“Why have you forsaken me, Christopher” Last words, slipped out from her On the ground, her wings curled and hurt Where you’ve been dead since your birth
She could see death dancing in his eye But he would still tell her no goodbye Her dark angel, had no wings to fly He had no soul to cry
He would gather her and carry her to heaven’s gates He’s made too many choices that came with too many mistakes Carrying her from the steps of hell isn’t a price he celebrates And he will walk forever if forever is what it takes
I wanted to write a short story about redemption to accompany this poem, but my keyboard is broken, it now takes 19 days to charge my tablet, and my tiny, pathetic mobile phone makes me want to start a war, helps…
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I love him The way a sunset paints the sky with pink, purple and blue The way the colors mix over the sky with an arch made of vivid colors I love the way his words dry my eyes Or the way his many voices threads itself into my life I love the way he nestles softly in my mind, covering tracks of agony The way his sticky, sweet words attach to my heart I love how tender his tongue is to me, how it glides over my mistakes like candy I love how there’s an ethereal bridge from my heart to his forever connected I love how his silence accompanies my sorrow like a blanket I love the way he loves me without loving me at all How his living ghost dances with my dreams every hour How, upon waking and first thought he is there to catch me I love how his hand has never touched my body but his energy has reached even my darkest corridors, replacing the dust with light I love how his help indebted me to his heart forever, as if God himself supplied the order he executed unknowingly I love how lost we are in each other yet found I love him the way a flower blooms at first light, just like my soul bloomed when he found me at frozen peril How he scooped me from the fetal position and tucked me in his warm heart and now I go where he goes I love how he’s never around, yet he’s always around, like the hope I breathe I love how the blue in his eyes makes my blood boil How he makes my fears stand erect and puts my courage to trial Or how the tip of his nose centers me like a compass I love how he is my north, or my south, or any direction I love how we are spaceless among the infinite space between us I love how his words marry my words because we are one I love how he never tells the child in me to grow up, instead gives me a field to play in I love how he describes me in his poetry, as if I’m seeing myself in the mirror for the first time, Or seeing the world through his eyes as it should be, and not how others have made me believe it to be Oh, how I love that he gives these dry eyes sight! He gives my pulse a rush! I’m alive, I’m alive! Feel me! I have seen things that make me wonder but none so much as you! I love how his arms are always open for my return but just give me another day! I love how his arms are always open for me to leave but just give me another day! I love how the other women in his life never speak of him the way I do, for I was made for him I love how I have to step on my tippy-toes to hear his words rise I love him because I can and will continue to love him as I am, free
Dear Christopher, I have said and behaved in manors towards you that I deeply regret, and I can line the road with excuses or roses, but the truth is, I’ve never loved anybody, nor have I known love in any capacity (and not even in a parental sense) so I’m driving blind basically. But, I know that I have embarrassed and hurt you, and for that I am sorry. I’ve staked unfounded claims, and made accusations, without so much as discussing it with you, my head is messy and confused. I hope moving forward, we can put things behind us, as space is directionless anyhow, and, if we’re real, I’d like to die knowing you don’t hate me. But currently, I don’t know that, as we aren’t even following each other anymore, though I feel doors may still be open. I just don’t want to greet the other side, with that doubt. I can’t promise to stop writing love poems, but I can promise to not embarrass you by private messaging them to you, it’s not something I’ve ever done before, nor will I ever again. I’m not trying to marry you, or trap you, I’m just, at the very least, hoping for a ‘ship’ of any kind, preferably friendship, as opposed to acquaintanceor enemy. Ghosting is my least favorite form of communication. Aside from death… Anyway, I think you’re cool and dig your energy and would like to be allowed around / in it, if ever permitted.
Sidefact: Ahhh the romance is still bleeding from me, I mean Edgar Allan Poe died in the streets, NAKED, BROKE, ALONE, and in-love… I have some of his unpublished words tattooed on my ribcage, they were, for his love, WHO DIED (who turned out to be his blood cousin, gross, wish I had known that little detail pre tattoo, but I still love Poe, even flawed, and would have got the tattoo anyway, I just like complaining, OH POE IS ME). By the way, it just occurred to me, in this very moment, that the dude I’m in love with, has part of Poe’s name. OH MY GAWD. 🤓 I don’t know, but I need a moment to process this universal sign… It’s like God’s waving a flag over his head saying HELLO, THE LIGHT FINALLY WENT OFF. As if, we needed any other signs but fuck, whoa, things are becoming blurry, I’m dizzy and drunk in love. Am I dying????? *runs and hides*
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Be tender with my will Craters have formed from the impact of your words They crush and pulverize How deep do my crevices go? Their corridors are dark And fill with regolith I tremble with aftershocks As your words settle into the cold My bones hold worries unknown My smooth surface eroding from longing I’d let you hide in my depths Come and go with the shadows See how the light races around my hole It falls into aches and covers the night with hope I am longing to find you there Your words move quicker than light-speed I am hollow, penetrate me Watch how the dust settles There’s a glimmer of destiny there Satisfaction Unison We belong together Like orbits decaying Feel the pull Shake me The more you resist, the harder I tug Inevitability Had you not found me when you did My darkness might have perished forever You sheltered me from death By breaking me apart And then you assembled me into fragments and shards of fate And now I must find myself Aching is need of life More pieces Of you You’ve fallen everywhere Our dust glitters I am everywhere you look now Finally together Ice rings form around my shell A promise ring of forever Or a chastity belt of no escape Trapped in the eternal I was waiting here in the dark yet still I was found Bound, now in the ever Look at your creations Beautiful disasters Wait here awhile Cover me in your eternity
I swear he doesn’t want me around but I still find myself creeping On broken glass and bits of hope I find that he keeps leaving Like trails of honey, or bits of dew, each bit has me dreaming Of patching wounds, forgiving fails, and maybe keep on breathing On every word he’ll ever write since it always stops the bleeding Where in my heart, it beats for him, and love is always leading
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Maybe if he understood the need How longing is growing like a weed And in between the distance and the stars that truly listen I know he’d rather have me in the lead
Maybe if I took the time to plead And nurtured space like it was a seed The stuff that would be growing is the energy in knowing That fate will come to help us both succeed
His words cover me like body paint The vowels flowing leave me faint Erasing darkness with a stroke of fate And momentarily how it’ll ease the ache The distance closes just an open gate A place where longing comes with no mistake Just one more rhyme is all it’ll take Forever his in the words we make
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Struggling to put words on the page
Trying to keep the ink from turning red
Difficult finding solitude while I age
Wishing he’d free me from this dread
Difficult finding strength just to engage
Pacing around in circles since he fled
Cannot find my freedom in a cage
Does he understand a word I said
Love is free, it shouldn’t cost a wage
But like a war it turned into bloodshed
As if a play he exited from the stage
And where he goes an angel cannot tread
He avoids the truth like it is a plague And his thoughts of me he can never shed Just a gust of wind is all I need to enrage Already mending pieces where I lost my head
Back to where I started
Love evacuates for the broken hearted
Now assembling all the shattered pieces
Fuck forgiveness, I have a grievance
Hopeful is the day I’m laying in a plot
Worry is the love now tangled in a knot
Forgiveness is a treat and I never have that much
Love is the answer but you’ve clearly lost your touch
Rewind, fast forward, start again
All I wanted was a friend
I found myself within your world
I guess I’ll always be that girl…
Pull the plug, cut the cord
Your life ain’t worth fighting for
Remove your shield, lay on my sword
Love cost more than you can afford
No love to give, and so I horde
I want it whole, not just a third Look to mirror, all is blurred But I see me, when I read your word And I feel life, where connection occurred Every single word, goes not unheard
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, unrequited love is wearing me paper thin…
Blood spills over her
Over dead flowers
Lost sleep in the hours
And over things that never matter
“Mina: I want to be what you are, see what you see, love what you love.
Dracula: Mina, to walk with me you must die to your breathing life and be reborn to mine.
Mina: You are my love… and my life, always.
Dracula: Then, I give you life eternal. Everlasting love. The power of the storm. And the beasts of the earth. Walk with me to be my loving wife, forever.
Turn on my dreams, there you are Wake up my eyes, thoughts aren’t far Can feel a tightness in my heart Before just emptiness and dark Enter my life and now there’s art Needed you from the start Connected to you like a binary star Spinning so fast can’t stop the spark BOOM! Like a big bang you left a mark
I love you So give me the stone I’ll break your throne Alone, so you can really roam Then maybe you’ll return back home You’ve lost your sense you know But god I love you so I know you know – I’m tethered to your soul
Satin today
Tomorrow blade
A mask won’t hide his thoughts away
Closed doors to me are an archway
His absence is saying come my way
His distance is sky for my parachute
His bitterness to me is the sweetest fruit
I’ll put it on my tongue and savor his juice
His walls to me are just another route
Dirt was made for digging tunnels
Demons fall bored so may cause troubles
His desert to me is an open jungle
His masks to me are just more popped bubbles
Stuck with me on planet Earth The deeper you burrow, I value your worth The more you plummet, I feel your girth The more you love, the more I curse
I’ve kissed lips that tasted of kings I’ve slept in halls where angels sing I’ve ridden sorrow through hells domain But in my heart is where he remains
In an outpour I bleed out the worst I expell the poison and simmer the curse If time were a remedy, I’d drink until full If his heart were a string, I’d give it a pull
Kings and queens and other things too
Honey, they won’t replace my love of you
Diamonds and roses and even poetry
You may have a million girls but they ain’t me
I’ve been through the pain and through the waste
I’ve tried them all they ain’t my taste
You are stubborn and you know it’s true
The universe says I was made for you
His name slips from my tongue
Making me warm
Etched forever in my heart
A tattoo on my soul
The need like oxygen
My mind racing to trace every line of his existence
There in another galaxy
In every possibility
Give it to me
Freely
My spirit circles your trinity
Take me to infinity
On your pages
From your tongue
In any manner you can think of
Life before had never begun
My fantasies are reality
That’s why I feel the need
You exist in me
I don’t need eyes to see
You clearly
So every idea is living too
Every thought there’s more than two
In this realm or the next
On planet Earth you are still the best
I send them far and I send them wide
These dreams keep me occupied
Wow, we live so many lives
In some I am your wife
In others you have died
There are realms of goodbye
They always make me cry
Because you are alive
And I need you by my side
Or at least without a divide
Close my eyes, dream of you
Lost in the twilight of your blue
Take my hand, see me true
Understand my heart too
There you are seeing me
And it comes so easily
Taste your lips, I feel free
Trace your heart with my energy
Fertile hands, seeds of love
I give you everything from above
Look at all this space to soar
Free your mind, feel me more
Open every single door
I never felt this much before
Vulnerability is every asteroid
But still life forms from what’s destroyed
You teach me everything
You are higher than a king
You are the very existence of my being
My desire and longing spans the ends of space and even that reach does not quantify my love for him. Which, is why space is infinite, oddly. Coincidence? Nope. Science and love are hard to comprehend at times, and that is where faith comes in. Sometimes, you just gotta believe… ❤
I can feel you wherever you are
Light and dark matter woven into my soul
Spiraling through the fabric of all that we know
And travelling through the spaces we’ve still yet to go
And the distance to our star isn’t that far (just look to your heart)
“My angel” words smooth as satin slipping from his tongue Her wings of despair went flying in the air and love deep into her lung “My queen” tattooed on her heart and there his creed was flung “My darling” were the sweetest words she had ever heard sung Whatever he called her, it made her feel loved and young
What islands must we breach, in a faraway dreamland, where the habits we keep, are safely out of reach, and the love we share, is a language we can finally comprehend?
What mystical gardens must we sow, where joy and hope is the grain that we grow, and your hand is the vine, connected to the very root of my soul?
What maps must we hunt, what fear do we uncover, that leads me to the forest where you are my lover?
What secrets do we bury, so your mask is less heavy, and my shadow will feel more like a friend not in a hurry?
What ship must I sail, on what troubles do we travail, will you follow me out of hell, can you live to tell our tale (what if I fail)?
What skin must we shed, what sorrow do we part, show me through the doors, that will lead to your heart, past the halls of the longing, through the deeds where we get our first start?
Trying to reach him is like trying to reach a star
92 million miles away but still close enough to scar
The further the tether, the closer we are
But when it comes to his love I never reach far
The Sun never sleeps but he is missing from the night Yet there are days when it’s best he’s out of sight The Moon has phases where she hides from his light But when they are united, heaven shines so bright
If I were capable, I would build him a boat,
He could sail through the storms, I seem to evoke.
He could cruise through the wind, and never lose hope,
And the distance we keep, would not feel so remote.
If I were capable of obtaining perfection, In the mirror, he would see my reflection. If he could believe, that he made a connection, Maybe he could see, I am trying to change my complexion.
If I were able, to shorten the distance,
A home in me, would appear into existence.
He could visit me, at this very instance,
And the safety he seeks, would never go missing.
If secrets we keep, would be less of a burden,
I would reach into where he seems to keep hurting.
I would pay with my life, to open his curtain,
And the life that he seeks, would not be uncertain.
Her hopes take flight, it catches starlight, it rides the night, it gives her dreams sight, for his love she will fight
He knows not his creed but it is burned to my tongue- Like a tattoo by fate, open my gate and come
Please need me
I crawled on when my hope was gone I saw sun but my eyes were burned I found love where the hand was numb I gave love when it would not come
He writes the most beautiful poetry And I want to organize them into little treasures for my mind An instrument of the finest wording and it starts with his rhyme Pluck a note from me, as I’m slightly off key It doesn’t take much to tune me when his writing is my shrine He intoxicates me better than the finest wine
His words should come with a sign that reads, “do not engage”
So innocent was her love, so pure The bouquet of poetry he would write would allure It was love of this she was sure In the afterglow of words she felt secure
Want a dose of paranoia mixed with anxiety? Well, if he is her and you are me and they are them, then who the fuck is she?
He doesn’t know it but he is a giant in my heart.
He was unaware of her worth But there was something in her eye And the look was divine And it tasted of desire Love sprung from the Earth
Everyone seems to be living such wonderful lives and I just want to hide in his eyes
He comes back for my love When he’s lost his reserve Just as I am giving up
Most days my soul is suffocating Bouncing up and down Flipping and flopping Gasping for air Frantic and in despair Where is the life?
Silence brings violence
He’s not quite 6 feet but every bit iron foot
Just because you think I’m perfect doesn’t mean you shouldn’t tell me I’m good. Just because you don’t think I’m worth it doesn’t mean you shouldn’t tell me I could.
When your ink drops my soul will splatter Like a ripple in spacetime, you matter You are the one my dreams look after Where reaching you only requires a ladder
When I hear you speak the Sun rises And my love for you comes in all sizes Your kiss is the best of all prizes But your eyes are the best of all horizons
Falling further into his dark skies
Even in the lows he gives me highs
Even when he’s gone his cape will fly
And when I’ve crossed a line he still will try
I extend my wings cuz love defies
He hides behind a wall of sad goodbyes
There’s writings all around that shield his lies
He needs a lot of fuel to hide his sighs
He claims I’m just a hunter here to pry
But that won’t explain the butterflies
He thinks I’m just a doll who only cries
But that won’t change the winnings of your prize
You can change your hand but fate has not a guise Even through your troubles I am falling for your eyes I stab the pitch black night so I can feel you rise Baby you free me, look at that sunrise
“She lives on Love Street/ lingers long on Love Street/ She has a house and garden/ I would like to see what happens/ la la la la la la la la la la” *skips off singing The Doors*
Look man, I would totally let you climb up through my window and read me poetry. Yah? I think we might even like some of the same bands. Giggles It’s okay if you don’t know me, many people don’t even know themselves. Let’s get lost together, in each other, and found again. I’m ready. And you may not know your worth but I would take a bullet for you. I would do anything for you really. 🌛🌜
P.S. I’m just a girl (you won’t need superpowers but you already have them inside you).
P.S.S. you can get to know me without letting the world in (or end).
P.S.S.S. I am a safe place (I won’t ask you your secrets and I won’t guilt-trip you if you don’t love me the way I do you).
P.S.S.S.S. you know me, we’re one, like yin and yang. Sillies.
The days are slow, the nights are longer Without the white of moon, he will wonder Without the glare of sun, he will wander And when the Moon is full so is his hunger
He has been going down a path of the unknown Following her, in any weather, through any zone Treading on forever, any havoc, any wrong He has known the route for ages, for she is his kingdom
Love is the variable
It is incomparable
I’ll stop loving you, just short of forever
Eyes never leave, his eyes on my back
And follow he will, every single track
She cannot turn around, and she knows that
But whether he knows is a different fact
Do the winds of fate ever slow?
Will her dusty eyes ever close?
Does her halo, in this hell, even glow?
She cannot live without him, does he know?
Small footsteps through the chimes of time
Deep footprints, for hers, he would climb
And through the wind he echoes “mine”
And in the dirt she leaves him rhyme
Will you remember me when the pages are torn from the book
Six feet under is the only direction to look
After I have taken you to places you rarely go
And I make you confront things you’d rather not know
Will you change a picture for a face?
Reduce 3 to 1 and find embrace
Will you remember the love when I haven’t a voice
And never forget I hadn’t a choice
You and me we are one map The threads of fate now overlap Like a Figure 8 we’re meant to last The amount of love is in the vast
The need is deeper than the Grand Canyon
There is no answer to the question
And yet I rush in to fill the sea
And only you can stop the need
Alpha Omega, yin and yang Together our force, the big bang I’m Niagara Falls, falling for you And I love every layer of you too
Love her wild
Leave her full
Touch her mild
You will see her form
She will make your indigo glow
She will carve out a chunk so you may have a root
She will give life to the lip
In her, you can grow
You can wallow
You can save your soul
Let her jump in and taste your desire
Infinity is deep
So is her reach
And the distance you keep
The only witness is love
We’ve got that as our teacher
Even your name ends with her
She brings on the rain that can make you clean
Crawl under her to feel something
Your seeds were planted for sprouting
The direction you’re going needs a little rerouting
The night is pierced with scars
The light is breaking through
The doubt is gone from you
Watch her twinkle too
Oh dear gates of sorrow, pass me through! I bow and give it all to you My remorse is as full as the Moon The way it shines, I shine for you too Because your light still reaches truth And when it comes to loving you It can never be too soon
Oh my longing is as warm as the Sun! And when it reaches me, I come undone The way he teaches me, as if I’m the only one And if ever facing regret, there isn’t none And when it comes to life, you make me burn And if I see your eyes, my own brighten If you change your mind, I’m never done
What temples I will build for you to worship
A depth in me for you to go the furthest
With breath that repeats with innocence that it’s urgent
Permission always written in these verses
What skin I’d shed to allow for the unspoken
What thoughts I’d free to let in all your potion
What chains I’d climb to feel the moment hoping
That every mark from you breaks my soul open
I reached walls of iron
And gates of steel
Where golden halos come to kneel
And curiosities are even higher
Forgiveness gets trapped in the mire
Underneath the waiting, a place a soul can heal
Games of dishonor are never part of the ordeal
Lying and mistrust burn with the pyre
Here outside his walls await desire
A soul reaching to feel
Where fantasy reaches the surreal
And love is the sole survivor
I live on an island of a dream
My joy is his trajectory
His eyes are the only skies I need
His love is the only fruit I eat
I taste him in seasons
I kiss him in the trillions
I lean on the shoulders of meaning
I cling to the shores of his breathing
I rest my plight in the palm of his hand
For his every touch is the promise land
And it’s finally a journey I can understand
For this is the mission fate had planned
And on and on and on we go together
Every step with you I’m feeling better
Every hug from you feels like my shelter
Hurting you is never in the weather
Maybe when my hair is long enough my prince will come save me?Messy lipgloss part 1 (it’s 6 AM cut me a break). SAVE ME!I live in oversized t-shirts. That shits gotta stop… Hazel eyes, messy lips & a brunette with bags under my eyes from insomnia. Do you still fancy me at 6 AM?
You have something of mine I have something of yours It is labeled shrine And should stop the wars It has a sign With open doors Windows bleed sunshine Love through our corridors With the will of the divine We come with some broken floors But we were made to align Calm are the coming shores It is the way we were designed Gone are the hours of roars When I fell out of line Fate is written in our cores And so my heart to you I resign Your love is stored in my memoirs You are my forever valentine
I fell into your dark
And with your words I built an ark
I set sail within your art
I dropped an anchor near your heart
And so maybe the light can never outlast the night
Or maybe I was wrong and maybe you were right
If it’s all pretend baby just take away my sight
A dream is just a nightmare if we never do unite
A hundred years could pass and for you I’d still be achin’
If you thought I hated you I’m sorry you’re mistaken
The sign on my heart for you is always on and vacant
One kiss from you would be totally earth-shaking
Shall I pass the wound to forgiveness
Shall I trust the universal oracle
What of the nest in my soul where your love is my law
Where I suffer for you and I fall
Have you ever loved me at all?
Should I exit the stage of treason
Where she robs me of desire
Where I see the smoke still rising
From the breast of her fire
Are you a mirage of love in a desert of loneliness? Where I thirst forevermore I still march along the madness Of the trail of a whore Echoes of happiness flash like lightning Blinding yet spellbinding And I dream of your shore Where I wait in an ethereal forever And I’m always hoping for more
My heart cradles the words for me that you write
It feels like a bandage covering the night
It feels like your hug holding me tight
A breath on my soul saying all is alright
Your lips on my spirit giving me might
In a fever I rush to you like a drug
But in truth you needn’t say a word
I’d love you in silence with only a hug
Your eyes to me they are the world
My road for you is only honey I wish I were younger and that is my worry But like an aging forest I offer you mercy Shelter and warmth and tongues which are loving I nurture this thirst because I know you are worthy Even though your doubts keep both eyes blurry
No spells are needed to find my love Reach out to fate cuz it fits like a glove And punishments can be reserved for just fun 🙂 Trust me darling, I am the one I’m not a deck of cards or just another turn
No fancy tricks needed not even a curse The longer you wait the more that it hurts I love you for better or for worse My love is an ocean you better immerse
I’m available as a friend anytime that you want The balls in your court, please use it not to haunt
My birthday is in 3 days!! (August 19th). I am a Leo, a fire sign!! My truelove shall also be a FIRE SIGN! I’d bet my life on it! 🙂
If he is out there or listening (are you out there or listening?) you should say hello. Start with the basics you know. 🙂 Be fearless with me. Freedom. Everything will be okay. But you gotta say hello. “Say something, anything and watch the weather change…” Messy hair, chilling on the couch me… waiting on my birthday so I can get fat on cupcakes!! 🙂
He wished upon a shooting star
Speeding faster than a Jaguar
He whispered “bring me something more”
And black as night her wings stretched out to soar
Her wings flew with the sound of thunder
Filled with things to make him wonder
One day feels like an endless summer
With love to make him ever younger
His eyes a key to her angelic soul
With lips to cure and make her whole
For when she fell she had one place to go
And you know you wished to be her Romeo
I traveled far just to find his den
I walked barefoot through the Garden of Eden
I passed graveyards of original sin
I ate the apple and I’d do it again
Under his altar
I heed to prayer
I kneel and I receive offer
And taste his holy water
Where I begin to transcend
And I feel clean again
My wings stretch and extend
Church bells ring with a deep moan
The harvest comes where he does roam
His scripture flows deep in my vein
Where under his rule my enemies are slain
His kiss and touch my communion
With every moment I feel more human
I bless him with eternal devotion
Our souls together gently woven
When one my halo is golden
Fully healed and never broken
In my soul his name is etched
On my heart I wear his crest
With my love his soul is blessed
Together we are at our best
Burned on my wing is our decree
It wasn’t written to deceive
Two pieces of the puzzle now complete
A map to our destiny
He had never known love before
It creeped around his dwelling but never knocked upon his door
But when she came, she came with the power of Thor
Her love roamed his heart like a wild boar
For she finally found the love she was searching for
