why did you put me here
stuck in the earth
my legs hurt
exploring the dark with lanterns
sin as wide as caverns
but not all these patterns
thanks for coming, but I really, really want out
my map, it must have the wrong route?
my brother heard me shout
it’s getting hot
i must be in the worst spot
i thirst a lot
i had a little hope
tied to a pulley on a rope
send prayers to the pope
i’m going to die right here
with walls like cashmere
choking on the atmosphere
a plaque marks the place i died
the rescuers lied
they left me inside
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author note: i wrote it. but it’s not really my words. i mean they are, but not really.
i didn’t plagiarize but they do contain last words
he just kind of leaped into my soul
and i’m still coming to terms with how we’re dying
because it’s the same but not really
i think i’m having die off symptoms again and a 4th awakening
cuz im hot and sweating (pits/feet) but my body is cold and shivering
so prob hot bath soon to help the heart out
started that new “extra strong” medication
only 2 doses in with a third today
everything aches at once at times
sometimes it is localized
it attaches to your cell walls
i have a relationship with a dead boy and now more dead boys are coming to me
it’s like im dipping my toes in the afterlife and i dont wanna be there yet despite this terrible disease called society depression
nobody even wanted to attend EAP’s (Poe) funeral and now they are selling locks of his hair “for luck”
the city nor the country is safe
apparently only rich people are allowed water (like a migrant prince in Arizona)
long video: https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTLrVhfux/
“i thought i bought a forever home”
(i can’t stand gen Y voice – they all sound the same – had to watch on mute like all videos)
(there are only a few voices i like to hear)
(i don’t know what’s wrong with me)
(i know it’s me)
“i was dumber than six rocks”
tell her to get that smug look off her face and get back to her porn and go back to sleep puleaseee
i can tell she denounced God
did you see that gang carrying Riley in a bag over their heads?
they were driving near him or walking
and then carrying something over them
it took more than one person to carry whatever they were carrying
tall boy = Riley
hurt shoulder – embankment
crying – helpless / died
red face – blood on someone’s hands?
starting to piece together the puzzle of my dream of Riley (before he was found)
i can have all the pieces and still put it together incorrectly
i’m sorry i flipped on you and your friends?
i’m crazy?
i need meds?
there was mold possessing me?
i need an exorcism?
i date dead people?
(please don’t tell the therapist)
i’m aware i’m a monster?
ifAWOLcouldbeabandonedCHURCH
m’kay
heart somewhere in utah?
you felt me fall?
left a mark where i clawed?
unless that one guy i met at 27 was him but he denounced me and god and chose porn and children instead
PoeEternal 