Fast Car (p∞)

your gifts came in abundance
like sugar cane
i was a fast car spinning out
into your lane
like crashing into joy
the wonder came

so i met someone as i was leaving

some people are so intense and i just wanna drown in it

their energy

like they give you instant recharge

and it can feel overwhelming for an introvert – like head spinning in a dizzy sort of way

not like when you want to throw up

I’ve been so focused on the bad I’m terrible at describing the good?

but like i’m leaving a town

his energy was intense like a Geo storm

a holy man

“you’re everywhere”

him I mean

God

wish i was young again so we could kiss in the back of the car for hours

i’d prob feel young again

and less like driving off a pier

he was so intense and i dunno what they see in me

he was/is a main character

i feel like an npc for most of them

not even on their playing level

i’m the player that dies where they respawn

purgutory

sometimes i get a glimpse of “could have been your life”

i’m sure they notice no wedding band and lines forming from the rope around my throat

i don’t want to be a fleshlight

as i was leaving for maybe the final time, he said it was good to see me again

even tho he had just seen me and i figured it was too soon

“back so soon”

“i need things”

prob never wanna leave

turns out there was one good thing here in this black hole

bye Daytona

PoeEternal