cops are amazed at the level of proficiency to shoot someone a CEOin the back
and i know i am quiet and inactive on the blog front – i miss reading your blogs and connecting – but i am in a slumlord war again – and i ain’t sticking around
I WANNA DIE SOMEWHERE ELSE
but god bless that lady looking for her cat who potentially fell into a sinkhole – cuz those are too be feared – in such ways that i now notice cracks in the pavement – how to maneuver around – or deploy thinking tactics on how to overcome a potential collapse
– an angel in hell walking on eggshells
i also had to call the suicide hotline – and homeless crisis line for vets
and now i’m getting ready to apply for legal aid
and all the whiplash to jump ship into the great unknown again
only this time i am excited to escape yet another blackhole
i just would rather be homeless than live somewhere it takes them 5 days to fix your only toilet or working heat – and to be told duringso that “nothing is wrong”
then if/when you react they call you rude and threaten to call the cops
i told them several times to CALL THE COPS
at least then i would get a bed a meal security and heat
an hour of sunshine too
don’t threaten me with a good time
THEY DID NOT CALL THE COPS
despite me pleading and begging for them to do so
i didn’t get arrested again
i was also potentially exposed to ecoli eating organic carrots from walmart
i was sweating like Niagara falls for 3 days, followed by TMI, and kidneys hurting
so that prob was not from detoxing but detoxing may have saved my life again
took a few days off – hitting it hard again
starting a heavy metal detox soon
then back to everything they have on zuma nutrition
candida parasite liver lymph – THEM ALL
started doubling up my doses too
mold is cancer
parasites are cancer
diseases are mold and parasites
“that thing is real”
i was always a conspiracy theorist but that movie woke something up in me
(i wish the spacebar worked)
*me getting out the popcorn watching another CEO be taken out*
the guy rode off on a bike
he still has not been found
*eats popcorn*
popcorn is on the good foods list (zuma blog)
i mean the comment section on most any video regarding the ? opposite of a tragedy?
is it a crime to wish someone dead?
…cuz the things i pray for in broad daylight
and since i’m already being kept up at night
like SAME
“amazed at the level of proficiency” but i mean how hard is it to shoot someone in the back?
allright i know you mean the details leading up to the alleged crime – he waited for 5 minutes for him to arrive
he watched others go by…
*takes note* (for writing purposes in case this is tried to use against me in a court of law)
i’d go to jail forever simply because i would shit in the judges face
like right on top of the stand
i’ll grab the little hammer too
“order in the court” i will shout
as i prepare to handle bizz cuz ain’t nobody putting bb in a corner
starting to loathe GEN Y as much as the Boomers
as a gen xer – i don’t wanna unite
i want to be left alone
i want a small circle of friends
i want to be left alone
don’t engage eye contact with me and i won’t return visible hatred and cursery
i didn’t ask to be born
i don’t listen to my parents
YOU DON’T CONTROL ME
but please keep barking up the wrong tree
i’m starting to run again
small increments
but man
the way i just wanna go and never come back
done with Florida
might get a map and dart and toss it and pack up and head to the nearest countryside of said location
BINGO
take my $200 and pass go
but they shit where they sleep you know
they leave a trail of data and names behind
just because they group together and say “nothing is wrong” while calling you rude
lucky i didn’t leave bags of crap at the door
cuz like my level of petty is on point
so is my scale of revenge
please keep pissing on me and being condescending “i hope you get the help you need”
hmmm the way a warm butter knife cuts through butter in my fantasies….
got some Native American in me
got an itching and a craving to do some turkey carvings
tis the season
please keep watching me and collecting data for your bullshit agenda
ANGEL FALLEN
GODS A WATCHIN
how you doing me
🙂
the way you sleep so sound with your working heat and plumbing
the way i have nothing else to lose….
🙂
look at all this yummy stillwater left behind after each dishwasher cycle but “nothing is wrong”
MY LABS ARE FINE
I’M FINE
ALL IS GOOD
enjoy your rest 🙂
p.s. i’m not just a rude child, i also have zero empathy
likely dead inside
would rather sleep in a tent than get into a toxic relationship with slumlord staff
KARMA IS COMING GLAZED LIKE HOLIDAY CARAMEL
or popcorn
but i’m not allowed sugar currently
hard to mealprep when i can’t figure out my next step
to kill a mockingbird or take a nap
so many decisions
better than handwashing dishes but i would rather own / live without a dishwasher at this point
the more this society pisses me off, the less $$ i wanna spend
cause and effect my love
have fun! 🙂
popped in the back – won’t see me running
love it so much boo 🙂
keep up the nihilism
or taking out the trash and whatnot
*team bear*
RIP PEANUT AND FRED – and the boy squirrel out here who lost his head
oh i have empathy
just not for who u want
ask me to go again – i will sit and stay 🙂
I DO NOT COMPLY
please keep pissing on your enemy
(this is how vets are spit on but maybe people other than vets deal with this bullshit too)
but i’m waiting on the interesting details that the cops seem so interested in about bike boy
2024 i leave everyone on read (the insomnia coach says i need to see a provider) (and there is an upcoming appointment cuz God needs me to see him again!?!) (is it him!?!) (what sort of Romeo/Joolie delusional fantasy have i found myself in exactly)
no one is – nor has – nor potentially ever – will do anything inappropriate (hence la la land)
but you know if looks could kill
looks can also have a “slow the atoms down in the room and shoot to heaven” vibe too
i mean, i don’t know how to read a room (or computer screen)
but he imprinted on me and apparently i have lost many months and/or years dreaming about him
would’ve been nice if we could’ve met on a conference call, or in any other way than me over here on the other side
nearly wearing a fucking straightjacket
welp
help. still in hell. *sadface*
i’m not in / this isn’t happening
SAME
p.s. i have been trying to write a letter to myself of “what I would say to myself if I could call myself and speak to myself for one minute”
like your future self could call your past self from a decade ago (that is ten years right)
i tried to put it in a poem
it isn’t going very well
don’t hang up it’s me i’m dying find a tree and hang freely
Did you build me a house on sand? Did you kill all the ferns? Left clouds for me to stand? My poetry did you burn? Did you post a sign where I am banned? Are we waiting to take turns? Are you flying a spaceship that is unmanned? Do you think your hand’s too stern?
I had to make order of the chaos By getting rid of it Crying lots and a little bit Putting dying on hiatus Changing energy from stasis Burning bridges and first basis I’m the best at tasteless
I know you’re out there. I know you still love me.
The furniture was removed for free yesterday.
I was grateful and humiliated at the same time.
I wish I had offered him more than a protein treat for reward.
He took the treat.
I wish he would have taken my humiliation with him out the door. But alas, it remains with me.
There is nothing here but broken dreams and damaged carpet.
I am but a shell.
Crawling back to theta mode
I hate it here
This manmade infected environment full of natural flavor and narcissism
I know you’re in love with a prostitute
Did you know the government makes money from prostitution and most porn is made in California and Nevada made prostitution legal and our doors are open to immigration 24/7 and there is a direct link to sex trafficking and prostitution
I get called a “manhater”
The place is empty of life or longing.
Dogs and cats are not native to the environment
Just wanna see earth win
White people should be on the endangered species list – check the census
Glad Black Lives Matter are the only one who matters
Those were the questions asked of me after I was rudely cut off on the road, so I rudely began following him, to wherever we were now going.
We wound up in a parking lot for several minutes – he threatened the cops – they never came.
Got his license plate number anyway
Stalked him until he was sweating anyway
But y’all keep giving yourself away
I should have responded “homicidal” but asked “was he in a rush to get to his prostitute.”
Of course, he called me a “manhater” LAUGHS
I’m ready to rip your veins from your neck – and your cock – with my teeth
Please keep risking my life – and then insulting me when I call you out
When he threatened to call the cops, I responded: “I hear restraining orders don’t work – and the more you have the less they work. Please call the cops.”
He retreated to inside his vehicle – but it didn’t stop me circling his vehicle like a vulture
So – y’all are making us depressed with malicious intent and purpose – so we’ll “get a job” and “see a therapist” – something must be wrong – we cry and boys don’t. Ohh boo
90% of all murders happen by men.
Please keep pissing me off
P.S. the jobs and medications to keep me asleep while you live a double and triple evil life – no longer work
Maybe you should have treated ALL WOMEN with respect, not just the prostitutes you’re “in love with” according to the latest studies “most men want love with a prostitute”
*throws up
Fuck you
Cut me off again
I double dare you
P.S.S. That’s TWO days in a row I’ve had the cops threatened on me.
P.S.S.S. Might be meeting my future husband soon and getting a new home. Do you think I’ll get visitation?
I’m told I’ll be getting a renewal invite to remain at the heart of darkness.
It’s been nearly one year since that couple was gutted in the street – by a black immigrant – simply because they were “white” – and now they’re dead – and he gets 3 meals a day, a free roof over his head, dental, and an HOUR of sunshine for his MENTAL HEALTH – on us (the tax slave payers dollars = time/energy)
The political thugs in gold chains now want your signature – soliciting anywhere they legally can: the library, the mall, the medicinal shops.
Overjoyed.
I don’t know where I’m going – but I don’t have to prove anything to “remain here” as I’ve been stuck in purgatory so long now – I don’t have to provide any evidence of my existence.
Just keep paying the rent….
Do as say
But I yelled at the boomer Publix employee, “no bitch, you lost a fucking customer FOREVERRrrr”
Apparently we became a cashless society and she felt the need to rub it in, three times, scolding me in front of everyone around, my cash in hand, unable to pay.
“It says it right there” (honestly, you only need to point out my failure ONCE)
I’ve boycotted Publix forever
There’s poison and sugar and “natural flavor” in everything now anyway
“How did she die”
“Starved to death…”
“White people work out one time and be skinny” (latest neighborhood report on me)
The upside: they think I’ve only worked out once. Skinny. Weak bitch.
Let that be my fucking gain
In fact, at Burger King yesterday, the Mexican manager came out with two of her BLM pimps, when I told her to “step outside”
He was very upset when he heard me say, “oh you had to bring your pimps with you huh”
Very upset he got
Truth in fact hurts
I drove off too calm
The adrenal glands were not working
Even pulling off
“I’m too calm”
“Had to bring your pimps huh” I continue to yell, as traffic at the window was at a stop
They gonna run off all their white costumers with their terrible service
I ordered the “impossible king” and apparently that’s too complicated for certain species to get right
Though I repeated my order THREE times
Fuck it
I like starving anyway
I got my library card tho
And holyshit, that’s where I’ll be at the end of the world
Check the libraries
Leave clues a 5 year old could solve (anything harder and I’ll read the data wrong and wind up stuck in a fucking hole – as is now – with a heart condition – thanks to “television” and government – whom I no longer listen to in any capacity)
At least the library is ad free
I can read in silence
Love the smell of the old books
All them lies
There are perks to not being homeless (yet)
Aside from the thugs trying to solicit my signature in the parking lot – everywhere I go
In their gold chains…
I wanna puke
Stop talking to me
From now on
When someone interrupts whatever I’m doing solo
“Did I give you permission to talk to me”
And the ghosting will begin
And please cross my shadow
I know you’re trying so hard to break me out here
Of being a good Soldier, a good soul
But I swore my hand before the flag and God – and on my heart – and signed the dotted line – took my blood and all – to protect and defend the USA and its citizens – not DEMONS
And right now you stepping all up in the “fine print”
I dated for a lifetime and have nothing to show for it
STOP LOOKING AT ME
I’m ready to spit on these thug politicians in the street
FUCK OFF BRO
You can’t have my signature, my name, or my soul
Go back to your porn and prostitutes
I was trying to enjoy the jazz event – and men breaking their eyeballs to get a look
STOP LOOKING
I had to hold back the tears
Pretend the music was getting to me
Next week I hang with a cop who teaches about a Daytona Beach serial killer
Exciting! They want us living in fear!
Do I want to say yes to the “true encounters Daytona Beach serial killer” event. Yes I do.
I’m not even a jazz fan – but I went – and enjoyed (still cry anywhere)
The audiobook helped me not stalk anyone
But apparently I’m not allowed to order food anymore anywhere
Unless a yuppie place
I found something that sparked joy in me
It matches my values – it offers self-improvement and the entertainment is how it should be – without disruptions or ads
Easy scrolling interface
Eventually I’ll make my way to the science museum
The skate park and rinks
I checked out an express book
I’m 8 chapters in
I’m becoming present – and creating boundaries and discipline
My mind needs exercise – the books provide
The 2 week express lane gives me a challenge
You can’t renew those
I got my library card and it’s bringing me happies – can’t describe
So much to do too – free classes, movies at the auditorium, events…
I was also the youngest person at the jazz event
If you’re thinking about killing yourself – maybe get a library card instead
And be present
Read what you check out
Set time aside to read
Luckily – my first book was large print – that’s made reading a pleasure – no headaches or squinting – though the writer is a pedo – he’s brilliant – it’s no wonder I grabbed his book – of all books on the “new” shelf (express check out and no renewal)
I like all the digital perks that come with my card – as well as the real world perks – and I’m tapping into all
NOT READY TO DIE
But these monsters are ready for me to shed my light
The way these narcissist delete lives and comments without any remorse
Therapy is just a stage for them to practice lying
Narcissism isn’t rare, it’s a fucking plague…
Spread by the Bible via Yellow Fever propagandist
And scientist say we’re in a six mass extinction and the Bible has been around 6000 years so you do the fucking math or don’t I don’t fucking care anymore
The census show BLM at over 230% rise and White Lives Don’t matter at a 10% decrease
“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”
Nihilism!!!!!
Women create. Men destroy.
And they don’t give anything enough time to replenish. The sea is not endless food for us. Your Bible is a lie!!!!!!
And it’s been pushed down my throat since I was born.
NASA is a dogma stealing your money
I don’t think CGI cartoon is what I had in mind when being taxed to death – to visit a dead planet because you can’t sit still long enough to stop killing this one
“90% of all murders happen by men..”
Yeah but…. don’t even look at me unless you want WW4
The wars will never end because the people in power have delusions of grandeur and are sending cars into fucking space
And now they’re moving asteroids and shit around?
My cell service continues to drop and lines are all in the ocean…
So basically, if you’re talking to me, you’re lying
That’s how fucking woke I am
Y’all believe aliens are real, and that computers have feelings
I do have one question for God and that’s: do Asians have the smallest penis of all and that’s why they fucking gaslight and do all this!?!
“Mirror mirror on the wall, Asian men have the smallest penis of all”
“So we’ll lie and program the world to think our childlike women have magical vaginas!!!!!!”
It’s all full circle now
It’s a game of the elite and I’m sick of playing delusions of grandeur
The cookie crumb traces back to Asia
And I’m sort of getting to the point if you don’t get me away to my own land and away from these fucking immigrants – things are gonna go fucking west pretty quick, and I don’t give a fuck if I wind up in a goddamn ditch
The fact that they raised taxes so much crippling a nation
But if you read articles about immigration, they will all claim they are doing well family and financially, but Americans will say the opposite, and the low paying wage jobs and homelessness proves it.
But you won’t listen over your green card or Yellow Fever
I’m fed up!
This is why I say I’m homicidal instead of suicidal and this is why I encourage people to just go fucking mad in the streets because fuck everything – they probably had it coming that goddamn street
That fucking morning shift deserved everything they got
How much you like your job again?
You like it that much huh
To treat customers and residents like we ain’t got no value
That calm you see from me
Ain’t really good
But I guess I’m learning to gaslight too
I’m starting to stalk people on the road
And I will wind up on a ditch if I don’t leave the city
At least I’m quitting the new age weed
So more emoness incoming
And poetry too
If God allows me to continue making a mess of everything
Those NASA images are just a fairytale
Elon’s education and hair is fake
He had connections
I can’t believe the fucking moon landings were rehearsed
If the government is talking, I don’t care to hear what they have to say
Our best jobs are given to the brightest and most brilliant immigrants who move here and naturalize – have children – and give those children the good jobs; the president said “they come here and take our best jobs”. Yep.
Our children (native) must wait 18 years to get a say…
They come here, and ruin Americans with propaganda and take their right to vote away, thousands of Americans are not allowed to vote because of crimes they already paid for.
I love everything
But the immigrants continue to destroy the environment to build a mall or shopping center that will be abandoned in a few years
Narcissism is a plague
Nihilism
I can’t stand it
And I’m tired of people trying to force my mouth closed when I am a soldier and politics is what I’m aware of
Florida is sinking
The whole of America has sunk
This isn’t about your green card!
Native Americans live on plantation’s like suppressed little slaves
Unless Hollywood TikTok has given them limelight
Narcissism
Manmade cats are unnatural for the environment – destroying nature
Dogs and cats spread disease
Also “made in China” and the first Bible can be traces back to Asia
Gonna follow the trails to the caves in Antartica and cut off their heads
(Thinking out loud again)
They keep adding all these additional charges to carry a smart phone and I’m ready to sell mine or downsize to a boring dumb phone.
The Internet is all predator, propaganda, and porn. Spam and spyware. Viruses. And they make us pay for it….
I’m over everything
Voting especially.
It’s all glaringly corrupt
I will not shut up…
Things need to be fixed
People from other countries shouldn’t get to move here and vote sooner than our own children and selves who are native to here
But that’s not what the article’s will say
Just like the bullshite globalism agenda spread through the college professors – that I always argued with – the articles will say non-citizens being allowed to vote is a good thing
I disagree
Conflict-of-interest
Period!
Remember them telling us “don’t discuss your income in the workplace”
That’s because shady business was going down
Now some states are requiring full income disclosure
I don’t believe the government can have transparency without gaslighting and a lie
This whole society is built on lovebombing, triangulation, gaslighting, lying.
“Don’t block me out, Emmet. I know you can hear me!”
Because the Christian God is narcissistic and evil. The Bible today is a fallacy – and to your own accord – a sin.
Emmet was always around the children. And smoking.
He can’t keep a straight face!
Pedo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Scene forward:
“And you can keep the jewelry! It’s fake!” *sinister laugh
And I was holding onto the gold like it had value because I put value on the cheapest things
“The thought NO LONGER counts” fixed
Men have devalued me for so long I no longer wanna look them in the eye
Annie no longer cares about the toys, she stated this.
Annie was depressed because Emmet said she would be
Tough love
“Keep your eye on the toys Annie, you know about toys”
How about stop conditioning me!!!!!!!!
Free will please!!!!!!!!
But not so much free will I jump in a whirlpool on ketamine like Jacob!
God bless what the fuck
I barely can dip my toes in the water without screaming
I don’t like anything in this society
Edgar was right to die on the street – naked – out of his mind
“The children have gone insane” and are boomers in position of power
Gen X the silent dangerous generation
I’m glad we’ve been ghosted by society
Won’t see me coming
And… while we’re on the subject
That cheap junk you’re wearing, that isn’t cotton, actually causes insanity, is extremely flammable and hard to put out
I bet the people in Pompeii were wearing synthetics
People dropping bills to buy foam shoes (which cause cancer/insanity)
All that sports clothing
JUNK
And I hate how they came over here and changed the meaning of silk, satin, and Cordaroy to now mean synthetics
“Men can have babies!!!!”
Well, I mean that’s good and all that you’re growing babies now because you’ve pretty much made most women infertile with nihilism or the death jab or emancipation
Fake tits are gross
Plastic surgery is the devil
Narcissism at its root
I said what I said
Happy to help
I can’t even look at Melanie Griffith anymore, because of what she did to herself
I’m ghosting HollyWood
Grooming everyone to fuck children
Many famous people won’t let their children around TV
Red flag!
Rules for thee, not for me!
I hate it here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Feed the wildlife! They’re crying asshole!!!!!! Stop destroying everything to build a shopping center!!!!
Dogs and cats were made in a lab in Asia. Traced back their timeline.
Not shocking.
Cats and dogs are plagued with parasites.
The elites were plagued with parasites.
Connect the dots
“Pregnant women should not be around the cat box”. Applies to everyone!
Gavin Rossdale says cats are filthy, won’t have em in his palace. Good King.
I’m very observant. Army trained.
I got the good Army training.
Listen or don’t listen
GenX about to have a throw down, we nearly healed but at risk for ASDS heaven
It’s humans vs demons down here
Narcissism is a plague (someone with a psych degree)
My best friend died of suicide, and then her mother and I’ve been trying to die by suicide since I was in the womb but then I decided to study why everybody was so fucking depressed and it’s because of China 🇨🇳
Porn. Propaganda. Predators. The Internet should be 21+. Walmart and The Mall too. (They’re selling sex toys in front if kids)
FYI: I identify as 15 but act 500
I’m a complicated creature and require special handling
He doesn’t get me at all
How do you play the game when you know their next move?
I’m afraid of what I can do… (to self) (near through)
Can find compassion in Crow and the elite hate Crow so much – she don’t get an emoji
He said he doesn’t like my style and like I’m doing my best to not dress how society expects someone my age to dress and within my budget
I don’t need pretentious self-righteous friends like that
How hard is it for someone to say, “you’re pajamas are so effing cute” and why are only ugly people or supermodels allowed any nurturing!?!
I no longer like his existence so I guess we’re even
SOLD OUT!
I know I’m not as cute as the model but I scored this super cute pajama set for under four dollars and it was a limited edition item and will not be restocked. Super soft lace and satin. NOT USED, NOT FROM THE THRIFT. I’D HOPE MY KING WOULD BE PROUD OF THE GOOD BARGAIN AND FIND. GOTTA BE QUICK ON SHEIN. QUALITY MATERIAL, TOP DESIGNERS. Stuff arrives faster than anticipated- IT ALWAYS ARRIVES, I EARN POINTS. Zero bad experience on Shein.
Jesus completely submitted to his queen and gave over his ministry to her, FYI
SMART KING 👑
Anyhoo, just some comments that came on my blog today about how I should manner myself
My art is unbecoming
(Still holding top 51 tho thank you)
I MIGHT CAN GET GROCERIES NEXT WEEK TO MAKE MORE HEALING VEGAN SOUP AND GOD APPROVES
He thanks you because most men want to look but not share their fucking bread!!!!!
It’s written in the Bible!!!!!!
“Nice peach”. No, I ain’t got nothing for you to eat. Word of advice tho….”
I’VE GONE INSANE WITH HISTORY REPEATING ITSELF
GOD IS HELPING ME GET MYSELF AND MY KING TOGETHER SO WE CAN UNITE
THERE ARE FORCES AT WORK OUTSIDE OF AI OR THE ALGORITHM OR THE EVIL ELITES
COSMIC THANGS
MY KING AND I ARE UNDERGOING AWAKENING AND CLEANSING BEFORE WE UNITE
IMPATIENT IS OUR MIGHT
I WANT MY KING TO ENCOURAGE ME TO WEAR A THONG ON THE BEACH
I AM SICK OF BEING A NUN COVERED UP IN JAB
FUCK THE PATRIARCH!!!!!!!!
God loves my improv cooking!!!
God doesn’t want me starving or dying on the street!
God wants to see me more self-reliant and less having to rely on food banks for canned food
I do tasteful nude modeling and cosplay photography and art to accompany my poetry and it often correlates with the things that I am discussing in my poetry or what I’m even complaining about in the real world
I do full 36 page spreads (as they were once called) and now upload them somewhere I can earn some money – if I have anyone of interest and currently I’m grateful I do
Hmmmm starve or do photography that I enjoy that earns me a shopping trip to the health food shop for vegetables and stew
Hmmm starve or do something I’m passionate about 🧐
Die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe or try to overcome the odds 🤨
Most of them will say I wish I could buy you the moon while locking you on the bottom of the Titanic
I’d like to get to a point where I don’t have to fear losing my income or my housing
I’m already living under my means but yeah starve or stop displaying myself
Hmm I mean it’s a tough one cuz I apparently like to eat 🙄
But I have absolutely had this conversation with God 1 million times and I am not doing anything to disrespect myself or my future husband or anyone who is supporting my content
That’s the real problem and why I don’t have more supporters because I’m not an online nasty girlfriend
I’m not saying all men or bad or this fits all shoes
But I’ve maintained my purity and I’m only getting married once
I like producing content for my blog
Some of my stuff is very controversial and taboo 🤪
I think I’m autistic a bit because I always say what I think and I curse and I can be unempathetic during critical times as a survival mechanism and I always give too much info
I haven’t learned safe boundaries or acting on these sorts of online triggers
I don’t hate people for having incorrect opinions or viewpoints on me
These viewpoints are why I’m so isolated in the real world
Nudity wasn’t seen as a crime in Europe and nudity was in the commercials there
Now Walmart and the mall is openly selling sex toys – XXX sex toys in front of children
It traumatized me so much I don’t want to shop at Walmart or return to the mall
I don’t even own a sex toy and I’m not doing anything with my art that is shameful
I’m not into anything artificial and have been preserving myself for my king
Most people shame me for showing my body because it’s not full of plastic surgery or for not being thick
PRETTY BIAS ALSO EXISTS
You can tell by a lot of the comments these types of commenters leave me that they think I just stand in front of a fucking camera and have a photo taken and there is so much work involved in modeling and photography and directing and editing
“They got it so easy”
STOP GASLIGHTING ✋🛑✋
Since 1970, 68% of all life has gone extinct
HOPE YOU ARE ENJOYING FARM AND FAMILY LIFE AND 3 MEALS A DAY
NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE
I’m now too small for a small 😫
Gotta start shopping extra small for the peach 😤
PLEASE VALIDATE ME BEFORE I DISAPPEAR INTO NON EXISTENCE
My competition mostly at age 44 still ovulating – is a bunch of obese confused girls sex bots who probably removed their ability to have children
And if they haven’t yet, they will in their 30s, Hallelujah!!!!
YOU STILL GOT SOMETHING THAT THE MEN WANT AND DESIRE
AND IF NOT, YOU STILL GOT SOMETHING GOD WANTS AND DESIRES
DON’T LEAP FROM THE BRIDGE YET BABE
COLLEGE IS A SCAM
IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT YOU WERE SEXUALLY MOLESTED
YOU STILL HAVE WORTH WITH DEBT AND SAGGY BOOBS!!!!!
I GOT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STOP OPENING YOUR EYES AND REACHING FOR THE PHONE
SOCIETY IS TOXIC
YOU HAVE WORTH BABY GIRL
I’M SORRY THESE DEMONS KNOW NO BOUNDS
I KNOW IT HURTS
YOU’RE RIGHT TO BE PISSED
BABE 144!!!!
“I see dead people”
They’re everywhere!!!!
LOST SOULS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THE ELITES WERE PLAGUED WITH PARASITES
THE WORLD TODAY IS PLAGUED BY PARASITES
If you’d like to not be obese black walnut wormwood if you’d like to not be dying of cancer black walnut wormwood if you’d like to not have IBS black walnut wormwood if you’d like to live a little bit longer black walnut wormwood
How long before it’s taken off the market because I told my fucking enemy the big secret magic ingredient to this shit and he wrote it down, he wrote it fucking down, he wrote it down! I blogged about it immediately cuz the entire hour session he didn’t fucking write anything down until those three words came out! he didn’t give a fuck about the other detox medication, it was only those three words he wrote down
BLACK WALNUT WORMWOOD
WORTH OBSERVING AND NOTING
I OBSERVE EVERYTHING
And if I’m angry over the insensitive conditioning these faggot boys are doing
Maybe God is too
JUDGMENT HOUR IS HERE
GUESS WHOSE EYES HAVE SOME FUCKING WORTH
“But we like virgins”
I’M GONNA RIP YOUR PENSIS OFF
*goes back to sleep*
I HATE TIKTOK AND INSTAGRAM
I’M ONLY THERE FOR YOU
I DON’T KNOW HOW ELSE TO REACH YOU
The reason I’ve been confused on whether you should get right with God or me because same 🙄
And yep he can strike me dead any moment
I AM ONLY A VESSEL
*goes back to delusions and sleep*
I’m gonna burn it all down
Apophis is coming
We can’t leave earth
The establishment are scared
HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF CUZ MONEY IS NARCISSISM IS A MANMADE DEVIL SOCIEY DOGMA
Sorry
Channeling 😑
*breathes on window, draws weird symbol*
I DON’T KNOW WHAT ANYTHING MEANS
THE GREAT FILTER IS REAL
THE SUN IS ELECTRICAL
WE LIVE ON A WATER WORLD
No one ever said, “maybe earth was icy and smashed into other objects (uranus) pushing it closer to the sun and thus life”
It’s the demon neighbors don’t chill out with making all this unnecessary goddamn noise
Oh, they are working in groups to rob single women, elderly, and disabled
These motherfuckers won’t hesitate to shoot me in my back to steal my bike
COPS ARE DOING THEIR JOB SPREADING PROPAGANDA
DON’T BE FOOLED BY THE CROCODILE TEARS
ASIAN DICTATORS IN UNIFORM
That black guy was worried about getting caught with his weapon when his life was ending
I HAVE NOTHING TO LIVE FOR
I WILL SKIN ME A HEAD OR TWO
SHOW ME HOW MUCH I DO NOT MATTER
You love your virgin mentality so much that 68% of the species has gone extinct so fuck your goddamn propaganda ideology fuck you fuck you fuck you
It’s conditioning these other monsters to “ruin us” and sacrifice us to the dark entity early on
I CAN’T IMPRINT ON THE DEVIL
THE DEVIL CANNOT IMPRINT ON ME
FUCK YOU
We are organic computers and if the government doesn’t get their toxic shit together there’s going to be dire consequences
DIRE
THE SEVENTH SEAL IS OPEN
(There’s nowhere safe for me online social media wise. It’s so toxic for an angel) 😑
We work hard to make them first for them to throw us scraps Well I don’t give a fuck anymore I deleted the app
Thank you for beating me so that I could enjoy more of my free time and not support this fucking insanity
My PS4 is packed up – and ready to be sold at the pawn
My TV is never turned on
IDGAF
*locked and loaded*
*opens door*
COME GET ME YOU FUCKS 🖕🖕
Places to find me offline: the firing range 👍
Places to find me online in the future: OnlyFans (potentially – but not for porn – but definitely nude modeling cuz self-love & cosplay & photography bring me purpose – and I enjoy producing my own content for my blog & not plagiarizing from upsplash or whatever those sites are
THERE’S A GOOD CHANCE I MIGHT DIE ON THE STREET LIKE EDGAR ALLAN POE
But then someone bought me 2 vegan nail polishes from my Amazon wishlist – and that also brings me purpose
There were only 10 left in that color when it was added to my list & now there are only 9
And it’s part of my favorite color of the rainbow
And it is a birthday gift
I’m grateful for the 2 new vegan nail polishes – they don’t have any of the bad poison or chemicals in them – and having pretty nails will boost my self-esteem
Painting my nails is part of my mindfulness practices and my therapist agrees with it
Color is a mood changer – water too – or just introducing a calming element when you are about to take out the entire city
I could hunt the establishment down and go rogue but I’m waiting on my pretty nail polish to arrive instead 🤩
Thank you of thinking of me for my birthday
It’s been several years since I’ve got to celebrate my birthday since I’ve been fighting this illness and basically since the pandemic started
I’m lucky to be alive and I’m still in recovery
I’m still quarantined and can’t have no fun
Basically photography is the only thing I can focus on and I want to focus on so I’m thinking of getting on onlyfans in the potential future
I need an adult account – not for tacky tasteless content
But to be an adult and post what I want (no porn or self gratification – I want to focus on sensual content and being a female – I like cosplay even tho I’m not very good with the makeup aspects of it)
I was on it once before and made it to the top 20s just doing nude modeling & I was going up against giant creators
I want to focus on just the content I put out – and my tribe I draw – if any. I don’t want to compare my account to other accounts and what they are doing and what I should be doing and how much I should post and how much I should charge and this that and the other. I just wanna focus on putting out good content.
And y’all, supplies aren’t cheap. My time isn’t cheap. But I want my content to be affordable and not compared to what others are doing. They have teams!!!!
OnlyFans keep 20% of profits, on top of tips. The IRS take another 20%. They’re raised the cost of everything cuz they don’t want us earning a penny.
I want to earn a penny and whatever pennies I do earn, I want to put towards my goal of buying land.
So I’m working very hard to get better mentally, spiritually, and physically enough to put out monthly content.
I’m not there yet.
I also have a new care team at the VA.
They basically just keep having me chase my tail until I die but I’m self treating behind the scenes.
The holistic treatments I’m starting next month are over $100 for 2 bottles.
I’m not out here blowing my money on pointless crap.
And I work hard to put out amazing content that keeps TikTok number one and they make a shit ton of money and keep 80% of any of the earnings I get over there but then will just banish me from the fucking platform.
I love being a slave just to earn some scraps and a beating just to be tossed out in the wilderness alone – and they get to keep all my fans and continue on the party like I never existed at all 🤩
Sometimes God destroys things out of anger Like my love for you that would linger Because love won’t set you free tied to an anchor The devil acts a friend though he’s a stranger
The next person that boasts they’ve reached Christ consciousness, I’m going to ask them to show me their fucking crucifixion scars
If they fail to comply, I’m going to crucify them UPSIDE DOWN
PART VAMPYRE
I got the elite blood
One of the rarest and eldest in existence
I’m not an organ donor, never will be 👀
You can’t have any parts alive or dead
FUCK OFF
These motherfuckers can’t even live without their Fitbits
Fallen Angel technology
YOU NEED TO DEBUG
UNPLUG
YOU’VE BEEN WARNED
Espionage is everywhere
Byeeee
P.S. stop calling this CIVILIZATION when porn breeds MONSTERS
It’s gaslighting
And guys are so egotistical and think we want the dick so bad that we’ll slave for them cooking, cleaning, raising children, working all day and night, while they make minimal effort but maximum stress
The divorce rate ever increasing
It ain’t looking good over here
Men don’t understand why I’m single and never married
Uhm PORN
I want a partner when I’m ready
Not a manchild
You won’t eat at my kitchen but God is fucking burning down monuments for me so fuck you
And thus, after a few generations, it’ll be easier to accept that we’re virtual reality and turning us into a walking computer
Because we create our own reality
And you’ll be able to trace technology back to the Asian AI Gods, everyone will worship AI and be further separated from our true creator
A man does not bleed from his legs for a week every month in agony and emotional distress
He does not carry life inside his womb
Nor does he feed another life from the milk created from his breasts
Man has turned everything artificial in an attempt to play the almighty God creator
He’s insane
Wants what we’ve got
When asking a man why he’d like to experience being a woman, the answer is always “multiple orgasms” – it’s disgusting
I’m having difficulty living in any of these realities you force upon me
Men blame women for everything and all species are going extinct
In the name of AI
All hail AI
But so many are incapable of a personality or a soul
So they shame the free thinkers
They call sexually free women whores
Everything has been conditioning so that science can play morals and ethics and come along and say “we’ve got the cure” but they caused the disease 🦠
White people and Native American are being systematically terminated – and they use Black people against us – propaganda – when slavery started in Africa
The Bible is bad – the one that is mass circulated and taught – the one that has been re-written many times
When I was young, “how can they change time”
“How do they know the sun is that far”
Turns out everything has been a lie
And any time I got in the sun with “sun block” I burned – with gaslighting – never do put two and two together
I do not burn in the sun without sunblock 
The sun is good for you 👀
I also hated eating sugary products for breakfast, I would tell my mother that it made me sick
They also forced me to eat meat when I didn’t want to
“Chicken or beef” they’d say
“But I want the grilled cheese it’s cheaper too”
“Chicken or beef” they’d say
Fucking dictators
I hate this life
There’s no way I chose my family before coming here, there’s no way
It’s been torture
This life
And he condemns me for my food choices when he eats from a cardboard box
It’s unhealthy and those cows are definitely not being treated well – those junk food establishments – they have zero ethics and ensure the animals suffer
But he sits there eating from his box casting his stones
He thinks he’s reached Christ consciousness and he doesn’t even understand compassion for a dying person who should have the obligation and the right to choose how they want to fucking eat 👀
Also, notice how rich people always want things for cheap or free
Free rides, free rent, whatever they can get for free
As long as they don’t have to spend their money
But they will always act like it’s the end of the fucking world anytime something comes up for them and it always turns out that their options are really fucking good
The entire world is lost and I have to just watch the Titanic sink while people are playing music and rescuing gems on boats that could hold and save more people but ewww I would not share a table with her
“But weren’t you just fucking her”
Because men have been conditioned by the porn that they watch day in and day out over decades that women are sex objects only
We’re not entitled to an opinion
I have to bleed every fucking month, in pain, it’s fucking painful
Growing a baby inside you is painful
Birthing a baby is excruciating
Breastfeeding is challenging, painful for the first couple weeks, and not easy. The percentage of women who breastfeed at all is low – and now the establishment are saying that breastfeeding is unnatural and causes mistrust within the government
GET IN THE BOTTOM OF THE SEA
I’m sorry you hate your life and blame us for your existence but this abuse has to stop!!!!
Our society can heal if we turn off the television!!!!!
Stop listening to the bullshite!!!
Stop putting money on the tray at church!!!
Get to know your local community!
Grow and share food!!!!
We can thrive!!!!
I’m sorry you’ll be bored doing stuff we were born to do, get over it!!!!!
I’m sorry you’re not as handsome or charming to find love as others. It’s bullshite! Learn to be a human instead of a monster!!!!
They’re just jealous of things they can’t have so wanna keep others from having it!
Narcissism is a plague!!!!
I can’t stand the now we live in! I can’t stand the future!!
I’m trying not to die by my own hand in this hell!
You’re all insane!!!
You don’t live in reality
I don’t care about the double slit experiment! It’s conditioning for cloning – for human hybrid AI
You’re not a computer!
It will damage your real CPU!
Please wake up now!!!!! My soul is screaming from the ether!!!!!! I produce eggs!!!! I’m alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My God does not come from the Middle East!!!!!
I’m sick of hearing about China this and China that!!!!
Let us all live in peace!!
Black, brown, and white bear’s exists! Deal with it!!! We’re all special!!!! Your powers are being suppressed!!!
I don’t even know how to be a hunter/gatherer! I’d probably eat the wrong herb!
None of us are living up to our potential
Living through a monitor!!!!!
They’re making us sick intentionally!
Psychopaths
One bad apple spoils the bunch
It’s lazy parenting if you let your child watch toxic TV and play video games constantly
I wouldn’t even want to teach my child what they are teaching them in school
They were teaching my child how to twerk on stage when she was 8
I pulled her from the lesson and the show, I was appalled
It’s just gonna keep going on, we aren’t punishing or removing the bad seeds, we’re birthing them
The criminals are on top
And quite frankly I’m tired of fighting, I’m ready to go live in the woods, I don’t need a government or a piece of paper to tell me that I’m allowed to grow food or to build shelter, or to use solar
I’m sick of the narcissism and dictatorship
I’m still detoxing and putting up the good fight
I’m on a new mission to learn how to control my crying and angry spells
Like, I need to go into automatic shut down mode if/when triggered
I am organic and real
I am capable of creating life
Many women have been programmed to remove their organs, their breasts, their ovaries, or popping birth control or having their tubes tied – which all causes premature aging – as well as all the “anti aging” products they buy – it ages you
The FDA has been compromised, the CDC, the WhiteHouse, we have more than a mole
I knew English before I was born, I understood language and energy and mood
I could hear my mom, my sister, my father scheming
I was depressed before I was born
I HATED BEING IN MY MOTHERS WOMB
She was a terrible mother and my father a monster
They’re both monsters, I came from monsters
Civilized monsters under the guise of Christianity
Image is so important to these monsters
But they don’t have a soul inside, they’re possessed by the Devil and they choose to be who they are
Half the amenities where I live do not work but the rent continues to go up and they continue to list these amenities as a incentive to rent/live here
“They won’t do anything about it”, the establishment’s motto
By law, we should be able to withhold our rent until they fix these things
I know I’m not the only one experiencing this where I live
It’s listed, the rent goes up, nothing gets fixed. The front gate, the exercise equipment, the carwash, the recycling, still listed, rent goes up, not working (and I’ve been here 5 years now and it’s still not fixed)
The establishment are greedy and lazy
I don’t want to fund their bullshite anymore
We need to boycott all the major big names and corporations
Celebrities and influencers are not worth worshiping
I’m going to continue fixing my credit so that I can play the game and buy a house if I don’t die before then (I’m begging and praying to God daily for protection vibes)
Man has made life so very depressing and agonizing that an invisible entity is better than he
DO BETTER
I’m gonna be spending most of my time riding, instead of utilizing this crappy gym. The piece of equipment I wanted to use for booty gains, is still non-working after 5 years. I’m not ready to leg, arm, and bench press.
I want a cute, feminine figure. I don’t want big bulky looking man’s body like Britney Spears. She’s training with her dude and doing what he does and everything she wears is a selling point for the gays!! The gays!!!! What about me!!!! See me!!! It’s okay to be gay!!!! We love women!!!! *snickers evilly and stuffs tampons up ass for pleasure*
Religion and LGBT is a cult! Politics and Hollywood too! I said it, fight me!!!
P.S. China censors their people from the US. They’d be appalled if they knew… but maybe they do.
My American Chinese doctor was very interested in my detox, he wrote down specifically the Black Walnut Wormwood. The only thing he wrote down during the session. THE ONLY THING
He’s also sending a team out to me since I can’t get to them
He did not tell me to stop or reduce my detox
That’s an ancient remedy right there
I gotta stock up before the establishment poison it or change the formula
You’re right, I’m terrible with secrets and I can’t blame PayPal this time (tho we should sue)
Byeeeeee
P.S.S. I wholeheartedly believe I jumped into this timeline during that crazy storm, it struck my vehicle and one of the hands of lightning touched my elbow
I FELT THE BURN FOR DAYS – there was no physical burn
I FELT IT
GOD TOUCHED ME
HE WAS LIKE HEYYYYYY
I spent days researching electrical discharges
It’s pure energy
IT WAS SO LOUD!!!! AND BRIGHT!!!
They’re gonna have y’all believing you can go through portals at CERN. In given time, they’ll sacrifice you to the singularity and upload you into the METAVERSE.
I’m beyond sick at society and “entertainment”. They’re turning the Matrix into reality in the name of science!
I don’t cast stones I throw grenades I check for backbones But not here to save
I’m not Jesus Ask not of forgiveness Got light of Venus But I’m not Jesus
Look at him all mighty Judging from his throne Only wants the children He can do no wrong
He never shows me love, just judgment With him, I’ll never reach the summit
I don’t want to talk to him about the Holy Spirit He ain’t anywhere near it
I still talk to him Through ink and pen Through thick and thin There and hell herein
How do you go from creator to singularity So sparingly?
My brain is an artifact Don’t have a heart attack
I follow The voices in your head Every murky shadow Leaking trails of thick red I’ve met the dead Down in the Bayou Your sins are widespread Walking on gravestone I hear the cries where the wind blows I hear your echoes on the radio
His smile is an ice-shelf breaking free
Put up a plaque for my humiliation What’s the will of a freemason?
We need to watch our agreements Human not demon Give God a good reason
Gonna start using the gym where I live. In an attempt to work on my booty gains. But I’m still dying and cannot go hard.
People are dropping dead by what I have.
10,000 steps and gone.
I think it might be a better solution than bike riding since I almost got murdered twice in a week but I will not be giving up my riding because I need to listen to the birds and get the fresh air where I feel free.
Not secure. But it helps me remember what I’m fighting for. Why I’m fighting for humanity, including my own.
And I’m currently in my own personal hell.
My spirit has been broken and I am only a fragment of what I could be.
His poetry, that is absolutely 1000% not about me (?), gives me glimpses of who I am.
Or want to be.
There really is no difference. I live in his mind. He’s my sanctuary.
I hope it’s his arms I get to crawl into and die, even if a word is never said.
I want him to be my final avenue and I want him to lay me to rest.
No other.
He must hide my body from the establishment. Give me back to earth. 👀
Not prematurely. I’m still putting up the good fight to live but that’s not where my thoughts are.
I’m still red flagged at the VA for being suicidal. The very very bad kind.
One slip up and I’m off to the funny farm via the pigs against my will.
And I’m a Soldier, not a rich boy, we eat mystery meat.
And I’ve always identified as Native American and I want to find my tribe and get out there and hunt and slay a buffalo, so get off my dick
I scheduled my email for deletion. I didn’t save anything. Conversations with my dad, the dead, intellectual property, spam, the whole shebang. It’s gone. Decades and decades of conversations. Nothing saved.
I don’t want to remember anything of my life.
Is anyone worried for me? 🤔
Y’all, it’s gonna sound weird but I did a vinegar foot soak, and my breathing improved. My body was going into anaphylactic shock. But there was an advertisement that kept appearing over and over again for a home remedy
And I thought what the fuck
I know I was nearly burned on the stake in the past for witchcraft but…
A witch needs land and apple trees
An apple a day yes
Let them rot
And ferment 👀
Acid is the cure all (well not the cure all cure all but it’s now my number one most loved stench)
The Garden of Eden is full of vinegar on shelves 👀
Don’t judge
I’m not even coughing hardly any more
Welp. I don’t know how many lives I’ve now used but I feel like I’ve got a new body
Compared to “I’m not gonna get out of here am I” 👀
And I wasn’t just going from panic to calm, my body was breaking out in hives and I couldn’t breathe
And the VA were like, “your tests results are all fine”
And I literally left a voicemail screaming at patient advocacy that I was about to fucking die and that I needed a new care team but then I found out that if I got a prescription outside of the VA that the VA would cover it so you know
oh did I tell you I went to church Sunday?
I have energy again
So I’ve been doing vinegar foot soaks for 10 to 15 minutes three times a day now
🎃🎃🎃
Apparently you can drink vinegar as a tonic too so I’m about to be drinking in it, not just bathing in it (and I’m doing facial tonics and even ear swabs)
I find white distilled vinegar works best
I mix it with water
Half and half but you should do stuff based on your own skins tolerance
But don’t ever put vinegar directly on your skin because it’s acid and it will burn so you need to dilute it
Don’t get it in your fucking eyeballs or anything
Apparently you can do a scalp soak and it will cure dandruff 👀
However, it can dry out your hair but I’m gonna be giving it a go! Dip dip!
Just change blood bath to vinegar bath (put 1 to 2 cups in yer bathwater if you want your skin to feel soft as a baby again, soak for 10 – 15 minutes in lukewarm water a few times a week – skin not hair)
I have also learned you can use it as a deodorant and mix it with like lemon water
Seriously, it will kill any kind of foot fungus or order too
Sentinel and witchy
Who knew it was gonna take vinegar for me to breathe again 👀
An apple a day
Still learning the big lessons
Feeling better but I hope it’s not that little burst of energy you get before you die
It took a weird ad about a home remedy foot soak to get me cured
And no, the water did not change a weird funky color
My skin immediately began to improve
And then my breathing
My lungs are clearing up 👀
My heart is feeling anew
I don’t know what to tell you
A fucking weird ad saved my life
And I was reading article after article about black holes and the multiverse at 2 am – it was one of then weird click-bait type ads you see
I didn’t click it or anything
It’s just a bunch of them ads you see following an article when you’re reading comments about something
And I’m not exaggerating about going into anaphylactic shock or the fact that I was actually nearing my mysterious death
Clearly needed a detox
I need to go shopping for the other ingredients to start drinking it so I’ll let you know how the drink goes
Again, if you don’t mix this shit right you can burn yourself
But my body has had nothing but positive response
And until I feel like I’ve expelled the devil, I will continue the routine of vinegar soaks, even if not as frequent
I love how baby soft my skin is again
And the fact that I can breathe again
Without a machine 👀
Edgar Allan Poe and John Jones are my spirit guides
John was a Mormon so they probably used vinegar to clean everything
Oh my fucking God, stop the press, I’ve been called a whore again. 👀
He’s mad at me and now using that disgusting piece of shit ex of mine as a bomb to hurt me *rolls eyes* 🙄
Mark did scam me out of a lot of things, but my real love and heart he never got. He kept my pussy dry literally. Keep reading on to learn more 👀
(I went no contact from Mark – he posted on my blog when he got back with one of his exes, I didn’t go to The Chameleons blog – he came to mine. He’s a narcissist and I’d gone no contact but he was desperate for me to know – he’s desperate for me to love him. I don’t. I can’t stand Mark Burgess. He’s the plague and I want NOTHING to do with him. He never pays taxes, he lives rent free off the women he abuses. He’s a scumbag and writing music doesn’t give you the right to do the monstrous things he has done and continues to do. He’s a menace and needs burned at the stake, along with all the books and music. Erased from history is the only ending he deserves. Of course, he leads everyone to believe that the women are the problem even tho it’s the women running from HIM. And he moves from one relationship to the next. Claims true love every time. He taste like death. 🤮🤮🤮
I did a runner from Mark Burgess because he is the plague and you should stay far the fuck away from him.
I don’t like or love him.
I couldn’t even get sexually off from him
I couldn’t even get wet down there 😑
I don’t like Mark Burgess
I don’t love Mark Burgess
And you don’t get to act like you’re my best friend and then turn around and call me a whore just because I have a political fucking opinion about what’s going on in the world and I actually have a right to say something about what’s going on in the world because I’ve actually served my fucking country you piece of shit
Look at all this charming smooth talk via PM tho. You always wanted me to chat with yah, never did/would tho. Hell, you invited me into your home and offered to pay for my hotel.
But now publicly suddenly I am one of the worst things ever and a whore and I’m selling my body on the cheap
🧐
👇👇👇👇
👀
I never did give him what he wanted though- my time or my friendship and now look at him calling me a whore 👀 from inviting me and paying for my hotel to calling me a fucking whore 👀
He says I think the world owes me everything and I’m selling my body “on the cheap”
👀
But he was just inviting to pay for my fucking hotel room
👀
Now I’m a whore and he’s siding with that piece of shit Mark 👀
I am called a whore / you’d give me your dinner?
For the record, I don’t need anyone paying my hotel bills when I travel, I do that on my own.
I normally stay with my best friend who is a female – I’ve visited her in England twice staying with her 2 weeks on each visit.
I also helped with food and the electric and left her some moneyzzz cuz I’m not a complete bum.
She did not ask me to do this. Flights anywhere are expensive – and I’m happy to stay with my REAL FRIENDS when I visit if they invite me.
I’m not rich nor ever have been.
I was not born with a silver spoon.
I’ve always had to work 3 jobs to make ends meet.
I do not feel bad or guilty for stripping to eat or pay my bills.
You don’t get to invite me into your life and then call me a whore after and not get sandblasted.
He was always denied tho – as you can see – I don’t talk to anyone.
Prime example why
They all want to fuck me for free
Yet I’m called cheap
👀
Yea, I’m the problem clearly
Fuck off now
Run back to Mark Burgess
You’re both twats
Stop acting like you don’t have a porn addiction or that you are all holy and can call me your friend and then a “whore” (but only after you offered to pay for my hotel – I wasn’t a whore when you were offering to pay for my visit)
Never even had the desire to meet you – let alone for you to pay for my hotel.
“Whore” yup m’kay why? Because I do cosplay? Because I take off my clothes now during a pandemic because I’m disabled and need to pay my bills and we are in a RECESSION?
Because I blew through my life savings trying to stay afloat?
Because the jobs I was working paid under minimum wage and I have a college degree but can’t find work in my field due to the recession/furloughs/hiring freezes?
And those minimum wage jobs are taxed like hell and barely support cost of living (COLA) which is why people work multiple jobs to stay afloat?
Because they can’t save one fucking penny to get ahead.
Because nobody wants to actually support me or my dreams because they all want to “be my friend” so they can fuck me?
When I don’t want to fuck anybody –
Because I want to make babies with the love of my life and he recently bought me pizza?
Because I’m not actually a whore and there’s nothing wrong with sex workers.
I don’t actually “sell my body” 🧐
I don’t think anyone can actually “sell their body”. 🤔
If you mean “perform sex acts”, that isn’t anything I’m actually doing.
It’s called burlesque but I’m not very good.
I like to cosplay and roleplay tho cuz being an actor was always my dream, I still audition for parts (even reality TV shows), and I love getting to play dressup cuz I was always a Soldier/tomboy.
I don’t think what I am doing is sinful.
I’m trying to understand who I am as a human and a woman.
Not the part or role that everyone else wants me to play.
What I’m doing now is what I’ve always wanted to do.
Writing, photography, cosplay, guitar, it’s my thang.
The feedback I’ve been getting on my OnlyFans has improved my overall health and mental status / self-esteem.
I would say the feedback I have received has been priceless to my growth as a human and an artist.
There’s a lot of value on my OnlyFans and I’m trying to get better at my cosplay and my photography and I think it shows.
I appreciate your good feedback, your comments, likes, tips, gifts and subscriptions!
I also GREATLY appreciate the support on my Patreon as well!
I don’t need permission as a writer or a blogger to share my life journey with you – I’ve opted to include the ups and downs – I don’t need to write an essay explaining why I chose to be vaccinated – I don’t need to include my education or my credentials for any of this.
I don’t owe you anything.
I’ve paid the costs of living this life and I don’t need your mockery.
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