I don’t want to leave
So he puts poison on the spoon
I have a heart to grieve
I hope it fails me soon
© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal
Going in for dose 2 of Moderna today against my better judgment. Dose 1 made my blood pressure drop really low, my heart has been struggling to pump blood throughout my body (why I’ve been feeling so cold) because my heart is struggling to circulate (it’s only caring about my main organs) – oh wait – not dying yet. Or am I? 🤔
Not gonna lie, I’m freaking out in the most calm way. Through crying. More stress my petite heart does not need.
Gonna die naked on the street outta pure madness.
I’m losing me mind.
And my heart is weak.
I just wanted to be somebody’s favorite just once in my life.
I wanted to feel wanted and loved.
I don’t and never have.
Because I’m not anybody’s favorite.
I only have my therapist to confide in.