please give her more than 100 views

i made her cry

she said no one had ever written her a poem before!!!

the way i made her smile

she said she wanted to keep it forever

she said she wanted to share it with family and friends

Kaya learned English a year ago and speaks it better than me

she already knows slang, emojii, understands my not full sentences

although to be fair, she does not like my quick responses, short responses, or emoji text

but in the same context she also knows the neighbor woke something up in me – and words need not be said at all

she knows i want a husband

she knows i want a man

but Kaya understands the deepest and most shallow parts of me

Kaya is the person i wanted to grow up and be

why is she stuck behind a Great Wall

why does she want to change her name

she can

she (i hope) can do all the things she dreams

move to America, take on the name Cindy, get braces or surgery to remove your “vampire teeth” (my fave)

i wish i had a screenshot when she showed me – it was so cute haha

she made her mouth in a way that only showed the teeth she wanted replaced

her “vampire teeth” she called

“look” and she smiled showing only those

my god i love her

she is so smart and funny

and i’ve seen her in jeans and a tee, she is gorgeous

i fixed up her raw poem

i feel like it could be better

i did clean it up a bit before i posted it (no sound or music added)

i do want to record spoken word but i am extremely shy

i did not know she was going to stop in the middle of work to read my poem – but she did – all while ensuring her customer needs were met

i appreciate the speed in which she went to read

i thought it would happen after – on her own time

but i got to see and hear her reaction

i was afraid my poem wasn’t good enough for her

i was afraid she would not like it

or that it was too elementary (i am aware there are better writers in the world) (don’t they have editors)

i would never share or post anything or eventually produce something worthwhile 200 years down the road

they burn books and i have been shadowbanned

there are other non rhyming poets on TikTok that soak up all the rays

they get all the sunshine and praise

none if them ever take me serious as a poet

like if i try to follow or comment

cricket cricket criket

then i delete/unfollow/block/ignore

i am a child according to society

i’ll be sure to use this in the courtroom

“even the cop called me a child”

“it was recorded”

now that overweight “one acorn” prick is probably jerking off to me

(i threw up in my mouth a little)

oh hi ALLAN at the EPA

still waking up in sweats about my phone call huh?

and now every time you pay for sex you hear me say “i know you want love with a prostitute”

wonder how much mess you had to clean out

prob time for me to call again and remind you – i haven’t forgotten you laughed about the animals being MURDERED in the CITY simply because it is “private land” (i pay for) and “they can do anything they want”

i just wanna call up the EPA in Orlando

ask to speak to Allan

“i know you want love with a prostitute”

*hangs up*

*waits for a cop to call me privately*

*turns off phone*

*buries phone*

*changes number*

*goes AWOL*

cause-and-effect

have fun my love (Allan is NOT my love)

Allan is a nihilist who works for the EPA in Orlando

but i am hoping he changes positions and titles and names when i am done having fun

i hear the more restraining orders you have, the less they work

🙂

anyhoo

i wrote a poem for Kaya

she was moved to tears

NO ONE EVER WROTE A POEM FOR HER?

honey, YOU NEED TO WRITE AND PRESENT A POEM TO HER

BUY SOME CINDER WOOD

i do not want her to disappear into the night never to be heard from again

she deserves a vacation

and maybe not working 6 days a week?

she probably even deserves a better poem and friend than me

i am doing my best even if my best is 10%

my room was fine until i tried to fix it

now it looks like a hurricane came through?

and if i went to heaven right now – people would think this was how i lived…

in disorder

which is kinda true cuz my boomer mother kicked me from the nest and gaslit me about literally everything

she is nothing but government propaganda

not an original idea or thought

and add “lost” cuz her first born died as planned by the government she brown noises

but blames good ole me….

once my sister died i started to get peace in my life

maybe be people i want to love?

but then you do try and love them and they never change

toxic

now since my sister died some family has been reaching out

but i have ghosted them

they will burn in hell for all eternity for how they treated the ONE ANGEL in their life

I CAME TO JUDGE!!!

BORN THIS WAY!!!!!!

BORN TO FALL!!!!!!!!!

designed to break!!!!

a broken doll!!!!!!!!

losing hair!!!!!!!!!!!

turning into Chucky Bride!!!!!!!!

with a big knife!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(which has a cancer warning)

(the weed has a cancer warning)

(the microwave)

i am weening myself from all unnatural products

no more pills!!!

just ordered over $200 in medicinal – gonna look at the cancer label until i no longer need to take a draw!

trying to manage my pain and stress more naturally

hearing pads, the air at 60, hot baths, extremely cold air, lots of water, *try to eat*, more water, another hot bath

and hot water can be damaging to hair so no more drowning my skull under the heat

everytime 3 or 4 hairs come out, im like please no more

and i do not want to cut what remains

hoping my scalp can recover

but the docs were not concerned my hair was falling out by the handful

“my labs are fine”

but im 50 kilos and now they care

i lost 20 pounds of cancer in a year!

sweated that toxic shit out!!!!!!!

not just sweat!!!!

TMI!!!!!!!!!!

met a neighbor last night who has an 11 year old male shitzu

he going to Zuma imm to detox his household

explained to him the CDC say 50% of the pop have parasites, you can get them from eating!!!!

or kissing a cat or dog!!!

i went on to say i aint never in my life detoxed or dewormed

and zuma use wild harvested plants grown in the USA, harvested in the USA, all organic, non GMO, no bad stuff!

i am not being sponsored

i am shadowbanned for being armed and dangerous

i’m a Soldier

of course i am armed

*rolls eyes*

they so mad i aint killed myself yet or died from the many ways in which they stone me!!!!!

GOD IS WATCHING EVERYTHING YOU DO!!!

THE STARS AEE RECORDING YOU!!!!

LIGHT IS INFORMATION!!!!!!!!!

WATER HOLDS DNA AND CARRIES INFORMATION!!!!

THE SUN IS ELECTRICAL

WE HAVE ELECTRIC FISH

YOUR HEART IS ELECTRICAL

you’re not a spirit in a body but a body in a spirit!!!

FIND GOD

whatever you have been doing serves SATAN and this twisted society

sterile pools filled with cancerous chlorine

the hottest period and the animals see a pool like a mirage in a desert

shame on you!!!!!!!!!

fuck your sterile pools!!!!

fuck your society too!!!!

stop giving all my money to a third party who wants us dead!!!!

I NEVER ASKED TO BE BORN

I NEVER AGREED TO BE YOUR SLAVE

currently starting to ask the neighbors “you know any mechanics” and keeping my eyes peeled for anyone doing any work on theirs…

still wanna walk everywhere

but now walking has turned into “i wanna start running again” to “i need a bike”

and “maybe i wanna get rid of everything and travel the world”

anytime i wanna hit the L key i hit the X which removes the L and backspace to fix rarely works

i spend so much time running in circles fixing everyhthing

just put new batteries in my fast push and surprise!!! they need replaced!!!!

it is like this with everything!!!!

likeendless conference calls

keeping us busy busy so we do not know they are destroying us from within

like a frog in hot water

sad for the frog

being boiled alive

for science

ALL HAIL SCIENCE

acoording to the “we know” people, God is not real but something you cannot see like a Black Hole is real- but the math was not even mathing!!!!!!!

it was all conditioning!

propaganda!

Cox and his cocks!!!!!! he is a pedophile!!!!!!!!!!!’

read his damn book!!!!!

his own hero he called “old” at the grand age of 30!!!!!

they only like you until age 29!!!!!

(they will fuck anything, even a bride is a fleshlight to them)

THEY ALL WANT LOVE WITH A PROSTITUTE

NOT JUST ALLAN FROM THE EPA!!!!!

HI ALLAN!!!!!!!!

BET YOU WOKE UP JUST NOW!!!!

FUCK YOU!!!!

(i hope my weed arrives today)

(i want to quit it all)

(my card needs to be renewed again)

(you know how this goes)

since i started medicinal i no longer do street (even when i quit medicinal)

i no longer socialize and smoke

no recreational use basically

but they treat the medical shops like they are recreational (prices too) but i pay for a medical licensing

until they all vote recreational and the shop will not need to change much

just the packaging

we will get pretty colors and better propaganda instead of the boring packaging

(which we are gaslit and shown the pretty packaging but get the boring)

im paying for packaging that the recreational users get…

im so done with supporting Boomers or society

like i need to eat and sleep but that’s about it

“what do you do all day”

WHY DO YOU CARE WHAT I DO WITH MY REMAINING DAYS

I GAVE IT ALL

THERE IS NO MORE

BOOMERS WILL WORK YOU TO THE GRAVE!!!!

they work their farm dogs until they have heart attacks!!!

SHAME ON YOU!!!

YOU ARE GONNA BURN IN HELL FOR ALL ETERNITY!!!!!!!!

but before then…

i wrote Kaya a poem

and i was her first 🙂

kinda sad

but they all want love with a prostitute

not just 51%

or someone so poor and stupid they can control

rape in marital sex was legal until the ??? 50s? 90s?

somewhere in between?

im shit with numbers

hard to come with facts

trying to save/extend the life of myself and my dog

what do i do all day?

THAT

and i write poems

maybe i should start telling the real world i write?

maybe i would have more/less than 5k followers?

who knows

they all resent me in the real world

i prefer my privacy

i only gave ONE GUY my tiktok before i moved

his burner has been changed into another burner and i do not want to be unfollowed or blocked

he gifted me a lot of things i was trying to buy

that’s not why i loved him tho

we do not choose the people we love?

George woke something up in me

the guy at the smoke shop

the neighbor

my most recent encounters

you do not need to resent me for writing Kaya a poem

she is 30 and has never had a poem written for her

she really loved mine… i mean HERS

i told her it was hers

i wrote it for her

so it’s hers forevermore

she said she wanted to put it on a box?

you mean like one of them handmade jewelry boxes that takes months to make?

that can last a long time?

my words have made it to China and are going on something special for the beautiful Kaya?

i hope the jewelry maker makes something wonderful for her, with her poem to enjoy

i’m kinda speechless

she probably would not want to share it with friends and family if she did not like it?

or want it on a box?

i did not think it would make it past my blog

and i was worried about sharing such a simple poem to a living Goddess

did them famous painters really need 6 months?

i live and breathe poetry

it is in the fabric of my veins

i mean, i write quickly

maybe i should take my time?

maybe i should wait 24 hours before posting

but then i could pass to heaven

(also apparently over half the population does not have 4k saved)

(so i am already doing better than half the population and this was b4 my dad died)

but i have sacrificed a lot

and also spent too much

guess i wanna experience everything all at once before it all ends

i have not spent a dime of what daddy left me

it does not exist to anyone but me

i’d rather starve than give the Boomers a dime (who stole half my retirement during a manmade fake pandemic – that i spent years building my portfolio)

in one sweep they came and took it so they could keep their 4th vacation home

they sold me a Jeep that said 10k miles on the odometer but after spending 6 years to pay her off – and finally getting the title – the title says 25k, and i’m trying to understand how this is legal

i won’t buy another car

FOOL ME TWICE AND I WILL STICK YOU IN THE BACK WITH A KNIFE

I’M DONE WITH YOU

im done with this iphone giving me cancer!!!!!!!!

it’s hot with radiation!!!!!

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re-reading the poem i wrote her with a tissue in her hand

🙂

she’s like the light

God made that

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