i had to block was just appeared in my feed
it barley played .3 seconds and i was traumatized
i paused and went straight to the comments
some were saying it was too much to process
they didn’t wanna know
others wanted one as a pet to sexually assault
after a few comments – i blocked the very popular account
they were showing very up close and private details of a wombat
the way she was showing the area
im not sure why it was info i needed to know
i barely understand what is going on down there in my own world
it was like animal porn
i dunno
*eating sugar currently*
got a 2 pack of donuts and said no to the donut holes but they brought them anyway
*sips hot ginger tea*
*tries to recover from the mere second seen of the animals poo hole?*
why was she spreading it like that down there?
and she looked asian
he was white
it’s just a combo that makes me kinda throw up in my mouth
imperialism? a hard one as a female soldier to “realize”
you know, the truth about all these manmade wars
*back to reality*
they got crushed
like it’s hard yah know – to see
maybe, the steel knocked them out and they drowned in heaven
maybe they never had a chance to die in fear
cuz the window got knocked out?
so the cold dark waters rushed in?
but still…
sliding off the bridge in the dark
and someone mentioned bombs being heard
now they think the workers were terrorist
i never dismiss any new ideas
i always consider the possibilities
im a conspiracy theorist
they got crushed
good god
worst nightmare
falling from a bridge
i had to drive over that really long one going to New Orleans from Florida
i was driving like an old person
who wanted to get off the bridge asap
but i was dizzy with fear
and like 20 miles to go?
and there are gators in there?
them waters?
it took me ages to not tremble driving over the bridge here in town
any of them
it feels like Russian roulette
im not a bridge person
im even worse flying
that 18 hour flight from germany to kuwait
uggg
ive flown all over the world – too many times to count – been in a few scary situations
and why everyone in a plane looks for that one person who is scared to death (me) and fixates on them is beyond me
i always went after the free alcohol for soldiers too
(not when flying to kuwait obviously)
(we did drink during war here and there yes)
(dont ask how they got it to the desert with the toilet paper)
(sometimes they had them expensive fancy cigars)
“can i inhale it”
“you just puff”
*inhales*
ahhh nicotine that is illegal in the states????
i dunno
it’d be a fun book if some of us actually wrote one
including the dirty details
not just the heroic shit
(the heroic shit definitely out weighs the dirty details)
(of taking a shot here and there after watching people die)
(not getting any sleep)
(we were combat medics)
(with an emphasis on combat – and lives were definitely saved – but i think mine was lost in the process)
(i just aint ever been the same after sitting months in the devil’s foxhole)
(freezing to death with my m16a2 rifle praying for the sun to come up – only to be burned to death once it does)
(and then there were the sandstorms every other day)
there was that really big one, “the worse iraq had seen in 50 years” (cuz this was all taking place mostly in Iraq)
(we had some days in kuwait)
(the day we left was 118 degrees out, no shade)
but they got crushed to death
that’s gotta hurt a tiny bit crashing into the waters will steel crashing down
i don’t want to die like that…
no bridges babe
ever again
they going after our infrastructure
bankrupting us
we’re paying other countries pensions
it’s suicide
PoeEternal 