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Stones

Hard to face an enemy with arrows
Eyes to ground, move back but still he follows
Try to make a list of the cons and pros
Every step sinking deeper into holes
Crying only reaches more lost souls
The devil whispers “this is the life you chose”
Picking every thorn off of your rose
But darling I warned you not to get close
This side of town contains mostly lows
This is where hope comes to decompose
He’s laughing now like it’s one of his jokes
Breaking me is always one of his goals
My sins always haunting my shadows
It’s so heavy these stones I carry alone on these roads

© Delia Ross. 2019

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What Is It?

It is not a cage to watch you age
It is not a light seeking a stage
It is not a debt taking all of your wage
It is not a trap set for making you rage
It is not a war for you to engage
It is not a weight to see if you strain
It is not blood meant for your written page
It is not a finger set forth to only lay blame
It is not a fang sinking deep into your vein
It is not a hand here to inflict you more pain
It is not punishment tied to a chain
It is not a debt that can never be paid
It will still exist even if you never feel the same

It is here as silk for your fears
It remains as satin for all of your tears
It is softly spoken between the ears
It erases all pain from previous years
It will fill your day with silence and cheers
And  like any motion there are different gears
But with every step more of the doubt clears
And just like my love it never disappears

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Debris

I got to where I never cry
I can feel the hours passing by
I keep the blinds closed from any sunshine
It doesn’t cost me a dime
To waste all my time
It feels like the wrong design
I still tell them all that I’m fine

Suffocate on all the energy
Surrounded by negativity
Completely numb without sensory
Nothings ever bothering me
Nothing to ever do, no one to see
Married to my invisibility
My soul a wasteland filled with debris

© Delia Ross. 2019


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Summoned

Written words intended to sting
Written traps that would wound a king
Tied it tight to the back of my wing
Stuck around to feel him tugging
Held so tight he could feel me cutting
Cried so loud he could here me coming
Insert the spear while his heart is still pumping
Make sure he knows that I am not bluffing
Leave him broken so he can’t feel nothing
At least then I know he can feel something
And get a taste of the pain he is causing
Let him know how bad I am hurting
Teach him a lesson about deserting
Tie his feet so he can’t keep on running
Oh my love what are we becoming
This isn’t the love that I had summoned

© Delia Ross. 2019


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Confessional

Confession
I fell, I stumbled hard
I completely fucked up his yard
And then I posted guard
Giggling and prancing about
Mostly being quiet but then I’d randomly shout
Can’t you see my sorrow or that I’m filled with doubt
And then I thought I heard some spoken word
It may have been a dream it may have been a bird
No no no I know what I heard
And further more I’d lose the road
As more and more his words had flowed
And less and less my step had slowed
Different voices with many tones
With different sorrows and different bones
And various speeds and different zones
My soul entranced, my heart felt home
And under his tree my mind did roam
Perhaps to places that weren’t my own
And maybe seeing things I shouldn’t have
Because even though I see I never did ask
But under his sun I remain and bask
And would you know one day I saw his eyes
I saw his lips I heard his lies
And I cared not about his disguise
I saw through it all I was paralyzed
And I remained though cut down a size
I make mistakes and get chastised
And fear expulsion from his garden
His lips have left me hopeful yet starvin’
And into his tree I keep carving
A spell for him and a spell for me
And into the hours I continue to dream
I just hope his eyes can see what I see
And I do only wish him the very best things
And to give him the space to spread his wings
There’s a river of love from where he sings
I can be the stone from which he springs
I wish he knew how much happiness he brings

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Intro

It hurts more than my feelings
It hurts more than my pride
It hurts more than my ego
It hurts more than your lies

It cost more than your freedom
It cost more than my cries
It cost more than your window
It cost more of my time

I live in limbo
While you agonize
I see a hero
You’d never recognize

This is an intro
To a better life
The cost is zero
If you drop the guise

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Edges

Keep on crawling to the edge
of his love

Keep on falling off the ledge
from his shove

Keep on calling
though he’s not home

Keep on bawling
on my own

He keeps stalling
from this love

I keep befalling from his words

Keep on rolling down
where he roams

Always on the edge of his ledge

Always on the ledge of giving up

Always on the edge of his grudge

Always on the ledge of his love

Always on the edge of his touch

Always on the ledge of loving him too much

Always on the edge of forgiving this one

© Delia Ross. 2019

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For Your Eyes Only

Friendship shouldn’t be a challenge
Honesty will keep you well balanced

I know you like charm
But you fill it with malice

Standing proud
Like you are the tallest

But inside a monster
Simply hardened and calloused

With a river of lies
Flowing down from your chalice

Empty and cold
And a waste of your talent

Gifting others pain
Your proudest gallop

Acting as if everything is always so passive

Knowing fully well
You were playing in my ashes

Treating me like I’m just someone in the masses

Killing my heart simply like an assassin

Acting like me showing you love was a curse
You’ll come to find going without is much worse

Keeping secrets locked behind a screen
Hiding from the one who would have loved you unclean

You can say that your eyes are open and serene
But underneath you are plain cold and just mean

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Netherworld

He’s coming down this road again
With offerings of despair
Wrapped in tears like acid rain
With prayers prayed in vain
Dragging love by a chain
His every action inhumane
His only prize is your pain
His only hope for you to disobey
So he can claim you another day
Purgatory is the way
He’ll keep you bound so you can’t stray
Fill you with doubt so you remain
Enclosed in darkness so you can’t escape
Never asleep but fully awake
Your soul weighed down from the ache
Your every step a mistake
It’ll wrap around you like a snake
Swallow you whole while you decay

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Sunset

Don’t let your mistakes go down with the sun
Don’t let your fears keep you on the run
Don’t put your anger into a gun
Don’t let the devil keep you from having fun
Don’t let his absence from you stun

There’s nothing you could have done
You don’t need love from anyone
It’s over for you but his pain has begun
Don’t let your heart go numb
Don’t let these doubts overcome
Pick up the pace and move on

Move on with the sun
Tell God you want a refund
Bury your frown with the sun
Bury your tears in the red sun

You are a mess son
Or maybe you’re just dumb
Here is your sentence
I gift you your distance
It makes no difference
I’m already on the run

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Silver

It’s not terribly hard to see you’re always chasing after young silver
Spend your days shinning every dime by the muddy river
Try to hide reflections of a liar in its mirror
If the devil bit you in the head it wouldn’t make it that much clearer
But I’m going to cover you in truth until you shine like glitter
I doubt anything I write can make you more bitter
You’ll probably claim you’re a victim and call me a killer
But neither of us are walking out of here a winner
My heart lost its color and settled for winter
I told you to shoot but you failed to pull the trigger
And now my love for you will always just kind of linger
If you ever want a friend you’re invited for dinner
If you ever need a rare element that’s where I can deliver
I hope one day you will warm my heart from this shiver
Until then my soul will just tremble and quiver

(He always wants the young silver – she’ll never want what he can give her)

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Goodbye

I will always love you from afar
The same way I love a distant star
And cast wishes under its light
Where I pray for you every night

I will always wonder where you are
What catastrophic event pushed you so far
Your heart a celestial sphere
But you never let anyone near

And on nights when the sky is clear
I cry into the atmosphere
I couldn’t tell you the hour dear
Every moment I wish you were here

You and I live under the same sky
The winds blow west and carry my cry
With raining tears and a heavy sigh
I lie and promise this is not goodbye

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Ignition

I’m still calling can you listen

I’m still learning from this lesson

I’m still crawling despite our distance

I still see you despite my blurry vision

I’m still moving like I have a mission

I still love him despite his own suspicion

I keep leading when I should be in submission

My feet keep moving in any ole condition

My heart keeps ticking despite this damn addiction

My fire keeps burning with or without his ignition

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Paradise

I need your starlight
The dreams the same every night
I fall asleep in your skies
I wake up to your kind eyes

And with a kiss the Sun will rise
And by your breath the wind chimes
And with your touch my eyes will dry
You are my favorite sky

Your lips are the best prize
Your eyes hypnotize
You are my favorite high
Your mind is a sunrise
Your love is a paradise

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Lifespan

I promise to listen
Always with intention
To understand

If you can hold me
Instead of scold me
I will be your best friend

I don’t need more lessons
Or other people’s blessings
To love my man

I won’t ask you questions
Or demand from you confessions
If you let me join your clan

Please let your worries lessen
I’ll never keep you guessing
Our love will never need a plan

The moon it now shines crescent
My love is on fluorescent
There’s enough for your entire lifespan

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Purgatory


I’ve made wrong choices, let the wrong friends in my life
One beat me so badly he nearly took my life
I’ve taken many lovers but I’ve never been a wife
Everyone thinks I’m paranoid cuz I’m married to my knife

I’m not giving up, I’m still holding on though I’m losing height
My steps are slowly faltering and I’ve lost my will to fight
Every time I turn around someone has taken another bite
It’s almost like the demons know my soul is filled with blight

I’ve been down this road searching for you for sometime now
I should finally take a rest and give Lu a proper bow
I only care about you, I too avoid the crowd
I am utterly devoted to you and to this I avow

Now you know these terrible truths do you even want me around
Though we’re both wanderers in hell love is still allowed
I wear my favorite sin and I want to make you proud
But if you ghost me in hell I will never make it out

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Oak

His absence begs me to go
His disinterest tells me so
His eyes I long to know
Feels like I already though
His existence set me aglow
His silence so loud I woke
His sorrow so heavy he broke
His darkness so thick I choke
Our souls twisted together like oak
I am doing my best to climb up
His words like incantations evoke
For who these pages I devote
Into these rhymes which are wrote
My love for him is the most

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Armor

I know not what drives him
How deep his senses swim
Which fear can make him cower
What eats away his hour
From which tear his pain will flower
Who tells him that he matters
How tall I’ll need a ladder
What brings him to his laughter
Who helps him when he’s sadder
Why his eyes pierce deeper than a dagger
How his words can make me stagger
Or why he wears such heavy armor

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Evolving

His pale skin
Invites me in
His lips of sin
Excite my sense
His mind ablaze
His kiss my slave
I’d do it again
And over again
Keep crawling
Keep calling
Every word I’m fallen
With every breath I’m all in
Even when he’s stalling
Even while I’m bawling
Any kind of dawning
Please don’t fear me darlin’
Need you every morning
Please tell me that you’re coming
Even when it’s storming
For you, I’m always yearning
For you, always returning
My soul for you is stirring
My fire for you is burning
My thoughts of you are turning
This love ever evolving

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Give And Receive

Give me sin, give me repentance
Whatever your secrets, put them in a pendant
If I falter, hand me my sentence
Will slow crawl to you and ask for forgiveness
Forget the past and live in the present
Live each moment like the world is ending
Let each breath be one that is healing
Kiss me and give me wings for ascending
Promise me you’ll give me arms for defending
I’ll give you as much love you need for your mending

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Same Mistakes by Echo Friendly

Listen here and how the fuck have I not heard this song before now!?! It hit me hard lol so I’m sharing because it’s an instant favorite for me. It’s in the film “Goodbye World (Amazon Prime)”. Feel free to comment with some of your favorite songs, music is my first love…. 😂😍😆

“I make the same mistakes
Feels like I never learn
Always give way too much
For little in return

I haven’t changed a bit
I’m still not over it
I make the same mistakes
I make the same mistakes
I…

I never did grow up 
Feels like I never will
My friends are all adults
I’m still a teenage girl

I haven’t changed a bit
I’m still not over it
I make the same mistakes
I make the same mistakes
I…

My friends are all a drag
They think I’m such a flake
They want to go to bed
I want to stay up late
Walking the streets alone
Thinking of you ’til dawn
I make the same mistakes
I make the same mistakes
I…

I make the same mistake
(I never did grow up)
Feels like I never learn
(Feels like I never will)
Always give way too much
(My friends are all adults)
For little in return
(I’m still a teenage girl)
I haven’t changed a bit
I’m still not over it
I make the same mistakes
I make the same mistakes
I…

I make the same mistakes
(My friends are all a drag)
Feels like I never learn
(They think I’m such a flake)
Always give way too much
(They want to go to bed)
For little in return
(I want to stay up late)
I haven’t change a bit
(Walking the streets ’til dawn)
I’m still not over it
(Thinking of you)
I make the same mistakes
I make the same mistakes
I…”

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Aces

Feeling less alive on a daily basis
My soul desperately searching for an oasis
Going through life cycles with the moon phases
Constantly seeing strangers in all the worst places
Always disappearing without any traces
Having difficulty remembering some of my lovers faces
Moving around the world living on different bases
Placing all my bets without any aces

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Lived and Learned

I’ve lived through many things
I’ve taken dips in cold springs
I’ve visited lands without any kings
I’ve kissed lips without feeling things

I survived a war which broke my wing
I waited for love they could never bring
I clung to sorrow even though it did sting
I only heard silence from a man who did sing

I have done this and I have done that
I’ve worn kevlar when they wore a hat
I’ve lived in a foxhole, I’ve lived in a flat
I have been skinny and I have been fat

I’ve learned to love in world of hate
My timing is off and I’m always late
I’ve felt a man hold me down with his weight
I spit in the eye of the devils worst trait

There’s not many things that keep me satisfied
I have been honest where others have lied
I have never known love, or been someone’s bride
I’ve been so mad I had to laugh when I cried

I’ve never been worshipped or even adored
I’ve watched other games be unevenly scored
I’d like to release all the fears that I hoard
There are some things that I can never afford

All of these things do not matter that much
I’ve never wanted more than to feel his touch
I want to be his stone and never his crutch
You could call it fate, I’ll never name it such
One thing is certain though I love him a bunch
Anytime he speaks or writes my heart takes a punch

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Warm Linen

I wonder if he writes me words like I do for him
Sometimes I reach out to only find a phantom limb
I’m learning that his desire for me is looking rather slim
There are many girls he likes but I’m not one of them
The spark for life that I once had is dying from within
Still I read his words and take a skinny dip to swim
I run around his sacred words like I am a pilgrim
My soul reacts and knows that he is one in a trillion
He probably doesn’t want it but he left me so smitten
I can feel my orbit gaining speed and spiraling
I still have the hope that he may be listening
And even though he rejected me I hope he is living
He’s so many miles from me it feels like a million
I want to wrap around him like he is warm linen

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Heaven or Hell

I tell gentle lies
To myself
To ward away grey skies

My bones often disagree
My cries will drop me to my knee
My brain repeats “he loves me”
And even when I’m resting
My subconscious too believes

And so by every waking the lie repeats

He loves me
He loves me
He loves me

He the sun and I the moon
That’s how much our distance grew
That’s how little we both knew
That’s the reach my love for you
That’s the road to greet you too

I lie and say I’m halfway there
I lie and say that you do care
I tuck it deep within a prayer
And color over this nightmare
I say good morning love instead of farewell
And it is here that you will always dwell
You can find my love in heaven or hell

© Delia Ross. 2019

Update: I did a soft reading of Heaven or Hell on my IGTV, which you can watch here: https://www.instagram.com/tv/By21uAOhvvF/?igshid=1jj1vlogbz00y

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24-hour Shift

How do you forget something once you know it exists
How do you put the blade to your own wrist
How do you cross a soul off of your list
How do you explain chaos needs a misfit
How do you find light when the sun’s never lit
How can a stranger leave such an imprint
What is it about me you don’t want to risk
How much more pain are you going to inflict
I’m chained to a cross and your actions afflict
My heart is still buried inside your dark crypt
I know I was wrong and deserve to be whipped
But I’ve never experienced anything like this
If there are rules please hand me a script
Do you forgive me for being such quick lipped
I’d crawl unto you and beg to be kissed
My love is on a 24-hour eternal shift

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Yearning

It’s half-past heartbreak 
The pain grips like a snake
There’s nothing to stop the ache

Once upon a better time
Wasting youth was such a crime
Pride it only cost a dime

It’s long past sorrow
There’s no joy here to borrow
I still pray he calls tomorrow

Third times a charm or so we learn
In slavery until we are adjourned
And so the same ole pages turn
These forty years I only yearn

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Not Looking Back

You can come but I am going down
I’d rather not bring you to this part of town

You can follow but I must warn you so
Your condition is hollow and I have to go

You can spy and I wish you all the luck
However, I no longer give a fuck

You can cry and wish us all goodbye
But I know it’s just another crafted lie

You can idle and point your finger in blame
But I’m still out of worry all the same

You can get angry and cast a witch’s spell
But it doesn’t work for someone already living in hell

You can cry to God or even Lu
But even they don’t care about you

You can borrow or beg or change your fold
But you lost the most when you lost this gold

You can pretend and say that I never did matter
But here’s another problem you never did factor

I’m going going going gone
And I’m not even bothering to write a Dear John

© Delia Ross. 2019

It’s now on my IGTV

NOT LOOKING BACK Spoken word (number 4) under 1 minute long, listen on my Instagram here: https://www.instagram.com/p/Byu5DFthSgr/?igshid=1eld7rjsauut

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Fire

The consequences were dire
Invitations would expire
There was no will to inquire
Or maybe I just don’t inspire
Take my soul out of the mire
Place it back into the fire
Had I known what would transpire
I would have climbed a bit much higher
I would have found a different buyer
I would have worn different attire
There are goods that I aquire
I need a shelter for my desire

© Delia Ross. 2019

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Wildflowers

My dreams are running wild
Into his field where I’m beguiled
My nightmares are exiled
Where every moment is worthwhile


I dance with him past midnight hours
Where passion burns inside his towers
Pain and mid-summer showers
Always remind me of his wildflowers


They grow best when the wounds are gone
When the breeze hums to a different song
Where your mood goes from dark to dawn
Such clouds we always dance upon


Please put it on my bed with some Forget-me-nots
Where his kiss removes all of the bad thoughts
His words always hit me in the right spots
He tends to my heart and is never cross


© Delia Ross. 2019

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Event Horizon

Separate myself
Break myself
Turn into something else
By myself with nothing left
Let the ache manifest
From my head to my chest

How dare it linger and fester
Building gravity in the dark
Gathering more matter
Heavy and hot

No beacon call for distress
No maps to guide on this quest
Alone in silent protest
Not alive nor human nor best
A star too soon compressed
A black hole just like the rest

© Delia Ross. 2019