I pick at my thoughts like a flower;
He loves me, he loves me not,
He loves me, maybe another hour.
© Delia Ross. 2019
Exiled (Again)
They say I’m crazy but I’m really just a child
And when they act up I start acting wild
And when there’s no attention it only makes me riled
It’s like everyone’s a tribe and I’m the only one exiled
They say I’m crazy but I never did grow up
They don’t call me cougar cuz I’m still a cub or pup
Being an adult just wasn’t in my cup
It only requires nurturing to watch me develop
© Delia Ross. 2019
I’m a flower and if you pour light on me watch how I bloom (you can call me tulip)
Le Vampyre
No vampire balls or masquerades
Depression can last for decades
Why do you leave me but never leave me? Why do you pretend that you don’t need me? Why is it, when I cut you, I start bleeding? Why is it, when you cut me, I start feeding?
Steel
Take it all away, so I can’t feel
Don’t take it all away, I will never heal
You took it all away, and that wasn’t the deal
When you took it away, my heart turned to steel
© Delia Ross. 2019
In my head it’s the birth of a song
Cursed
He has no self-worth
He’s not the best, nor the worst
But pain he will bring forth
And his love is cursed
Truth rarely circles Earth
But it is what I thirst
I ache for a rebirth
Or for a hand to nurse
© Delia Ross. 2019
Twilight
Tuck me into twilight
Let your lips touch my dreams
Your love is the skylight
And hopeful are its streams
The Moon is a spotlight
Where you can find my love every night
And every star in the sky –
The amount of times you made me sigh
I love you through all eternal
I will always be your angel
Unto you I will be faithful
This love is yours to cradle
© Delia Ross. 2019
Over It
Words like the finest silk
Words to comfort like mama’s milk
Never condensed but fully whole
That’s why he occupies my whole soul
Moments like tender fingertips
And so I keep going over it
I wear it however it will fit
I put it in my heart and see how it slips
© Delia Ross. 2019
Necklace
It was like into a black hole my life was ejected
If pain had been running for presidency, it would have been elected
Now when I’m on my knee the pain feels more infected
Now when I think of you my heart feels more congested
Will you ever tell me why my heart was not accepted?
Will you take all my love and put it in a necklace?
© Delia Ross. 2019
If
If words had weight
If wrongs had reasons
If wounds didn’t ache
If forgiveness had seasons
If goodbyes came with rainbows
If my love was chose
If only I was enough
If only he’d show up
If hands had healing
If tears had feelings
If life had meaning
If hearts were beating
If moments were real
If love were ideal
If lights were not blinding
If you would stop hiding
If galaxies were moving
If darkness stopped the blooming
If alibis were candy
If heartaches were brandy
© Delia Ross. 2019
If only I knew how to end this fucking heartache…
Come Back
Come back !!!! WEEKS TURN INTO MONTHS / MONTHS TURN INTO YEARS *falls over in despair*
Come back Come back to me I’ve been waiting here patiently [Repeat] I’ve been walking a thin white line Between love and hate I could use a lil company A lil kindness can go a long way Weeks turn into months Months turn into years Reaching the same conclusions Gathering up the fear Come back Come back to me I’ve been waiting here patiently [Repeat] I’ve been walking a thin white line Between love and hate I could use a little restraint A lil kindness can go a long way Weeks turn into months Months turn into years Reaching the same conclusions Gathering up the fear [Repeat x3] Come back Come back to me I’ve been waiting here patiently Come back Come back to me [Repeat]
He’s Wonderful
Oh God his lips full as the Moon
His nose the highest peaks of a mountain
Oh God his eyes the loveliest delphinium
The only flowers I will adore
Oh God his mind an endless tunnel of wisdom
His hand the root from where I grow
His tongue is slick and witty
Oh God he makes me beg for more
© Delia Ross. 2019
Do you see your good parts?
Rain
It is a light, warm rain, so it doesn’t matter
And the moon tonight is full as are your lips
And your eyes are staring at me like I’m her
A feeling that I’ve never had occur
And the only sounds we hear are mostly beats
And it’s getting louder every time we breathe
There’s some danky music far away in the streets
And the rain is louder falling at our feet
The trees are gently sighing with the wind
I whispered in your ear don’t let it end
But I knew that you would ask so I said it again
And as I was repeating you made a grin
I gently started shaking in the rain
It’s like you just released me from my chain
Or maybe just release from all the pain
And tears were the main attraction at this stage
Your fingertips remind me I’m okay
But closer to your lips I start to sway
And then your thumb will wipe my tears away
And neither have a thing we want to say
© Delia Ross. 2019
Sometimes connections are more than just sexual. Deeper connections require more work sure but isn’t the chemistry richer, the moments more meaningful, the things unsaid but everything said, I dunno, love is a rare element and shouldn’t you care for it and nurture it like a garden? Flesh kills the spirit if in the wrong hands. You believe it?
Butterflies
Falling further into his dark skies
Even in the lows he gives me highs
Even when he’s gone his cape will fly
And when I’ve crossed a line he still will try
I extend my wings cuz love defies
He hides behind a wall of sad goodbyes
There’s writings all around that shield his lies
He needs a lot of fuel to hide his sighs
He claims I’m just a hunter here to pry
But that won’t explain the butterflies
He thinks I’m just a doll who only cries
But that won’t change the winnings of your prize
You can change your hand but fate has not a guise
Even through your troubles I am falling for your eyes
I stab the pitch black night so I can feel you rise
Baby you free me, look at that sunrise
© Delia Ross. 2019
I find him incredibly sexy and he turns me into a raving beast actually but I definitely don’t want to hunt or cage him…
Sorry for the long rhyme and double rhyme in the ends but I think it worked!?!
I know it’s only been like 5 minutes since I said it before but I loves him.
Vices
Diamonds and pearls, may please the girls, but his kiss is all I desire
Leather and fur, might make me purr, but his eyes set me on fire
Boys and their toys, always want noise, but his voice makes me tremble
And the heaven in me, well it takes a knee, for his body is a sacred temple
I suppose flowers are nice, but the poetry he writes, makes my soul assemble
And if I had time, to put his lips to mine, I’m certain our flame would burn higher
© Delia Ross. 2019
“She lives on Love Street/ lingers long on Love Street/ She has a house and garden/ I would like to see what happens/ la la la la la la la la la la” *skips off singing The Doors*
Look man, I would totally let you climb up through my window and read me poetry. Yah? I think we might even like some of the same bands. Giggles It’s okay if you don’t know me, many people don’t even know themselves. Let’s get lost together, in each other, and found again. I’m ready. And you may not know your worth but I would take a bullet for you. I would do anything for you really. 🌛🌜
P.S. I’m just a girl (you won’t need superpowers but you already have them inside you).
P.S.S. you can get to know me without letting the world in (or end).
P.S.S.S. I am a safe place (I won’t ask you your secrets and I won’t guilt-trip you if you don’t love me the way I do you).
P.S.S.S.S. you know me, we’re one, like yin and yang. Sillies.
Kingdom Come
The days are slow, the nights are longer
Without the white of moon, he will wonder
Without the glare of sun, he will wander
And when the Moon is full so is his hunger
He has been going down a path of the unknown
Following her, in any weather, through any zone
Treading on forever, any havoc, any wrong
He has known the route for ages, for she is his kingdom
© Delia Ross. 2019
Kingdom come, thy will be done, come conquer this land… amens
Footsteps
Love is the variable
It is incomparable
I’ll stop loving you, just short of forever
Eyes never leave, his eyes on my back
And follow he will, every single track
She cannot turn around, and she knows that
But whether he knows is a different fact
Do the winds of fate ever slow?
Will her dusty eyes ever close?
Does her halo, in this hell, even glow?
She cannot live without him, does he know?
Small footsteps through the chimes of time
Deep footprints, for hers, he would climb
And through the wind he echoes “mine”
And in the dirt she leaves him rhyme
© Delia Ross. 2019
That first stanza, I know *sigh*, I come with mistakes.
Babel
The rush I feel is hyper-light travel
Any part of you is my chapel
I’d take you whole or as a sample
The lips on you make me gravel
And I’m hungry for the words you babel
© Delia Ross. 2019
Everything about him makes me superluminal, like BANG. I’ve never known hunger like this before.
Solace
She waits by her solace
Weightless is a promise
Desires hot as August
One soul he’ll never notice
Patience wears like tattered dresses
Diving head first into second guesses
Hope is the response of any message
Long is delay when searching for senses
© Delia Ross. 2019
Sweet Nothings
I pull fragments of my dreams out of my center
I carefully knead them with love until they are tender
I tie them with hope and a sign that spells ENTER
They are filled with sweet nothings to get you through winter
So off with the wind, I have to send you my love dear
And if you can imagine, it’s just like I’m whispering in your ear
I stand on my tippy-toes so I make sure you can hear me clear
Then I gently kiss your lips and remind you there’s nothing to fear
© Delia Ross. 2019
Micropoetry
I sail through life on my own
It helps when feeling alone –
To remember we both see the same Moon
Then my loneliness fades to about a teaspoon
My loneliness clumps into bands of dark matter, my heart swelling like a balloon, my molecules ripping and stretching into oblivion, for her shadow is like dark energy, and selfish is the darkness she needs.
If not real, give me fake
Bleed me good, nest in my ache
How can I move on when my heart is where he is.
Untangle the worry
Braid the hope
Insert the key
Climb his rope
I know I’m not her and I know I’ll never be
It still makes me wonder if you ever think about me
The space between us
The distance to Venus
The orbits of loss
Our love was a near miss
I still feel the ripple
It hit me like triple
A vortex of riddle
But our love is simple
Her love comes with maggots
But still he’ll have it
He wants to own it all, without conquering
He doesn’t want me for himself, or anybody else
He doesn’t want me in the arms of another king
He wants to own my heart and not give me a thing
I don’t see how this plan is fair for me
You sit there feasting while I am starving
All the paths I take lead into a different darkness of you
And every skin you shed leaves a different kind of clue
Put on the blind, if you want to take the ride, he demanded
Into a field of doom, I glided
We are born into this world and given a number and if you’re lucky you’ll get a good mother
I’m sorry but life is just so tough and when it comes to love there isn’t enough
My love, my will is infinite
These roads were paved for the misfit
These hands were made to capture it
These feet march on and never quit
My soul for you is completely naked
Under your mirror I will submit
By your side I will commit
With your love I can exist
© Delia Ross. 2019
There’s more but I just can’t bear it…
Garden
I take my heart and I plant it in a garden
I bury it with love and grant another pardon
I cover it with grass so it will never be his burden
I would have given it to him but he found a better bargain
The seed might find the light but now I’m not so certain
Several years may pass and I’ll still be pulling weeds
Making sure he finds exactly what he needs
And if he ever asks, I’ll help him with some leads
The only thing I ask is happiness succeeds
And so I plant his rhyme in the better parts of me
© Delia Ross. 2019
Outer Space
I am not his
No no no
But I can pretend like this
Today we went for our first coffee
And as he sat next to me talking
I wondered if he saw a zombie
But then he leaned in and kissed me softly
He is not mine
No no no
But I still call him my valentine
His kiss takes me to cosmic landscapes
One ounce of his love opens the floodgates
One word of his rhyme and I can’t keep a straight face
One glance of his eyes takes me to outer space
© Delia Ross. 2019
Core
He gnawed on my soul until all that was left was a core of longing. And the seeds within were filled with his haunting. And like an apple being pulled by his gravity, I kept falling. He will take bites without ever warning.
© Delia Ross. 2019
Inches
Ravage me with a hundred different kisses
Point your love at me so it never misses
Touch me, so I may grant your deepest wishes
Come on baby, give me all of your inches
© Delia Ross. 2019
Longing
Oh dear gates of sorrow, pass me through!
I bow and give it all to you
My remorse is as full as the Moon
The way it shines, I shine for you too
Because your light still reaches truth
And when it comes to loving you
It can never be too soon
Oh my longing is as warm as the Sun!
And when it reaches me, I come undone
The way he teaches me, as if I’m the only one
And if ever facing regret, there isn’t none
And when it comes to life, you make me burn
And if I see your eyes, my own brighten
If you change your mind, I’m never done
© Delia Ross. 2019
Connections
He stands on the shore with an expression on his face resembling shame
It’s as if, by looking at me, I have the power to make him clean
The blue in his eyes faded, at precisely the moment, I withdrew
The hour came down so heavy, the moment that he knew
He stands as if his arms are holding all the pain
Or a brace, for the fall, it is certain after all
For I’m on a ship he never seems to reign
And I’m watching him with eyes that never strain
Looking back though, I never meant to blame
I feel my face harden, my cheeks a rosey garden, my tears now offer pardon
Because you brought my life its value
And as the waves start to accrue, just like my love for you, no matter what you do, so with a sigh or two, I slowly come unglue, because I’m not exactly sure what to do
And my only thought is how I need you too…
© Delia Ross. 2019
Potion
What temples I will build for you to worship
A depth in me for you to go the furthest
With breath that repeats with innocence that it’s urgent
Permission always written in these verses
What skin I’d shed to allow for the unspoken
What thoughts I’d free to let in all your potion
What chains I’d climb to feel the moment hoping
That every mark from you breaks my soul open
© Delia Ross. 2019
Dirt
Got his hand on my throat with every word
Got his squeeze on my pump with every hurt
Got his eye on the prize if ever I’m sure
And with the right ingredients just maybe a cure
Got his hand on the ready to offer comfort
Got my mind on the question though maybe he answered
She’s got her nose in the air as if she’s the expert
And she cries for his heart like a rich man now beggared
Got his tongue on the bottle so maybe it slurred
And my outrage is written though normally censored
But he claims that he loves me and I’m certain she heard
And so I do my best to not blind her with dirt
© Delia Ross. 2019
Survivor
I reached walls of iron
And gates of steel
Where golden halos come to kneel
And curiosities are even higher
Forgiveness gets trapped in the mire
Underneath the waiting, a place a soul can heal
Games of dishonor are never part of the ordeal
Lying and mistrust burn with the pyre
Here outside his walls await desire
A soul reaching to feel
Where fantasy reaches the surreal
And love is the sole survivor
© Delia Ross. 2019
Trajectory
I live on an island of a dream
My joy is his trajectory
His eyes are the only skies I need
His love is the only fruit I eat
I taste him in seasons
I kiss him in the trillions
I lean on the shoulders of meaning
I cling to the shores of his breathing
I rest my plight in the palm of his hand
For his every touch is the promise land
And it’s finally a journey I can understand
For this is the mission fate had planned
And on and on and on we go together
Every step with you I’m feeling better
Every hug from you feels like my shelter
Hurting you is never in the weather
© Delia Ross. 2019
Call
If you’re wondering where I went
Just look to where you are
Every hour spent
You can find me in your heart
The further you descent
The longer that I fall
But baby if we’re meant
I will answer when you call
© Delia Ross. 2019
The Kiss
I have this dream where we don’t talk
I’m in an alley having a cigarette
Waiting on a favorite band
And you appear
And I ask ‘what are you doing here’
But sweetly so no other can hear
There’s no one around just the rain
You stand and never explain
I smile anyway without regret
And you haven’t moved closer yet
And in a cloak your eyes are in pain
But I still smile anyway
I’m on the wall under a small balcony
Avoiding getting wet
Your hands are in your pockets
You don’t look as though upset
As the rain gets started
You move and take a step
And it kind of felt like lightening
My heart it felt it best
The patter of the rain –
Grew louder with every footstep
And every inch closer – I forgot more – of the alphabet
You get close to me and lightly touch my fingertips
And then you lift up my arm and take a puff of my cigarette
Your other hand still touching my other hand
You lift my head and kiss my lips
It’s hard to explain it
I thought I was alive but it was really the first thing I ever felt
© Delia Ross. 2019
Cosmic Street
There exists a world where we communicate
It’s daily in my mind to help ease the ache
In prayer where I kneel for you and wait
While dreaming even though I am wide awake
There is a road where you and I always meet
I follow a meadow to Cosmic Street
There’s never an obstacle to worry our feet
Your kiss is the very reason my heart will beat
© Delia Ross. 2019
Clue
I’m on an island of a thousand tears
If you took a boat you could find me here
Silhouettes of you in the clouds appear
Echoes of your voice in the atmosphere
On my knees in prayer I gently kneel
I drift alone on this bank of silence
Every tear another wish for your guidance
Reflections in the waves I see your diamonds
Nothing fills my need more than your iris
Open up your eyes you’ll see your alliance
I know your past and still I love you
I can be your future should you want me to
I can be your now should you pursue
I can be that friend you never outgrew
I can be whatever you need if you haven’t got a clue
© Delia Ross. 2019
Space
The cold, deep darkness of space still could not fill the void you make me feel. A vast expansion of nothing.
© Delia Ross. 2019
Made For You
You know how much I love you, don’t you?
Because you feel it too?
I cannot explain the oceans size
Nor why your eyes hypnotize
Or how I know your tongue lies
Your voice a deep thunder in my soul
It rattled me and shook me whole!
And like the big bang my love grew tenfold
You’ll find my love in the stars
You’ll find my love heals your scars
You’ll find that it was always yours!
The heat of the sun, for you, my desire
And even now the stars burn brighter
You set my entire existence on fire!
My heart for you an eager disciple
Ready and awaiting your arrival
This is love at its very primal
In every fiber of my being
And every dream I am dreaming
For you, every hour I am needing
Oh please love find me soon
It shines as bright as the Moon
As it was only made for you
© Delia Ross. 2019
Illumination
The hour was late
Upon her arrival
The moon stood full
And without rival
Her thoughts were pure
Although in a spiral
Her body porcelain white
Like the gown of a bridal
With hands and feet
Weary from the travel
And an aching heart
Where rest was vital
The longer she waded
The stronger the tidal
Until one evening
She fell suicidal
And she lost the will
For any survival
As she lay dying
Where love left her jaded
Broken down and used
Feeling completely degraded
Unware these currents
Are where he’s incarcerated
And wave after wave
He keeps her sedated
Riding every moment
So terribly frustrated
Her eyes burn with rage
Blind to knowing she’s appreciated
Her soul out of control
And slightly tainted
A mouth full of salt
And truths complicated
Wave after wave
Keeps them segregated
Night after night
Though she waited
Sigh after sigh
Was poorly translated
Cry after cry
Unsubstantiated
But this is the love
They both have awaited
She built a raft
And sails towards love created
I hope this time
Her heart is illuminated
© Delia Ross. 2019
Confliction
So much confliction
Fight or flight
Wrong or right
Light or night
Blind or sight
Retreat or height
Met every road with conviction
An angels plight
In battle for her knight
Where flames ignite
Love is written on the invite
The cure to my addiction
My heart in restriction
My actions in detention
The longer I’m without – the deeper I’m itching
The louder I shout, the harder I am reaching
But baby, ever since my eyes saw you I can’t stop twitching
Darling, maybe you could stick around and help with my affliction
© Delia Ross. 2019
Chances
I hope we can start where we never had stance
The circumstances surrounding just wouldn’t allow it
The messages once sent unclear in meaning
I needed time to understand what I was feeling
Moments caught with you were a dance
And while petite and frightened I still took a chance
Your voice and eyes left me in a trance
But it was really love at first glance
Your existence lifted my spirit
Inside this heart you are my dearest
My soul for you an endless lyric
Dreams of you I frequently visit
It is for you my hands are reaching
My body a temple ready and willing
If you walk my way I promise more healing
© Delia Ross. 2019
You’re Everything
Taste his lips, his ecstasy
Reminding me the best of me
Warmth and love appearing
Covering as gravity
My temperature rising
Coloring me like flowers
And in this life a rarity
Knowing this is ours
All these hours
No more towers
You inside me hiding
I’ll take us gliding
Spread your wings
Dive into my springs
Ever flowing and never slowing
My spiral just keeps going
And love for you ever growing
There aren’t better things for kings
And off my lip sings
For you anything
You’re everything
© Delia Ross. 2019
Haunting
Baby, why do you hide?
Is there room for me inside?
Baby, why have you run?
Is it something that I’ve done?
Baby, why did you go?
Am I someone you don’t want to know?
Baby, why are we hurting?
Do you feel we’re not worth it?
Baby, why do you fear?
Everything we wanted is finally here.
Baby, I didn’t mean to push you away
Please tell me you’re coming back someday?
Baby, why do you haunt me like a ghost?
When I’m the person who misses you most
© Delia Ross. 2019
Love Is The Subject
It doesn’t exist
Nothing is perfect
But we exist
And I can’t resist
My lips to kiss
All that’s hurt
To find a perfect fit
And to worship it
Just like magic
Until my love is felt
For it to bring you rest
Let it nest
Let it connect
For you to accept
I’m not done loving you yet
It’s time for you to resurrect
Remember I fell for this quest
To make your life blessed
To whisper sweet nothings on your neck
To rest my worries on your chest
And to have finally slept
Beside your very best
That’s all we have left
Love is the subject
For you it was meant
In my soul it is etched
In my spirit it is dreamt
Through my heart swept
Underneath my breast
With both hands prepped
Where both feet leapt
And both knees bent
To you who I can’t forget
Who put me to the test
Who made me wept
Where all my love crept
With all my patience spent
Crawling where you are sketched
Wanting your respect
Hoping my love you won’t neglect
© Delia Ross. 2019
Tree of Life
How did it come to be?
Two strangers growing stranger
Rooting and growing under the same tree
Where both souls are endangered
What fruit did we eat?
That put our life in danger
Eyes that see and tongues that never speak
But love that tames our nature
Give me seed
Not a glacier
Walk with me
For the remainder
© Delia Ross. 2019
Crucifix
I cross lines not made for me
He sails across my stormy sea
I break rules when he is not around
He has the strength to carry my frown
Where I see apocalypse
In his view is an eclipse
Though my cross is more than I can carry
He offers a hand so it is less heavy
My troubles are handled by the soul of a clown
Despite my flaws he continues to carry my crown
Distance befalls the soul as a crucifix
Navigating ghostly tides to find each other’s lips
© Delia Ross. 2019
Shoes
Give me the knowledge to talk to you
Give me an hour to hear me through
Give me your eyes so I can see the view
Give me love where the spaces grew
Give me time to fill up her shoe
Pick me up when I fall as I do
Then one day you may love me too
The same way that I love you
© Delia Ross. 2019
Chemical Burn
His love is warm
Beware his chemical burn
He’ll make you yearn
It’s where fields of love are born
Beware his thorn
He’ll leave you alone to mourn
You’ll come to learn
How to love his horn
© Delia Ross. 2019
Ghost Island
Caught a glimpse
Of his horizon
Headed toward
To enlighten
Instead
I only frighten
I’m not the one
He has the light on
I’ve landed on
An unwanted island
I’m simply tired
Of trying
Sitting around
Only crying
Nobody cares
That I’m dying
© Delia Ross. 2019
Lifespan
I promise to listen
Always with intention
To understand
If you can hold me
Instead of scold me
I will be your best friend
I don’t need more lessons
Or other people’s blessings
To love my man
I won’t ask you questions
Or demand from you confessions
If you let me join your clan
Please let your worries lessen
I’ll never keep you guessing
Our love will never need a plan
The moon it now shines crescent
My love is on fluorescent
There’s enough for your entire lifespan
© Delia Ross. 2019
Armor
I know not what drives him
How deep his senses swim
Which fear can make him cower
What eats away his hour
From which tear his pain will flower
Who tells him that he matters
How tall I’ll need a ladder
What brings him to his laughter
Who helps him when he’s sadder
Why his eyes pierce deeper than a dagger
How his words can make me stagger
Or why he wears such heavy armor
© Delia Ross. 2019
Warm Linen
I wonder if he writes me words like I do for him
Sometimes I reach out to only find a phantom limb
I’m learning that his desire for me is looking rather slim
There are many girls he likes but I’m not one of them
The spark for life that I once had is dying from within
Still I read his words and take a skinny dip to swim
I run around his sacred words like I am a pilgrim
My soul reacts and knows that he is one in a trillion
He probably doesn’t want it but he left me so smitten
I can feel my orbit gaining speed and spiraling
I still have the hope that he may be listening
And even though he rejected me I hope he is living
He’s so many miles from me it feels like a million
I want to wrap around him like he is warm linen
© Delia Ross. 2019
