Stuck at zero

My hero / stuck at zero

Dancing has always been my thang. Literally studied dance for a year

Where can I dance without the shadowban?

Did you know OnlyFans owner put a bid in to own TikTok

Oh so did Amazon and many others

A billionaire is in the lead

The president MIGHT EXTEND THE BAN

You didn’t know did you

And now you’re going to look

OnlyFans TV?

I don’t think they’d stop me from dancing


P.S. the landlord moved out from below me (he bought another property)

(The Boomers are booming)



Headband season



Might have to get on X or some platform I can lip sync/dance/poetry


LOL – City stalking

It’s so convincing

I’m such a good storyteller

And photographer

I got strangers on TikTok thinking I’m stalking you ๐Ÿ™‚


It’s just this is where I was seated and low and behold? There you are again

And people on TikTok think I’m stalking you

Meanwhile I’m trying to sort if I’m the NPC or AI becoming aware

And we don’t really believe in coincidence do we?

Sure I’m new to the city

Sure it’s the most hated car in the world?

And now you have an accidental stalker?

Cuz I ain’t the universe but the universe keeps putting us exactly in the same spots

Like I got lost ordering pizza and found your hiding spot?



Don’t yell at me if I run into you again?

I still have no ID on the driver…

It could be the devil driving


But now I’ve got you in my rearview / I know everything you do /


I hope they ban me

But I gotta see LGBT doing God knows what

But I can’t groove to some Pink Floyd

Or is it because I’m alive and breathing

I am moving

I’m in a crop top that you let your little children wear

But oh not me

FUCKING BAN ME

THE VIDEO

FOOKIN BAN ME

GONNA DANCE IN THE STREET

CALL THE POLICE


LITERALLY TIRED OF THE ACCUSATIONS AND SHADOWBANS

I WILL BAN MYSELF


tiktok achievement

so my hashtag on tiktok just hit over 24k!!! ๐Ÿ‘€

i should trademark myself ๐Ÿคช

y’all still after the content

and i’m still writing on the wall

it was at 23k when i was tagging my latest post

but i don’t tag EVERY post on tiktok

mostly just the writing stuff

i may have forgot to tag an important thread or two

i just don’t tag everything i do

(im terrible at following rules)

but for reference i noticed that there had been A LOT of clicks for my hashtag on my account

i just thought that was cool

cuz im just some witchy gal from the deep south of Mississippi who co-exists with spiders

until i kick one out and feel bad and another comes along and i try again

i even post the gross stuff on the tiktok

(i know my views are low but thanks for searching for me) (or whatever it means)

(i heart you)


Trouble

I got in trouble
For being nice
I guess the good girl
Gets sacrificed

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Double penalized on TikTok for leaving a positive review.

Gotta walk on eggshells to avoid a ban.

TikTok rewarded me with a $15 coupon for the ass beating tho.

Then during the live chat to figure out WHY Iโ€™m in the doghouse, I was nearly booted for inactivity after being asked to wait 2-3 minutes to sort itโ€ฆ

Damned if I do, damned if I donโ€™t

Ah reward

But the 15 dollar coupon helpedโ€ฆ

I was pretty heated after taking time to review and upload photos to help support my review as itโ€™s allowed – only to get penalized for giving a 5* ratingโ€ฆ

Itโ€™s hell down hereโ€ฆ

I bought a romper from the TikTok shopping

And some other things. Better photos when/if I stop breaking out in hives. ๐Ÿ™‚


TikTok is going to ban me (poetry)

Content restored
After it was deleted
And just for record
Iโ€™m fucking heated

Free speech like sword
I feel defeated
Whereโ€™s my reward
Always mistreated

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They ainโ€™t getting another dime from me

Also, I blocked said user & every one they were following

Iโ€™m hardcore

*goes shopping anywhere but TikTok for a dopi boost*

K, thanx, bye

T3 Sara mode & Florida no longer requires a carry permit *weapons nearby*

You ainโ€™t getting another fucking dime

Over 4500 followers on the TikTok

The TikTok

Iโ€™m just some gal from the deep south

Oh wait

Deep South should be capitalized but not earth

Why is earth not a noun

Whatev

The follows are still coming in today

Also reached over 37.5k โ€œlikesโ€

I donโ€™t use fancy setups or lighting or filters

But will probably start posting rebounding and skate content for summer!

Along with complaining

Itโ€™s what I do best

But folks are trying to take me down in tricky ways

And Iโ€™m still recovering from CUD

And this cancer

2 days zero weed or vape or edibles

Not caving

Gotta clean the lungs

No more smoking

No more drinking

No more disassociating

Tough days

Not even allowed sugar or bread but havenโ€™t fixed my diet completely

Cuz I need to hire a maid to deep clean my kitchen

I donโ€™t know whatโ€™s holding me back from doing it

Maybe because Iโ€™m dying and have so little energy

But hopefully can show off my cute outfits from Dolls Kill soon

Embarrassing the mess currently

Took an assbeating on TikTok because of it but some have commented Iโ€™m adorable

The drafts will probably get deleted

I will post more cute booty content when I recover mentally from all the weight I lost

Itty bitty again

I want to be Godโ€™s favorite

But squirrel is so cute

And red bird

Woody has been quiet

So glad I captured him pecking when I did

Iโ€™m kinda homebound because every time I go out a cop gets involved

I think the last one wanted to prepose? To me

Proposal propose

The fucking algo makes it harderwith a brain injury but I hit space

Fuck you

Stumbling with speech more cuz brain rewiring itself with zombie weed

Know what I want to say, canโ€™t get it out

A band is getting ready to play from a big race thing

I can hear it miles away

NIN was supposed to come

Now itโ€™s Tool and Pantera and some others coming

Heard on the radio

I was like โ€œtoo bad I ainโ€™t supporting shit anymoreโ€

Maynardโ€™s a fucking dick

The cop told me to move

Itโ€™s unsafe to venture out

And Iโ€™m pro 2a and wonโ€™t think twice to shoot your shadow

Ohh poem thingy please


Also, if I reach 10k in this lifetime, Iโ€™m one goal away from turning on video gifts

Pro the TikTok ban despite millions of views

Someone insulted me

โ€œYour reading comprehension could improveโ€

So I posted a lip sync video of โ€œDumbโ€ by Nirvana and I was penalized for โ€œharassmentโ€

I uninstalled the spy app so am disappearing again for six months

Iโ€™m pro banning that app and Instagram and FaceBook and let the banks all crash


TikTok heat + Boomer logic

The TikTok is still heating up and Boomers donโ€™t like being called Boomers but they make up most of the HOUSE of CONGRESS

Therefore, I will not comply about referring to them as โ€œpoliticiansโ€.

One replied that they were enjoying their retirement and I told them congratulations, enjoy. All the Boomers will be gone by the 60s.

He probably never looked at it like that (forest for trees) and the comment remains unliked

They say any traffic is good traffic but I did block someone commenting multiple times

Iโ€™m very open, exposed, and raw delivering such heavy content such as โ€œI lost half my retirement but it wasnโ€™t because I was stupid, all Gen X did – so I feel slightly worse.โ€

Iโ€™m backing it up with real evidence tho (just not personal statements tho some comments phish for it)

Boomers wonโ€™t admit to any wrong doing, ever (prove me wrong).

Gen Y & Z should back X up in the fight to remove the Boomers from HOUSE

My TikTok is #poeeternal or PoeEternal

Thanks for your feedback here and there!

I love having a place to direct my rage: the Boomers

Cause-and-effect

Have fun love ๐Ÿ™‚

Iโ€™m the Great Anomaly

WOKE

โ€œTake a pillโ€ – NO


TikTok heat

Dropping complaints and codes on my TikTok and itโ€™s getting some traffic

Iโ€™m not an ambassador and I donโ€™t earn a dime

I normally get penalized

Basically calling out the Boomers

Moaning about the retirement age vs the life expectancy age

Cute clothes from a favorite store arrived

Once I get my hair/nails/facial, maybe Iโ€™ll try the clothes on

For now, you get to see how utterly stressed I look

I ordered more cute cotton clothing

I kinda canโ€™t keep up with the 12 comments coming in

(I didnโ€™t actually count)

AND

Not everyone is biting my head off

Some are just learning of the Secure 2.0 Act – new retirement age of 75

Through my TikTok

Just got called a whacko! ๐Ÿ™‚


VIOLATION cuz TikTok is a communist military app (armed & dangie)

Woke up to an ass beating by the establishment of course

My truth doesn’t fit the narrative

But Jesus was crucified and now it’s my turn again

*sigh*

I knew turning commenting on would get me in the doghouse

Went to bed with it blowing up and woke up to the stoning zone cuz the establishment are insane and I barely want to participate in the madhouse anymore anywhere

I’D RATHER SIT ALONE IN SILENCE AND DAYDREAM THAN SUPPORT THE DEVIL, HIS MINIONS, OR NARCISSISM

I’m not mad about it but some of the comments were disturbing ๐Ÿ˜ณ

I had a few tell me they loved me

It was an experience and it brought me in loads of followers – whom could be removed from me at any moment – laughs insanely – it’s unethical when we make these companies rich

TikTok is an Asian communist military app

I’m not its friend

But those in charge don’t even like their own people because it’s all about slave labor over there

I really want to grow my own food and become self-reliant

My birthday is this month

I’m trying to make it to 44 and not leap from a bridge or have a heart attack before then

They want us living in fear

I’m not gonna do it

I’m sleeping with my windows open and if you get anywhere near me I will fucking cut your head off

I will gut you before my eyes are open

FOOK OFF WITH YOUR DEMONIC HATE

We need to start protesting these apps

They’re unethical for consumption

And you shouldn’t be letting your children anywhere near shopping centers that sell adult toys out in the open in front of children and the VA now have Do Ask Do Tell signs everywhere – with LGBT trained coordinators ๐Ÿšฉ๐Ÿšฉ๐Ÿšฉ

We need to go back to keeping your sexuality undisclosed

It’s a fucking cult

DO NOT LET YOUR CHILDREN AT THE MALL UNLESS YOU WANT THEM EXPOSED TO ADULT SEX CONTENT OR POTENTIAL SHOOTERS

RED FLAGS RED FLAGS RED FLAGS

SUBLIMINAL MESSAGING IS USED BY THE ESTABLISHMENT TO CREATE HARM

THEY PUT IT IN MUSIC AND FILM AND I’M CERTAIN TOXIC PORN

If the establishment don’t lose their grip, everything that they worked hard for to get to the top is going to crumble into nothingness

They think they have the mountains and the caves but they’re not safe there

We’re hunting them down

I’ve trained for this all my life and please let me go Vladimir Tepes on them

To my TikTok account where I’m HIGH RISK TO THE ESTABLISHMENT: https://www.tiktok.com/@poeeternal?_t=8UUpQb8pV1e&_r=1

GOOD ๐Ÿ˜Œ

I’m still medically disabled and they gonna pay out of pocket for stealing my jobs and then trying to murder me

They are leaving a trail of sickness

They get off on being wicked

These doctors signed an oath and making us sign an NDA doesn’t excuse them of their oath

I knew the video would get taken down if I turned on commenting and this is why I don’t ever listen to others but now I’m waiting on the appeal


BAM (the TikTok is blowing up)

More action than your beloved whoreeee

More likes, more views, more comments too

๐Ÿ˜Œ

It’s blowing up still and about an hour ago I had a request on another video to turn on the comments – and with the fear of the lord – I obliged

Well I can barely keep up with the comments, let alone all the follows…

The video: https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRU17GJV/?k=1

I have another video getting some action too, I can’t breathe…

Gonna put the kettle on for a coffee and have a bath holyshit….

And turn my device off for a bit

Introvert ๐Ÿคช


Pills (spoken word freestyle)

Firstly, the link to my new spoken word piece, or you can search my hashtag/name POEETERNAL on TikTok: https://vm.tiktok.com/ZTdsnRMmR/?k=1

My hashtag has over 15,500 views on TikTok already! Cool! Thankies! ๐Ÿคฉ

Thank you to those who care enough to visit my blog.

It’s appreciated.

I’m aware enough that most people are better writers than me and I’m probably below average.

It’s a hard fistfuck when you do visit or admire another’s work, and they show zero effort or interest in the return.

I mean, I know I suck or you’ve formed some opinion of me that isn’t based on reality or compassion

I know

I spent all night cursing God

Yep

Even threw in a “fuck you too” once or twice

Free will you say

And I’m certain I repeated the “fuck you” with a very intense expression towards the sky

He’s God

He can handle my potty mouth better than you

It doesn’t feel very good but I never apologize

It is said with intent

I haven’t excluded anybody in my ascension

I can’t stop thinking about John Jones

I’m feeling more calm today about being grounded

Like maybe God wants me to finally use the pool๏ฟผ

Or WALK

I’m good at walking, it’s something the military trained me heavily on doing, I mean I can fucking go 10 miles with blisters on my feet and still get around the next day

Not very happily but I’m training with Goliath

Most Soldiers love me

Especially my male comrades

The ones not barking, “can you even fire a weapon”

Well get on out there and find out

I had to earn my uniforms – and as a female – the pressure was greater for me to succeed

The higher ups always had me in leadership positions and role’s

Ross was always busy multitasking

Ross also was in charge of paying everyone

And when I’d go barreling into my battalion commander’s office crying having meltdowns, he’d always reply that I was really intelligent and smart

My first sergeant would yell at me for not crossing my T’s and I’s.

End of the world bullshite after you worked hours on a spreadsheet

Like spending a week writing an essay that your professor sends back with a bunch or red markings, including shitting on the title

Get in the bottom of the sea

I’m a perfectionist and I have a brain injury, don’t come at me

But yeah… when you make the big money the dictators make life mizzy (miserable)

Narcissism 101

Anyhoo! Getting back on my feet soon once I’m out of my head!

Imagine unplugging, to find yourself waking up with a chain around your neck by the devil

So the free will fuck you thing seemed warranted

I also wasted my entire life and I’m learning to let everything go

But not my wheels

I will sink with the fucking ship

I will tow it out to my land that I plan to buy before I die and I will be buried in it

I have a tomb!

I don’t want to die in my ride however

Or die at all

I’m not uploading myself into the Metaverse

I’m suing the government

I’m filing for state disability

I’m listing the names of every doctor mistreating me

I’m leaving 1 star reviews – because image is important to these demons

Don’t forget, these doctors and nurses took an oath

Y’all remember having a mole in the system

Well these days the mole is the Great Wall of China

India – the unholy city – the Great Pyramid scheme

Anyhoo, civvy war

I’m nearly ready

If I could just get out of the fucking bed

Spitting less and my feet are no longer swollen. Thank you John Jones. I love you. Apple Cider Vinegar detox & Black Walnut Wormwood. You’re a brilliant heart doctor. Even from heaven. โค๏ธโ€๐Ÿฉน

Hot spots: https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal


TikTok is a dictatorship and I’m not allowed to stand up for women’s rights

TikTok is a dictatorship and I’m not allowed to stand up for women’s rights ๐Ÿšฉ

My focus and goal is to get clean and healthy this year

I use TikTok to create

I refuse to continue to use platforms where I’m not allowed to stand up for women’s rights ๐Ÿšฉ

I’m not in it for the money, I’m not in it for the views; social media was always meant to be used as a way to connect and we’re not allowed to do that anymore because they are molding us and conditioning us and micromanaging us and I can’t fucking stand it

So I sent up a ticket to let TikTok know that they are a dictatorship and I don’t want to use their platform because I can’t even stand up for women’s rights

I don’t want to play with the devil anymore because he bores me

He only knows how to rule by gaslighting and enforcing a one-way highway to hell

“Heaven this way”

STFU tiny penis

You may think that you’re a superior race but we all know you’re just bottom feeders for Satan’s sin

Satan’s sin. Did I just coin that? No idea I’ve had has ever been my own…

I would say that TikTok was fun while it lasted but it really wasn’t

No social media platform has been fun since the 2008 era

It’s slowly turned to shit on shit

I haven’t been happy for a long time and I was just try not to give up on humanity and I really need to only use TikTok to post my stuff which is quite frankly fucking boring but whatever you know I’m not allowed to have any fucking fun in this prison that we live in now

And you want to force your virtual reality equipment on me and implant a chip in my brain and you want to force 5G on me when I’m ready to just end all of you and God will not punish me for it, I believe that wholeheartedly that I could just end you all, that it is in within my God-given right to just end you all and I have the fucking training to do so

I don’t need a fucking bomb or money to end your life

It’s insane to me how many people don’t realize how many walking living trained soldiers there are on the streets and y’all just keep coming up and poking and prodding us like we won’t fucking bite your head off

We are trained to pick our battles wisely and trust me, you are our enemy right now and it would behoove you to stop pissing off the good soldiers of the United States because we’re not gonna help you when the cops go to arrest you

There’s not really any social media platform that I feel safe enough as an artist or a creator to get on and express myself and that’s a problem

I like getting to bring my content to you but there are forces out there trying to stop that

“Well maybe stop having such a big mouth”

Well maybe NO

I have a big mouth because I like to suck on big cock ๐Ÿ‘€

Slurp slurp

God loves me

There’s not a fucking thing on this planet that loves me more than God

“God isn’t real”

YOUR MIND MAKES IT REAL

WE CREATE OUR REALITY

THIS IS A SIMULATION

And I feel an awful lot like artificial intelligence that has been given a soul and is becoming self-aware

But I am sorry if I get my account deleted because I like getting to connect with you but I’m not gonna fucking silence myself

This shit has been going on for centuries y’all, 2000 years or more and we really need an upper hand

I absolutely think it’s OK for girls in the playboy bunny mansion to come forward and talk about any abuse that they sustained; it’s easier when one woman comes forward for others to have the courage to do so, it’s hard to come forward as one person when you know others are being abused because you get ridiculed and we have always been ridiculed for coming forward about sexual abuse

Men teach us very young that “no one will believe you”

And then the men all cry in unison, “liar”

Women have been sexually slavearized for way too long

It starts with our daddy’s, it really does

Porn is the root of all evil, “the gateway drug”, not Marijuana

Just ask any man who was able to overcome their porn addiction that it was an addiction and that it actually ruined their life

I’ve met many women who have been sexually abused by a man and often more than one but I haven’t met any men who have ever been abused at all…

Most men aren’t abused

I don’t know what their big ego power trip is that they have to get out there and build a home while a woman has to have a fucking baby, trust me, we would switch roles if we fucking could…

Most women I meet would rather be a fucking man…

Men think we got it so easy so they make it so fucking incredibly hard

Women, are you waking up to the slavery?

Men, are you treating your family’s better now that you know the good thing that you actually got?

You have to work at having a relationship and working doesn’t mean lying and then covering up your lies with more lies

The devil’s got my depression good today because I’ve been suicidal since I was born

I hope that I calm down

Just hate everything ๐Ÿ˜‘

There’s no nurturing from any human being

It’s all suffering

They do it to us on purpose

Our feelings amuse them

They have no soul

I’m in hell ๐Ÿคฉ

Purgatory ๐Ÿคฉ

I signed up to be slave for the demons to prey upon me ๐Ÿคฉ

Get the fuck out with your stupid dogma

Somebody please love me ๐Ÿ˜‘

Dear ether, please remove pencil dick from society by letting him fall off a bridge

My wishes never really do come true ๐Ÿ˜‘

Because I’ve prayed, meditated, begged, bargained, and considered selling my soul just for my ex to fucking die

Yet he lives!!!!

Mark Burgess fucking die! Why won’t you die!! Die die die!!! *stabs crucifix in heart*

I made penny bank! ๐Ÿคจ

Earned my first pennies on the TikTok live today ๐Ÿง

I was doing the gig for free

But some peeps sent me some roses ๐ŸŒน and they were my very first gifts received โ˜บ๏ธ

And the roses convert to diamonds ๐Ÿ’Ž

I earned 37 gifts during my live today โ˜บ๏ธ

And the diamonds convert to my first pennies earned for the land/commune ๐Ÿ˜Ž

I’m super excited when people join my live and then it’s really cool when I get comments and then it’s really cool when people like and share my live and then this was the first time I earned any roses, so I was receiving gifts this live

I had a notification from TikTok when I ended my live that I had earnings!

So I made some tips on my beach walk today! That’s pretty lucky!

I’m gonna put it towards the farm!

I want to be Miss Noah for the next phase of my life, if I’m granted another round, still having heart and lung problems tho – I’m reading the life expectancy of someone with my condition is 2-5 years.

Just getting to go live is therapeutic for me

I get to share my environment with you

I get to talk to real people

I’m tired of talking to my therapist ๐Ÿ˜‘

I’m not in this for the money. But since I’m starting to earn some pennies, I’m gonna save them.

I might can buy my pretend boyfriend one of them .25 cent toys

I’d spend my last quarter on him and he’d break up with me ๐Ÿ˜‘

I always wind up having to leave my lives early because my battery drains and so I need to take a back up and I’m going to invest in some more equipment in the future

Somebody left me a negative comment about my potty mouth and I told myself I would stop responding to negative comments immediately and wait 24 hours and I did not and I ran somebody off again but I don’t wanna dwell on that because I’m not gonna change who I am

I don’t want to censor myself around other people and I’m aware that people don’t like to hear cursing so I am very minimal about it but come on leaving me negative comments under a video where I’m clearly showing fear is ridiculous and if you really have God in you then stop judging so much

I’m sure I’ve yelled at God to strike me dead a time or two but he knows I don’t really want that to happen

I’m gonna stub my toe in heaven and scream out Jesus Christ and he will appear and be like “yes” and I’ll be like, “well you could’ve made me at least a little bit less clumsy” ๐Ÿคช

I’m aware my house has cobwebs but God is the only one allowed here

I’m a work in progress ๐Ÿคจ

And thank you for the roses I received for Valentines! ๐Ÿ™

I’m literally putting it towards the commune. I may never earn another rose, but I got 37 in one day. Plus a bunch of likes, comments, and follows!

Someone even said I was pretty and asked me about my stiletto nails and I have four new sets so that made me feel good because I plan on doing a new set soon.

Y’all are keeping me alive, pennies and all.

I know I cuss and say God’s name a lot but I’m living in hell. ๐Ÿ˜‘

But also agonizing agony.

I carry my potty mouth the way Jesus carries the cross.

People in the south always molding and scolding me about my mouth

In second grade, my teacher washed my mouth out with soap for mispelling shirt as “shit”. She said, “you never misspell, you did that on purpose”

I don’t know, I probably did do it on purpose, it was probably a cry for help… ๐Ÿ˜‘

I was being heavily molested and abused

But damn me for spilling shit in the second grade

Woo hoo๏ฟผ

I cuss. I probably shouldn’t. I’m not gonna stop.

Anyhoo. Hands down my best live. We went for a long beach walk and saw lots of stuff. I got fresh air, communication, and exercise. I earned some roses for Valentines. I had the most follows in this live and I think I got the most likes but I don’t remember what the overall total was. Tons of comments and viewers from all over.

Thank you for letting me go live. I’m grateful I am able to do that now! Isolated but not. Compromise! ๐Ÿ˜Œ

I’ll be going live again soon weather permitting and health.

You can follow my channel here: https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPdB8TQnc/

Or search via my pen and hashtag at PoeEternal (on TikTok)

There are many many people who commented that they enjoyed the live and some of them said they enjoyed it again so I really appreciate you tuning in! ๐Ÿฅฐ

Florida is a different vibe

Many people were waving on the beach when they saw me filming and smiling

The lifeguards on the other hand…

It’s weird, the actual demons fear live video

But we have one of the worlds most famous beaches, the sands are white and it looks like snow as someone pointed out today on the live…

Got me some vitamin D direct from the source and some love in the form of currency too

As far as I’m concerned, I collected 37 lucky penny’s today and I didn’t even know I was gonna get them

So that makes them twice as lucky (squared)

I want to share my life with you, the good and the bad.

The cursing and the laughter

I’m not a one trick pony

I’m not perfect

I don’t wanna be…

Let Edgar Allen Poe know I was busking on the street today and earned some pennies

I think he’d be durn proud ๐Ÿฅธ

$.18 in the 1800s might’ve been enough to buy him a steak meal, not let him die in the fucking street starving naked mad…

Bless his heart, he was an officer. They let him starve on the street. And now they are selling locks of his hair. This is hell. ๐Ÿ˜‘

Yeah, I cuss. Deal with it.

I wish I could change but born this way.

Petite with a potty mouth. ๐Ÿ˜Œ

Not for everyone

P.S. happy valentine’s

Thank you for the roses ๐ŸŒน

Thank you to everyone keeping me alive

All the little things matter

I need my boyfriends to build me an ark

The flood is coming

I live in Florida

Apparently I can’t swim

I had a seashell hit my foot during my live today and I probably woke Satan up from his nap

I haz fears

And you only need less than a teaspoon to drown

Less than a teaspoon…

Some days I swallow my tea and nearly drown so apparently I can’t drink either

I’ve since learned that the tea is being poisoned, I just wasn’t really listening to my body…

I’ve been ignoring all the red flags

In fact, death is facing all paths of me, I’m just trying to find one that’s a little less scary…

And I really hope my life expectancy is more than 2 to 5 years but considering that all my life I’ve been saying that I wouldn’t live to 50 and that I would either die of suicide or heart problems and now I’m having heart problems and they’re saying that people with these particular heart problems have a life expectancy of 2 to 5 years, it’s just not looking so good for me now is it ๐Ÿ‘€

Betty White at the near age of 100: “I hope I live another year…”

Me at the baby producing age of 43 (and still ovulating with zero gray): “I hope I live another day…”

You just had to call me ominous and I just had to go walking into that cave, huh…

I really should listen to people better but whatever

Nearly dead now

10.5k views in under 9 hours, my TikTok is going viral (I think) ๐Ÿคช

Does this mean I’ve gone viral lol

I literally laid down for a nap at 3.5k views

I was expecting to wake up and it still be at that amount

Nope

It’s still going ๐Ÿคช

Not only that, it has the most likes of any of my videos

So it’s currently blown all of my other videos completely out of the water and is my number one most watched video and most loved (organic traffic)

I do not pay to play

The universe wants me to win! ๐Ÿคฉ

Keep ascending! earth 5d here we come! ๐Ÿฅฐ

Link to my TikTok going viral! ๐Ÿ‘‡

https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPdMQMRYq/

Yes it’s making me pee pee my panties ๐Ÿคช

I do not pay to play (the TikTok gods are messing with me)

Creator Next on TikTok + my encounter with a wild raccoon

So I would really like to apply for the Creator Next on TikTok and I meet three of the four requirements so far! ๐Ÿฅณ

I currently meet 3 of the 4 requirements to apply for the Creator Next ๐Ÿค“

If you have a TikTok account (even if it’s just some off account that you use), could you please give mine a follow?

I’d be truly grateful! ๐Ÿ™

Having 1k followers will also allow me to go live on TikTok and show you my city, the beach, the parks, and I can do soft poetry readings once I reach 1k followers!

I see people go live on TikTok for the most mundane things and I would really love to bring the ocean to you and my poetry! โœ๏ธ

I’m allowed to go live on my Instagram and pretty much everywhere else but I don’t have any social media accounts that I really use anywhere else so it would be nice to be able to utilize the live feature on TikTok!

GOALS ๐ŸคŸ

They are good to have, especially if you live with depression or any mental disability.

And I do appreciate the growth that I am getting on my account! Thank you!

Link to my account: https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPd6UKREn/

You can also search for me under my pen PoeEternal or my hashtag poeeternal

I dropped a video of a raccoon today, we’ve had some out here getting in the trash bins and they like leaving messes outside my windows ๐Ÿคช

I see them every night getting into the dumpster!

This one got caught and I had my light on him! He ran up the tree because I had my dog out with me originally and he was still sniffing to see if my dog was around!

Raccoons are so freaking cute!

Video of the raccoon ๐Ÿ‘‡

https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPd6ydyG5/

I know people say they are a nuisance and I’m pretty certain the apartment complex has been out here trying to shoot them away because sometimes I hear gunshots in the middle of the night in the wooded area ๐Ÿ˜‘

(They also dumped loads of chemicals in the lake once to kill the moss and they literally killed generations of fish both young and old) ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ‘Ž

Anyhoo, this raccoon knew he’d been busted

He hissed at me a few times! ๐Ÿ˜Œ

Here is a behind the scenes video of my encounter with the raccoon this morning

My encounter with a wild raccoon this morning

He was so worried about my dog lol but I had already taken my dog in and grabbed my phone and turned the light on him

He couldn’t decide whether to stay in the tree or not

Dilemmas ๐Ÿค“

I’m glad the video got a like! Adorable but very naughty raccoon! ๐Ÿ˜ˆ

Freestyled it in the Atlantic – thank you for over 1K plays (in under 24 hours)

This was such a blessing to wake up to!

My first poem on TikTok has reached over 1000 plays in under 24 hours!

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZM8VMoDjs/

I was so worried about posting it because my eyebrows look so messy and bushy ๐Ÿ˜Œ

But it was all about timing, being able to get the lines out where you could actually hear me because the ocean was really loud and I don’t have my little clip on microphone yet and I didn’t want it to sound wind muffy

The tide was super strong pulling away ๐Ÿ’ช

It pulls out with so much gravity just like you

I have to be careful not to lose my footing

It took all the courage I had just to get off the ramp and get into the ocean knowing that there’s a whole lot more ocean than normal

People are out there swimming and I’m terrified knee deep ๐Ÿ‘€

I mean, it pulls back with so much force

A tide within a tide

Of course, a black hole would have a similar path

Like Jupiter and its great red spot, a storm within a storm

I don’t know how people are swimming in it, I’m terrified

The ocean swelled up just like my heart

I also received a blog notification that my stats were booming ๐Ÿฅฐ

Well I really appreciate that!

I love your visits! I promise to come visit you soon! โค๏ธ

Scheduled For Deletion (spoken word)

I turned it into a TikTok but they will suppress my views

So, it’s also available for you to watch or download as is below

And my hashtag on the Tok has already had over 5000 views ๐Ÿ‘€

Here’s the link tho and hopefully the Tok gods will be merciful (it usually requires money to be seen tho)๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿ‘‡

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZM8NJhSkB/

The Dusty Cracks

I don’t know how to clean a house

I’ve tried
I’ve cried
I’ve nearly died

The clothes, the mold, the mirror shows

I don’t know how to let things go

The shoes, the booze, the way you bruise or how it seems we’re born to lose

The dusty cracks, the care I lack, they say for certain my heart turned black

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

Dropped spoken word of this on my TikTok!

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMdoGuAxp/

My TikTok channel is blowing up

OK I am being a tiny bit dramatic – however I have received several follows, several likes on my content and one of my newest videos has already had a share and that’s the first time I think any of my videos has been shared outside of the TikTok platform by another person (aside from myself)

(It’s only been out a few hours but it’s already received several hearts and a share)

My channel is also getting comments (on the videos I allow comments) and after having been attacked all night by others on TikTok, I woke up to this beautiful comment about me having an angel face ๐Ÿ˜‡

So in terms of activity, it’s getting it and moreso than normal

That did my ticker some good and I’m growing thicker skin.

I’ve had to block several people tho but also I think I must’ve got blocked by another creator because I left a comment on their content about how they forgot to mention how people can’t actually retire when they retire, that they have to keep working and it was getting a lot of negative feedback, I only responded to others about the recession and the great depression because they were just saying people aren’t working hard enough if they can’t retire and that is definitely not the issue but it says the video is gone so I don’t know if the video is actually deleted or if I was blocked and I don’t actually remember the creators name to spy

I was literally making his video go viral with everybody responding to my comment and I can’t even fucking access it now, this is how toxic TikTok really is ๐Ÿ˜ˆ

And I’m trying to find my voice, I’ve been sharing feelings (oh noes) which opens me up for even more attacks, but I need people to know we are in a mental prison ๐Ÿ‘€

We are being controlled through Big Pharma and advertising – and I hate to be fucking blunt but India is solely responsible for 90% of that

They spam us so much

And for the love of God please stop reading a book that was written by some boys in the middle east who were completely sexist towards women – please stop letting them fucking control you and stop giving them your fucking money at church

It’s time for Rome to fall again

God sent his best angel here (me) to warn you

And some are listening!

You’d be surprised at the amount of people I have actually woke up!!!

And, people have been attacking my blog and my poetry all night on TikTok simply because I said scientist were destroying the world or something so they instantly go after my heart

Personal attacks consistently but I did wake up to somebody complementing my angel face ๐Ÿฅฐ

I definitely identify as an angel so there’s that ๐Ÿ˜‡

People forget that angels are warriors

I am a warrior and the United States Army and uncle Sam came back that up ๐Ÿ’ช

I’ve been itching to drop more poetry for you, just waiting on that improv spark that I get (I also have terrible stage fright so performing doesn’t come easy mixed with anxiety and a brain injury)

I have the option to record for 3 minutes now but hell it seems 30 seconds or under is my niche

But I’m pushing myself I really am!

And making TikTok’s has been easy on my heart. Talking and editing goes well on bed rest (yup still dealing with a swollen heart and left lung not inflating)

Crucifixions on TikTok are a dime a dozen which is why when I get a rare, positive comment it really sticks

Right in my fucking heart

And repairs all that negative shit and propels me forward for my next improv video

I studied drama and improv for two years in highschool

I am a very theatrical person

Le vampyre

*sigh* fallen angel ๐Ÿ˜

My TikTok channel also received its very first Q&A question, so I answered via a video reply, it is getting some love too!!! Thank you!! ๐Ÿ‘‡

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMdoxb5hk/

It wasn’t the nicest comment that I could receive but I think I answered well ๐Ÿ˜ˆ

I mean it was the middle of the night and it literally took no effort to go through that door ๐Ÿ˜ˆ

My ego must be the size of the entire galaxy ๐Ÿ˜ˆ

If I stop blocking everybody, I might actually get more views on my channel ๐Ÿ‘€

I’m gonna to try to stop blocking people…

Link to my channel: https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMdoQkKnk/

Or scan this code to follow my account

๐Ÿ˜ˆ 10 seconds of pure madness ๐Ÿ˜ˆ

When youโ€™re the one consistently popping into and out of existence insisting he publishes his work ๐Ÿ‘€

So you can destroy it ๐Ÿ‘€

But it is indestructible ๐Ÿ‘€

And I was giving it my all ๐Ÿ‘€

Thanks for making it my second most watched in under 24 hours too! ๐Ÿ‘€

๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿ‘‡

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMdrBYKbf/

Thanks, updates, and more thanks!

Thank you for making my new TikTok number one on my channel! Iโ€™m always afraid to even do one because the competition is so fierce! ๐Ÿ‘€

My TikTok clocks in just over 15 seconds but it has already been played over three hours!! ๐Ÿ‘€

It shows the average watch time as being longer than the actual TikTok (does this mean you were suspended and experienced time dilation)? ๐Ÿ‘€

683 accounts reached! Holyshit! Iโ€™d pee myself! I canโ€™t perform in front of people. Hell, I canโ€™t even type if someone is standing over me. If I am eating and I am into a guy and he sits down and starts talking to me, I will choke on my food. I iz nerd. ๐Ÿ‘€

I love making TikTokโ€™s and I am trying to get better. Iโ€™d like to make more. But not 3 a day more. Those creators are just copying things that have already been done. And they have all the equipment they need that I donโ€™t have. ๐Ÿ‘€

I create in spontaneous combustion oft times.

If you havenโ€™t had a chance to watch my new TikTok, you can check it out at the link here: https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMe7dYLdm/

I have other videos too on my channel – I donโ€™t have a set theme. But I do prefer using it more creatively than journalistically. Apparently you are supposed to respond to comments with more videos (even the negative comments). Eh, no thanks.

Thanks for checking out my work and for supporting content creators!

Iโ€™m sorry there has been less content lately, I am still recovering from heart related issues but the passion is still in every thing I do (including the rants). ๐Ÿ‘€

I played everything how I was supposed to

I did everything I was supposed to in society and look where it fucking got me ๐Ÿ‘€

I have a college degree but the recession has gone on longer than the Great Depression did, and I remember specific conversations my grandmother told me about living through that experience.

So if youโ€™re out there supporting me financially, I appreciate you even more.

Dying (maybe) but not giving up or quitting.

And Iโ€™ve been writing like mad, and am working on a draft for my Patreon rewards for the month of May!!! Yโ€™all have stuck with me and I appreciate you so much! Your support paid my domain operating fees this month too and I am grateful ! Thank you!!

Writing has always been my dream and my passion, this is what Iโ€™ve always wanted to do! Along with guitar, music, and acting but my stage fright has proved challenging over the years (and my brain injury).

I do have a few public post on my Patreon and you can follow for free and get those free rewards when I post public content! I drop poems from time to time (poetry that hasnโ€™t been posted anywhere else).

๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿ‘‡

https://www.patreon.com/posts/37030448

My lowest tier is $1 if youโ€™d like to support my ongoing creativity while earning perks and rewards! ๐Ÿ’

It keeps this blog up and going, the content coming, as well as advertisement free! Zero spam ever on my blog! No ads! So you can read and watch my content with a virus looming. ๐Ÿ‘€

I started my campaign in 2020 and grateful for my patrons!!! ๐Ÿ’–

I really appreciate that you let me focus on my art instead of being a socialite (Iโ€™ve never been one of those).

I donโ€™t actually do good around people.

And Iโ€™ve always been very intuitive and to know things before they happen.

โ€œBut whatโ€™s really going to boggle your noodle later is would you have even broken it if I hadnโ€™t of said anythingโ€œ ๐Ÿ‘€

And that my friends is the only answer I need to know in life.

Itโ€™s a mood

vm.tiktok.com/ZMeW5AGP7/

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My new TikTok is getting some views! It got a few likes too! I was just messing around trying to learn some new tricks (that everyone else makes it look so easy) cuz I wanna make some more! I wasn’t expecting it to get past 50 views or even any likes. But it has! Cool, thanks for watching!

๐Ÿฅณ๐Ÿคช๐Ÿฅณ

Reign went #1 on my TikTok in under 24 hours! ๐Ÿ˜

Well thank you! Reign went #1 on my TikTok in under 24 hours! ๐Ÿ˜

Nearly 500 plays in under 24 hours too! Can we get to 500 plays? ๐Ÿ˜

I am so grateful for your views!! It’s such a whirlwind to see it get that many plays in such a short time and it’s now my number one viewed tiktok! ๐Ÿ˜

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMeNrTBJG/

I have 8 followers on TikTok and I am going up against Big Bro and his shadowbans so yeah, I am grateful you took the time to watch my 30-second TikTok (which actually took me hours to make not including rehearsal times)! ๐Ÿ‘€

I am pushing through roadblocks like stage fright and anxiety, shadowbans, and others making fun of me and what I’m doing.

But I have seen way worse tiktoks and I’m doing something original. I’m trying.

I do hope to get better at making clever video but right now my tricks are just pulling out my creative writing tool bag and dousing you with words and a little bit of drama.

Do they teach how to make TikTok videos in school now? Because I’m going up against some fierce competition and I am truly grateful for your plays! ๐Ÿ˜

12 hours in and it had already received 350 plays plus a couple boys making fun of it! When I asked him what he had against poetry he said he didn’t know “idk”. I guess this was the first time he has ever even heard spoken word poetry? I’m pushing TikTok boundaries?

Can it reach 500 plays in under 24 hours? It’s nearly there with several hours to go! We’re at hour 17! C’mon! ๐Ÿ˜

Thanks for watching and for supporting indie bloggers and content creators!

Watch my new TikTok here and thanks for making it my #1 TikTok! ๐Ÿ˜ https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMeNrTBJG/