Civil war equals hope

There’s a bunch of shit that has been going on that has been draining me of my energy like a black hole but there are two words that have calmed me down and centered me and gave me strength in my core

CIVIL WAR

But I really wish I had my own place out of the city but here I am in the middle of one of the most dangerous cities in the world

But we also got a blimp

Hell is pretty 🀩

Check out this blimp I spotted in my sky and only 25 are still in existence!

Vid 1: https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPdBT3HTQ/

Vid 2 response: https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPdBTVnnb/

I’ve got everything in hell except the love of my life

And we don’t even need to get married or be in a relationship, I’m not looking to date, what is he so afraid of 😌

It’s just “hello”

Say it with me helllllllllO

HELL-OH πŸ˜‘

First words: “hell oh” πŸ˜‘

Not the place I wanted to be born πŸ˜‘

My appeal on TikTok is still pending but I already know what the verdict is going to be, I already fucking know

So I guess I’m going to wear a muzzle now and stop commenting on other users videos; I mean I can’t do it for another 24 hours anyway but I’m gonna stop doing it forever!!!!

I’m just gonna focus on me, my audience, my channel!

But I’ve done crawled into another fucking hole again and made another L turn

Traps are everywhere

I served my fucking country so that I have the right to speak and like I don’t have the right to speak anymore

No matter what happens to me he will always be a little pencil dick

Don’t be a pencil dick

Or I will gladly air blast you on my blog and pin you on my fucking website for all to see for eternity or until I delete my fucking website

Meanwhile, I’m still worried about why I feel guilty for not crying or mourning the person who abused me all my life

There’s just so much relief since she died πŸ˜‘

I’m just wondering who else in my family will drop dead and give me peace πŸ‘€

I’m just wondering if not giving up on humanity excludes my family

It’s Sunday so I need to have an emergency meeting with God

I ain’t trying to lose my soul

I haz question πŸ€”

Is there a handbook for the almost recently deceased?

Is this actual purgatory?

Have I died and been reborn 7 times now?

Am I ascending and learning lessons?

Is there an actual escape to this hellhole?

Did you cast earth out to hell?

Am I being punished for someone else’s crimes?

Living is the only escape from dying?

I gotta do it all again?

As someone or something else?

Have I lost my soul? πŸ˜‘

But I tried. Didn’t I try?

To be good

They’ve all done me so very bad

I don’t have anything or anyone down here

Everything is the enemy

I’m sick of not being able to make any choices on my own

There’s not even any food I can buy at the grocery store that doesn’t have poison in it and the FDA has allowed it because the FDA is corrupt just like a fucking government because we’re in a dictatorship

I have to face the fact that I might become homeless again

I have to face the fact that I’m going to die

If nobody has ever forgiven you for the mistakes that you’ve made, then I forgive you

I’ve mostly calmed down from my suicidal panic episode just long enough for TikTok to give me their fucking decision and get me going again you know

*rolls eyes*

God loves me

I’m not afraid to say it πŸ‘€

I will die saying it

“God loves me; I was loved”

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