I got to feed and meet some alligators yesterday but now I’m upset and crying about it because I don’t like their enclosure and feel like it could be better and then I’m also wondering what they do with the alligators when they get bigger π
Because this particular place was not an alligator sanctuary which is what I actually want to visit because Florida is known for having those and rescuing the big boys and naughty ones
I also went to the beach and was blessed with getting to see a family of something swimming in the ocean but suddenly I felt their depression and sadness and started crying and had to leave the ocean
They are sentiment beings
But we do the cruelest things to them for our own pleasure

I got to meet this little gal and name her and I will share that experience soon in a more positive post but I am upset with how they are living
I woke up crying and I don’t understand why I was born if I can’t actually change anything
My excitement about anything quickly turns to disillusionment because reality is so much sicker
And now I was wondering why I was born at all if I can’t enjoy anything the way it is due to narcissism because I’m not a narcissist or a demon and it’s like they have a blue book that they’re using or a color by numbers on every aspect of life and I’m fucking sick of being micromanaged and thought controlled
And the girl working at the front booth was only 17 bless her little heart and she was talking about turning 18 soon, like that was her only goal was to have some more freedom and I didn’t have the heart to disillusion her on the 1st even though she said it was just like any other day and she was right, I was just trying to be positive but my positive energy has quickly faded with the reality of everything
There was some good aspects about it though and I want to focus on those when I do share my post and videos about it
But right now just let me cry
I mean the way those dolphins or whales were swimming in the ocean seemed very depressed to me but maybe that’s just my own projection of everything in the world
I am so sick, I am crying in public now
I go from being really happy and mellow to fucking mad and crying
Do you think this is what Edgar Allan Poe experienced before his end?
Is this why Jesus was like, why are you hitting me, if I did something wrong you could hit me but I didn’t fucking do anything for you to hit me π
But he was woke and against the establishment so they crucified him
My goal this year is to spend more time doing the things that I love and animals and nature is something I really love but we’re all slaves and I can’t really change that
I can only blog about it but I don’t want it to deter you from the excitement of the videos and photos that I’m gonna be sharing
It helps to talk about the things that are bothering me deep inside
But I got to name a baby alligator yesterday and that was a pretty amazing experience
I do believe we can petition to make their enclosure better and their environment better
I’m going to visit an alligator sanctuary soon and I may possibly even go to Gatorland in Orlando π
There are caverns to visit and lots of things to do outside that I want to participate in
But in small increments because I am still dying
That’s probably why you get burst of happiness and sadness
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Great Post, it is good to have a passion. Sometimes our narcissism eats us but it makes us who we are. Stay strong. Save them gators.
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I can’t save anything. I can only observe. π©
We are all just doing what we are programmed to do.
Like a simulation.
Cuz I’m AI. π
But earth has demons.
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A thought provoking post which could make people rethink their own thoughts on animals in captivity. That alone would be a basis for change. The old saying, man who moved mountain started with one small stone.
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Yes, the way we sell animals in the marketplace and keep them caged up, we are all sentiment beings in slavery. I just seem to be questioning everything in life right now and it hits me really hard. So I don’t wanna wind up like Edgar Allan Poe, which is why I like to talk about it with y’all. I appreciate your feedback so much. I’m dying and facing mortality and just seeing things differently. I’m happy and sad at the same time.
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On a completely different topic. Did I recommend a song you might like.
If not …
The Tenants – You Shit Me to Tears
It’s rude but a real toe tapper. Also makes me feel better when having a bad day.
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I will give them a go! You are recommending bands I’ve never heard of! So I’m definitely curious to hear em! Thank you! π
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They were an Aussie band and this one came out in 2000. Let me know what you reckon.
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I’ll be getting back into my music routine soon. Got my little speakers set up with the laptop! π
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