I found his sadness then I made a home
I saw his sadness and it felt like my own
I found a place where it seemed I belong
I took his darkness and gave him a dawn
I shook the foundation where he wasn’t growing
It’s possible that he hates me for knowing
I gave him love and it keeps on flowing
I gave him gardens where life wasn’t showing
I saw his eyes and then I saw the light Hidden underneath the fear of his night Given away to the prayers I recite To give him hope with each word that I write
I saw his shame and then extended my hand I reached for miracles where it wasn’t my land I extended patience where it failed to expand He gives me meaning that I don’t understand
I’m just a girl who made his sadness my own Now I fear I’ve been left all alone I roam his lands of the infinite unknown I’d fly away but my wings have been sewn
He moves me around like pieces of a chess board
A game he fully intends to win
He uses me like a pawn in a game of life
And he knows I will never quit
With his pen and with his will he continues to record Every single squinch I make because he likes it when I sin And deeper in he puts the knife For I can never match his wit
For months his darkness I explored
I still feel him deep within
Many times I dropped the strife
And he still would not submit
I turn to rage when I’m ignored
Do you think it makes him grin?
I ask him not to be his wife
Just a friend I can commit
It looks like he picked her up from the bottom of the sea
Her flaming hair so course it could be used as a net
He says he’s free yet takes a knee
And kisses her like she’s Juliet
She sounds as though a broken record
And he licks her like a honeybee
Around her web he spins his chord
While she pretends that she is me
She acts as though she is reward For someone less worthy She’s not the only one adored And she is far from holy
I won’t be coming back from where I’ve been before
Walking over broken souls of the condemned
Offering forgiveness and guidance for all the things they did
Offering love and silence with an open door
But now my door is sealed And my heart from you has shield I removed the things you killed And my love you will never wield
I live in a land of monsters and men
Signs paving the way for our sins
Highways of hell where the ends always end
Because I can never match her perfection
Wild and unfairing
Another world warm and caring
One less despairing
A womb for repairing
A cosmic tail stretching in dominion
Together, they form a new religion
Words without meaning or definition
It keeps both their spirals spinning
She who lives behind a camera lens
Who gets to peer his faded gems
An inspiration for the words he pens
The very route my soul can cleanse
Can a moment go uncaptured
Where not written in her chapter
His smile an awakening and the rapture
Both freedom and the captor
I find safety in his happiness
For this is how the world is meant
If only love were permanent
And shared with those less fortunate
I follow him like a shooting star into a valley of wishes
My hard exterior is now submissive
My heart wider and less constricted
I hope she is all he predicted
Life teaches us multiple lessons He has the magnitude of a million sessions Yet only one needs my confession Without a doubt, he is perfection
He knows not the sun rises with his waking eyes
His gems are the rarest element in the morning skies
His spirit is a dawning not meant for my demise
My heart is a space he fully occupies
He is the moment of reckoning when you’re lost on your own And when you haven’t any heaven but still worthy of a song He is the hand on your shoulder still guiding you home He is the voice of reason when you need to atone
He is a flower that blooms only in the midnight A garden for healing when you are not feeling right He is the voice for truth which shines very bright He is the inspiration for these words that I write
He checks in as a guest but he is really my muse
He has a skeleton key to break all of my rules
There are no answers here the test was written for fools
And he dances through life unaware who ridicules
I feel his smile like a dream I cannot recall
Or if I’ve ever even felt at all
For in his smile I am growing tall
In every instance I break down my wall
My step is softer and I touch with grace
And though I falter he still holds my place
And if I’m near he’ll slow down his pace
Months go by and he still knows my face
Moments to cherish
Fractions of seconds
Blinks in a lifetime
Starry soul treasure
Residing forever
These moments together
As light as a feather
Your beautiful weather
You bring many pleasure
An endless presence
A holy reference
Made from the divine
And to joy a lifeline
To everyone the sunrise
To me the skyline
And inside every rhyme
Where love will never perish
There exists a world where we communicate
It’s daily in my mind to help ease the ache
In prayer where I kneel for you and wait
While dreaming even though I am wide awake
There is a road where you and I always meet
I follow a meadow to Cosmic Street
There’s never an obstacle to worry our feet
Your kiss is the very reason my heart will beat
Truth came hard like thunder, the sky opened her eyes, flush with rage, she whipped across the night, striking melodies of discord, a witness to betrayal, an immediate downpour of reason, she licks blood from the spear of doubt, her shout echoes into the distant memory of what was, what ever could be, lies dance in ballerina shoes into neverland, but truth comes hard like thunder. I open my gates to her fury, for she is my sister and cry together we did.
Early morning thoughts of truth in my pjs… plus an early morning snap while still sleepy-eyed cuz I wake up like this… messy & honest (it’s a lonely place to be amongst a world of lies).
Shall I pass the wound to forgiveness
Shall I trust the universal oracle
What of the nest in my soul where your love is my law
Where I suffer for you and I fall
Have you ever loved me at all?
Should I exit the stage of treason
Where she robs me of desire
Where I see the smoke still rising
From the breast of her fire
Are you a mirage of love in a desert of loneliness? Where I thirst forevermore I still march along the madness Of the trail of a whore Echoes of happiness flash like lightning Blinding yet spellbinding And I dream of your shore Where I wait in an ethereal forever And I’m always hoping for more
My heart cradles the words for me that you write
It feels like a bandage covering the night
It feels like your hug holding me tight
A breath on my soul saying all is alright
Your lips on my spirit giving me might
In a fever I rush to you like a drug
But in truth you needn’t say a word
I’d love you in silence with only a hug
Your eyes to me they are the world
My road for you is only honey I wish I were younger and that is my worry But like an aging forest I offer you mercy Shelter and warmth and tongues which are loving I nurture this thirst because I know you are worthy Even though your doubts keep both eyes blurry
No spells are needed to find my love Reach out to fate cuz it fits like a glove And punishments can be reserved for just fun 🙂 Trust me darling, I am the one I’m not a deck of cards or just another turn
No fancy tricks needed not even a curse The longer you wait the more that it hurts I love you for better or for worse My love is an ocean you better immerse
I’m available as a friend anytime that you want The balls in your court, please use it not to haunt
My birthday is in 3 days!! (August 19th). I am a Leo, a fire sign!! My truelove shall also be a FIRE SIGN! I’d bet my life on it! 🙂
If he is out there or listening (are you out there or listening?) you should say hello. Start with the basics you know. 🙂 Be fearless with me. Freedom. Everything will be okay. But you gotta say hello. “Say something, anything and watch the weather change…” Messy hair, chilling on the couch me… waiting on my birthday so I can get fat on cupcakes!! 🙂
Chance was cast aside
Like a broken promise forgotten
Friendship lay there rotting
Like a dead carcass
With his lover circling like a buzzard
Her heart as cold as the Arctic
Black as night is her word
A circus queen for the heartless
I’ve not read a thing she muttered
Nor drank from which she harvest
They are black seeds of dread
Crimson pools of tears from where I bled
Laughter from the ones who never suffered
Jupiter knows the ways I cried
He wished upon a shooting star
Speeding faster than a Jaguar
He whispered “bring me something more”
And black as night her wings stretched out to soar
Her wings flew with the sound of thunder
Filled with things to make him wonder
One day feels like an endless summer
With love to make him ever younger
His eyes a key to her angelic soul
With lips to cure and make her whole
For when she fell she had one place to go
And you know you wished to be her Romeo
I’m on an island of a thousand tears
If you took a boat you could find me here
Silhouettes of you in the clouds appear
Echoes of your voice in the atmosphere
On my knees in prayer I gently kneel
I drift alone on this bank of silence
Every tear another wish for your guidance
Reflections in the waves I see your diamonds
Nothing fills my need more than your iris
Open up your eyes you’ll see your alliance
I know your past and still I love you
I can be your future should you want me to
I can be your now should you pursue
I can be that friend you never outgrew
I can be whatever you need if you haven’t got a clue
Moments, however fleeting, live in the now
We watch time receding, as though a tide on a shore
We swim towards tomorrow with hope as an anchor
We stick our feet in time always hoping there is more
And every grain of sand is a memory that we store
We lock them in the past and hide behind a door
We walk on yesterday where our feet cannot explore
We softly wrap up lies and then tie them with a vow
I feel him wash over me like a warm, sticky glue
The depths his magic can reach is unknown magnitude
Though my love for him continues to reach new altitude
His name in my soul now a permanent tattoo
And you can’t break what’s bulletproof
I’m like a mannequin in a window that you’ve only come to browse
Or a lion in a city when I’m really just a mouse
I’m the lie that keeps repeating when you haven’t any vows
I’m the girl you stopped defending just because your words arouse
I’m the contact in your mobile though you haven’t got my cell
I’m the address you keep needing though you know I live in hell
I’m the one who gives you meaning when you’ve lost your will to dwell
I’m the love that keeps you dreaming but it’s never parallel
I’m the moment you kept dreading but now it’s come and gone
I’m the reason that you wake up when there isn’t any dawn
I’m the one who says I’m sorry when there wasn’t any wrong
I’m the one you call a queen but you treat me like a pawn
I’m the silk from your mouth when you needed just a muse
I’m the gold that you won but forgot on the cruise
But for me you’re the boy who removes all the blues
And I’m just a girl hoping I’m the one you will choose
You gave me the very best of you
But nothing changed the need
You saved the very worst of you
For another seed
The one hanging over you
Filled with so much greed
I just wanted you to know
Your absence makes me bleed
And no matter how far you go
Your love is still my creed
I built a raft from my tears so my love could sail into your foreign skies
I etched a map with blood and stains made from all your lies
And drew upon her side HELLO but she’s better with goodbyes
But still my hand aptly wrote her name across her guise
And from my fears a wind took hold which carried off my back
And anchored in its belly are the cares from which you lack
And settled in the hull are all the nights that I lost track
Moments lost in time but they filled me with your black
There may come a time when it finally reaches you
A chance to recognize and understand its value
A moment to cherish what you never knew
But I already died from failure of rescue
He awoke in me sunrise after sunrise
Prisms of dawning to an eager eye
Sweet melodies of hoping on the wings of birds that fly
His lips the Eagles soaring in crystal blue skies
His presence a gentle breeze helping you to grow wise
Or the light from the silver moon gently caressing all of your highs
His love the very foundation for when I became alive
For he is the whole sky, the pounding heartbeat, the rising love, the dancing feet, the breeze for my chime, the entire reason I get by…
Why do you seem set for us to fail
Darling, I want everything you’ve got for sale
And even all the worry hidden underneath your veil
I really really love you in case it’s hard to tell
It matters not the ending you’re the story to my tale
We finally found our Eden though we’re stuck a bit in hell
Let’s walk into our ending leaving love among our trail
And for us both I hope another decade or so
I don’t need the sun when you’re the one that makes me glow
You’re everything I need and there’s room to grow
Your voice is all I need to ever get me through the low
Your kiss is all I need to ever warm me in the snow
Your hand is all I want when I’ve gone as far as I can go
I need you in my dreams
I need you in my prayer
And even when you’re absent but I know that you are there
And when my days are dark
Or I may not seem to care
I tuck you in my heart
And I send another flare
For no matter how it seems
Or what it is I share
Or if the line is straight or if there is an arc
Or if the patterns broke or if I left a mark
I love you anytime, anywhere ❤️
I walked across the desert with the Devil
A slow trot ensuring I was careful
He gave me paper and then he gave me pencil
He talked as though the world was rather sterile
He showed me war he showed me death
And I saw things that took my breath
And still I marched into the depth
And on I march while getting deeper yet
The writing’s on the wall contain disillusionment
And not a cry ever sounding jubilant
And though it pale a voice to help illuminate
And at his wall I felt my soul rejuvenate
I took to paper and then to pen
And as I wrote I felt again
I spoke of how but never when
My dreams with him are filled with zen
And though his touch cannot be felt
It is his words that make me melt
And care not how his names are spelt
For in his heart is where I’ve always dwelt
It is love or poison, of to the degree, I know not which
His poetry less a curse and more designed to bewitch
And on his words I become a drunken wretch
Or to his command a dog that would obey and fetch
Or a bounty hunter lurking to collect
From a coffin closed to standing at erect
I lap them up regardless the effect
They woke me from a dream I can’t detect
A passage of time from which I overslept
But his words I read are simply perfect
And like an avid reader I love his best
There it lies, my apologies
Floating in a sea of tears
They collide and form
Into giant colonies
Washing away pride
Without applause or cheers
His walls raise with authority
As I pound on his door
Hints of a new policy
For the heartless to join his corps
Claims he loves me but keeps punching in my heart
Says he knows me but leaves me in the dark
Says I’m only but gives her all his art
Holds her tightly as they watch me fall apart
PoeEternal 