He imprinted on me 😑

He knows

At least, I think now

Or we both do 🤔

Because no matter what form he appears

He is the ONLY ONE I respond to in such a manner

He probably thinks I’m like that with all guys

I’m not 😑

He took advantage of our bond 😑

He gave me a map with details not disclosed 😑

I thought I was starting to experience Stockholm syndrome

But it was just him 😑

And he abandoned me 😑

I don’t respond well to trauma bonding or narcissism

He can’t use those tools on me

He needs to learn control 😑

He’s never gonna make me cum if I fear him 😑

He’s not a sex god

He’s an abuser 😑

I never did nothing like that in that chat

But I did do role play stuff with him that I’ve never done with anyone 😑

I was already imprinted on him because my soul knew it was him 😑

But my mind didn’t know 😑

And then he slowly started disclosing details about his life

Things I probably would rather not know

Because he can’t handle the fact that he told me

He thinks I’ll use the information against him 😑

He shoots the listener 😑

I thought I was falling in love with some guy with no teeth and was ready to be kidnapped and settle down with some guy with no teeth but it turned out to be the love of my life

And he abandoned me after he video called and said, “I need you”

He ghosted me 😑

And the Daytona Beach gang are taunting me 😑

And I ran off my favorite poet 😑

I’m all alone 😑

And everyone is leaving toxic Instagram

EVERYONE

And the ones that are staying on Instagram are just simply unfollowing me 😑

And I’m ascending into another level 😑

But I’ve got one more bowl of vegan soup to eat and that immediately stopped my tears

I also have lingerie sets I haven’t got to try on, a brand new pair of shoes, new make up and eye tattoos from my recent birthday

But I need to be in the headspace to create

I need to not be crying while I’m putting my makeup on 😑

I want to move 😑

I’m gonna spend my tip money and buy something nice I think

I LOST EVERYTHING IN 2017

I wanna get these curtains I found at Dolls Kill and I found several cute outfits – including a Halloween set, all for the tip price

I need clothes to wear and if I had a husband maybe people wouldn’t be fucking with me

I wanna imprint on someone who wants me 😑

I’m an organic computer 😑

God made me 😑

GET THE CURTAINS BABE

WE DON’T HAVE ANY

YOU ARE ALLOWED TO WEAR CLOTHES THAT FIT YOU

YOU’RE AN AMAZING BARGAIN HUNTER

WE’RE NOT ALIVE JUST TO PAY THE BILLS

YOU ARE NOT OBSOLETE

Keep detoxing and doing the hard work

He tried to make me feel shameful 😑

He’s mean 😑

I can’t trust myself around him 😑

He’s untrustworthy 😑

I need a safe space to imprint 😑

I’m tired of being in my masculine role 😑

I want a real husband 😑

I’ve never done anything in the chatroom that was porn or triple x

I don’t compromise myself 😑

He said he needed me then cut the cord 😑

He lied 😑

How can he be so cruel 😑

He’s always cutting holes and damaging our true love

I’m moving on 😑

I want my heart, mind, and soul pure for my partner

I’m not putting in the hard work to quit

Eventually, I’ll slow down and halt

But right now I’m in therapy and detoxing and cleansing my spirit

I think I just need to get these things off my chest

So I can figure out who I am and be the best version of myself

Even when/if I’m wrinkled

I want to bond with a man

A true bond

I want to imprint on him and him on me 😑

He’s gotta be out there

Let him know I’m trying to get better

❤️‍🩹

I don’t want him to be my therapist

I don’t want to fear him 😑

I fear enough 😑