Imprinting

He imprinted on me πŸ˜‘

He knows

At least, I think now

Or we both do πŸ€”

Because no matter what form he appears

He is the ONLY ONE I respond to in such a manner

He probably thinks I’m like that with all guys

I’m not πŸ˜‘

He took advantage of our bond πŸ˜‘

He gave me a map with details not disclosed πŸ˜‘

I thought I was starting to experience Stockholm syndrome

But it was just him πŸ˜‘

And he abandoned me πŸ˜‘

I don’t respond well to trauma bonding or narcissism

He can’t use those tools on me

He needs to learn control πŸ˜‘

He’s never gonna make me cum if I fear him πŸ˜‘

He’s not a sex god

He’s an abuser πŸ˜‘

I never did nothing like that in that chat

But I did do role play stuff with him that I’ve never done with anyone πŸ˜‘

I was already imprinted on him because my soul knew it was him πŸ˜‘

But my mind didn’t know πŸ˜‘

And then he slowly started disclosing details about his life

Things I probably would rather not know

Because he can’t handle the fact that he told me

He thinks I’ll use the information against him πŸ˜‘

He shoots the listener πŸ˜‘

I thought I was falling in love with some guy with no teeth and was ready to be kidnapped and settle down with some guy with no teeth but it turned out to be the love of my life

And he abandoned me after he video called and said, “I need you”

He ghosted me πŸ˜‘

And the Daytona Beach gang are taunting me πŸ˜‘

And I ran off my favorite poet πŸ˜‘

I’m all alone πŸ˜‘

And everyone is leaving toxic Instagram

EVERYONE

And the ones that are staying on Instagram are just simply unfollowing me πŸ˜‘

And I’m ascending into another level πŸ˜‘

But I’ve got one more bowl of vegan soup to eat and that immediately stopped my tears

I also have lingerie sets I haven’t got to try on, a brand new pair of shoes, new make up and eye tattoos from my recent birthday

But I need to be in the headspace to create

I need to not be crying while I’m putting my makeup on πŸ˜‘

I want to move πŸ˜‘

I’m gonna spend my tip money and buy something nice I think

I LOST EVERYTHING IN 2017

They list for $58 & come in 2

I wanna get these curtains I found at Dolls Kill and I found several cute outfits – including a Halloween set, all for the tip price

I need clothes to wear and if I had a husband maybe people wouldn’t be fucking with me

I wanna imprint on someone who wants me πŸ˜‘

I’m an organic computer πŸ˜‘

God made me πŸ˜‘

GET THE CURTAINS BABE

WE DON’T HAVE ANY

YOU ARE ALLOWED TO WEAR CLOTHES THAT FIT YOU

YOU’RE AN AMAZING BARGAIN HUNTER

WE’RE NOT ALIVE JUST TO PAY THE BILLS

YOU ARE NOT OBSOLETE

Keep detoxing and doing the hard work

He tried to make me feel shameful πŸ˜‘

He’s mean πŸ˜‘

I can’t trust myself around him πŸ˜‘

He’s untrustworthy πŸ˜‘

I need a safe space to imprint πŸ˜‘

I’m tired of being in my masculine role πŸ˜‘

I want a real husband πŸ˜‘

I’ve never done anything in the chatroom that was porn or triple x

I don’t compromise myself πŸ˜‘

He said he needed me then cut the cord πŸ˜‘

He lied πŸ˜‘

How can he be so cruel πŸ˜‘

He’s always cutting holes and damaging our true love

I’m moving on πŸ˜‘

I want my heart, mind, and soul pure for my partner

I’m not putting in the hard work to quit

Eventually, I’ll slow down and halt

But right now I’m in therapy and detoxing and cleansing my spirit

I think I just need to get these things off my chest

So I can figure out who I am and be the best version of myself

Even when/if I’m wrinkled

I want to bond with a man

A true bond

I want to imprint on him and him on me πŸ˜‘

He’s gotta be out there

Let him know I’m trying to get better

β€οΈβ€πŸ©Ή

I don’t want him to be my therapist

I don’t want to fear him πŸ˜‘

I fear enough πŸ˜‘

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