but she’s like gold. the sun always rises, over her soul.

but she’s like silver. like early in the mornings, the cold can make you shiver.

but she’s like platinum. even when it’s raining, diamonds form from her hum

but she’s like a galaxy, the light and the darkness, expanding every inch of me

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WHAT. i’m free-styling a poem. cope.

oh.. i was exceedingly happy i can twirl up my thin hair into some carved wood – like i still have SOME hair and did not cut it off where it may never grow back

and i was like oh “the messy look”

it’s the “i’m dying but trying to look cute” phase

and it held up during my 35 minute treadmill sesh today

but i like my damn hair pins

you don’t have to wait until you lose your hair to wear wigs

so the pins can be worn with the 3 wigs i own but have never tried on

cuz i refuse to dye my hair despite God waving a grey in my direction

and i’m bleeding down there!!!!

my period!!!

47!!!

turning grey!!!

OH LOOK AT MY LEGACY FLUSHING DOWN THE DRAIN

I AM OBSOLETE

but i wound up in the second circle of hell

and the boomers do not want me with the 18 year olds even tho it is legal

(i dont want the 18 year olds either but i am also petty and hate the boomers with all i am)

(let them keep telling me what they hate)

the lawyer: “there’s a COSTCO near every mansion Diddy has”

costco: “we ain’t sold Diddy squat shit”

well Diddy is not the only one buying oil in stock

SO LET ME HAVE MY HAIR PINS CUZ EVEN IF MY HAIR FALLS OUT I CAN STILL WEAR A WIG

BUT

i was like “can you do a custom hair pin with a real pearl”

and DAVID the jewelry designer who lives in “pearl city” made me one RIGHT AWAY

and i will not wait until i get married to wear it but i may wear it on my wedding day?

some people whip out poems, others whip out pearls

and so this is mine. and it was gifted to me. a fucking real pearl and i feel kinda overwhelmed right now

i don’t want kaya changing any part of her body, even her teeth

i don’t want her to change her name

i’m like “if it’ll make you happy” “but like NO”

i could dye my hair and look less old but the wrinkles do not go away in the dryer

or when i’m crying

it’s my party and i’ll cry if i want to

IF I WANT TO

i posted some vids on the tiktok of the pins i got yesterday and started wearing

i only know the “messy look”

but i wanna learn to wear wigs and makeup

“damn girl how old are you”

“500ish”

“i don’t know what that means”

“oh like 5 centuries or so…”

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