vip jacksonville

gotta get a hug

just been thinking how long it has been since i got a hug

from anyone

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Florida birthday month

gotta get on dat

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wait

where is Hollywood FL

(about 4 hours away)

Jacksonville is a hopscotch jump away

plus i did vip there before (not same venue)

i don’t know where i will be living come August

i was hoping it would be far from here

so tricky slow getting packages

but i am tied to a lease (i can break)

i could get the vip

and secure the hug

(i don’t need to pay Gavin for hugs. the man will literally stop soundcheck and exit the stage to come say hi to me – the band hates it)

he prob thought i died

i bet he’d like to see a ghost?

i mean familiar face?

do you think he will remember me?

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p.s. i mean, the music does make me feel alive (and there’s very little art that i am still attached to)

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i don’t know if i can handle a gig – let alone one TWO hours away

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and candlebox is gonna be there

i met kevin ages ago

he still follows me on Insta

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it would be nice to stop dying long enough to live

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fbi put out a “migrant terrorism” warning lol

but remember the Boomer propaganda “if they come here they are on our side”

“they swing for us”

lol

also that EA BLM who only hires BLM workers to create a “safe environment”

oh honey, i’m not the threat

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WILL IT BE FREE OF HOA’s and MOLD

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i kinda ghosted my team cuz overwhelmed (sick and dying)

robot on mars

too many doors

short circuiting

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im crying and praying to God “help me”

and they’re like “just pick a door, any door!”?

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and im all “lost in hell, no direction”

and realtor is like “anywhere in Florida”

so maybe i need to get a map

i just know the cop said “not Daytona” “all of Daytona is bad” “not enough cops”

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and the gangs here wanna shoot me

according to the shit they have the audacity to mouth

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like don’t you know who the fuck i am?

cuz i don’t…

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wait, how did we go from therapeutic bush hugs to i don’t know if i’ll be alive to make it

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this iphone puts out more radiation than i like

france banned the iphone 12

this model is likely identical

im on it very little and it hurts my hand

my heart hates devices

it’s a fucking weapon owned by China

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