What You Can Expect as a Patron

Dear Patrons And Future Patrons


Information about my Patreon and love to my Patrons!

Like a Big Bang

Like the big bang

I See

Cuz he is a multiverse

Real Life War Stories on Tuners Radio

3 parts up


I can't stand her. Micropoem + vampire cosplay

Top 9 Post of 2019 on Instagram!

My top 9 post of 2019 as loved by you are now on my Instagram! Thanks for the love!

Love & Thanks

Love and thanks

35K Oh My!

Gratitude + snaps =)

Regarding Love

Let's be real, you don't know love in any manner, you don't even love yourself.

Narcissism warning

Tools the narcissist will use

My Sunday, how’s yours going?

I am a victim of criminal mischief



Lil Peep

Song recommendation by Lil Peep RIP

Likes and Comments

Don't just hit like, read!

My Dawn Is Gone (A real story)

A very personal poem + stories + photos of my best friend who died by suicide *possible trigger warnings*

Blue (Spoken word with guitar)

Spoken word!!!!!!

Made For You

I am you and what I see is me

Hello, Excuse Me

Hello excuse me, uhhh sir, no don't go *sigh* (Are we doing digital lovers yet? Plug me in)

Kinky vampy bitch inside


Remembers Worth


Until You Die

I live and breathe Poe foreverrrrrrr (love you to death)

Back Where We Started

One more thing...

Dear Bloggers, Please Read

Book publishing recommendation - you're welcome ๐Ÿ˜ƒ


A deeply sorrowful poem + commentary (with hyperlinks to nerdy stuff I've done)

Unrequited Love on Tuners

Do and don't of love on Tuners, listen free now


Goddess of Confusion / A poem + photos (because why not)

My Survivor CBS Casting Call/Auditions

I am auditioning for SURVIVOR CBS again (4th attempt)


A poem about suicide that turned into a convo about suicide awareness + a gig memory & photos

All Hallows Eve Dancing

Longing AKA dancing for the first time in my fangs... + Snaps

“Please Come Lie Next To Me”

Hallows Eve + APOP + Fangs = Dancing on my Insta

Top 10 Halloween music playlist

What I got spinning for Halloween

All Hallows Eve


OOPS (Blog boo boos again)

Oops I did it again

Things (but mostly love)

Things written while mostly smitten (micropoems)

Hello 28K!

Oh hi there! 28K woah! Thanks!

Dance like nobody’s watching / 119 pounds of sorrow

dancing away my sorrows


Themes of death, possible trigger warning (irony)


Cast not the first stone... (super late night freestyle remorse/regret)

Le Vampyre

Couldn't sleep, full moon. My alter ego came out.

Come Back


Tower of Sorrow

eternal blackness, he's gone


What a waste of precious months with you, writing for what, for whom? The fall of pride vs ego.

Happy Friday

Thankies + snappies

Just a shoutout to my tribe

Grateful for you and sorries

My Muse! Digi Art

Amateur digi art I made of my muse, Alexander Ebert. Making digi art is a favorite pastime of mine. โœŒ

Today Is My Birthday!

I got hugs today on my birthday from my absolute favorite person in the world, GAVIN ROSSDALE!

Poetic Ramblings For The One

Friday afternoon freestyle freeform ๐Ÿ™‚ + a few added snaps because it's my birthday weekend!!! ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

Ah, The Great Depression!

Ahh ye great joy of depression!

Thoughts n’ Thangs

Thoughts. Ideas. Micropoetry. Micro-thinking. Is that a thing?

Endless Love

Do you guys meditate? This is the equivalent of me sitting in a circle with stone and giving us a journey to travel on... Freshly written this morning, freestyle. It was meant to be a non-rhyme but oh well, a bit seeped out. I hope you like!!!

I’m So Scared

This is not my best writing, but it comes from a real place of fear as I battle depression and suicidal tendencies. Trigger warning.

Made in Heaven (Movie Recommendation)

A movie recommendation of my favorite film since I was 10 years old.


Possible trigger warning. Depression and suicide is the subject. Be warned. Including original digi art of myself.

Age of Reason

I'm starting to believe them when they say "ignorance is bliss"... knowing things suck! This poem was written in freestyle, I like giving myself the freedom to flow. Age of reason, no doubt!!


Seems like I'm getting hit from all sides lately; a new mantra to remind me to keep putting one step forward, keep moving, keep breathing, keep living! Pain teaches us that we're alive!! Depression isn't forever! Good times will come again! Don't give up!!

Thank you for 12k!

My blog has received over 12,000 visits and I wanted to personally thank you.

Sad Empty Pathetic Lives

a private poem from my vault to share for April Poetry Month (raw & untouched freestyle)


Hey guys!! I'm sorry if I haven't been as active lately, not just with posting my own content but with communicating and doing peer reviews with other bloggers. I've had a lot going on both in my personal life and professional. I am also trying to beat a nasty illness called depression and sometimes it … Continue reading Update

Depression is Real

Recently I was asked if I would do a short VIDEO on depression awareness and you can watch it on the JoyforJan Instagram direct by the link below: https://www.instagram.com/joyforjan/p/BwuvjQagf-Y/?utm_source=ig_share_sheet&igshid=18yzgj2zdg08y

Gavin Rossdale Visits The Kevin & Bean Morning Show

Gavin Rossdale of Bush answers a question I submitted on the Kevin and Bean show!

Things of Note by PoeEternal

Bits of pieces here & there. Thoughts. Ideas. Microwords. I feel like watching you smile is one of the most beautiful things I can witness in life. If you can't have it, dream about it. Fantasize. Talk to yourself. Loneliness is a state, not a being. Be one with it. Love. Even when you can't. … Continue reading Things of Note by PoeEternal

That one time Val Kilmer showed me some love

That one time Val Kilmer said he loved my handle.... ๐Ÿ˜ I'm never changing my pseudo name! ๐Ÿ˜†


I am so grateful for all the traffic that my website has been receiving. It is a great honor to be able to share my words with you and that you keep coming back to read more. As such, and as a thank you, I will be releasing my epic poem in three parts, which … Continue reading Gratitude

Wounded Warrior, Help

Is there anyone out there who can help a disabled veteran or fellow human being? Hello Family, Strangers, Friends, The transition from military to civilian life has been extremely difficult on me, especially with the government hiring freezes and state of our economy. I served my country honorably for 15 years but my body became … Continue reading Wounded Warrior, Help

This is raw. One year amongst the remains.

I realize now that it has been a year nearly to the day when I went no contact from you. My heart is still broken. But it's been breaking since the very first time you hurt me. And each time after. And you know the things you did. I'm still trying to process and heal … Continue reading This is raw. One year amongst the remains.