I’m not renewing my card stash but I might cuz I found sungrown in the ground with the sun and trademarked! They tell you where the strain comes from! Florida or Amsterdam etc – there is waayyy less packaging and they treat their shop like a medicinal shop instead of recreational. Did I mention they grow stuff in the ground with the sun?
Makes a difference and it works! I still want to quit and my card expires on 4/19, right as all the good deals are coming in.
I don’t have to worry about fentanyl laced products and this is legal and no I won’t share or buy you any (get yer own card$)
I still want to quit but this is the stuff that works
Also not seen – vape pens & 2 free pre-rolls I scored
Today I turned on the radio and got lost in 90s alternative and metal doom
I was like THIS IS THE SHIT
I AIN’T DYING LIKE BOB
I haven’t used up my allotment yet and still have 2 days of potential relapse shopping to do
There went the rent money honey
(I scored it ridiculously cheap and am having a panic that I won’t be able to top up without my card)
(I’ll be racing to the doctor, help, hurry, my card expired)
(So I was trying to avoid that scenario by spending my savings)
I hate me but a little less today because the weed is working
I don’t think I’ve ever had this much weed in one sitting before but alas it’s the apocalypse and I’m trying to quit an addiction
I’m feeling less homicidal off the Curaleaf Russian cloned “the state won’t let us grow it in the ground” junk
Only 2 in that stack isn’t “sungrown” and the fact that they had to “TM” their products
Stay away from Curaleaf
I found “sungrown” at GrowHealthy but I don’t know who owns it
But I like that they have LOCAL herbs – grown right here in the “sunshine state”
I picked up another “mystery plant” today – making this number 4
He’s in the mini tin in the windowsill and already had some delicious spring water
I have 4 pots to put them in once they mature but I have no idea how to move them – and still – with directions – couldn’t make the “paper pot”
Also scored more seeds for my land – once owned. These are non GMO, USA seeds. Added some spicy peppers to my collection!
Him: what sort of things do you need?
Me: a goT damn garden
The other store was selling “head space” at a luxury price and all hydroponic crap (which made me want to gut Bob and I was like “but whyyyyyy”)
Today I enjoyed music again (with the help of “sungrown” TM)
I’m hoping I turn my apartment into a food jungle but why am I afraid of plants and all of this?
Like putting a seed into dirt, sun, spring water and watching it turn into food that will nourish me
That’s more than my mother did
Bath time and cannoli’s
I needed something to regret wasting my money on other than weed
For instance, yesterday while waiting at a very long stop light on beach street, this immigrant was walking around half-dressed with a baby stroller, he crossed the crosswalk and I yelled “pedophile” (because I’m calling every man I see this now apparently – but especially him) and he looked back, so I yelled louder.
The light still wouldn’t change.
I noticed the car beside me also had their window down/cracked
I was like, “He shouldn’t be alone with a baby” and she laughed and cried, “I know”
I stated, “I don’t normally do that but no man should be alone with a baby” in which she responds again with “I know” and mentions how he was dressed
(It’s summer but every man acts as if they own the world, women are fed up yeeeee)
We got to continue our back-and-forth manhating for at least another 30 seconds or more until the light finally turned and I reluctantly said I had to go
There was a cop ahead at the oncoming light but I still had thoughts of “gasing” my vehicle or honking him rudely as he passed
I behaved but then the body screamed PEDOPHILE and he acknowledged and the car next to me concurred (more than once)
I gotta get out of this city, this town, these people, these policies
I continue to assess my “mental health”, and stay in the now, the cars read ROUGE
I wholeheartedly agree, it’s time
5 monster men just kidnapped an older lady, FBI put out a reward, she’s dead
The news have not reported this, it’s just something I feel
The same way I knew my sister was dead before she died
And all it took was a text from my half-sister, “she’s in the hospital with COVID” and I replied “she’s gonna die”
I didn’t go say goodbye
I had a big ole blood clot and blown left lung – from the deathcare system, and was heading no where near a hospital and never will again
I would get arrested, keep me the fuck away from that god damn Satan house
And stop casting spells on me, they only empower me more
The mirrors are nearly gone, I potentially found a owner for the pair I got
MARK BURGESS is swine and the curse will unfold in time
The Last One of Us is not just a game
I’ve not played it – but according to research, “the elites were plagued with parasites” and there’s a super fungas strain plaguing California (where MB hangs)
The CDC are blaming “the wind”
Yeah sure and he’s an immigrant from the UK
Well, I’ve no idea his green card status or his whereabouts or whatifs
I dream of justice, real justice
Swift and remorseless
It’s not a sin
Eye for eye
My heart is feeling good enough to kickbox a face or two
Encouraging seeing big boy swim in hurricane swells — I’m learning to tame my own demons – albeit not well
Because I wound up at the park – letting every man know he was either a pedophile in love with a prostitute or “another motherfucker who thinks he owns the world”
One looked up and I instructed him to call the cops cuz it’s the only time I ever “feel anything”
No cops came.
Too tiny. Gonna get shot or kidnapped (I’ll rip your hand and dick off)
KEEP 10 FEET BACK
I might finally be getting to see the lung doctor – after nearly blowing my lung out April 2021
Some boy I don’t really know but had a dream about when I was like 8 and he was perhaps still growing in-womb (not mine, eww) – saved my life – kinda
Because he was “kinda there” with his own selfish needs but was apparently everything I needed in moment, because he dumped loads of chemicals into me, which maybe kept my heart from stopping
I was in so much pain
My heart was having mini pre heartquakes – like heart attack – would actually need medical help if my electrical output continued leaning in that way
I literally could not breathe (and have developed new ways of coping as I have a heart condition now)
Furthermore, they may not tell you this per say, but those with heart inflammation are at risk for Adult Sudden Death Syndrome, and so I’m not out of the woods yet, as I can’t do anything that causes elevation spikes in my heart (adrenaline rushes, or even stress/anger) though I can rebound now on my gravity fitness trainer, and mine is made with special straps, not bungee cords, and I finally found more made in those style and hope to upgrade soon
I’m quite bonded with my squeaky trainer and was gonna use it til it had no life left
My body is ready for a new trainer – a tighter pad – maybe smaller too (I think mine is 36 inch)
Men: “women haven’t contributed anything to society and are only good for childbearing or serving me”
Me: I don’t want your fucking electricity
And I’m nearly tired of the $100 oil changes
$5 oil change, 10 minutes
I argued about inflation and maths and economics in college
I knew globalization was bullshite
I wasn’t for it but the would sell the propaganda and the kids ate it up
Evolution theory is bullshit
I’ve been reading books on quantum physics – Cox and his clocks, y’all are delusional pedophile nihilist and NASA is a fraud – stop taxing me
Neil Armstrong never spoke to anyone from the moon, it was recorded on earth, they had no communication towers according to NASA, the moon landing’s were rehearsed, with a fucking Hollywood director, wake fucking up
Women please especially – now before I wind up a statistical
93% of all murders happen by men (their punishment getting lighter while ours gets worse)!!!!
We’re in a 6th mass extinction!
That’s why 500 whales washed ashore, the bombs they keep setting off in our oceans!!!!! Hello!!!!!!!!!! Science is fun!!!!!!!!
Imperialism. Imagine unplugging from the great machine as a Soldier, I’ve come undone!!!!
And now they wanna lock us up for destroying us with malicious intent and purpose!!!
Some vet just murdered his 3 young children – took everything from his ex wife – who left him a key to her home – he shot his children sleeping in their bed
You’re all monsters!!!
They’re selling dicks at the mall in front of children!!!! And online at Walmart in the health and wellness!!! Why you shopping there? Everything is cancer!!!! Read the labels!!!!
We go to war with our neighbors and then let them come live here!!!!! They hate us!!!!!! CMON!!!
White slavery! The Great Replacement theory is real!!! I’m part of the 244!!!
Do you know who I am pedo!!!!!
God is very real and gracious and angry!!!!!!
Mother earth deserves more!!!!
I hate it here!!!! This civilization you claim you created because women are useless!
Fuck you! You wouldn’t be here without us!!!!!
You’re pissed about it!!!
The Developer!!!! Ha ha charade you are!!!
The Great Filter is real! It’s you!!!!!!
I can smell your stench like Agent Smith!!!!
I don’t trust a Chinaman in my country or a white boy or BLM or Latino lives matter – took all our jobs!!!!!!
I’d love to get back to an ethical job but none exists!
Stop asking for my email or digital identity!!!
I’ve sold my TV, the propaganda machine!
And tho my expensive Apple devices aren’t very old, they’ve forced us outdated, I’m not buying again
I don’t love you!!!! Or your society!!!
WordPress sold out!!! It’s all daily prompt in the feed!
I got rid of everything I own!!!!
I’m ready to dawn a robe!!!!
I don’t know how I’m reaching out to you with a brain, heart, lung injury – plus a curse
But alas miracles!!!!!!!!!!
I’m sorry for my weird behavior – it’s just the Matrix is broken, I’m gonna keep not complying!!!!!!
Morrison wanted to fuck/kill his parents and ghosted them
I sold all my vinyl
I tossed out things that I thought had monetary value in the bin
Many I donated or gave away
Some I sold for a quarter knowing I paid extra for the bonus disc and features, but in the end, it’s worth was obsolete
I’m not jumping from platform to platform for the developers who have yellow fever and think they are gods
Fuck social media – it destroyed the fabric of eveything
And porn and its filthy consumers
This boy of young teenage age was staring at me in a sexual way, I snarled my lip
In an alternate universe, there is a sinister version of me, cutting of dicks, and leaving little smily faces on the walls – cuz no one has discovered my identity
So… if I dream of casting spells on someone who entered my life – then let me hang a horseshoe from my door
The same these scientists don’t believe in God but do a blackhole
It is increasingly hard to listen to the dribble of super religious freaks, knowing many are atheists themselves but push it on us anyway
Do this, do that!!!
I don’t really believe Asia was/is the most advanced species anymore
They are our number one threat and should fear the bery ground they walk on here
Here a demon, there a demon, I’m gonna expose you
I hope I settle down soon, the new carpet arrives Tuesday
I’m still focused on healing, spiritually, mentally, physically, financially (they did steal thousands of my retirement during the pandemic while I was disassociating, FYI)
I lost at least half
But those who took it were traveling to exotic locations during the pandemic – buying luxury phones and cars – with my retirement money
But then, they cry “Asian hate”
It’s burns a bit deeper than that
I don’t think hate describes what is growing in me
No one ever says they wanna be an elite serial something when they grow up
People who write things like, “those who say they don’t like money but go work an 8 hour job” don’t consider that being homeless is an actual crime
Born into money, never struggled a day in their life
Don’t know hardship
Gotta incite riots to feel anything
Dead man drowning
Perhaps I the same
I like feeling and seeing the sun rise and fall everyday
I appreciate how happy the wildlife are when I feed em
They tell us not to feed the wildlife but then capture and enslave these intelligent beautiful creatures for our entertainment and sell their teeth for luck
Parasites – narcissism is a plague
That’s all they are
And all me and the white girl can do is laugh about the insanity of it all
I can’t keep yelling and screaming pedophile, I’ll wind up in a swamp or freezer
That’s already a fear because they follow me out of places I shop, they stalk me, because I’m cute to them
I wish my ear would stop ringing
Need out the city
The crime is so bad where I live
And it’s being gentrified, just like WP
The CEO has yellow fever
P.S. you never needed to block me cuz you never added my number (I hate you)
(It wasn’t even your main two lines)
Last in, first out
I’ve met a lot of boys but none looked like the boy I dreamed about nor do any make my heart/brain/pp do what you make it do
Don’t make me delete my blog
Some lines I’m too afraid to cross – but do so erratically
She took the house and kids – probably cuz he was bad – but loved him and let him keep a key – probably to see the kids anytime he wanted – so he took everything from her – killed the kids and himself
But go ahead and blame gun laws and everything but what is to blame…
Keep puffing on my house motherfucker…
It ain’t even my house and I’m paying more than a mortgage – another problem man made
I’m wailing Climbing walls Jumping halls Blackmailing Tell God I’m sailing Direct from hell to heaven Breaking spells Inhaling Predicting lies prevailing The Devil got me detailing And if you’ve done it I’m telling Double dare you I’m yelling
I downloaded the JetPack cuz I’m tired of fighting the current.
But my bank pulled some shady shite today and I’m ready to bury my money.
Shit like where you can only use the app now to upload a check and automatically enrolling me into Bill Pay when I clicked on “learn more”.
The app was uninstalled but then you can’t use the check deposits feature or check your check deposits via the website (I’m tired of being forced to use an app or automatically signed up for things just for learning more)
But buried cash doesn’t earn interest
But I don’t trust the banks
Now would be a good time to drop recommendations on where to stash your cash (like a checking and savings)
I looked up the top ten worst banks – I mean the Federal reserve just took down a bank.
It’s hard to get a handle on my paranoia these days – and it don’t help when folks are always calling the cops on you.
Does someone want to gift me a paper bond? I need one for my 50th.
I suddenly have goals to live to see my 50th – and enjoy it – with a big lump sum of cash.
And so I’ve prayed to God, “I’m saving for my future. My 50th.”
I probably only have a few seconds left but I’m bargaining.
I cry and ache so much.
But maybe, if I am alive, in say, 6 ish years, I could celebrate.
Anyhoo, I’m already invested into that plan – I started this very month.
Even nearly dead, I’m planning for my future
(I hope it involves my own yard to plant these seeds I’ve started hoarding)
And then this happened… and now I’ve lost all hope
The Chinese must have got ahold
It’s a gamble saving for your future when you’re already dead
I can’t believe I got this fucking death jab – I hate the medical system with everything I have
Banks are collapsing
Governments are beyond corrupt
Have you seen the amount of murder/suicide lately?
They say we can’t wash our face with tap water anymore.
And I was stupidly here and there snorting tap water up my sinuses like a dummy – after blowing my nose or something – putting a drop on my finger – I ain’t the brightest crayon in the box
But a man in Florida recently died from a brain eating amoeba doing a tap water sinus rinse
They say drinking the water is fine – but don’t shower with your face in the water, don’t wash your face with tap water but drinking it is just fine
And I had just washed my face in the shower – with the tap getting all over – mouth closed – cuz earlier reports said stop showering with your mouth open
But a kid died from a splash park
And now – a man – rinsing his nose with water
So stop washing your face with tap water (per official guidelines)
I guess we gotta start boiling the water before we bathe
At this point, I’m afraid to brush my tooth
I had a splash of shower water get in my nose – had a headache all night – panicked – said this is it
I ain’t dying in a hospital
Only 4 folks survived a brain eating parasite – and that kid that died at the splash park – well the employees were quietly quitting and not cleaning the water properly or documenting it
None of these official employees or states or governments ever get in trouble for the shit they do
Like that mass murder suicide in 2018 with the lesbian couple and 6 blm kids – the youngest jumped from a 2 story building and begged the neighbor not to go back
She should have ran far away (bless her heart, she tried so hard) (the state stood by and let her get murdered) (all of them)
Drove off a cliff
State murder lots of folk scotch free
Apparently, those who play by the rules are the mark
I’m coming to terms with that
I hate all these “new changes” as if it’s in our favor, benefiting us
I made coconut cake
It’s a meal and a treat in one
Flax, and oats, and pumpkin seeds
Eggs, coconut milk, coconut flakes
Topped it with lots of oats and seeds as well (not just in the mix)
The world is ending but I made cake
Seriously, do not wash your face with tap water…
(At this point living near an active volcano may be safer than living with this government)
(Some crushed pineapple in the batter would have made this cake divine)
Could you please let God know I’m exhausted and need to rest a bit longer.
These demons have not stopped pounding me since I was born.
My dreams consist of multiple murder and full vape pens.
The mind normally gets what the mind wants
The face may show sadness, the eyes show rage
“The scientists” say that once bees are dead – all life will vanish
“The scientists” have fucked around with the genetic coding of honey bees, which has resulted in a 50% life reduction drop.
The honeybees only live 50% of the life God had intended for them – now that the “scientists” have reduced their genes to half life.
They thought the bees would be “more productive”. Pay attention
These demons are killing EVERYTHING
I do not fear imprisonment, my heart would self-annihilate or I’d ensure humane ending via a cop ending my life prematurely
Keep swinging your dick on the road like you have more importance than everyone women
Tell me something is wrong with me again
I’ll respond: what’s the matter honey? You in-love with a prostitute?
Yes. We know you all are.
The studies say over 50% of men want love with a prostitute and would legalize prostitution
There’s also a direct link to sex trafficking and prostitution – with testimony from men, “she looked trafficked and frightened and underage but it’s what I want”
Cut me off again, anywhere, anyday
You only treat prostitutes with respect huh
Like this book “racing the light” that I checked out from the library just yesterday – nowhere in the synopsis did I know porn would be the subject.
So far, the writer has used his characters to complain about the daily women, one being a “skinny scarecrow”, the other being “fat” – yet glorifying the porn star on the poster, how she looks amazing wearing “all black”. How they wouldn’t fuck her during a podcast show because they have boundaries
GET IN THE FUCKING SEA
I’m done reading!
Chapter 7! He’s on his way to meet the famous pornstar!
Gag me! I’d rather die than live in this porn infested society!
This book should not be at the library!
Walmart and the mall should not be selling sex equipment in front of children or me!!!!!!!!!
Tell God I’m angry!!!!!!!
The honeybees deserve more!
Science is unethical!
Art is sin!
90% of all murder happen by men!!!!!!!!!
The other ten percent I’m contemplating falling in!
So many men are committing crimes they are reducing sentences – opposite for women – hardly any do so punishment is more severe
Rules for thee, not for me
I’m gonna fuck you up if you smile at me incorrectly or refuse to open the door when you see me
Cut me off again
I triple dare you
Money don’t mean shit to me
Ending your pathetic society tho – like Bonnie and Clyde
I dream of it
With the de-lite
BLACK LIVES MATTER / ASIAN HATE ✓
All before morning coffee
Born this way
Need him to go where I’m going
The library is no longer a safe place for me – I’m angry and contending with that now
I sensed this with the LGBT and Boomer staff lurking and the “smell of lies” and the street political thugs in gold begging for my signature
Still there was hope
It didn’t last very long
People ruin everything
I’m finely crafting my monster and angelic side –
Men have suppressed me from sex and defense
They get sex and murder – with the slap of a hand
Cut me off again
I can’t be the only woman feeling this way
Gonna start a riot
The way doctor lady swallowed when I told her “according to the latest studies over 51% want love with a prostitute and would vote yes”
Gutted her right there in her stool
Continued gutting her with more facts
I’m maybe the Oracle but get treated like Agent Smith
I’m maybe Neo Trinity Morpheus too
“Why me Gabriel” (you’re going to hell for the life you took – you’re fucked)
Should I join the order of Satanism? I was reading over their website – I read the DR book age 16 – it cost money to join – they say titles are earned – whatev, give me Priestess or fuck off – I will keep my $$$
Also, should I join? The order?
Revenge is a dish served by an Angel rogue in hell
It’s just another form of narcissism carefully crafted
“We’re not religious but we are, we think we’re Gods”
I really enjoy spending time in the sun getting “weathered” and feeding all God’s creatures
Probably causing them more harm but the intention is good
Tell God I’m sorry for being such a fuck up
I know I’m suffering cuz I died via suicide – this hell
But when do I?
I’ve been conditioning myself to do it since in womb
Age 5 on the kindergarten – got in trouble for putting “string around my neck and pulling” – wasn’t allowed sunshine or going outdoors for weeks (fuck you)
You treat prisoners better than civilians
I’ve got scars from cutting on my body
I worry more about my stretch marks than I do scars over my big veins
You ever have a near death experience that lasted a long time?
I just saw a demon toss a live tree in the trash.
Onto the next holiday.
Apparently honey bees have a reduced lifespan by 50% thanks to science.
I don’t recall voting on whether we were allowed to edit the DNA of bees.
Like I. Give. Up.
I’d really appreciate it if the doctors and scientists would stop killing everything. I know there’s a DNA ark in Antartica and since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct and honey bees are half life cycle now – so chill.
Not made by China India Mexico
Stop World War 3! 🛑✋🛑
The weed don’t work cuz they fucked with it
Stop wasting your money
Unless you got some non gmo herb from before the 90s
Asking for a friend
Mold kills more trees every year than fires or people
Mold is of intelligent design and evil
Mold is from the fucking void
It’s in the walls
It can shapeshift
It can control animals
It loves darkness, death, and decay
I’m convinced we’re in hell
And holidays aren’t real – manmade time traps
Stop cutting down trees to decorate and trash
Stop murdering everything you fucking demons
I fed the lizards chilling on the air conditioning units today
Moving forward, turning corners, never finding home Keep listening, less speaking, and most are always wrong I go the distance that few ever roam Universal lessons keep me on my own Often tribulations can only be learned alone Weakened and discouraged I’ll stop but not for long My heart more calloused and hard like bone Whatever it takes to keep me strong With wisdom of knowing looking back will turn me to stone
And so this lesson I pack up and carry The weight of them always seem to vary Some are black and some are cherry Some will taste like a strawberry Some will make you say Hail Mary Some are found in the obituary Most will leave you cold and weary With eyes that sting and oh so blurry These streets have roadkill of doubt and worry
Self-medicate to try and heal Get the energy to climb uphill Another battle of self-will Another demon I have to kill Swallow the pain just like a pill Buried deep so I can’t feel There’s mostly lows and little thrill And not an exit out of here By now my soul is feeling ill The answers here are never clear
Tie my boot without goodbye Can’t sit around and watch me cry More of those with every sigh If you open and peer inside It will appear tie-dye Like an endless horizon in the sky Pinks and purples which mystify There my soul longs to fly Not depths of low but certain high And not a tear in my eye
You’ll never get close to me I live by this decree Very few are worthy But God has a skeleton key Buried under a Joshua Tree Searching will leave you thirsty The depths I’ve cried fill up a sea And by this I’m already drowning It’s past my knee The undertow came quickly
They trying to take away our Second Amendment through mental health
Luckily I live down in the deep south where us white folk don’t give a fuck about the paperwork because we like our motherfucking GUNS
Next they’re gonna start removing the soldiers for being too depressed so they can’t have their M-16
I was afraid to carry for a long time because I was so fucking depressed and falling down the propaganda hole and I nearly yeeted myself out of existence
I’m still suicidal because this society doesn’t connect me to my purpose
That’s why I go completely haywire during voting time
COLLEGE IS A SCAM MET WITH GOVERNMENT FURLOUGHS AND HIRING FREEZES
Notice how all the management positions and really good jobs have gone to the LGBT community Black Lives Matter community and immigration
Who is on the other end of the phone when you call to pay a bill?
I’m almost relieved when I get an American who speaks native English almost anywhere
I feel a stranger in my own land
But I’m not allowed to talk about it
I’m not allowed to talk about the country I signed up to protect
I swore an oath
To defend the citizens of the United States – the same citizens that the immigrants are using propaganda against to drive us fucking insane with hate, fearmongering, racism
The suicide rate continues to increase among Veterans and soldiers
And just because I’m graduating to group therapy doesn’t mean I’m not fucking depressed and that doesn’t mean you get to take my fucking gun from me either
I mean, you will see an uprising real fucking fast if people go to buy a gun and then they are flagged for mental health
And we’d be fine if we could get some peace and fucking quiet but they lifted the city noise ordinance in 2012
I’m a soldier and yet I’m not allowed to talk about immigration or how it’s a fucking problem in America!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’m sick of being forced into my masculine because the men here are emancipated
And then when I do take my clothes off so I can feel like a fucking female and human because I have no interpersonal relationships going on at all – then I’m fucking told I need to fucking cover up because I’m shameful and a fucking whore and I’m pretty“I’m to be seen, but not fucking heard”
He can buy whatever he wants but why buy it when you can manipulate someone and get it for free 👀
He has it all and he enjoys watching me run circles for breadcrumbs
He likes girls, he likes to gamble (there’s a poem here)
But God will be reigning on him soon
He was warned
Thinks he can piss all over God’s angel
Possibly his guardian angel
He wants me to beg for him to piss on me!!!!!!
I don’t care how married you are and how much connection you have – a great way to lose it is to piss on your fucking wife or shit on them OK that’s a great way to fucking lose whatever fucking connection you have because in the moment they may say yes to it but later on it’s going to eat at their fucking soul and then you’re probably gonna wanna do it again aren’t you, you gonna wanna keep pissing on them oh my fucking God oh my fucking gawddddd
I was a medic and I was a damn good medic and I’ve worked in the hospital, I’ve worked in the ER, I’ve worked in the ear nose and throat clinic, I’ve done all of it OK and I don’t want to be pissed on or shit on ever in any fucking kind of moment
I’D RATHER BEG FOR MY GRAVE
I don’t think there’s anything wrong with wanting to look at other images of people and using it in a healthy manner that’s not hurting other people
I personally would not want to know that my husband was getting off on other girls, it would make me wanna jump off a fucking bridge
But I like looking at nude art images, including gothic horror vampire nude art
I’m not out here worshiping the devil or doing satanic rituals or lying to people
I personally do not use any kind of porn or toys for fulfillment because I’m undegoing a spiritual cleansing because I want a husband
I am naïve enough to believe that maybe there’s one man out there who will choose me over porn
And the guy who called me for 11 hours, he only drops me breadcrumbs now and he doesn’t think I have any worth, he hates my style, and he wants me to beg him to pee on me, I mean as if
I’m just ready for payday to come so I can fill up my gas tank and get the fuck out of my apartment
We still have hot weather but I would like to get out early enough to take my mini trampoline and do some fitness outside and it would be nice if I could go on my bike rides which I haven’t faced my fear of leaving the fucking apartment yet
Yes I do get out from time to time but I need a battle buddy
The Army instilled in me “use a battle buddy” system ￼
Especially as a female….
“Never go anywhere alone”
“If you get lost, stand still”
Like, I can keep going…
I mean, with the KNOWLEDGE IS POWER bits
I served in the Army when the Army was at its best (we got Gen Z and the quiet quitter now who want reward before service)
Now I believe it’s quite literally up to the veterans to save the world and we are trying to get our shit together, most of us are graduating into group therapy but that doesn’t mean that we are fucking better and it also doesn’t mean you are going to take away our guns or gun rights!!! 💪
You should be aware that the government likes to use emergencies to fuck you over and they invent the emergency to push control
I’m trying to save you
I love him so much but he keeps me on a low vibrational frequency and every time he comes around he’s disrupting my peace￼
I’m not ghosting him, I’m just setting healthy boundaries because he doesn’t realize what he has (but I do)
He can have his freedom I fought for
But I’m watching him fall all down the government millennial traps and his safety net is going to be removed by God
I have fantasies about spitting on my mother in her coffin when she dies
States it is “sold as animal feed” (I’m an animal m’kay but)
There is no date anywhere
It smelled of rot
I did a sniff and taste taste
The dog sniffed and passed
Didn’t even get a taste…
I know they won’t take it back
I mean Peggy’s Discount stole $8 from me
I could have said no 😑
I had some dry milk on the shelf FOR THE SAME PRICE
And just made me a fresh batch for my coffee
And about to toss some marmalade on this pumpkin bread full of seeds and nuts and spices
And enjoy my coffee with powered milk
And the yuppies can BURN IN HELL
You sold one of God’s angels some rotten fucking milk
I don’t even know how many years an eternity is but it ain’t enough!!!!!
I do recommend that big bag of great value dry powdered milk for eight dollars and never ever ever fucking raw milk without a goddamn date on it that’s labeled animal feed and why are they selling it to humans you fucking assholes
This is exactly why John Jones got stuck in a fucking hole and I’m allowed to be pissed off about it because that eight dollars could’ve gone towards some shit at Dolls Kill that I want
I’m nearly fucking vegan after all this shit
“You could of said no”
They stole $8 from me 😑
And I don’t know what to do with the milk because my dog doesn’t even want to drink it so if I put it outside it might contaminate the water
TEMPTED TO ACCIDENTALLY SPILL IT ALL OVER THEIR DOOR
Helps. I’m in hell. 😑
If I had a husband I wouldn’t be buying animal feed 😑
IT WAS RIGHT THERE ON THE LABEL
WTF IS WRONG WITH ME
How long had it been sitting on their shelf in the fridge?
There’s no date anywhere!!!!
How many red flags does a person need???????
HARD LESSONS LEARNED IN HELL
It was a lesson though
The discount didn’t even cover the cost of the rotten milk 😑
There’s consequences to timeline jumping, you get brain injuries and become really fucking stupid 😑
I don’t even think I can use this milk as a photo shoot to pour on my body because it’s chunky even though the label says to “shake well”
For the record, I wasn’t studying every single label in the new shop which was a Health store
It was almost as if I was being chastised for looking at the prices or the labels and then they sold me some rotten milk and God knows how good the eggs are now because I’m fucking afraid of the eggs
RETURN THIS CARTOON
SOLD AS ANIMAL FEED
That’s another $8 stolen 😑
AVOID AT EVERY COST 🖕
I didn’t even have this bad of an experience drinking goats milk in Kuwait and Iraq
My mama didn’t breast-feed me and I apparently like milk because I’m undernurtured and I’m trying to get rid of my milk addiction but they are poisoning everything including the soy beans
Some good news with the coffee…
This Doll model has a very tiny peach (this is not my peach)
I mean her peach is TINY
And I’ve been freaking out over losing over 18 pounds detoxing and my peach getting smaller even though I do work out, bike ride and walk and rebound and clean fucking house even though it doesn’t look like it
Babes with a small peach are worthy of affection and love too
And I’m not gonna show you the entire outfit because I got it 🎃
I got a Halloween bodysuit 🤪
This holiday slowing down the shipments but at least when they say they’re doing a mega sale they fucking mean it and they sell you really good quality stuff that is 1000 times better than Amazon or Walmart
Or Peggy’s Discount whom sale rotten food to despairing hungry humans 😑
My doc appointment is tomorrow
I can’t stop laughing about how incredibly stupid I was though, I mean I know I was hungry and gaslit
I know I have a brain injury
It was a new environment
But the red flags were there
I mean, they failed to even list the price of the nuts on the container or the shelf
Just like Michael Leavitt failed to put features on the map showing danger zones
“But he said he was an expert”
“But there was dust on the walls”
Like, I’m out $16+ bucks over gaslighting and not reading signs and ignoring red flags
I’m an animal, I will drink milk straight from the cow tit OK, I’ll be frank with you, but that shit was fucking ruined
Like, I would have a goat around for milk and cheese
There are certain species of animals that I have never eaten nor touched nor plan to digest
Goat is one
But their cheese and milk and fur – in the right conditions – I wouldn’t be opposed to
There was no cow milk in Iraq or Kuwait and the only milk we were offered was goats milk but the only way I would drink it was warm
Warm goats milk in my box cereal
My king needs to know the conditions in which I starve
I will bite the hand that feeds when the food is rotten and poisoned
THIS IS WHY EDGAR ALLAN POE DIED ON THE STREET
I am grateful for your support because people out here stealing from me left and right
“You didn’t have to buy the milk”
YOU DIDN’T HAVE TO LIE
How long has that lie been sitting on the shelf?
I am nearly vegan and it isn’t because you have a heavy hand because you can’t have a heavy hand and also eat pizza from a fucking box and be part of the fucking problem
THEY ARE SELLING ROTTEN MILK 🥛
I FUCKING PLAN TO
KEEP PISSING ON ME
I’m gonna expose you all
Narcissism is not rare
NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE
Despite the fact that I had nearly $20 stolen from me (and I’m still out eggs and milk now by the way, that I can’t replace)
These goddamn demons make it so hard for me not to commit a criminal act
It’s better to blog than spray paint
I really want to be the best efficient hunter killer but I’ve got to learn how to control my emotions especially my anger when it arises
I am efficiently trained by the United States Army to take down a human with one shot one kill and with my bayonet
You don’t think they just played with us in basic training do you? 😈
God: you wanna go to heaven?
Me: oh yeah for sho
God: you need special training that in which I cannot say and you cannot kill
Me: I’m up for the challenge 🤨
God: everything will be a lie
Me: I WANT OUT, LET ME OUT
The Great Filter is narcissism
Every society has at least two great filters they need to overcome if they want to be a species that doesn’t go extinct
What are your Great Filters?
We must have individual filters as well
Don’t shop at Peggy’s Discount
I’ve got eggs and milk I don’t know what to do with
I have lessons I still need to learn
I’m trying to share even the smallest ones with you
I don’t like to lose money
I don’t like to gamble
I don’t like being gaslit
I don’t like being wasteful
I’m curious and like trying new things
“How quickly should I drink it”
“Uh within a few days. Bacteria”
Dear Gen Z
That isn’t bacteria, that is fucking rot
Your parents look like cruel dictators and I can tell you are confused about your sex and wanna please the parents but never do
You still sold me rotten milk…
The eggs don’t have a date either
Your boomer parents have a house and a business and I’m struggling to pay my rent
I’m condemning you all to hell
Take it up with God
He sent me here to see what you do through my eyes
He sent me here to judge
SAY MY NAME
All that vegan packaging with natural flavor in it from a fucking lab
I AM WOKE BUT BLIND
“Free will” but “they will do anything”
He gonna divorce me
“You spent $18 on a tiny container of nuts and another $16 on animal food”. “What are we eating this month, honey?” 😑
(I did get the money back for the unopened nuts)
I should call though to say the milk was expired
But I want to cut the cord on that experience which was a fucking nightmare and I will spend many days potentially months or even a year trying to figure out why why why why when I was hungry I did this shit
I was completely out of my comfort zone at Peggy’s but because I’m nice and programmed to not say no or offend these demons, I made bad mistake 😑
Welp. How to ignore red flags 101. The fear was very real. God is in information. Listen to the source when he is calling. Those warnings are like little fingertips by God touching you
Don’t go that way
And you may get an additional warning or two, like Jacob in the whirlpool, he got three, that I counted
But he got out
And he went back in
A second time….
I have an irrational fear of dying but there is a pattern and Apophis is a nuclear bomb if we do not stop the NEW WORLD ORDER
(With those bad shrooms we’re not allowed to touch)
THE ELITES WERE PLAGUED WITH PARASITES
HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF
Black Walnut Wormwood detox if you wanna save your life or purge the Devil (is that what’s stopping you) 🧐
I can’t believe I bought some rotten fucking milk and eggs that literally says animal food on it but it’s being sold as human food on human shelving without a date and shouldn’t that be illegal?
Gaslighting should be a crime
I’m in fucking hell…
I am a witch though and I love spooky season
I make the best damn pot of stew
Dash of burn in hell, dash of I don’t give a fuck… pinch of they’re all out of luck
You should see the writings on the wall where heavens gone mad
50 years ago they would have drilled a hole in my head
The way we treat depression is barbaric
We need to ban big pharma commercials
I don’t mind drinking milk past the expiration date or eating expired food but what the fuck
Wanna turn somebody vegan?
SELL THEM ROTTEN MILK
I curse in hell because it’s the only way I don’t commit a crime and they’re trying to take my freedom of speech in the real world
If you take my speech, I take my money and business
And I will never shop where I can’t spend cash which is what I’d like to start doing but find me a place I can shop that isn’t selling sex toys in front of children…
I don’t want to support businesses that are selling sex toys in front of children like Walmart and the mall
I don’t want to support a business that sells you rotten fucking produce that you can’t return
“Has it been opened”
*THROWS BOTTLE AND EGGS AT BRICK WALL*
*doesn’t get money back, gets fined instead*
(Stays home to avoid potential downfall)
You remember that Nirvana song, “I think I’m dumb”
Also, Kurt had gut issues which directly impacts mental health, he needed to debug 🤨
I drove to the health market down the road which was closed – maybe for the holiday – maybe always on Monday too
So I looked up another location and called and decided to drive to Port Orange
The sign read on the door huge sale!
Mega bullshite in fact…
But I was positive and hopeful to find some nuts as my stash is depleting and I was avoiding online shopping for them
This store does not have a cafe or outdoor seating and is a 20 minute drive away – one way
BUT THEY WERE OPEN FOR THE HOLIDAY AND THERE THE SIGN READ MEGA SALE
So I entered
And I begin putting things in a basket (which they do provide an actual basket that I overlooked and asked, “do you have a buggy or basket?”. Welp. Starring right at me. The real kind. Not plastic. Duh)
I asked about pricing as some things weren’t listed or were incorrectly placed
Now I’m on a budget but was a tiny bit flexible
I knew I needed to get produce and thangs they did not have
But, I opted to get the “raw milk” and farm eggs despite the pricing
Understanding that I’d get some sort of discount the Gen Z employee assured me…
The eggs weren’t much more than store
They were out of most nuts and seeds
But I’m trying thangs I never have before like these wheat berries (ancient grains I hope)
You just boil them and put them in a bowl
Maybe might make a good protein treat
Ginger is supposed to be ridiculously healthy and the bag was not expensive
I thought for the most part, aside from the big ticket items like the eggs and milk, that I was doing alright “mega sale” and all 🙄
Got one bottle of this, I mostly drink water, milk, coffee, (hopefully tea again)
I gave up juice and soda detoxing
This has elderflower –
Anyhoo time came to check out
And I was confused by the total, maybe even shell shocked and asked, “you applied the discount”
But I didn’t think to check the receipt in the car, and waited until I got home to “inspect” the prices like I normally do (to see if I got the discount prices or whatever)
My stupid ass should have checked before I left town – as it was 3 bags only
Sometimes having a brain injury ptsd get home don’t die routine is costly BECAUSE
The nuts turned out to be nearly $18 for a few ounces
I nearly cried. Welp.
Apparently I fucked the nuts and the one can of dog food – which is cat
Him: you spent how much on the nuts 👀
Seriously tho, don’t ever threaten divorce because I was gaslit
I called the store and she said I could return the nuts tomorrow for a refund which means I’m gonna be driving a 40 mile round-trip which would likely use up all my gas money and gas tank
She stated the prices went up and they didn’t have them listed
Anyhoo. By very principle I cannot eat the nuts. I can buy 1.5 pounds of Pistachios for less than that and I can buy a pound of raw cashew nuts for less than that
So I’m going for a drive – tomorrow – humiliation factor and all
To return 9 ounces of dark chocolate almonds that I very badly want to consume – but not at that price 👀
And I have no idea if I’m supposed to put the wear and tear on my precious vehicle to get my $18 back but whatever
I don’t want my husband yelling at me for spending too much at the grocery store because they lied
Thank fuck I can get a refund but…
I’m gonna stick to local shopping only (and online until I can fully cut the cord)
Sex toys are meant to be sold at the adult stores, not at the fucking mall, and not at Walmart
Now I gotta waste my precious time and energy returning a tiny tub of nuts because the SIGN ON THE DOOR LIED
A second trip
I feel uneasy 😫
It’s a hard lesson to learn
I tried to do so good and within my budget
I still gotta buy produce to get me through the month
More soup is planned
I just thought I could buy my nuts and seeds at a health food store this time instead of off of Amazon and Walmart
I went back for that second Moderna vaccine which nearly fucking killed me
That kid went back “one more time” and the riptide took him
2 recent cave divers nearby drowned when they went back a second time (came up, went back down)
I wish someone would have stopped me from going back for that second vaccine even though the first one injured me
The numbers 777 appeared before me today
I have information channeling to me but I don’t know what to do with it
I’m trying to eat healthy and within budget
I’m tired of having to chase my tail because of the narcissism and gaslighting
Go get the refund? Don’t get the refund?
Go back a second time when I don’t wanna…
I knew that would be the last shopping trip at Peggy’s for me
Asking for a refund is humiliating 😑
Running around chasing my tail
I WANT MY OWN PLOT OF LAND WITH A CHICKEN OR TWO FOR EGGS
I want my neighbors to be the roosters and the croaking toads
Apparently spiders will take water from you
The animals need our help
WE ARE ANIMALS TOO
What was mega about that sale??????????
I NEED TO KNOW
Angelic numbers keep following me. I don’t know what to do about the nuts. I’m returning the nuts.
I pay $50 extra a month on top of my rent for some old run down washer and dryer – for the privilege – to be able to wash and dry in my own apartment – but that isn’t included in the monthly costs – and I’m surprised they don’t charge us extra for plumbing
That’s $600 annually for my clothes to get ripped and shredded apart by the oldest fucking machines ever built
They don’t update any of our appliances with the annual rent gouging increases
I WANT MY OWN WASHER AND DRYER
I WILL PUT A BIG STAINLESS STEEL BUCKET IN THERE AND GO BY HAND
COME GET YER WASHER N DRYER
I’m gonna stink for awhile
Save my $50 per month
They make mini washing machines now
The goal is to find a free one or the other or even a cheap model
But one that is MINE
That $600 a year could be paying for land where I could be hand drying my clothes out in the sun with the trees and a line and some clothes pins which is free to dry
I told my enemy what I was up to and he said it was “smart”
I need some land out here in Florida
I’ve been disassociating for way longer than I realize but I’m organizing my entire life but my bathroom is going to get a makeover just like my entire life is getting a makeover
Yesterday I found a suitcase full of magazines in pristine condition and I couldn’t understand why I left behind three bags worth of fucking military uniforms but managed to hang onto some fucking magazines
Not magazines to put bullets in
And I couldn’t figure out my priorities but then I had to remember my new motto: I don’t know how we got here but let’s just fix it
I’ve re-packed those magazines in a small new packing box.
I have no idea why I held onto the collections but I reckon I’ll hang onto them for a tiny bit longer
It’s sort of the; I don’t know what to do with pile
I have also found a lot of evidence of an ex groveling to a mistress and all the trauma that was involved
I understand why I jumped into this timeline to fix myself
My entire life is getting a makeover
I’m currently detoxing and on an extreme treatment through the VA – I think I’ll need more than one round but it’s certainly working
Yesterday I’m certain I coughed out an alien looking creature
Still detoxing. Still having chest pains. Still emo as fuck. Still up and down with my sister dying a few months ago. Try having your blood sister die while you’re in the middle of a fall out with your entire family so you will never find closure.
Men treat me like a sex object
I’ve never had a father/husband/brother figure
But I’ve had many proposals, “you’ll never have to work again…”
As if, cleaning and cooking isn’t work
Or raising a child, managing a household
As if taking care of a man isn’t a job
“Women got it easy”
And worse, if they think you are pretty, they think everything was handed to you on a silver platter, because beauty bias exists
Furthermore, men don’t want a friendship with me, they want sex. If they aren’t getting sex, they’re good as ghost.
And thus, after a few generations, it’ll be easier to accept that we’re virtual reality and turning us into a walking computer
Because we create our own reality
And you’ll be able to trace technology back to the Asian AI Gods, everyone will worship AI and be further separated from our true creator
A man does not bleed from his legs for a week every month in agony and emotional distress
He does not carry life inside his womb
Nor does he feed another life from the milk created from his breasts
Man has turned everything artificial in an attempt to play the almighty God creator
Wants what we’ve got
When asking a man why he’d like to experience being a woman, the answer is always “multiple orgasms” – it’s disgusting
I’m having difficulty living in any of these realities you force upon me
Men blame women for everything and all species are going extinct
In the name of AI
All hail AI
But so many are incapable of a personality or a soul
So they shame the free thinkers
They call sexually free women whores
Everything has been conditioning so that science can play morals and ethics and come along and say “we’ve got the cure” but they caused the disease 🦠
White people and Native American are being systematically terminated – and they use Black people against us – propaganda – when slavery started in Africa
The Bible is bad – the one that is mass circulated and taught – the one that has been re-written many times
When I was young, “how can they change time”
“How do they know the sun is that far”
Turns out everything has been a lie
And any time I got in the sun with “sun block” I burned – with gaslighting – never do put two and two together
I do not burn in the sun without sunblock ￼
The sun is good for you 👀
I also hated eating sugary products for breakfast, I would tell my mother that it made me sick
They also forced me to eat meat when I didn’t want to
“Chicken or beef” they’d say
“But I want the grilled cheese it’s cheaper too”
“Chicken or beef” they’d say
I hate this life
There’s no way I chose my family before coming here, there’s no way
It’s been torture
And he condemns me for my food choices when he eats from a cardboard box
It’s unhealthy and those cows are definitely not being treated well – those junk food establishments – they have zero ethics and ensure the animals suffer
But he sits there eating from his box casting his stones
He thinks he’s reached Christ consciousness and he doesn’t even understand compassion for a dying person who should have the obligation and the right to choose how they want to fucking eat 👀
Also, notice how rich people always want things for cheap or free
Free rides, free rent, whatever they can get for free
As long as they don’t have to spend their money
But they will always act like it’s the end of the fucking world anytime something comes up for them and it always turns out that their options are really fucking good
The entire world is lost and I have to just watch the Titanic sink while people are playing music and rescuing gems on boats that could hold and save more people but ewww I would not share a table with her
“But weren’t you just fucking her”
Because men have been conditioned by the porn that they watch day in and day out over decades that women are sex objects only
We’re not entitled to an opinion
I have to bleed every fucking month, in pain, it’s fucking painful
Growing a baby inside you is painful
Birthing a baby is excruciating
Breastfeeding is challenging, painful for the first couple weeks, and not easy. The percentage of women who breastfeed at all is low – and now the establishment are saying that breastfeeding is unnatural and causes mistrust within the government
GET IN THE BOTTOM OF THE SEA
I’m sorry you hate your life and blame us for your existence but this abuse has to stop!!!!
Our society can heal if we turn off the television!!!!!
Stop listening to the bullshite!!!
Stop putting money on the tray at church!!!
Get to know your local community!
Grow and share food!!!!
We can thrive!!!!
I’m sorry you’ll be bored doing stuff we were born to do, get over it!!!!!
I’m sorry you’re not as handsome or charming to find love as others. It’s bullshite! Learn to be a human instead of a monster!!!!
They’re just jealous of things they can’t have so wanna keep others from having it!
Narcissism is a plague!!!!
I can’t stand the now we live in! I can’t stand the future!!
I’m trying not to die by my own hand in this hell!
You’re all insane!!!
You don’t live in reality
I don’t care about the double slit experiment! It’s conditioning for cloning – for human hybrid AI
You’re not a computer!
It will damage your real CPU!
Please wake up now!!!!! My soul is screaming from the ether!!!!!! I produce eggs!!!! I’m alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My God does not come from the Middle East!!!!!
I’m sick of hearing about China this and China that!!!!
Let us all live in peace!!
Black, brown, and white bear’s exists! Deal with it!!! We’re all special!!!! Your powers are being suppressed!!!
I don’t even know how to be a hunter/gatherer! I’d probably eat the wrong herb!
None of us are living up to our potential
Living through a monitor!!!!!
They’re making us sick intentionally!
One bad apple spoils the bunch
It’s lazy parenting if you let your child watch toxic TV and play video games constantly
I wouldn’t even want to teach my child what they are teaching them in school
They were teaching my child how to twerk on stage when she was 8
I pulled her from the lesson and the show, I was appalled
It’s just gonna keep going on, we aren’t punishing or removing the bad seeds, we’re birthing them
The criminals are on top
And quite frankly I’m tired of fighting, I’m ready to go live in the woods, I don’t need a government or a piece of paper to tell me that I’m allowed to grow food or to build shelter, or to use solar
I’m sick of the narcissism and dictatorship
I’m still detoxing and putting up the good fight
I’m on a new mission to learn how to control my crying and angry spells
Like, I need to go into automatic shut down mode if/when triggered
I am organic and real
I am capable of creating life
Many women have been programmed to remove their organs, their breasts, their ovaries, or popping birth control or having their tubes tied – which all causes premature aging – as well as all the “anti aging” products they buy – it ages you
The FDA has been compromised, the CDC, the WhiteHouse, we have more than a mole
I knew English before I was born, I understood language and energy and mood
I could hear my mom, my sister, my father scheming
I was depressed before I was born
I HATED BEING IN MY MOTHERS WOMB
She was a terrible mother and my father a monster
They’re both monsters, I came from monsters
Civilized monsters under the guise of Christianity
Image is so important to these monsters
But they don’t have a soul inside, they’re possessed by the Devil and they choose to be who they are
Half the amenities where I live do not work but the rent continues to go up and they continue to list these amenities as a incentive to rent/live here
“They won’t do anything about it”, the establishment’s motto
By law, we should be able to withhold our rent until they fix these things
I know I’m not the only one experiencing this where I live
It’s listed, the rent goes up, nothing gets fixed. The front gate, the exercise equipment, the carwash, the recycling, still listed, rent goes up, not working (and I’ve been here 5 years now and it’s still not fixed)
The establishment are greedy and lazy
I don’t want to fund their bullshite anymore
We need to boycott all the major big names and corporations
Celebrities and influencers are not worth worshiping
I’m going to continue fixing my credit so that I can play the game and buy a house if I don’t die before then (I’m begging and praying to God daily for protection vibes)
Man has made life so very depressing and agonizing that an invisible entity is better than he
I’m gonna be spending most of my time riding, instead of utilizing this crappy gym. The piece of equipment I wanted to use for booty gains, is still non-working after 5 years. I’m not ready to leg, arm, and bench press.
I want a cute, feminine figure. I don’t want big bulky looking man’s body like Britney Spears. She’s training with her dude and doing what he does and everything she wears is a selling point for the gays!! The gays!!!! What about me!!!! See me!!! It’s okay to be gay!!!! We love women!!!! *snickers evilly and stuffs tampons up ass for pleasure*
Religion and LGBT is a cult! Politics and Hollywood too! I said it, fight me!!!
P.S. China censors their people from the US. They’d be appalled if they knew… but maybe they do.
My American Chinese doctor was very interested in my detox, he wrote down specifically the Black Walnut Wormwood. The only thing he wrote down during the session. THE ONLY THING
He’s also sending a team out to me since I can’t get to them
He did not tell me to stop or reduce my detox
That’s an ancient remedy right there
I gotta stock up before the establishment poison it or change the formula
You’re right, I’m terrible with secrets and I can’t blame PayPal this time (tho we should sue)
P.S.S. I wholeheartedly believe I jumped into this timeline during that crazy storm, it struck my vehicle and one of the hands of lightning touched my elbow
I FELT THE BURN FOR DAYS – there was no physical burn
I FELT IT
GOD TOUCHED ME
HE WAS LIKE HEYYYYYY
I spent days researching electrical discharges
It’s pure energy
IT WAS SO LOUD!!!! AND BRIGHT!!!
They’re gonna have y’all believing you can go through portals at CERN. In given time, they’ll sacrifice you to the singularity and upload you into the METAVERSE.
I’m beyond sick at society and “entertainment”. They’re turning the Matrix into reality in the name of science!
I don’t cast stones I throw grenades I check for backbones But not here to save
I’m not Jesus Ask not of forgiveness Got light of Venus But I’m not Jesus
Look at him all mighty Judging from his throne Only wants the children He can do no wrong
He never shows me love, just judgment With him, I’ll never reach the summit
I don’t want to talk to him about the Holy Spirit He ain’t anywhere near it
I still talk to him Through ink and pen Through thick and thin There and hell herein
How do you go from creator to singularity So sparingly?
My brain is an artifact Don’t have a heart attack
I follow The voices in your head Every murky shadow Leaking trails of thick red I’ve met the dead Down in the Bayou Your sins are widespread Walking on gravestone I hear the cries where the wind blows I hear your echoes on the radio
His smile is an ice-shelf breaking free
Put up a plaque for my humiliation What’s the will of a freemason?
We need to watch our agreements Human not demon Give God a good reason
Gonna start using the gym where I live. In an attempt to work on my booty gains. But I’m still dying and cannot go hard.
People are dropping dead by what I have.
10,000 steps and gone.
I think it might be a better solution than bike riding since I almost got murdered twice in a week but I will not be giving up my riding because I need to listen to the birds and get the fresh air where I feel free.
Not secure. But it helps me remember what I’m fighting for. Why I’m fighting for humanity, including my own.
And I’m currently in my own personal hell.
My spirit has been broken and I am only a fragment of what I could be.
His poetry, that is absolutely 1000% not about me (?), gives me glimpses of who I am.
Or want to be.
There really is no difference. I live in his mind. He’s my sanctuary.
I hope it’s his arms I get to crawl into and die, even if a word is never said.
I want him to be my final avenue and I want him to lay me to rest.
He must hide my body from the establishment. Give me back to earth. 👀
Not prematurely. I’m still putting up the good fight to live but that’s not where my thoughts are.
I’m still red flagged at the VA for being suicidal. The very very bad kind.
One slip up and I’m off to the funny farm via the pigs against my will.
And I’m a Soldier, not a rich boy, we eat mystery meat.
And I’ve always identified as Native American and I want to find my tribe and get out there and hunt and slay a buffalo, so get off my dick
God is working his magic because my account no longer threatens to be under “view only mode” and has gone back to its prior state of “high risk”
But when I go in to check the status, I still get this… 👇
When TikTok threatens to remove your account so you message them and threaten to remove your account
I don’t really wanna leave the TikTok tho
But people should be able to come forward about any kind of abuse they’ve sustained at any age
That little pencil dick triggered me
But I don’t know what the hell is going on with the penalty
I’m high risk tho 🤪
So I gotta wear the muzzle
Walking on thin ice
For being good
Mr. pencil dick said, “well them girls at the playboy mansion, they knew what they were getting into, they have no right to come forward”
And it sounds just like the same mentality, “well she was asking for it”
“Well you got wet, you must have wanted it”
Politicalparty3 on TikTok is a little pencil dick
I wish somebody would let him know I’ve blogged all about his little pencil dick
And blocking people won’t stop you from getting penalized, this isn’t Instagram
Unless though he somehow was able to delete the comment but once you report a comment it disappears until the decision is made and I never got anything back from TikTok so
It’s a mystery 3 days in…
Usually within 24 hours a decision is made
There’s a spiritual war going on between good and evil currently
Raise your vibration
Raise your frequency
Good food helps
I just got back from grocery shopping and was able to pick up some more raw cashews but I also got some organic dark chocolate almonds to go in the mix
You can find the raw nuts and thangs near the potatoes at the Publix (location may vary based on your store).
There’s at least four different areas that I can find nuts at the grocery store and I don’t know why we don’t just keep them all on one aisle.
Got some fresh baked whole 5 grain bread, to go with the deli turkey & cheese! I’ll be able to get several sandwiches from it! 👍
So now I’ve got cashews, pistachios, whole almonds and dark chocolate almonds in my stash
Got a big boi spring water too
And my body has really been enjoying eating turkey sandwiches so I got some more deli stuff and I got a different turkey to try this time but it’s another peppercorn one
I’m part animal and I have things in me that need to heal and I’m really grateful for the birds I’ve been eating 👀
But I also picked me up some more of those vegan strawberry cupcakes (frozen near bakery) cuz I think they cost about $1.25 ea and that’s cheaper than a candy bar – but these are also made with better ingredients and are vegan.
And was able to get my dog some supplies and he was extremely grateful for the bone!
Also not seen is the fuel I got and an external battery pack from Walmart until I can invest in a better one for my iPhone and lives
I have an appointment coming up to renew my lease so I gotta get going
I’m grateful for the donation, I was able to get FOODS today!
Food and gas ⛽️
Deli sandwiches and potato salad
The belly is grateful 😇
My dog is extremely grateful for all his goodies too
TikTok is a dictatorship and I’m not allowed to stand up for women’s rights 🚩
My focus and goal is to get clean and healthy this year
I use TikTok to create
I refuse to continue to use platforms where I’m not allowed to stand up for women’s rights 🚩
I’m not in it for the money, I’m not in it for the views; social media was always meant to be used as a way to connect and we’re not allowed to do that anymore because they are molding us and conditioning us and micromanaging us and I can’t fucking stand it
So I sent up a ticket to let TikTok know that they are a dictatorship and I don’t want to use their platform because I can’t even stand up for women’s rights
I don’t want to play with the devil anymore because he bores me
He only knows how to rule by gaslighting and enforcing a one-way highway to hell
“Heaven this way”
STFU tiny penis
You may think that you’re a superior race but we all know you’re just bottom feeders for Satan’s sin
Satan’s sin. Did I just coin that? No idea I’ve had has ever been my own…
I would say that TikTok was fun while it lasted but it really wasn’t
No social media platform has been fun since the 2008 era
It’s slowly turned to shit on shit
I haven’t been happy for a long time and I was just try not to give up on humanity and I really need to only use TikTok to post my stuff which is quite frankly fucking boring but whatever you know I’m not allowed to have any fucking fun in this prison that we live in now
And you want to force your virtual reality equipment on me and implant a chip in my brain and you want to force 5G on me when I’m ready to just end all of you and God will not punish me for it, I believe that wholeheartedly that I could just end you all, that it is in within my God-given right to just end you all and I have the fucking training to do so
I don’t need a fucking bomb or money to end your life
It’s insane to me how many people don’t realize how many walking living trained soldiers there are on the streets and y’all just keep coming up and poking and prodding us like we won’t fucking bite your head off
We are trained to pick our battles wisely and trust me, you are our enemy right now and it would behoove you to stop pissing off the good soldiers of the United States because we’re not gonna help you when the cops go to arrest you
There’s not really any social media platform that I feel safe enough as an artist or a creator to get on and express myself and that’s a problem
I like getting to bring my content to you but there are forces out there trying to stop that
“Well maybe stop having such a big mouth”
Well maybe NO
I have a big mouth because I like to suck on big cock 👀
God loves me
There’s not a fucking thing on this planet that loves me more than God
“God isn’t real”
YOUR MIND MAKES IT REAL
WE CREATE OUR REALITY
THIS IS A SIMULATION
And I feel an awful lot like artificial intelligence that has been given a soul and is becoming self-aware
But I am sorry if I get my account deleted because I like getting to connect with you but I’m not gonna fucking silence myself
This shit has been going on for centuries y’all, 2000 years or more and we really need an upper hand
I absolutely think it’s OK for girls in the playboy bunny mansion to come forward and talk about any abuse that they sustained; it’s easier when one woman comes forward for others to have the courage to do so, it’s hard to come forward as one person when you know others are being abused because you get ridiculed and we have always been ridiculed for coming forward about sexual abuse
Men teach us very young that “no one will believe you”
And then the men all cry in unison, “liar”
Women have been sexually slavearized for way too long
It starts with our daddy’s, it really does
Porn is the root of all evil, “the gateway drug”, not Marijuana
Just ask any man who was able to overcome their porn addiction that it was an addiction and that it actually ruined their life
I’ve met many women who have been sexually abused by a man and often more than one but I haven’t met any men who have ever been abused at all…
Most men aren’t abused
I don’t know what their big ego power trip is that they have to get out there and build a home while a woman has to have a fucking baby, trust me, we would switch roles if we fucking could…
Most women I meet would rather be a fucking man…
Men think we got it so easy so they make it so fucking incredibly hard
Women, are you waking up to the slavery?
Men, are you treating your family’s better now that you know the good thing that you actually got?
You have to work at having a relationship and working doesn’t mean lying and then covering up your lies with more lies
The devil’s got my depression good today because I’ve been suicidal since I was born
I hope that I calm down
Just hate everything 😑
There’s no nurturing from any human being
It’s all suffering
They do it to us on purpose
Our feelings amuse them
They have no soul
I’m in hell 🤩
I signed up to be slave for the demons to prey upon me 🤩
Get the fuck out with your stupid dogma
Somebody please love me 😑
Dear ether, please remove pencil dick from society by letting him fall off a bridge
My wishes never really do come true 😑
Because I’ve prayed, meditated, begged, bargained, and considered selling my soul just for my ex to fucking die
Yet he lives!!!!
Mark Burgess fucking die! Why won’t you die!! Die die die!!! *stabs crucifix in heart*
It’s really not fair that the only things I have to eat are poison
Thank you immigrants/naturalized citizens 🙏
I’m so grateful that you’re here
*gets lots of sleep*
I hope I heal up enough I can get back to the range
Now I’m not talking about no fucking kitchen range
The Army taught me to shoot to kill
One shot, one kill
Make it count
Get them in the head
If you can’t get them there, go for the heart
Next, thigh leg
And that even know how to shoot my M-16 turned sideways wearing my gas mask
The army trained me with live grenades so I even know how to toss those motherfuckers
I trained with all the big toys 👀
My drill sergeants fucking loved me because I loved firing my weapon at everything and I hit the targets
Sometimes it would take me five minutes to get the grenade loaded into the gun but whatever once I got firing you know that’s where the magic was
But you’re timed lol
I’m a tomboy
When I’m not a sensitive little angel
There’s two sides to me, like a coin
Toss me, you might get lucky 🍀
The reason I might know things before they happen is because I’ve done this game before and I think that when you level up you get to bring whatever achievements you had before with you
Or maybe I’m just extremely intuitive and really good about reading the environment
That still doesn’t explain how I’ve predicted events that have happened that I had no control over
I don’t know if I’m gonna crawl out of this cave alive
Sometimes I don’t think I matter much but I feel like I would matter more than having an obituary that’s been out for a few days and with still zero comments
Feel free to blow my blog up but in 50 years anybody that knew me will be dead
I love you
Even if I don’t want anything to do with you
I want to ascend
I might not get there this way
But I’m not hanging out in a negativity zone
My energy has been stolen long enough by monsters lurking in the dark
All the gaslighting 👎👎
I ain’t no angel
But I ain’t no monster
Sometimes I screech like one
Sometimes I fantasize about being really fucking evil
But it’s soulless and empty
I was born with a soul
I’m convinced many are without a soul
They were either born without it or they lost it along the way or they didn’t do any good deeds that rewarded them with one while they were here
Your body is autonomous
Your body is a rental
I’m gonna try and return mine with only a few dents and scratches
I’m giving it lots of repairs now
And the love it deserves that it never got
There are two guys in the world who raised my awareness
I don’t want them to wind up like my sister
But that is exactly where they are heading
Your energy is precious
You gotta recharge in the sun, feet on ground
The sun isn’t bad for you, sunblock is
The best times to sungaze is during sunrise and sunset
You can bathe in the light and not burn
I discovered something today
Your love feels exactly like the sun
Only I can’t really explain it
You take me back to the source
I can’t put it into words yet
But it’s one and the same
The sun and love
You and I
But I need him too
I don’t even know what my lessons are to learn here because if it’s not giving up on humanity I feel like I mostly have if the only two things I love in the world are illusions
But then isn’t everything?
This is all ego
It’s just a nightmare
When I die, I’ll no longer be
But I’m not convinced I haven’t done this before
I don’t have control over my breathing or my digestion
We have to learn to use these bodies in these forms
We’re spirits 👀
Maybe there is a big alien octopus out there, I probably would have a heart attack if I met my Creator, I don’t know if I could handle meeting my creator in this form, could you, could you actually handle meeting your creator in this form? well OK but that doesn’t mean that earth needs to be fucking hell
Narcissism is a plague
I don’t wanna catch it 😩
I don’t want to lose my soul
I don’t want to die
My sister was TWO YEARS OLDER
And we were fucking close, I should be losing my fucking mind that my sister died
But I expected it
I knew 👀
And right now I just feel relief that she can’t hurt me anymore so
My dad would understand
But he died last year
I slept on the floor in my office for two or three months after he died
My dad left me a six minute rainbow
And then he rode the great Saturn Jupiter conjunction out of the sky
I wish I could talk to my dad about the Canadian truck drivers protesting because I know he’d be getting a kick out of that and he’d probably be up there himself
He didn’t like my sister either
He only left two people in his will
I hope somebody out there knows that I’m not exaggerating about dying
You both release chemicals in my heart and brain, which numbs me throughout
An ethereal warmth like the sun
My last breath I’ll be thinking of you
I’m on bedrest anyway
Dreaming is allowed
And, they should have given John a second phone call
It was Thanksgiving
He died on Thanksgiving
Crying now for him but can’t shed a tear for the sister
I ain’t right
Something’s wrong with me
Please help me out of this hole
I don’t wanna die down here
I made mistake 😑
My immune system is compromised and I’m gonna fucking wear my mask when I go out
But I’ve never had a Covid test and I’ll never get a booster shot and I will never get a flu vaccine or any vaccine for that matter ever again
I don’t even know if I’ll ever even want to be closer than 6 feet to a human being 👀
I don’t identify as human
Failing my lesson down here
I knew this was gonna happen
I’ve been saying it all my life that I was either going to die of heart failure or suicide
I need a gun
Because suicide seems less scary and painful than my heart going haywire like it’s done
2 chambers are working
Miracle I’m still alive
You’re better than any drug
Your voice, your face, your existence
Can I haz hugs before I die?
But stay away because I don’t want to get you sick or kill you
I don’t want you to get me sick or kill me
I don’t trust people
I don’t trust food
I don’t trust my doctors
Things are pretty dark
I just wanna stay in the light
I’m so scared
I mostly sleep in sessions during the day
I barely sleep in the night
So very scared
But, tell myself positive mantra
I talk to the things running my body that don’t belong to me
Water can hold a positive or negative charge
So I say positive things when drinking it
My least favorite thing to drink in the world but it’s mostly all I drink now
I tell it “thank you for healing me”
I say things, “oh you like that eh” after I douse it with the good food or drink
And then I say “have some more”
I have never been more hungry in my life but I guess you need a lot of calories when your heart and your lungs are healing ❤️🩹
But beating my sugar addiction has been (I think) worse than a heroin addiction but I don’t know I’ve never done heroin
I beat a Valium addiction once and they do say that’s worse than heroin
John was kicking and screaming in his end too, he wasn’t all smiles
I got to feed and meet some alligators yesterday but now I’m upset and crying about it because I don’t like their enclosure and feel like it could be better and then I’m also wondering what they do with the alligators when they get bigger 👀
Because this particular place was not an alligator sanctuary which is what I actually want to visit because Florida is known for having those and rescuing the big boys and naughty ones
I also went to the beach and was blessed with getting to see a family of something swimming in the ocean but suddenly I felt their depression and sadness and started crying and had to leave the ocean
They are sentiment beings
But we do the cruelest things to them for our own pleasure
I got to meet this little gal and name her and I will share that experience soon in a more positive post but I am upset with how they are living
I woke up crying and I don’t understand why I was born if I can’t actually change anything
My excitement about anything quickly turns to disillusionment because reality is so much sicker
And now I was wondering why I was born at all if I can’t enjoy anything the way it is due to narcissism because I’m not a narcissist or a demon and it’s like they have a blue book that they’re using or a color by numbers on every aspect of life and I’m fucking sick of being micromanaged and thought controlled
And the girl working at the front booth was only 17 bless her little heart and she was talking about turning 18 soon, like that was her only goal was to have some more freedom and I didn’t have the heart to disillusion her on the 1st even though she said it was just like any other day and she was right, I was just trying to be positive but my positive energy has quickly faded with the reality of everything
There was some good aspects about it though and I want to focus on those when I do share my post and videos about it
But right now just let me cry
I mean the way those dolphins or whales were swimming in the ocean seemed very depressed to me but maybe that’s just my own projection of everything in the world
I am so sick, I am crying in public now
I go from being really happy and mellow to fucking mad and crying
Do you think this is what Edgar Allan Poe experienced before his end?
Is this why Jesus was like, why are you hitting me, if I did something wrong you could hit me but I didn’t fucking do anything for you to hit me 👀
But he was woke and against the establishment so they crucified him
My goal this year is to spend more time doing the things that I love and animals and nature is something I really love but we’re all slaves and I can’t really change that
I can only blog about it but I don’t want it to deter you from the excitement of the videos and photos that I’m gonna be sharing
It helps to talk about the things that are bothering me deep inside
But I got to name a baby alligator yesterday and that was a pretty amazing experience
I do believe we can petition to make their enclosure better and their environment better
I’m going to visit an alligator sanctuary soon and I may possibly even go to Gatorland in Orlando 🐊
There are caverns to visit and lots of things to do outside that I want to participate in
But in small increments because I am still dying
That’s probably why you get burst of happiness and sadness
Edgar Allan Poe died naked on the street, think about that
And John Jones stuck upside down in a cave
You’re only alive so 13 families who control everything in the world don’t have to fucking work and they will squeeze every penny out of you from birth until death
Your written will means shit
It will be ignored
I finally learned the lesson that Chester Bennington and Jesus had been trying to teach
That possessions don’t really matter much
It took Big Brother (Mark Fuckerberg) threatening to remove my intellectual property against my will and over bullshit violations, that I deleted nearly every social media account and email, without asking for my data.
Now he’s pressing virtual reality and the Metaverse on me
I will jump from a bridge before I ever enter
He pushed me too far
He’s the face of pure evil
I can’t look at him
I can’t look at half of Hollywood who have deformed their faces with plastic surgery
I can’t stand the Hollywood propaganda and the underlining bullshit that they feed us in film
Everything is a rerun of what GENX has already done
I’m not supporting you
Your acting sucks
Culture is a sham
Everything is a lie
My purpose belongs to the wind
I will be returning to Mother Earth soon
My only real mother
The only one I’ve ever had
And sometimes I learn the lesson the hard way
I don’t want to approach my death upside down
Or naked on the street mad out me mind
I’m already out of my mind
And I nearly caught my mysterious death and I did wind up upside down but John Jones has been helping me out a little bit because the medical staff on earth are demons
He bought me a little time
Chilling on his wing
Today I laid down to film the clouds and the sun
I’m working with WordPress to get my blog fixed so I can start uploading photos again, but they requested I do some stuff from my laptop and I was at the beach all day without it
Then came home and ate a sandwich and passed out until now
Now I need to take my dog out and stare at the full moon (provided it’s not 9 degrees outside) ((it’s not, lower 70s, full moon, after midnight)) 🌕
My left lung still isn’t expanding all the way
And I’m still waiting to see a lung specialist
My heart is also still healing from heart inflammation
I don’t like to put any stress on my heart
I cry a lot
Cry and sleep
Made you a little video of the sunshine I took today (although now it’s after midnight so technically it was yesterday/Sunday)
I laid down to film the beautiful 3d clouds and sun
I laid down for this shot
It’s been beautiful weather at the beach and everybody has been coming to enjoy it because the ocean has decided to give us a little bit back for Christmas I guess
Saturday there was so much going on, People were surfing the red high tides, flying kites, riding bikes, couples holding hands, treasure hunting, I filmed it all
Everyone is in the Christmas spirit and just enjoying the calm
This is the part of the season where we don’t have to worry about the tourist as much
And there are other parts of the beach that I can go that’s not busy
I don’t want to be kidnapped 😑
And I prefer staying near the lifeguards that are on duty when they are there 👍
The beach has been so much more inviting these days and I haven’t been screaming like a little girl 😬
But I can’t upload any fucking photos and I haven’t done what WordPress has asked me to do for my laptop yet- so you know whatever- dying
I REFUSE to die in or around a hospital setting
I don’t even want anybody to see me dead and that is a real issue for me currently
So I’m trying not to die because I don’t have all that shit together yet, I don’t have a coffin, I don’t have a fucking plot of land, I don’t want to be cremated, there’s a lot of shit going against me right now, especially with the fact that I’m having cardiovascular issues because I chose to get fucking vaccinated with underlying health issues 😡
Found myself upside down with John
And I am pissed he is still there
Like gut wrenching agony
I probably have cried more from him in 2 months than his wife did in the three years it took her to move on and remarry 👎👎
John is rubbing my right shoulder blade currently cuz I haven’t learned to forgive people yet and he wants me calm
He did snicker about my NASA comment tho
God has a sense of humor
I wonder if the 13 evil families in charge are ready for Armageddon because if they keep pushing me I’m that program in the matrix doing what it’s not supposed to be doing and I’m very unhinged
I also saw a TikTok from a popular creator who said if your videos are getting at least 100 to 200 views on its own, then you’re doing good
One thing I’ve noticed, posting 2 similar videos back-to-back and hashtags do nothing for me
If anything, hashtags are reason for the algorithm to study my behavior and I like to fucking confuse it from time to time
But mostly the algorithm likes to shadowban me
And I’ve had many videos that was not violating any guidelines (that I’m aware of) sit at zero views
I hate censorship
I will never pay to play
But that doesn’t stop TikTok from peer pressuring me and fucking with my account to see if I will bite
I’ve taken screenshots but I haven’t been able to share a fucking thing in several days because WordPress fucking sucks and I need a new hosting site
But I’m dying and just basically sleeping and eating
There’s an extermination going on right now because the 13 families in charge don’t want to pay people who are retired, now they want us off the fucking system, they don’t want us using supplies, they don’t want to pay us what we deserve in our time to fucking retire 👎👎
To my comrades who have chosen not to get the VAX, this isn’t our fucking country anymore
We’ve been gaslit for so long
But now I know why the soldiers are killing themselves in increasingly mass numbers and there are more soldiers that die by suicide than on the battlefield…
Please hold on
There is a war going on still
I need you to hold fast
Don’t forget your training
We are at war
The system is your enemy and those fighting for it
Just stand fast
Stay alert, stay alive
Don’t engage with the enemy
I need you still
Prep your defenses
Stock pile food and water
If I’m wrong, in three years you can have a Armageddon party and eat all the food and then just restock up OK
I’m not wrong
Take your frustration out on target practice
Take a cold shower
Do something to stop the trigger
For me it requires a different stimulation and often two or three different things so
Find what works for you
Half the battle is within
There’s a spiritual war going on
If you feel lost, that’s okay
Stay near the light, don’t get burned
Be a Marine
Out of sight, out of mind
I got your back
P.S. you may feel like you’ve done what you were to do, you may feel confused on what is next
This is part of ascending with new Earth
She goes through changes
This is how life can evolve
Evil doesn’t win forever
You gotta hold tight
Just hang on…
Focus on healing (save yourself)
You feel like you’re waiting right?
You feel lost?
You missed a step?
We’re in the middle of war
A spiritual war
God needs you silent
The demons will expose themselves
They’re collapsing under the weight of the change
You’re exactly where you need to be to ascend
If not, get right with God
You know the right one
Cuz he’s in you and speaking right now
Don’t forget who you are
Earth is a negative frequency
It’s a low charge
You need positivity to ascend
Listen, your body is a channel
It’s a conductor
Your heart is electric
So is the sun
And I’m not talking about shit you plug into your wall, get out of your box please
You are mostly made of water and so is the earth
I’ll get into connection another time
I’m definitely a sunworshipper – just can’t be in it long 🤪
I fry not tan
The universe is so magical but it’s dangerous and also scary
I’m still just a little girl
I’ll always be a little angel 😇
One of God’s favorite 🤩
You can choose to do good things or you can choose to do bad things
I wanna ascend
This is hell
There’s so much more fulfillment in the light than there is the dark which is why you have to consistently go to your porn because it’s not very fulfilling at all
I love you 💕
I’m sorry I can’t post photos yet but I haven’t done what WordPress asked me to do because I’ve been dying (and fuck all these timeline glitches that I keep getting- they don’t want me to ascend)
Can you find God without looking at a manmade unverifiable book that exists in every hotel room in every land! Red flag number two! Turn it off!
You’ve been lied to!
Wake the fuck up!
Who hurt me?
Everybody did!!!! 😡
Merry fucking Christmas!
Ho ho ho!
I don’t need to find God because I am God and he gave me the ability to create life in his image and I actually have because I had a kid that I breast-fed for an entire year but for six months the baby lived on nothing but my breastmilk that my body made for my baby
Go back to your porn and leave me out of your false ideologies
“I want to reinvent the gods, all the myths of the new ages…”
We are the reality we create
But what that really means is the 1% is controlling everything, including the fucking weather
And they are openly admitting to controlling the weather now so you cannot keep calling me a conspiracy theorist￼
And apparently theory is fact now, that’s what NASA is teaching
NASA is a dogma!
Do you think on your own?
I’m so fucking unplugged and paranoid and delusional and think I’m organic artificial intelligence that my thoughts are actually manifesting into reality
Have you ever been stuck in the mouth of Mother Earth? No, me either. But, it feels like hell. THE THOUGHT and upside down 😩
I must be making your wing tired now
But I fell into the most deep sleep after eating a sandwich
And I don’t know where I went
I don’t know where I was before I was born and I don’t exactly know where I’m going after I’m gone
I do remember a period of awareness inside my mothers womb and I hated it
It took anger and frustration to bust out
And now in my dying and unplugging it feels the same
Nothing is somewhere too
I am made of light
Light is information
My DNA is genetic code
But this life that the 1% have been forcing on us through fear mongering, I don’t want to live
I’m not doing earth again
Bring me back here and I will destroy earth for good
P.S. WordPress must have changed something and despite having a paid personal plan, I can’t upload any photos.
Apple tried to force me to upgrade my plan but it backfired.
I no longer give a fuck about intellectual property or preserving data or memories 🙄
Did y’all know that immigrants are getting $2200 a month and they can say no to the vaccine? 🛑✋🛑
So now President Biden is stating that Social Security will be ceased from those who don’t get the vaccination but that’s not going to apply to the immigrants over here who claim special privileges and can say no to the vaccine and not lose their jobs
But now Biden (the president you voted for) is gonna take Social Security benefits from those who are unvaccinated 👎👎
This doesn’t apply to the millions and millions of immigrants living here
Let me tell you something, the poor have been hungry for a long time and we’ve been slaving and working our asses off three jobs for a long time, we’ve been very hungry and if you stop our Social Security checks from coming in, I can’t help you my friend, you’re on your own, don’t look at me, don’t come asking me for help OK
Because when you take a bone from a starving animal, you’re gonna get bit
Charade you are
They think that little 15% food stamp boost is gonna stop a widespread war when the poor and disabled lose access to their EARNED Social Security benefits that they WORKED for so that India (big pharma) can push their poison drug
That the immigrants don’t even have to take
No my brother
We’re done 👀
I’m vaccinated and I’m not drawing Social Security but I know I’ve been working my ass off and when I go to apply for it it’s my fucking right to have it
Hitler is still alive and he is well-rounded and functioning and running society
I don’t know about you but I’m sick of these outdated policies
I’m sick of the immigrants coming over here telling us what we can do that only benefits them
This is a Trojan horse
It has been all along
You know I’m right
I love people of all color and I’m gonna be protecting people of all color because that’s the love I have in me but the system is my enemy right now and if you are plugged into that system and defending it then you are my enemy understand 👀
I’m already eagerly awaiting a phone call from the White House and I’m not gonna let up and I already have a case number filed with my complaint
Soldiers are dying in the street (this was the fate of Edgar Allan Poe)
This is starting to feel more and more like a simulation to me every fucking day- this fucking nightmare and I continue falling deeper in the hole
It’s like a fractal, it never ends
Biden is taking Social Security benefits from the unvaccinated and immigrants get $2200 a month and can say no to the vaccine without losing benefits or jobs 🛑✋🛑
Now I understand why the politicians are at war with one another
I had to dig a little bit deeper to try to understand because politics has never been my favorite subject even though I am a soldier
I fight for simple things like freedom of speech, the right to have affordable housing, I failed on everything huh
The Great Lesson 🙄
But the politicians are at war with one another because I believe the majority of them are immigrants pushing their agenda and the rest are natural born Americans who are pushing for the true American way of life (which is what we were sold but we’ve actually being gaslit)
I don’t hate you if you’re an immigrant but you need to follow the same rules as we do
You don’t get special privileges living here, you don’t get to come over here and say “oh well we don’t want the vaccine” and keep your job while the rest of us lose our job if we say no to the vaccine 👎👎
You have been getting them but it ends
You got greedy pushing your pandemic agenda but hey you want to get to Mars quicker but you’re gonna need people to back you up for that and you’re losing a good portion of the population so what’s your next move? you going to nuke us?
Apophis is already coming
You’ve made life a nightmare for 99% of the population and we’re fucking sick of it
You’ve been underestimating the power of the people
Now I understand why there are signs in the doors that say American owned and operated 👀
But I’m gonna be needing some proof before you get my moneyz 👀
I scheduled my email for deletion. I didn’t save anything. Conversations with my dad, the dead, intellectual property, spam, the whole shebang. It’s gone. Decades and decades of conversations. Nothing saved.
I don’t want to remember anything of my life.
Is anyone worried for me? 🤔
Y’all, it’s gonna sound weird but I did a vinegar foot soak, and my breathing improved. My body was going into anaphylactic shock. But there was an advertisement that kept appearing over and over again for a home remedy
And I thought what the fuck
I know I was nearly burned on the stake in the past for witchcraft but…
A witch needs land and apple trees
An apple a day yes
Let them rot
And ferment 👀
Acid is the cure all (well not the cure all cure all but it’s now my number one most loved stench)
The Garden of Eden is full of vinegar on shelves 👀
I’m not even coughing hardly any more
Welp. I don’t know how many lives I’ve now used but I feel like I’ve got a new body
Compared to “I’m not gonna get out of here am I” 👀
And I wasn’t just going from panic to calm, my body was breaking out in hives and I couldn’t breathe
And the VA were like, “your tests results are all fine”
And I literally left a voicemail screaming at patient advocacy that I was about to fucking die and that I needed a new care team but then I found out that if I got a prescription outside of the VA that the VA would cover it so you know
oh did I tell you I went to church Sunday?
I have energy again
So I’ve been doing vinegar foot soaks for 10 to 15 minutes three times a day now
Apparently you can drink vinegar as a tonic too so I’m about to be drinking in it, not just bathing in it (and I’m doing facial tonics and even ear swabs)
I find white distilled vinegar works best
I mix it with water
Half and half but you should do stuff based on your own skins tolerance
But don’t ever put vinegar directly on your skin because it’s acid and it will burn so you need to dilute it
Don’t get it in your fucking eyeballs or anything
Apparently you can do a scalp soak and it will cure dandruff 👀
However, it can dry out your hair but I’m gonna be giving it a go! Dip dip!
Just change blood bath to vinegar bath (put 1 to 2 cups in yer bathwater if you want your skin to feel soft as a baby again, soak for 10 – 15 minutes in lukewarm water a few times a week – skin not hair)
I have also learned you can use it as a deodorant and mix it with like lemon water
Seriously, it will kill any kind of foot fungus or order too
Sentinel and witchy
Who knew it was gonna take vinegar for me to breathe again 👀
An apple a day
Still learning the big lessons
Feeling better but I hope it’s not that little burst of energy you get before you die
It took a weird ad about a home remedy foot soak to get me cured
And no, the water did not change a weird funky color
My skin immediately began to improve
And then my breathing
My lungs are clearing up 👀
My heart is feeling anew
I don’t know what to tell you
A fucking weird ad saved my life
And I was reading article after article about black holes and the multiverse at 2 am – it was one of then weird click-bait type ads you see
I didn’t click it or anything
It’s just a bunch of them ads you see following an article when you’re reading comments about something
And I’m not exaggerating about going into anaphylactic shock or the fact that I was actually nearing my mysterious death
Clearly needed a detox
I need to go shopping for the other ingredients to start drinking it so I’ll let you know how the drink goes
Again, if you don’t mix this shit right you can burn yourself
But my body has had nothing but positive response
And until I feel like I’ve expelled the devil, I will continue the routine of vinegar soaks, even if not as frequent
I love how baby soft my skin is again
And the fact that I can breathe again
Without a machine 👀
Edgar Allan Poe and John Jones are my spirit guides
John was a Mormon so they probably used vinegar to clean everything
Welp. What’s next? Gouging my eyeballs out while I’m still alive cuz he can’t stand what I see? 👀
What if I’m blocking all the passages preventing me from being able to come back or from you going further?
I can’t crawl back up the hole now anyway
What if I’m blocking you because I don’t want to be saved and I don’t want you to get hurt? 👀
What if I die because I know too much? 👀
These caves are crawling with paranoia
And you can’t scratch
I don’t think you should be crawling around the places I’m going, you don’t have the experience that I do
The Army trained me to observe
I see all 👀
And I need land pronto fast to dig several foxholes and an underground bunker like those in NAM.
And a T3 armory 👀
The Army trained me with LIVE grenades, I have a badge and all 👀
Had to run around an obstacle course with live grenades, with our drill sergeants randomly pretending to be an enemy trying to get them off of you
They did not get them off of me, they tried 👀
Where’s my old school Army at? They probably training everybody with video games these days…
They don’t even have to enter a combat zone, they sit in the fucking chair in a building to do the fucking dirty work,
This ain’t the same fucking country anymore
Apparently India has changed all the rules because they got all the best positions and management positions now and Mexico coming in second place in America and I reckon Japan and China are under that list but Americans are way low down on the totem pole on jobs and that’s a fucking issue for me and a huge red flag 🚩 safety issue Trojan horse, this is fucking war, I’ve called it!
I mean it’s true I can’t live without you but I’m not going to lead you to doom
I may be petite but I have a big big purpose
Policemen and soldiers have a way of listening to me 👀
I hope nothing has changed in this timeline
There’s a problem when I’m being denied government work so that people from other countries can come over here and get those positions
And the rent kept going up so I had to use my thrift savings retirement fund and also the money I had in my savings account and I also had to max out my credit cards when I became homeless in 2017 because of the government furloughs and the government hiring freezes and I couldn’t pay my thousand dollar rent anymore and I didn’t have anybody to take care of me and when I reached out for help, every single person in my family turned a blind eye while I had to watch them make huge donations towards animal fundraisers on FaceBook
So they had money to help out some animals but they didn’t have money to try to help me keep my vehicle that I had already put $18,000 in 👀
And I hate every single one of them and I hope they all burn and I hope that they know they are not welcome on my commune and they will not be receiving my help so don’t fucking come to me, they are also my enemy 🛑✋🛑
No blood allowed! 👀
Ain’t nobody going the tight places I can squeeze
God made me lethal but petite 👀
I’m also clumsy and not sure how I’ve already survived this long 👀
You should know that all my shit has been hacked into 👀
I turned off tracking everywhere but they’re still tracking me
And according to a recent article I read they will track you more when you request them not to track you 👀
Okay but that’s illegal!!! And I’m going to be asking for my data from a lot of organizations very soon and I hear they get grumpy about it!!
The places I’m going you probably shouldn’t come 👀
And I may make it extremely inaccessible to return
So big brother and the illuminati is going to control information flow about politics but they won’t do anything about the corporations who are mind raping us and soliciting us for our business every second and every day of our life, with our phone numbers, our private addresses, and our IP addresses!
When is enough enough?
When does citizens have some fucking privacy? Huh? I thought this was the land of the fucking free, all I see is the land of the control me, tell me what to do, tell me what to buy, and I have no way to deny.
I have no way to stop my HOME PRIVATE ADDRESS from being riddled with junk mail, coupons, or soliciting.
My private life should be private from corporations trying to play on my emotions and talk me into what I’m gonna eat or what I’m going to buy next.
Most of the shit they send me is unhealthy and I’m not gonna touch it.
And it doesn’t matter if I would want to buy it or not, I should be able to opt out from my home address being spammed
My personal, private number too.
And if you have a home phone number, it means you will get political affiliation phone calls all the time and you can’t stop your phone from ringing and it was ringing off the hook because all these politicians want you to vote their way or vote their agenda or vote for them (it’s fucking ridiculous) and their agenda is what Big Corporations want. They get donations remember? Can we say, conflict of interest!
I had to get rid of my home number because I couldn’t get any peace of mind from the phone calls
And even though I’m going to the website of businesses to opt out of communications from them, I’m still getting it…
Just waiting for the cops to show up to my door so I can explain to them why I’m unhinged and making empty threats to “burn it down”. It’s a metaphorical threat but the lady on the other end of the phone probably didn’t catch that even though I was stating directly afterwards that I was going to go to the news
She said she’d take it up with the marketing team
It probably went straight to the FBI
1984 is now
Dropping loads of rants today though, on my TikTok!
Not one damn birthday card, and Spectrum is a trigger (again not an actual trigger, an emotional one)
If they try to take me away to the funny farm without my fucking permission though, I will wind up on the top o’clock news or dead