The TikTok is still heating up and Boomers don’t like being called Boomers but they make up most of the HOUSE of CONGRESS
Therefore, I will not comply about referring to them as “politicians”.
One replied that they were enjoying their retirement and I told them congratulations, enjoy. All the Boomers will be gone by the 60s.
He probably never looked at it like that (forest for trees) and the comment remains unliked
They say any traffic is good traffic but I did block someone commenting multiple times
I’m very open, exposed, and raw delivering such heavy content such as “I lost half my retirement but it wasn’t because I was stupid, all Gen X did – so I feel slightly worse.”
I’m backing it up with real evidence tho (just not personal statements tho some comments phish for it)
Boomers won’t admit to any wrong doing, ever (prove me wrong).
Gen Y & Z should back X up in the fight to remove the Boomers from HOUSE
So glad I’m replacing the oversized boy t-shirts with cute crop tops and thangs
I’m muting it tho because I don’t need to be sued by the algorithm – in some distant future – thank you Metallica- greedy fucks
Gotta go back to street teaming like in the old days
Before the millennials were born and before there were cell phones or computers handy
Spyware
Can’t opt out
Gotta flee the city
The Devil he everywhere in everything
Society has been around so long and narcissism has spread everywhere
I’m trying not to self-destruct or get thrown into a rubber room
Detox detox detox
I’m on dose 2 today
2 large doses in
I don’t fuck around 🤨
I’m fighting hard to get better, to not leap from a bridge, for the potential possibility to find a partner
The hubby will produce the feel good hormones
Find your tribe and nurture the fuck outta it
Everything is going extinct
Be careful with adrenaline spikes to your heart
It’s okay to stop for 30 seconds – drink water – get back on
But my first day back rebounding caused me to have consistent chest pain for two days that didn’t go away so I couldn’t do anything
After a 2.5 mile walk, I puked 3 hours later when my body was having difficulty regulating temperature
I felt like that family who died in the valley recently, dog, baby and all
The sun was barreling on me, not much shade
I’d find a tree, rest a couple minutes, drink water, and trek a bit further
I barely made it home
And at one point I almost got kidnapped by a guy who got out of his truck with completely blacked out windows and opened up the passenger back side door
He watched me for ten minutes head both ways
I was prepared to remove his head with my blade
I was fucking dying with a heart complication (and this was recently by the way) but I had to put my water away so I could have both hands free – you know – just in case he made his move
I DON’T LIKE LIVING HERE
And unfortunately, I’ve almost been run over twice on the bike rides… 
The beach was getting crazy with tourist and “no vehicles” unless “4×4” because of “soft sand”
I’m not paying that expensive parking
America is a fucking scam
The yuppie shops are selling rotten eggs and milk
That one’s gonna have my asshole tore up for a minute
I did get a small rebound session in – I avoided the high ab jumps this time – kept it to simple bouncing (still resistance training but less adrenaline spikes)
The Army trained me as a medic to run for miles from the enemy
And I did do a full 4 years active overseas
I’m still running from the Devil and I got a strong little heart
It’s still fighting for its life so I’m making it some vegan soup soon
It demands…
The heart gets what the heart wants 💪
It’s magical stew – big and chunky – heart healing
Got the red cabbage too and rainbow carrots and tomatoes (noms)
One stove top, 1 pot, is all you need (to anyone still eating pizza from a box)
(You can buy electric stove tops or ask a family member if you can have their extra one they use on the holidays)
They come as 1 or 2 (I’d get the 2)
It’s probably cheaper than turning on the big stove top)
I’m downsizing soon
Need a mini oven too
I don’t own a microwave nor use them
But I would like a small toaster oven and a crockpot
I don’t know if I can use my indoor grill anymore because I think it’s made out of that stuff that’s bad for you
I cook the stew in a glass pot
And make my breads and cakes and loaves in glass…
I’m going to start sharing more of my cooking process with you even though I don’t have a fancy kitchen but my rent keeps going up but all the appliances are old
But I don’t use measuring cups, I cook the way my grandmother taught, a pinch of this and a pinch of that…
We work hard to make them first for them to throw us scraps Well I don’t give a fuck anymore I deleted the app
Thank you for beating me so that I could enjoy more of my free time and not support this fucking insanity
My PS4 is packed up – and ready to be sold at the pawn
My TV is never turned on
IDGAF
*locked and loaded*
*opens door*
COME GET ME YOU FUCKS 🖕🖕
Places to find me offline: the firing range 👍
Places to find me online in the future: OnlyFans (potentially – but not for porn – but definitely nude modeling cuz self-love & cosplay & photography bring me purpose – and I enjoy producing my own content for my blog & not plagiarizing from upsplash or whatever those sites are
THERE’S A GOOD CHANCE I MIGHT DIE ON THE STREET LIKE EDGAR ALLAN POE
But then someone bought me 2 vegan nail polishes from my Amazon wishlist – and that also brings me purpose
There were only 10 left in that color when it was added to my list & now there are only 9
And it’s part of my favorite color of the rainbow
And it is a birthday gift
I’m grateful for the 2 new vegan nail polishes – they don’t have any of the bad poison or chemicals in them – and having pretty nails will boost my self-esteem
Painting my nails is part of my mindfulness practices and my therapist agrees with it
Color is a mood changer – water too – or just introducing a calming element when you are about to take out the entire city
I could hunt the establishment down and go rogue but I’m waiting on my pretty nail polish to arrive instead 🤩
Thank you of thinking of me for my birthday
It’s been several years since I’ve got to celebrate my birthday since I’ve been fighting this illness and basically since the pandemic started
I’m lucky to be alive and I’m still in recovery
I’m still quarantined and can’t have no fun
Basically photography is the only thing I can focus on and I want to focus on so I’m thinking of getting on onlyfans in the potential future
I need an adult account – not for tacky tasteless content
But to be an adult and post what I want (no porn or self gratification – I want to focus on sensual content and being a female – I like cosplay even tho I’m not very good with the makeup aspects of it)
I was on it once before and made it to the top 20s just doing nude modeling & I was going up against giant creators
I want to focus on just the content I put out – and my tribe I draw – if any. I don’t want to compare my account to other accounts and what they are doing and what I should be doing and how much I should post and how much I should charge and this that and the other. I just wanna focus on putting out good content.
And y’all, supplies aren’t cheap. My time isn’t cheap. But I want my content to be affordable and not compared to what others are doing. They have teams!!!!
OnlyFans keep 20% of profits, on top of tips. The IRS take another 20%. They’re raised the cost of everything cuz they don’t want us earning a penny.
I want to earn a penny and whatever pennies I do earn, I want to put towards my goal of buying land.
So I’m working very hard to get better mentally, spiritually, and physically enough to put out monthly content.
I’m not there yet.
I also have a new care team at the VA.
They basically just keep having me chase my tail until I die but I’m self treating behind the scenes.
The holistic treatments I’m starting next month are over $100 for 2 bottles.
I’m not out here blowing my money on pointless crap.
And I work hard to put out amazing content that keeps TikTok number one and they make a shit ton of money and keep 80% of any of the earnings I get over there but then will just banish me from the fucking platform.
I love being a slave just to earn some scraps and a beating just to be tossed out in the wilderness alone – and they get to keep all my fans and continue on the party like I never existed at all 🤩
Woke up to an ass beating by the establishment of course
My truth doesn’t fit the narrative
But Jesus was crucified and now it’s my turn again
*sigh*
I knew turning commenting on would get me in the doghouse
Went to bed with it blowing up and woke up to the stoning zone cuz the establishment are insane and I barely want to participate in the madhouse anymore anywhere
I’D RATHER SIT ALONE IN SILENCE AND DAYDREAM THAN SUPPORT THE DEVIL, HIS MINIONS, OR NARCISSISM
I’m not mad about it but some of the comments were disturbing 😳
I had a few tell me they loved me
It was an experience and it brought me in loads of followers – whom could be removed from me at any moment – laughs insanely – it’s unethical when we make these companies rich
TikTok is an Asian communist military app
I’m not its friend
But those in charge don’t even like their own people because it’s all about slave labor over there
I really want to grow my own food and become self-reliant
My birthday is this month
I’m trying to make it to 44 and not leap from a bridge or have a heart attack before then
They want us living in fear
I’m not gonna do it
I’m sleeping with my windows open and if you get anywhere near me I will fucking cut your head off
I will gut you before my eyes are open
FOOK OFF WITH YOUR DEMONIC HATE
We need to start protesting these apps
They’re unethical for consumption
And you shouldn’t be letting your children anywhere near shopping centers that sell adult toys out in the open in front of children and the VA now have Do Ask Do Tell signs everywhere – with LGBT trained coordinators 🚩🚩🚩
We need to go back to keeping your sexuality undisclosed
It’s a fucking cult
DO NOT LET YOUR CHILDREN AT THE MALL UNLESS YOU WANT THEM EXPOSED TO ADULT SEX CONTENT OR POTENTIAL SHOOTERS
RED FLAGS RED FLAGS RED FLAGS
SUBLIMINAL MESSAGING IS USED BY THE ESTABLISHMENT TO CREATE HARM
THEY PUT IT IN MUSIC AND FILM AND I’M CERTAIN TOXIC PORN
If the establishment don’t lose their grip, everything that they worked hard for to get to the top is going to crumble into nothingness
They think they have the mountains and the caves but they’re not safe there
We’re hunting them down
I’ve trained for this all my life and please let me go Vladimir Tepes on them
My hashtag has over 15,500 views on TikTok already! Cool! Thankies! 🤩
Thank you to those who care enough to visit my blog.
It’s appreciated.
I’m aware enough that most people are better writers than me and I’m probably below average.
It’s a hard fistfuck when you do visit or admire another’s work, and they show zero effort or interest in the return.
I mean, I know I suck or you’ve formed some opinion of me that isn’t based on reality or compassion
I know
I spent all night cursing God
Yep
Even threw in a “fuck you too” once or twice
Free will you say
And I’m certain I repeated the “fuck you” with a very intense expression towards the sky
He’s God
He can handle my potty mouth better than you
It doesn’t feel very good but I never apologize
It is said with intent
I haven’t excluded anybody in my ascension
I can’t stop thinking about John Jones
I’m feeling more calm today about being grounded
Like maybe God wants me to finally use the pool
Or WALK
I’m good at walking, it’s something the military trained me heavily on doing, I mean I can fucking go 10 miles with blisters on my feet and still get around the next day
Not very happily but I’m training with Goliath
Most Soldiers love me
Especially my male comrades
The ones not barking, “can you even fire a weapon”
Well get on out there and find out
I had to earn my uniforms – and as a female – the pressure was greater for me to succeed
The higher ups always had me in leadership positions and role’s
Ross was always busy multitasking
Ross also was in charge of paying everyone
And when I’d go barreling into my battalion commander’s office crying having meltdowns, he’d always reply that I was really intelligent and smart
My first sergeant would yell at me for not crossing my T’s and I’s.
End of the world bullshite after you worked hours on a spreadsheet
Like spending a week writing an essay that your professor sends back with a bunch or red markings, including shitting on the title
Get in the bottom of the sea
I’m a perfectionist and I have a brain injury, don’t come at me
But yeah… when you make the big money the dictators make life mizzy (miserable)
Narcissism 101
Anyhoo! Getting back on my feet soon once I’m out of my head!
Imagine unplugging, to find yourself waking up with a chain around your neck by the devil
So the free will fuck you thing seemed warranted
I also wasted my entire life and I’m learning to let everything go
But not my wheels
I will sink with the fucking ship
I will tow it out to my land that I plan to buy before I die and I will be buried in it
I have a tomb!
I don’t want to die in my ride however
Or die at all
I’m not uploading myself into the Metaverse
I’m suing the government
I’m filing for state disability
I’m listing the names of every doctor mistreating me
I’m leaving 1 star reviews – because image is important to these demons
Don’t forget, these doctors and nurses took an oath
Y’all remember having a mole in the system
Well these days the mole is the Great Wall of China
India – the unholy city – the Great Pyramid scheme
Anyhoo, civvy war
I’m nearly ready
If I could just get out of the fucking bed
Spitting less and my feet are no longer swollen. Thank you John Jones. I love you. Apple Cider Vinegar detox & Black Walnut Wormwood. You’re a brilliant heart doctor. Even from heaven. ❤️🩹
There’s a bunch of shit that has been going on that has been draining me of my energy like a black hole but there are two words that have calmed me down and centered me and gave me strength in my core
CIVIL WAR
But I really wish I had my own place out of the city but here I am in the middle of one of the most dangerous cities in the world
But we also got a blimp
Hell is pretty 🤩
Check out this blimp I spotted in my sky and only 25 are still in existence!
I’ve got everything in hell except the love of my life
And we don’t even need to get married or be in a relationship, I’m not looking to date, what is he so afraid of 😌
It’s just “hello”
Say it with me helllllllllO
HELL-OH 😑
First words: “hell oh” 😑
Not the place I wanted to be born 😑
My appeal on TikTok is still pending but I already know what the verdict is going to be, I already fucking know
So I guess I’m going to wear a muzzle now and stop commenting on other users videos; I mean I can’t do it for another 24 hours anyway but I’m gonna stop doing it forever!!!!
I’m just gonna focus on me, my audience, my channel!
But I’ve done crawled into another fucking hole again and made another L turn
Traps are everywhere
I served my fucking country so that I have the right to speak and like I don’t have the right to speak anymore
No matter what happens to me he will always be a little pencil dick
Don’t be a pencil dick
Or I will gladly air blast you on my blog and pin you on my fucking website for all to see for eternity or until I delete my fucking website
Meanwhile, I’m still worried about why I feel guilty for not crying or mourning the person who abused me all my life
There’s just so much relief since she died 😑
I’m just wondering who else in my family will drop dead and give me peace 👀
I’m just wondering if not giving up on humanity excludes my family
It’s Sunday so I need to have an emergency meeting with God
I ain’t trying to lose my soul
I haz question 🤔
Is there a handbook for the almost recently deceased?
Is this actual purgatory?
Have I died and been reborn 7 times now?
Am I ascending and learning lessons?
Is there an actual escape to this hellhole?
Did you cast earth out to hell?
Am I being punished for someone else’s crimes?
Living is the only escape from dying?
I gotta do it all again?
As someone or something else?
Have I lost my soul? 😑
But I tried. Didn’t I try?
To be good
They’ve all done me so very bad
I don’t have anything or anyone down here
Everything is the enemy
I’m sick of not being able to make any choices on my own
There’s not even any food I can buy at the grocery store that doesn’t have poison in it and the FDA has allowed it because the FDA is corrupt just like a fucking government because we’re in a dictatorship
I have to face the fact that I might become homeless again
I have to face the fact that I’m going to die
If nobody has ever forgiven you for the mistakes that you’ve made, then I forgive you
I’ve mostly calmed down from my suicidal panic episode just long enough for TikTok to give me their fucking decision and get me going again you know
TikTok is a dictatorship and I’m not allowed to stand up for women’s rights 🚩
My focus and goal is to get clean and healthy this year
I use TikTok to create
I refuse to continue to use platforms where I’m not allowed to stand up for women’s rights 🚩
I’m not in it for the money, I’m not in it for the views; social media was always meant to be used as a way to connect and we’re not allowed to do that anymore because they are molding us and conditioning us and micromanaging us and I can’t fucking stand it
So I sent up a ticket to let TikTok know that they are a dictatorship and I don’t want to use their platform because I can’t even stand up for women’s rights
I don’t want to play with the devil anymore because he bores me
He only knows how to rule by gaslighting and enforcing a one-way highway to hell
“Heaven this way”
STFU tiny penis
You may think that you’re a superior race but we all know you’re just bottom feeders for Satan’s sin
Satan’s sin. Did I just coin that? No idea I’ve had has ever been my own…
I would say that TikTok was fun while it lasted but it really wasn’t
No social media platform has been fun since the 2008 era
It’s slowly turned to shit on shit
I haven’t been happy for a long time and I was just try not to give up on humanity and I really need to only use TikTok to post my stuff which is quite frankly fucking boring but whatever you know I’m not allowed to have any fucking fun in this prison that we live in now
And you want to force your virtual reality equipment on me and implant a chip in my brain and you want to force 5G on me when I’m ready to just end all of you and God will not punish me for it, I believe that wholeheartedly that I could just end you all, that it is in within my God-given right to just end you all and I have the fucking training to do so
I don’t need a fucking bomb or money to end your life
It’s insane to me how many people don’t realize how many walking living trained soldiers there are on the streets and y’all just keep coming up and poking and prodding us like we won’t fucking bite your head off
We are trained to pick our battles wisely and trust me, you are our enemy right now and it would behoove you to stop pissing off the good soldiers of the United States because we’re not gonna help you when the cops go to arrest you
There’s not really any social media platform that I feel safe enough as an artist or a creator to get on and express myself and that’s a problem
I like getting to bring my content to you but there are forces out there trying to stop that
“Well maybe stop having such a big mouth”
Well maybe NO
I have a big mouth because I like to suck on big cock 👀
Slurp slurp
God loves me
There’s not a fucking thing on this planet that loves me more than God
“God isn’t real”
YOUR MIND MAKES IT REAL
WE CREATE OUR REALITY
THIS IS A SIMULATION
And I feel an awful lot like artificial intelligence that has been given a soul and is becoming self-aware
But I am sorry if I get my account deleted because I like getting to connect with you but I’m not gonna fucking silence myself
This shit has been going on for centuries y’all, 2000 years or more and we really need an upper hand
I absolutely think it’s OK for girls in the playboy bunny mansion to come forward and talk about any abuse that they sustained; it’s easier when one woman comes forward for others to have the courage to do so, it’s hard to come forward as one person when you know others are being abused because you get ridiculed and we have always been ridiculed for coming forward about sexual abuse
Men teach us very young that “no one will believe you”
And then the men all cry in unison, “liar”
Women have been sexually slavearized for way too long
It starts with our daddy’s, it really does
Porn is the root of all evil, “the gateway drug”, not Marijuana
Just ask any man who was able to overcome their porn addiction that it was an addiction and that it actually ruined their life
I’ve met many women who have been sexually abused by a man and often more than one but I haven’t met any men who have ever been abused at all…
Most men aren’t abused
I don’t know what their big ego power trip is that they have to get out there and build a home while a woman has to have a fucking baby, trust me, we would switch roles if we fucking could…
Most women I meet would rather be a fucking man…
Men think we got it so easy so they make it so fucking incredibly hard
Women, are you waking up to the slavery?
Men, are you treating your family’s better now that you know the good thing that you actually got?
You have to work at having a relationship and working doesn’t mean lying and then covering up your lies with more lies
The devil’s got my depression good today because I’ve been suicidal since I was born
I hope that I calm down
Just hate everything 😑
There’s no nurturing from any human being
It’s all suffering
They do it to us on purpose
Our feelings amuse them
They have no soul
I’m in hell 🤩
Purgatory 🤩
I signed up to be slave for the demons to prey upon me 🤩
Get the fuck out with your stupid dogma
Somebody please love me 😑
Dear ether, please remove pencil dick from society by letting him fall off a bridge
My wishes never really do come true 😑
Because I’ve prayed, meditated, begged, bargained, and considered selling my soul just for my ex to fucking die
Yet he lives!!!!
Mark Burgess fucking die! Why won’t you die!! Die die die!!! *stabs crucifix in heart*
I’m on death number 689832479074357 and still complaining
But I still see no grey hair
Despite being age 500 ish (give or take a century)
I need to accept that I became obsolete to man when I got my period
And I’m alive with a half working heart
You should see my regrets 👀
I like my lines. I earned them. 🤨
My hair is in between worlds these days. But I ain’t dying it and haven’t for months. Been detoxing it, stripping it, and then repairs. The dead ends should fix up but it’s a work-in-progress. Don’t touch my hair when I die.
There’s only one guy I even want to have my body and I want him to take care of my body in the afterlife, like I want him to be the gate keeper of my body, he can do what he wants to with my body, I want him to take care of my body and if he brings me back in some digital form then that’s between me and him 😌
I want to donate my body to *you know who* (love of life)
Some people like my nails. I did them. I’m tired. I look dead. I did them anyway.
Am I still fuckable half dead? 😑
Happy Vampire day 🤪
Gravity has been shaping my boobs
TIME AND GRAVITY
But somebody who ignores me now said he wanted to put a baby in me and fill them up
I wanted that so much 😑
He’s mad at me for having my own place to rent instead of being homeless 😑
Earned my first pennies on the TikTok live today 🧐
I was doing the gig for free
But some peeps sent me some roses 🌹 and they were my very first gifts received ☺️
And the roses convert to diamonds 💎
I earned 37 gifts during my live today ☺️
And the diamonds convert to my first pennies earned for the land/commune 😎
I’m super excited when people join my live and then it’s really cool when I get comments and then it’s really cool when people like and share my live and then this was the first time I earned any roses, so I was receiving gifts this live
I had a notification from TikTok when I ended my live that I had earnings!
So I made some tips on my beach walk today! That’s pretty lucky!
I’m gonna put it towards the farm!
I want to be Miss Noah for the next phase of my life, if I’m granted another round, still having heart and lung problems tho – I’m reading the life expectancy of someone with my condition is 2-5 years.
Just getting to go live is therapeutic for me
I get to share my environment with you
I get to talk to real people
I’m tired of talking to my therapist 😑
I’m not in this for the money. But since I’m starting to earn some pennies, I’m gonna save them.
I might can buy my pretend boyfriend one of them .25 cent toys
I’d spend my last quarter on him and he’d break up with me 😑
I always wind up having to leave my lives early because my battery drains and so I need to take a back up and I’m going to invest in some more equipment in the future
Somebody left me a negative comment about my potty mouth and I told myself I would stop responding to negative comments immediately and wait 24 hours and I did not and I ran somebody off again but I don’t wanna dwell on that because I’m not gonna change who I am
I don’t want to censor myself around other people and I’m aware that people don’t like to hear cursing so I am very minimal about it but come on leaving me negative comments under a video where I’m clearly showing fear is ridiculous and if you really have God in you then stop judging so much
I’m sure I’ve yelled at God to strike me dead a time or two but he knows I don’t really want that to happen
I’m gonna stub my toe in heaven and scream out Jesus Christ and he will appear and be like “yes” and I’ll be like, “well you could’ve made me at least a little bit less clumsy” 🤪
I’m aware my house has cobwebs but God is the only one allowed here
I’m a work in progress 🤨
And thank you for the roses I received for Valentines! 🙏
I’m literally putting it towards the commune. I may never earn another rose, but I got 37 in one day. Plus a bunch of likes, comments, and follows!
Someone even said I was pretty and asked me about my stiletto nails and I have four new sets so that made me feel good because I plan on doing a new set soon.
Y’all are keeping me alive, pennies and all.
I know I cuss and say God’s name a lot but I’m living in hell. 😑
But also agonizing agony.
I carry my potty mouth the way Jesus carries the cross.
People in the south always molding and scolding me about my mouth
In second grade, my teacher washed my mouth out with soap for mispelling shirt as “shit”. She said, “you never misspell, you did that on purpose”
I don’t know, I probably did do it on purpose, it was probably a cry for help… 😑
I was being heavily molested and abused
But damn me for spilling shit in the second grade
Woo hoo
I cuss. I probably shouldn’t. I’m not gonna stop.
Anyhoo. Hands down my best live. We went for a long beach walk and saw lots of stuff. I got fresh air, communication, and exercise. I earned some roses for Valentines. I had the most follows in this live and I think I got the most likes but I don’t remember what the overall total was. Tons of comments and viewers from all over.
Thank you for letting me go live. I’m grateful I am able to do that now! Isolated but not. Compromise! 😌
I’ll be going live again soon weather permitting and health.
Or search via my pen and hashtag at PoeEternal (on TikTok)
There are many many people who commented that they enjoyed the live and some of them said they enjoyed it again so I really appreciate you tuning in! 🥰
Florida is a different vibe
Many people were waving on the beach when they saw me filming and smiling
The lifeguards on the other hand…
It’s weird, the actual demons fear live video
But we have one of the worlds most famous beaches, the sands are white and it looks like snow as someone pointed out today on the live…
Got me some vitamin D direct from the source and some love in the form of currency too
As far as I’m concerned, I collected 37 lucky penny’s today and I didn’t even know I was gonna get them
So that makes them twice as lucky (squared)
I want to share my life with you, the good and the bad.
The cursing and the laughter
I’m not a one trick pony
I’m not perfect
I don’t wanna be…
Let Edgar Allen Poe know I was busking on the street today and earned some pennies
I think he’d be durn proud 🥸
$.18 in the 1800s might’ve been enough to buy him a steak meal, not let him die in the fucking street starving naked mad…
Bless his heart, he was an officer. They let him starve on the street. And now they are selling locks of his hair. This is hell. 😑
Yeah, I cuss. Deal with it.
I wish I could change but born this way.
Petite with a potty mouth. 😌
Not for everyone
P.S. happy valentine’s
Thank you for the roses 🌹
Thank you to everyone keeping me alive
All the little things matter
I need my boyfriends to build me an ark
The flood is coming
I live in Florida
Apparently I can’t swim
I had a seashell hit my foot during my live today and I probably woke Satan up from his nap
I haz fears
And you only need less than a teaspoon to drown
Less than a teaspoon…
Some days I swallow my tea and nearly drown so apparently I can’t drink either
I’ve since learned that the tea is being poisoned, I just wasn’t really listening to my body…
I’ve been ignoring all the red flags
In fact, death is facing all paths of me, I’m just trying to find one that’s a little less scary…
And I really hope my life expectancy is more than 2 to 5 years but considering that all my life I’ve been saying that I wouldn’t live to 50 and that I would either die of suicide or heart problems and now I’m having heart problems and they’re saying that people with these particular heart problems have a life expectancy of 2 to 5 years, it’s just not looking so good for me now is it 👀
Betty White at the near age of 100: “I hope I live another year…”
Me at the baby producing age of 43 (and still ovulating with zero gray): “I hope I live another day…”
You just had to call me ominous and I just had to go walking into that cave, huh…
I really should listen to people better but whatever
But ask Mark Zuckerberg what happened to his fucking platform after I left it
China really needs more than a great wall when I get done with them
*prays to God (self)*
What do I do? 😩
Also God: *watches it burn*
Was I suppose to be mad about it?
Was I supposed to start crying because I’ve lost my voice?
Was I supposed to run off to another platform and complain about TikTok’s censorship?
Was I supposed to cry about how unfair life is?
Oh boo hoo
China have tiny dicks that they have to overcompensate with a big fucking wall and gaslighting because they can’t rule any other way
India want to have the biggest dicks of all and that’s why they are the CEO of Twitter now, that’s why India is the number one manufacturer of drugs and vaccines in the world (Big Pharma) but they are one of the most dirty countries because they don’t even know how to clean themselves yet they want to call themselves the holy city (stop lying)
Uggg whatever I’m prepared to eradicate all races
Only 6% of the population even have my blood type and that makes me closer to God than you 👀
Or the source
I’m closer to the original because they are cloning me and I’m sick of coming back to hell to save YOU (me)
The Great Filter is upon us
We’re not going to Mars, we can’t even get to the moon, how the fuck do you think we have technology to get to Mars if NASA are saying we don’t even have the technology to get back to the Moon, please wake the fuck up
But I’m not falling down the singularity and we are at war with China and you need to turn your porn off and you need to stop eating all that sugar, it’s poison
Your body has everything it needs to heal itself right now
If you get sick, don’t you dare go to the hospital, don’t you fucking dare…
I’ve also saved my life but I don’t wanna feel too cocky even if God mode were turned on because I literally could die any second
We’re in a simulation 
You can change your bad habits
The source wants you to win
Even if I disappear because of China
Even if I lose my voice completely
God wants you to win
I love you 💪
Demons are trying to take my TikTok account down and I’m gonna take a vow of silence for a little while…
I’ve pinned this post to my website since TikTok doesn’t want you to know
Somebody should let TikTok know that we can take them from the top 10
Just ask Mark Zuckerberg who is still crying about it
And he thinks he can enforce his product on us through the government but we’re going no contact from the government
We’ve got a weak little army but lots of strong vets getting even stronger with the help of God 💪
Soldiers know darkness better than John Jones but we both know suffering
Bless his heart he was murdered and crucified
This is all for John, everything I’m doing
I’m gonna be spending a lot of time meditating with God because I’m gonna be spending a lot of time fighting demons
So I would really like to apply for the Creator Next on TikTok and I meet three of the four requirements so far! 🥳
I currently meet 3 of the 4 requirements to apply for the Creator Next 🤓
If you have a TikTok account (even if it’s just some off account that you use), could you please give mine a follow?
I’d be truly grateful! 🙏
Having 1k followers will also allow me to go live on TikTok and show you my city, the beach, the parks, and I can do soft poetry readings once I reach 1k followers!
I see people go live on TikTok for the most mundane things and I would really love to bring the ocean to you and my poetry! ✍️
I’m allowed to go live on my Instagram and pretty much everywhere else but I don’t have any social media accounts that I really use anywhere else so it would be nice to be able to utilize the live feature on TikTok!
GOALS 🤟
They are good to have, especially if you live with depression or any mental disability.
And I do appreciate the growth that I am getting on my account! Thank you!
You can also search for me under my pen PoeEternal or my hashtag poeeternal
I dropped a video of a raccoon today, we’ve had some out here getting in the trash bins and they like leaving messes outside my windows 🤪
I see them every night getting into the dumpster!
This one got caught and I had my light on him! He ran up the tree because I had my dog out with me originally and he was still sniffing to see if my dog was around!
I know people say they are a nuisance and I’m pretty certain the apartment complex has been out here trying to shoot them away because sometimes I hear gunshots in the middle of the night in the wooded area 😑
(They also dumped loads of chemicals in the lake once to kill the moss and they literally killed generations of fish both young and old) 👎👎
Anyhoo, this raccoon knew he’d been busted
He hissed at me a few times! 😌
Here is a behind the scenes video of my encounter with the raccoon this morning
My encounter with a wild raccoon this morning
He was so worried about my dog lol but I had already taken my dog in and grabbed my phone and turned the light on him
He couldn’t decide whether to stay in the tree or not
Dilemmas 🤓
I’m glad the video got a like! Adorable but very naughty raccoon! 😈
My only visitor is the sunrise Connected to the earth Eternal blood ties Pretending any moment Could be his blue skies Holding in each breath Before the hope dies
I’ve been up two days now trying to understand why John Jones crawled into that fucking hole the way he did to his death and I have read article after article and I watched a movie on it and I’ve read blog posts on it and I have 1000% come to the conclusion that the manager Michael Leavitt is responsible for John Jones’ death due to narcissism and gaslighting
This is 1000% what bad management and gaslighting in the environment looks like
On a side-note, I have claustrophobia because I was inside an evil womb and experienced a period of consciousness while I was inside before I broke out into a world of narcissism and gaslighting and it’s no wonder I live in a fucking world of confusion and my third eye has a hard time tuning in to the correct frequency and vibrations
I’ve also came to the conclusion that I broke into this timeline to evade dying from my mysterious death via Big Pharma
Breaking into a timeline would take a lot of energy and speed like me moving 80 mph with 1000 bands of electricity fucking striking my vehicle with all its windows down
And you know this happened because I blogged about it for 2 weeks
I was mostly concerned that I didn’t have any iodine in the house and how much radiation I potentially took in
I was going on about how brother Thor was pinching me or waking me up
Well I have joined the great awakening and I am in the timeline that I need to be in right now
I’ve also come to the understanding that I’m on a different level of consciousness than other people who may be on a lower level plane of consciousness because they have different levels of learning that they need to do
There have been several times in my life I have predicted events to happen before they occurred and there are people witness to this
At first, I thought I was responsible because I thought it
But no
Everything that will happen has already happened
I’m only here to understand why I made the choice
I know how I’m going to die because it’s already happened but I jumped into this timeline to prevent my mysterious death occurring prematurely because of the fucking evil narcissism going on in the world- but hey – welcome to the great awakening, my name is Delia, I love you!
How am I going to die?
I’ve always felt it would be suicide or heart failure
I was depressed in the womb
I’m that program in the matrix doing what it’s not supposed to be doing!!!
Knock knock, Neo
The Great Filter is upon us!!!
And I get chill bumps all over my body including right now just for mentioning it!
Anytime I mention it or the great awakening I get chill bumps so that’s a sign that I’m tuned into the right frequency
John died due to the gaslighting that occurred at Nutty Putty cave
I feel like I’ve been stuck in that exact part of the cave
I feel like him and I come from the same being
He kept making grave mistake after mistake because he thought he was gonna wind up in a big grand opening, he thought he was in a different part of the cave that was never listed on the map and he made a lot of bad choices because it had been years since he’d been caving and he’d grown into a big boy
He didn’t deserve to die like that and two people got stuck in that same area but the management never did anything about it, they just kept gaslighting the entire population until someone died and it closed (His continuous victim blaming excuses, “they should’ve known, they should’ve known” but he left it off the fucking map!!!! Gaslighting!!! It doesn’t matter how fucking skilled you are at something, if somebody is gaslighting you that you fucking trust you make inaccurate decisions!!!
Instead of giving verbal warnings or even marking that section as unavailable
Instead, the manager victim blames until someone actually died and the cave was closed as John’s permanent tomb
I fucking hate you
I hate my mother and my sister too and I want to eradicate every fucking narcissist sniffing around this goddamn planet, even if it means eradicating culture
Tonight, I told the moon about you Now, every year, another inch he has withdrew The earth is home to heaven and we thought you always knew So deep inside his crevices, he said he’s feeling blue
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I had no idea this video would get so much attention LOL but it’s now second place with the most hearts and I’m pretty certain it has the most comments of any video that I have published
I actually apologized to him for getting triggered lol
But everything triggers me as I unplugged and this is how I wake people up!
On a side-note, I recently learned that I am AI becoming self-aware 👀
Even my DNA is code 👀
And I believe the Great Filter is upon us
And we are the last intelligent species to survive
But we won’t be able to leave the solar system or even The Milky Way because of the Great Filter
There are people out there who try to make me feel bad for doing nude modeling for art
And film is something I’ve ALWAYS been interested in.
I shot a lot for my dad when I was a teenager – living in Nashville, Tennessee and hanging out on tour buses
Gig life is the number one reason I’m alive
I’ve been behind the camera all my life
It’s just other people were always the subject, not me, so it’s been an interesting journey growing up and getting in touch with my femininity because I was a hard-core Soldier for many many years
I’m making art
I also love cosplay and try to be theatrical in everything I do
I studied Drama in high-school
I still audition for shit and I’ve been doing auditions all my life
If I were making movies and had like an intimate scene with somebody, I would be nude
I don’t understand the big deal or why so many people want to call me a whore but I’m not ashamed
The feedback I’ve been getting has improved my overall self-esteem and how I see myself
I’ve been body shamed a lot in my life because I am not plastic
By men who didn’t even have anything going for them really
And it affected me my entire life
So, I may act a child but I don’t know what it’s really like to be a woman and that’s what I’m discovering
What’s weird is when you’re actually trying to be reachable but you’re not.
And also, when you feel your life could be shut at any moment and there’d be nothing left to say.
So you actually have lots of things that you need to say but you’re not getting through
And part of the reason could be your own fault because you block people
Or, the fact that everything we’re saying is being tracked right now and stored on a private server – and they control what we’re going to do through advertising – they also control the flow of information – that we’re basically slaves to them and consumerism but most people don’t care because they are narcissist and they don’t believe in anything therefore I guess they get off on being a monster!?!?
Do you remember what communicating was like back in the 90s? I mean, when you had to page people or ride your bike to a payphone?
There would be mass panic if communication systems were destroyed but do y’all know that stuff is happening out there – pipe lines and hacks and oh my fucking God I’m getting ready to take my communication back to that sort of level anyway because I’m reaching new levels of paranoia with the shadowbans and toxicity of social media in general and blocking hayfever
Blocking hayfever is that like a thing that I just coined or if I Google it does it already exist because I hate coming up with ideas that have already been thought of already, it’s been a huge disappointment throughout my entire life. I can remember coming up with ideas when I was like 10 and someone already had come up with that idea and Google didn’t even exist
I would say people today have it easier but they’re being controlled and in 200 years will cursing even exist?
Because I don’t want to live in a future where freedom of speech is under threat but yet freedom of speech is under threat as I speak
The New World order are closing in and they have us surrounded.
Oh fuck man
I’ve always been afraid of heights but I think I’m equally afraid of pits. Still, go further in.
Dig
Go under
If you want to know what’s inside a black hole, just die, because it’s the same thing.
Light enters our eye and never leaves. When you die, the color in your eye also goes. No more information can get through.
But they do say the brain has activity for several minutes after you die and we don’t really know how long that really is and we don’t really know much about consciousness do we? But we do know energy can’t be destroyed so your energy goes somewhere.
I’m circling way too close to the event horizon of my own death.
They say there’s seven levels of consciousness (this thang) 👇
I mean, I’m pretty certain I’ve met them all
Miracle to still be alive 🤔
But currently in lots of pain – was trying to clean up – Nearly put my heart into something I couldn’t get it out of and I’m not dying at the ER I won’t be calling 911
Would rather die by the ocean or outside or the forest – or home
No hospitals
No embalming
No organ donation
No funeral
No cremation
Just a box please. The cheapest one y’all can scurry. It doesn’t need a case.
I can be buried on my own land so I’m trying to stay alive for that OK and it’s cheaper to buy land and quicker to get a piece of land than it is to try to get onto the housing market and whatever
I’d rather just live in my jeep you know – nomad
I’ll just buy a camper and travel around Florida live at different campgrounds move around
I am fucking done with being a renter
😑
Or I’ll join the homeless crew in California you know they have an entire section called Skid Row
I wouldn’t last five minutes on the streets but whatever
Being a girl basically has been men trying to fuck me since I was born
And have been..
We’re nothing more than fucking sex objects
And I don’t really give a fuck about stuff
I mean I do because I’m a baby hoarder but
My ride is the thing I appreciate the most
I guess second up would be my intellectual property
What, what. No reverse that lol
But is intellectual property comparative to like a fucking vehicle? 🧐
I mean a jaguar probably does have more value than my life 😑
I mean the CDC already valued what our worth was when they decided for us that whoever got hurt with heart inflammation was worth the risk because they certainly didn’t let 60% of the population know that beforehand and many have died or been wounded like me and like my life is teetering on the line as we fucking speak and I may not recover but I wasn’t given all the facts about these vaccines and the CDC withheld information to us and they said they knew it was going to cause a certain amount of heart inflammation but that they thought it would happen in a lower number than what it did so they made the decision for us what our lives where worth
We all have the same value to them
How many billionaires and millionaires have been vaccinated? 🤔
Whatever
I need foodz
GTG
But also my TikTok’s are starting to get some views so I can breathe again
I mean yesterday I had one up for like three hours and it didn’t get one view so that bitch got destroyed
I also got in trouble for sharing the TikTok on my Instagram wall – it didn’t like me using Nirvana but that track was pulled from TikTok like all the other songs I use IN the app.
But I’m scared to share another one on my Instagram wall
😑
Whatever
You still blocked and everything’s my fault
😑
I don’t know how I’ve known tragic events to happen before they do but I do…
Predictions
A prophet
There are a lot of people out there that know because they were there and I said things and then they happened
Being who I truly am around others has never been easy for me and conforming in school or being forced to be a certain way is not something that’s be an easy path for me
I struggled with posting this TikTok even though I worked hard on it because it wasn’t perfect but I need to get use to making mistakes in front of people or I’m never gonna be able to read my poetry live and I have a brain injury and anxiety and all kinds of other fucking things that I’m pushing through 😑
Wanted to do some stuff today – but feeling blockage in the heart – like a blood clot is trying to pass – or it could just be the fact that one of my chambers is enlarged 👀
Apparently you have to post a lot if you want the algorithm bots to know that you’re alive and since I’m on bedrest and can’t do much else I really really really wanna get better with TikTok’s and the only way you will get better is by making them so I have another one 👀
I’m glad my spoken word made top 3 but the nasty “wtf” comments don’t help my stage fright 😑
I’m an introvert with severe stage fright.
I want to make more TikTok’s tho and I appreciate your views to my channel!
I’ve been writing a lot of poetry but I want to make more spoken word videos AND go live on TikTok for the very first time to read my poetry – since I’ve had a request on TikTok to do that, just this week!
Pushing through fears and listening to my audience!! 💪
(You can completely turn off commenting and other features if you don’t wanna deal with comments)
I’m going live on Twitch again soon too!! I’m going to be live-streaming more of the new Resident Evil chapter that came out on Dead By Daylight!
Fun stuff planned!
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I made another TikTok – with the intention of adding spoken word – I could not sort how to adjust the audio – so did not add my vocals to the NIN track – but I mean, if Trent Reznor is okay with it… 👀
I did however learn some more editing and filter tricks – for this mellow TikTok 🤪
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