The verdict arrived
Like God on smoke
In a cloud full of hope
He pulled spear out of side
I am here and I’m alive!
It’s a good day not to die!
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Tell him I got it. The thing I was fighting for.
It’s a good day not to die
PoeEternal 
22 responses to “It’s a good day not to die”
I like this a lot. It calmed down a little. Thank you.
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Me… I mean, apparently not enough to pay attention to what I am doing…
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I’m glad you did and thank you.
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I’m trying to be more present these days. Aware of my choices and actions.
It’s hard when everything in this town is associative. And toxic.
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I know the feeling, and am here whenever you need to talk, I went through a simular thing a little while ago in Oregon, I literally walked to California, Forrest Gump style because of it, not sure if I told you that. I don’t recommend it, it was terrifying.
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I need to escape tho – but maybe not on foot.
I am preparing to move – and have no idea where X marks the spot.
Confusing times
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Yeah, the whole walking from Oregon to California strategy was not a good one… I was in a delusional state at that point, and was really messed up on drugs.. It will get easier, and things tend to reveal themselves naturally.. if it is happening for me, it can happen for anyone. I thought I would take myself out doing drugs. I am so much happier now, even when it is tough… this is so much better. I know who I am now.. I spent my life till now thinking I had to be someone else.
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Oh, and I was ranting… the right place will reveal itself, things tend to pop up as they should, the universe has a way of unfolding on its own… fortune cookie of Chinese food from Misery. 😉 Or what was Misery and now is a grey land of reflection? Okay.. ranting again..
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Once I get moved out of this shithole, I may find life is not all noise and chaos. Murder. Mayhem.
My fight or flight won’t shut off
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I don’t mind the rants
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I think it will get better once you get out of there, it did for me. Getting away from PTSD land is always good.
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I am glad. 😛 I frequently embarrass myself.
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I’m 95% free of everything I ever owned. I got a few months to figure out where to move. No clue where I want to be but gone.
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No need to be embarrassed here
Nothing to be embarrassed of
This is a place to practice being human
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I like the sound of that, thank you for saying that. It really made me feel better.
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When I feel like that, I try to remember which things I like… I am a big fan of the ocean, and then try to take steps, this time not literal to being in a space like that.
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I’m hoping I go skating soon
But I’ve got an old dog I’m tending
I’m not allowed to breathe
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I am allowed to breathe, but I am awkward at breathing because I breathe as two people and live with my family, who are normal.
I really believe things will get better for you.
I don’t know why I feel like I know this, maybe because it happened for me.
I was one of the most miserable people on the planet, and although I, we, whatever you want to call me, myself and I… we are happier now and getting better, and if someone like me can go from being a ranting lunatic who literally wants to break themselves in half and date themselves… I think you will be okay.
I am ****ing crazy and I am okay, and so is the rest of me, as well.
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There is light at the end of the tunnel – I’ve been crawling and digging my way through hell
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I have just been hanging out down there, I didn’t realize I was supposed to get out till recently. I thought hell was all there was. 😉 Trying to make you laugh. I live in hell too, and am in the same process, it is getting easier, that is why I can laugh at myself when I am not screaming at myself or talking about how I want to marry myself…. wow… that sounded ****ing way worse than it did in my head…
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LOL well, I can’t be in the same room as a demon or a human currently.
They mess with my energy
Drain me like a black hole
Do not respect boundaries
I go crazy after awhile
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I am permanently insane I think, I meant to respond to this 51 minutes ago, but I just spent that time ranting at my ex who I broke up with a year ago. Hahah… I am such an ***hole. People suck and yes they do all of those things. I have learned that it is best to just agree to disagree, which is what I am doing by being alone most of the time, I think everything will work itself in time, due to the inevitability of things changing because they always do, that is what keeps me going.
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