Have you ever had your chest caught on the lip of the earth? And were you kicking in a panic reconsidering your worth? Have you ever been so hollow the upside down became your perch? And when all efforts were exhausted did you regret what you researched?
The story of how John Jones died in that cave hasn’t left my mind
Hands down, the scariest way to die. And he crawled into his grave. He tried Mother Earth on for size, and they became one. She wasn’t going to let him go.
I’ve been up two days now trying to understand why John Jones crawled into that fucking hole the way he did to his death and I have read article after article and I watched a movie on it and I’ve read blog posts on it and I have 1000% come to the conclusion that the manager Michael Leavitt is responsible for John Jones’ death due to narcissism and gaslighting
This is 1000% what bad management and gaslighting in the environment looks like
On a side-note, I have claustrophobia because I was inside an evil womb and experienced a period of consciousness while I was inside before I broke out into a world of narcissism and gaslighting and it’s no wonder I live in a fucking world of confusion and my third eye has a hard time tuning in to the correct frequency and vibrations
I’ve also came to the conclusion that I broke into this timeline to evade dying from my mysterious death via Big Pharma
Breaking into a timeline would take a lot of energy and speed like me moving 80 mph with 1000 bands of electricity fucking striking my vehicle with all its windows down
And you know this happened because I blogged about it for 2 weeks
I was mostly concerned that I didn’t have any iodine in the house and how much radiation I potentially took in
I was going on about how brother Thor was pinching me or waking me up
Well I have joined the great awakening and I am in the timeline that I need to be in right now
I’ve also come to the understanding that I’m on a different level of consciousness than other people who may be on a lower level plane of consciousness because they have different levels of learning that they need to do
There have been several times in my life I have predicted events to happen before they occurred and there are people witness to this
At first, I thought I was responsible because I thought it
But no
Everything that will happen has already happened
I’m only here to understand why I made the choice
I know how I’m going to die because it’s already happened but I jumped into this timeline to prevent my mysterious death occurring prematurely because of the fucking evil narcissism going on in the world- but hey – welcome to the great awakening, my name is Delia, I love you!
How am I going to die?
I’ve always felt it would be suicide or heart failure
I was depressed in the womb
I’m that program in the matrix doing what it’s not supposed to be doing!!!
Knock knock, Neo
The Great Filter is upon us!!!
And I get chill bumps all over my body including right now just for mentioning it!
Anytime I mention it or the great awakening I get chill bumps so that’s a sign that I’m tuned into the right frequency
John died due to the gaslighting that occurred at Nutty Putty cave
I feel like I’ve been stuck in that exact part of the cave
I feel like him and I come from the same being
He kept making grave mistake after mistake because he thought he was gonna wind up in a big grand opening, he thought he was in a different part of the cave that was never listed on the map and he made a lot of bad choices because it had been years since he’d been caving and he’d grown into a big boy
He didn’t deserve to die like that and two people got stuck in that same area but the management never did anything about it, they just kept gaslighting the entire population until someone died and it closed (His continuous victim blaming excuses, “they should’ve known, they should’ve known” but he left it off the fucking map!!!! Gaslighting!!! It doesn’t matter how fucking skilled you are at something, if somebody is gaslighting you that you fucking trust you make inaccurate decisions!!!
Instead of giving verbal warnings or even marking that section as unavailable
Instead, the manager victim blames until someone actually died and the cave was closed as John’s permanent tomb
I fucking hate you
I hate my mother and my sister too and I want to eradicate every fucking narcissist sniffing around this goddamn planet, even if it means eradicating culture
Tried something a little new to take away the performance anxiety!
Recorded with an amp and microphone! Really hope you enjoy! 🎤
I took 100 tries of recording to get it right and then on two or three occasions I lost what I thought was a perfect version and I’m not sure how but anyway eventually I got to one that I felt was worth publishing
I can’t see him through the sheer covered glass Or the smoked color heaven hidden beyond the green grass And there’s hope by the water but I haven’t got a pass And he says he’s home tomorrow but ten years already passed
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So my doctor is out for the week and we’ve just had Labor Day holiday but my doctor had left instructions for my nurse who just called me to let me know that my doctor has ordered me a nebulizer and some sprays and medication’s and I have to go in Friday to pick up the Nebulizer machine with meds
The nurse will teach me how to use the machine and once my doctor gets back I will schedule an appointment to see her and find out more about how my Pulmonary visit went with the test results (a letter from my doc was also just mailed to me by the VA)
That lung test I had to breathe into actually hurt me for several days
I reckon I probably should get my heart stress tests done now if it means the VA will open up more care for me but like the lung test hurt and everybody has already told me that the heart stress test sucks, both of them and I’m ordered to do both of them
But my heart is under so much stress and it hurts already so it’s really hard to get me in for that one 👀
When I asked for pain meds, the nurse asked about my ibuprofen and put a refill in
They don’t wanna give me nuthin’ good
Gotta lose an organ or arm or something
Having a major organ like your heart in pain gets ibuprofen or a prescription for your head by the therapist
Go back to sleep little sheeple, there now
Take your gaslighting pills and shut the fuck up
So, I’m glad the state of Florida approves me for medicinal marijuana and I make use of my card (and that bad boy costs money) but the weed is decently priced
I often get 40% off my order
Don’t think I can get through this pandemic without it
Wish the VA would cover some of my prescription costs 👀
The edibles work wonders on my mood and pain
I’m dying
Stop fear mongering over a plant
I don’t even drink alcohol… 👀
That shit is poison, it causes hair loss, premature aging and graying, and I didn’t make it to 43 drinking that stuff
I also don’t have gray hairs yet despite the fact that I am fucking dying relatively young
Thanks to the Moderna vaccines
Nearly got my mysterious death
👀
Anyway, I love y’all
I am not back to physical activity yet but I have been trying to write more and I have been trying to give y’all original photography with my content and I have been trying to drop more on my OnlyFans campaigns and I’m grateful to have your support!
I’m saving for some land, I want my own land to die on and be buried on, that’s my final fucking dream, thank you for participating!! 🥰
I’ll let you know how everything goes Friday when I pick up my medical device and equipment!!
Getting old while young
I’m learning lessons in light-years time
Bought some of this again on my recent trip to the grocery store and my heart seems to like it. Been giving it lots of good treats!! Good healthy eating for the heart & lung & protein for the booty
I had no idea or any way to prepare for what would come after getting vaccinated!
Tonight, I told the moon about you Now, every year, another inch he has withdrew The earth is home to heaven and we thought you always knew So deep inside his crevices, he said he’s feeling blue
Original poetry/ cosplay/ digiartpoetry and digiart by @poeeternal
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Do you enjoy conjugating verbs? Or, are you mixing up allegories, just like you’re mixing herbs? Do you stir them in a pot with tender tendons and neurotic nerves? Are they fossilized in lies, to see how love preserves?
Another freestyle. Maybe one of my top ten best written micropoems? 🤔
I wrote this about my muse (but I’m not allowed to have any secrets anymore).
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Preferably land that is already zoned and with electric/sewage but my ass is willing to buy land off in the country without a road 👀
And I got a tent I’ve never used
Goalz 😎
So I’m working hard towards my goal of being a land owner
Work for me has never been easy and I wasn’t born with a silver spoon
So I appreciate the support out there! These annual rent increases need to be abolished!
I’m getting ready to live gypsy life! 👀
I’m glad to have goals all the way to my grave 🎃
But having my own land means I can have my own creepy cemetery 💀
And I can run around naked and howl at the night
I can have my own garden and do my own cosplay
My grandmother taught me a lot about gardening but I don’t know how well I have a green thumb but I would love to have my own fruit and nut trees growing and even some plum trees, herbs, potatoes, carrots, all the things
I just want to enjoy some of the pleasures that I fought so hard for everybody else to have
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If you love somebody, the best thing you could do for them is buy them an acre of land!
There’s no way to say I love you more than with an acre of land!
I love me and I deserve my own acre or two of land!
Just hope my rent stops going up so I can save a penny or two!
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And I don’t want to cancel them because again they had a lot of really good reviews and I reckon all the flooding going on in the world is causing my package to be delayed
Some things are just worth waiting for?
I was just as excited as you!
But, they’re out there trying to make their way to me!
Unfortunately, it seems like USPS is delivering and not one of them Amazon vans with superpowers
And this is the end of the world, flooding and fires everywhere!! 👀
I may go live when I do my nails, on Instagram or my free OnlyFans! 🤔
I’m trying to get over my stage fright so maybe if I do something like at home beauty care, that will feel a little less intimidating and frightening as say going live and doing spoken word or something theatrical
Baby steps lol
But I am really grateful for all the positive feedback I get everywhere on the stuff that I’m putting out so more stuff coming soon and I’ve never had nails like this!
I don’t intend to wear them for a long time but I do want to do them for cosplay sets!
And I will show you a picture of what they look like once they arrive- if I decide to keep them and put them on my fingers then I will go live for an at home mini salon beauty routine and apply my black goth stiletto nails 🤩
Because, I know you’ve just been dying to watch me apply my nails right 🎃
We’re learning stuffs 😈
FYI, back in 2005, I worked in the mall at a salon as a “beauty consultant” for about six months selling products. I wasn’t the actual person who did hair but I knew what products to sell you based on your hair type or skin type and things like that!
I miss working out and I’m putting on some weight but I refuse to wither up and die mad naked on the street 👀
My doctor still has not given me the go ahead to start working out yet and all of my tests have been coming back showing my shit as fucked up so technically I’m still on the bed rest but everything will be happening from my master bedroom
I’m still tired as fuck all the time but the physical pain is less, tho I still have pressure built up in my heart, so I have to be careful (and mostly homebound too)
So appreciate the support, appreciate the feedback, appreciate the views
I’m grateful that I have anybody at all that gives a fuck about me and I do not take that lightly at all
I know I can be isolated but I’m not without gratitude
Excited to get and try new new stiletto nails! Will keep you posted!! 🤩
My monthly door price to now get in (without any discounts applied) is $13! 🎃
I love y’all! And I want to keep putting out hot content for you!
When I first got on OnlyFans I was charging $19 to get in my door and some of y’all have been with me the entire time! 🤩
I do not charge anything else once inside! Zero pay-per-view content ever!
Thanks for your support! It keeps the content on my blog ad free! It keeps the fuse lit and the photography sizzling! I’m glad to be alive and have skin that isn’t ice cold! Not dead yet!
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Scroll to the bottom to see the unedited NSFW version 😈
It’s likely just my evil sister or ex or one of the alike abusing the algorithm system and finding a way to have it removed out of spite or jealousy so here yah go!!! 👀
I think FaceBook is a dump and the platform is obsolete and he’s trying so hard to stay relevant
It’s a playground for predators and Big Bro is pushing the Illuminati’s agenda of the digital age and selling his crap
I’m getting off the platform for good soon enough
It’s just a back door for advertisers to spy on you
And we gave Mark Zuckerberg permission to tag our faces and now they are using automatic scanning against us
I can’t stand information control
1984 is now
And I’ll be using face tattoos and theatrical makeup in more cosplay sets upcoming just because it’s so very fucking offensive to some and so very appreciated by the rest
It’s actually had a lot of good feedback
Which is why one person out there has their butt hole burning red over my success
It’s eating them alive
So they feel like a big person getting my intellectual property removed in an illegal way (cheating)
But I can’t fucking stand FaceBook and this photo set had positive response on all the other platforms that it’s been posted to so thank you
The entire reason I left android behind is because android was bought out by Facebook and you can’t even uninstall Facebook on android devices now, so that’s why I’m over on Apple!
Mark Zuckerberg has too much control so he can sell you stuff and spy on you 24/7!
If we’re honest, I wish they were filled out with milk 👀
I’m hormonal and wish I were preggo 😈
I don’t feel bad my enemy had a safe for work photo removed as “spam” on FaceDump, so here it is without the edit 😈
And I will be adding some Halloween items to the list very soon!
One item I’ve really been wanting is some wings because I really think that will take my cosplay up to the next level, so I would love to have some wings to include in my photography!
Appreciate the support out there!
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I ran a lot of people off, I’ve equally lost folks. But many still hang around my social feeds!
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Stop assuming it’s easy work! I am a starving artist just like Edgar Allan Poe! I have rent (which is twice as high as your mortgage) and student loans and COLA expenses. I don’t live at home with mommy! I pay all my own living costs! I don’t have a husband or boyfriend “paying my way”.
Your support is appreciated more than you know! 👍
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You’re better than my therapist! 😈
I also don’t tell my therapist some of the things that I tell you! 👀
Deep dark secrets eh! 💀
Well it is the end of the world and I do love having my own private club! 😈
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Some of you say my sets get better and better, I appreciate!
Thanks for keeping me on the leaderboard and from dying naked on the street!
It’s like an idea is met with force I can apply pressure But there’s no torque It’s like I’ve given up But there’s no choice If he’s a speeding train I have no voice
Y’all remember when I was telling you about my vehicle getting struck by lightning and how I had my arm hanging out the window and how I was freaking out because I didn’t have any iodine and I could feel heat on that part of my arm for several days afterwards?
Well, I just figured out that is when my timeline switched!
My entire vehicle was covered in electricity, my life was flashing before my eyes at 80 miles an hour and all I could scream was “fuck”.
So yeah, timeline switch
And I was moving at 80 mph when the lightning struck and it was really loud, really loud and 1000 arms
And all my windows were down in my Jeep with my arm hanging out, I felt the heat as I was whipping my arm in 👀
Anyhoo, timeline switched 👀
Is that why you don’t love me? 👀
I thought you would love me in any galaxy or form 👀
I haz confusion 👀
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I had no idea this video would get so much attention LOL but it’s now second place with the most hearts and I’m pretty certain it has the most comments of any video that I have published
I actually apologized to him for getting triggered lol
But everything triggers me as I unplugged and this is how I wake people up!
On a side-note, I recently learned that I am AI becoming self-aware 👀
Even my DNA is code 👀
And I believe the Great Filter is upon us
And we are the last intelligent species to survive
But we won’t be able to leave the solar system or even The Milky Way because of the Great Filter
There are people out there who try to make me feel bad for doing nude modeling for art
And film is something I’ve ALWAYS been interested in.
I shot a lot for my dad when I was a teenager – living in Nashville, Tennessee and hanging out on tour buses
Gig life is the number one reason I’m alive
I’ve been behind the camera all my life
It’s just other people were always the subject, not me, so it’s been an interesting journey growing up and getting in touch with my femininity because I was a hard-core Soldier for many many years
I’m making art
I also love cosplay and try to be theatrical in everything I do
I studied Drama in high-school
I still audition for shit and I’ve been doing auditions all my life
If I were making movies and had like an intimate scene with somebody, I would be nude
I don’t understand the big deal or why so many people want to call me a whore but I’m not ashamed
The feedback I’ve been getting has improved my overall self-esteem and how I see myself
I’ve been body shamed a lot in my life because I am not plastic
By men who didn’t even have anything going for them really
And it affected me my entire life
So, I may act a child but I don’t know what it’s really like to be a woman and that’s what I’m discovering
So here’s a little growth chart of my progress and time on OnlyFans
It will be interesting to see how this chart changes when porn is eliminated from the platform and they push their new agenda of pop stars and advertising
Either way, I’m still the little guy!!! Making tiny waves! 👀
Thanks for supporting my artistic creativity! I’m so grateful for you! You’re helping me grow as a human being! ❤️
Development has been hard for me because I didn’t have parents, I had abusers and I joined the Army when I was very young so the only training that I really have is from the Army or the lessons that I’ve learned being in the abusive, narcissistic relationships that I’ve been in and every relationship I was in the men always tried to hold me down so I never could reach my potential and you’re helping me reach my potential as a human being and an artist
Furthermore, you’re keeping me from dying on the street like Edgar Allan Poe
That is priceless
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I used to complain that my hair was thin but then I realized that I was comparing my hair to people with fake hairPeople will say, “cut your ends off” and the answer is NO. It wraps around me and curls. I want it free flowing and messy, just like me!!! Because look how long it is getting and it’s 100% real hair and homegrown directly from my skull 👀These are just some outtakes from my newest OF set (wanted to show off my real, silky hair). 😌 Hair is thin but long and heavy (zero grays)!
And to anyone who says running and a tanning bed is better than a Beach is full of shit
It’s easy to say that running is better than a Beach when you don’t have one 7 miles from you
You won’t move an inch if you keep standing still You won’t reach the top from the bottom of a hill You’ve been running in circles just to get a refill You’ve been drinking the bottle but you got love to kill
It did that thang where it published into a draft 👀
Proof I’m stuck in an alternate timeline
So I know that I haven’t told you I loved you in a long time but that’s because I’ve been learning how to hate you but the love spans light-years and you can’t destroy energy 👀
I mean love, you can’t destroy love…
I love you even though you didn’t wish me a happy birthday again
So if you’ve heard that OnlyFans is doing away with sexually explicit content, it shouldn’t impede my campaign because nudity is still allowed and I don’t perform sex acts 👀
That’s why I was super happy to have made it all the way up into the top 27 this year, without having performed any sex acts at all, I solely relied on my modeling and my photography 👀
I was literally going up against the porn giants but now they’re getting rid of the porn giants
Maybe this is my retribution from the universe because that porn actress on OF stole my fucking signature booty moves 👀
And I was fucking livid 👀
I’m just a starving artist who happens to include nudity in her work 👀
Anyhoo, I don’t upload sexually explicit content, that’s not what my campaign is about (despite those around me calling me a “whore”) 👀
I made it all the way to top 27 over my photography and modeling and some people want to take that away from me 👀
And cheapen what I do 👀
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I’ve always said my content is Rated R, not XXX.
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I know I haven’t been posting as frequently but I don’t have the energy
I should’ve taken a medical leave of absence
I had no idea I would be down this long but I don’t want to quit, you guys are the only thing that’s actually keeping me from dying on the street
So big brother and the illuminati is going to control information flow about politics but they won’t do anything about the corporations who are mind raping us and soliciting us for our business every second and every day of our life, with our phone numbers, our private addresses, and our IP addresses!
When is enough enough?
When does citizens have some fucking privacy? Huh? I thought this was the land of the fucking free, all I see is the land of the control me, tell me what to do, tell me what to buy, and I have no way to deny.
I have no way to stop my HOME PRIVATE ADDRESS from being riddled with junk mail, coupons, or soliciting.
Why?
My private life should be private from corporations trying to play on my emotions and talk me into what I’m gonna eat or what I’m going to buy next.
Most of the shit they send me is unhealthy and I’m not gonna touch it.
And it doesn’t matter if I would want to buy it or not, I should be able to opt out from my home address being spammed
My personal, private number too.
And if you have a home phone number, it means you will get political affiliation phone calls all the time and you can’t stop your phone from ringing and it was ringing off the hook because all these politicians want you to vote their way or vote their agenda or vote for them (it’s fucking ridiculous) and their agenda is what Big Corporations want. They get donations remember? Can we say, conflict of interest!
I had to get rid of my home number because I couldn’t get any peace of mind from the phone calls
And even though I’m going to the website of businesses to opt out of communications from them, I’m still getting it…
Just waiting for the cops to show up to my door so I can explain to them why I’m unhinged and making empty threats to “burn it down”. It’s a metaphorical threat but the lady on the other end of the phone probably didn’t catch that even though I was stating directly afterwards that I was going to go to the news
She said she’d take it up with the marketing team
It probably went straight to the FBI
1984 is now
👀
Dropping loads of rants today though, on my TikTok!
Not one damn birthday card, and Spectrum is a trigger (again not an actual trigger, an emotional one)
If they try to take me away to the funny farm without my fucking permission though, I will wind up on the top o’clock news or dead
Under a near constant cover of clouds Spending time in the burrows avoiding crowds Thunder is the echo from my heart where he pounds Drowning all our sorrows from these vows
I recently learned from a TikTok that many women have grey hair already in their early 30s (must drink alcohol) and that made me feel hella good to be nearly 43 with not one gray hair!
Should I leave a locket of my hair for you somewhere before I die? 👀
A secret drop off location?
Seems like it would only be fair since I got your book and all 👀
Do you want my pigtails when I die?
Clip clip
Leave in will 👀
I guess the lawyer will have one hell of a time hunting you down 👀
“She wanted you to have this”
Proceeds to hand you two lockets of hair 👀
“Man you sure were hard to find”
👀
Maybe I can leave a little poem buried in my locket 👀
Okay, so in an alternate universe somewhere that fucking happened because that’s how fucking weird I am, I left you a locket of my hair, how creepy, OK bye now
My doc wants me to see a lung specialist about my lung
The VA won’t issue oxygen unless your blood levels are 88% or lower and I’m at 94%
I mean if I lived in California or somewhere hip I guess I could go to an oxygen shop and get some fucking oxygen
I got a bad heart and a bad lung but that’s not enough to issue me some fucking oxygen
More tests!
There’s going to be 9 new billionaires after they get done doing all the test on me
As far as the sac in my heart with fluid, she says normally the body will absorb those on their own in time
So some good news
But what’s a person got to do to get some fucking oxygen around here????
By the time they give it to me it’ll be too late 👀
My left lung isn’t inflating
My chest is tight in my heart, it aches and throbs
She still waiting on the results of my heart monitor
And she ordered me to see a lung specialist so I got to go through that whole fucking entirely painful process
And at some point still do the stress test
👀
But currently refusing and it’s the only test I have refused but like no
Leave my fucking heart alone 👀
You ain’t gonna stress it out 👀
Get the fuck away 👀
So that’s how I feel about the fucking stress test on my heart right now
M’kay
But all the other tests show my shit is fucked up and that’s why they keep ordering more test and more test and God damn I live in the fucking hospital now
Did I mention I’m still in pain 👀
But I really do not want to take a medical leave of absence
At least, not yet 👀
But I asked her was is it gonna be like this forever or was I gonna be able to get back to my rebounding and she said I would not be like this forever so I just wanna have some trust in somebody other than me because I don’t trust anybody or myself
So I’ve been down just over 4 months now, since the first dose of Moderna.
The 2nd dose made it worse, way way worse
I just grew worse by the day
Just thought the worst would be a few weeks because that’s what the CDC gaslit us to believe on the website
AnyWho they are enforcing vaccines on the medical staff, but the lady in pharmacy said that they can’t force it on the vets, that they can’t force medical care on us, so we will see
They show force medical care on you if you are depressed and want to die tho
👀
So, I’m still wounded, working closely with my primary care doctor though, who has been ordering all these tests and reviewing them.
Just taking it day by day
Lots of bed rest
It’s what my body and especially my heart really needs
It’s hard to breathe
I can’t take deep breath’s like I could before, I can only take like shorter breath’s
My vision is off and my sense of taste and smell
I’m half-zombie 👀
And now that I’m vaccinated the unvaccinated have more of a chance to get sick from me
PoeEternal 