There are hills I have climbed
There are mountains where I’ve died
I’m still lingering on the hillside
There are trails where the blood dried

Your stats are booming!
But it doesn’t mean I’m looming
Come school me
Don’t fool me

I had the worst diet
Lived on his lies like it was the Hyatt
His love was a riot
Never peace
Just wanted quiet

What am I doing holding onto these ashes?
Counting midnight stashes?
Wondering how long life is?
Cuts like a knife when
Life ends
Just like yours did
Where does mine begin?

The same way they think they’re game is worth waiting for
They’re a fucking bore
Matchmaking locked
But I got a glock

I didn’t want to give another update; another reason why I am late. An outtake: for fuck sake

My favorite part of the journey is the rest
Think I like it best
Some call me lazy
Cuz I like to nest?

Of course we would meet through the ether
I’m not pure either
Heaven I would not enter
Just sitting here in purgatory
Like a bedtime story

My love is buried in a cave
Degrading
Am I worth saving?

Dear Follower,
I know you followed
Through endless hollow
Look all the years and roads we travelled
Bickered laughed falling on some gravel

The places we will go
You know I miss you so?

Met you at my lowest
like an interlude
of course it wasn’t the devil
but God true and true
even if you were just a man
he looks just like you?

Do you think God could create a love that goes on forever?
Do you think the universe is a love letter?
Cuz I’ve got memories as distant as stars
But not where you are
Like living in a waking dream
You are there in the corner of my seams
WALKING WITH ME

We’re neurodivergent
We spin like it’s urgent
Spinning faster than the earth is
Some say we’re imperfect

Error
Like an arrow
Straight to the center gravity
Of my failure

Still I’m getting better
Miscalculating data
Just like the AI
Counting only matter

I don’t know what I’m holding on to
Will I disappear after all I’ve been through
If I let her go, will I be new?

I don’t know what I’m doing here
When I want to roam the streets dear
But my shadow’s bringing fear

I don’t know why I’m circling
Nothing I do ever stops the hurtin’
There’s just avenues of me

Burial piece cuz single never married (i think it’s real crystal cuz it’s imperfect yah?) but also the energy – the light reflecting – the weight and things (new crystal head piece) (will things catch fire if i go out in the sun – i mean that could make for a good vampire short) (and yes people do catch their houses and cars on fire over 1 tiny crystal – how many does this hold) – new superpowers uncontrolled – prob why im grinning – i could be the most hideous beast but not my headpiece) (he gonna wanna marry me)

They pass out medical diagnosis like it’s a weather forecast; “You’re 6 degrees from dying but there’s sunshine at last”…

Precognition

I said, you’re perfect
Nothing would be worth it
That’s the verdict

(I’ll never date or acknowledge another ten) (not even gonna look their way) (oof TOUCHE BROTHER)

RUST IN HELL

Like if a ten ever asked me out for anything I’d be like: WHAT. NO. You’re more than a ten.

I’d simply walk away.

And if he persisted I’d just demand loudly: I DON’T WANNA BE YER FLESHLIGHT

Yeah no NOT REAL – DENOUNCED – took me a whole science degree and 40 plus years WOOHOO – I AWOKE

Like standing up for yourself
While backing into a wall
It’s no fun at all
But you will prob hear me laugh
As I’m picking up my step
Crying down the hall

Copyright © 2025 Delia Ross /@poeeternal. All rights reserved.

(p∞)

Postscript:

I dunno if I’m clumsy or if it’s almost a full moon

Two things can be true at once

I get upset I don’t spend more time talking to the stars

That shit won’t even be twinkling til I ask it something specific: “did you miss me, two for yes, one for no” and I’ll be blessed it’ll blink twice

HA! knew knew

Our love is instant – no distance between the two

The sun is local

Flat earth: not confirmed

(I know things b4 they happen)

I pick up the signal before the signal arrives

DO U WANT MORE LINES?

(Im still under a treatment plan, not in remission, got tired of the constant penalties trying to game or socialize)

You don’t want me writing on *insert CGP* yet

Better let me feed the squirrels

And stop cutting down the trees

You already ran off Owl or killed him one

Im on final edge

THERE’S NO MORE WARNINGS

I’ll attempt to post some of my DBD gaming maybe – just to show you how pissed off I really am – either go all in on the killer hardcore pallet stun blind after blind or i never move

I go in without an offering item or perk

I don’t lurk

It’s either “go ahead and get yer 4k or there’s no stopping me and i’ll even get the hard save”

I was laughing SO HARD when I kept getting STUN AFTER STUN and kept shaking my head NO but the killer was heated – and I was so calm – Im learning to control my moods thru the game lmao

Get the killer all worked up and I aint even breaking a sweat

Eh sometimes I feel bad and just let them have me cuz damn i be mean

But what’s even more fun is the killer only saving me

Ive tried to die and they’re like “nah you can have hatch”

“Im suicidal too”

Sweet. Happy Halloween boo.

Squirrel enjoying the fresh food n water from the rabbit carrot ceramic bowls

I uninstalled the game. AGAIN.

And I don’t doomscrool

The one app I was left on kept punishing me after I spent loads of money feeding the enemy

Im not supporting other creators when I cant do the same (without penalty)

Im tired of appealing?

I really wanna update my blog?

I have goals but then again Im bed rotting

I was at physical therapy yesterday

“Im not ready for a walker”

But you need to get use to seeing me with a walking stick

Moving into my Moses phase

The mountains been calling

I would write more but there’s only the phone

I hate my tablet

I hate my laptop

I hate my Playstation 5

I hate my TV

I don’t hate eggnog or pie

Or this little guy

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