My doc wants me to see a lung specialist about my lung
The VA won’t issue oxygen unless your blood levels are 88% or lower and I’m at 94%
I mean if I lived in California or somewhere hip I guess I could go to an oxygen shop and get some fucking oxygen
I got a bad heart and a bad lung but that’s not enough to issue me some fucking oxygen
More tests!
There’s going to be 9 new billionaires after they get done doing all the test on me
As far as the sac in my heart with fluid, she says normally the body will absorb those on their own in time
So some good news
But what’s a person got to do to get some fucking oxygen around here????
By the time they give it to me it’ll be too late ๐
My left lung isn’t inflating
My chest is tight in my heart, it aches and throbs
She still waiting on the results of my heart monitor
And she ordered me to see a lung specialist so I got to go through that whole fucking entirely painful process
And at some point still do the stress test
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But currently refusing and it’s the only test I have refused but like no
Leave my fucking heart alone ๐
You ain’t gonna stress it out ๐
Get the fuck away ๐
So that’s how I feel about the fucking stress test on my heart right now
M’kay
But all the other tests show my shit is fucked up and that’s why they keep ordering more test and more test and God damn I live in the fucking hospital now
Did I mention I’m still in pain ๐
But I really do not want to take a medical leave of absence
At least, not yet ๐
But I asked her was is it gonna be like this forever or was I gonna be able to get back to my rebounding and she said I would not be like this forever so I just wanna have some trust in somebody other than me because I don’t trust anybody or myself
So I’ve been down just over 4 months now, since the first dose of Moderna.
The 2nd dose made it worse, way way worse
I just grew worse by the day
Just thought the worst would be a few weeks because that’s what the CDC gaslit us to believe on the website
AnyWho they are enforcing vaccines on the medical staff, but the lady in pharmacy said that they can’t force it on the vets, that they can’t force medical care on us, so we will see
They show force medical care on you if you are depressed and want to die tho
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So, I’m still wounded, working closely with my primary care doctor though, who has been ordering all these tests and reviewing them.
Just taking it day by day
Lots of bed rest
It’s what my body and especially my heart really needs
It’s hard to breathe
I can’t take deep breath’s like I could before, I can only take like shorter breath’s
My vision is off and my sense of taste and smell
I’m half-zombie ๐
And now that I’m vaccinated the unvaccinated have more of a chance to get sick from me
Yay
Helps
In hell ๐

psst we’re made of light and darkness, energy
Frequency
Tune in brother
You’re missing out
Wake up ๐

2 responses to “The update”
Lol – the hip, Cali oxygen shop! ๐
Good luck at the docs, D.
That’s a beautiful selfie xo
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What’s a girl gotta do,
To get some O2? ๐ค
(thank you)
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