I made another TikTok – with the intention of adding spoken word – I could not sort how to adjust the audio – so did not add my vocals to the NIN track – but I mean, if Trent Reznor is okay with it… 👀
I did however learn some more editing and filter tricks – for this mellow TikTok 🤪
🖕🖕🖕
My new TikTok is getting some views! It got a few likes too! I was just messing around trying to learn some new tricks (that everyone else makes it look so easy) cuz I wanna make some more! I wasn’t expecting it to get past 50 views or even any likes. But it has! Cool, thanks for watching!
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“All I want to say is they don’t really care about us”
Michael Jackson on the Illuminati
👀
“Everybody dog food”
“Everybody gone mad”
“They can’t kill me”
(They did tho didn’t they, they killed him)
👀
And banned this song? 👀
“I can’t believe this is the land from which I came” 👀
Oh MJ…
My hero and my first crush
I’m awake with you
And nearly dead
👀
I watched a conference where Michael Jackson was talking about how he wrote this song and that it was about the illuminati and how they don’t really care about us…
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The song 👇👇👇
Song: Just Like You Imagined (NIN)
Someone requested I bring back the dancing like a decade ago, so here you go.
Did I hit every beat? 😏
MOOD
I dance for mental health, fitness, and fun. I can’t live without music. First love’s.
What do you do to center? I dunno. I find it ritualistic, cleansing, and therapeutic. 😌
So far in life
He’s as high as it gets
Not a king perched on strife
He hasn’t got any debts
There’s more than meets the eye
With dance in his silhouettes
He’s a gallop across the sky
Wistful clouds with pirouettes
© Delia Ross. 2020 / @poeeternal
Nevermind me. Just dreaming of better days like concert gigging and hugs from my king… 😍
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I’m verified
Terrified
Lost all hope
My jealous side
Crucified
No reason why
Don’t care to cope
It’s suicide
He’s all a lie
Too tired to try
Life is a rope
I’m hanging by
I’m verified
But terrified
Lost all hope
My jealous side
My jealous side
I’m hanging by
My jealous side
It’s suicide
© Delia Ross. 2020 / @PoeEternal
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New original spoken word recorded in my home studio. Free MP3 download.
Heaven’s Gate ~ Spoken Word Poetry
Written, recorded, and mixed in my home studio! New spoken word!! Free MP3 download or listen here (good speakers recommended)! Don’t forget to like or comment for positive support! 😄
Spoken word!!!!!!
Blue (Spoken word with guitar)
Guys, this is me playing my own guitar and reciting poetry. I can do both! I’m terrible at both!! But I do promise to bring you some more real guitar playing with my spoken word in the future!!! I need a band so I can focus on performing the vocals for you- which is why I use GarageBand – because it’s terribly hard to play the guitar and to perform at the same time, at least for me! I hear you, you say ‘practice practice practice’ but then stage fright kicks in and let me just say it’s easier if I can just focus on performing! I also took Drama 1 and 2 in High School, have done minor acting roles, I dig improv so much, but I don’t know if I could ever do it like Jim Morrison did it. He had stage fright too. Which is why sometimes he would close his eyes or turn around. “Turn the fucking lights down” (because he didn’t want to see his audience).
I LOVE GUITAR. My depression and health issues keep me from playing (I won’t tell you how old I am, but somewhere like 420 years aged). My bones hurt everywhere. 🙂
If I can keep the support rolling in, I’m ready to move into making spoken word video. Everything I do is time consuming and you don’t see the creation process.
Anyway, I recorded this little piece for my muse last year, I probably haven’t improved much in the guitar area. I do not record from my squeaky chair though and this was live from my squeaky chair and recorded from my crappy cellphone. 🙂
I’ve been songwriting a lot lately though which means I need my hands on my guitar. 🙂
© Delia Ross. 2020
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Heaven’s Gate is where Earth meets the sky
I’ll get there if I try
Forever searching for a hello or goodbye
Only finding time to cry
These mountains I stumble and crawl
Every day for you I fall
Gathering mistakes for monuments standing tall
You’re my favorite of them all
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No one makes me smile the way he makes me smile – not by a mile
The way he wears me with his eyes, if only you had his style
Months go by without a word like we’re living in exile
And then word the king is coming and we’re lining up single-file
© Delia Ross. 2020 (poem & video art by me @poeeternal)
I got a “like” by Bush on this Instagram post of this poem I wrote and digiart of Gavin Rossdale I made!! (see post below) *squee* (it is definitely squee worthy for one of my favorite artist to like a poem I wrote about him, I will take the love in any form or fashion he gives me!!!)
So, *tries to breathe* some of you may know I’m obsessed with Gavin Rossdale and Bush, I literally wait for hours in all weather just to get front row for his band… I drive for hours, I wait in long lines for hours (I’m usually front of line, so get to venues extremely early, after driving for hours to get to said venue- although a couple gigs have been nearby!) Anyhoo, I am full-on, fangirl. And when he’s around me, I literally do stupid shit. I forget basic greetings. I drop shit. Sometimes I curse him. Last year I decided to skip hugging him when he reached out to hug me, and hugged Chris the guitar player instead. In my mind, I guess ‘save the best for last’ but in reality, STEWPIDS. He stills loves me despite me erratic behavior, he actually touched my pants and said, “I love your pants” (they were Kat Von D leggins). Everything is a bit fuzzy afterwards. But every time I meet him I get like, fuzzy. There are many stories, but I won’t get through them all.
6 days ago Bush performed a free live gig, for the launch of Fantracks, a cool interactive stage where you can see bands perform! Seeing as gigs have come to a complete halt in reality, a live stream is the next-best-thing! Of course I tuned in for the Bush performance. But, a couple days prior to the event, a Tweet came in very late in the day, to send in video questions via email, so I quickly put together a 19 second video, but almost gave up emailing it, because the file was too big to send email even at 19 seconds. So naturally, I had to reduce the file size, without reducing the quality, and in the end, tossing it in my Instagram story creator tool, and saving it without actually sharing it, worked better than anything else I could do! Eventually got it emailed, but nearly gave up until I tried the Insta thing! I didn’t think my question would get selected, Bush just dropped a new album, I figured they’d answer those sorts of questions by fans!
Apparently some 125,000 people tuned in for the launch of Fantracks with Bush performing!! I was watching it livestream free, but it’s now available on Video-on-Demand (VOD) for like $1.99 I think. So if you want to see the preshow, the gig, and the aftershow stuff, it’s worth getting!! You’ll get to see the entire show, plus see my fan question!! Anyway, I shared just the Q&A with Gav and me on my Instagram IGTV, and Youtube (see video below)! It’s been an exciting few days!! Are you a Bush fan? Are you into gigging as much as me? Are there any bands you worship? Music is what I am living for. And poetry. =)
Watch my fan question to Gavin Rossdale below!! A YouTube version is also below! This is only my section with Gavin, he answered two other fan questions as well! Mine was question two he answered! So cool that my question was selected and answered!! I love Bush!!! *screams*
P.S. I have more photos than what I’ve shared here. And honestly, I could make this entire blog post as long as a book! It feels good to have my tablet full of Bush photos again (even if only this livestream and Q&A)! This year has been a bust! BUT THIS MAKES ME HAPPIES. And I’m feeling some inspiration tickling in these cold veins again… =)
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People always pushing, always rushing, like they’re racing to die
They will try to hide it but you can see it in their eye
I don’t know what I’m doing but I know it’s going to make me cry
And I know you said you’re sorry but sorry won’t do it this time
© Delia Ross. 2020
I need to get this on my guitar. Bluesy style. Or even industrial (but it’s bluesy in my head. And I don’t know yet if it’s a verse or a chorus).
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He’ll tell you about the downside
Like it’s paradise
He’ll kill you from the inside
Never thinking twice
Watch how he rolls the dice
His aim always precise
He never needs advice
Like his life is nice
Like he’s got it right…
Like he’s got it right…
He is cold as ice
Evil is his spice (x3) ((vocals on the low))
© Delia Ross. 2020
So, it is a song in my head. Therefore it is lyrics. I’m songwriting. Cuz this social distancing is even getting to my introversion. Now that the public beaches are closed to the public, I wanna go. What they gonna do? Arrest me? Pff go ahead. I need some kink in my life. Or excitement. I can just play stupid. It helps to be cute and innocent with a bit of devil. I’m like the perfect combo. They can’t resist my smile and silliness. 🙂 I’m seriously going to the beach tomorrow. Might be going to jail. I’m boreeeddddddd
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I posted a song uncut and unfiltered on Tuners Radio, despite my crippling stage fright. I’ve never even been able to do open mic night or karaoke. I’d love your feedback though. Go easy on me. 😇
You can listen here: https://tuners.io/tracks/14915
P.S. my muse Alex Ebert not only gave it like but added it to one of his playlist on Tuners Radio (he’s literally won Oscars for his music but that’s not why I love him)!! 😍
Lyrics:
It was something that they put you through
It makes no sense at all
If you will let me carry you
I promise not to fall
I can take care of you
But only if you want
I’m strong enough to carry you
Though sometimes I may crawl
Hang on, hang on, hang on
ohhhhh ohhhhh ohhhhh ohhhh
© Delia Ross. 2020
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Hi! Just a quick message to let you know I’ve shared my top 9 posts of 2019, as loved by you, on my Instagram, in my Instagram story, if you’d like a chance to see them! They definitely were highlights of the year, if not my life!!! I’m glad they made my top 9, although one was certainly shocking. You can check out my Instagram here, and I’ve highlighted the story, so it should remain in a thread after the story ends in 24 hours. The story can be accessed where my avatar is, if you are unfamiliar with how Insta stories work. Thanks for all the love y’all in 2019! If you’d like to be part of it for 2020, come give me a follow, no pressure though!
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There’s a place not that far from here
Where people go when their dreams have died
As I walk from it’s faceless streets
I must be the last one alive
Where are you, you’re not with me
Numb my mind with this fantasy
Watching people live and die on screen
Where are you, you’re not with me
Where are you, I’m free
You left me high and dry it changed me
You lied to me now I am angry
And if the sun comes in your room
And awakes you from your vanity
You won’t find me ’cause I’ll be
On top a mountain pissing on your grave
Na, na, na…
There’s a place from where I just arrived
And I escaped The last one alive
Where are you
You’re not with me
Where are you
I’m free
You left me high and dry it changed me
You lied to me now I am angry
And if the sun comes in your room
And awakes you from your vanity
You won’t find me “cause I’ll be
On top a mountain pissing on your grave
WALK AWAY AS THE DOOR SLAMS / YOU GOT BLOOD ON YOUR POOR HANDS
Just heard this and news he died. Heartstrings. RIP
There he is my light shining through
Just knowing he is there brightens my whole view
And so I toss the curtains wide and give a smile or two
I’m sending all my love down the wire straight to you
© Delia Ross. 2019
Dear Alex, thanks for not being scared of my darkness or love. ✌️
When you let some punks send you into hiding and then you return to the internet lands with zero followers
So panic mode naturally because I thought I lost my king following me…
This isn’t like our only interactions, I just remembered that his love is everything. I may be small on the totem pole but I’m on the fucking pole.
And I’ve got my Twitter followers coming in now saying they still have me so happy happy joy joy.
I dropped a 10-minute thread on Tuners about the importance of followers and likes (free app to listen and use, no download needed to listen): https://tuners.io/users/POEETERNAL
I SAID I KNOW, HE KNOWS, I KNOW YOU’RE FUCKING SOMEONE ELSE
https://m.soundcloud.com/shaylasparxxx/explicit-erotic-audio-spanking-session
Trust and you’ll be trusted
Says the liar to the fool
Lust and so what if you’re busted?
In love and war there ain’t no rules
Do you believe in forever?
I don’t even believe in tomorrow
The only things that last forever
Are memories and sorrow
Out of sight out of mind
The motto of betrayal
The prophets preach to forgive and forget
I’m sorry, but I am unable
You went to L’amour Saturday night
Red nails and lipstick dressed two sizes two tight
His tongue down your throat
His hand up your skirt
Yeah I’m a man
But it still hurts
Slut
Whore
Cunt
I know you’re fucking someone else
(He knows you’re fucking someone else)
You had cock on your mind
And cum on your breath
Inserted that diaphragm before you left
Practicing freelance gynecology
Where there’s a womb there’s a way
With you it’s for free
Slut
Whore
Cunt
I know you’re fucking someone else
(He knows you’re fucking someone else)
Done it before
Time after time
Refused to learn your lesson
Gave ’til it hurt
Thought it was right
Only fools make mistakes twice
So you sit home
Drinking alone
Empty bottle in your hand
Don’t even try
To sort out the lies
It’s worse to try to understand
You make me hate myself
I know you’re fucking someone else
(He knows you’re fucking someone else)
I SAID I KNOW YOU’RE FUCKING SOMEONE ELSE
LYRICS AND SONG BY TYPE O NEGATIVE
SHE’S A FUCKING LYING CUNT
But not my love for TYPE O NEGATIVE
Twisted around his finger he has me wound
Like a string, pluck a note, make a sound
Up and down my neck his finger’s bound
Stretching fingers’ out ’til scales are found
Turn the volume up so cries are drowned
Make her beg for mercy where he’s crowned
Dig into her flesh a calloused frown
Teach her that there is no love around
Practice through the night ’til finger’s raw
Make her wish you never met at all
Polish over wounds until they thaw
Making sure she’s crawling down the hall
First there will be pleasure then a claw
Seeing things you’d rather never saw
Open wide fist inside your jaw
Safety here never was a law
© Delia Ross. 2019
Err, some of you may not be on Insta, but there are more videos up of me dancing in my fangs, if that’s yer thing.
But also, below are a few just in case you missed it on Insta. You can get on Insta, and not use Insta. I have many followers who use it like a newspaper, meaning they’re not active on their profile (liking, posting, or commenting) but they’re actively reading newsfeeds and stories. Don’t be scared to give me a follow on Insta (or here) if you wanna see more dancing videos. You can set your notifications to be on for my account so you never miss a post!
So I do these for one guy, but he doesn’t even follow me LOL LOL (does he even see them? He hates me but I follow him like a lost, starving puppy that he shoos away ugggggg) *sadface*
Yeah, so. Unrequited love sucks, in case you were wondering. But, I’ve convinced myself that he’s madly in love with me so my heart and mind are never in sync on the matter anyway.
I dropped some vampire porn on my Insta (not nudity, FANGS). I’m also twirling a bit if that’s yer thang!
Full link: https://www.instagram.com/p/B4QvDv7F55t/?igshid=vzrwjyweaw5q
Top 10 of my Halloween playlist
“If it ain’t Type O Negative, it ain’t worth listening to”…
I was gonna go to the world’s most famous beach and then to a doggy park but it decided to rain and so dancing my blues away to Zeromancer instead in my bedroom, cuz y’all don’t know this good stuff, do you? 4 minutes of me sweating in my bedroom on an early Saturday morning is everything you’ve always wanted to see, right? (By the time the video uploads it’ll be mid afternoon). I have terrible stage fright. And I’m super shy. But this is a Norwegian band that I’ve been digging for quite some time and this is one of my favorite songs by them.
So I’m okay, if anyone was wondering. And by okay I mean, I’m still fighting the good fight. And to be honest, this blog and you guys are my only lifeline. And yeps, you met me at a messy period in my life. And I’ve already had so many give up on me. I’m trying not to give up on me too. And I know my body isn’t in its best shape but does that mean I have to stand behind the curtain because I don’t meet your expectations of perfection. But also, you could have just loved me how I deserved.
Kill your senses
You might be right
Hold your fire
I’ll take you higher
Never drop
We’ll never stop
Tar for feathers
Blood for honey
Milk for money
Isn’t it funny how it hurts
How it hurts
You never see me make
The same mistake twice
You never see a tear
Coming out of these eyes
You never see me beg
For another shot
And you never see me change
Into something I’m not
Famous last words
Stare at someone
You used to know
Laughs at you
Turns around and fade away
If only I could see it that way
Kill your senses
It can’t be right
Isn’t it funny how it hurts
You never see me make
The same mistake twice
You never see a tear
Coming out of these eyes
You never see me quit
See me disengage
And you never see me spit in your face
Out of rage
Famous last words
Come back !!!! WEEKS TURN INTO MONTHS / MONTHS TURN INTO YEARS *falls over in despair*
Come back Come back to me I’ve been waiting here patiently [Repeat] I’ve been walking a thin white line Between love and hate I could use a lil company A lil kindness can go a long way Weeks turn into months Months turn into years Reaching the same conclusions Gathering up the fear Come back Come back to me I’ve been waiting here patiently [Repeat] I’ve been walking a thin white line Between love and hate I could use a little restraint A lil kindness can go a long way Weeks turn into months Months turn into years Reaching the same conclusions Gathering up the fear [Repeat x3] Come back Come back to me I’ve been waiting here patiently Come back Come back to me [Repeat]
Voice is gone
Voice is gone
Sail has stalled
Voice has gone
Moon was wrong
Nights are long
He never called
No sight at dawn
Her heart is bald
He’ll just discard
Voice is gone
Nights are long
No him at dawn
He’ll never call
He’ll never call
Voice has gone
“Caught Between the Devil and the Deep Blue Sea”
If only I could be everything you need
© Delia Ross. 2019
“Caught Between the Devil and the Deep Blue Sea” is a common phrase amongst sailors referring to a dilemma of sorts but lots of artists have covered it. It’s one of those things I wish I had written and I tossed it in after this was written so I can’t say that it inspired it. It just fit in. And thus I can share cuz you may not have heard of it. It wasn’t a prompt but maybe for you it will be. Now see, maybe I’m not so worthless after all…
I’m so glad this still exists, it makes my panties wet.
SPIRAL OUT, KEEP GOING
Well, it’s nearly Music Monday. Bite me. Just heard this one and it reminded me of the good ole days, when country music was actually country. But also self-loathing which country music is known for. DIG ALL DARKNESS. LISTEN: Roger Miller World Full Of Love
MOOD – A Perfect Circle TalkTalk
You’re waiting (you’re waiting)
On miracles (on miracles)
We’re bleeding out (bleeding out) Thoughts (thoughts)
And prayers (prayers)
Adorable (crisis)
Like cake in a crisis (in a crisis)
We’re bleeding out (bleeding out) While you deliberate
Bodies accumulate Sit and talk like jesus
Try walkin’ like jesus
Sit and talk like jesus
Talk like jesus
Talk talk talk talk
Get the fuck out of my way Don’t be the problem, be the solution
Don’t be the problem, be the solution
Don’t be the problem, be the solution
Problem, problem, problem, problem Faith without works is
Talk without works is
Faith without works is
Dead, dead, dead, dead Sit and talk like jesus
Try walkin’ like jesus
Sit and talk like jesus
Try walkin’ like jesus
Try braving the rain
Try lifting the stone
Try extending a hand
Try walkin’ your talk or get the fuck out of my way
APC is always a win. For real though. Happy Friday. Have some cake in a crisis ✌
He looks at me and I exist
I form curves
The air in my lungs thicker
Wings for floating
Thoughts are clearer
I see beauty
I feel as a cloud
Ethereal and living
Pain is forgiven
Depression isn’t winning
Reasons for breathing
I breathe in divinity
I taste love
The flowers growing
They are for spring
The wind blowing
For spreading your wings
The gold glowing
Jewelry for kings
The winter snowing
Backdrops for queens
The rhyme flowing
For other beings
The tears showing
Always for me
The trouble knowing
My life has no meaning
© Delia Ross. 2019
So much confliction
Fight or flight
Wrong or right
Light or night
Blind or sight
Retreat or height
Met every road with conviction
An angels plight
In battle for her knight
Where flames ignite
Love is written on the invite
The cure to my addiction
My heart in restriction
My actions in detention
The longer I’m without – the deeper I’m itching
The louder I shout, the harder I am reaching
But baby, ever since my eyes saw you I can’t stop twitching
Darling, maybe you could stick around and help with my affliction
© Delia Ross. 2019
Made in Heaven has been my favorite love story and film since I was 10 years old. It’s currently available to watch for free on Vudu. It’s from 1987 and you shouldn’t even watch a preview, you should just go watch the film. If it doesn’t pull on your heartstrings, then you’re probably not alive.
It’s one of the most beautiful stories ever written and I cry every single time I watch it. It ruined me on love. In a good way.
I decided I’m going to write a poem about it, in fact, I’ve already started.
So if you’d like to watch a really really good movie, that isn’t based on sex, drugs, horror, and rock and roll, but is an actual good story with thriving characters, and a soaring cast, go check it out. You can thank me later. Get your tissues ready though. sniff sniff
The film is PG.
Can you handle a PG movie or are you so desensitized from modern movies?
If you do watch it, will you let me know what you think about it? 😇
That ending scene, OH MY HEART.
I feel like watching it twice tonight.
In a different place
In another world
With a different face
And another girl
With a different heart
Better spoken word
Where we never part
And we’re always heard
With a different life
Not a lonely one
Where I am his wife
And my heart he has won
It’s a full moon rising
It’s a love worth shining
It’s a full moon rising
It’s a love worth climbing
© Delia Ross. 2019
Keep on crawling to the edge
of his love
Keep on falling off the ledge
from his shove
Keep on calling
though he’s not home
Keep on bawling
on my own
He keeps stalling
from this love
I keep befalling from his words
Keep on rolling down
where he roams
Always on the edge of his ledge
Always on the ledge of giving up
Always on the edge of his grudge
Always on the ledge of his love
Always on the edge of his touch
Always on the ledge of loving him too much
Always on the edge of forgiving this one
© Delia Ross. 2019
Don’t let your mistakes go down with the sun
Don’t let your fears keep you on the run
Don’t put your anger into a gun
Don’t let the devil keep you from having fun
Don’t let his absence from you stun
There’s nothing you could have done
You don’t need love from anyone
It’s over for you but his pain has begun
Don’t let your heart go numb
Don’t let these doubts overcome
Pick up the pace and move on
Move on with the sun
Tell God you want a refund
Bury your frown with the sun
Bury your tears in the red sun
You are a mess son
Or maybe you’re just dumb
Here is your sentence
I gift you your distance
It makes no difference
I’m already on the run
© Delia Ross. 2019
Listen here and how the fuck have I not heard this song before now!?! It hit me hard lol so I’m sharing because it’s an instant favorite for me. It’s in the film “Goodbye World (Amazon Prime)”. Feel free to comment with some of your favorite songs, music is my first love…. 😂😍😆
“I make the same mistakes
Feels like I never learn
Always give way too much
For little in return
I haven’t changed a bit
I’m still not over it
I make the same mistakes
I make the same mistakes
I…
I never did grow up
Feels like I never will
My friends are all adults
I’m still a teenage girl
I haven’t changed a bit
I’m still not over it
I make the same mistakes
I make the same mistakes
I…
My friends are all a drag
They think I’m such a flake
They want to go to bed
I want to stay up late
Walking the streets alone
Thinking of you ’til dawn
I make the same mistakes
I make the same mistakes
I…
I make the same mistake
(I never did grow up)
Feels like I never learn
(Feels like I never will)
Always give way too much
(My friends are all adults)
For little in return
(I’m still a teenage girl)
I haven’t changed a bit
I’m still not over it
I make the same mistakes
I make the same mistakes
I…
I make the same mistakes
(My friends are all a drag)
Feels like I never learn
(They think I’m such a flake)
Always give way too much
(They want to go to bed)
For little in return
(I want to stay up late)
I haven’t change a bit
(Walking the streets ’til dawn)
I’m still not over it
(Thinking of you)
I make the same mistakes
I make the same mistakes
I…”
Searching for life in places I shouldn’t
I’ve given loyalty when I knew that he wouldn’t
I’ve given up when I knew that you couldn’t
I’ve tried to love again even though I am still wounded
I’ve been left behind, where I should have been included
I’ve learned how to grow although I am uprooted
I’ve been promised truth when lies were spoken
I’ve been given vows that were already broken
I once may have slept but now I’m truly woken
I fall out of steps because my heart is swollen
You see me as free but my door is never open
I know time is out but here I am still hopin’
© Delia Ross. 2019
The Kevin & Bean Show recently interviewed lead singer of Bush, Gavin Rossdale.
I submitted a question to KROQ and they delivered it to Gavin around 9 minutes in of this interview. I was uncertain that they would even use my question because it is such a somber subject and Gavin was on air likely to talk about the upcoming new album and new tour. The host told Gavin that it was a really nice compliment, and Gavin replied wow, that’s beautiful. He went on to share a really personal memory and his feelings on the matter. He then directly speaks to me by saying my name (Delia), telling me he thought what I said was beautiful and he made me a promise.
I’ve been following Gavin since the early 90s when Bush emerged. I’ve been part of the alternative scene since then too, and the city I lived in at the time was nothing but country and back roads (the alt scene was not hip or popular there).
I’ve lived through the loss of Kurt Cobain, Layne Staley, Chris Cornell, Scott Weiland (and so many more I cherish) through drugs and suicide. With Keith Flint of Prodigy having just died by suicide (and knowing all the terrible things that Gavin has recently gone through), it absolutely made me worry.
So Gavin’s promise to me means a great deal. He never says anything he doesn’t mean. Every moment I’ve had with him is to be cherished. He’s my hero, he’s my muse. He gives me light in an otherwise dark world. Watching him go through his own trials and tribulations have given me strength and encouragement to go on, he teaches me lessons that would go unlearned. I too am like a wolf, a lone wolf anyway. I prefer coywolf because I am a half-breed.
This interview is amazing because he shares such personal insight on very somber matters. But it’s even more special to me because of his promise he makes to me.
I’m honored he finds my words beautiful of him, he deserves beautiful things. You guys should go catch him on tour and join the Bush Army bandwagon. I’m praying for miracles that I can see them for my birthday, as they will be here!
(Praying for some eBay sales, gotta pay my ride first tho)! Thank you to everyone who has bought me Bush tickets these past couple years. Indebted to you.
If you want to know what makes me happy, this is one of them. “This cloud, this cloud, this cloud…”
Watch the full interview here: Gavin Rossdale Visits The Kevin & Bean Morning Show
In these pages he’s alive
In these words we do survive
In these moments nothing but time
Memories without a hard drive
We get by, we drive, we fly
No suffering when amongst a friend
But these words won’t bring him back again
No these words won’t bring him back again
The days on pages never end
The nights play out as you intend
He’ll heed the call when you contend
But these words won’t bring him back again
Said these words won’t bring him back
No these words won’t bring me back
© Delia Ross. 2019
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You say there’s no reason for our unfriending
But why do I feel like it’s always near ending
We never even got a proper beginning
There’s always another you are attending
And here I go with more words of offending
I wish these messages I would stop sending
Or maybe more kindness from you is worth lending
If you are confused I am too comprehending
These situations that keep us from ascending
I’ll do what I can to keep from descending
I’m grateful for you and will go on defending
Thank you for allowing my childish venting
At least you’ll never find me pretending
© Delia Ross. 2019
Why can’t I be close to you
What is it I am suppose to do
Why can’t I be close to you
What is it you want me to do
Why can’t I be?
Why can’t I be close to you close to you
Why can’t I be?
I know you’re watching me
I see you pop up in my feed
I don’t know what it’s suppose to mean
I wish you’d throw a sign at me
Why can’t I be close to you
What is it I am suppose to do
Why can’t I be close to you
What is it you want me to do
Why can’t I be close to you
Why can’t I get through to you
Why can’t I talk to you
Why can’t I get through to you
I can’t just walk away
Though you ignore me I still say “hey”
I don’t always know what to say
My body begs for me to stay
Why can’t I be close to you
What is it I am suppose to do
Why can’t I be close to you
What is it you want me to do
The signals that you send
They confuse me
Pierce right through me
I don’t want it to end
© Delia Ross. 2019
I know I’m not the girl for you
I still wish you were someone I knew
I only wish good things for all you do
I hope you get the girl of your dreams too
I know you are busy but you are always on my mind
I’ve tried to replace you about a million times
There are always too many hills to climb
I know I’m old but I’m still in my prime
I wish one day I could be your valentine
For just a day or two
It’d be enough to be around you
And just kill some time
Cuz I know you will never be mine
And there’s not much I can do
© Delia Ross. 2019
His words like weights dragging me down
I never knew words could create such a storm
I’m pretty certain he’d rather not have me around
I know he’s cold but I’m still so warm
We are headed right for ghost town
You better turn around
We’re headed for ghost town
It’s a cold, cold battleground
Don’t you want to be found?
Will you please make a sound?
I guess love is an art form?
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© Delia Ross. 2019
I need a lover not an enemy
Someone to go night riding with me
I feel another storm rising
We’ve wasted too much time deciding
I know where this road goes
I know where this storm blows
I know where this road goes
I know where this storm blows
The radio advises staying in
But who are they advising?
All these years we stayed hiding
There’s no other reason presiding
I know where this road goes
I know where this storm blows
I know where this road goes
I know where this storm blows
Sat in a corner despising
Why are you backsliding
Right now the Moon is rising
Our plans won’t need much revising
I want to go with you night riding
Stop wasting time deciding
Let’s go while the wind is subsiding
I want to go with you night riding
© Delia Ross. 2019
VS1
Needed some time to clear the things he said
Too many demons were dancing under my bed
Sat around praying and wishing he was dead
I’d be lying to say he was not still inside my head
CHORUS
The river runs dry where there is blood
I missed him so much it always hurt
Went searching for Sun during a flood
It swallowed me down into the mud
That was his love
VS2
Not sure how long has passed I’m still no good
Been feeling so low and well misunderstood
My heart once soft now hard like wood
I know you don’t care though maybe you probably should
CHORUS
The river runs dry where there is blood
I missed him so much it always hurt
Went searching for Sun during a flood
It swallowed me down into the mud
That was his love
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