Underneath the stones of regret peace is found
Though the tether is outstretched it is still bound
The weather grew punishing and so too his frown
But my love for him keeps circling around
And I try my hardest to stand
But this depression keeps showing its ugly hand
And I’m trying to fly but in his heart I just crash-land
And it breaks my heart I did it again
So with my broken will I isolate the curse
But without him I am ever growing worse
And if I could I would put time in reverse
Love would be the only tether we would traverse
I pushed away the only thing that ever mattered
And when he left my soul completely shattered
And now there’s nothing, not even a word
And his silence is the loudest sound I have ever heard
© Delia Ross. 2019
I never wanted to hurt you. I’m sorry.
It’s heart-wrenching and beautiful.
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Thank you. And I don’t know if he’ll ever read it. Or care. I think all these lows would diminish if we would establish some sort of communication. He clearly doesn’t have trouble talking to girls, so why does he have trouble talking to me? And why can’t he see that’s what makes me feel worthless? Invisible. He’s treated me like a plague from the get-go. Hence me acting out. Why is it so easy for him to be friends with other girls but not me? And thus, I wish I was not even alive…
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I know it’s difficult, but don’t feel that way. It’s on him, not you. I don’t know the details, but if he’s ghosting you, the only thing left to do is let go. Very, very hard, but at times necessary.
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My heart doesn’t understand and won’t let go. I tried but failed. I don’t know if he’s lost, or if I’m just not naughty enough for him. But how would he know how naughty I even am? He won’t give me the time of day.
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Were you dating before?
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God damn depression pushing everyone away
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