The update

My doc wants me to see a lung specialist about my lung

The VA won’t issue oxygen unless your blood levels are 88% or lower and I’m at 94%

I mean if I lived in California or somewhere hip I guess I could go to an oxygen shop and get some fucking oxygen

I got a bad heart and a bad lung but that’s not enough to issue me some fucking oxygen

More tests!

There’s going to be 9 new billionaires after they get done doing all the test on me

As far as the sac in my heart with fluid, she says normally the body will absorb those on their own in time

So some good news

But what’s a person got to do to get some fucking oxygen around here????

By the time they give it to me it’ll be too late ๐Ÿ‘€

My left lung isn’t inflating

My chest is tight in my heart, it aches and throbs

She still waiting on the results of my heart monitor

And she ordered me to see a lung specialist so I got to go through that whole fucking entirely painful process

And at some point still do the stress test


But currently refusing and it’s the only test I have refused but like no

Leave my fucking heart alone ๐Ÿ‘€

You ain’t gonna stress it out ๐Ÿ‘€

Get the fuck away ๐Ÿ‘€

So that’s how I feel about the fucking stress test on my heart right now


But all the other tests show my shit is fucked up and that’s why they keep ordering more test and more test and God damn I live in the fucking hospital now

Did I mention I’m still in pain ๐Ÿ‘€

But I really do not want to take a medical leave of absence

At least, not yet ๐Ÿ‘€

But I asked her was is it gonna be like this forever or was I gonna be able to get back to my rebounding and she said I would not be like this forever so I just wanna have some trust in somebody other than me because I don’t trust anybody or myself

So I’ve been down just over 4 months now, since the first dose of Moderna.

The 2nd dose made it worse, way way worse

I just grew worse by the day

Just thought the worst would be a few weeks because that’s what the CDC gaslit us to believe on the website

AnyWho they are enforcing vaccines on the medical staff, but the lady in pharmacy said that they can’t force it on the vets, that they can’t force medical care on us, so we will see

They show force medical care on you if you are depressed and want to die tho


So, I’m still wounded, working closely with my primary care doctor though, who has been ordering all these tests and reviewing them.

Just taking it day by day

Lots of bed rest

It’s what my body and especially my heart really needs

It’s hard to breathe

I can’t take deep breath’s like I could before, I can only take like shorter breath’s

My vision is off and my sense of taste and smell

I’m half-zombie ๐Ÿ‘€

And now that I’m vaccinated the unvaccinated have more of a chance to get sick from me



In hell ๐Ÿ‘€

psst we’re made of light and darkness, energy


Tune in brother

You’re missing out

Wake up ๐Ÿ˜‡

My birthday is in 7 days! Holy crap turning 43!
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