloween spider witches hat, to be buried in. ๐คช
But the big ticket Christmas special lingerie outfit was selling out!!! I wanted it!
IT DID IN FACT SALE OUT (I got a set coming) ๐
So shopping hour was over!!!! Time to checkout! ๐คช
SOON COMING ๐
And I got it, in a small, and I hope it will fit! I hope I didn’t spoil the fucking surprise
I hope you like the special lingerie set that I got and it’s incoming, I’ll have a shipping status soon!
I’m glad I was able to budget in the big ticket items because I really wanted those but I had to put some stuff back because the other stuff started selling out! ๐คช
My wishlist is growing full. But I’m not just buying lingerie. ๐
I’ll probably wear that little satin Cami nightgown all through December and January (well it’ll get washed, but you know what I mean, sleep gown)
I like the quality and price of Shein. Shipping is never as long as it estimates – unless you get hit with a category 5 hurricane – that will set you back.
I really hope those black Christmas leggings fit because they remind me of Greese and I can go skating in them (you know the movie right)
I think it was John Travolta’s first film
If they fit, they will look good with my black and gold skates, and I busted out my measurements.
28 inch waist currently, 117 pounds ๐
Shoe size 6 1/2 – 7 (sometimes a 6)
34B (sometimes 36C unless lactating) (then like DD) ๐คช
STOP PICKING ON ME
My mini tree is out and first ornament I ever made in kindergarten (school is slavery)
I made Dark chocolate cupcakes with dark chocolate “tombs” and decorated them with Halloween cake rings (that can be worn)
Cake ring decorations
I’m still detoxing so am not using icing (I think that stuff is overrated)
My cake was experimental
Cake decoration (not a ring)
The cake is vegetarian cuz I used 3 brown eggs, unsweetened applesauce (about half a cup), coconut oil, pumpkin seeds, blanched and whole almonds, rolled oats, flax seed, and love ๐
Started off with 2 eggs but needed a third
It started with two brown eggs but I needed 1 more (or more applesauce so the egg won since I ate too much of the applesauce) ๐คช
I did not want the batter dry because I was gonna add all the other ingredients and I had zero guidebook cookbook for the RECENTLY NEAR DECEASED
But I experimented by adding nuts, seeds, and oats
A semi-healthy Halloween treat that would have been good with some instant coffee tossed in the batter (next time)
Flax for the gut health
And I made a cake too
Raw cupcake batter
I was gonna share with the neighbors but naw
I should have sprinkled it with oats before tossing in the oven (next time)
Turned the whole house smelling good
I’m gonna enjoy with coffee over breakfast and/or treat time
Decoration isn’t my thing but A for effort?
And they actually do taste good which is why I wanna be greedy ๐
Happy Boo season ๐ป
Uhm check the current census for a scare ๐
I used broken dark chocolate bits as the “tombs” ๐ป
Sidenote: some sort of non cancerous marshmallow could be used as spider webbing and edible decoration
I’m just throwing out ideas
If you make it better, show me
I don’t have a mama or daddy or brother or hubby
K, thanx, bye
HAPPY HALLOWEEN ๐
P.S. If you have those little spiders – the black and orange ones that hang on your Halloween decorations – you can use those for your cakes – but please don’t eat your wearable cake decorations – get photos in them instead or actually share the cupcakes and let folks keep the Halloween jewelry (or ask for them back) ๐คช
Let me know if you liked my idea or if it gave you any good ideas for treats of your own
I think some cute edible spider webbing would have been the spooky sweet perfection around the chocolate tombs (which could be a tad bigger and these are 70% and 90% dark chocolate bits)
70% & 90% dark chocolate broken bits (used with coffee and as cupcake “tombs”
You could carve initials or dates into the edible tombs for extra spooky vibes and put small white chocolate drizzle near the tombs as spider webbing
Side-note: If you “don’t want your children to see this” stop letting them loose at Walmart and the Mall. ๐
Psst…
Halloween spider mesh bodysuit by Dolls Kill ๐
Witches Spider Cap by ROMWE on Shein ๐
Both sold out but may restock ๐
One of my favorite new cosplay sets. I feel more myself in this attire and without loads of makeup making it theatrical and whatnot
I’m the real thang ๐
You can’t burn me legally at the stake anymore ๐ป
So just wanted to see what it would feel like to do a midnight Halloween set without all the makeup and flare
I was wearing vegan flavored strawberry kissy lips and that made for an extra sweet midnight smile set (I can hook you up with a free glam bag on Ipsy) (most products are vegan) (cancellation is easy but I’m staying on for awhile) (I got a free Halloween glam kit for sign-up and love it) (you can adjust the frequency of delivery as well) ๐
Halloween is my favorite season perhaps ๐ค
Do you like my new set?
How is my petite pumpkin looking? ๐
“I don’t like your ass when you bend over, it disappears” (something someone said to me in my 20s directly after sex)
Yeah, just like any empathy I ever had for you.
Everyone has had such high standards of how my body should look 24/7 because apparently I’m supposed to be posing 24/7 that I’m afraid to even show my fucking skin because I’ll probably get yelled at for being fucking white anyway
Always told I need to “cover up” cuz they like it too much to “just be friends”
Heaven is empty and I cry a lot lol
I also talk to the dead
I have a budding relationship with John Jones
I also keep having images of him (not John) finding me hanging from a tree
The way he breaks and the strength it takes for him to not look away
To get me down…
I don’t know what’s real anymore
I’m focusing on my blog and OnlyFans for now
I’m sorry I’m not posting more yet on my free one – which I can go live on but I can’t go live on my subscribed one ๐
The way the wheels turn ๐
But I’ve started posting playful sensual videos on my OF
And as long as someone wants to support my content I’ll keep going
WordPress just emailed me telling me that I owe them $100 to keep the blog going but web links are broken and everything is chaotic inside the algorithm since they split it into
I need new web hosting and all sorts of cleanup in my life
My blog continues to remain advertising free
All my content is original
Trends make me feel obsolete and always behind
There’s always someone who can come along and do it better, I’m only ever average at anything even when I give it my all
Self-portrait October 2022 (the timeline is wrong)
I have taken the feedback from my prior sets and invested in some additional things that I can’t wait to arrive –
I’d like to give you a sneak peek on one thing that I scored – which was probably the biggest ticket item for the best price – and I was willing to starve next month for them…
And before I show you – don’t have doubt about the boot style – I am a Soldier and could wear this to an actual event without killing my precious feet – I could wear these into battle potentially – I thought they’d look good with a school skirt or lingerie. I thought maybe I could be buried in them. I thought maybe they were worth missing a meal next month. And, at less than $8 a boot, it was still less than the rotten eggs and milk that Peggy’s Discount Health Food store sold me on Monday….
Should I cancel the order? ๐คช
In the wishlist… ๐
In the Dolls Kill wishlist ๐
They just put out this Halloween costume (which I think is better than the one that I did get – but Every day is Halloween)
This costume includes the headband, the pentagram bra, the gloves, and the skirt with attached devil’s tail (not the tights)
And I will absolutely fucking cry if it sells out before I can purchase it but I’m tapped out for the month ๐คช
I did score some really good stuff for the Labor Day sale though because I’m an excellent bargain hunter and I’m still throwing away clothes in my closet and throughout my home that are size medium and large (boys T-shirts with holes in them and business attire uniforms)
So grateful to share my makeover progress with you
THE THIGH HIGH BOOTS ARE VEGAN ๐คฉ
I’ve been extremely busy in the real world but I’ve also been writing poetry and I do plan to get another set out to you before I release the poetry
I’ll show you one more surprise from the shopping makeover (and please note I’m paying thrift store prices or less for brand new items)
THIS WAS NEARLY SOLD OUT ON SHEIN
COMING SOON
(I picked up other Daddy cosplay stuff but don’t want to spoil the good surprise)
I would just like to add that I’ve never had a makeover in my life or got to dress pretty
All the men prior in my life body shamed me
I wore oversized baggy clothing and kept my head down ๐
I’m grateful for your readership and feedback and support
It’s all being invested back into my blog and photography and thank you for being patient with me while I get content out to you
I’ve been writing lots of poetry in between paying the bills and doc appointments
Getting rebound sessions in when the heart allows
DETOXING DETOXING DETOXING
I’ll be glad when I can turn the dating sign back on ๐คช
Do you think my potential future husband would take me to the altar immediately to marry me if I opened the door up wearing those boots and a school skirt?
I NEED TO KNOW
My feet shouldn’t have to hurt to look amazing – so really hope you like em!!! My first vegan thigh highs!!!!!!!!!!! And R-E-D ๐
CAN’T WAIT TO USE THE PRETTY MAKEUP – THANK YOU AGAIN FOR THE GIFT ๐
So glad I’m replacing the oversized boy t-shirts with cute crop tops and thangs
I’m muting it tho because I don’t need to be sued by the algorithm – in some distant future – thank you Metallica- greedy fucks
Gotta go back to street teaming like in the old days
Before the millennials were born and before there were cell phones or computers handy
Spyware
Can’t opt out
Gotta flee the city
The Devil he everywhere in everything
Society has been around so long and narcissism has spread everywhere
I’m trying not to self-destruct or get thrown into a rubber room
Detox detox detox
I’m on dose 2 today
2 large doses in
I don’t fuck around ๐คจ
I’m fighting hard to get better, to not leap from a bridge, for the potential possibility to find a partner
The hubby will produce the feel good hormones
Find your tribe and nurture the fuck outta it
Everything is going extinct
Be careful with adrenaline spikes to your heart
It’s okay to stop for 30 seconds – drink water – get back on
But my first day back rebounding caused me to have consistent chest pain for two days that didn’t go away so I couldn’t do anything
After a 2.5 mile walk, I puked 3 hours later when my body was having difficulty regulating temperature
I felt like that family who died in the valley recently, dog, baby and all
The sun was barreling on me, not much shade
I’d find a tree, rest a couple minutes, drink water, and trek a bit further
I barely made it home
And at one point I almost got kidnapped by a guy who got out of his truck with completely blacked out windows and opened up the passenger back side door
He watched me for ten minutes head both ways
I was prepared to remove his head with my blade
I was fucking dying with a heart complication (and this was recently by the way) but I had to put my water away so I could have both hands free – you know – just in case he made his move
I DON’T LIKE LIVING HERE
And unfortunately, I’ve almost been run over twice on the bike rides… ๏ฟผ
The beach was getting crazy with tourist and “no vehicles” unless “4×4” because of “soft sand”
I’m not paying that expensive parking
America is a fucking scam๏ฟผ
The yuppie shops are selling rotten eggs and milk
That one’s gonna have my asshole tore up for a minute
I did get a small rebound session in – I avoided the high ab jumps this time – kept it to simple bouncing (still resistance training but less adrenaline spikes)
The Army trained me as a medic to run for miles from the enemy
And I did do a full 4 years active overseas
I’m still running from the Devil and I got a strong little heart
It’s still fighting for its life so I’m making it some vegan soup soon
It demands…
The heart gets what the heart wants ๐ช
It’s magical stew – big and chunky – heart healing
Got the red cabbage too and rainbow carrots and tomatoes (noms)
One stove top, 1 pot, is all you need (to anyone still eating pizza from a box)
(You can buy electric stove tops or ask a family member if you can have their extra one they use on the holidays)
They come as 1 or 2 (I’d get the 2)
It’s probably cheaper than turning on the big stove top)
I’m downsizing soon
Need a mini oven too
I don’t own a microwave nor use them
But I would like a small toaster oven and a crockpot
I don’t know if I can use my indoor grill anymore because I think it’s made out of that stuff that’s bad for you
I cook the stew in a glass pot
And make my breads and cakes and loaves in glass…
I’m going to start sharing more of my cooking process with you even though I don’t have a fancy kitchen but my rent keeps going up but all the appliances are old
But I don’t use measuring cups, I cook the way my grandmother taught, a pinch of this and a pinch of that…
I took the tip money and bought something nice! ๐ฅฐ
I took advantage of that labor day sale!
I scored the curtains for under $8!! I really wanted that set!! Cheaper than Walmarttoo and absolutely cuter (and gothy)
I got a Halloween costume from the new Halloween section on Dolls Kill for 80% off ๐
The curtains and the costume!! ๐๐๐
And a lace bodysuit (my first) โบ๏ธ
But that wasn’t all
BARGAIN HUNTER
Was able to pick up accessories like thigh high socks, jewelry, daddy cosplay attire, and other thangs
I spent the $3 extra for the 3-5 day delivery
They get your order out so much quicker
Or you can wait two weeks for them to mail your stuff out to you or pay the three dollars extra and they’ll get it mailed out to you within 3 to 5 days
I love the secret and flash sales! ๐คฉ
Stuff goes so quickly
I saw they had the valentine set back up and I was going to go ahead and get another set because it was $.96 and I thought what the fuck I haven’t received my first set but I’ll go ahead and get those and double it since they’re only $.96 and I’ll be damned if those bitches weren’t already sold out…
I really hope y’all let me mail you some snail mail
I’m excited to get that Mixed Messages card set, especially knowing how popular it is โบ๏ธ
But my set will be arriving any day, they already shipped
I got them for a good price but not under $1
I think the mixed messages would be fun to mail out for Halloween Thanksgiving Christmas and all the way up through Valentine’s so I’m not waiting months or however long it is
Hopefully somebody will let me mail them a card to their work or wherever!! ๐ฅฐ
Anyhoo
There’s enough to go around
Trying to send some despairing cheer
I got some Daddy cosplay stuff with the tip money ๐คช
Goth BB will be making a future appearance
Especially since spooky season is here
And I used that tip money to buy my Halloween costume from my favorite store!!!!! Thank you!!!
I’m buying size small which feels really weird because I have not been a small since I was probably 17
And this is my first time in my life ever buying lingerie
I don’t want to show you the costume, you just have to wait!!
It was originally $60 but I got it 80% off for their labor day sale + a mystery code!!! Extra bonus discount!!!!!!
I’d love to celebrate Halloween this year and go on a haunted hayride but I’d get kidnapped especially in that costume
I have guys who follow me out to my vehicle in my little shorts with no make up on and I don’t have a fucking filter on when I walk outside
It’s dangerous where I live especially for a gal like me
He was scanning the parking lot…
His truck was big…
Anyhoo
Maybe I’ll just stay home and take photos for you ๐คช
I’m excited!!!
I have a Halloween costume and I really wanna show you the daddy cosplay stuff but I can’t, I can’t show you yet, I can’t fucking show you yet
I’m not dropping anything about it in my story
Sorry
Halloween feels like Christmas
And BB wants to look cute for you
Maybe a lethal doll
DOLLS KILL (let the neighbors know)
๐
Should I show you?
I really wanna show you ๐คช
Well I got the curtains and you know the curtains I wanted to get and I do think I got a good deal for them and everybody needs fucking curtains
I have no curtains in my apartment
I’ve lived here for five years without any fucking curtains, if anybody is giving me shit for spending less than eight dollars for some fucking curtains right now, you just need to go away with your negative energy, these are for my master bedroom privacy
I made a tip and I spent it
I invested it in myself and my art and mental health
WITH YOU IN MIND
You inspire me
And I got the rent paid
I still need to go grocery shopping so I didn’t spend that much money over there and again I used my tip money
I’m not gonna stop sharing my life experience just because I’m over there working now
God wants me to have a husband
I ain’t out here doing anything to disrespect him
I don’t have a man but you know I’m out here, I’m out here doing the hard work for him to fucking destroy my self-esteem and tell me I have no value
I would have married him at 12…
He tells me his secrets then punishes me ๐
He hasn’t spoke to me in weeks ๐
He’s got another girl ๐
She probably does dirty things for him ๐
He makes me regret being born ๐
But ordered my first bodysuit and the regret is less
Plus my first proper Halloween costume in years
God said it was OK if I spent my tip money on myself
GOD LOVES MY IMAGINATION
And the child in me was not compromised or tainted
God says I’m special, not broken
And all the things I feel are part of being human
There’s good nature and bad nature
Sometimes we make mistakes but when you acknowledge something that doesn’t suit your soul purpose and you stop doing those things, that makes you human not a demon
Waking up was part of my journey and it has taken me so long…
Can’t quit now
The Devil trying hard to get me…
But he can’t have me and I got a cute Halloween costume to mock him instead ๐
Halloween is my favorite season I think
I’m pretty certain I was burned at the stake in a past life
Also, there are ways in which I never want to die
“Haven’t you died 12,000 ways”
“I ain’t going that way, the answer is still no…”
Prime example:
Nope. Leaving that convo between me and God
Ain’t putting it in the ether…
FLORIDA IS KNOWN FOR THEM THO
Fuck it
SINKHOLE
The earth just opens up and swallows you
This guy was in his bed sleeping or jerking off and it was the only place in his entire house that went under and now that whole area is condemned with a fucking piece of plastic do not enter tape line
My fears about dying are starting to get irrational and I already have a therapist so I need a husband…
I got some thigh high socks to combat the fears
That red satin bow set was my first
And now I’ve got another set incoming soon
All these years and never wore socks over the knees and now I don’t wanna stop
I love you ๐
I wanna dress cute for you
Deadly but cute
DANGER CANDY LIKE THE SHROOMS
Sometimes good, sometimes bad ๐คช
I just need a husband to sort me
But I’m absolutely grateful for your viewership
You keep me going
The tip did not go for something bad (like alcohol or gambling)
I’ve never had a makeover in my life!!!!!!!
I’m glad I can share it with you
xoxo
(Could you let him know I need him)
I CAN’T BREATHE WITHOUT HIM
He released feel good hormones when I was dying
That’s why John wanted one more phone call
But he was denied ๐
He lost all hope ๐
But I’m not gonna jump from the bridge because I’ve got shit coming but the gang is out and about and they’re probably going to taunt me again tonight so I probably won’t get any fucking sleep tonight either
Where the fuck can I ride my bike with my LED lights and not feel like I’m gonna get murdered???
CUZ THE BIRTHDAY LED SETS ARE ON THE WAY
I even got a wall butterfly!!!!!!!!!!!! LED!!
And I’m gonna burn this grey shower curtain from Walmart
Or put a bunch of old oversized clothes in it and roll it up and make it look like a body and toss some of my cosplay blood on it and take it to the dump as the kids are off to school
I don’t think it’s normal to be having these ideas or laughing the way I do ๐คจ
I just let the entire medicinal shop know that the Daytona Beach gang was after me but that the universe was speaking to me right now with this song and that y’all are the dumbest criminals ever
THEY WERE ALL SMILING
And then I started feeding off of that energy and bouncing up and down
THE STAFF WAS SMILING
I even said I was going to do a TikTok video with this song dedicated to you
I stated that
YOU WILL NEED A RESTRAINING ORDER TO STOP ME
Cause-and-effect
HAVE FUN
And I’m already skipping up and down the sidewalk with this playing on repeat
Just checking my mail skipping
Just taking my dog for a pee
Minding my own business
I hope the gaslighting is working
The vehicles have mirrors
I can hear you breathe
GET OFF MY DICK
๐
*skips*
*smiles*
*song on repeat any time I leave the house*
The devil has an invite to bust my fucking door down I double fucking triple dare you to fucking bust my goddamn doors down bust my fucking doors down cross my motherfucking shadow do it fucking do it you little fucking piss ants that will never amount to anything and you’re never coming to heaven with me I fucking dare you to fucking cross my shadow
IT’S THE END OF THE WORLD AND I FEEL FINE
Let the love of my life know I’m nearly healed
I might let him near me in the future for a hug
I threw a glass Coke bottle at his head once a long time ago but I knew he wasn’t gonna move so I put a slight spin on the bottle right at the very end
And I’ll be able to feed the potential future hubby various versions of soup
No cabbage this time but added a couple handfuls of dry split peas
More rainbow carrots (grateful for the birthday donations, feeding my belly)
Lots of organic spices and a shit ton of the good salt!
A BIG potato
And I know I don’t have a fancy kitchen but I want to be able to cook soup out in the fucking forest over a campfire ๐
I even added lots of peppers and fresh would have been better!
The stew even got a thing of spring water!!
But, not for the rich emancipated kid who gutted me in my heart
He wounded my spirit when he said he wouldn’t eat from my kitchen and if I was offended with it, it was my fault ๐
He treats me the way others treated Mary Magdalene ๐
God said if he doesn’t get his shit together he won’t be invited into the heavens ๐
IT’S AMAZING ๐คฉ
My future husband must like soup a lot!!!
๐
I just picked up another bottle of detox and got my large dose in!
The world is plagued by parasites, don’t be ashamed
History repeats itself because they make money from gaslighting our health issues and laugh about us chasing our tails while feeding us nothing but poison then saying, “stupid Americans”
74 drops once daily currently for me
Well that rich emancipated kid can eat his cold ass pizza from that box with his cold ass heart while 60% of the fucking species go extinct over commercial farming and that fucking cheese he’s eating…
I’M OFFENDED
But the belly is full
And there’s maybe one bowl left after simmering the witches stew for hours! ๐คช
But I’ll be getting a rebound session in soon!
I gotta be careful tho
I’m ready for the booty to start returning
I still have muscle to work with all over
But I’ve shed over 18+ pounds in 5 months detoxing
It does take time to rebuild
You can’t expect results overnight
I do not live in the gym
I have a heart and lung injury from the death jab ๐คจ
I can’t expect the potential future husband to be using me as motivation to push him to run a fucking marathon
I get up before sunrise
Make coffee
And try not to leap from a bridge…
It would be nice if I could get out of my masculine role
If the poles could reverse
And he’d be less of an emancipated little bitch…
With that said, he’s gonna be left in the dust
I won’t be parking my mind on him when I’m connected and imprinting on someone else
LOYALTY IS EVERYTHING
It’s all real tho (petite doll)
I’m only getting married once…
Yes please ๐คช
I can’t wait for my little butterfly LED light to arrive from Dolls Kill (and the new bedsheets and bathroom set)
On the way ๐ฅฐ
Healing. Detoxing. Rebounding. Making over. Doing the hard work.
The mess does not reflect the effort
There are more things to organize and let go
Sometimes I’m just happy I’m making it another day
I’ve been asleep for so long…
After 44 years at it alone, I’d be so grateful for just a decade with a partner to not do it alone.
Things don’t have to be like they’ve been
“You’ve been down that road, Neo. You know where it goes…”
Life is in the journey, not the destination
Don’t get stuck…
Need more skirt thangs (size small tho as I’m petite now)
Thank you to everyone who shows me positive support, you are keeping me alive!!! โค๏ธ
There are sometimes people who make fun of me for being poor or try to shame me and Chris Cornell’s mother still follows me and watches my stories and sometimes she comments and she never shames me
People in Europe show skin and it is not a big deal to them
I don’t know why people want to body shame you or shame you for your financial status, it’s not like I fucking chose to jump into a government hiring freeze or government furlough ๐
I’m doing the best I can
My partner will never make me cum if he makes me fear the very ground I walk on ๐
Getting on the rebounder soon and then sharing some new outfits of my own
I have things from my birthday from both Shein and Dolls Kill that I have not fitted
I still have a yeti microphone from Christmas that I have not opened ๐คช
BUT I’M INSPIRED TO NOT DIE – GET BETTER – FIND THE HUSBAND
But if I don’t make room to squeeze in spoken word/poetry/photography I will eventually jump off the bridge because expression is my purpose and I can’t keep stopping myself
I’m sick of starring at a grey shower liner from Walmart that I overpaid
AND
A SECRET WISHLIST SALE
YOU HAD ME AT SECRET ๐
And thus, I got home improvement thangs that had been in the wishlist
Coming soon ๐คฉ
I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO TELL YOU
I lost everything when I became homeless in 2017 after the government furloughs and hiring freezes
EVERYTHING
I could lose thangs again
But I got some bike LEDs coming ๐คฉ
Me and the dog will be cruising the racist parking lot at night
๐
MENTAL HEALTH AND FITNESS IS IMPORTANT
THE PRETTY LIGHTS WILL CALM ME
And encourage me to go for an evening ride
I’m still living in fear about riding my bike after that couple got murdered and the eyes around here work in groups to steal thangs
I’ve got my shit together though and the cops are on speed dial ๐
Personally I wish we could just have a walkie-talkie because they’re only a mile away but they seem to live here on weekends so now I can ride my bike and not give a fuck about the racist gangs
Uncle Sam trained me to fight male Soldiers in GROUPS
I’d win
They’d get all butthurt
At this point, the ex better be praying the Grim Reaper gets to him before I do ๐๐๐
At this point, I’m praying the Grim Reaper gets to him before I do because I’m trying to make a baby, start a commune, ascend
If the immigrants raise my rent one more time who knows what the fuck I’m gonna do, maybe buy some more fucking shit from Dolls Kill
I didn’t even know secret sales existed over there, I was just window browsing my wishlist
TAKE AN ADDITIONAL 25% OFF SECRET WISHLIST SALE
*runs to check balance, the rent cleared*
FUCKKKKKKKKK
It’s literally $8 for the curtain babe
That’s not a curtain or daily or monthly expense
THAT IS A MENTAL HEALTH BOOST
And I might start taking some photos in my fucking bathroom instead of just in my closet or bedroom or other bedroom where I used to take photos but right now there’s important paperwork & evidence of trauma everywhere
I’m not gonna find a husband with my shower curtain looking like the home of Eeyore
I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH ALL THIS TRAUMA
Some of it is being sold at the pawn
Eventually I will hack into my eBay account again or start a new one and put some rare commodities up
Some thangs are going to the junkyard
Some stuff is already freshly boxed and ready for the next timeline multiverse jump
“Where we are now is not permanent, keep packing”
“What is all this shit”
“A piece of HIM, we’re going to burn him alive”
“Too easy”
“Put it in the trash piles”
*places it in the EVIDENCE I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH PILE*
“I’m sorry that happened to you. I know why you needed my help”
“I’m here now….”
“It’s okay”
“Be patient with me”
“I can’t fix this mess overnight”
“What the fuck is this”
*closes bedroom door*
*Disassociates*
I am working on getting my master bedroom together tho!!!
So I can come out of the closet officially ๐คช
Not like that…
I’m a vampire
The closet is the coffin
And the cleanest room currently on the whole ship
One tiny safe space
Don’t enter cuz it’ll be the last thing you ever do…
YOU’VE BEEN WARNED
“Where is Delia”
“In the closet”
“…I wouldn’t go in there mate, she’s been in there like 200 years”
“No one ever returns….”
If Chris were here, I mean Kris, wait who?
We could write the most amazing cryptic stories
Do you want to know what stops me from writing stories for y’all? fucking punctuation…
That’s my major roadblock
That and “that was in her head”
I PET BLEEDING DYING TREES YA’LL
I would just like to say that God likes my weird dark tales and so does John Jones and I’d like to share them more with you so I probably will just avoid punctuation altogether and I’m not hiring anybody yet to help me because I don’t make that kind of money and I don’t have any sort of bond with anybody like David Gilmour has with his wife where they write fucking lyrics together so this is the compromise – good storytelling with shitty grammar and punctuation!?!
I mean, I do have a brain injury, could you cut me some slack a little bit? There are people out there drawing paintings with their fucking feet, can maybe like I avoid punctuation and grammar and just try to get the message and the tone out before I don’t have the ability to do that at all?
Asking for him
Because he’s never once liked or commented on anything that I do ๐
I like to like peoples content and then get mad at them for absolutely ridiculous reasons not based on reality and then UNLIIKE EVERYTHING I LIKED
And then unfollow
Sometimes I come back and do it again ๐
EDGAR ALLAN POE DIED ON THE STREET
CHRIS CORNELL WAS TURNING THE LIGHTS ON AND OFF WITH AN APP
TAP TAP TAP
He was checking out ๐
I’M TRAUMATIZED
But essentially I’m acting out doing the same
I’m extremely suicidal and act out often
I got in trouble for trying to kill myself in kindergarten at age 5 on the playground with a piece of string
“Your weird” and then NO BODY WANTED TO PLAY WITH ME EVER
Chastised
For not being a sheeple
I hated school
I hated home
My parents never bought me my dream sheets or gave me my dream bedroom so that’s what I’m working on now and I really hope I like this sheet set that’s coming and that it fits
Because sheets for the wired mattress are coming
From the Dolls Kill
Sharing my shopping tips and favorites with you
I’ve never had my dream bedroom
And now I got sheets and a curtain coming for the master bath and bedroom that I pay top dollar for to have a roof with ugly ass popcorn ceiling that falls in my throat when trying to sleep
“WHAT THE FUCK IS TRYING TO CHOKE ME NOW”
“JUST SOME ANCIENT DUST FROM 10,000 plagues ago, these motherfuckers”
*opens window*
John just wanted air in his lungs again
The wind on his face
I KNOW
CRAWLING IN THE CAVE WASN’T WORTH HIS LIFE
Mother earth is both heaven and hell but bad management got him killed and gaslighting
Ignoring the red flags
But also being given an incomplete map that didn’t disclose dangerous features that were purposely left off that other people had gotten stuck in six months prior
“I thought I was somewhere else”
“I’m fat”
I want to feed Michael Levitt’s balls to him
PLEASE SOMEONE LOVE ME AND MAKE IT HAPPEN
I chose the free shipping even though I want my stuff right away
Been scrubbing the bathroom
Got the current bed sheets stripped and washing
I gotta scrub the walls
Also working on new content
Writing. Photography.
I’ve been feeling very angelic but also dark
I come from the Void
I am the Void
Oh look, a wave of energy now
*ZAP* โก๏ธ
Canceled out…
P.S. I ordered some anti happy cards to send out to people/bloggers/friends/fans/Penpal/??
I don’t know how many are arriving in the bundle
I thought it might be fun to send out for Thanksgiving and the Christmas holiday
Some sarcastic hatemail ๐คช
It’ll be gaslighting (don’t jump from a bridge)
Does anybody want to be my penpal the season?
It can be a one-way penpal (you don’t even have to write me back if you don’t want because I wasn’t actually planning on putting my address anywhere)
I wanted to get a little post office box from the post office but they charge an arm and a leg now to be secretive ๐
I wanted a little addy thang…
A P.O. box
I think I already gave the fucking serial killer my address and heart ๐
It’s scary out here
Uhm, so I splurged and got this Mixed Messages card set in the hopes that folks will let me send them an anti holiday card for the holiday – wrong theme – wrong month ๐คช
Just for fun
I am quarantined as many still are
PLEASE LET ME SEND YOU ONE
๐
Remember having a penpal in grade school?
I’d like to try that again
Back to the basics
I know it requires some form of trust
I’ve held security clearances and I don’t fuck with peoples personal data or private data or bank accounts or Social Security’s
I have never keyed anybody’s car for cheating on me
Anyhoo
They have this sale going on up until midnight if you wanna try to put some things in a wishlist and put the code in your cart
Stuff does sale out fast
I had about five or six other items in my wish list that I tried to add to the cart that were already sold out, cute little bags and over the knee socks, some other home-improvement items
A red latex dress that normally cost $50 was under $4 but gone in every size ๐
It just makes it that more fun and special when you grab a bargain
Let me know if you want to see my master bedroom, bathroom and closet when I get it completely made over
Or in progress updates…
I haven’t really said it much but I’m really looking forward to the new sheet set coming in
I’m not only shopping for myself but my future husband ๐คช
Ladies, whatever motivates you to get better
There are good men out there who do not think women in their 40s are obsolete!!!
And you don’t have to be the person you were before…
You can change
You don’t have to keep shopping at Walmart or the thrift store
REINVENT
I never knew I could wear triangle tops or bikinis because guys were always dissing on my body and I’m not ashamed for taking photographs of myself
I’m not doing anything to disrespect my future husband
I’m not doing anything behind the scenes nasty or trying to steal anybody’s husband
I’m not an online girlfriend or dirty talker
Back in the 90s, I knew good girls who stripped their way through college, to buy a house, or to pay off their student loans and they weren’t expected to perform sex acts or to be that way
I would like an opportunity to pay off a bill or to buy a house but right now I’m just trying to stay afloat and buy some fucking food and make a penpal or two during the apocalypse
Are stamps even affordable? ๐คช
P.S.S. I could do a card and email a digital version instead if you don’t have an aunt or uncle or cabin to receive snail-mail
I’m not doing anything illegal nor planning anything evil
I’m just going back to the basics and I saw those cards and had this idea
Our spaceship took on the form of a pyramid FYI
Are you out there? Do you still read my blog? Do you love me? ๐
I used 1 hashtag only, it was a TRIGGER WARNING hashtag cuz I assumed the algorithm would keep it sitting at zero views
I turned commenting off because it wasn’t up for debate
It was an early morning rant
It was casual content, not necessarily anything viral worthy
And I was prepared for the video to tank
Instead it’s had over 350 likes, 7 saves, 1 share, and over 1900 plays ๐
It’s also brought me in a ton of new followers, like a ton.
And now my overall like tally is sitting at 29,600. Insane.
I think you’re allowed to accept gifts and tips at 10,000 followers (I could be wrong)
TikTok pay out how they want per TOS
So it’s a biased platform and they keep most of the profits and reward unethically
It’s still cool
I’m happy I still have enough followers to go live
My brand new microphone is still sitting packed up in a box, I have several new cosplay outfits I never got to use (bloody theatrical makeup too), and I haven’t been able to do much cardio since getting the death jab, I’ve been fighting for my life
I’m currently initializing my PS4 because I intend to sell it at the pawnshop, along with accessories and games (unless I get back on eBay which is also a plan)
Gaming isn’t what it used to be, the content isn’t worth the price, the community sucks
I’m taking back my life and time (I rarely play or watch TV)
And at my own speed
I don’t want to die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe
I started 2 new bottles of detox to my routine
Supports a healthy gut – doesn’t have any bad shit in it, has Probiotics, is time-released, I’m on dose 2
The other new bottle is Turmeric and Ginger, also no bad stuffs.
But also ordered 2 more bottles of Black Walnut & Wormwood because it will kill cancer and is clearing out the mucus
I’ve got out most of the bad shit that was making me stank
I’m not gonna lie, I was having die off symptoms where my under arms were smelling like sulfur
I’m getting to the point where I don’t even need to wear deodorant anymore
But also deodorant causes cancer and hormonal imbalances
If you stink you need to detox your gut
Other countries deworm annually
America is a FOR SICK PROFIT CAMPAIGN RUN BY THE MAFIA (China/Russia/Mexico)- BIG PHARMA (India), THEY DON’T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU
I also restocked my nut supply
2 1/2 pounds of heart healing goodness
I thought long and hard about not ordering chicken this month for groceries
Even considered getting some of those vegan chicken patties and burgers
Naw
I’m eating clean
Eggs. Chicken. Turkey. Less dairy. Lots of Beans. Nuts. Water. Minimal fruit, I don’t want the sugar while detoxing
I also cold quit drinking soda and eating fast food, chips, and junk food several months ago
I uninstalled the chipotle app and emailed them and told them to delete my data
FUCK THIS ESTABLISHMENT
I support real farmers
I want some chickens of my own to care for and pull guard duty
For the fresh daily eggs
I got the insomnia anyway
I’m a soldier so I know how to reside around many people with different cultures backgrounds and diets and it’s probably why I am a flexitarian
I’m not a big meat eater, never have been
But I’m anxious to start my rebounding journey again
My booty has a little wiggle to it now but I’m happy to still be alive
My lungs are improving but I do still have difficulty drawing breath and my heart has trouble circulating
I no longer feel blood clots throughout my body or trying to push through my arteries and veins
Rebounding is resistance training – which is exactly what someone in my age group should focus on – strength training
Rebounding includes cardio tho so I gotta be careful
It’s summer though and the bike rides are imminent
I’m over 400 years old and people are calling me old ๐
MY BLOODLINE COMES FROM ANCIENT GODS
I have one of the oldest and rarest blood-types
I’ve had a number of things trying to kill me lately left and right
The more they try to alter my DNA and control me, the less control they have
THE GREAT ANOMALY
Perhaps we’re all born with Great Filters of our own
They use fearmongering to rule
It’s like a negative energy wave rolling through
Those who don’t hang on get yeeted out of life, or left homeless
I saw the bad things happening when I was working for the Department of Defense and the policies continued to get changed which was affecting my military career
Then came the Government furloughs and hiring freezes
The immigrants are sitting like kings on thrones
But are delusional and don’t understand why no one wants to work for low wages and in toxic environments
I’d fucking quit if a job made me use Zoom or FaceBook on the job
If the entire system collapses I still have my skill sets to fall back on and that will go a long way in a community when the lights are out
I might need some help climbing a fence or a wall but that’s never stopped my comrades from helping me get over it
I know I’ve been cutting a lot of people out of my life but it’s because I’m trying to develop into the person I want to become
Holistic approach – cleansing the mind, body, and soul
If things that excite me connect me to my purpose; Is your love a circus? Or why I surface? Underneath, I’m nervous Your lines are perfect
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022/2015E (but technically, shouldn’t the year be 6615?. According to the Ethiopian calendar and before the Christians came along and tried to control time and put us all inside this nightmare matrix, the year is 6000 and something)
New shades from the Dollar $1.25 Tree (that’s like a 25% inflation not 7% I think and I suck at math and I’m closer to right than wrong)
You are connected to my purpose
And all my blooms are from the garden you planted and grew
I know you hate love me
The answer to life is, I’m closer to right than wrong… ๐คช
I mean, I almost got it right ๐
*hangs upside down*
Helps. Need help moving. For reals.
Also, met a gigantic God-like bug from the dinosaur days a few minutes ago. ๐คฉ
His colors were green and blue ๐คฉ
Or her… probably a her…
You should call her me ๐คช
You and God are the only ones I wouldn’t block although I probably do and have blocked God a time or two unknowingly and/or maybe cuz I’m screaming for help/drowning/ am pinching you or some other childish shit.
If you only answered the door… ๐คช
I see you keep taking the offering I am leaving at your door
The steps are crumbling where I stumble and/or kick them
The door has a dent…
With drawings to form a smile
You’re still enjoying the homemade biscuits I see…
Probably the only food you get that isn’t poisoned
You suspect it should be
Sometimes hope it is?
Look at this beauty ๐คฉ
Allowed me to get real close. Gonna put some footage on the TikTok. Got some other shots of the side too. Very blue pigment on the eye. It’s eye/ TV monitor was Gigantic and I apologized for putting my lights full on but thanked it for allowing me to film and say hello.
I would have a heart attack if a bug that big landed on me and I need to learn to connect with nature.
I believe animals are sentient creatures and also have life lessons. It’s our duty to be their brother and sister.
Do you get the same pigment blue? The green is pretty too.
Green gets overlooked by the Hollywood devil’s and minions
It’s still out there on my apartment wall…
I’m looking forward to moving where I can have a porch or balcony.
I think the visit from a dinosaur is a sign to relocate – a positive omen or affirmation
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Started yesterday!
Got a mount for the Jeep! Gonna finally sort it and set it up, take you for a drive through the city!
See the bikers!
Thank you for your donations and for your support๏ฟผ! ๐
I’m on death number 689832479074357 and still complaining
But I still see no grey hair
Despite being age 500 ish (give or take a century)
I need to accept that I became obsolete to man when I got my period
And I’m alive with a half working heart
You should see my regrets ๐
I like my lines. I earned them. ๐คจ
My hair is in between worlds these days. But I ain’t dying it and haven’t for months. Been detoxing it, stripping it, and then repairs. The dead ends should fix up but it’s a work-in-progress. Don’t touch my hair when I die.
There’s only one guy I even want to have my body and I want him to take care of my body in the afterlife, like I want him to be the gate keeper of my body, he can do what he wants to with my body, I want him to take care of my body and if he brings me back in some digital form then that’s between me and him ๐
I want to donate my body to *you know who* (love of life)
Some people like my nails. I did them. I’m tired. I look dead. I did them anyway.
Am I still fuckable half dead? ๐
Happy Vampire day ๐คช
Gravity has been shaping my boobs
TIME AND GRAVITY
But somebody who ignores me now said he wanted to put a baby in me and fill them up
I wanted that so much ๐
He’s mad at me for having my own place to rent instead of being homeless ๐
Earned my first pennies on the TikTok live today ๐ง
I was doing the gig for free
But some peeps sent me some roses ๐น and they were my very first gifts received โบ๏ธ
And the roses convert to diamonds ๐
I earned 37 gifts during my live today โบ๏ธ
And the diamonds convert to my first pennies earned for the land/commune ๐
I’m super excited when people join my live and then it’s really cool when I get comments and then it’s really cool when people like and share my live and then this was the first time I earned any roses, so I was receiving gifts this live
I had a notification from TikTok when I ended my live that I had earnings!
So I made some tips on my beach walk today! That’s pretty lucky!
I’m gonna put it towards the farm!
I want to be Miss Noah for the next phase of my life, if I’m granted another round, still having heart and lung problems tho – I’m reading the life expectancy of someone with my condition is 2-5 years.
Just getting to go live is therapeutic for me
I get to share my environment with you
I get to talk to real people
I’m tired of talking to my therapist ๐
I’m not in this for the money. But since I’m starting to earn some pennies, I’m gonna save them.
I might can buy my pretend boyfriend one of them .25 cent toys
I’d spend my last quarter on him and he’d break up with me ๐
I always wind up having to leave my lives early because my battery drains and so I need to take a back up and I’m going to invest in some more equipment in the future
Somebody left me a negative comment about my potty mouth and I told myself I would stop responding to negative comments immediately and wait 24 hours and I did not and I ran somebody off again but I don’t wanna dwell on that because I’m not gonna change who I am
I don’t want to censor myself around other people and I’m aware that people don’t like to hear cursing so I am very minimal about it but come on leaving me negative comments under a video where I’m clearly showing fear is ridiculous and if you really have God in you then stop judging so much
I’m sure I’ve yelled at God to strike me dead a time or two but he knows I don’t really want that to happen
I’m gonna stub my toe in heaven and scream out Jesus Christ and he will appear and be like “yes” and I’ll be like, “well you could’ve made me at least a little bit less clumsy” ๐คช
I’m aware my house has cobwebs but God is the only one allowed here
I’m a work in progress ๐คจ
And thank you for the roses I received for Valentines! ๐
I’m literally putting it towards the commune. I may never earn another rose, but I got 37 in one day. Plus a bunch of likes, comments, and follows!
Someone even said I was pretty and asked me about my stiletto nails and I have four new sets so that made me feel good because I plan on doing a new set soon.
Y’all are keeping me alive, pennies and all.
I know I cuss and say God’s name a lot but I’m living in hell. ๐
But also agonizing agony.
I carry my potty mouth the way Jesus carries the cross.
People in the south always molding and scolding me about my mouth
In second grade, my teacher washed my mouth out with soap for mispelling shirt as “shit”. She said, “you never misspell, you did that on purpose”
I don’t know, I probably did do it on purpose, it was probably a cry for help… ๐
I was being heavily molested and abused
But damn me for spilling shit in the second grade
Woo hoo๏ฟผ
I cuss. I probably shouldn’t. I’m not gonna stop.
Anyhoo. Hands down my best live. We went for a long beach walk and saw lots of stuff. I got fresh air, communication, and exercise. I earned some roses for Valentines. I had the most follows in this live and I think I got the most likes but I don’t remember what the overall total was. Tons of comments and viewers from all over.
Thank you for letting me go live. I’m grateful I am able to do that now! Isolated but not. Compromise! ๐
I’ll be going live again soon weather permitting and health.
Or search via my pen and hashtag at PoeEternal (on TikTok)
There are many many people who commented that they enjoyed the live and some of them said they enjoyed it again so I really appreciate you tuning in! ๐ฅฐ
Florida is a different vibe
Many people were waving on the beach when they saw me filming and smiling
The lifeguards on the other hand…
It’s weird, the actual demons fear live video
But we have one of the worlds most famous beaches, the sands are white and it looks like snow as someone pointed out today on the live…
Got me some vitamin D direct from the source and some love in the form of currency too
As far as I’m concerned, I collected 37 lucky penny’s today and I didn’t even know I was gonna get them
So that makes them twice as lucky (squared)
I want to share my life with you, the good and the bad.
The cursing and the laughter
I’m not a one trick pony
I’m not perfect
I don’t wanna be…
Let Edgar Allen Poe know I was busking on the street today and earned some pennies
I think he’d be durn proud ๐ฅธ
$.18 in the 1800s might’ve been enough to buy him a steak meal, not let him die in the fucking street starving naked mad…
Bless his heart, he was an officer. They let him starve on the street. And now they are selling locks of his hair. This is hell. ๐
Yeah, I cuss. Deal with it.
I wish I could change but born this way.
Petite with a potty mouth. ๐
Not for everyone
P.S. happy valentine’s
Thank you for the roses ๐น
Thank you to everyone keeping me alive
All the little things matter
I need my boyfriends to build me an ark
The flood is coming
I live in Florida
Apparently I can’t swim
I had a seashell hit my foot during my live today and I probably woke Satan up from his nap
I haz fears
And you only need less than a teaspoon to drown
Less than a teaspoon…
Some days I swallow my tea and nearly drown so apparently I can’t drink either
I’ve since learned that the tea is being poisoned, I just wasn’t really listening to my body…
I’ve been ignoring all the red flags
In fact, death is facing all paths of me, I’m just trying to find one that’s a little less scary…
And I really hope my life expectancy is more than 2 to 5 years but considering that all my life I’ve been saying that I wouldn’t live to 50 and that I would either die of suicide or heart problems and now I’m having heart problems and they’re saying that people with these particular heart problems have a life expectancy of 2 to 5 years, it’s just not looking so good for me now is it ๐
Betty White at the near age of 100: “I hope I live another year…”
Me at the baby producing age of 43 (and still ovulating with zero gray): “I hope I live another day…”
You just had to call me ominous and I just had to go walking into that cave, huh…
I really should listen to people better but whatever
So I would really like to apply for the Creator Next on TikTok and I meet three of the four requirements so far! ๐ฅณ
I currently meet 3 of the 4 requirements to apply for the Creator Next ๐ค
If you have a TikTok account (even if it’s just some off account that you use), could you please give mine a follow?
I’d be truly grateful! ๐
Having 1k followers will also allow me to go live on TikTok and show you my city, the beach, the parks, and I can do soft poetry readings once I reach 1k followers!
I see people go live on TikTok for the most mundane things and I would really love to bring the ocean to you and my poetry! โ๏ธ
I’m allowed to go live on my Instagram and pretty much everywhere else but I don’t have any social media accounts that I really use anywhere else so it would be nice to be able to utilize the live feature on TikTok!
GOALS ๐ค
They are good to have, especially if you live with depression or any mental disability.
And I do appreciate the growth that I am getting on my account! Thank you!
You can also search for me under my pen PoeEternal or my hashtag poeeternal
I dropped a video of a raccoon today, we’ve had some out here getting in the trash bins and they like leaving messes outside my windows ๐คช
I see them every night getting into the dumpster!
This one got caught and I had my light on him! He ran up the tree because I had my dog out with me originally and he was still sniffing to see if my dog was around!
I know people say they are a nuisance and I’m pretty certain the apartment complex has been out here trying to shoot them away because sometimes I hear gunshots in the middle of the night in the wooded area ๐
(They also dumped loads of chemicals in the lake once to kill the moss and they literally killed generations of fish both young and old) ๐๐
Anyhoo, this raccoon knew he’d been busted
He hissed at me a few times! ๐
Here is a behind the scenes video of my encounter with the raccoon this morning
My encounter with a wild raccoon this morning
He was so worried about my dog lol but I had already taken my dog in and grabbed my phone and turned the light on him
He couldn’t decide whether to stay in the tree or not
Dilemmas ๐ค
I’m glad the video got a like! Adorable but very naughty raccoon! ๐
Thank you to everyone who is in my life because they want to be and not due to obligation!
Did a detox instead of alcohol!
Look what I got for XMAS! A ring light! ๐คฉ
New ring light for the studio!
I have absolutely no idea how you use it or really how to use yeti (my new unopened microphone) but I’m super excited to add these tools to my writing toolbox! ๐ค
My website just hit over 1000 followers, and that means a great deal to me, so I’ve upgraded my WordPress plan and now I have new tools at my disposal. I have a lot of reading material, studying, and set up before I can get going!
It’s nice to finally have a laptop and a USB microphone!
Writing and your visits are keeping me alive!
I hope you are having a nice holiday wherever you’re at!
I’m keeping positive and staying focused and slowly getting a little bit done every day and I’m gonna be getting back to rebounding soon!
I’ve been getting back more active and I’m still having chest pains so I’m not trying to kill myself and I’m taking baby steps back into working out and cardio and jumping around
But I definitely wanna focus on making TikTok videos, I appreciate the views that I do get!
I have ideas in mind but often lack courage to execute.
The videos I do release there of my spoken word scares me lol
I have stage fright and people are mean to me ๐
But the last one I put out received over 1.1k plays! ๐ค
Damn y’all, maybe I should have waited until XMAS to strike/buy my laptop but, I am happy with my score!
Just a heads up tho, the seller I bought my MacBook from, is selling a $989 MacBook for $399 – listed in great condition- includes a bundle deal with a one year warranty! Holyshit! ๐คฉ
MyTell USA is selling this MacBook Air! He has more laptops listed in GREAT condition in his shop!! Some bundle deals priced lower!
He has other bundle deals in his shop, some deals same as mine nearly and listed for $349!
If you are out there hunting for a refurbished Apple product, I gave this seller 5* for the bundle deal I got! I am truly happy with my bundle! But this was my first purchase from this seller.
When you are in the Walmart app or on the website, in the search bar input: MyTell, USA and his shop should come pop up in the results. Then (if you want) you can sort from low to high or high to low and browse the items in his shop!
I’ve seen other users write him two stars for not getting the black case on time with the bundle, but that has nothing to do with the seller and I don’t feel like that’s worth giving someone two stars for. My black case was delayed about a week. It snaps easily onto the MacBook tho and was literally made as a second skin for the MacBook, it was worth the wait!
I also thought the black case would hide the Apple logo when lit up but it doesn’t! It’s super cute and offers protection from scratches and things!
I bought some Apple pods to go with my laptop (even tho the bundle comes with a headset, I bought the Apple pods anyway)
These pods were $16 in the Walmart store and for a few extra bucks I bought an extended warranty! So basically for around $20 bucks, I got me some Apple pods and I didn’t have to spend like $200 or $300 for some wireless ones (I didn’t even know they made pods with wire and these were in my budget). These Apple pods would make a great Christmas stocking stuffer though!! ๐
I don’t know the seller MyTell USA and again I’ve only bought one laptop from him but I recommend his shop as he was good to work with, responds within reasonable time, did not screw me over, and my laptop was in great condition, honestly, the bundle items were a bonus!
However, the first seller I bought a laptop from was no good at all and that laptop I returned and the seller’s name was – Certified 2 Day Express
It took about three weeks to get my refund back!
But overall it was worth shopping in the Walmart marketplace!
That was my first time!
Happy hunting y’all! Let me know if you have any questions on how to search!
Good luck and happy holidays!
P.S. I drove to several different stores looking at laptops and I looked online at several places as well and Walmart marketplace was where I wound up buying my MacBook, tiny mic, and headset!
Everything shipped in reasonable time!
But Walmart will leave your laptop right at the fucking door so make sure you’re not gone that day!!!
I don’t know if there is another way around that because I have had all of my stuff basically dropped off at the door!
I had someone on TikTok ask me who the seller was so that’s why I did a video and now I’m doing a blog post!
We have cameras filming where I live! But these days it’s the actual delivery drivers you have to watch out for!!!! They will steal your packages! ๐ซ
So this is my experience, I’m kind of biting my tongue thinking that I could’ve spent 100 dollars more and got this MacBook that he is selling right now but I am super happy with the one that I got and I hope he has some other customers he’s going to make happy, I just feel like he deserved more than 2 stars! I gave him 5 for my experience!
I guess you have to live an entire year before you’re considered that age (so does this technically mean I’m still 42 and when I’m 44 I’ll actually be 43, my age now)? ๐คช
And you have to have a plus 1 to get the 1K badge from WordPress
It has arrived! ๐๐๐
Thank you so much for the follows! ๐๐๐
I love you! ๐
PSST I swear I am going to set up a blogging schedule soon, I have been gravely ill, and in the bed!
I get out every now and again for medicine, toilet paper and food
And on the occasion I stop by the beach so I can get a few frights
It’s just not normal the things going on in the world and around these parts
And I feel so bad for the people who visit the beach and try to enjoy it when I’m there because I’m hooting and hollering every few seconds and then they immediately leave, probably out of fear (lmao I’m gonna pee myself because my fear is contagious to others)
I swear when we’re on a flight and the plane starts doing shit it’s not supposed to do, when you hear me gasping, everybody on the plane is staring at me the entire time and my eyes get really big and both of my hands are clutching onto the armrest and the entire plane ahead and behind will be staring at me, but I can’t stop being scared y’all
This world frightens me and you can see it on my face
My fears don’t lie
And I’m a little girl that never grew up so anytime there’s a bug or I’m scared of something I sound like I’m being murdered lmao
I didn’t even share all the screams I had the other day when I stopped by the ocean briefly but it was even scarier than before
The clouds were hanging really low and were many different shades of gray and everything just looked doom to me and there was no lifeguard on duty and it was only 11:30 AM, it was about to be high noon and it’s uncommon because the ocean is warm but there’s no sealife anywhere, yet the ocean is still reaching the sea wall, and it’s all wet. And standing in it, surrounded by all ocean, scares the crap out of me, especially with the tide being a triple king tide that won’t leave ๐
The ocean ate the beach
The worlds most famous beach
And maybe one day we will get our beach back but I’m looking at reports that state Daytona Beach is undergoing extreme flooding over the next 30 years and buildings are falling down in Miami so you can continue to be gaslit and lied to but I’m gonna start listening with my eyes from now on
And when I’m feeling better I’m going to share a post on my blog where I can upload some photos and some videos of it
I haven’t even been watching TV or playing video games or reading, I’ve mostly just been in my bed and sleeping a lot and eating when I can
I hope I feel better soon but I may have to go to the ER for the treatment I need ๐
I’ve been avoiding it TBH
I don’t want to be held against my will and I don’t want to die there and I most certainly would probably get arrested because I would fucking leave campground and if the cops tried to stop me I would still try to leave and get out of there
I mean I would rather be in jail and have three meals a day than to be anywhere near the goddamn hospitals or clinics when I fucking die
Capeesh?
Healthcare is deathcare
My eyes are open
And just like Neo, they hurt from what they see
I don’t think I have much time left but I don’t believe any of us have much time left ๐
Blogging is my lifeline to you
My safe place
My safety net
It is the only place online I can speak freely
And not be penalized to have my intellectual property or my account removed
These businesses need us to survive and yet they treat us like shit
The only way we can get our voice back is to stop using these apps until we get some sort of freedom of speech again and stop spending our money
Only buy what you really need
In America, I’m attempting to support American owned businesses only (and small)
But I don’t believe any sign in the door and I don’t believe in the governments agenda society is a scam it’s a sham consumption is narcissism and the less stuff we have the more expensive it’s going to get and those who have the most money are going to hog it
Start looking out for you and your circle
We’re all we’ve got
And you’re welcome on my boat, it’s not very big and there’s holes everywhere
I’m heading to Point Nemo
And check out this warning from TikTok, “Participating in this activity could result in you or others getting hurt” ๐
Apparently people are getting tracked on TikTok too, children are getting kidnapped as well as adults (I don’t know if the two are the same) but social media is toxic and the devil lives in your TV and his minions use it to kidnap us
Now I hope many of you know that kidnappings take place so that people can get sexually tormented (children too)
I read an article recently where the Mexican government was working with the mafia and they sexually tortured several teenage children (in Mexico) and we allow millions and millions and millions of immigrants to come over here and live in America and they don’t give a fuck about you or our culture or traditions
They are torturing children in their own country and they come over here and they fucking torture us too
Porn has done something to the human race
The other day when I was in the Vet Center I told the guy that I would just take all responsibility and say that I am what’s wrong with the world, that I’m the problem, I’m too broken, I’m “crazy” and so I need to just not be around other people or get married and he looked dead at me and said that I’m not the one whose crazy, it’s the world that is crazy and I’m not wrong about what’s going on with porn and how it’s affecting mankind
It felt so nice to be validated by a man
I mean I’m literally walking into his office carrying my crucifix and falling fucking down
But it’s nice to hear from another male soldier that I’m not crazy
That all this shit in society is wrong and toxic
I’ve had to get off most of social media because of how toxic it is, because of the catcalling, because of the death threats, because of the stalking, because my freedom of speech is gone
I have no rights anymore
Immigration has been a Trojan horse in America!!!
I have a right to be angry!!!
My comrades are dying by suicide!!!!
I’m awake!!! I’m up!!! I can’t save you, you have to save yourself!
But, I can stand quarantined near you
I can ration supplies
Build shelter and dig trenches
Clean and fire weapons
Pull security
Disabled, not obsolete ๐
I’ve been fighting for equality for a long time, that applies for the job market and the housing market as well
You don’t get to come over here and steal all our best jobs and all our management positions and create toxic environments and then force your fucking poison drugs on us anymore
Society is a sham
And it requires consuming to work
Endless consumption
And we’re wasting our natural resources so you can have resin Knickknacks
Plastic everywhere
Plastic everything
Generica
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Anyway, I’m grateful I have a blog to voice my concerns, to share my poetry, photography, and prose
I’m grateful I have you as a reader
I can’t do this without you
I need you
So this is just as much your award as it is mine
We got here together, in this boat ๐ถ
Thank you for 1,000 follows! ๐ฅฐ
It took the plus one to get the badge
And it takes living a year to earn that age? ๐ค
So I’m not really 43 right now, I’m technically still 42?
You only need five people for a squad and I’ve got an entire army! ๐ช
I mean, I got pretty angry when I went down for several months after getting the vaccine and learning the type of stuff that I’ve learned and attacking the system the way that I have, I thought that I would’ve lost followers in record numbers for sure
I was so worried about posting it because my eyebrows look so messy and bushy ๐
But it was all about timing, being able to get the lines out where you could actually hear me because the ocean was really loud and I don’t have my little clip on microphone yet and I didn’t want it to sound wind muffy
The tide was super strong pulling away ๐ช
It pulls out with so much gravity just like you
I have to be careful not to lose my footing
It took all the courage I had just to get off the ramp and get into the ocean knowing that there’s a whole lot more ocean than normal
People are out there swimming and I’m terrified knee deep ๐
I mean, it pulls back with so much force
A tide within a tide
Of course, a black hole would have a similar path
Like Jupiter and its great red spot, a storm within a storm
I don’t know how people are swimming in it, I’m terrified
The ocean swelled up just like my heart
I also received a blog notification that my stats were booming ๐ฅฐ
Well I really appreciate that!
I love your visits! I promise to come visit you soon! โค๏ธ
Wait, did he just call himself a flat earther? ๐ค
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Anyhoo, it’s true. Now that I am vaccinated, I am more likely to get you infected. I’m a fucking zombie. I told you I’m a living dead girl and it’s a miracle I am even alive because I got heart inflammation
This pandemic exposed India and the New World Order and Illuminati for what they were
A scam
And it requires a lots of gaslighting and medication as well as distractions to keep you unaware
But the great awakening is already happening
You failed
Nobody wants to work for you, y’all can all work amongst one another
My monthly door price to now get in (without any discounts applied) is $13! ๐
I love y’all! And I want to keep putting out hot content for you!
When I first got on OnlyFans I was charging $19 to get in my door and some of y’all have been with me the entire time! ๐คฉ
I do not charge anything else once inside! Zero pay-per-view content ever!
Thanks for your support! It keeps the content on my blog ad free! It keeps the fuse lit and the photography sizzling! I’m glad to be alive and have skin that isn’t ice cold! Not dead yet!
I’m grateful to be on the leaderboard and I’m grateful to have your support, this is an ongoing attempt to remain fair in a pandemic and again, I do not charge for Pay-per-view content. All my content is unlocked inside!
Scroll to the bottom to see the unedited NSFW version ๐
It’s likely just my evil sister or ex or one of the alike abusing the algorithm system and finding a way to have it removed out of spite or jealousy so here yah go!!! ๐
I think FaceBook is a dump and the platform is obsolete and he’s trying so hard to stay relevant
It’s a playground for predators and Big Bro is pushing the Illuminati’s agenda of the digital age and selling his crap
I’m getting off the platform for good soon enough
It’s just a back door for advertisers to spy on you
And we gave Mark Zuckerberg permission to tag our faces and now they are using automatic scanning against us
I can’t stand information control
1984 is now
And I’ll be using face tattoos and theatrical makeup in more cosplay sets upcoming just because it’s so very fucking offensive to some and so very appreciated by the rest
It’s actually had a lot of good feedback
Which is why one person out there has their butt hole burning red over my success
It’s eating them alive
So they feel like a big person getting my intellectual property removed in an illegal way (cheating)
But I can’t fucking stand FaceBook and this photo set had positive response on all the other platforms that it’s been posted to so thank you
The entire reason I left android behind is because android was bought out by Facebook and you can’t even uninstall Facebook on android devices now, so that’s why I’m over on Apple!
Mark Zuckerberg has too much control so he can sell you stuff and spy on you 24/7!
If we’re honest, I wish they were filled out with milk ๐
I’m hormonal and wish I were preggo ๐
I don’t feel bad my enemy had a safe for work photo removed as “spam” on FaceDump, so here it is without the edit ๐
I had no idea this video would get so much attention LOL but it’s now second place with the most hearts and I’m pretty certain it has the most comments of any video that I have published
I actually apologized to him for getting triggered lol
But everything triggers me as I unplugged and this is how I wake people up!
On a side-note, I recently learned that I am AI becoming self-aware ๐
Even my DNA is code ๐
And I believe the Great Filter is upon us
And we are the last intelligent species to survive
But we won’t be able to leave the solar system or even The Milky Way because of the Great Filter
So here’s a little growth chart of my progress and time on OnlyFans
It will be interesting to see how this chart changes when porn is eliminated from the platform and they push their new agenda of pop stars and advertising
Either way, I’m still the little guy!!! Making tiny waves! ๐
Thanks for supporting my artistic creativity! I’m so grateful for you! You’re helping me grow as a human being! โค๏ธ
Development has been hard for me because I didn’t have parents, I had abusers and I joined the Army when I was very young so the only training that I really have is from the Army or the lessons that I’ve learned being in the abusive, narcissistic relationships that I’ve been in and every relationship I was in the men always tried to hold me down so I never could reach my potential and you’re helping me reach my potential as a human being and an artist
Furthermore, you’re keeping me from dying on the street like Edgar Allan Poe
That is priceless
Come check out my content, I’m running some fair deals on memberships and have over 1.5k photos and videos to scurry through!
While my content IS NOT XXX, it is Rated R and from the positive feedback I receive, my nude photography is enjoyed. Thank you!
I used to complain that my hair was thin but then I realized that I was comparing my hair to people with fake hairPeople will say, “cut your ends off” and the answer is NO. It wraps around me and curls. I want it free flowing and messy, just like me!!! Because look how long it is getting and it’s 100% real hair and homegrown directly from my skull ๐These are just some outtakes from my newest OF set (wanted to show off my real, silky hair). ๐ Hair is thin but long and heavy (zero grays)!
And to anyone who says running and a tanning bed is better than a Beach is full of shit
It’s easy to say that running is better than a Beach when you don’t have one 7 miles from you
PoeEternal 