Dear Hacker (with laughs and love)

caught me jerking off huh?

gonna share it with all my family and friends huh?

go for it

Standing by….

you already know all the details right? no need for me to fill it out for you?

….

first of all, it’s either Angel or SGT Ross

i even respond to “bitch” or ‘Delia’

… they prob would be swept away – with joy

… some kind of stupid moron… not a “god”

…if he was God, he would know I am an Angel without any mercy?

or the ability to behave?

be notified and burn in hell

… it WAS NOT SENT INTERNALLY (but how the fuck was my private email sold)

demented maybe but not perverted

i don’t do porn

i barely get off?

i do not own a “toy”


i’m suicidal

i do not care what you have on me

now i have a reason to go to the cops

maybe propose

find me a hubby


i choose the medical emergency and the bear…


you can tell the stupid hacker to get another job


im dead inside


im poor


and im sick of the internet

and changing my passwords every 5 minutes

and putting my phone on lockdown

i said android was hacked but it was also at&t and apple


Facebook let Netflix see user DMs to help them tailor content as part of a close collaboration between the two tech giants, new court documents claims

Newly unsealed court documents that were filed as part of a major anti-trust lawsuit against Meta appear to have exposed the intricate relationship between two of Silicon Valley’s biggest players.
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Michigan Town Votes Out Entire Local Government, Immediately Changes Locks

Michigan Town Votes Out Entire Local Government, Immediately Changes Locks – RedState
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folks waking up to the “this country was founded on immigration” propaganda – tired TIRED of everything being “Made in China”

we ain’t got yellow fever no mo!!!!


“nature is good for you”

it’s kind of traumatizing seeing and hearing what animals do to one another


i just don’t think i’m doing life right


it’s prob just a bored abandoned cat terrorizing everything God made cuz “it’s fun”, “it’s what i want”, “i can’t stop” cuz he’s no better than an animal and i just wish the neighbors that hear the laughing coming from the window is not of “fun nature”

they’d wanna kill me even more


the crime is still ongoing just fyi

the “bad dope” is in my backyard and when the state gave me CUD and i have to temp stop my pain and anxiety medication for 6 months – i wasn’t allowed to accept gifts or phone numbers no matter how tempting or good the offer smelled

they leave live rounds outside my window

and i ain’t never did them no wrong

‘cept that one time the gang leader living next door asked me if he could “live with me for 3 months” cuz him and his gal were splitting up (and i wasn’t gonna have to hear him beat his dog anymore through the walls) and he offered to help “catch me up on my ride” cuz “he knew i was behind” cuz we had some hurricanes out here that made us lose power for a weeks time and “love thy neighbor” (but not that much)- i’m just a big mouth (but not a narc) (or narC) and folks will never phish any info out me again ‘cept maybe “hell is real” “god is everywhere”

but i told him no immediately (despite having threatening letters by Capitol One that they were gonna start the process to remove my ride) – and so as if being sued by my creditors and having to go to court (for other debts) wasn’t humiliating enough – the judge demanding i take “3 full breaths before we start because i look like i want to jump from the bridge behind us”- and this was in a full courtroom

“the bridge behind us”

…as if that wasn’t humiliating enough i had to tell the thug “no” and he said “you can sleep on it” and i replied “i don’t need to”

and the devil got mad

said my back window would get broken

it did, the day before thanksgiving

and now all his friends cousins and brothers

make life hell for me

and there’s an undercover out here waiting on his promo

i won’t have anything to do with anyone

it ain’t just black people “we don’t talk like that”

i have ghosted my own father

why you so mad

“equal opportunity hater”

“we hate everyone”

so even if i wanted to break the law and “make peace” – i could fucking die from the w**d

I had a fucking addiction right in the middle of a gang war and like

i.dont.want.to.die.


uhm SOS?


it’s like every direction is trying to kill me and suicide is humane?


i couldnt breathe again and had to open a window and now the gangs think i aint living in fear

my third air purifier is arriving soon

30 days to close they say

i can’t manage to leave the very house that is killing me

this place aint worth dying for

these people

this town

im not gonna be able to breathe until i am far gone


i better stop laughing with the window open cuz dont wanna leave in a body bag


cop: “you need to move”

“not just from here”

“but all of Daytona”

“all of Daytona is bad”

“there’s not enough cops”


protection prayers please


i had nothing to do with this by the way: https://www.daytonabeachconnection.com/Daytona-Beach-Police-Department-makes-major-drug-bust–arrests-suspect–1-16524.html


i simply told a man “no” and bam – despite my lease stating and having a clause to protect women – i have video evidence and proof of so much shit i have been through

enough to make someone die by suicide

“you can’t make someone kill themself”

they took away the noise disturbance law in 2008

and some of the things in my head that would put me on tv – are justified


“we only hire Black people for a safe environment”


God is gonna know when im back home cuz im gonna be slinging the devils head outside the doh!


im sure one of the cats will wind up dead cuz 3 or 4 have been murdered with a vehicle by a neighbor – and i either hear the cries and see the aftermath and blood pooling – or discover them cold and dead

and i hate the things but not enough to kill them


im selling my new ps5 btw

i already know i likely probably break community guidelines and this is minority report


and you definitely in the minority if you believe in God


so JJ wanted me to know that he would not be released when the floods come

and im apparently welcome to visit anytime

he knows my greatest fear after all


fool me twice

i let paypal do me dirty again

i was having too much fun shopping (in small increments & amounts) on TikTok

and funny how the same day congress wants to ban TikTok

PayPal is restricting my account – without any real reason attached to their claim – and have decided to hold my account hostage – until i provide them more DATA that they will sale to the enemy – that i do not want to do

therefore, i cannot use paypal for why i signed up (a second time)

(the first time they outed my anonymous donors who contributed to a pool i created – based on FAQ provided by PayPal – which they apparently can update and change at will – rules for me but not thee – and there is more to this point i’m sorry) – but not only did they expose who the anon donors were – they eventually made them priority in my contact list – who had never sent me a dime where i was meant to be aware – but low and behold – something i don’t think the therapist could understand – and even if they should – there was so much shame attached to my sense of self – that the bridge was nearing closer everyday!?!

so i deleted my obsession

i mean account

but then for stupid “i wanna shop in private and protect my data reasons” – i opted to open a new account

start again

this time not using my account to receive – only send and shop

but now PayPay is cockblocking me again

and they outed my private new email – that i will need to delete

and i had to call my bank to let them know that i need to change my identity in order to break up with paypal

because they keep doing updates and selling my data by turning on those little boxes they add in

im getting scam emails – clever tricky ones trying to get me to put my money in a shoebox and tape it up and give it to the blacked out car with the CIA/FBI agents (please note that if anyone wants me to put any amount of money in a shoebox – even $5 – i will be calling my therapist and the cops immediately and letting them know i have potentially crossed the threshold breaking point)

m’kay

anyhoo – the scam emails continue even tho i ain’t giving anyone my info to send/receive

but PayPal is

and now for no other reason than “shopping on TikTok” they have decided to hold my account hostage until i provide them more personal forms of data

and so the contract should be null and void

cuz i can’t use it how i signed up for – and i ain’t providing shit

they won’t remove my card – so the card is destroyed – bank informed – text and emails reported as spam and phishing – and a Better Business Bureau report pending to be done

i don’t owe paypal a penny

nor is anything pending

other than my random penalty “ma’am you were shopping with the enemy”

but don’t they know i got friends in China?

it’s cheaper and better buying direct from the source

fuck a third party

but now i gotta move to break up with paypal

i had to change my bank info

im gonna have to change my phone number…

i swear it’s not a joke

there’s been no fraudulent activity

no resolutions filed

no issues with bank or login

just suddenly today “tiktok may get banned” “provide data or no soup for you”

and so i said no

delete my account

but they won’t

so i gotta change my identity

i swear to fuck

genX out


(i told paypal thank you for curing me of my ridiculous obsession with love shopping)

that i will be outside more thanks to them

you should delete your account now – while you still can


i couldn’t even delete my profile photo after i canceled all my subs

when i called support back – the way she paused at the name change – and said “it’s kinda inappropriate” and i said whaaaaaa the “FU” and she said “yeah” and i responded “well the AI let me do it”

“and i didn’t need to provide anything”

so they will likely fix that glitch yee-haw

i am the anomaly in the matrix and is god is here!!!!!! he/she is everywhere!!!!!!!!!!!


paypal is holding my data hostage and unless i bow down to thee i am not allowed to shop – only receive

well im done receiving!!!!!!


im done giving!!!!!!!


and i cant spend my own money for 7-10 business days 2 weeks cuz the banker failed to tell me my new card wouldn’t arrive until then

so shopping withdrawals thanx to our good PAL

looking at a place to rent tomorrow

they aint getting my new number or address

gotta flee the country to escape ELON MUSK!?!?

who da fuk own PayPal now

he thinks hell is gonna be a party where all his friends are

they will he in hell – but he wont have access to them

lol


could you let God know i don’t really think it should be legal – what they are doing and my mistakes are so hard learned if any

the bank listening: “paypal won’t let me break up with them”

“this is toxic”

“i gotta move”

“change my number”

straightjacket or pier?


limited to shop cuz they want more data to sell to the enemy but my name change is inappropriate

*laughs*


hope Walmart still takes a check… nearly out of water

and thank god i never attached anything other than my card – that card is now destroyed – and my address and phone number are changing

maybe i don’t need to leave the country yet


giving away more items: donated books and bakingware to the library and neighbors


i had planned to do some mental health shopping this weekend

yah no


TikTok is going to ban me (poetry)

Content restored
After it was deleted
And just for record
I’m fucking heated

Free speech like sword
I feel defeated
Where’s my reward
Always mistreated

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They ain’t getting another dime from me

Also, I blocked said user & every one they were following

I’m hardcore

*goes shopping anywhere but TikTok for a dopi boost*

K, thanx, bye

T3 Sara mode & Florida no longer requires a carry permit *weapons nearby*

You ain’t getting another fucking dime

I don’t like Smart Post

Apparently if you have a package shipped with UPS, they won’t actually be delivering it, as they hand it over to the USPS for the “last mile”

More fucking gaslighting

I fucking hate USPS

Now I hate UPS

And it’s not as if I have a choice on who delivers

USPS ruins packages and misplaces them

Not to mention, it adds several more days to your delivery as it gets handed over – to the dreadful USPS for its “last mile”

China can burn in hell

They literally ruined everything

Why did Jesus wear a robe?

Cuz he was ANGRY

But I ain’t allowed to overturn the money tray in church

And now they pass it around more than once

I get agi

So stopped going

I hate everything

But your fucking writing


P.S. I would rather pick up my package from UPS for the “last mile” since they can’t do their fucking job

But that ain’t an option

More hands on my goods cuz China are filthy nosey lil spy cunts

Fuckkkkkkkxufzfylzydzhzkgd

I know I’m not supposed to hate other races but now I despise at least 3


Passion of the Christ

Y’all remember Jim Caviezel?

He wants to know where the pope is?

He wants to know if you would lose your head for Christ?

He states, we have to go after the octopus head – not just the tentacles

He also played a role in “the stoning of” (sara?)

Basically a husband was cheating and got his wife murdered by burying her alive – up to her neck – and having her children throw the first stones at her head

This practice is still legal

He didn’t want to pay child support or something

Accused her of a death penalty – something he was doing

Anyhoo

I can still like him as an actor and person

I mean he played Christ

Kinda hard to probably take off that role

Jesus imprinted in him and me

But read the good book full of propaganda and lies?

Uhm no

It’s Satanic

I collect Bibles tho

Some falling apart

Some extremely tiny with a lock

You ever try selling a Bible during end times?

I can’t seem to part with them?

Via donation, sale, or trash

Or is is sell?

I’m selling something

I have a sale

Hmmm it’s nearly 4 am

I’m glad it wasn’t just a role for Jim

“Fighting with all their hearts but don’t have a voice”

He’s talking about me

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRESeVYn/?t=1

“Would you lose your head for Christ”

What does he mean?

Like not deny him?

He states he thinks about John all the time

“What would John do”

Yeah same – different John’s tho – same but not

He did not die in vain

If anything, he’s my compass down here in this hell

We both think about John all the time (same but not)

John the Baptist was always a favorite from the B

Jim might be part of the 244

Somewhere in the 244 is Christ

God is love


You mean get crucified? Fairly certain society shames me for being a light-bringing angel

They want the world covered in darkness – nihilism

6th mass extinction

Narcissism is a plague

Society is a scam

I hope I get well enough to marry a good man

Man has failed me

Searching black holes is nihilism

Segregation from God

Gonna expose you all

Deliver the head of Satan

Toss it at God’s feet

“I’m home”!

Literally got chills


Alarms

The alarms are calming
Saw someone was coming
The fourth numbing
My faith is humming
Battle axe now summing

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I was trained to not run out into danger, “play dead” when overtook

“Don’t become a casualty yourself”

“Don’t play hero”

“Make sure the scene is safe”

“Triage”

“Ration”

“Defense”

“One shot, one kill”

Targets chest and head

= dead dead

Never failed at range

Range was at least twice a year – not just Basic Training

“Trained killer”

The Army imprinted on me

You never lost my stripes

Just my sense of direction and uniforms

Which I can replace with ones that fit

I can wear my uniforms anytime anywhere

And you will address me as my title if I am in such role

Deal with it

VETS MATTER

But go on and keep pissing in the Veterans memorial and getting Walmart closed down

The alarms bring a sense of calm

I’ll use it to my advantage instead of having a ptsd meltdown

I’m looking entirely natural and cute while going out – most people are treating me nicer – I’m seeing loads more BLM who want to unalive me – including the children who wanna pop us (and 3 teenagers were just charged with killing a white person)

I’m not ready to die, I’m fighting for my life

This fucking cancer is eating me alive

Go on and make fun of my body again – even though I work out – I don’t live in the gym – but I don’t sleep all day (or at all?)

Going weapons shopping soon 🙂

Gotta lay low for now

My rent is cheap as fuck – I don’t call this home – it’s hell and cheap for a reason – but I can’t flee yet – or would let them have this place – which is being gentrified – the cop Sunday said this whole town is bad.

Just going for gas or food is a gamble

Just checking my mail

They want us living in fear


Invalid Date

Nitrogen narcosis
Dead roses
Lost hope like Moses
Wandering desert hopeless
Some nights we’re frozen
Like unfocused locust
We’re losing focus
Gave God diagnosis
Humanity atrocious
I guess this is us?
The depths that we cross?
Tell God all is lost?

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Maybe you can access my domain and maybe you can’t.

Listen, I am the Great Anomaly. But maybe not the only.

244.

I’ve reached out to the Happiness engineers – but I’m never really happy (it’s likely also their fault why I never set up the contact page and things because I get stuck on a step and all hell breaks loose)

I’m drinking ginger currently – it’s spicy

All my clothing from Dolls Kill is fitting – and I’m feeling super cute in said clothes –

My OF ID is poeeternal77 I believe

I deleted my TikTok again – maybe for a day, maybe an hour, maybe a month

Gotta keep em guessing

I don’t pay attention to the hits incoming

I just hit delete notification and uninstall

I hope TikTok gets banned

And Instagram

And PayPal sold your identity out TWICE and then had the audacity to list you as my first contact

We’ve never communicated there

It was an anonymous thang

And like X amount of years later – first contact

I almost paid you back

But I deleted my account instead because I’m fucking psycho

And got tired of the outting and the spam emails

And then the cashapp was mutiliated – not long before Bob was

I don’t know how to spell the word and there is no other suggestion

MUTILATED mutilated

Oh well now I got it

Whatever

Fuck it

“Honey, I’m trying to spell something I know I can spell but can’t”

My mother once said watching TV with the subtitles on “is annoying” (which I need) (it’s not about the volume either)

So I no longer own a TV

My therapist says I’m polarized but the two weren’t related

Just an observation – she’s a cunt

(The Boomer mom)

My last words to her were a text message on Valentine’s circa 2017 (maybe) stating I hope she has a painful death and whatever it is couldn’t be near the pain and suffering she has caused me

And I blocked her and never looked back

Then last year my sister died

And I didn’t go say byeeee to her in the hospital

The Boomer mom will be rolling in her grave – if she ever dies

I wonder often these days should I contact the blood folks

My real father wants to know “if I’m happy”

His sister got her head bit off for reaching out to me

I ghosted my father when I was ten

People say you can’t hate your parents – so then I researched and realized that you could – not only hate your parents – but an entire generation

The Boomers

Who hold most of House

Once people die, there’s literally zero reason to hold onto a grudge

I can’t fix my dead sister and she was a psychopath so death was the only relief

“I think I might drop Cain / like Cain dropped Abel”

Because he was a fucking psychopath

She needed an exorcism and even that might not have saved her

It’s not my job to save you

You gotta save yourself down here

Stop being an asshole

I was gonna drop more poetry but I don’t have anything to type from

The phone can’t even type the letters I press

I got a hacker from India inside my phone

My modem was destroyed

I’m not hitting backspace for letters to disappear

I hate autofill – it pops up but changes to a different word

I spend more time correcting than I do writing

I don’t care if I misspell anymore!

It’s the algo, not me!

More poetry coming soon


P.S. these immigrants don’t care about you. They have invaded our borders and way of life. Stay protected! Your life matters! They are attacking females especially and doing so unprovoked! It’s seems to nearly always be a black person attacking. Black lives matter. White lives don’t. Check the CENSUS, it’s not how they are reporting. And not gossip sites but research shows many Chinese Americans and Mexican’s identify as “the new white”.

CONCERNING

Just gonna erase history huh

Wipe us out, take over

The Great Race war is real

I’m brown and white and not dissing my own race to put up another race – slavery started in Africa and is still going on in Africa and not one white person owns a slave – but black people do

White slavery exists and started with a black person owning a white woman and they condition and break us all!!! They hate us!!!!!

I do not hate white people and I’m tired of the slander against us

No one in my bloodline ever owned a slave

Take money from me for it and there will be consequence

Byeee


Gotta get this off my chest

Someone posted a tiktok of a 911 call – with a man dying and taking dying breaths

Another user commented it “turned him on”

Also Chicago was overrun by darkness

And the local cop here told me I need to move – “out of Daytona”, “all of Daytona is bad” “I hate to tell you to move” “I hate to lose someone level headed like you”

Well, I’m more reckless than anything – but absolutely still serve my country – I ain’t running away – I practice running a lot though – on my trampoline

Gotta make sure I can wind the Devil

They gonna try and shoot you from the back

Zig zag but with skates?

I don’t miss my shot tho

The Army trained me to hit moving targets 500m back

I’m efficient up to 350m but definitely passed all my skill sets

I ain’t gonna have a skill issue

I was only 4 rounds from expert first time on the 9mil

The hubby got a lot of work to do


“I gotta girl / you want to meet her? / her name is 9mm”


90s hip hop yo


Other men dying – turn men on

Uhm, men hearing babies cry, turns them on


Squirrel

TikTok heat + Boomer logic

The TikTok is still heating up and Boomers don’t like being called Boomers but they make up most of the HOUSE of CONGRESS

Therefore, I will not comply about referring to them as “politicians”.

One replied that they were enjoying their retirement and I told them congratulations, enjoy. All the Boomers will be gone by the 60s.

He probably never looked at it like that (forest for trees) and the comment remains unliked

They say any traffic is good traffic but I did block someone commenting multiple times

I’m very open, exposed, and raw delivering such heavy content such as “I lost half my retirement but it wasn’t because I was stupid, all Gen X did – so I feel slightly worse.”

I’m backing it up with real evidence tho (just not personal statements tho some comments phish for it)

Boomers won’t admit to any wrong doing, ever (prove me wrong).

Gen Y & Z should back X up in the fight to remove the Boomers from HOUSE

My TikTok is #poeeternal or PoeEternal

Thanks for your feedback here and there!

I love having a place to direct my rage: the Boomers

Cause-and-effect

Have fun love 🙂

I’m the Great Anomaly

WOKE

“Take a pill” – NO


RIP Bob – heart symbol

The sister returned a heart symbol sign in the courtroom – after you murdered someone she loved?

“Love you pricks” (last text)

WOW

Demon or delusional?

But a billionaire with someone who is a fake plastic Barbie – and not white – of course – is more in tune with reality

And married – (separated doesn’t count)

Where are all the “great husband” “great boyfriend” “great lover” quotes

AI and plastic surgery is not the way

It’s so corrupt – they’re turning on one another

Just like on the streets

Adultery is a sin

“I don’t love you, I love her” would be a better surprising detail

He’s just another man with his pants down – and trying to steal another man’s wife (triangulation)

These monsters go from one relationship to another without so much as breathing

Your whole life was in that phone huh

She was ready to leave her husband

For you

Awe

Little sinners

“Don’t believe in God”

“We are God”

“We make our own rules and make the sheeple follow”

Don’t be like Bob

I’m certain there was a FaceBook meme circulating

Or maybe it was Bill

That meme was made for him

I’m so disgusted by society

And everyone is so on edge and unhinged

Drove you to a dark secluded area and you still didn’t read the red flags?

I mean, you’re not even cold in your grave yet, and she’s giving your murderer a heart symbol

Awe boo

They’re famous now

He planned your murder (according to police evidence) and I hear he may only get 20 years

Probably get off on “good behavior”

How much to kill a billionaire?

Don’t give the cops your twenty and see if the killer gets 20

*popcorn*

The streets of Florida aren’t any less dangerous than the streets of California cuz you sold America out bro – you and your boomer daddy

Stabbed in the heart – God told you to chill but noooooooooo had to keep getting up

RIP Bob – heart symbol

RIP Bob – heart symbol

Like why Bob (insensitive content below)

Like why were you walking around there at 2:30 at night?

Sources claim you moved via the crime (you helped create) – but yet returned for work – yet was trolling the streets – assumingely – without a weapon – and was stabbed twice with a kitchen knife – and all you can think to do is cling to your Android – you helped create – and chase after cars – instead of sitting down – stopping the bleeding – at least not putting MORE strain on your heart – but no – you just had to keep getting up and walking around

Like bro

You didn’t call your fam?

If John Jones could squirm in his grave, he would.

Clutching that AI device like it was God

Called the cops – didn’t say where you were or keep the on?

Just hmmm where is everybody at bleeding out?

Let me guess, it went like this

“Hi, I’m Bob, the Cash App founder, I’ve been stabbed. I’m bleeding.” *lifts shirt*

And so the cars drive off

It’s a typical after midnight don’t get involved in scenario – you must have missed the memo?

It’s literally the worse-case-scenario and you walked right in – despite knowing how dangerous California is – which is why you moved to Florida – so you could finish turning it to shit

I know you are “in the closet gay” – I have seen these types of relationships in the military – and billionaires don’t fuck fat wives (maybe out of obligation)

Looking at family photos – zero chemistry – but maybe I’m a kunt

I didn’t stab you with a kitchen knife – twice mind you – at 2:30 am

You didn’t even fight back dressed in fashionable apocalyptic wear?

You had the best and most expensive device – cops still took a slow 6 minutes arriving – despite TWO cops in the area

Bro – I’m researching who I’ve been buying my state weed from – turns out it’s the Russians – surprise!

Anything to quit this nightmare

I knew Cash App and PayPal was going down – like bro – I deleted my accounts – not long ago – and now you’re dead

I saw the red flags

America is under siege and you were bleeding out and going into shock – you might still be here – if you had sat down –

This goes without saying but women no longer can walk in broad daylight without being in danger

“It’s a man’s world” and look what you turned it into

I would have drove away too

My first thought, “safety first” and those circumstances do not scream safe – maybe you would have had more of a chance of getting said help – if you were a nobody

If it was a hit job – which would be an instant thought of “cash” “stabbed” – who would want to get involved and become a victim too? It’s the one thing our Boomer parents warned us about. “Don’t go wandering the streets after sundown”. It was our one curfew. “Be home before dark” and even then we crossed the lines. “Boy you were cutting it close” / “there’s still some pink in the sky”

The Mayor or whoever of Cali is edging us on, “you’ll be surprised” she says “at the details”

Somewhere between Bob dying, another someone got beat with a bat, and the FED launched their version of a Cash App

And Big Cannabis is Big Russia who is changing and gutting our policies

I’m ready to get rid of my phone all together

I mean, Bob helped create Android and Apple share videos on how your phone can save your life – but maybe people need classes on how and when to use it – in an emergency – because Bob was a poster board of all the things Not-To-Do

Bob separated from his wife to move in with his father – how gay (no judgement)

A billionaire living at home with daddy

Not impressed

I watched God push you down

You just kept going

Even dying, wouldn’t drop your phone

“In AI we trust”

God gave me eyes to see but not a mouth of silk

“I got a mouth of filth”

I’d really like some milk

So another Gen X white male is gone

We’re not allowed to have anything

Yeah you got that nice big house in misery (potentially) but you also got gutted in taxes and I would’ve hung myself with 10 foot rope (which means it was probably a failed suicide where I broke some bones instead)

Wait. What.

(I’m talking to a GenX who may or may not be a genx and is mostly a ghost in my head)

Your dad claims you were his best friend, but he didn’t teach you not to walk the streets at night!?! Unarmed!?!

You could afford to hire a bodyguard?

Have a gun?

Unless the killer wasn’t some random bum or hitman – but instead someone close – who could stab you in the left side of your chest – with a kitchen knife

Was it the same one from dinner?

I’ve been reading how lots of murders happen when people are dining or in the shower – by “loved ones”

Also – in bed – sleeping

Vindictive

Remorseless

No soul

Which makes therapy and treatment useless – for those who can’t change – and should be shot like a bear

And I’m tired of bear getting shot over you

Bear angry

Bear justified

I don’t believe in cultural diversification

I guess Bob didn’t get the memo

Here’s the thing, it will be so easy to take out the civilians we swore to protect – in the end – weaklings – but the enemy is using them against us

That couple got gutted in the street last year

And now poor Bob, with a kitchen knife, in Cali

Ironic he thought Florida was any safer

But then moved out of Cali for it being unsafe – but goes back for a business trip – to wander around the streets after dark –

Elon probably does have security when/if he leaves his Pedo farm

Elon pointed out something in his tweet tho – per chance hinting it was a criminal – someone with a prior arrest sheet – who offed Bob

So you had that phone the whole time and the cops were the only one you called? While dying? Clinging to your phone?

And John didn’t get a second phone call on Thanksgiving

Which was his dying wish

I wouldn’t take my dog out at 2:30 am on the 4th cuz I said “some shit is going down”, “I can feel it in the air”

I guess what I meant was the ether…

“He was my best friend”

My mom said the same thing about my sister, who recently died age 45

Strange, these Boomers are losing their first borns – almost biblical

(Was Bob a first born?)

Diversification is very very bad

Especially when it means other races are being wiped out

Hi. I’m part of the 244.

Anger is a legit mood when someone dies.

It’s part of the 7 stages of grief – interchangeably

I can stay angry for the rest of my life

“Take me from all this death”

She was chasing the Singularity

“I love you too much, to condemn you”


Wiki has already been updated and you’re not cold in your grave


Morgue

There’s a body in the morgue
A cold mentor
Like a mirror I can’t ignore
I don’t know what I’m living for

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal.

Seed hoarding

Free speech and peace and quiet is a God given human right!!!!! These monsters have stolen basic decency! But I’m not allowed to discuss immigration or sex toys sold openly everywhere in America!!!! I’m censored!!!!! To discuss matters in group therapy making me suicidal!!!! Oh god, fuck you! Fuck “therapy”!

You should be fighting for free speech! Stop being a pushover! As a consumer, we should have some say how businesses are run! Too much waste! Stop destroying the rain forest and ocean!

I live in fight or flight mode, so my poetry never has time to sit on the shelf.

Lately, I’m trying to “play dead” and be in fawn mode. This is a legit strategy taught by the Army and used in the wild to bore the predators who want a “fresh meal” and “not dead meat”.

Just don’t let the elite cover you in “natural flavor”.

He’s a hypocrite if he eats that shit.

Furthermore, they put it in the cheap food and the organic food – it was made in a lab! It ain’t natural! Stop gaslighting!!!!!

Y’all dropping hundred dollar bills for foam shoes – that cause cancer.

I can’t even find small cotton panties and now I need XS potentially.

The sizing charts have changed and I’m elite being 110 pounds in America with roughly two out of three adults being overweight.

Yet, yesterday hanging out with squirrels and feeding them, the big kids were rolling their eyes at me – just like the overweight BLM female entering the mall –

We’ve been asking “do cellphone’s cause cancer” and they said everything but what we wanted to hear. Now when shopping for phones, they come with a cancer warning.

FYI

“Reproductive harm”

They’re nihilist’s destroying the world with synthetics and AI!

Black and Latino and Asian lives matter! But Native American and white lives don’t! Check the CENSUS!

And they identify as us!!! Laughs! Wait what!?!

The Great Race war is real – and Asia moving in on the news

The Great Replacement theory!

White man isn’t the only one corruptible or evil! He’s the pawn used in the whole game! By the Asians and yellow fever propaganda!


The use of WordPress in higher education

So – were you aware – that universities are on WordPress and require students to use WordPress to post and respond to other students post – and receive GRADED reports

Cuz that wasn’t in the Privacy policy or any of the FAQ or payment policies

I’m not just paying to reach my tribe – they are flooding the network however they can – so we can chase our tails – meanwhile the younger generations get fed with a platinum spoon – this society

We’re paying in the upwards of $300 -$600 to maintain our blogs/ websites every three years – to reach students and faculty! (Or around $150 annually)

F- U – C – K YOU


Here’s an example in use: https://intothewildbyjohnkrakauerthestoryofchrismccandles.wordpress.com/

https://wpengine.com/resources/wordpress-for-education/

https://www.eridesignstudio.com/insights/70-universities-using-wordpress/

https://wptavern.com/new-report-estimates-wordpress-market-share-of-us-higher-education-institution-websites-at-40-8

Just thought you should know before you bust out the checkbook to keep growing an audience you like to run away


They also hire hackers to blow up the place to sell you “site security”

I can put two and two together


Too Calm (journal log)

I’m told I’ll be getting a renewal invite to remain at the heart of darkness.

It’s been nearly one year since that couple was gutted in the street – by a black immigrant – simply because they were “white” – and now they’re dead – and he gets 3 meals a day, a free roof over his head, dental, and an HOUR of sunshine for his MENTAL HEALTH – on us (the tax slave payers dollars = time/energy)

The political thugs in gold chains now want your signature – soliciting anywhere they legally can: the library, the mall, the medicinal shops.

Overjoyed.

I don’t know where I’m going – but I don’t have to prove anything to “remain here” as I’ve been stuck in purgatory so long now – I don’t have to provide any evidence of my existence.

Just keep paying the rent….

Do as say

But I yelled at the boomer Publix employee, “no bitch, you lost a fucking customer FOREVERRrrr”

Apparently we became a cashless society and she felt the need to rub it in, three times, scolding me in front of everyone around, my cash in hand, unable to pay.

“It says it right there” (honestly, you only need to point out my failure ONCE)

I’ve boycotted Publix forever

There’s poison and sugar and “natural flavor” in everything now anyway

“How did she die”

“Starved to death…”

“White people work out one time and be skinny” (latest neighborhood report on me)

The upside: they think I’ve only worked out once. Skinny. Weak bitch.

Let that be my fucking gain

In fact, at Burger King yesterday, the Mexican manager came out with two of her BLM pimps, when I told her to “step outside”

He was very upset when he heard me say, “oh you had to bring your pimps with you huh”

Very upset he got

Truth in fact hurts

I drove off too calm

The adrenal glands were not working

Even pulling off

“I’m too calm”

“Had to bring your pimps huh” I continue to yell, as traffic at the window was at a stop

They gonna run off all their white costumers with their terrible service

I ordered the “impossible king” and apparently that’s too complicated for certain species to get right

Though I repeated my order THREE times

Fuck it

I like starving anyway

I got my library card tho

And holyshit, that’s where I’ll be at the end of the world

Check the libraries

Leave clues a 5 year old could solve (anything harder and I’ll read the data wrong and wind up stuck in a fucking hole – as is now – with a heart condition – thanks to “television” and government – whom I no longer listen to in any capacity)

At least the library is ad free

I can read in silence

Love the smell of the old books

All them lies

There are perks to not being homeless (yet)

Aside from the thugs trying to solicit my signature in the parking lot – everywhere I go

In their gold chains…

I wanna puke

Stop talking to me

From now on

When someone interrupts whatever I’m doing solo

“Did I give you permission to talk to me”

And the ghosting will begin

And please cross my shadow

I know you’re trying so hard to break me out here

Of being a good Soldier, a good soul

But I swore my hand before the flag and God – and on my heart – and signed the dotted line – took my blood and all – to protect and defend the USA and its citizens – not DEMONS

And right now you stepping all up in the “fine print”

I dated for a lifetime and have nothing to show for it

STOP LOOKING AT ME

I’m ready to spit on these thug politicians in the street

FUCK OFF BRO

You can’t have my signature, my name, or my soul

Go back to your porn and prostitutes

I was trying to enjoy the jazz event – and men breaking their eyeballs to get a look

STOP LOOKING

I had to hold back the tears

Pretend the music was getting to me

Next week I hang with a cop who teaches about a Daytona Beach serial killer

Exciting! They want us living in fear!

Do I want to say yes to the “true encounters Daytona Beach serial killer” event. Yes I do.

I’m not even a jazz fan – but I went – and enjoyed (still cry anywhere)

The audiobook helped me not stalk anyone

But apparently I’m not allowed to order food anymore anywhere

Unless a yuppie place

I found something that sparked joy in me

It matches my values – it offers self-improvement and the entertainment is how it should be – without disruptions or ads

Easy scrolling interface

Eventually I’ll make my way to the science museum

The skate park and rinks

I checked out an express book

I’m 8 chapters in

I’m becoming present – and creating boundaries and discipline

My mind needs exercise – the books provide

The 2 week express lane gives me a challenge

You can’t renew those

I got my library card and it’s bringing me happies – can’t describe

So much to do too – free classes, movies at the auditorium, events…

I was also the youngest person at the jazz event

If you’re thinking about killing yourself – maybe get a library card instead

And be present

Read what you check out

Set time aside to read

Luckily – my first book was large print – that’s made reading a pleasure – no headaches or squinting – though the writer is a pedo – he’s brilliant – it’s no wonder I grabbed his book – of all books on the “new” shelf (express check out and no renewal)

I like all the digital perks that come with my card – as well as the real world perks – and I’m tapping into all

NOT READY TO DIE

But these monsters are ready for me to shed my light

I’m too calm…


Do We Want Mexifornia? | Flood of Illegal Immigration into California

Thousands arrive illegally from Mexico into California each year—and the state is now home to fully 40 percent of America’s immigrants, legal and illegal.
— Read on www.city-journal.org/html/do-we-want-mexifornia-12236.html


And now they can vote! Anyone can vote! Sex toys are sold in front of children!!!!!!

America is gone!!!! Too many hands in the cookie jar!!!!!

44 Shocking Animal Shelter Statistics (2022 UPDATE) | Petpedia

Unfortunately, most animal shelter statistics paint a sad story. Though the progress in the years is evident, there’s plenty that can be done in 2022.
— Read on petpedia.co/animal-shelter-statistics/


Hail Hitler! He’s alive!

I’m old and sick! Euthanize me!!!!!

It’s not 60k annually anymore. The numbers are much much worse.

“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”

And children are being conditioned as children to support prostitution and porn. That’s why the divorce rate is 100%!

Ex-Porn Star Tells the Truth About the Porn Industry

Shelley Lubben, an ex-porn star, discusses the destructive, drug infested, abusive, and sexually diseased world of porn the porn industry.
— Read on www.covenanteyes.com/2008/10/28/ex-porn-star-tells-the-truth-about-the-porn-industry/


They’re all spreading diseases. Even the silent ones. The enemy knows how to destroy a nation.

3 Reasons Why Watching Porn Is Harmful (And Research Is Proving It)

Just like it took decades for science to prove that smoking cigarettes was harmful, we are learning a similar lesson with porn in our society today. Science and research are proving that porn harms…
— Read on fightthenewdrug.medium.com/3-reasons-why-watching-porn-is-harmful-and-research-is-proving-it-bc572b1b0abf


The elite are building a society of psychopaths and narcissists period. They serve Satan, Black Holes, Dark suns, worlds, darkness in general, they are demented demons without a soul. They are nihilistic at their core.

Big Porn & prostitution (not opinion, FACT)

They’re in-love with the porn stars and prostitutes (according to scientific studies)

Except, it’s not real.

The prostitutes – according to studies – create alternative personas while doing sex work – causes negative mental health – and men do not need to be tested for STD or STI – even though they are the silent carriers – often without any signs or symptoms – which can lay dormant for years – and parasites and cancer can be spread from semem, as well as simple skin-to-skin contact.

I’ve shared every study backing this up.

The prostitutes “rub their back” before doing sex work – and they do not use the same style to connect in their personal lives – they make up personas to get through the sex work – many were abused as children, forced into sex work.

Prostitution is a direct link to sex trafficking – making prostitution legal creates MORE human trafficking – which they now have undeniable proof of.

Many countries have made prostitution legal, while other countries have made it illegal but still sell sex via entertainment – creating street hookers, violence, and other negative social impacts. The doors to America remain open for sex trafficking.

Furthermore, the divorce rate is over 85%.

Prostitutes do not “enjoy” their line of work – disassociating from what they do – separating personal life from work – over 75% remain “single” and “would never marry the men they service” – even though they program them to love them (some maintaining sex relations with “repeat customers for years”)

And the fact that they can’t fall in love or show signs – makes it more exciting to them

They walk in with their dicks hard and ballsack full – ready to shoot them their biggest load

These prostitutes don’t even like the line of work

Porn and prostitution is creating monsters in a soulless society

Women and children at home – suffer extreme abuse

Porn isn’t real – it’s fantasy football. It’s soap operas in the nude on repeat. Porn stars fucking themselves in the ass with a wine bottle for decades – then taking a drink

Same story over and over

And the men get hooked as CHILDREN – many get into porn and prostitution by their own fathers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They have brain rot! Their primal side of the brain is activated – hence all the crime!!!!!!!!!

It’s the devil!

They’re selling sex toys at the mall and Walmart, CVS, Walgreens, Dolls Kill, and many more! It’s not behind a curtain!!!

It’s a society of sickness

Our very foundation is built on a sin and lie

All so men can go to war in exotic lands and experience exotic women – while the wives are at home

It’s turned into a well-oiled beast

It’s demon vs human down here (likely opinion but I identify as Angel Baby)

They say in the press that “narcissism is rare” but it’s actually a plague

They say psychopaths “are born” but a “narcissist is made”

Yeah, and it starts in the Bible (narcissism is throughout), with porn and prostitution

Big government is to blame

“The sins of the father”

Apparently you will experience 3 deaths: one when you die, the second when you are buried, and third and finally, the last time your name is ever said.

I’ll probably wind back in “Misery” because there’s only one person I want to see me dead – or bury me.

So if I wind up in his yard half-alive, it won’t be long. I will likely be nude – like our dear Edgar, to keep with tradition

Don’t make fun of my emaciated frame

You don’t know what holes I crawled out to get here

I was reaching depth blackout – but I am slowly retreating – and repenting these days – I think that’s what the holes in the wall mean – repentance and awakening

God put me down here on this earth to judge you

Taking my freedom of speech – silencing me from atrocities – will not stop me from truthmonging

But I’m still a woman with needs unmet, with a private strip club, where the devil is kept (poetry)

LAUGHS

Apparently it’s not a good time to move but I feel I will die if I stay here (it’s not just a “feeling”, there are many red flags)

90% of all homicide happen by men (verifiable)

Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct (verifiable)

We are in a 6th mass extinction (verifiable) (over never ending porn, prostitution, sex trafficking over 6000 years)

The leaders running things serve Luci

Apparently I was right about the enemy in the White House because the females are upset the law was changed (mostly voted in by men) – that they cannot show their shoulders

LAUGHS

They kept fucking with the female Soldiers changing the regulations telling us how to wear our hair, nails, makeup. I got out.

It was already strict when I swore my life to “America and our way of life” – which has been completely destroyed by immigration

Had no idea the waters I was swimming in

I had no idea the seabed could drag you down due to gravity – and with the pressure of the ocean above – you sink quickly

They are turning Florida into Dubai – but FL is limestone – and sinking – so not a good idea

The floods, the condos collapsing, I ain’t all talk

You have to turn it off if you want to change

I know you think you want how you are – but I don’t buy it

You have to remove predictive programming

I never said it was easy

I’m done supporting toxic masculinity society

I just still have hope I might get through to someone – who might change for the better

As far as the hypocrisy of doing nude art, I’m not compromising my soul, I find it therapeutic, I’m not disassociating to make photography or poetry

At the moment I’m overcoming dying and a major illness – heart inflammation and depression

I’m barely working or putting out content unless you count my blog work – and WordPress says I’m on a 19 day streak or something

I’m also in the middle of getting rid of everything I own – either in an attempt to save my life or end it

The odds are set

I’m just awaiting the verdict

And if I’m gonna be “responsive or reactive”

Don’t judge me

That’s my job, that’s what God put me here to do (potentially)

In the court room: “because God ordered me to do it”

The only thing God should be ordering you to do, is “tender mercy” (tho I’m not obliged to be telling him what you outta do)

God can hear me cursing outside his church

I live in hell…


Yellow Fever (poetry)

I’m not Asian. I’m not a 10. I’m over 29. I’m God’s orphan.

© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal


They bleach their skin. Cuz Black Lives Matter. And according to the census, White lives don’t. FACTS


Asia number one

And I would’ve probably believed in the whole biblical bullshit had they not tried to convince me about some magical woman getting pregnant without any cum or some dude walking on water and now they want me to believe in dark matter, dark suns, dark worlds, dark planets – I mean you’re fucking delusional and I believe in death.

Narcissism is a plague

Those in “control” are nihilists


Man comes from vagina

Woman does not come from rib of man but vagina

FACTS


The first Bible can be traced back to Asia

“Made in China” – that’s what every Bible should say – not just the version cuz it’s been rewritten to serve Satan a million times

The Good Book with “words of Christ in red” should have never been rewritten. Period. Red flags. It’s conditioning.

And I knew it was all about control when I was just age 5.

I hated the cold atmosphere of school – and the misinformation taught

I even asked my mother, “who is in charge of what they teach us”

She is possessed by the Devil

She swears it is me…

LAUGHS

It was a terrible toxic environment

The folks need dying and dead

Gutted in the fucking street

Maybe then I’d get some sleep…


Principalities and Powers

Demonic forces never stopped running through human affairs. We just stopped seeing them.
— Read on www.theamericanconservative.com/principalities-and-powers/


People like killing dogs and cats too. Facing my own issues with an animal; I find end-of-life services to be inhumane and Hitler regime.

Many just give up, shelter’s are full – animals will be sacrificed.

I’m not making this up. They are eager to take that money too.

One humane society charges more for you to “go back”. A significant amount more.

I’m autistic, “what do you mean “go back” and she explained – “to watch – to be with them” – “that cost more”.

And, an additional cost if you want a “box or urn”.

He’s had 3 end of life appointments made – one with his primary veterinarian, two with the humane society.

I called eventually a third time and stated, “I won’t be able to do this by appointment, I’m having a hard time letting go”

Because – I researched the chemical used to stop their heart – their bodies jerking around.

When someone ODs they go out peacefully and you can call it humane, but I disagree that End Of Life Services are anywhere but “humane” when their bodies are literally jerking around.

My grandmother let her dog “die naturally”.

Anyhoo – I’m against abortion and apparently against manmade animals from a lab getting sacrificed to the dark entity

My dog has a strong heartbeat and will to live. He may be a hellhound – but he’s my hellhound for “better or for worse”.

He may qualify for end-of-life services, and that may be the “easier” path for me – but it requires ending a life, stopping a heart. I do not comply.

And I’m so fucking depressed and suicidal that I would rather jump off a fucking bridge than figure out what to do with my dog, which means I’ve quit weed so that I can figure out what to do with my fucking dog because apparently this new age weed complicates PTSD (hear, hear) and causes suicidal ideation

Also, these drugs folks are doing, probably have code written in them, that’s why they see “the same thing”. 

Autistic doesn’t mean “dumb”.

Gullible sure. I know that they use art and cartoons to imprint on us.

NASA is extreme religiousness – they “the physicist” now are pushing “dark worlds” with “dark suns” and “dark planets” – made of “dark matter”.

It’s one extreme to the next – from walking on water to miracle pregnancies – to “dark worlds”.

They serve a dark entity.

Can I please have a tech free zone? Tech free state? 

Global study on homicide

About 90 per cent of all homicides recorded worldwide were committed by male perpetrators
— Read on www.unodc.org/unodc/en/data-and-analysis/global-study-on-homicide.html


90% of all murders happen by MEN

Porn activates the PRIMAL side of the BRAIN 🧠

Females go in heat too

Learn to control your urges

Clearly you can’t handle leading a double/triple life

Now we have documentation: Women earn less than men in the same job

Norwegian women earn 9 per cent less than men, even if they work in the same workplace, have the same occupation and the same job. Fifteen countries, including Norway, have been investigated in a large international study.
— Read on sciencenorway.no/economy-gender-and-society/now-we-have-documentation-women-earn-less-than-men-in-the-same-job/2120512


“Never catch up”

It’s narcissism. They don’t want us in the game when we come from “rib of man” – like they see us as sex objects only. Why would we get equal pay when we belong in the kitchen.

Men do not care about us and neither do the gays.

‘I don’t come here for the conversation’

Why do ordinary, respectable men visit prostitutes? Jacquelynne Bailey spoke to customers at Australian brothels to find out. Her interviews provide a rare insight into how some men see not just sex, but women.
— Read on amp.theguardian.com/world/2002/apr/08/gender.uk


“It’s always better with a whore”

“Older, but not over 35…”

Study Finds Men Want Love With Prostitutes

Are Men Looking For Love With Prostitutes?
— Read on www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/2012/08/13/relationships-men-fall-in-love-with-prostitutes_n_1772680.html


It’s all been conditioning – these men have been buying sex since children

And now children can see and buy sex toys – toys aren’t behind a black curtain….

The Devil’s society…

Give it time, LGBT will have an orgy in the street.

Porn has ruined man

They fall in love with an idea – and the porn industry repeats the same story throughout years – with all sex workers.

They need the girls in the pictures so much that they use “commoners” as fleshlights

“No one knows why” – ahem bullshite it’s porn

Porn segregates us from unity, imprinting

Well – these boys are exposed to porn at a very young age and it imprints on them.

And image is important to them – gaslighting – so the Church offers a safe haven for these demons – who want us paying for their housing and meals.

They disassociate when they use porn so it’s like they become a completely different person and that’s why there’s no remorse when they do the shit that they do to you

They have an addiction created by the enemy to break up the traditional family value home – all while the immigrants take throne during “yellow fever”

Suicide is a top leading cause of death worldwide

Porn is the gateway drug to ruin

It could be easily censored like they do my free-speech

All the little commoners who get on onlyfans, they just use us up like they do in the real world 

Most anyway

OnlyFans say most users loose out – it’s only the top folks with value (society is the Titanic)

They steal money from users too

And as much as I love blogging, I don’t want to continue paying the enemy

Pay to play

I’d rather die than give the state another penny

And I can’t even visit Orlando without having to pay four tolls to return and they aren’t cheap anymore 

It’s the same fucking county, but I have to pay to return to the city I’m registered to live in.

Florida is gone

Overrun with evil and immigration

I mean immigrants get here and naturalize faster than we can even procreate or vote 

Native Americans were doing just fine here until my bloodline was nearly wiped out by the fucking immigrants that you say bring so much greatness to our country

I fantasize about dying by suicide in terrible and terrifying ways

I know you’re a nihilist and do not care what happens to me…

”To be seen and not heard” while man destroys everything

But as long as we are making him a meal and doing everything for him

While he jerks off to the pretty women prostitutes

And by telling a man not to fall in love with you, they probably absolutely fucking do fall in love with these prostitutes (not commoners)

Because even the guys without any teeth, think they deserve a ten star 

And I’ve never been rated a 10 or treated with any value

Lots of marriage proposals though 

Fleshlights….

Inflation Experiences for Lower and Higher Income Households : Spotlight on Statistics: U.S. Bureau of Labor Statistics

This Spotlight presents consumer price indexes for groups of households at the lowest and highest end of the income distribution for urban households to examine how different spending patterns can change measures of inflation.
— Read on www.bls.gov/spotlight/2022/inflation-experiences-for-lower-and-higher-income-households/home.htm


It’s gentrification and narcissism and those in power set the inflation rates.

They are the reason the rent keeps going up.

They weren’t hurting or remorseful when we were suffering. They were spending money on travel, entertainment, phones and cars. We were trying to pay rent and eat.

They’re amused by our suffering.

A 10% difference is a lot when the majority can’t eat while the rest are at play and having fun. Killing the world is fun!!! We’re kings!

I’m done. With everything. I no longer support society. I am withdrawing from everything. It does not serve God or the natural way.

This is so sad. We only get this one life. Our nation was crippled by immigrants who are not crippled.

Those at the top are the immigrants!

Charts show immigration have our best jobs

In 2019, there were 28.4 million foreign-born people in the U.S. labor force, comprising 17.4 percent of the total.
— Read on www.bls.gov/opub/ted/2020/foreign-born-workers-made-up-17-point-4-percent-of-labor-force-in-2019.htm


I know what it says but look at the chart – immigrants have overtaken 3 of those categories and are quickly nearing the other 2 categories of work filled

And, according to the color, Florida is absolutely gone (same as California and New York – all owned by immigrants)

THEY HAVE ALL OUR BEST JOBS

In China, growth policy compounds the toll on parents who lose a child

One-child policy leaves some parents childless, hopeless and facing financial ruin in old age
— Read on www.washingtonpost.com/world/asia_pacific/in-china-one-child-policy-compounds-loss-of-child-for-parents/2013/08/07/063716fe-e877-11e2-a301-ea5a8116d211_story.html


It’s tragic. Our mental health is directly connected to our dicks and vaginas. They sterilized and aborted an entire nation!

They’re still doing it with vaccines!!!!!!

I also learned the vaccines contain aborted babies (it’s real)!

The government needs shut down!!!!!!

This is tragic!!!!

It’s narcissism! It’s all serving the Devil!!!! Or darkness! It’s not unity or being one with earth!

Stop killing everything! Women and babies especially!!!!!!

Y’all are insane but want to commit me!!!

Immigrants have taken over California and New York and they are coming after Florida. Most Floridians say Florida has changed for the worse. 

The VA is corrupt and so is the White House

And according to the official stats, the majority of immigrants vote one way 

I will rise up

And if it takes five people to arrest me, five people will go fucking down

I’m fed up!

The fact that most Chinese thought the one child law policy was a good idea…. 

It also creates narcissism

They’ve ruined America with insurance and taxes and COLA 

They’ve ruined everything and everyone it seems

Too much control

And Genzie and millennials don’t give a fuck about anything so they’re not gonna rise up and fight anything except for the wind to light the fucking lighter for the goddamn weed

And their sex toys

LGBT is a cult

Sex toys are being sold everywhere in front of any age…. little curious boys looking at the anal plugs at Spencer’s

Can buy online at Walmart, CVS, Dolls Kill, Walgreens, ect

Dildo’s and vibrators for “health and wellness”

Disgusting 🤢

China drops one-child policy

Lavishing attention on an only child takes its toll on parents.
— Read on www.washingtonpost.com/world/asia_pacific/china-drops-one-child-policy-but-exhausted-tiger-moms-say-one-is-plenty/2016/10/14/336f1890-8ae7-11e6-8a68-b4ce96c78e04_story.html


China is the biggest political fuck up power in the world 🛑🥴⚠️🫣👀🛑

And they took over America 🇺🇸

Constantly telling us what we can and cannot do

Crippling a nation with divorce, disease, depression!

I don’t fucking trust you if you’re in a position of power or brown-nosing these ridiculous policies.

And I think a lot of Americans are ready for the big immigration push back.

Too much conflict of interest – everything benefiting other nations (who took throne here).

Check the migration stats, jobs, and census. Do you have reading comprehension though?

This is 2023 (not really – it’s a manmade calendar and they took away a month! April fools! The gaslighting in this society never ends.)

Always got us chasing our tail!!!! 

It’s 7 years behind in Ethiopia

I wasn’t learning about that in school when they were teaching about “time zones”

I hated every moment of school and working 90 hours a week (2-3 jobs) to pay my electric and rent

I keep hoping to have hope – that my future includes a real bond with a man, as God intended. A pure love where he isn’t giving his best energy and time to other women.

But, even if a man is going through a Great Awakening, when he settles down, he’ll go for the young one.

I’m obsolete

Thank you for pushing me into the extinction zone

“Men can have babies”

Have fun with that

The blogging community is full of demons

The way these narcissist delete lives and comments without any remorse

Therapy is just a stage for them to practice lying

Narcissism isn’t rare, it’s a fucking plague…

Spread by the Bible via Yellow Fever propagandist

And scientist say we’re in a six mass extinction and the Bible has been around 6000 years so you do the fucking math or don’t I don’t fucking care anymore


The census show BLM at over 230% rise and White Lives Don’t matter at a 10% decrease

“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”

Nihilism!!!!!

Women create. Men destroy.

And they don’t give anything enough time to replenish. The sea is not endless food for us. Your Bible is a lie!!!!!!

And it’s been pushed down my throat since I was born.

NASA is a dogma stealing your money

I don’t think CGI cartoon is what I had in mind when being taxed to death – to visit a dead planet because you can’t sit still long enough to stop killing this one

“90% of all murders happen by men..”

Yeah but…. don’t even look at me unless you want WW4

The wars will never end because the people in power have delusions of grandeur and are sending cars into fucking space

And now they’re moving asteroids and shit around?

My cell service continues to drop and lines are all in the ocean…

So basically, if you’re talking to me, you’re lying

That’s how fucking woke I am

Y’all believe aliens are real, and that computers have feelings

I do have one question for God and that’s: do Asians have the smallest penis of all and that’s why they fucking gaslight and do all this!?!

“Mirror mirror on the wall, Asian men have the smallest penis of all”

“So we’ll lie and program the world to think our childlike women have magical vaginas!!!!!!”

It’s all full circle now

It’s a game of the elite and I’m sick of playing delusions of grandeur

The cookie crumb traces back to Asia

And I’m sort of getting to the point if you don’t get me away to my own land and away from these fucking immigrants – things are gonna go fucking west pretty quick, and I don’t give a fuck if I wind up in a goddamn ditch

The fact that they raised taxes so much crippling a nation

But if you read articles about immigration, they will all claim they are doing well family and financially, but Americans will say the opposite, and the low paying wage jobs and homelessness proves it.

But you won’t listen over your green card or Yellow Fever

I’m fed up!

This is why I say I’m homicidal instead of suicidal and this is why I encourage people to just go fucking mad in the streets because fuck everything – they probably had it coming that goddamn street

That fucking morning shift deserved everything they got

How much you like your job again?

You like it that much huh

To treat customers and residents like we ain’t got no value

That calm you see from me

Ain’t really good

But I guess I’m learning to gaslight too

I’m starting to stalk people on the road

And I will wind up on a ditch if I don’t leave the city

At least I’m quitting the new age weed

So more emoness incoming

And poetry too

If God allows me to continue making a mess of everything

Those NASA images are just a fairytale

Elon’s education and hair is fake

He had connections

I can’t believe the fucking moon landings were rehearsed

If the government is talking, I don’t care to hear what they have to say

The holy inquisition yellow fever madness (free speech)

Let him get back to the holy inquisition yellow fever madness
Magical pussies
Walking on water
Delusions of grandeur

Hello God

*waves*

It’s astounding to me that these yellow fever men do not have the sensibility to see – on the cover itself – which edition of the Bible they are reading

Because there are many versions

And they are different

The Old Testament versus the New Testament

The new revised standard version

The King James version

New International version

New Living translation

Just the fact that it was translated is a red flag – I watch basic movies in both languages – the original or translated – and the translated version most always certainly changes the meaning

Remember that study, where you tell someone something – and by the time it reaches the other end of the room – it’s completely changed.

Something simple like “the sky is red” will turn into “the sky is bleeding”! It’s obviously misleading (The Bible)

(I think I’ve read them all – I have a stack of varyingly different versions, some with the word of Christ “in red” (the conditioning), some that are super tiny, some large, and the first I ever received age 4 – in color, with a map).

Men try to control my every thought and move – but didn’t think I’d be smart enough to study the Bible and learn anything other than “to be seen and not heard”, “women come from rib of man”

No Asia, everyone comes from vagina – and not just magical Asian ones

Men come from vagina

Men cannot have babies

I will go down fighting

God exists outside the yellow fever Bible – that has been re-written many times – and the edition can be found on the cover – it’s not opinion asshole

Furthermore, I do have a degree and did study World Religions.

But because I’m white and female – my word will always just be “opinion” to man who creates and controls this entire delusional world – that I don’t want to participate in!

I don’t have value because I’m not an Asian with a magical sideways pussy.

Y’all are fucking insane

Porn destroyed you

But keep blaming marijuana as the gateway drug OK?

You’ll soon be selling sex toys at the church for health and wellness

The way you are now selling sex toys at Walmart, Dolls Kill, CVS, Walgreens, the mall…

You don’t even need to be 21+ anymore to enter

It’s all been conditioning

And because Asians supposedly are the “most educated and hard working” they come over here and they take all our best jobs too and that’s also not fucking opinion

I’m pretty much done voting, dating, or looking at men

If you are white, I will boldly presume you have yellow fever

If you support the Bible, I will boldly presume you have yellow fever

If you are married to an Asian, you most definitely have yellow fever

If you look at me with any interest, I’m gonna assume you have yellow fever

If you are alive, you have yellow fever

If you act interested in me, I’m just gonna reply “I’m not a ten, I’m not Asian”

“I don’t want to be your fleshlight”

And that’s what living with real autism is like

Many of Genzie and millennials, who claim to be “autistic” are really just emancipated

I’m kinda disgusted with humanity and those “in charge” ruining everything with religion and race

They use art and cartoon to get yeah

And NASA admitted it’s all “CGI artist interpretation”

James Webb only sees in red

I don’t know how else to get through

The rest is just data and numbers

Dots

They assign colors to numbers

It’s not even art, it’s an algorithm

And I’m tired of being conditioned to think that AI is art, it’s fucking not

It’s cutting corners

It’s lazy

It’s cheap (tho expensive lol)

Like I worked really hard to be a decent woman for man

And you all have yellow fever

At least the majority do

The fact that I’m still ascending (descending into hell)

The fact that God doesn’t want me disassociating anymore

“Where do you get your truth”

Not from the Bible – it uncovers the grand lie

The Great Pyramid scheme

The Great Wall of Deceit (is being disassembled on the black market and sold to build homes yassssssss – tear down the wall)!!!!!!!!

Did it ever occur to you that I am the truth

I’m one of God’s angels (I declare this and identify as angelic)

I am a truthmonger

I’ve been questioning my parents and the establishment since I was very young and I knew this was all bullshit

“How do you know the sun is so far away, you’ve been?” (Asked age 5)

“We shon a laser on a wall”

And I hate to be the bearer of bad news, or whatever news it is because you won’t believe me anyway, but the sun is electrical and closer to us than you’ve been told

Now I don’t mean plug in a socket electrical

But water exists as a fourth stage: plasma

Also, the Moon is a dead star (earth probably actually formed from her but whatev)

Again, I never believed the earth-moon theory

Never believed in the Big Bang model

Or the evolution theory

Or, that “women come from the rib of man”

If that somehow makes Asian women better than me – because I don’t believe in delusions of grandeur – and instead equality – then so be it. I’ll die alone without any worth from man cuz I’m not plastic surgery or yellow nor will bow to them simply to bow

Respect is earned

I know my worth even though I’m constantly crying to God “I’m worthless”, “I don’t deserve anything”

Apparently, this new age weed can cause suicidal ideation, and further complicate PTSD.

I’m getting off it now as I’ve never been more suicidal in my life

Big pharma also made me extremely homicidal

I will be real with you – so-in-so needs to go ahead and file multiple restraining orders- and I hear the more you have – the less they work

“90% of all murders happen by men“

But the other 10% – !?!

Are people worth going to jail for? No

But if you’re already dying and dead…

And you’ve sold or trashed everything you own…

What’s to lose!?!

It’s not murder if eye for eye

“You took my life”

But I have faith that God wants more for me than dying on the street or revenge from atrocities

It can go either way

I’m prepared for the worst outcome – dying

It won’t be jail or committed

DO NOT MOURN FOR ME

Porn has made it that man has no value at all – though he is racist to his core

I read into many articles about yellow fever – and migration patterns to the USA

It’s only the immigrants who say that are satisfied with their income and family here – and I summed it up to gentrification.

And now Biden made it so non- citizens can vote.

Americans are slaves to the Asian and Asian Americans who identify mostly as “Chinese American” and mostly only care about Chinese culture

Chinese culture has taken over America including yellow fever

Magical childlike pussies huh

Y’all are disgusting

I don’t wanna look at anybody in the eye

Some guy paying me a compliment: “I’m not Asian, shut up”

I don’t even wanna hear what any have to say…

I’m not Asian therefore white lives don’t matter


This (poetry)

This is the mess I made
Trotting through blindfold
This is the price I paid
No household

This is the mess I made
Clothing soiled
Trying to escape
Keeping heart from cold

This is the mess I made
Acting spoiled
Changing shape
Letting chaos manifold

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

This is the mess I made is sung in the style of Jim Morrison

Jim is very much part of my essence and purpose even tho I sold my precious vinyl

Been letting go of my “empire of shit”

Never been more suicidal in my life

But I’ve been trying to end it since before I was born…


Look at this pedophilia propaganda infesting my home

Donate pile…


It’s human vs demon vs angel baby down here

I hope God loves me…

And doesn’t forget me in the void…

“Why have you forsaken me” welp

All I do is walk around with a stone and I’m also in bear mode, so please don’t activate

“If cute why not pet”

Cuz rip veins from neck “with teeth”

Keep back ten feet…


(The enemy is in a white coat and house)

The census: it’s not just how they are reporting

I’ve overstayed my welcome

“I talk to dead people”

I’m autistic (they want to commit me for not being a monotone droid who does what it’s told)

“I’m that program in the Matrix doing what it should not”

“I see dead people” *sobs* 👀

Don’t tell your therapist this or anyone

If I wind up on the crazy top o clock news, bear mode, celebrate

And if there’s any casualties of war, well, you shouldn’t of fucked with my dog…


Walmart is selling sex toys online in the health department (proof)

When I was growing up, sex toys were in the “Adult stores” that were age 21+ and only

But now anyone can buy sex toys at any age – (the Mall is also selling adult toys in front of children; conditioning).

Look how the algorithm includes suggestions

And over 1000+ search results….

So this is America now.

I am LOUDLY quitting

And I just thought you should know

What our children have been exposed to

And how you should stop supporting the enemy

Boycott Walmart

Boycott Walmart

I did send up feedback in the app to the AI in control

I am uninstalling the app

I’m gonna keep starving until I find food that isn’t poisoned 🤢

No one is doing anything to protect my precious energy

I do not own sex toys and have not for years

They desensitize

It’s not actually “healthy” despite being sold in the health department online

What’s next? The gas stations? Next to the crack pipes?

Also, Walmart is adding natural flavor to the beef. It ain’t vegan if it’s got natural flavor in it.

Go look for yourself if it will help you transition

The firming agent in the beans is actually ruining the beans!

When is the uprising again?

Y’all all have so many addictions.

Synthetic material is highly flammable, and when they go to drop their little bombs in the air, you’re gonna go poof poof

It’s extremely hard to extinguish

Corduroy was always 100% cotton (no synthetic fibers)

But now that the Chinese government openly control everything – they are changing the literal definition and meanings of words.

The first Bible can be traced back to Asia.

“Made in China”

The Bible has also been rewritten so many times that it’s Luciferian in nature.

Still think porn should be widely circulated on social media – while our free speech is not?

The Internet should be made 21+

I see one little thing and get traumatized

My sexual energy is pure

My body

There are parts of me untouched and untainted

I have a shit ton to learn with a man

If and when the time ever comes

And God knows the sacrifices I’ve made to cleanse myself of a curse

I’ve got holes in my fucking wall…

I need out of the city

I don’t want to support the enemy

There are people in China suffering from their own fucking government that I can’t fucking stand who has taken over America.

I’m still a Soldier!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They are going after soldiers who want 100% for PTSD. They’re trying to fucking commit us because the goddamn enemy is inside the White House.

Can anyone hear me through their addictions and own personal hell?

Or naw? Pretty certain naw…

Because sex toys are being sold at the health department at Walmart


Amazon is sharing your address Wishlist with the buyer

I went in to make changes to my Amazon Wishlist and they have new features – already selected for you – about disclosing your address to the buyer

“The seller may disclose your address to the buyer”

Wait. What. 👀

I have a brain injury and maybe I’m misinterpreting what that says!?!

I’ve since unchecked the box – and I’ve no one spoiling me – but I very much intend to spoil me – as these are items I want/need.

That’s a dangerous new feature Amazon has added

I wasn’t even aware until I was acting emo and making privacy changes

Anyhoo…

If you have children using it or anyone under the age of 18 and they have an Amazon wishlist account and people spoiling them, then they may be getting access to your home address now.

I care about the unsuspecting adults too (like self) and people with mental illness who may try and obtain an address for harm

I don’t understand how it’s legal for a business to do something like this, it’s fucking dangerous

They are using grams as weight now cuz America belongs to the immigrants and their children born here naturalized

The immigrants get to vote before our children legally turn 18 to do so

LMAO

I wish I had known all this before I started College is a scam.

Quietly LOUDLY quitting society

Information is knowledge so please let folks know that their lives are in danger now – unless they want complete strangers with their shipping address!?!?

I don’t like giving out my phone number or email and now we’re just giving folks our home address huh.

Why not just give the buyer your address and fuck Amazon all together?

Why use a third party at all? Which was the entire fucking point I thought.

Amazon is dead

There’s hardly a place worth shopping

I like thrift stores and antique furniture shops

I will find the most ugly shop in Florida you can find.

Get on my knees and hunt

Getting offline forever soon…

I don’t understand the point


The US white majority will soon disappear forever

The US white majority will soon disappear forever – The Chicago Reporter
— Read on www.chicagoreporter.com/the-us-white-majority-will-soon-disappear-forever/


RACISM IS BRED

ACCORDING TO OFFICIAL STATS COVID KNOCKS OUT WHITE PEOPLE LESS

OUR ENEMY HAS BEEN TAKING US DOWN

THEY ALWAYS USE A WHITE MAN TO PIN AND BLAME

COLUMBUS

MARK ZUCKERBERG

THEY AIN’T IN CHARGE

NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE

Protect the second amendment 💪

At all costs!

They trying to take away our Second Amendment through mental health

Luckily I live down in the deep south where us white folk don’t give a fuck about the paperwork because we like our motherfucking GUNS

Next they’re gonna start removing the soldiers for being too depressed so they can’t have their M-16

I was afraid to carry for a long time because I was so fucking depressed and falling down the propaganda hole and I nearly yeeted myself out of existence

I’m still suicidal because this society doesn’t connect me to my purpose

That’s why I go completely haywire during voting time

COLLEGE IS A SCAM MET WITH GOVERNMENT FURLOUGHS AND HIRING FREEZES

Notice how all the management positions and really good jobs have gone to the LGBT community Black Lives Matter community and immigration

Who is on the other end of the phone when you call to pay a bill?

I’m almost relieved when I get an American who speaks native English almost anywhere

I feel a stranger in my own land

But I’m not allowed to talk about it

I’m not allowed to talk about the country I signed up to protect

I swore an oath

I SWORE

To defend the citizens of the United States – the same citizens that the immigrants are using propaganda against to drive us fucking insane with hate, fearmongering, racism

The suicide rate continues to increase among Veterans and soldiers

And just because I’m graduating to group therapy doesn’t mean I’m not fucking depressed and that doesn’t mean you get to take my fucking gun from me either

I mean, you will see an uprising real fucking fast if people go to buy a gun and then they are flagged for mental health

And we’d be fine if we could get some peace and fucking quiet but they lifted the city noise ordinance in 2012

IMMIGRANTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m a soldier and yet I’m not allowed to talk about immigration or how it’s a fucking problem in America!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m sick of being forced into my masculine because the men here are emancipated

And then when I do take my clothes off so I can feel like a fucking female and human because I have no interpersonal relationships going on at all – then I’m fucking told I need to fucking cover up because I’m shameful and a fucking whore and I’m pretty “I’m to be seen, but not fucking heard”

He can buy whatever he wants but why buy it when you can manipulate someone and get it for free 👀

He has it all and he enjoys watching me run circles for breadcrumbs

He likes girls, he likes to gamble (there’s a poem here)

But God will be reigning on him soon

He was warned

Thinks he can piss all over God’s angel

Possibly his guardian angel

He wants me to beg for him to piss on me!!!!!!

Delusional!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

😤

I don’t care how married you are and how much connection you have – a great way to lose it is to piss on your fucking wife or shit on them OK that’s a great way to fucking lose whatever fucking connection you have because in the moment they may say yes to it but later on it’s going to eat at their fucking soul and then you’re probably gonna wanna do it again aren’t you, you gonna wanna keep pissing on them oh my fucking God oh my fucking gawddddd

I was a medic and I was a damn good medic and I’ve worked in the hospital, I’ve worked in the ER, I’ve worked in the ear nose and throat clinic, I’ve done all of it OK and I don’t want to be pissed on or shit on ever in any fucking kind of moment

I’D RATHER BEG FOR MY GRAVE

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with wanting to look at other images of people and using it in a healthy manner that’s not hurting other people

I personally would not want to know that my husband was getting off on other girls, it would make me wanna jump off a fucking bridge

But I like looking at nude art images, including gothic horror vampire nude art

I’m not out here worshiping the devil or doing satanic rituals or lying to people

I personally do not use any kind of porn or toys for fulfillment because I’m undegoing a spiritual cleansing because I want a husband

I am naïve enough to believe that maybe there’s one man out there who will choose me over porn

And the guy who called me for 11 hours, he only drops me breadcrumbs now and he doesn’t think I have any worth, he hates my style, and he wants me to beg him to pee on me, I mean as if

CLUELESS

I’m just ready for payday to come so I can fill up my gas tank and get the fuck out of my apartment

We still have hot weather but I would like to get out early enough to take my mini trampoline and do some fitness outside and it would be nice if I could go on my bike rides which I haven’t faced my fear of leaving the fucking apartment yet

Yes I do get out from time to time but I need a battle buddy

The Army instilled in me “use a battle buddy” system 

Especially as a female….

“Never go anywhere alone”

“If you get lost, stand still”

Like, I can keep going…

I mean, with the KNOWLEDGE IS POWER bits

I served in the Army when the Army was at its best (we got Gen Z and the quiet quitter now who want reward before service)

Now I believe it’s quite literally up to the veterans to save the world and we are trying to get our shit together, most of us are graduating into group therapy but that doesn’t mean that we are fucking better and it also doesn’t mean you are going to take away our guns or gun rights!!! 💪

You should be aware that the government likes to use emergencies to fuck you over and they invent the emergency to push control

I’m trying to save you

I love him so much but he keeps me on a low vibrational frequency and every time he comes around he’s disrupting my peace

I’m not ghosting him, I’m just setting healthy boundaries because he doesn’t realize what he has (but I do)

He can have his freedom I fought for

But I’m watching him fall all down the government millennial traps and his safety net is going to be removed by God

I have fantasies about spitting on my mother in her coffin when she dies


TikTok is a Chinese military communist app

We work hard to make them first for them to throw us scraps
Well I don’t give a fuck anymore
I deleted the app


Thank you for beating me so that I could enjoy more of my free time and not support this fucking insanity

My PS4 is packed up – and ready to be sold at the pawn

My TV is never turned on

IDGAF

*locked and loaded*

*opens door*

COME GET ME YOU FUCKS 🖕🖕

Places to find me offline: the firing range 👍

Places to find me online in the future: OnlyFans (potentially – but not for porn – but definitely nude modeling cuz self-love & cosplay & photography bring me purpose – and I enjoy producing my own content for my blog & not plagiarizing from upsplash or whatever those sites are

THERE’S A GOOD CHANCE I MIGHT DIE ON THE STREET LIKE EDGAR ALLAN POE

But then someone bought me 2 vegan nail polishes from my Amazon wishlist – and that also brings me purpose

There were only 10 left in that color when it was added to my list & now there are only 9

And it’s part of my favorite color of the rainbow

And it is a birthday gift

I’m grateful for the 2 new vegan nail polishes – they don’t have any of the bad poison or chemicals in them – and having pretty nails will boost my self-esteem

Painting my nails is part of my mindfulness practices and my therapist agrees with it

Color is a mood changer – water too – or just introducing a calming element when you are about to take out the entire city

I could hunt the establishment down and go rogue but I’m waiting on my pretty nail polish to arrive instead 🤩

Thank you of thinking of me for my birthday

It’s been several years since I’ve got to celebrate my birthday since I’ve been fighting this illness and basically since the pandemic started

I’m lucky to be alive and I’m still in recovery

I’m still quarantined and can’t have no fun

Basically photography is the only thing I can focus on and I want to focus on so I’m thinking of getting on onlyfans in the potential future

I need an adult account – not for tacky tasteless content

But to be an adult and post what I want (no porn or self gratification – I want to focus on sensual content and being a female – I like cosplay even tho I’m not very good with the makeup aspects of it)

I was on it once before and made it to the top 20s just doing nude modeling & I was going up against giant creators

I want to focus on just the content I put out – and my tribe I draw – if any. I don’t want to compare my account to other accounts and what they are doing and what I should be doing and how much I should post and how much I should charge and this that and the other. I just wanna focus on putting out good content.

And y’all, supplies aren’t cheap. My time isn’t cheap. But I want my content to be affordable and not compared to what others are doing. They have teams!!!!

OnlyFans keep 20% of profits, on top of tips. The IRS take another 20%. They’re raised the cost of everything cuz they don’t want us earning a penny.

I want to earn a penny and whatever pennies I do earn, I want to put towards my goal of buying land.

So I’m working very hard to get better mentally, spiritually, and physically enough to put out monthly content.

I’m not there yet.

I also have a new care team at the VA.

They basically just keep having me chase my tail until I die but I’m self treating behind the scenes.

The holistic treatments I’m starting next month are over $100 for 2 bottles.

I’m not out here blowing my money on pointless crap.

And I work hard to put out amazing content that keeps TikTok number one and they make a shit ton of money and keep 80% of any of the earnings I get over there but then will just banish me from the fucking platform.

I love being a slave just to earn some scraps and a beating just to be tossed out in the wilderness alone – and they get to keep all my fans and continue on the party like I never existed at all 🤩