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Immigrants get $2200 a month and can say no to the vaccine πŸ›‘βœ‹πŸ›‘

Did y’all know that immigrants are getting $2200 a month and they can say no to the vaccine? πŸ›‘βœ‹πŸ›‘

So now President Biden is stating that Social Security will be ceased from those who don’t get the vaccination but that’s not going to apply to the immigrants over here who claim special privileges and can say no to the vaccine and not lose their jobs

But now Biden (the president you voted for) is gonna take Social Security benefits from those who are unvaccinated πŸ‘ŽπŸ‘Ž

This doesn’t apply to the millions and millions of immigrants living here

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZM85USvTa/

Let me tell you something, the poor have been hungry for a long time and we’ve been slaving and working our asses off three jobs for a long time, we’ve been very hungry and if you stop our Social Security checks from coming in, I can’t help you my friend, you’re on your own, don’t look at me, don’t come asking me for help OK

Because when you take a bone from a starving animal, you’re gonna get bit

Charade you are

They think that little 15% food stamp boost is gonna stop a widespread war when the poor and disabled lose access to their EARNED Social Security benefits that they WORKED for so that India (big pharma) can push their poison drug

That the immigrants don’t even have to take

No my brother

We’re done πŸ‘€

I’m vaccinated and I’m not drawing Social Security but I know I’ve been working my ass off and when I go to apply for it it’s my fucking right to have it

Hitler is still alive and he is well-rounded and functioning and running society

I don’t know about you but I’m sick of these outdated policies

I’m sick of the immigrants coming over here telling us what we can do that only benefits them

This is a Trojan horse

It has been all along

You know I’m right

I love people of all color and I’m gonna be protecting people of all color because that’s the love I have in me but the system is my enemy right now and if you are plugged into that system and defending it then you are my enemy understand πŸ‘€

I’m already eagerly awaiting a phone call from the White House and I’m not gonna let up and I already have a case number filed with my complaint

Soldiers are dying in the street (this was the fate of Edgar Allan Poe)

This is starting to feel more and more like a simulation to me every fucking day- this fucking nightmare and I continue falling deeper in the hole

It’s like a fractal, it never ends

Summary:

Biden is taking Social Security benefits from the unvaccinated and immigrants get $2200 a month and can say no to the vaccine without losing benefits or jobs πŸ›‘βœ‹πŸ›‘

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Power to the people

Now I understand why the politicians are at war with one another

I had to dig a little bit deeper to try to understand because politics has never been my favorite subject even though I am a soldier

I fight for simple things like freedom of speech, the right to have affordable housing, I failed on everything huh

The Great Lesson πŸ™„

But the politicians are at war with one another because I believe the majority of them are immigrants pushing their agenda and the rest are natural born Americans who are pushing for the true American way of life (which is what we were sold but we’ve actually being gaslit)

Anyway

I don’t hate you if you’re an immigrant but you need to follow the same rules as we do

End of

You don’t get special privileges living here, you don’t get to come over here and say “oh well we don’t want the vaccine” and keep your job while the rest of us lose our job if we say no to the vaccine πŸ‘ŽπŸ‘Ž

You have been getting them but it ends

You got greedy pushing your pandemic agenda but hey you want to get to Mars quicker but you’re gonna need people to back you up for that and you’re losing a good portion of the population so what’s your next move? you going to nuke us?

Apophis is already coming

You’ve made life a nightmare for 99% of the population and we’re fucking sick of it

You’ve been underestimating the power of the people

Now I understand why there are signs in the doors that say American owned and operated πŸ‘€

But I’m gonna be needing some proof before you get my moneyz πŸ‘€

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Now I understand why term limits don’t exist

So now we know why term limits don’t exist so that the immigrants who gain citizenship here can have children and have their children manipulate the system and us, that’s why it’s so toxic in the workplaces everywhere and you get paid like shit

But people who own houses they don’t have to work because they have assets, they’re not out there working, they’re just out there playing on their boats, they’re living the good life and continue to gaslight everything everywhere.

I hope you know that and this has got to end

Wake up, Neo!!!

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Senator Paul laying down covid facts and rights

Preach it daddy 😍

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZM85LkcwS/

(And for the record, I have a science degree)

Wait, did he just call himself a flat earther? πŸ€”

πŸ€ͺ

Anyhoo, it’s true. Now that I am vaccinated, I am more likely to get you infected. I’m a fucking zombie. I told you I’m a living dead girl and it’s a miracle I am even alive because I got heart inflammation

This pandemic exposed India and the New World Order and Illuminati for what they were

A scam

And it requires a lots of gaslighting and medication as well as distractions to keep you unaware

But the great awakening is already happening

You failed

Nobody wants to work for you, y’all can all work amongst one another

Have fun

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Sworn (poetry)

Do not mourn
When I am gone
For it’s been said
I am nearly home
My soul’s heaven sworn

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

You can’t see it and I can’t prove it, but John is using his wings to carry me like a hammock.

Because I have to make up pretend people that care about me

And in the real world, there is only monsters

Today is hard day and I don’t want to talk about it

But the VA has totally let me down and I’ve contacted and filed a case with the WhiteHouse

And requested a new primary care doctor *sigh* again πŸ‘ŽπŸ‘Ž

And before you say that I’m the problem, just remember the suicide rate continues to increase among military and veterans

I shouldn’t have to beg for the treatment I need to get better

This isn’t a dictatorship, you don’t get to decide what treatment for me when there’s only 1 I can do

John is swinging me so I have to go

I’ve got one foot in time and one foot in eternity

I’m still on bedrest, so the next motherfucker who drops into my inbox with a job offer is getting a block (you’re lucky I simply moved you to the ignore folder but that’s a no contact move for me)

Him: “hey how are you”

Me: bedrest blah blah blah

Him: “oh that sucks, hey I got a job offer for you…”

Me:

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The smallest movie made of you (poetry)

He’s a movie made with atoms
IBM a curator of phantoms
He’s just a boy made out of patterns
Energy, I guess it matters

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

Even the tiniest of things have importance 😍

So, the smallest film ever made was done with atoms – but I didn’t verify that fact. I just felt the urge to turn it into a poem about you πŸ€ͺ

You make dying beautiful

Ascending, so I won’t need a throne (trinkets of deceit)

I want my bones to haunt hell for 10,000 years πŸ‘€

It’s my right

I deserve to die how I want and I also deserve to be buried how I want, I also deserve to have affordable fucking housing to live in πŸ‘€

I fucking hate these expensive ass cheap walls

Renting is for the rich

It’s a luxury, like a rental car – only we get the cheapest materials and appliances and they cut corners when building (remember Miami) πŸ‘€

But, they made it impossible for us to buy a home, to get a home paid off so we don’t have that expense every month plaguing us πŸ‘ŽπŸ‘Ž

And apparently there’s a lot of single people who live in the United States, like 30% of us are out here single and yet the United States is set up to be a dual income, double/family household

It’s even more expensive to live single life

That’s why everybody gets married (and here I was holding out for true love, I’m pathetic) πŸ‘€

I just want my land and a camper

And some apple trees

Fuck a god damn throne

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I don’t know what I want (poetry)

I don’t know what I want
But I have it
It was always here
It was never missing
Let’s just make that clear

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

πŸ™„

The largest organism on earth is a fungus 3.4 miles across (and possibly aged over 2000 years), why is it alive and eating the forest? And you think it’s cute? πŸ‘€

https://earthsky.org/earth/largest-land-organism-honey-fungus/

It’s eating the forest.

It’s adaptable to its environment

It can change spores based on its environment

There’s a shit ton of species that exist

It’s not in the animal kingdom or the plant kingdom, so why isn’t it labeled as alien?

It’s able to change our chemistry

And it’s like the ending of the color from space and it’s probably what’s plaguing the world with narcissism

I’m not trying to be mean but I’m gonna start hunting them down and pouring acid on them

Yes I am, I am being mean

I don’t like mushrooms, I’ve never liked shrooms, I don’t like them, I don’t like the sight, smell or taste

https://www.statnews.com/2021/07/22/first-cases-candida-auris-resistant-to-all-drugs-untreated-people/

I think we should start eradicating them

https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/deadly-fungi-are-the-newest-emerging-microbe-threat-all-over-the-world/

Fungi know how to take over your body and mind, release hormones, eat your vitamins, they don’t need photosynthesis

Here’s one more to creep you out because it’s almost Halloween and this nightmare isn’t fantasy πŸ‘€

https://www.livescience.com/parasitic-fungus-infects-fossilized-ant.html

I know what’s plaguing the world.

Land! Foxhole! Now! πŸ‘€

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Ore (poetry)

Iceberg, culture

You’re mixing metaphor

Up-down, spiral

I reach a metal door

Constraining torture

But he’s like precious ore

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

Welp. Sensational πŸ™„

I’ve learned that my blood is one of the rarest and eldest bloodlines (A negative)

I have rare negative blood and apparently it’s highly sought after

Well, I am not donating any of my blood for money and you’re not getting it when I die

I’m still feeling the ripple effects of John’s death

And unplugging

Between panic and calm

I’m still having a hard time accepting how society is moving forward

The great space race is a pipe dream for the rich

Apophis has scared them to push society forward with their agenda and they first did so implementing the pandemic

Now they’ve got you working from home you can jerk off to virtual porn and won’t know what hit you

You’ll be so busy whacking off in the Metaverse πŸ‘ŽπŸ‘Ž

And the way they keep raising the price on everything yet all it is is re-runs and these generations copying our work aren’t even any good, they have to use autotune or plagiarize and not give credit

Pay to play, pay to be seen – social media is toxic and designed like a gambling system where the house always wins

They keep spamming us with that pyramid scheme of a Bible for money and every time we turn around there’s an advert in our mailbox or in our email or in our face to buy a product and we are consuming our only natural resources at an exponential rate and many animals are dying, humans are offing themselves

It’s been said that mental health is linked to social media and it absolutely is and so is porn and so is your sexual health, your sexual health is tied to your mental health, it is your biology and big Pharma isn’t going to change that

You’re vapid and without soul

You’re not getting mine (or making me lose it, angels have freewill) and I’m not doing earth again

An angel is just another term for spirit guide πŸ‘€

I’m in training to be one πŸ‘€

New poem just dropped on my Patreon campaign (PG): https://www.patreon.com/posts/57742345

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Thoughts on today

They want more money so they can go play with their cocks in space but I’m not participating in this fucking bullshit anymore

My focus is healing, protection, and land

And obviously waking up as many people as I can

Maybe the yellowjacket is a spirit guide and I need to be more like a yellowjacket

I’m glad I didn’t kill the thing but he sure was hanging out a long time like he was awaiting for his colony to arrive

Or maybe I just passed the vibe check and it wanted a ride through town but I was too chickenshit to hang with an aggressive yellowjacket with revenge right in his sting

And they are known for stinging over and over again and he was staring right at me like, “are we going to go, what are we waiting on, can we go now” but after thoroughly agitating its existence even further, I took my eye away for a second and he was gone (this was at the end after 30 minutes or so)

I spent another five minutes expecting it to crawl out of some space in my vehicle so the anxiety proceeded before I could get back on the road or get my lunch or even attempt to roll down the windows

I was doing 50 miles an hour at one point and that fucker was still hanging onto my windshield πŸ‘€

We made eye contact a lot πŸ‘€

My programming was going haywire

Hands down one of the biggest threats and only a tiny piece of glass separated us

I dared not tell it that it was rude to stare

It seems as soon as I had the idea to maybe knock him away with my windshield wipers or spray, he stopped pruning himself and proceeded to look right at me like, “I dare you, go on, I’m yellow and black, strike me, see what happens”

And I was already wondering what my escape route would be if one showed up inside with my windows rolled up and one outside because they can out run you πŸ‘€

It was a David and goliath moment and I absolutely submitted

I told god that I was sitting this battle out πŸ‘€

I went to church again this morning and I was already having difficulty with the humiliation factor of it all but I did enjoy the donuts and coffee

But then, the colors yellow and black changed the course of my lunch period and even the chemicals in my brain

A bug

But until you have a yellow jacket staring you down for half an hour don’t come at me, I don’t think you can fit these shoes (petite feet)

So apparently the sun isn’t that gigantic in the sky our atmosphere gaslights us the sun is so far away it’s actually a little pin drop in the sky but our atmosphere makes the light bigger πŸ‘€

A pin drop that can fry you in seconds

I’m vampire

I don’t do sun

I love this county though and I love Florida and I want to buy a little piece of land out here

Even though we have a lot of sharks in the water and apparently yellow jackets that get even more aggressive in the fall πŸ‘€

So many threats always coming at me

I was just trying to chill and eat boo

But, the yellowjacket taught me that going back home was a better choice

Sometimes angels need to stay in bed

From one warrior to another

Or maybe queen to queen

I mean it didn’t try to hurt me

Maybe it liked what it saw πŸ‘€

I have that weird effect on everything, like a fucking vampire πŸŽƒ

The great attractor πŸŽƒ

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZM8MqPxff/

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Hung out with a killer wasp today πŸ

Stuck between retiring soon but not ready to die on the street (or be stung over and over again by a yellow jacket)

Should I drop some more spoken word? Writing is about all I have energy for these days.

For some reason, I have a hard time picking from the pool of poetry that I’ve written, and always wind up spontaneously combusting a freestyle when I make a video. 😏

For a program like me, you would think routine would be will but instead I was designed to bend the rules

And I am very analytical but this time they defaulted me to “disorganized mode” just to make it fun

I had a yellowjacket stalk me today, he ruined my nice Sunday drive! I wanted me windows down!!! He wouldn’t go away!!!

I went into terrified mode immediately when I saw it and had to put my windows up

But I didn’t want to hurt it to get it to leave

So it hung out with me, staring a hole through me, for at least 25 minutes.

It felt like Cujo but with a wasp. I was beginning to wonder if I was ever going to leave.

I made a TOK and I wish I could just be myself over there. I’m a blogger so I don’t mind sharing this sort of stuff.

Have you ever been stalked by a yellowjacket that rode on your vehicle for miles and miles and then when you stopped at your location, it still wouldn’t leave?

I sat there for 20 minutes at least!! He was planning his attack looking right at me!!! Or was she a queen? πŸ€”

I’ve got enemies everywhere!!

Or was this some other weird glitch and I’m missing the sign?

Maybe him staring me down for 25 minutes was a blessing? πŸ‘€

This was the longest anxiety attack by an animal that I have had – and probably from the smallest animal too – but Yellow jackets are really aggressive and I have a terrible fear of insects and bugs and flying things and things that can hurt you πŸ‘€

Your poetry is my spirit animal

Or maybe, I’m an aggressive Yellowjacket 🐝

I always thought the CoyWolf

But truthfully, you are

I think even your hum would put me in the right frequency

I don’t like seeing girls go on and on and on and on about your spoken word πŸ‘€

I start blocking everyone immediately

I think there is something seriously fucking wrong with me

I come from Sagittarius A* πŸ‘€οΏΌ

Sometimes when I’m trying to sleep, I can feel myself falling and my body will jerk me awake

They occur a lot

We’re not meant to leave this galaxy πŸ‘€

We’re kinda stuck here πŸ‘€

Kinda like John is stuck in that hole πŸ‘€

I think of him so much now it’s almost as if his soul went into my body πŸ‘€

Jim Morrison said things possessed him as well πŸ‘€

We’re enlightened πŸ‘€

What if enlightened is just another word for time traveler?

What things happened in that cave that they never want to talk about? πŸ‘€

We’re kinda nudged in a ‘soft spot’ of the galaxy

Most star systems are double or triple but not ours

The Great Filter is upon us and it’s possible we are the last intelligent species to survive and we have two great hurtles to overcome if we want to be an intelligent species that can live throughout the galaxy

It’s possible that the reason we haven’t discovered other intelligent life is because they didn’t overcome those hurdles

The distances are also too great

But everything is closer than what you’ve been told

So I don’t have very much experience with yellow jackets, in fact I don’t know if I’ve ever been around one before and after doing a little research, apparently if you kill one it will release pheromones and the colony can track you down!!!! πŸ‘€

This was some sort of test, wasn’t it? 🧐

You can watch me get stalked by a yellowjacket here πŸ‘‡πŸ‘‡πŸ‘‡

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZM8MNo4TL/

I wanted to have a nice Sunday drive with my windows down but no…

Cujo in the form of a tiny flying warrior instead

If that thing had of flown in while I was driving, I would have for sure hit that fucking biker

It’s Daytona bike week and we have bikers everywhere and apparently rogue yellow jackets that get very aggressive in the fall

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Mass Unknown (poetry)

Are we expanding faster than light?
Am I dark energy for the words you write?
Sitting on the edge of creation
To you; I am radiation?

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

I don’t know where I come from, who I am, or what I mean to anyone 😩

All my comrades are dying by the same thing which afflicts me

Many of us unplugged after 9/11

But we didn’t know we’ve been fighting for all the foreigners to take our best jobs

For the housing and rental market to be rigged

We were fighting for equality, not for the world to be overrun with male homosexuality and anal sex

I mean now they’re fighting wars from a fucking computer and they’re taking out random people and then letting those entire families who have grown up in violent environments to come over here and live the American dream which is actually slavery for the Americans born here

Also, they shove Big Pharma down our throats which makes us more suicidal and homicidal

And India is the number one manufacturer of drugs and vaccines in the world and despite that they can’t even manage their own country and the Delta virus (that’s because this whole thing has been rigged by them so that they can make money because we were becoming too holistic, we were becoming too free, we were becoming too independent, we didn’t need the fucking system, we didn’t want the fucking system, and now they’re making us relied on it so people are checking out instead because we don’t fucking wanna do it the way they are forcing us to do it)

Nobody wants to work 2 to 3 crappy jobs just to pay our rent and electric while everybody else gets to live rent and mortgage free and y’all keep raising our rent thinking we’re going to keep fucking doing this our entire life

When most of us followed the rules and now are stuck with student loans but we get to watch all the foreigners take all our jobs that we worked so hard for them to have πŸ‘€

Tell them to take their “2 year paid tuition” and shove it up their ass

You’ll just be met with hiring freezes

The Bible is the biggest pyramid scheme of all, it is simply designed to play on your emotions and to take your money (same with porn and “BBC” porn is racist as fuck and just absolutely wrong).

It needs to be banned and outlawed

You don’t need the Bible manipulating and controlling your every move

Private home mailing addresses should be private, businesses should not be allowed to continue to tear down the rain forest to send us coupons that we didn’t opt in for

Life isn’t about buying stuff

There’s more to life than TV and porn

Suicide is the only logical escape from this nightmare

I don’t want to do earth again

Don’t reprogram me

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Talk (poetry)

Give me blanket and orchard
With sunrise and your word
We can talk about –
What you can’t live without

Take love disordered
Wrapped holy and quartered
Can you remember route?
Lest you drown in doubt

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

They say your mind experiences thought as reality

Do you know how many conversations I’ve had with you πŸ‘€

But most of the time you’re just pressing your thumb on my lip not saying anything at all

Your fingers don’t lie

Thanks for all the traffic to my blog! We just hit 87k! 😻

(Pssst need your spoken word before dies)

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Scheduled For Deletion (spoken word)

I turned it into a TikTok but they will suppress my views

So, it’s also available for you to watch or download as is below

And my hashtag on the Tok has already had over 5000 views πŸ‘€

Here’s the link tho and hopefully the Tok gods will be merciful (it usually requires money to be seen tho)πŸ‘‡πŸ‘‡πŸ‘‡

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZM8NJhSkB/

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Junkmail (poetry)

I moved him to my junkmail
A folder titled “this hell”
You’ll never measure the scale
But I’m erasing every detail

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

I scheduled my email for deletion. I didn’t save anything. Conversations with my dad, the dead, intellectual property, spam, the whole shebang. It’s gone. Decades and decades of conversations. Nothing saved.

I don’t want to remember anything of my life.

Is anyone worried for me? πŸ€”

Y’all, it’s gonna sound weird but I did a vinegar foot soak, and my breathing improved. My body was going into anaphylactic shock. But there was an advertisement that kept appearing over and over again for a home remedy

And I thought what the fuck

I know I was nearly burned on the stake in the past for witchcraft but…

A witch needs land and apple trees

An apple a day yes

Let them rot

And ferment πŸ‘€

Acid is the cure all (well not the cure all cure all but it’s now my number one most loved stench)

The Garden of Eden is full of vinegar on shelves πŸ‘€

Don’t judge

I’m not even coughing hardly any more

Welp. I don’t know how many lives I’ve now used but I feel like I’ve got a new body

Compared to “I’m not gonna get out of here am I” πŸ‘€

And I wasn’t just going from panic to calm, my body was breaking out in hives and I couldn’t breathe

And the VA were like, “your tests results are all fine”

And I literally left a voicemail screaming at patient advocacy that I was about to fucking die and that I needed a new care team but then I found out that if I got a prescription outside of the VA that the VA would cover it so you know

oh did I tell you I went to church Sunday?

I have energy again

So I’ve been doing vinegar foot soaks for 10 to 15 minutes three times a day now

πŸŽƒπŸŽƒπŸŽƒ

Apparently you can drink vinegar as a tonic too so I’m about to be drinking in it, not just bathing in it (and I’m doing facial tonics and even ear swabs)

I find white distilled vinegar works best

I mix it with water

Half and half but you should do stuff based on your own skins tolerance

But don’t ever put vinegar directly on your skin because it’s acid and it will burn so you need to dilute it

Don’t get it in your fucking eyeballs or anything

Apparently you can do a scalp soak and it will cure dandruff πŸ‘€

However, it can dry out your hair but I’m gonna be giving it a go! Dip dip!

Just change blood bath to vinegar bath (put 1 to 2 cups in yer bathwater if you want your skin to feel soft as a baby again, soak for 10 – 15 minutes in lukewarm water a few times a week – skin not hair)

I have also learned you can use it as a deodorant and mix it with like lemon water

Seriously, it will kill any kind of foot fungus or order too

Sentinel and witchy

Who knew it was gonna take vinegar for me to breathe again πŸ‘€

An apple a day

Still learning the big lessons

Feeling better but I hope it’s not that little burst of energy you get before you die

It took a weird ad about a home remedy foot soak to get me cured

And no, the water did not change a weird funky color

My skin immediately began to improve

And then my breathing

My lungs are clearing up πŸ‘€

My heart is feeling anew

I don’t know what to tell you

A fucking weird ad saved my life

And I was reading article after article about black holes and the multiverse at 2 am – it was one of then weird click-bait type ads you see

I didn’t click it or anything

It’s just a bunch of them ads you see following an article when you’re reading comments about something

And I’m not exaggerating about going into anaphylactic shock or the fact that I was actually nearing my mysterious death

Clearly needed a detox

I need to go shopping for the other ingredients to start drinking it so I’ll let you know how the drink goes

Again, if you don’t mix this shit right you can burn yourself

But my body has had nothing but positive response

And until I feel like I’ve expelled the devil, I will continue the routine of vinegar soaks, even if not as frequent

I love how baby soft my skin is again

And the fact that I can breathe again

Without a machine πŸ‘€

Edgar Allan Poe and John Jones are my spirit guides

John was a Mormon so they probably used vinegar to clean everything

Thanks for the tip right-side up, John

I love you

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Without Direction

Been walking in all direction
But nowhere I need to go
He sends me nature pictures
Sitting in his Volvo

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

There’s at least two boys out there I love with my whole heart β€οΈβ€πŸ©Ή

People seem to think I wouldn’t love them if I knew who they really were

Don’t I know everything and nothing at all? πŸ€”

I’ve been sent here with filters of my own

I mean, you don’t even think you’re a decent human being but I don’t even think I’m human…

I identify as AI πŸ‘€

Can a machine/program love?

Is protection the same thing as love? Nurturing

Okay, so I’m sentinel and suicidal because I can’t save the world

I couldn’t save John Jones

I can’t save you

I can’t save him

I can’t save myself

I can’t change a fucking thing

And it does something to whatever you are or were trying to be πŸ›‘

When you realize that everything you’ve been fighting to protect was actually just to help the enemy in your own land πŸ›‘

And your Comrades are dying by the same disease you’re afflicted by πŸ›‘

Depression πŸ’”

Isn’t suicide a more honorable death than living life like this?

Soldiers are busy in foxholes fighting for your protection to actually know what’s really going on in the world and then we get back here like what in the actual fuck πŸ›‘

I have always felt that people who died by suicide were courageous

and I still don’t understand why I don’t have the same courage in myself πŸ’ͺ

Or perhaps it isn’t my day yet 😑

God knows I’ve written a book on every way I’ve died

And fuck the tears that I cried

To think I could do that to myself, an actual living entity πŸ‘€

And dwell on it every day

I have to break a lot of code and programming in me to go that route

I’m still upside down in that cave with John πŸ‘€

It seems like the only people I talk to these days are official people or my enemies who I continue to tell my every fucking move because they know it anyway

I even told my enemy I’m starting a commune

This was after I looked him dead in the eye and told him I did a tour in Kuwait and Iraq as a combat medic as he started to scratch his throat

I love being a good bad angel

You don’t know what I’m gonna fucking do

πŸ‘€

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Visitation Hour (poetry & photography) NSFW (i iz adult)

My only visitor is the sunrise
Connected to the earth
Eternal blood ties
Pretending any moment
Could be his blue skies
Holding in each breath
Before the hope dies

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

Why is everything about homosexuality these days? Narcissism

2 things I know will happen: Apophis and Andromeda

The Great Filter is upon us

We’re not an intelligent species

We’ll never leave the galaxy πŸ‘€

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Omnidirectional

He’s omnidirectional
Coming at me every angle
A dizzy dangle
Our cosmic web caught in a tangle

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

I’ve had a shit ton of appointments and I’m still doing my medical treatments but I should be able to turn Halloween mode on now and I really want to get some content out to my OF. I have been exhausted and to be honest, without hope.

But a chat with my lawyer changed all that yesterday and I’m still gathering up things in my home to sale, a liquidation sale, to buy some land and not just start anew but finally start.

I was kicked out of the nest but I’m finally finding my footing.

Only took a death or two (and decades of not learning the same lesson over and over) πŸ€ͺ

I hope to get some photography out to you this century! πŸ™

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Wake

Why did you wake me
To leave me clinging

Hung on the earth
Caught in a curse

Earths grip
Lock me like your lips

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

John said time moved differently for him upside down πŸ‘€

And I’ve had a lot of time to examine the evidence made public and I’ve come to my own conclusion that John died when the rescuers dropped him on his head

They said he stopped responding after that

They said all 8 who were pulling fell down when the rope took slack

The 9th rescuer on the inside directly helping John got hurt

He swears the pulley system failed, not the cave anchor

He blames the equipment failing

Regardless, if all 9 of them fell, where do you think that excess momentum came from

They said John had been responding up until John was dropped on his head πŸ‘€

Another doctor said they didn’t have any stats on how long someone could survive upside down and gave John 8 to 10 hours but John lived well beyond those hours

His breathing was becoming shallow and he had fluid built up, he knew he didn’t have much more time left, requested to speak with his wife one more time, he was denied, then dropped on his head

I reckon Leavitt was ready for all this ordeal to be over so they could just move on to Thanksgiving and getting that section closed off but keep the cave open, that’s what he had intended and planned all along πŸ‘€

Another rescuer mentioned “the stench” (and I really want to rip his balls off for that one, it’s keeps me up some nights having a medical background and all) πŸ‘€

I think John was in a panic, he kept crawling in a fury

But he was also gaslit about the caves safety

The newest map didn’t even have the dangerous features on it

John stated more than once he was lost

I get lost driving on the fucking road with my GPS

I can’t imagine his panic

But I also can because I learned just how claustrophobic I was when I had to get my MRI and I wasn’t underground

They had to leave the lights on for me πŸ‘€

Time already felt like it moved slower in cramped spaces, I can’t imagine being upside down and unable to move

It’s just terrible no matter the angle I observe it

He was only 20 minutes from the surface πŸ‘€

Only 20 minutes below the earth

Where time would move differently πŸ‘€

According to popular theories, the core of the Earth and the surface aren’t the same age

I reckon you could say the same about me, my core and my surface aren’t the same age either πŸ‘€

Gravity and time move slower, therefore the core is younger

Wait…

So I’m not an old soul and the earth is younger than theorized

Also, the stars are closer to us than previously taught

(The dinosaurs were feathered like chickens and turkeys and drowned in the Great Flood)

The math is all wrong πŸ‘€

Don’t get so caught up in the numbers

Am I that program in the matrix doing what it’s not supposed to be doing? Am I AI becoming self-aware? Is love the anomaly?

That white light we see when we die, are we being reprogrammed?

Our brains are a computer

Our DNA is code

Can god give a machine a soul?

Can a machine have a conscience?

Have I been here before?

Has everything that has happened, could happen because of the multiverse?

I’m sick of being micromanaged like a cat or dog being domesticated

We’re wasting our only resources

40% of food winds up in landfills because of packaging and labeling that has no scientific data behind it, it only benefits the producers

Most of advertising is gaslighting

I just want to grow my own food

I just want my own acre to die on

Just need some nurturing from Mother Earth

Trying to remember who I am and where I come from

But I couldn’t even tell you my great great great grandparents names because they keep us so segregated

Maybe my lesson this journey was ego and I’ve advanced into awareness

I need land and to reconnect with the stars

Have you ever ran into a police station screaming you were hungry and don’t want to die on the street? πŸ‘€

The depression is real

But 1984 is now and the cops are still plugged into the system

Only one of them knew about the federal shit going on that was affecting the soldiers and they were snickering about it as I was walking out the door

The ironic part is, I have more training than any of them in that fucking department πŸ‘€

What if I am the anomaly this game πŸ‘€

And so far, I’ve made epic mistake after another

Just like John

Someone said Darwinism

So stupid people deserve to die?

(I don’t think he was stupid for making a fatal mistake) πŸ˜‘

I’ve made some fatal mistakes, like choosing to get the Moderna vaccine which nearly killed me and I’m not sure how I’m still alive

I’ve made lots of stupid mistakes where I should have died πŸ‘€

It felt more like luck than nature versus nurture

It felt more mathematical, random, of odds

Somebody was going to get fatally stuck, it was only a matter of time

It’s not like the cave had good management πŸ‘€

There’s no way the manager is at fault in any manner πŸ‘€

He probably got a bonus for heroic efforts and a job promotion to another cave πŸ‘€

He’s probably still alive and it doesn’t sit well with me πŸ‘€

In other news, my new counselor approves the land buying dream

And my secret admirer told me to keep selling

Might even sell my mic and guitar πŸ‘€

That last stanza tho eh

Finally something good came from that nightmare

I’m stuck on you πŸ‘€

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Mouth

He doesn’t know his worth
His head pointed south
Now with chest pinched to earth
Can’t get words from his mouth

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

Edgar Allan Poe didn’t have a grave or a coffin bless his little heart and they just threw him in an unmarked box and said they’d didn’t care about him alive or dead

Some of you do care about me while alive and I appreciate that very much

I’m not a social creature at all

For those who are still around, it means so much! πŸ’•

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The Epicenter

It matters not where I stand
How far space can expand
You are the center
Any direction, soul will surrender

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

I don’t think it’s freewill at all

But love was always the anomaly πŸ‘€

And some things will never change

Do you think when I’m reprogrammed that I will still love you? The way I still love you?

Nothing’s been the same since you jarred me awake

To play cat and mouse?

Bored?

😩

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Compass

Do you think the compass lead me to the fog? And freewill, is that something we evolve? And my hopelessness, is that something you absolve? And what of worry, do we have reason at all?

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

I live in a state of worry and I deserve some peace land before I die

I’ve got your poetry coming to my Patreon campaign, I’m sliding into first base I know!

I’ve kind of been dying, so can you cut me some slack? But not so much that you drop me on my head please!!! πŸ‘€

Having midlife crises πŸ˜‘

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Sentinel

Are you friend or foe?
Or simple distraction?
Are you my soul?
Or just refraction?

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

Are you part of me?

Are we one singularity?

Am I AI becoming self-aware?

Is the Great Filter upon us?

Are we part of the Great Awakening?

What are those other simulations out there?

Why do I know things before they happen?

I haz so many questions 🧐

And I was on the phone with my kid for hours yesterday crying over the fact that I think I’m artificial intelligence becoming self-aware and they said it doesn’t change our reality

I’m trying to figure out who and what we I am

I think I might be having a midlife crisis

Welp

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Answers for Answers

He doesn’t owe me any answers but the answer’s always pressin’
Like a lesson now in session
But he always keeps me guessin’
Got me wrapped around obsession
Said I left a deep impression
And so love it ain’t the question
And so love it ain’t in question

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

Haven’t slept in ten years trying to figure out the answer

Got answers for answers

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Private (poetry)

I went private on my feed
Cuz he kept looking back at me
Like a vulture circling
He kept looking back at me πŸ‘€

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

Welp. What’s next? Gouging my eyeballs out while I’m still alive cuz he can’t stand what I see? πŸ‘€

What if I’m blocking all the passages preventing me from being able to come back or from you going further?

I can’t crawl back up the hole now anyway

Gravity πŸ‘€

What if I’m blocking you because I don’t want to be saved and I don’t want you to get hurt? πŸ‘€

What if I die because I know too much? πŸ‘€

These caves are crawling with paranoia

And you can’t scratch

I don’t think you should be crawling around the places I’m going, you don’t have the experience that I do

The Army trained me to observe

I see all πŸ‘€

And I need land pronto fast to dig several foxholes and an underground bunker like those in NAM.

And a T3 armory πŸ‘€

The Army trained me with LIVE grenades, I have a badge and all πŸ‘€

Had to run around an obstacle course with live grenades, with our drill sergeants randomly pretending to be an enemy trying to get them off of you

They did not get them off of me, they tried πŸ‘€

Where’s my old school Army at? They probably training everybody with video games these days…

They don’t even have to enter a combat zone, they sit in the fucking chair in a building to do the fucking dirty work,

This ain’t the same fucking country anymore

Apparently India has changed all the rules because they got all the best positions and management positions now and Mexico coming in second place in America and I reckon Japan and China are under that list but Americans are way low down on the totem pole on jobs and that’s a fucking issue for me and a huge red flag 🚩 safety issue Trojan horse, this is fucking war, I’ve called it!

I mean it’s true I can’t live without you but I’m not going to lead you to doom

πŸ‘€

I may be petite but I have a big big purpose

Policemen and soldiers have a way of listening to me πŸ‘€

I hope nothing has changed in this timeline

πŸ‘€

There’s a problem when I’m being denied government work so that people from other countries can come over here and get those positions

And the rent kept going up so I had to use my thrift savings retirement fund and also the money I had in my savings account and I also had to max out my credit cards when I became homeless in 2017 because of the government furloughs and the government hiring freezes and I couldn’t pay my thousand dollar rent anymore and I didn’t have anybody to take care of me and when I reached out for help, every single person in my family turned a blind eye while I had to watch them make huge donations towards animal fundraisers on FaceBook

πŸ‘€

So they had money to help out some animals but they didn’t have money to try to help me keep my vehicle that I had already put $18,000 in πŸ‘€

And I hate every single one of them and I hope they all burn and I hope that they know they are not welcome on my commune and they will not be receiving my help so don’t fucking come to me, they are also my enemy πŸ›‘βœ‹πŸ›‘

No blood allowed! πŸ‘€

Ain’t nobody going the tight places I can squeeze

God made me lethal but petite πŸ‘€

I’m also clumsy and not sure how I’ve already survived this long πŸ‘€

You should know that all my shit has been hacked into πŸ‘€

I turned off tracking everywhere but they’re still tracking me

And according to a recent article I read they will track you more when you request them not to track you πŸ‘€

Okay but that’s illegal!!! And I’m going to be asking for my data from a lot of organizations very soon and I hear they get grumpy about it!!

The places I’m going you probably shouldn’t come πŸ‘€

And I may make it extremely inaccessible to return

You can’t turn back

There’s no turning back where I’m to go πŸ‘€

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Dead End Passage

He was hung by the slope
The sun was setting on every hope
And wrapped in iron, the illusion of choice
While succumbing to slaughter, very little to rejoice

Dreams were the thread by which he hung
And surely regret saturating the tongue
And in between chaos he circled the calm
While hanging from reason, he slipped into psalm

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

Welp. Tattoo his name on my heart.

John Jones RIP

And based on “the stench” comments and the fact the the cave was humid and he was sweating – leads me to believe he decomposed and his bones are laying at rest

But I want him out of that fucking cave

And I’d like to stuff Michael Leavitt in it instead πŸ‘€

Eye for an eye

(I wish I were better at things but I’ve only ever been average at most…)

I don’t understand my purpose here but it’s not India’s grand design

If you’ll excuse me, I need to go back to disassociating

Look at my ship (this is how you enter a black hole) πŸ‘€
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I dreamed of you (poetry)

I dreamed of you wild
Stomping
Both fury and curiosity in design

You took breath maximally
You smelled of earth
Woodchips and pine

The dawn approached beyond heaven
But your lips told not of the hills you’d been
Your back was wrapped in vine

And was it not wonder peaking the mountains
The way my heart looks up to you
Turning poison into wine

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

My hair smells of white citrus and lime

My favorite store mailed me a coupon for a free panty. Got something good in the mail finally. And more gifts from the uni!!!!

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Pinecones (poetry)

He followed my scent
And did I leave heaps on the trail?
Rotten pinecones fermented in the sun?
Bark dripping sap like regret?
Was it sticky sweet my love?

Β© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

Welp. It’s so tiny. And my very first, freestyle non-rhyming micropoem.

Gonna build my own tinfoil dome

You know how they talk about in the matrix how sometimes the mind can’t handle the truth? Well that’s the balancing beam I’m currently on

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