The special Christmas lingerie sets I was picking out on Shein was SELLING OUT as I was attempting to load my cart up and shop
And there were other things I was shopping for. Sunshades for my Jeep (dashboard and steering wheel), cleaning rags, regular clothing, and special Christmas stuff (got a hat, socks, satin night cami) + silicone moisturizing socks for the feet (baby soft) πΌ
BUT THE BIG TICKET ITEM I WANTED WAS SELLING OUT. All I’d do is blink and another was sold. π
I WAS LIKE – COULD YOU SAVE ONE FOR ME
Now I know I’m not a busty 10 star but damn I’m an original so that makes have value thank you. I’m here. Deal with it. Plus this is my first time ever shopping for Christmas lingerie. I got a good tip.
I got some really cool Christmas leggings if they fit me and a really cool crop top to wear to events or to go skating in (it’s versatile)
There was a skirt from a favorite designer and I bought the last one potentially. The same designer I scored my Halloween spider witches hat, to be buried in. π€ͺ
But the big ticket Christmas special lingerie outfit was selling out!!! I wanted it!
IT DID IN FACT SALE OUT (I got a set coming) π
So shopping hour was over!!!! Time to checkout! π€ͺ
SOON COMING π
And I got it, in a small, and I hope it will fit! I hope I didn’t spoil the fucking surprise
I hope you like the special lingerie set that I got and it’s incoming, I’ll have a shipping status soon!
I’m glad I was able to budget in the big ticket items because I really wanted those but I had to put some stuff back because the other stuff started selling out! π€ͺ
My wishlist is growing full. But I’m not just buying lingerie. π
I’ll probably wear that little satin Cami nightgown all through December and January (well it’ll get washed, but you know what I mean, sleep gown)
I like the quality and price of Shein. Shipping is never as long as it estimates – unless you get hit with a category 5 hurricane – that will set you back.
I really hope those black Christmas leggings fit because they remind me of Greese and I can go skating in them (you know the movie right)
I think it was John Travolta’s first film
If they fit, they will look good with my black and gold skates, and I busted out my measurements.
28 inch waist currently, 117 pounds π
Shoe size 6 1/2 – 7 (sometimes a 6)
34B (sometimes 36C unless lactating) (then like DD) π€ͺ
STOP PICKING ON ME
My mini tree is out and first ornament I ever made in kindergarten (school is slavery)
Side-note: If you “don’t want your children to see this” stop letting them loose at Walmart and the Mall. π
Psst…
Halloween spider mesh bodysuit by Dolls Kill π
Witches Spider Cap by ROMWE on Shein π
Both sold out but may restock π
One of my favorite new cosplay sets. I feel more myself in this attire and without loads of makeup making it theatrical and whatnot
I’m the real thang π
You can’t burn me legally at the stake anymore π»
So just wanted to see what it would feel like to do a midnight Halloween set without all the makeup and flare
I was wearing vegan flavored strawberry kissy lips and that made for an extra sweet midnight smile set (I can hook you up with a free glam bag on Ipsy) (most products are vegan) (cancellation is easy but I’m staying on for awhile) (I got a free Halloween glam kit for sign-up and love it) (you can adjust the frequency of delivery as well) π
Halloween is my favorite season perhaps π€
Do you like my new set?
How is my petite pumpkin looking? π
“I don’t like your ass when you bend over, it disappears” (something someone said to me in my 20s directly after sex)
Yeah, just like any empathy I ever had for you.
Everyone has had such high standards of how my body should look 24/7 because apparently I’m supposed to be posing 24/7 that I’m afraid to even show my fucking skin because I’ll probably get yelled at for being fucking white anyway
Always told I need to “cover up” cuz they like it too much to “just be friends”
Heaven is empty and I cry a lot lol
I also talk to the dead
I have a budding relationship with John Jones
I also keep having images of him (not John) finding me hanging from a tree
The way he breaks and the strength it takes for him to not look away
To get me down…
I don’t know what’s real anymore
I’m focusing on my blog and OnlyFans for now
I’m sorry I’m not posting more yet on my free one – which I can go live on but I can’t go live on my subscribed one π
The way the wheels turn π
But I’ve started posting playful sensual videos on my OF
And as long as someone wants to support my content I’ll keep going
WordPress just emailed me telling me that I owe them $100 to keep the blog going but web links are broken and everything is chaotic inside the algorithm since they split it into
I need new web hosting and all sorts of cleanup in my life
My blog continues to remain advertising free
All my content is original
Trends make me feel obsolete and always behind
There’s always someone who can come along and do it better, I’m only ever average at anything even when I give it my all
Self-portrait October 2022 (the timeline is wrong)
FYI the wind was so gnarly I had to stand with my feet shoulder with apart, leaning into the wind battering me to death AND it required TWO HANDS just to hold my device
I was getting blown away and he was taking dips like a bird
Sidestepping a hurricane
And the way the bird kept rhythm with him entering the ocean
Not a sign of doom
GLADIATOR DUDE
I want him on my team for the apocalypse
Let’s feed him good
πͺ
He conquered something because his step was getting more powerful the closer in
STOMPING THE STORM
I’m terrified of the ocean calm so this was kind of incredible to see
He didn’t seem drunk, more determined
STUPID COURAGEOUS (oxymoron!?!)
He woke
And he definitely pissed off
SEA MONSTER CONQUERED SOMETHING TODAY
His fears? π
I could barely stand and the wind nearly blew my Jeep door off
GUSTY
Also, I met a one legged bird and nearly wept
And an outcast because weak
But that seabird was so strong π
Sad but strong
Struggling to survive with one leg π
Now I’m gonna cry again π
The one legged bird and gladiator vibes at the beach today
It’s never dull even when it’s dull
Because people were complaining about the live lmao
Not all but some
π€ͺ
Most enjoyed getting to see the fury but I can’t do anything about the sound quality
You taste of Judas Iscariot Betrayal you’ll marry it I’ve paid twice for sins Won’t pay again
144 awakening 7th seal opening Judgment hour No hoping (John’s still coping)
One, two See through all of you
Hell hath arrived THERE ARE NO GOODBYES
Oh, Princeof This World They aren’t your gifts to give Heaven rules over all but this God is the Void But Satan rules this world
I am a beggar Crawling eternally
Helpless to stop it Remove self from equation The devil is invasion I’m losing patience! Careful crossing occasion Will get stuck persuading Hopeful helpful information
Nature becomes conscious of itself through you
I NEED YOU LIKE ETERNITY Hell is separation I’M BURNING
If I die here Nobody will know I didn’t want to But nobody will ask you
Fallen Angelic Trying to ascend
Need him more and then Eleven hours spent Not bad omen
Number signs godsend I do listen And then repent
Foreshadowing But if he’s dropping flags I’m walking in Red carpet rolling With a halo full of sin God said keep walking But I want him instead
He turns me SOFT Like the Grand Canyon will flow Paradigm shift halo He owns my soul
I’m sorry he betrayed you A devil said to shrewd I think with gratitude The sun burns the moon I rest in solitude Black as blue But oh so devalued
I do not dream of labor The moon a gaper Place our love on paper He calls – I turn to vapor
We’re reaching terminal velocity Death is nearing Is this the correct speed? Thought you needed me?
He’s wrapped up in deceit Like a sheet Am I a ghost I am discreet
I’m without kingdom Guarding eternity Trident I’m not lying
WHAT LIES Beyond the horizon CRIMINAL EYES But the sun’s still rising AND I’M HERE FOR BLOOD
Touch me So the curse will lift Kiss me on the lip Keep me near your hip
More poetry and photography coming! Thank you for your interest in my content! I work hard at it! I hope you are enjoying the Halloween theme! Lingerie bodysuit by Dolls Kills! π
I just dropped a set on the OnlyFans! 40 photos! Like when PlayBoy did 18 & 36 page spreads! SAME! π€ͺ
I’ve been busy writing and working out! I’ll post behind-the-scenes soon!
It’s BOO season!! πππ
I’m ready to dawn the Halloween costume daily! I wanna go on a hayride!!!! π
All my content is original and I do not use an AI generator to write my poems nor do I scour the web for overused images by others. Sorry not sorry!
In makeup and filter π€ͺ
Thank you for your viewship and feedback! Highly appreciated! β€οΈ
I have taken the feedback from my prior sets and invested in some additional things that I can’t wait to arrive –
I’d like to give you a sneak peek on one thing that I scored – which was probably the biggest ticket item for the best price – and I was willing to starve next month for them…
And before I show you – don’t have doubt about the boot style – I am a Soldier and could wear this to an actual event without killing my precious feet – I could wear these into battle potentially – I thought they’d look good with a school skirt or lingerie. I thought maybe I could be buried in them. I thought maybe they were worth missing a meal next month. And, at less than $8 a boot, it was still less than the rotten eggs and milk that Peggy’s Discount Health Food store sold me on Monday….
Should I cancel the order? π€ͺ
In the wishlist… π
In the Dolls Kill wishlist π
They just put out this Halloween costume (which I think is better than the one that I did get – but Every day is Halloween)
This costume includes the headband, the pentagram bra, the gloves, and the skirt with attached devil’s tail (not the tights)
And I will absolutely fucking cry if it sells out before I can purchase it but I’m tapped out for the month π€ͺ
I did score some really good stuff for the Labor Day sale though because I’m an excellent bargain hunter and I’m still throwing away clothes in my closet and throughout my home that are size medium and large (boys T-shirts with holes in them and business attire uniforms)
So grateful to share my makeover progress with you
I’ve been extremely busy in the real world but I’ve also been writing poetry and I do plan to get another set out to you before I release the poetry
I’ll show you one more surprise from the shopping makeover (and please note I’m paying thrift store prices or less for brand new items)
THIS WAS NEARLY SOLD OUT ON SHEIN
COMING SOON
(I picked up other Daddy cosplay stuff but don’t want to spoil the good surprise)
I would just like to add that I’ve never had a makeover in my life or got to dress pretty
All the men prior in my life body shamed me
I wore oversized baggy clothing and kept my head down π
I’m grateful for your readership and feedback and support
It’s all being invested back into my blog and photography and thank you for being patient with me while I get content out to you
I’ve been writing lots of poetry in between paying the bills and doc appointments
Getting rebound sessions in when the heart allows
DETOXING DETOXING DETOXING
I’ll be glad when I can turn the dating sign back on π€ͺ
Do you think my potential future husband would take me to the altar immediately to marry me if I opened the door up wearing those boots and a school skirt?
I NEED TO KNOW
My feet shouldn’t have to hurt to look amazing – so really hope you like em!!! My first vegan thigh highs!!!!!!!!!!! And R-E-D π
CAN’T WAIT TO USE THE PRETTY MAKEUP – THANK YOU AGAIN FOR THE GIFT π
So glad I’m replacing the oversized boy t-shirts with cute crop tops and thangs
I’m muting it tho because I don’t need to be sued by the algorithm – in some distant future – thank you Metallica- greedy fucks
Gotta go back to street teaming like in the old days
Before the millennials were born and before there were cell phones or computers handy
Spyware
Can’t opt out
Gotta flee the city
The Devil he everywhere in everything
Society has been around so long and narcissism has spread everywhere
I’m trying not to self-destruct or get thrown into a rubber room
Detox detox detox
I’m on dose 2 today
2 large doses in
I don’t fuck around π€¨
I’m fighting hard to get better, to not leap from a bridge, for the potential possibility to find a partner
The hubby will produce the feel good hormones
Find your tribe and nurture the fuck outta it
Everything is going extinct
Be careful with adrenaline spikes to your heart
It’s okay to stop for 30 seconds – drink water – get back on
But my first day back rebounding caused me to have consistent chest pain for two days that didn’t go away so I couldn’t do anything
After a 2.5 mile walk, I puked 3 hours later when my body was having difficulty regulating temperature
I felt like that family who died in the valley recently, dog, baby and all
The sun was barreling on me, not much shade
I’d find a tree, rest a couple minutes, drink water, and trek a bit further
I barely made it home
And at one point I almost got kidnapped by a guy who got out of his truck with completely blacked out windows and opened up the passenger back side door
He watched me for ten minutes head both ways
I was prepared to remove his head with my blade
I was fucking dying with a heart complication (and this was recently by the way) but I had to put my water away so I could have both hands free – you know – just in case he made his move
I DON’T LIKE LIVING HERE
And unfortunately, I’ve almost been run over twice on the bike rides… οΏΌ
The beach was getting crazy with tourist and “no vehicles” unless “4×4” because of “soft sand”
I’m not paying that expensive parking
America is a fucking scamοΏΌ
The yuppie shops are selling rotten eggs and milk
That one’s gonna have my asshole tore up for a minute
I did get a small rebound session in – I avoided the high ab jumps this time – kept it to simple bouncing (still resistance training but less adrenaline spikes)
The Army trained me as a medic to run for miles from the enemy
And I did do a full 4 years active overseas
I’m still running from the Devil and I got a strong little heart
It’s still fighting for its life so I’m making it some vegan soup soon
It demands…
The heart gets what the heart wants πͺ
It’s magical stew – big and chunky – heart healing
Got the red cabbage too and rainbow carrots and tomatoes (noms)
One stove top, 1 pot, is all you need (to anyone still eating pizza from a box)
(You can buy electric stove tops or ask a family member if you can have their extra one they use on the holidays)
They come as 1 or 2 (I’d get the 2)
It’s probably cheaper than turning on the big stove top)
I’m downsizing soon
Need a mini oven too
I don’t own a microwave nor use them
But I would like a small toaster oven and a crockpot
I don’t know if I can use my indoor grill anymore because I think it’s made out of that stuff that’s bad for you
I cook the stew in a glass pot
And make my breads and cakes and loaves in glass…
I’m going to start sharing more of my cooking process with you even though I don’t have a fancy kitchen but my rent keeps going up but all the appliances are old
But I don’t use measuring cups, I cook the way my grandmother taught, a pinch of this and a pinch of that…
If you appreciate this post and enjoy this blog, liking my content is the easiest way to reward me. Your follows are also appreciated! Thanks for over 80,000 views! π
I do not charge anything else once inside! Zero pay-per-view content ever!
Thanks for your support! It keeps the content on my blog ad free! It keeps the fuse lit and the photography sizzling! I’m glad to be alive and have skin that isn’t ice cold! Not dead yet!
I’m grateful to be on the leaderboard and I’m grateful to have your support, this is an ongoing attempt to remain fair in a pandemic and again, I do not charge for Pay-per-view content. All my content is unlocked inside!
Scroll to the bottom to see the unedited NSFW version π
It’s likely just my evil sister or ex or one of the alike abusing the algorithm system and finding a way to have it removed out of spite or jealousy so here yah go!!! π
I think FaceBook is a dump and the platform is obsolete and he’s trying so hard to stay relevant
It’s a playground for predators and Big Bro is pushing the Illuminati’s agenda of the digital age and selling his crap
I’m getting off the platform for good soon enough
It’s just a back door for advertisers to spy on you
And we gave Mark Zuckerberg permission to tag our faces and now they are using automatic scanning against us
I can’t stand information control
1984 is now
And I’ll be using face tattoos and theatrical makeup in more cosplay sets upcoming just because it’s so very fucking offensive to some and so very appreciated by the rest
It’s actually had a lot of good feedback
Which is why one person out there has their butt hole burning red over my success
It’s eating them alive
So they feel like a big person getting my intellectual property removed in an illegal way (cheating)
But I can’t fucking stand FaceBook and this photo set had positive response on all the other platforms that it’s been posted to so thank you
The entire reason I left android behind is because android was bought out by Facebook and you can’t even uninstall Facebook on android devices now, so that’s why I’m over on Apple!
Mark Zuckerberg has too much control so he can sell you stuff and spy on you 24/7!
If we’re honest, I wish they were filled out with milk π
I’m hormonal and wish I were preggo π
I don’t feel bad my enemy had a safe for work photo removed as “spam” on FaceDump, so here it is without the edit π
And I will be adding some Halloween items to the list very soon!
One item I’ve really been wanting is some wings because I really think that will take my cosplay up to the next level, so I would love to have some wings to include in my photography!
Appreciate the support out there!
Whether it be spoiling me, dropping donations, or subscribing to my Patreon or OnlyFans campaigns, I really appreciate the support!
I ran a lot of people off, I’ve equally lost folks. But many still hang around my social feeds!
But the best way to support my blog and my content, is through subscribing to my campaigns, through donations, or gifts!
Your support keeps my blog free of advertising and spam! It keeps the content incoming! It keeps my belly fed! It keeps the content ad free!!
Stop assuming it’s easy work! I am a starving artist just like Edgar Allan Poe! I have rent (which is twice as high as your mortgage) and student loans and COLA expenses. I don’t live at home with mommy! I pay all my own living costs! I don’t have a husband or boyfriend “paying my way”.
Your support is appreciated more than you know! π
If it wasn’t for your love and attention, I would wither up and die! π€ͺ
And some of you have supported my campaigns for a very long time!! π₯°
You’re better than my therapist! π
I also don’t tell my therapist some of the things that I tell you! π
Deep dark secrets eh! π
Well it is the end of the world and I do love having my own private club! π
Thanks for dropping in or for sticking about! πππ
Some of you say my sets get better and better, I appreciate!
Thanks for keeping me on the leaderboard and from dying naked on the street!
There are people out there who try to make me feel bad for doing nude modeling for art
And film is something I’ve ALWAYS been interested in.
I shot a lot for my dad when I was a teenager – living in Nashville, Tennessee and hanging out on tour buses
Gig life is the number one reason I’m alive
I’ve been behind the camera all my life
It’s just other people were always the subject, not me, so it’s been an interesting journey growing up and getting in touch with my femininity because I was a hard-core Soldier for many many years
I’m making art
I also love cosplay and try to be theatrical in everything I do
I studied Drama in high-school
I still audition for shit and I’ve been doing auditions all my life
If I were making movies and had like an intimate scene with somebody, I would be nude
I don’t understand the big deal or why so many people want to call me a whore but I’m not ashamed
The feedback I’ve been getting has improved my overall self-esteem and how I see myself
I’ve been body shamed a lot in my life because I am not plastic
By men who didn’t even have anything going for them really
And it affected me my entire life
So, I may act a child but I don’t know what it’s really like to be a woman and that’s what I’m discovering
So here’s a little growth chart of my progress and time on OnlyFans
It will be interesting to see how this chart changes when porn is eliminated from the platform and they push their new agenda of pop stars and advertising
Either way, I’m still the little guy!!! Making tiny waves! π
Thanks for supporting my artistic creativity! I’m so grateful for you! You’re helping me grow as a human being! β€οΈ
Development has been hard for me because I didn’t have parents, I had abusers and I joined the Army when I was very young so the only training that I really have is from the Army or the lessons that I’ve learned being in the abusive, narcissistic relationships that I’ve been in and every relationship I was in the men always tried to hold me down so I never could reach my potential and you’re helping me reach my potential as a human being and an artist
Furthermore, you’re keeping me from dying on the street like Edgar Allan Poe
That is priceless
Come check out my content, I’m running some fair deals on memberships and have over 1.5k photos and videos to scurry through!
While my content IS NOT XXX, it is Rated R and from the positive feedback I receive, my nude photography is enjoyed. Thank you!
I used to complain that my hair was thin but then I realized that I was comparing my hair to people with fake hairPeople will say, “cut your ends off” and the answer is NO. It wraps around me and curls. I want it free flowing and messy, just like me!!! Because look how long it is getting and it’s 100% real hair and homegrown directly from my skull πThese are just some outtakes from my newest OF set (wanted to show off my real, silky hair). π Hair is thin but long and heavy (zero grays)!
And to anyone who says running and a tanning bed is better than a Beach is full of shit
It’s easy to say that running is better than a Beach when you don’t have one 7 miles from you
So if you’ve heard that OnlyFans is doing away with sexually explicit content, it shouldn’t impede my campaign because nudity is still allowed and I don’t perform sex acts π
That’s why I was super happy to have made it all the way up into the top 27 this year, without having performed any sex acts at all, I solely relied on my modeling and my photography π
I was literally going up against the porn giants but now they’re getting rid of the porn giants
Maybe this is my retribution from the universe because that porn actress on OF stole my fucking signature booty moves π
And I was fucking livid π
I’m just a starving artist who happens to include nudity in her work π
Anyhoo, I don’t upload sexually explicit content, that’s not what my campaign is about (despite those around me calling me a “whore”) π
I made it all the way to top 27 over my photography and modeling and some people want to take that away from me π
And cheapen what I do π
Apparently the changes take place in October but I haven’t read what all the changes include, OnlyFans will be rolling that information out to creators soon
If you’d like to support my campaign that would be really cool because I work really hard at delivering quality content to my blog, my Patreon, and my OnlyFans! π
I’ve always said my content is Rated R, not XXX.
So, you can breathe a little, I’m not going anywhere! π€¨
For the most part, I’m a good girl, and you can feel good about supporting my content! π€ͺ
I know I haven’t been posting as frequently but I don’t have the energy
I should’ve taken a medical leave of absence
I had no idea I would be down this long but I don’t want to quit, you guys are the only thing that’s actually keeping me from dying on the street
To the person who just joined my premium OnlyFans, thank you! πͺ
I work hard at my writing and modeling.
I work hard at being a content creator.
And the reward is people enjoying my work!
It’s also nice to be able to pay a bill or feed my belly!
Many people around me don’t support me because they think this work comes easy but it doesn’t.
I’m not just standing in front of a camera.
I’m also a natural model and poet, 2 extremely hard fields to get noticed in!
So when someone joins my OnlyFans and tells me that they are a fan of my writing, it means a lot to me. Writing is in my core!
Nude modeling is helping me grow as a human being and photographer.
I get to explore my sensuality on film.
I get to share being a human with you and what it’s like to experience things through my body and my eyes.
Your feedback literally fuels me.
There are many people who have tried to shame me for what I do.
I’m not ashamed.
As you can see, I am still understanding my lessons as a woman and what it really means to be alive! I think my growth as an artist shows! I’m not talking about monetary gain.
I’m learning to be okay in THIS body without any botox or plastic surgery! And with gravity playing its part.
Sure my boobs are saggy but I don’t want boulders that and sit there and never move!
Boring!!!
Jiggle wiggle!
I prefer movement! The universe is made of energy!
And, I’m not removing my sex organs to put plastic where I won’t feel sensation anymore, where I lose sensation and I’m even more desensitized to the world and detached from being an actual human being, no thanks
That’s what the 1% want
I just wanna do my art man
I’m not a cash cow and I don’t milk the people who walk through my door
I always get really scared when someone joins my OnlyFans because I get nervous and think they are going to body shame me like the real ones have done
Anyway, I just want to say thanks!
It makes me feel good good!
More content incoming, as long as I am breathing! You inspire me! π₯°
So I just sent the OnlyFans team a request on how to get a new free verified account started – I was dead serious about starting one – Iβm not going anywhere (even though I can barely do shit at the moment, I do intend a full recovery from this COVID vaccine nightmare) –
I hope you are excited as me about the free account!
It will be FREE but you will have to subscribe to access the lewd (NOT NUDE) content.
This way I no longer get in trouble from Big Bro for not doing anything wrong at all – and maybe I can go back to having an actual personality where I donβt fear everything I post or say or hashtag. πͺ
Nor, the erroneous reporting out of spite and jealousy. π«
I like having a private club and people want to see more of me and Iβve had several request on several different social sites and now Iβll have a place to direct them to see more (but if they want to see it all, it will require a subscription)! π
Anyway, Iβm really excited about starting the process for my new FREE OnlyFans!
I hope you are excited too! π
I have heard your cries!
So I am expanding my doors!
I love you! π
As a reminder – I love doing cosplay and role play! Iβm gonna keep at this! Itβs what I wanted to do since I was a little girl – and I feel really excited about expanding my business, opening my doors (privately) and in a place where I can be as tacky as a fucking want even though Iβm actually more classy than I am tacky but whatever
I do specialize in softcore but thereβs an art to it and itβs more commonly known as like Kama Sutra or vampirism. π
Itβs more about sensation and less about desensitizing.
π
Le vampyre and 1984 is now so itβs time to expand my doors because youβve asked for more – and I donβt actually like publicly sharing more.
Again, lewds not nudes! Youβll have to be a big boy and pay if you wanna see it all.
But, I can go back to being my kinky seductive flirty vampire self oh my fucking God! Iβm super fucking excited and I hope you will consider joining my free OnlyFans!
You asked, I complied! π€ͺ
Your wish is my command! π€
Iβm still working on redoing my home studio and master bedroom. I donβt have shit hung anywhere. It looks like Iβve already died and the vultures have been here! π
Spring cleaning + reorganizing + downsizing = nightmare π€ͺ
And then after he stuffed my belly full of pizza –
He surprised me again and got me stuffs from my Amazon wishlist π»
And then I fell asleep on him again π€ͺ
(Not literally just metaphorically)
If he was actually here you likely wouldnβt hear from me for days, youβd probably only hear from me when I came up for air…
If he allowed it
π€ͺ
Slept through the whole night
Looks like heβs got the prescription Big Pharm canβt write me
You reckon them porn stars are ready to make babies with every guy that gets them something off their Amazon wishlist? An I doing this right? π
The porn stars only care about money babies – Thatβs why sheβs always looking right in the camera and smiling at you. Itβs called acting.
But this here isnβt acting. This is me wanting to meet up with him in Vegas, elope, and start making babies immediately.
π
He doesnβt care that Iβm aloof and stupid. Because I canβt even read a coupon correctly and I fall asleep on him.
But thatβs the thing, when he comes around I finally sleep.
Heβs my safe place.
Even though I donβt actually know who he really is.
Itβs complicated π
But for the first time in my life somebody bought me something off of my Amazon wishlist and for some reason I keep getting to do all the firsts with him. π»
I want to do all the firsts and then I want to do them again.
Everything about him feels better than dying on the street.
There arenβt any red flags and even if there were, my brain perceives them as a red carpet.
I need him
He knows how to handle my inexperience and goofiness
Or when I read a pizza coupon wrong
He knows how to make me not feel stupid
Even when Iβm feeling slightly embarrassed for being inexperienced or stewpids
He squashes those fears flat before they even get a chance to simmer
I could be 100 % convinced we were on the straight path and then lead us both into a trap and heβd make a game out of it
Cuz Iβve decided this instance heβs my Tarzan
Him and I like the forest
When weβre not busy destroying the city and everything in it
Everything except each other
We stop for kisses and then get back to fucking shit up like Bonnie and Clyde
Iβm busy dying and heβs like βbut can we have babies first before you do thatβ
And now all the parts in my body feel magnetized and activated
There may be a slight hum coming from my bones
Itβs possible I may start levitating a few inches off the ground
Does anybody make you feel like that?
I know how the universe feels expanding cuz he makes all my neurons fire
He makes my entire body euphoric without touching me
And sometimes he makes me throb
He makes me feel the things
And I get to open up and do things with him that other people wonβt let me do
My mind, spirit, and body has been chained
But he frees me
He knows how to release me
Iβm attached to him and itβs not through trauma bonding
We are north and south
Yin and yang
And I have loads of food leftover and stuff arriving this week from my wishlist thanks to him spoiling me π
I also have a surprise coming from my DollsKill wishlist, something I got in thanks of yβall pushing me into the top 27, and holding me there so long!
I canβt talk about it, you just have to wait!
(And even tho I was waiting like a hawk all day for UPS, I still managed to miss that βtapβ at my door). The dog didnβt even bark. He barks at everything! π€ͺ
I even drove around the parking lot like a madman trying to catch up with him but he was gone gone gone
So I gotta go pick it up at the drop off location I think.
Iβve just accepted that reality is broken for me.
And I can trust my mind just about as much as I can trust my GPS.
π
Or the CDC.
And I yelled at my nurse yesterday when I was trying to relay a message to her to get to my doctor about looking up the signs and symptoms of Moderna and she wanted to give me the signs and symptoms listed off the CDC website and I was like βI need you to start taking your job seriously, people have died from thisβ.
And then I yelled at her more saying my signs and symptoms arenβt the fucking flu
Or what you can pull from the CDC website which lists COMMON symptoms, not rare.
Furthermore, those are common symptoms from all the vaccines, I need mine specifically from Moderna.
And then I hung up on her cuz my heart canβt take the fucking stress.
And then my mind was wandering to where only seven people had attended Edgar Allan Poeβs funeral and I was thinking I didnβt want anybody to attend mine at all – until he came.
Have you ever missed someone youβve never even met?
Iβm slightly deranged and dying and didnβt even think he wanted me around.
But then he appeared like Neo and said, βIβve missed youβ and I replied, βI can tellβ. And then we disappeared and then I missed Morpheus arriving with my special package for yβall… π
The end of the world can wait. Priorities.
Coming out of my coffin soon
I hope
And Iβm having pizza and warm brownies for breakfast
With milk
π
Gonna have delicious pizza breath off and on all day
And I think my special package is on the brown truck again – I think theyβre going to actually attempt to redeliver it since it was a signed package but then theyβre going to leave it at the drop off point if Iβm unable to show up at my own destination. π€ͺ
But I canβt even read a fucking pizza coupon correctly so you know
Maybe Iβm right, maybe Iβm wrong
Itβs like a betting game
I had my pharmacist crying laughing the other day though, I told him, βit says good driver on my license though sometimes itβs questionableβ and he was like STOP IT and was wiping tears from his eyes.
And everything I said was comic gold. He couldnβt stop laughing. He thanked me for the mental health boost.
π€
(no need to get jelly cuz this one plays for the other team)
We were just having a moment like the squirrel
Thereβs madness all around but sometimes you just gotta stop and laugh with somebody whose on the job.
Somebody who isnβt threatening to kick your fucking ass simply because you need them to sign onto the register so they can check out your egg sandwich and Coca-Cola in the can.
Youβre gonna sign out and meet me outside are you?
Well I wanna see that fucking shit, I do
π
So itβs either fighting hoes at the 7/11 or having babies in Vegas.
Iβll take Vegas.
π
(I was feeling completely depleted and deranged but then he came and filled me up with love and pizza and gifts from my Amazon Wishlist)
Lightning struck twice in the same place
A double first
Heβs some sort of mythical, magical creature and I donβt fear him in the thickness or the fog
He taught me to hover below the fog
To use the fog as a cover
To lay flat so I can breathe easier
Heβs teaching me how to not fear the fog
He told me the fog will come and go
But that the forest needs the fog
He said Iβll get that lesson another time
And then he kissed me and disappeared into the fog
I have my WordPress connected to my Twitter so any time I post something on my WordPress it automatically publishes to my Twitter and OnlyFans has responded to that automatic post which is super cool because well I wasnβt using any hashtags or anything.
I got noticed without hashtags or tagging someone.
I read a blog post last night where another blogger had reached 100 fans and the top 8% within a six-month timeframe (so I was momentarily feeling discouraged until I read that Tweet by OF).
Iβve been on OnlyFans for six months as well and Iβve reached top 27% so Iβm just grateful for any growth that I have because most people donβt want to support me for whatever their reasons are.
Again, they wanna lock me on the bottom of the Titanic and watch it sink in boats that could hold more people.
I just know it.
So thank you because I am out here busting my ass.
I love yβall so much for not letting me die on the street!
And it feels like that trust thing, where you get blindfolded and fall backwards and trust that they will catch you.
Because Iβm opening up there and exploring my sexuality through camera work and modeling and itβs my safe place to do so.
My account is not hardcore XXX porn.
I strip, Iβm a stripper – but with my artsy spin.
Iβm doing stuff there Iβve never even done with another human being in the real world and itβs very liberating.
Itβs very liberating taking my clothes off and I donβt feel guilty or sinful about it.
It feels natural.
Even my weird fetishβs Iβm learning to explore (vampire cosplay, child cosplay, ect)
And Iβve also done ratings on others and one said it was a really good mental health boost.
I can live with that.
Because itβs also a really big mental health boost just for having your support.
I love you! π
I swear to fuck my OnlyFans is better than therapy!
And I realize that my account is way more softcore compared to what other girls are doing on their accounts (I do not masturbate or do porn / XXX). My content is Rated R though. Itβs not PG.
I studied the Kama Sutra all my life and my focus was always seduction (vampire) and sensuality (sensation).
I think I may try to tell stories with the photo sets that I put out.
Not all of the sets because lately Iβve been posting more casual content that would get me in trouble or banned on Instagram.
And I asked them if they would be OK with me doing that and they said yes.
So sometimes they get me taking a bubble bath or sometimes they get me doing cosplay.
Canβt wait to be fully vaccinated though so I can travel and still wear my mask everywhere. π
The month of April has been hard for me medically – because of my COVID vaccinations.
Iβm currently day 2 into dose 2 of the Moderna vaccine.
So thank you for letting me post more casual stuff that would get me in trouble or banned on Instagram (or falsely reported and removed).
Like my booty. Been posting lots more booty progress there on OF since I get in trouble for posting it on Instagram, despite there being naked women who are being sexually suggestive and in fact, it is sexual solicitation, but their post can remain because they havenβt been shadowbanned.
Overall, Iβm just grateful for your support on my OnlyFans.
I tried to go live the other night on Instagram to show you the beach, and I was blocked from doing that on my account.
It made me want to drown myself in the ocean. π
Big bro has made social media toxic as fuck.
I literally fear doing anything there.
Which makes me even more grateful for my OnlyFans that I have your support because I could be nowhere on the leaderboard and dead on the street.
And there are absolutely people out there that are making me feel bad for even being on the leaderboard because they wouldβve locked me on the bottom of the Titanic and watched it sink in boats that couldβve held more people.
Still holding Top 29%! Thank you to everyone who supports my hard work! Iβm trying to avoid dying on the street like Edgar Allan Poe! I appreciate you!! π
Iβm spending my weekend in my studio writing and recording content for my patrons!
I go in for dose 2 of Moderna in just a few days!
So Iβd like to try to push out another little set for my OF as well!
Iβm also offering a new service on my OnlyFans- as it was requested by a sub – and Iβll be releasing that information here soon! π₯°
But holyshite!
(I also have someone in the top 1% stealing my signature booty moves)
But whatev, for the moment, I iz TOP 30% of ALL creators on OF!
But top 30% yβall as a creator is most definitely an achievement? π
And still pending a refund for that 1 fellow (so will likely lose my lead on the leaderboard but whatever. Iβve lost somebody and my signature booty move has been stolen from me).
Iβm going up against famous peeps who are stealing from me legit.
But Iβm currently top 30%!!!! π€ͺ
Thank you subs!!!!
Thank you for not letting me die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe!!!
Since I am currently holding top 35 on the OnlyFans leaderboard, I am running a 35% off special on the 30 day, 3 month, and 6 months memberships!! You can currently get 35% off of any one of those memberships!! β€οΈ
I appreciate your support so much! π
Thanks for pushing me to the summit of the OnlyFans leaderboard! Itβs not easy to do!! π
I dunno why I have such a hard time with transitions but I do… I’ll probably delete this TikTok because my OD is triggered. But damnit, I worked so hard in it. π
*edit* deleted my TikTok because people are mean
Dropped a new cosplay set on my OF too! Got more horror stuff planned for the month so I’m gonna be busy/offline working. Itching to make digiart but can’t rush the photoshoots. Plus, there is literally only one me and I have a life outside what I allow you to see.
Yup. Rogue freckle on my foot. You should worship it. π
I can’t really post what I want to post anywhere else or I’ll get in trouble for it. I’m currently in the top 50 on OF and glad to be on the leaderboard! Thank you!
If I were turned into a 2D Disney character, this is how I would look! π
Now all I need is a lonely tower, a couple evil cats, and a Prince I’ve cast a spell on, who is madly in-love with me, and is coming to rescue me from my evil prison and release the curse!
Am I your new favorite cartoon? π
All my facial expressions Disneyfied!
Which are your favorites? π€
Thinking she’s going to die lonely, unrescued, and unloved…
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Take the air from where I breathe He will never notice me
There you go again Breaking my heart For just a thrill It’s overkill
A thousand times over You have made your point And I know I am never what you sought Though lurking I am aching where you haunt Through searching Though every tear was bought
Age of despair But like an ember I flare him up Because I care And I’ve no defense From getting burned everywhere
I was in alliance with ineptitude
Love is like the beginning and the end. Alpha omega. I love you. I’ll kill you. But I love you forever.
You look like you are dying Bu you are already dead
As above, so below My aura is here to glow
This great depression.
There will be no headstone No grave From life to dust I’m not okay (RIP daddy)
Where are you? In every molecule? The early morning dew? The air I breathe on lonely avenue?
Where are you? If not but in every dream I dream? Clinging to the in-between? Wondering if I can be seen?
All God is woe.
My bed is overrated.
I don’t know where to begin so I’d rather not start at all…
Where have the best years of my life gone
At 26,000 light-years away, it’s the closest we’ve ever been- And if regret is a singularity, it’s finally creeping in (re: black hole)
I got cigarette burns on my skin Black holes where he’s been There’s cold creeping in A hundred reasons why I sin
You’re just her whipping boy You’re a tool You want to be her toy You’re a fool
I know not what holds him here I am a dry sponge, brittle The way time taunts me Like I am little
Give me a veil Let’s rest in hell
I got secrets that would disown me The way he’s unholy Still that’s my only
I wish Sagittarius A* would put on his parking breaks Throw me into another galaxy if that’s what it takes
I am a living statue To darkness, his bride (Well that’s a lie) Still isn’t he by my side?
It’s so dark on the inside Maybe why I cry
Banned under the same sunbeam From things I’ve seen Those things I’ve seen are haunting me
Take away the ray Take away the ray It’s burning
Chained to existence Wishing I didn’t remember you That’s coming too I won’t remember who
My eyes are sunspots Turning grey From things you say
Married to hopelessness Decay Mourning Sorrow Despair Isolation Loneliness Quantum confusion Heartache Wilderness Wonder Beauty Longing Truthfulness Purity Humanity All entities The air we breathe The hope we seek The light we keep
She built an empire on a pyramid scheme. She’s an evil queen.
The world can burn for all I care.
Sometimes Even under soft moons Or enduring high noons There will be casualties of war
And even when I face doom And circling is his tomb I believe there is love within his core
He’s been charged with possession of stolen property; my heart.
In the beginning there was nothingness. Now in the end, nothing is.
The only lines I cross are rhyme.
You are the cold emptiness of space Absolute zero You are the reason I lay in waste You’re not a hero
Come to me By frothy sea Shine your light I fancy thee
I was born into confusion Believe this, believe that It’s all delusion Best theory or illusion
I’m so much better than that flock of shit you summon Your mouth is the opposite direction I am running Your lies only come by the dozen You can knock but you can’t come in The darkness covers all but it’s my coven You ain’t welcome here again
You fool How desolate and awkward your thoughts lead you Rising plumes of gloom And I an idiot more To watch how hope you consume Bereft of pulse A necrophiliac You lifted pen then I had life But then you call creation strife But I died again after witnessing your child and wife
I’m a rib from your side A curse like Dracula’s bride Or Bonnie and Clyde I drink your love like cyanide Mixed with hope and rhyme
I am a dead sea A red sea A bad seed Devolving Unsolving Dead, see?
Death do us part
I’m tired of defending my actions against your lies From sunup to sundown I am wise I can see clearly with these eyes You can’t erase these cries
Loving him is a sentence to death row.
Why does my love always cause destructive tidal waves?
Did you know mountains were resting on your shoulder named envy? You let me crash on your soul in frenzy I’m dizzy Did you not need me?
Did you know moons were glowing with envy? Heartache cost not a penny But I got plenty If you need any?
Distance is The love we keep And even further The solution we seek
Life’s a waiting room Give my wound a womb Erase the moon Erect my tomb You are full doom
Now I owe you nothing Soul paid I’m reduced to hurting
Oh! What heavens I could reach with your arms!
Did you know when I look up I find you stargazing into my soul You know where every prayer goes
Dear Edgar, I can’t live without my love either But he is lost in the ether I can’t reach him neither
Edges of time his mind I go missing every time His rhyme Holding me to crime His line Wishing on a dime
Not everyone is created equal Like the ones who pull out fast then take it slow Those aren’t my kind of people
Sometimes, I climb into the ether where we met Heaven is risky but I took the step You feel like eternity in an instance Gotta keep our distance
Welp. I just got the warning about account deletion from Instagram. I basically said, “I made Santa’s naughty list, visit my OF to find out how”.
Many of us are having to spend Christmas alone and away from our friends and families due to the quarantines that are placed and I’m just trying to make Christmas a little less lonesome and gloomy for everyone including myself (who just lost my dad).
So going forward anything I post on Instagram will be speechless that is IF big bro doesn’t delete me from my audience like he just threatened to do!!!
I literally just had my shower and wanted to cheer up my admirers. For God sake I haven’t even had a chance to put my makeup on yet and I’ve already got a fucking warning from Instagram that they’re going to delete my account including all my messages and my followers!!! Please stop me from having a meltdown right now. π΅π΅π΅
Petite bums need love too More Christmas content coming to my onlyfans if I can calm down from big bro giving me an anxiety attackI was literally just trying to get a quick bum shot to promote my OF. It wasn’t my bum that got me in trouble, it was my fucking mouth. And this has been an issue since kindergarten okay. I didn’t think anyone would be interested in my tiny ass but I’m going to be putting more shots of it on my OF. It was just a behind-the-scenes photo encouraging people to join.
But Instagram has now threatened me that my account may be permanently deleted.
I think businesses need to start boycotting Facebook and Instagram to protect the little guy like me.
I mean I couldn’t even say, “hey I made Santa’s naughty list, find out how”.
Welp. Y’all remember when witches were being burned at the stake?
I feel violated. Do you know how long and how many years I’ve been working on my Instagram?
And just like that, they will take it from me.
So when I calm down from all this I’ll get back to getting dressed and putting my makeup on and doing the photoshoot like I wanted to do.
Fucking hell
WELP THE PRESS WON’T PUBLISH MY WORDS. I GONNA DIES IN THE STREET LIKE POE.
But, you don’t have to let that happen.
I’m running crazy good deals on my OnlyFans where I’m allowed to speak (kinda, you can’t say child or other terms I’m learning).
Only in America do they make nudity and sex a crime yet you can’t even watch a Hollywood film without there being some sex scene 5 minutes in. Nudity is consistently thrown in your face here but made illegal.
Thank you for your subs and follows and love, and especially all the nice things you’re telling me about my body and even the request you’re putting in (because I’ve now got some foot porn coming soon). π
And I have cute little Cinderella feet.
I’m also starting a new workout routine soon and I was going to share my progress on Instagram but I’ve received an eviction notice basically.
So if a musician is like “hey go check out my new track on my onlyfans” are they going to get their fucking account deleted too???? Because onlyfans is not just for nudes. That’s just one platform that sex workers can work safely.
I’m over 2020.
So if one day you can’t find me on Instagram, it’s probably because I’ve been banned.
Words were never said Eyes peering like cement He could see the rise and fall of her chest Feel the heat of her heart with every breath Moving across the cold air Her feet sizzling from where she fell Took iron strength just to stand and stare
He moved taking a step toward her As her body slowly extended upward Pulling her wings in tighter She was a fighter
He towered her petite frame His breathing was met with flame Expelling from the side of his lip He had sin wrapped around his hip
He cast a glare on her like an eclipse She was a rare sight in holy mist How far from heaven she did exist To fall on hell to feel his kiss
His hoof moved a step closer in It’s the closest to heaven he’s ever been Her desire never smelled of sin For love she fell and she’d do it again
It’s as if all time existed in one evening Her eyes were wet with fear and seething Or maybe the reflection was mere envy Whatever it was, he only could stop the bleeding
His step was sturdy with blight He didn’t want to fill her with fright And having better intentions despite He lowered a knee becoming her knight
Love came to him in a clump She brought the world to him in just one jump They stood on eternity though ground was a dump And with only a smile she gave him a bump
To be continued�
How does eternity feel?I love you
Hi. Been up for days. Freestyle wrote this. Sorry for any formatting errors or misspellings. Living on poetry and tears.
I walked across the desert with the Devil A slow trot ensuring I was careful He gave me paper and he gave me pencil He talked as though the world was sterile
He showed me war, he showed me death And I saw things that took my breath And still I marched into the depth And on I march digging deeper yet
The writing’s on the wall contain disillusionment And not a cry ever sounding jubilant And though it pale, a voice to help illuminate And at his wall I felt my soul rejuvenate
I took to paper and then to pen And as I wrote I felt again I spoke of how but never when But dreams with him weren’t filled with zen
And though his touch cannot be felt It is his words that make me melt And care not how his names are spelt For in his heart is where I’ve dwelt
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