i laid out all my cards
presented on the table
told the Devil my dues
said i wasn’t able
i’m full of blues
could he cut the cable?
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lol too depressed to play
told him to end my life
lol he tried
i’d prob be too embarrassed to admit in the ways he tried
sometimes he made it really easy to crawl in there
double jeopardy? can’t kill me the same way twice?
i would not call it God mode
but it is more advanced
i’m scared of everything
prob cuz i already died that way
i don’t just talk to the dead
things in other dimensions too
sometimes i hear music that aint of this earth but the people singing were
jim morrison and chris cornell singing together, get the fuck out of the way
no telling how much sleep i lost disassociating
prob dying
was most def dying
still dying
not the “getting older” dying
but like an active battle with the devil RIGHT NOW
he still trying to kill me
NO DEAL
i don’t make deals with no one
look at that fucking thing
and you say God isn’t real
wtf ever
he/she as real as my fury
they fascinate me the most, volcanoes
they influence me
scared to get near one
boogie man get me
i don’t wanna be scorched in fire
im always telling god the ways i don’t wanna go out
“please not that way”
“im scared”
i gotta stop living in fear
but sirens are going currently
i cant breathe from the heat and mold
ready for june to be here
i dont know if my body can be in this environment another 40 days and nights
oof
hep filter less than 1 week of use – from the damn air purifier
“are you sure”
bitch bring back the gallows
or quick draw
bet im a better shot too
maybe not “expert”, i never seem to reach that threshold due to the boomers gatekeeping or me being dumb
the writing on the wall is all misspelled
didnt want to draw lines through with several tries of wrong spellinz
need space 2write
cried 2nite
you dont get to punish me for low quality and push your high quality junk on me too
i was never in
but i am for certain OUT
no deal!
told my mama i am moving
she happy
we kinda texting again
she knows my daddy left me a pot
i did not tell her
but i guess my sis did
and since the cat is out of the bag (or hinders box?)
i guess i can mention that bit now
i was like “haven’t got that yet”
“but it aint going to a slumlord”
and my mama is welcome to come live on my land – tho i have not said
if i get 1-5 acres prob give my mama an area
tho i have not said
i hate tying on a phone
ai has been hacked
it is annoying
att finally sent me the data breach letter and offering another free year monitoring
fucking shove it
stop cutting down trees to send me junk mail
i have so many seeds i have been hoarding for my potential land
i have a ways to go with that
as i am jumping a to b now to move to a new city
one i think i may like
my dad always took us there to vaca in the bus that has a tree growing in it now…
my dad only lefttwopeopleinhiswill
the cost of getting mad at people when you are an adult is – they can die on you – cuz they’re older older
and these days everyone is dropping dead
the cost of anger can kill you too
the stress
i can’t afford to be anything but happy
smiling makes you a target but ill be going to target practice soon
with another new gun
cuz i dont quite maybe like the one i got
but after all i went through to get her im keeping her
i need ashitTonofweaponzanyway
anyhoo
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