So I’ve mastered the art of vegan stew

And I’ll be able to feed the potential future hubby various versions of soup

No cabbage this time but added a couple handfuls of dry split peas

More rainbow carrots (grateful for the birthday donations, feeding my belly)

Lots of organic spices and a shit ton of the good salt!

A BIG potato

And I know I don’t have a fancy kitchen but I want to be able to cook soup out in the fucking forest over a campfire 👀

I even added lots of peppers and fresh would have been better!

The stew even got a thing of spring water!!

But, not for the rich emancipated kid who gutted me in my heart

He wounded my spirit when he said he wouldn’t eat from my kitchen and if I was offended with it, it was my fault 😑

He treats me the way others treated Mary Magdalene 😑

God said if he doesn’t get his shit together he won’t be invited into the heavens 😑

IT’S AMAZING 🤩

My future husband must like soup a lot!!!

🙏

I just picked up another bottle of detox and got my large dose in!

The world is plagued by parasites, don’t be ashamed

History repeats itself because they make money from gaslighting our health issues and laugh about us chasing our tails while feeding us nothing but poison then saying, “stupid Americans”

Well that rich emancipated kid can eat his cold ass pizza from that box with his cold ass heart while 60% of the fucking species go extinct over commercial farming and that fucking cheese he’s eating…

I’M OFFENDED

But the belly is full

And there’s maybe one bowl left after simmering the witches stew for hours! 🤪

But I’ll be getting a rebound session in soon!

I gotta be careful tho

I’m ready for the booty to start returning

I still have muscle to work with all over

But I’ve shed over 18+ pounds in 5 months detoxing

It does take time to rebuild

You can’t expect results overnight

I do not live in the gym

I have a heart and lung injury from the death jab 🤨

I can’t expect the potential future husband to be using me as motivation to push him to run a fucking marathon

I get up before sunrise

Make coffee

And try not to leap from a bridge…

It would be nice if I could get out of my masculine role

If the poles could reverse

And he’d be less of an emancipated little bitch…

With that said, he’s gonna be left in the dust

I won’t be parking my mind on him when I’m connected and imprinting on someone else

LOYALTY IS EVERYTHING

I’m only getting married once…

I can’t wait for my little butterfly LED light to arrive from Dolls Kill (and the new bedsheets and bathroom set)

Healing. Detoxing. Rebounding. Making over. Doing the hard work.

The mess does not reflect the effort

There are more things to organize and let go

Sometimes I’m just happy I’m making it another day

I’ve been asleep for so long…

After 44 years at it alone, I’d be so grateful for just a decade with a partner to not do it alone.

Things don’t have to be like they’ve been

“You’ve been down that road, Neo. You know where it goes…”

Life is in the journey, not the destination

Don’t get stuck…

Thank you to everyone who shows me positive support, you are keeping me alive!!! ❤️

There are sometimes people who make fun of me for being poor or try to shame me and Chris Cornell’s mother still follows me and watches my stories and sometimes she comments and she never shames me

People in Europe show skin and it is not a big deal to them

I don’t know why people want to body shame you or shame you for your financial status, it’s not like I fucking chose to jump into a government hiring freeze or government furlough 🙄

I’m doing the best I can

My partner will never make me cum if he makes me fear the very ground I walk on 🙄

FYI

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