I mean the rent is paid

The VET bills are paid

I’m sick of starring at a grey shower liner from Walmart that I overpaid

AND

A SECRET WISHLIST SALE

YOU HAD ME AT SECRET 👆

And thus, I got home improvement thangs that had been in the wishlist

I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO TELL YOU

I lost everything when I became homeless in 2017 after the government furloughs and hiring freezes

EVERYTHING

I could lose thangs again

But I got some bike LEDs coming 🤩

Me and the dog will be cruising the racist parking lot at night

👍

MENTAL HEALTH AND FITNESS IS IMPORTANT

THE PRETTY LIGHTS WILL CALM ME

And encourage me to go for an evening ride

I’m still living in fear about riding my bike after that couple got murdered and the eyes around here work in groups to steal thangs

I’ve got my shit together though and the cops are on speed dial 👍

Personally I wish we could just have a walkie-talkie because they’re only a mile away but they seem to live here on weekends so now I can ride my bike and not give a fuck about the racist gangs

Uncle Sam trained me to fight male Soldiers in GROUPS

I’d win

They’d get all butthurt

At this point, the ex better be praying the Grim Reaper gets to him before I do 👁👄👁

At this point, I’m praying the Grim Reaper gets to him before I do because I’m trying to make a baby, start a commune, ascend

If the immigrants raise my rent one more time who knows what the fuck I’m gonna do, maybe buy some more fucking shit from Dolls Kill

I didn’t even know secret sales existed over there, I was just window browsing my wishlist

TAKE AN ADDITIONAL 25% OFF SECRET WISHLIST SALE

*runs to check balance, the rent cleared*

FUCKKKKKKKKK

It’s literally $8 for the curtain babe

That’s not a curtain or daily or monthly expense

THAT IS A MENTAL HEALTH BOOST

And I might start taking some photos in my fucking bathroom instead of just in my closet or bedroom or other bedroom where I used to take photos but right now there’s important paperwork & evidence of trauma everywhere

I’m not gonna find a husband with my shower curtain looking like the home of Eeyore

I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH ALL THIS TRAUMA

Some of it is being sold at the pawn

Eventually I will hack into my eBay account again or start a new one and put some rare commodities up

Some thangs are going to the junkyard

Some stuff is already freshly boxed and ready for the next timeline multiverse jump

“Where we are now is not permanent, keep packing”

“What is all this shit”

“A piece of HIM, we’re going to burn him alive”

“Too easy”

“Put it in the trash piles”

*places it in the EVIDENCE I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH PILE*

“I’m sorry that happened to you. I know why you needed my help”

“I’m here now….”

“It’s okay”

“Be patient with me”

“I can’t fix this mess overnight”

“What the fuck is this”

*closes bedroom door*

*Disassociates*

I am working on getting my master bedroom together tho!!!

So I can come out of the closet officially 🤪

Not like that…

I’m a vampire

The closet is the coffin

And the cleanest room currently on the whole ship

One tiny safe space

Don’t enter cuz it’ll be the last thing you ever do…

YOU’VE BEEN WARNED

“Where is Delia”

“In the closet”

“…I wouldn’t go in there mate, she’s been in there like 200 years”

“No one ever returns….”

If Chris were here, I mean Kris, wait who?

We could write the most amazing cryptic stories

Do you want to know what stops me from writing stories for y’all? fucking punctuation…

That’s my major roadblock

That and “that was in her head”

I PET BLEEDING DYING TREES YA’LL

I would just like to say that God likes my weird dark tales and so does John Jones and I’d like to share them more with you so I probably will just avoid punctuation altogether and I’m not hiring anybody yet to help me because I don’t make that kind of money and I don’t have any sort of bond with anybody like David Gilmour has with his wife where they write fucking lyrics together so this is the compromise – good storytelling with shitty grammar and punctuation!?!

I mean, I do have a brain injury, could you cut me some slack a little bit? There are people out there drawing paintings with their fucking feet, can maybe like I avoid punctuation and grammar and just try to get the message and the tone out before I don’t have the ability to do that at all?

Asking for him

Because he’s never once liked or commented on anything that I do 😑

I like to like peoples content and then get mad at them for absolutely ridiculous reasons not based on reality and then UNLIIKE EVERYTHING I LIKED

And then unfollow

Sometimes I come back and do it again 🙄

EDGAR ALLAN POE DIED ON THE STREET

CHRIS CORNELL WAS TURNING THE LIGHTS ON AND OFF WITH AN APP

TAP TAP TAP

He was checking out 😑

I’M TRAUMATIZED

But essentially I’m acting out doing the same

I’m extremely suicidal and act out often

I got in trouble for trying to kill myself in kindergarten at age 5 on the playground with a piece of string

“Your weird” and then NO BODY WANTED TO PLAY WITH ME EVER

Chastised

For not being a sheeple

I hated school

I hated home

My parents never bought me my dream sheets or gave me my dream bedroom so that’s what I’m working on now and I really hope I like this sheet set that’s coming and that it fits

Because sheets for the wired mattress are coming

From the Dolls Kill

Sharing my shopping tips and favorites with you

I’ve never had my dream bedroom

And now I got sheets and a curtain coming for the master bath and bedroom that I pay top dollar for to have a roof with ugly ass popcorn ceiling that falls in my throat when trying to sleep

“WHAT THE FUCK IS TRYING TO CHOKE ME NOW”

“JUST SOME ANCIENT DUST FROM 10,000 plagues ago, these motherfuckers”

*opens window*

John just wanted air in his lungs again

The wind on his face

I KNOW

CRAWLING IN THE CAVE WASN’T WORTH HIS LIFE

Mother earth is both heaven and hell but bad management got him killed and gaslighting

Ignoring the red flags

But also being given an incomplete map that didn’t disclose dangerous features that were purposely left off that other people had gotten stuck in six months prior

“I thought I was somewhere else”

“I’m fat”

I want to feed Michael Levitt’s balls to him

PLEASE SOMEONE LOVE ME AND MAKE IT HAPPEN

I chose the free shipping even though I want my stuff right away

Been scrubbing the bathroom

Got the current bed sheets stripped and washing

I gotta scrub the walls

Also working on new content

Writing. Photography.

I’ve been feeling very angelic but also dark

I come from the Void

I am the Void

Oh look, a wave of energy now

*ZAP* ⚡️

Canceled out…

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P.S. I ordered some anti happy cards to send out to people/bloggers/friends/fans/Penpal/??

I don’t know how many are arriving in the bundle

I thought it might be fun to send out for Thanksgiving and the Christmas holiday

Some sarcastic hatemail 🤪

It’ll be gaslighting (don’t jump from a bridge)

Does anybody want to be my penpal the season?

It can be a one-way penpal (you don’t even have to write me back if you don’t want because I wasn’t actually planning on putting my address anywhere)

I wanted to get a little post office box from the post office but they charge an arm and a leg now to be secretive 🙄

I wanted a little addy thang…

A P.O. box

I think I already gave the fucking serial killer my address and heart 👀

It’s scary out here

Uhm, so I splurged and got this Mixed Messages card set in the hopes that folks will let me send them an anti holiday card for the holiday – wrong theme – wrong month 🤪

Just for fun

I am quarantined as many still are

PLEASE LET ME SEND YOU ONE

🙏

Remember having a penpal in grade school?

I’d like to try that again

Back to the basics

I know it requires some form of trust

I’ve held security clearances and I don’t fuck with peoples personal data or private data or bank accounts or Social Security’s

I have never keyed anybody’s car for cheating on me

Anyhoo

They have this sale going on up until midnight if you wanna try to put some things in a wishlist and put the code in your cart

Stuff does sale out fast

I had about five or six other items in my wish list that I tried to add to the cart that were already sold out, cute little bags and over the knee socks, some other home-improvement items

A red latex dress that normally cost $50 was under $4 but gone in every size 😑

It just makes it that more fun and special when you grab a bargain

Let me know if you want to see my master bedroom, bathroom and closet when I get it completely made over

Or in progress updates…

I haven’t really said it much but I’m really looking forward to the new sheet set coming in

I’m not only shopping for myself but my future husband 🤪

Ladies, whatever motivates you to get better

There are good men out there who do not think women in their 40s are obsolete!!!

And you don’t have to be the person you were before…

You can change

You don’t have to keep shopping at Walmart or the thrift store

REINVENT

I never knew I could wear triangle tops or bikinis because guys were always dissing on my body and I’m not ashamed for taking photographs of myself

I’m not doing anything to disrespect my future husband

I’m not doing anything behind the scenes nasty or trying to steal anybody’s husband

I’m not an online girlfriend or dirty talker

Back in the 90s, I knew good girls who stripped their way through college, to buy a house, or to pay off their student loans and they weren’t expected to perform sex acts or to be that way

I would like an opportunity to pay off a bill or to buy a house but right now I’m just trying to stay afloat and buy some fucking food and make a penpal or two during the apocalypse

Are stamps even affordable? 🤪

P.S.S. I could do a card and email a digital version instead if you don’t have an aunt or uncle or cabin to receive snail-mail

I’m not doing anything illegal nor planning anything evil

I’m just going back to the basics and I saw those cards and had this idea

Our spaceship took on the form of a pyramid FYI

Are you out there? Do you still read my blog? Do you love me? 😑

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