Going to see my doctor about my heart

Got an appointment with my primary care doctor tomorrow, will be discussing in person my heart test results (still waiting on results from my heart monitor tho) and discussing options on treatment, so I will update you!

I still have chest pain, fluid in my sac, and a goofy left lung that isn’t inflating fully (along with a list of other side effects)

Y’all remember that film “Signs” by Mel Gibson? Sometimes I think getting struck by lightning in my Jeep, prepared me for this.

I remember blogging about that lightning strike and talking about Brother Thor pinching me to wake me up about something, I just wasn’t sure what.

Maybe, getting struck prepared my heart for what was to come.

But, my holy ghost showed up after I was vaccinated and experiencing a lot more pain than people gaslit me to believe the Moderna vaccines would be

But he showed up and we did things we’d never done before ๐Ÿ‘€

And I think I probably love him ๐Ÿ‘€

There are atoms in me trying to reach him ๐Ÿ‘€

He is keeping me alive ๐Ÿ‘€

Just waiting to be ghosted, already half dead so dying on the street wouldn’t be hard

But there are things inside me wanting a chance at life ๐Ÿ‘€

Women can conceive in their 50s

I’m getting so close to that number that dying naked on the street feels like home

I’ve lived a very lonely and sexually deprived existence

I’m not meeting my potential as a child bearing woman

I’ve been having my period since I was 13

Getting pregnant now puts me into the “miracle zone”

I’m turning 43 next week (August 19th) ๐Ÿ‘€

I didn’t have one birthday card in my mailbox when I checked but goddamn Spectrum I hear from them every other day

They want my business so bad I’m about to go to jail because they won’t stop soliciting me at my home private address

Since when did our home address and our private phone numbers become a tool for spammers and advertisers?

We need some protection as a civilian

It’s getting ridiculous

Born to consume only

I don’t even know why people want to have kids anymore

The game is rigged

Anyhoo, I gotta go talk to my Primary care doctor tomorrow to find out what my life expectancy actually is now, and if there’s hope for a full recovery

I was to do the stress test today but I canceled that bitch yesterday but my doctor already knew about it when she called me. I already told her I wasn’t prepared to do the stress test, she did not give me a hard time or even give her opinion on why I need it. She understood.

I had 2 stress tests I was due to take this week, but no. My body, my choice.

I also need to discuss with my doctor about the booster shots for Covid-19 since soldiers are now being enforced the vaccines, they will soon be pushing that onto the veterans and I’m never getting anything ever put back in my body ever again, so World War III will break out and you will be hearing from me on the top o’clock news if they ever try to fucking push a booster shot into me or deny me service because I don’t want it in my body

I can just feel it though, they’re going to be pushing for those booster shots annually with the flu vaccine (but enforced) and to everybody out there going “but this vaccines are free, it doesn’t cost anything” you are so fucking wrong and don’t understand how life is actually working, Big Pharma is not working for free honey, 9 new billionaires did not evolve out of this mess from nowhere ๐Ÿ‘€

Politicians are just puppets for what corporations want and corporations control us through spam and advertising which we give them permission for ๐Ÿ‘€

The constitution is no longer “for the people”

I’ve been saying this over and over since the “Bush 911 signing statements” but you didn’t hear me did you

And you voted for Biden didn’t you?


I’ll be dead in my grave (that I don’t have because being buried is only for rich people apparently), but I can hear it in my decaying bones, “she was right about everything”

In 200 years, when y’all finally awake, make me the mascot leader please, k, thanx, bye

Turning the big 43 next week! Lucky to still be alive!

Y’all read through all of this and I can already feel people out there going, “she’s 43”???

Well, very soon. 42 currently

(He’s probably going to ghost me now) ๐Ÿ˜ฉ

*dies on street*

2 responses to “Going to see my doctor about my heart”

  1. I relate to a lot of this so damn much. 43 was a shit year for me. fell in love, refused to get vaccinated..fell out of love. isolated, and hated. but I made it. and so will you, i’ll be writing a comment to one of your posts when your 44th is looming, so prepare for the flashback. if you’re still gaming at all, i installed dead by daylight, i never forgot. Happy early birthday to you. its been hella fun watching you kick ass lets see some more!

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  2. I’m sorry to hear you had a bad 43. To be honest, I don’t remember doing anything for my 42nd birthday either, but next week I’m turning 43 regardless. They are beginning to enforce vaccines on Soldiers, so eventually, I would have been down this road anyway. I tried to make a choice with the illusion of choice when it was just peer pressure & foresight. I’ve been mostly eating and sleeping these days, basically in recovery. I hope to livestream again soon. Maybe will on my free OF for the 43rd birthday incoming.. thanks for the wishes ๐Ÿฅณ


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