Doc said my bloodwork looked good

Said my liver looked good

Said my skin is looking healthy

Said it wasn’t in my blood anymore

Meanwhile, I’m going “I threw up twice”, “I had to stop taking the other pill”, “I couldn’t breathe”, “need morphine”

The morphine request was denied 🙄

But only cuz she doesn’t prescribe narcotics

I’d have to go see my primary care manager – who literally misdiagnosed and mistreats me – and the only reason I’m as bad as I am now, is I couldn’t get the treatment I needed when I went to them, “I’ve been exposed”

Them: “your labs are fine”

I started my period and though I’m 45 and in agonizing pain, bleeding on everything, I’m actually grateful I’m still ovulating.

But getting any pain medication from the VA is like asking a ghost to follow me

I’ve lost my mind so the latter is a bit easier to do

I wish I could enter the VA and state that I’m 45 still bleeding from my legs – but they’d probably complain “we don’t talk like that” – “that’s considered rude”

Because we’re suppose to enter medical establishments smiling and tap dancing and bowing for them like they’re Gods

They love to gaslight

And medical malpractice is common

Go to the library and pick up a book

One that isn’t glorifying hookers and prostitutes

Cuz those can be found on the hot shelf in the front where little children can read

You’re gonna burn hell

For all eternity

P.S. I don’t know any vet alive dying that isn’t begging for some goTdamn morphine

Stop hoarding all the junk

GIVEMAH

Haz pain 😑

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P.S.S. I requested it in the form of cough syrup since the hospital gave me some and it soothed my coughing and anxiety several hours thus helping the heart

But dying and being in pain isn’t a good enough cause for some cough syrup with morphine

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So how do I get me some of the “good cough syrup”!?! Asking for a friend…..

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I worked hard to put on weight and now I’ve done did

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