PoeEternal

Today is my WordPress Anniversary!

Today is my WordPress anniversary! I’m not doing anything special to celebrate the day but I did take some snaps for you! With messy hair and a t-shirt. My basic, every day look. But now my hair looks messier than ever because my roots aren’t matching my drapes. BUT this is the year I am ATTEMPTING to love me as I am. And because I love me, I don’t want to put any more chemicals on my hair that I’ve been carefully growing out for nearly 3 years (the length of time I’ve been out of the Army). Once my ride is paid off, TATTOOS shall become me (I have 3 already). I would like some more piercings in my ears as well! Things I couldn’t do while serving honorably for 15 years!

I gave up lots of rights y’all probably take for granted. But now, I am attempting to enjoy those rights that y’all had that I didn’t have. And some folks don’t like that because it doesn’t serve their needs. But that’s okay too because this journey is teaching me who my real friends and family are. Who my real fans and supporters are. And exposing enemies wrapped like allies. And I appreciate those who allow me room to grow because there are many who are still holding onto versions of me that no longer exist. A narcissist may not be able to change but I can. I just wish I could forget a lot of the things they have done to me. Those things primarily being abuse. Anyhoo.

January 30th is my WordPress anny!
Hi
I need foodz and coffeeeee
Petite little thang but I love youuu

Thanks for the love and attention y’all. It’s non-existent in my real life. And dudes truly only care about the dirty gals. They pass me over like trash. They make me feel invisible and make me wish I had never been born… Or they are only interested in sex. Nothing more. Like, I’m a person with real feelings. But I’m either trash or a sex object, to them, that’s it. Depression is an understatement. What self-esteem? They’ve killed it. It’s a daily struggle to go on, to even want a purpose anymore. I can’t hide the sadness in my face any longer. Disappointment is an understatement. There are no words…

Except, I love you. Thank you for supporting me. For your follows. Your likes. Your re-shares. Your comments. Your pledges on my Patreon. Your encouragement. I need it more than ever now. You matter. ❤

I matter too?

poeeternal

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20 responses to “Today is my WordPress Anniversary!”

  1. Of course you matter! I don’t know you were in the army, well done you and as for your hair, it looks fine to me.
    You know your self worth, that’s a great thing, never forget it same happy blog anniversary 😀

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  2. Hi Simon, it’s not something I talk about often but I served honorably for 15 years and I was a combat medic and I deployed to Kuwait and Iraq for Operation Enduring Freedom and Operation Iraqi Freedom, so I am a war veteran and I definitely suffer from social anxieties which makes it hard for me to be a blogging social butterfly but I try. Thank you for the lift. I needs it.

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  3. I can imagine you do struggle a bit with trying to interact, I get that I’m finding as I get older I find being around people harder.
    Is that why you want to go to Mars? 😉
    Thanks for talking about it, you’re a brave person in my view.
    Anytime… Keep smiling and keep away from the shitty dudes. 🙂

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  7. I’ll let you into a secret… The ones you are after are probably too shy to ask because they think you’re too good for them. But I didn’t tell you that 🙄😀

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  8. 💙 Happy anniversary and thank you for serving our country. Keep inspiring and stepping out of that box. I give that you share your vulnerability, especially in writing. Much love Delia. 😊

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  13. Thank you! I’ve got to find some inspiration soon though. I’m already anxious for spring, I’m not very fond of the winter blues! Thanks for the follow & the love! ❤️

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