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An update and ramble

When you’re trying to TikTok shop but the plagues notice that the audience is the same size as the host and then follow you 👀

The Host: “I’m not sure what you’re implying but if you don’t stop, I will have to mute or block you….”

Him: “she is the same size as you”

Him: randomly tags me without a message

Him: “I like your fit”

Anyhoo. I guess the romper/shrug was a hit.

I gained 1 more follower (that isn’t why I shopped for a romper tho, it’s a separate goal)

I’m waiting on the bodysuits & accessories to arrive.

Yesterday it was hot in Florida and today I need a coat.

Yesterday I would have passed out in anything but slides, shorts, and a tank.

Today I need Arctic gear 🥶

If the doctor told me, I was menopausal, I would punch him, call him a liar, and tell him to pay my electric bill.

Fortunately for me, even in my age, those words never sound.

And my body isn’t behaving in such a way, EARTH is

Stop deflecting ✋🛑✋

Oh this has happened lots over the last month or two, so thanks

This was last night…

And my hashtag over on TikTok has reached 23K

If I could stop dying long enough and figure out, how do use social media, I might could put out some better content

Not even better just effort

Like here, here’s a poem I wrote 5 years ago

How hard is it to do a soft reading and hit record?

Is it worth 200 views?

I’m totally satisfied at 1000 views. I feel it’s worth effort.

But with nearly 5k followers, it’s hard to make sense.

I’d probably be happy with 500-700 views consistently

I’d hate it even worse at zero

But yeah, I did buy some yoga sets and things to keep warm for the winter

The price was good 👍

I’m getting good feedback

There was only ONE BOY who got mad at me spending my own money on things I actually need

🤡

I gotta take my dog out again before he makes me start WW4

It can’t be that hard taking care of a hellhound but once again I found myself sobbing in front of a mirror like God was behind the other end begging “please I can’t do this… take him to heaven with you”

And then the other version of me saying “get ahold of yourself”

And I took bath number two cuz he ruined the first one and has driven me to full insanity

The heart needs the hot magnesium salt baths…

If the ego can’t get a fucking grip, we backtrack and start again

Insanity!

It’s like when you feel yourself starting to fall slowly but you can’t stop the grip

And next thing you know the wind has been knocked out of you

And the only words that surface as you lay there contemplating existence is “goT damm it” or “fuck”

These demons trying to ban curse words 🤡

Thank you so much for all the awesome feedback on my little jumper set! I think I paid six or 7 bucks for the jumper, about the same for the sweater (which I can mix n match)

He asked, “why do you wanna buy something you won’t wear”

And like…

Blazer + yoga set is definitely my style

Sorry not sorry 🤔

But the Lord answered my prayers

I can wear my blazers and loungewear together

THIS IS LIFE 🤩

(Don’t tell him about the makeup and hair products I’ve ordered)

(I’m literally dying but it’s a transformation)

I’m transforming

At least I know what sex I am 👀

I’m also shopping for guns as there’s a no license to carry law in Florida now

Trigger happy 🤩

Because I’m a Soldier

And we at war…

NEED GUNS

Shhhhhhhh

Cute but fierce?

My bag will contain more than makeup or maybe it will be a decoy 🤔

Anyhoo

My sister died

And now I’m making Chinese TikTok hosts into my sister

Sometimes I tune in just to hear them say “Ill try it on for you” but I’m one of their best customers and they help me sleep

I find shopping with them soothing

Retail therapy 🤩

But c’mon, I love this phase I’m moving into

I didn’t know I could wear my blazers with my yoga sets

But I can 🤩

Cuz he’s probably right a tiny bit

And I’ve talked to God

And prayed about what to do

And I knew I could part was some of the clothing and donate it or thrift it, but I was having a hard time wanting to part with any of my Blazers, even though I wasn’t sure where I could wear them

Turns out I can wear them anywhere anytime

Who knew 🙄

Makeover in session….

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Squander

You know what I wasted my time on?

YOU.

I only do anything for myself God.

I’m allowed to clothe myself in honor.

And fabrics of choosing.

My journey is not your journey.

My relationship with God is none yours.

I’m an angel, you’re a demon. Piss off

Too smart for your own good.

Idiot.

Devil thinks he’s winning at his own game

I’m walking away

I mean like for good

You’ll come to regret what you’ve done

But I’ll forget you just like I forgot your fucking birthday

And I’ll cast you to hell to burn for all eternity 😬

I had to get closer to bite the snakes head off and now I’m tainted

I’m setting a boundary though so I don’t open up to you about my personal life anymore so you can play shit brigade on my happies

We both know I’m a diamond in the rough and you just don’t want anybody else to get their hands on me

There’s two versions of me, the version I was and the version I want to become and somewhere in the middle there’s clothing I bought that just isn’t working out, and I am allowed to fucking dress myself

If I were seeking only validation or a shit ton of validation or validation, in general, I probably would post daily fucking videos on my goTdamn TikTok

Or weekly

Or monthly

But I’m selfish and don’t want anyone seeing the treasure in the closet

Recently, I wanted to buy an Apple Watch and I was like a GPS would be nice especially because I’m hurt and I could be watched 24 seven and I love being spied on 24 seven and then if I did get hurt I could just push a button and someone could come out or whatever but then I was more concerned that BLM would want to kidnap me because I was wearing an Apple Watch 👀

So I guess I ain’t getting a watch

But don’t tell him about all the weapons that I’m buying

That’s where the real treasure is

This is the Devil’s society where every fucking choice is a sin

I literally planned for a makeover and now he’s mad at me about it and I’m not even over with my makeover 🙄

I don’t even own a LBD (little black dress) 😲

Anyhoo

I talk to God a lot about my habits

He never makes me feel like the biggest piece of shit in the world if I fail at something

He allows me to learn

In a positive environment

I’ve been trying to grow plants and just because I’m failing doesn’t mean I’m gonna give up on growing a garden in the future..

Or continuing to learn how to manage my finances

But for the record, I follow the 50/30/20 rule as that’s what all the library books taught me when I was trying to learn about all of this and buying clothes is part of the 30 🤓

Like where am I wrong?

My bills are paid. I’m working off 2 debts. I refuse to take out any loans or credit cards.

I’m jumping ship when God signals to me “this land here” and I can become a landowner and thus figure out how to take care of the wildlife

I need to build bird a house

And give turtle 🐢 a cool area

The ark is the land

I need to fertilize the earth or something 😫

I need things to grow 😫

I’m sick of all the war death sickness and fighting

I’m dying!!!!!!!

I only get this one chance to feel things

I’m pretty much dead inside, but the clothing and heating pad was starting to give me some life

And God too 🥺

I’m part of the 244

And what’s wrong with taking care of yourself

I know you’d rather me be a crack whore without any teeth

Yea I mean I’m following the 50/30/20 rule until I’m content with the clothing

Because I don’t have too much of an addictive personality. I will course correct fairly quickly when I realize I’m going down that route.

I really think you would’ve liked what I was gonna mail you but you’re a fucking dick

Merry Christmas

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Some secrets should be taken to the grave

The story just got grosser

But whose gonna tell her that “things aren’t well down there” and it’s not from hitting a vape from the ground? 😭

This is what men like/want 😭

Women wearing sweatpants with no panties shitting themselves in the streets? 😭

She gave this info out freely? 😭

I pissed myself in the Golden corral parking lot once because I ate too much and was laughing too hard

Does that count for confession? 😭

I told my daughter to never tell anyone 😭

The panic in my voice “I’m pissing myself / it won’t stop coming out” and then my daughter nearly pissing herself from laughing too hard

I thought I would take that one to the grave with me

But since people are shitting themselves in public – and I don’t know where the rest of this story goes – I’m too disgusted with these demons in my feed

I wanted to be more like a girl 😭

Nevermind 😭

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT8PfURpr/

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Dressed

I found you again
And for once
I’m behind your lines
Like hostile enemy
Taking throne on your dime

I found you again
When I was lost
In your cold mines
Night vision on
Dressed to the nines

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RIP John Jones

So the CDC say 30% of people die from what I’ve been exposed to.

And I dunno if the medicines are working.

So that’s why things are quiet.

I may be on my 18th hour.

I probably should’ve spent 10 K on a coffin instead of a wardrobe, but that’ll be another poem.

I need to hear your voice.

Upload a poem please? But I gotta go find my note with info on how to access that part of WP.

Lost and found.

That’s where you’ll find me us?

I’m exhausted 😑

This is a fight to the end, and one of us is going to lose.

Going in for bloodwork again in December with a follow up with the doc and she gets to re-assess

I brought up the stats tho and asked was I gonna die from this and she said no.

I said, I don’t want to die from this.

And she started me on a second medication.

But the CDC say everything they are throwing at it isn’t working and same

John’s been upside down in that hole about 9 hours now.

People are dying in terrible ways

These monsters like the sounds of babies crying

I’m either dying or metamorphosing

Why not level up and join me?

Romeo?

I need out if the city – it’s so hard to get on the right frequency

Lost in hell

Do you have my wings still?

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Green

I want to make amends
I wasn’t myself back then
I’m not myself again

I wanted to be seen
Your grass is always green
Watered and serene

I want us to be friends
Pay back all dividends
I want a different lens

I want it all like queen
Not asking much it seems
But you’re like Halloween

Where darkness descends
And all my words offends
Sins multiplied by tens

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More places I linger: https://linktr.ee/poeeternal

P.S.

I hate blocks. I hate WordPress. I can’t sort out the about me page no matter what I do. Even though I pay for a plan, I’m not privy to chat support cuz it’s a personal plan.

I hate how I treated you.

Even though I wasn’t in control of myself.

I just started group therapy once a week for six months and others in group say “like” and “uhm” every other word. I’m not exaggerating.

They have zero self-awareness and the conversation makes me wanna end all existence.

People do this on social media too and I wanna jump from a bridge.

It’s so hard to engage or have compassion when all I hear is terrible speech patterns.

Helps.

You’re like a little piece of string in a dark cave I can’t let go of.

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Obituary

Would you write my obituary?
And lay to rest all the sins I carry?
For to sadness I am married
And our love it should be buried

They come
They go
It’s my fault though
Status too low
Weep like willow

You’re always on the run
Never stop running
You’re never having fun
Complain the sun is sunning

I’ve never had anything, and now I’ve got too much.
And I could lose it anytime, that’s always been my luck.

I’m sorry but I’m not
I said what I thought
Feelings come and go
Sometimes I take a shot
No matter lesson told
I say it on the spot
You know I can be cold

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People already think so lowly of me, I can’t get anymore low.

But it’s easy to judge when your grass is always green.

I’ve been on this earth unmarried for eons, it’s literally hell.

I like being naughty sometimes but I never was that naughty.

We’re literally born nude and we can’t take our clothing to heaven.

I miss doing spicy photography.

I don’t know what to tell you

I just wish I was already moved.

But I’m holding out for land instead of spending uppers of $6k to jump apartment’s.

I am overdue a new environment.

It’s hard to be inspired and motivated in a place I can’t stand.

I’ve only ever posted nude photos, never compromised myself by doing anything other than photography. Though many requests came in with $$$ offerings and I ran folks off.

I have some very cute outfits and have been working out despite growing old.

95% of my household items are gone. Either sold, donated or dumped.

Things are in boxes minus my closet.

I still sleep on the floor.

So think what you will of me, but I miss my tribe.

My accounts were active and I had a lot of traffic.

Now everything is stagnant.

I’m tired of stagnation.

I don’t see anything wrong with nude art.

It teaches me how to be a woman, something man has failed at doing.

But they gave me my username back, and that makes me feel better. 😘

I’m terrible with secrets.

I don’t know where I’m going, I just know I don’t want to be here.

Stuck in a literal black hole.

Need some routine and inspiration in my life.

Don’t even like this city.

Wanna burn all the bridges down.

Stuck in purgatory

LOST 😞

Find me at: https://linktr.ee/poeeternal

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Please

Please pick up a feather and write me a letter
Please open your eyes and bring us sunrise
Please do right a wrong and don’t take very long
Please deliver fall and give me a call

Copyright © 2023 Delia Ross /@poeeternal. All rights reserved.

So this guy turned 12 on Saturday. Mostly a good boy. He hates the neighborhood and I don’t blame him one bit. There’s nothing to like. We wanna move. He’s trying to make it to 13. And despite the ups and downs, I didn’t give up on him. Tribulations.

I contacted my mom on my birthday. She was happy to hear from me. She said she loved me but I never said it back.

Just wanted her to know I made it to 45.

She also kept bringing up my sister who died and I also never responded about her.

She wants to see me so I might be getting a visitor this year.

Maybe.

P.S. I’m obsessed with Pinko blazers and clothing and getting a new wardrobe. Never wore a blazer in my life and now I got a weeks worth. Even got a Beetlejuice looking one. Cuz.

I may or may not share my new wardrobe at some point. Doing it for me and no one else. Not dressing for views. But it kills the blues (shopping).

People want me posting more but it’s so much work and I can’t break 300 views.

I think I’m just exhausted in all areas of life and would rather sit outside. It’s hard for me to connect.

I’m literally dead inside.

No empathy, no sympathy.

Pissed off at the world.

Just talk to God mostly. Cry. Pray. Regret. And then practice gratitude.

I am grateful for my closet.

For owning clothing I wanna wear.

But I don’t wanna go anywhere.

Time to just be dressy cuz.

“What’s the occasion?”

“We’re in hell and I’m alive….”

Can’t take nothing with me to heaven.

Would be 10x happier if I moved somewhere the mold wasn’t killing me.

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I still don’t know what’s growing

They weren’t looking too hot so I rehoused them

I still don’t know what’s growing aside from the Forget Me Nots that are slowly dying

I’m trying not to kill them

Too much sun, not enough water

Who fucking knows. But they all got a new house to stretch out their roots – which weren’t looking bad. I added magnesium salt cuz we all need it in our lives.

Someone said don’t get attached to your plants but I haven’t learned that yet.

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Judged (poems)

Better to be judged by 12 than carried by 6
And your enemy won’t let you forget
You remember this?
You remember that?
The enemies on my throne
He’s wearing my damn hat!

You can’t unbreak the broken
Take back words spoken
The spell in your eyes
The holes that you hide

They were bred to kill and steal
I’m behind the wheel
Driving full speed
And it ain’t you’re automobile

Bred to kill and steal
Like they made the Devil’s deal
I will send you back to hell
That’s the real ordeal

When one door closes
Nail a board over it
Plant some roses
Don’t submit

The fury inside me
Hot as the sun
The fury inside me
Someone’s gonna burn

You can’t escape from prison
Until you realize you’re in one
Like the Devil’s maze
Calling shotgun

Remove yourself
Put your tail between your legs
And get some help
Support withheld
Look in mirror and do foretell
We’re parallel
The way your lies do spin
You’re a carousel

I’m gone
Fucking replace me
Won’t let you face me
I’m racing
Dust in cloud
I’m hasty
Like laced lace
Revenge is tasty

Too cold to care
Fuck me with I dare
You build despair
And I linger there

Sometimes I think I’m talking to a ghost
And he’s dropping breadcrumbs
Like he’s the one that I love most
But I’m still hungry…

Regret will eat you alive
Nightmares become visions you wear

We are going forward in reverse
Like the truth makes it hard for the knowing
Or where we’re actually going
Like living in a hearse
The spell is his verse
And try to break this curse
It’s poison that we’re sowing

My parents ruined my life
They only sought to bring me strife
Smile at me then stab me in my back
Complain it’s God I lack

Say I’m full of darkness
Laugh at me regardless
I wish my parents were dead
I’d piss on their grave instead

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Already being trolled by a Boomer cuz my student loans were forgiven that he thinks I should pay so he can enjoy his retirement at GEN X expense

College was a scam met with government furloughs and hiring freezes

Government programs favor giving our best jobs to the immigrants cuz they work harder and are smarter (according to their accord)

I’m aware only X amount of people will qualify for student loan forgiveness

And I should keep secrets to myself

But a reporter know-it-all on TikTok said you’d get an email from the Department of Education if you qualified.

I haven’t received any emails at all

I’m not even certain if I paid anything on my loans or just kept them in good standing

Cuz I’ll get it paid back if I did and will need to pay taxes on it again, like I won the damn lottery – and it would probably put me in a different tax bracket

I’ll worry about that toilet clogging when it clogs

I’ve only just received two letters informing me that my debts were cancelled and that my obligation to pay them is over. Tell the Boomers to deal with it.

My loan providers are no longer allowed to contact me, according to the letters.

The weight is off my shoulders but the worry lines remain…

I’ve been in fight or flight mode so long now I don’t know how to shut it off and just be.

My birthday is next month, on the 19th

I’ve already spoiled myself

I have goals of paying off my 2 credit cards and buying some land not land locked and far far away from a city of despair and demons

I want it to take 15 minutes to walk to my mailbox times two squared

I need an umbrella, not for the rain but for the sun

People will look at me like I’m crazy

Byeee

My student loans were forgiven despite the Boomers wishes…
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Trouble

I got in trouble
For being nice
I guess the good girl
Gets sacrificed

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Double penalized on TikTok for leaving a positive review.

Gotta walk on eggshells to avoid a ban.

TikTok rewarded me with a $15 coupon for the ass beating tho.

Then during the live chat to figure out WHY I’m in the doghouse, I was nearly booted for inactivity after being asked to wait 2-3 minutes to sort it…

Damned if I do, damned if I don’t

Ah reward

But the 15 dollar coupon helped…

I was pretty heated after taking time to review and upload photos to help support my review as it’s allowed – only to get penalized for giving a 5* rating…

It’s hell down here…

I bought a romper from the TikTok shopping

And some other things. Better photos when/if I stop breaking out in hives. 🙂

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Halo

I can see your halo
Far beyond the payload
Where you might implode
Your sanity erode

I can see your halo
Written in lost code
Changing course the road
Where you rest below

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The unsinkable Titan

Photo doesn’t belong to me but neither does my hard-earned money.

And I’m finding my most viral videos uploaded on YouTube without my permission, without any payment, without any request of use, without any way to message or contact those using my work, without having downloads turned on for anyone to use at will.

I film a particular way – when I’m shooting the sea, or whatever I’m filming.

It’s all a fucking shitshow and I need 100k followers or something to turn ‘tips’ on.

Recently someone wanted to send me $200 – but they also have invited me to ‘live free’ at one of their condos they own.

Nothing about my life sounds safe or too good to be true.

Furthermore, I had to delete my PayPal, Cash App, and Venmo accounts due to spam and whatnot cuz not even my money is safe.

Banks are shutting down. Billionaires are being offed or are maniacally suicidal risk takers, at the expense of our tax dollars.

I’m not even certain if the IRS is legal.

And the Lie House is funneling our money to criminals in the Ukraine and God knows where else.

I finally put a work order in to service the AC for mold.

Cuz maintenance is always “I don’t smell any mold” but I’m fucking still breaking out in hives, either from a nervous fucking breakdown or actual moldy conditions not noticeable “it’s in the walls” reviews will say…

And I haven’t smoked any weed since May – so I’m past the two week window but it takes a minimum of 4 months to recover from CUD (Cannabis User Disorder) and I still have brain fog.

I’m doing a lot of cleaning tho – and I actually do my laundry and put it away immediately, a slight miracle to not be sleeping next to clean clothes.

I still have no furniture and sleep on the floor and I made another clothing purchase – albeit I slept on the decision first – like I nearly always do.

And even tho the flash code of 25% had already ended, it was still valid further sealing the deal.

I’m obsessed with Dolls Kill boutique and hunt down the cotton stuff, though have bought a few cute sets that were poly blends.

I also got house thangs and shoes which I’ll likely never wear and will stay in the box…

I’m pushing myself to go skating despite the hives and nervous breakdowns.

I bought bath rugs and kitchen oven mits from DK – cuz obsessed

And sales + discount codes on top of sales

You should see the jogger set’s I’ve scored and maybe one day you will

I think I’m looking less hideous than my recent TikTok posts but at least I’m not lying on the bottom of the seafloor in pieces.

So there’s that.

It feels nice getting things in the mail other than spam and bills.

I can’t opt out of the spam and the US post office is selling our data, just like I learned Papa John’s was doing – so I deleted my account (like 2 or 3 years ago) and basically stopped supporting big business.

I should be allowed to order pizza without my data being sold.

I hate (even worse) how society is ran now.

All the pencil dick dictator leaders brownnosing Big China – who wants to nuke us and have us live in fear 24/7

I had another nightmare last night, this time trying to escape zombies.

I’ve not been watching any horror movies or zombie things.

My nightmares always consist of me trying to escape something and finding myself in a closure I cannot escape.

Whether it be a room with no windows or doors, or something else. It’s always the climax I wake up on.

Have to reassure myself, “pew, it was only a dream”

I was consistently going down – hills – roads – grass – indoor walkways at incredible speeds all while trying to avoid the numerous zombies coming after me.

My dreams are always fucking nightmares…

It doesn’t help that the Devil is always after me when I’m awake

I hope I leave the house for something other than food or doctors visits of medical malpractice

Maybe to do something within the community like church or skating

But then I risk the chance of catching Covid or some other disease being spread with malicious intent and purpose

People are always coughing

I literally roll up my car window when I hear a bystander or another rider coughing

My immune system was compromised

I just wanna be home

But this don’t feel like home

It feels like a deathtrap

Just like the unsinkable Titan

TITANic

I take a shit ton of vitamins like immunity support supplements that I have to order from a different country cuz everything is poisoned here

I’m trying to fix my eating habits

And I’m still obsessed with his stories

Which are probably responsible for my nightmares

(I blame war FYI)

My laundry is almost done and I’m craving a shopping dopamine boost

“We have everything we need bb”

“I know but I really want it”

“Okay but this is the last time”

“I’m almost done getting the things I need and at least I’m spending less”

“We get paid soon again”

*sigh*

“Okay but just one more thing…”

I got rid of everything in my life cuz I hated it and told myself we could replace it with things we want/need

I’m in replacement mode but refuse to buy a bed or furniture until I move

The neighbors make me wanna do bad things

The city drives me insane

The entire earth could be Eden but naw, invasive species left and right

“This country was founded on immigration” and they vote with malicious intent and purpose

I may like your stories but I know you voted for Biden and I want to punch you

I’m still homicidal and suicidal but I’m no longer signing waivers

For anything…

Made in hell
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OceanGate received $450K in pandemic PPP loans to cover payroll costs

OceanGate received $450K in pandemic PPP loans to cover payroll costs
— Read on www.msn.com/en-us/money/other/oceangate-received-450k-in-pandemic-ppp-loans-to-cover-payroll-costs/ar-AA1cWYT4

That’s some fucking bullshite. Stole money from the civilians pockets to fund a future murder/death.

CEO wouldn’t even hire experts. I’m annoyed and angry!!! Voting means absolute shite. This government is nihilistic!!!!!! Satan’s society!!!! Over it!!!!

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The Lie House (The Titan saga)

The Lie House – I mean White House was notified and knew that the explosion was heard and happened on Sunday – yet drug us along – giving us false hope and sensationalized the story – probably as a false flag while other pressing issues were happening – they gave us false hope of a recovery mission knowing damn well the explosion was the Titan and that they were dead

Furthermore this…

Forward Starboard (a poem)

Left and right might be forward and back
Right is forward
Rotate controller
Left is back

Skill issue tbh

Basically something was installed backwards and people in the Titan were stuck and the solution was to reprogram the controller and the guy in the sub said he needed to write this all down

Had to turn the controller sideways to drive the sub

There were so many issues with the unsinkable Titan

But for the Lie House to drag us along is bullshite

THEY KNEW THE EXPLOSION WAS THE TITAN ON SUNDAY

Yet we all worried they were down there suffering or potentially could be rescued

The GoT damn gaslighting this administration does

Urzlutxlutdlutuljg lufzhfxlutxlljgxyrxjfxuxxdo lutzxgi

I’m highly emotionally invested in this saga

Even though our government is funneling money to Ukraine and approving lab grown meats or some shite

I need to disassociate from politics and turn my cheek to the unsinkable Titan

Hopefully I can write a better poem than the one above which is basically word for word nearly of the insanity unfolding about the Titan

I was convinced they were dead Sunday when coms suddenly stopped but they convinced me otherwise that hope might be near the vicinity when they knew damn well of an explosion

“We hear banging sounds every 30 minutes”

Fucking criminals need to be hung *insert something* from the tallest tree

I was convinced they were dead on Sunday when coms were lost but noooooo they made me doubt myself when I knew

They withheld pertinent details about the case

We’re living in a manmade hell

Putsutclutzlurzuzyrjv ufzfsluruslyr

That’s all…

I did more shopping and more cleaning and that’s basically how my Friday went

I found a skate center AND CALLED

So hopefully I’m closer to my goal and once I go it’ll be hard to stop

Just gotta make that first step

Admission is like $8 bucks I think but I only inquired about hours and if I could bring my own skates…

I might even get a piece of cardboard pizza cuz who goes skating without eating the junk food?

I haven’t been skating since I was a kid/teenager and tbh don’t know why I stopped doing the things I love

They even have “adult night” which goes til late but I’d rather go during daylight

Nothing good ever happens after dark…

P.S. they died in fear – don’t be fooled by “there was no pain” – they absolutely felt pain briefly – and the cracking was enough to put fear mode on

The goal is to not die in fear

Pain is inevitable

Unless you’re lucky enough to go in your sleep

P.S.S. Here’s a TikTok video from where I grabbed those screenshots: https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT8JpJ8gh/

I hope I can come up with a better poem or maybe him…

P.S.S.S. I wish some of my neighbors were on the bottom of the sea…

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The son didn’t want to go…

Y’all the son was terrified to go – didn’t want to go – didn’t listen to his intuition – only wanted to bond with his dad – as the trip fell on Father’s Day weekend – he died in fear – as if it couldn’t be anymore heartbreaking

The parents first priority should have been keeping him safe

They could have bonded over dinner and a movie – it shouldn’t take extreme events to form a bond with your parents

My God…

Gut wrenching

Bless his heart

He was only 19 – a teenager – and the frontal lobe doesn’t fully form until age 25

He was just a kid…

A young man just getting into manhood

Not quite an adult yet

And fuck anyone who says otherwise

NINETEEN – TEEN – TEENAGER

How fucking dense are you?

I think those little red flags are messages from God – our intuition – that gut feeling

That we all seem to ignore

And often it cost us our lives

He shouldn’t have been allowed to go on an unregulated experimental deep dive sub – with zero experience

He didn’t even want to go…

And, there’s a video of the CEO bragging that you would hear “creaking sounds” and alarms warning if the hull would implode

You shouldn’t have to risk your life to get the love and care you need from a parent

As if, I couldn’t hate parents even more…

The aunt said he had a “terrible feeling” so sad

Parents aren’t worth dying for

And now they’ll never bond again

He died in fear, I know he did

His dad likely didn’t give a fuck about his kid – or his safety

Making him sign all those waivers…

Peer pressure

Fuck everything…

“Why do you care about the kid”

BECAUSE I DO

People aren’t worth dying for

Listen to your intuition

Little messages from God

Or 6000+ years of evolution

But he was smart enough to know something was off…

He kept crawling in that hole – for others

Only his hole was a sealed up tin can

And yeah, you absolutely feel the pain of being blown up – you do – even if it goes fast – you experience hell

That tin can started making all kinds of noise

He died in fear

19… just a fucking baby

Meanwhile, some elder just turned 100…

ONE HUNDRED

There are many ways I don’t want to die.

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Worse Case Scenario

Worse case scenario
Not the way to go
But it happened so
12,000 feet below

Vessel or coffin?
You be the judge then

The hope is very thin
And little stretched within
Hope is not high
It’s barely surfacing

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They’re starting to find debris from the unsinkable Titan…

I don’t think a teenager is capable of mitigating the risk involved.

This comment is terrible but why did I laugh? Like damn….

People absolutely hate billionaires. The comments unfolding…

It’s safe to say, they’re no longer suffering.

I haven’t slept in days so probably some spelling mishaps.

I’ve slept a little that were filled with tossing and nightmares.

Grateful to still be fighting for my life. Having shoppers guilt and I don’t understand why.

Mostly think “what’s the point, will I even live long enough to enjoy it”

Followed by “my sister died at 45, buy the stuff”

Followed by “we could be dead tomorrow so what’s the point”

Followed by “I really want it”

Followed by “I know”

Why am I having buyers guilt? Not remorse? Cuz I do not regret anything in my closet.

I mostly regret being sick and dying…

I told myself I’ll stop shopping eventually

LIKE WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO DO

I’m not even doing it for views…

It’s the first time I’ve ever owned clothing I actually like

I’m no longer spending hundreds of dollars monthly on medicinal that made me worse

And I know I need to move but it ain’t happening overnight

Long ago I could pack up and drive around, look at a few places, and get a key

It’s no longer that easy or affordable

I’ll likely be just as miserable and my AC is probably full of mold

Putting a work order in…

Rent increase in August but it’s still 3 or 4 times cheaper than a 1 bedroom elsewhere

Damned if I do, damned if I don’t

And I did get new carpet here

I’m just gonna keep fixing it up

Until I have land + a tent

But there’s cracks in the ceiling

CRACKS IN THE CEILING

I fear sinkholes

Also Florida is in hurricane season nearly again

I’ve lived through THREE hurricanes here

2 of them I lost power over a week…

In the summer heat…

I’m sure that’s excellent for moldy conditions

And Wolfy hasn’t shown her face since I screamed bloody murder twice

She probably wanted me to feed her like I do the other house spider

I have terrible arachnophobia

I’m pretty much scared of everything

I think she’s gonna have babies and need to relocate the sack

But she’s guarding it

This isn’t going as planned and I keep feeding her

I’m turning into a witch and Halloween commences August 31st this year – hopefully still alive to wear my cute Halloween themed outfits (throughout XMAS)

Clothing gives me a reason to live

Do other people feel guilty spending money on things they want and need?

I did say I wanted to start over and got rid of 95% of my belongings which I hated and brought me zero joy

It sucks because I have zero family or friends to confide in

I have to be my own best friend and say “baby girl buy it”

And then I thank myself and God and God and God when I do…

Cuz I’m grateful but ain’t allowed to let my neighbors know…

Any time I drive I bless my car and thank her

Do other people talk to spiders and machines?

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Last Breaths

Taking their last breaths now
And hope
I don’t know how
But will they ever be found?

They didn’t even glimpse the thing they died for…

Or are dying for currently

The only up-to-date realtime updates was a page of ads and a “download app to read more…”

Journalism is dead

The Internet has died

So I’ll stick with my TikTok newsfeed

Everyone is a fucking submarine expert now

Jesus it’s awful how they’re dying

I preferred thinking they died via implosion

Being buried alive is literally the worst way to go

Maybe someone had a watch with a little light….

Still it’s not promising

I’m so distraught I had to disassociate during the night

I don’t do anything to disassociate with anymore

No alcohol, no drugs

Does the hull implode when the o2 is completely gone?

The less they have the quicker it goes?

I need answers we will likely never have

We had laws that existed for a long time that protected people from doing stupid shit

Now anyone can sell anything anywhere

And they are hiring psychopaths who are damaging our food supply

This country was founded on immigration!!!!!!!!

I’m sick of it all!

I hated watching everyone do what the Boomers told them to do when I was 5

Boomers hold most of House and sold America out long ago

“Sins of the fathers”

Florida no longer requires a carry permit

Pro 2A

Armed and dangie…

That CEO was able to convince a few that his unsinkable submarine was the safest vehicle of all vehicles

Delusional

Lots of evidence coming out to support this

Narcissism is a plague

A drowning man will drown another

That teenager who was only 19 – hence TEENager should not been allowed to go

The Titanic should be left alone as a gravesite

Otherwise, let’s go see John Jones!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Think of the $$$$$$$$$ to be made

People have lost their souls

Fuck everything

Miracles don’t exist

Just dumb luck

I liked the idea better of thinking they went quickly, as cold as it sounds

96 hours of regret in something you can’t get out of

Sealed in

Naw, not worth dying for to see the dead

They failed their risk assessment

And that kid didn’t have the frontal lobe developed fully to weigh such consequence

Sometimes sheer luck saves you

Sometimes

I think God can save your soul but he doesn’t intervene with freewill

Some people escape death through circumstance, sheer will and luck

I don’t want to burn in hell cuz the Boomers are leading the world off a cliff

FUCK CHINA

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Question (and poem)

How does a battery work in the cold?

That tin can submarine was electric

The CEO stated in an interview, the battery was being worked on, so he didn’t want to turn it on, right before he tossed the controller

The battery died? Not the controller battery but the main?

So they would’ve lost buoyancy and sunk to the bottom

They’re not floating in the middle

They’re either top or bottom

I just have a bad feeling about all this

So poem…

The risk doesn’t outweigh the reward
They’re stuck on the sea floor
With nothing to explore
I wonder what they’re living for

They may not be gone yet, but time is nearly out…

It’s either up or down, there’s no middle ground…

This thing spells bad luck, many don’t give a fuck…

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More chitter chat cuz squirrel is my spirit animal

Grateful to have a floor to stretch out on

New bed when I move, that’s the deal

Meanwhile, more clothes were bought today.

Just a few…

And… the face serum I’m using from Victoria Health, is actually improving my skin tone, some of the weathered spots aren’t as dark – but I woke up to a nasty comment – in which I immediately blocked user – he stated, “nothing worth moaning about”

First off, I moan about everything

Secondly, the vitamins are saving my life

And my skin has improved

So will likely get something for my hair and body next, as I learned most shampoo and conditioner causes hair loss…

And that missing package cost a pretty penny

The mailman didn’t even put the correct term as it stated it was left with an individual, which meant some motherfucker stole my package

Turns out it was in the lockbox, and I wasn’t given the key

I shook hands with the mailman and all was forgiven

But I lit a fire under the post offices ass and it was a pain in the ass filing out that declaration of honor for the UK – but I was happy to email VH back and say package found!!!

It’s my party and I’ll cry if I want to…

They have about 9 hours of air remaining

That robot submarine they are sending down, can’t bring them up, only help get them unstuck if they’re stuck

I think it’s safe to say they’re stuck regardless

But some answers will be nice

Have they imploded?

Are they still alive?

What an expensive way to die

Honestly, I’m hoping for the best

I learned another sub was saved with only 12 minutes remaining

But they weren’t on the sea floor

I don’t know if they gave us false hope just to $$$$$ use more resources and bill the government whom the tax payers will pay

This is coming out of our pockets, this rescue/recovery

RIP John Jones

The experts are trained to not become a casualty

They don’t do shit…

But sit on the clock $$$$

Time/energy is $$$

And I ain’t Einstein…

They say don’t eat late at night but it’s when I’m most hungry…

I’m HUNGRY

And I can’t stop thinking about that damn electric submarine – I mean submersible

He was invested in his electric toys

He was in debt

A drowning man will drown another

If a Baby Boomer jumped from a bridge would you follow

Wait, that’s not how it goes

If a boomer led you off a cliff, would you follow…

Wait… I forget how it goes…

5 bucks says that CEO is a boomer…

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Astronomical (poem)

It’s astronomical odds
To be saved
I hear no applauds
At the depths they braved

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Free speech, prayer, and rage…

Their oxygen levels run out 7 am Thursday morning – 96 hours was all they had

Maybe shouldn’t have brought the teenager

Wonder if they’ve panicked and used up O2 or remained calm, if still alive…

So much effort to find and save the crew

It’d be an absolute miracle and maybe one we need

I feel so bad for them, I do

But my go-to is to get angry when someone dies or is dying

The audacity

To die on my watch

I don’t deal with death well at all

Sometimes I go silent

Sometimes I laugh

Mostly I get angry

And then cry…

I can’t imagine being stuck in that tin can

He swore no matter what happened it was safe

Lying and gaslighting should be illegal

I fucking hate this world

Demons everywhere

No wonder I’m so miserable

And was before I was born

I had awareness

Understood language

I didn’t want to be born

All my life tragically suicidal

They’ve made assisted suicide legal in Canada

Folks getting approved for anything

Nihilistic environment

Nihilistic government

Separation from God

Science is nihilism

My heart is so heavy for them, in that tuna can

One person said, “they have no water” followed by “it’s dripping with condensation”

*rolls eyes

They all took a sandwich and bottle of water

And if the tuna can is dripping with condensation – uhm – drinky?

At least they have a toilet with a view they can’t see through

I’m not getting any sleep tonight

Bless

The ocean terrifies me

I got my kitchen tidied up and plan to shop for God grown foods soon – hopefully not poisoned

Need some comforting homemade soup

Glad to have feet on ground

And able to keep moving

Not ready to die

I am breathing deeper now, like can get air to my belly

Must focus on the gains

The fact that I can take deep breath’s again

Terrified to do anything cuz people are unhinged and insane

My neighbors make me want to commit some crimes

Without remorse

The will it takes to not snap

All these monster men killing their children and family but keeping the mom alive – for revenge

Need hung immediately

Narcissism is a plague

But these monsters need to be rid of the earth

Let’s start with Chyna

And the de-lites

Bless their hearts, the ones lost at sea

The regret they must feel

The anger

The delusional CEO is probably convinced they will be found

Probably will gaslight them until the end

It will be nothing short of a miracle if they are found alive

I don’t know what lessons God has for us here

We have freewill

I don’t know why John kept crawling in that fucking hole

“I thought I was somewhere else on the map”

“I thought it would open up”

Panic – he was thinking and he was given an incorrect map

That section should have been blocked off after two boys got trapped inside

I’m just so fucking mad!!!!

At the nurses, at the doctors, at the Chinese!!!!!!!!!!

Don’t want any of them in my feed!!!!

Give them angry looks when I’m out and about!!!!

IDGAF

The first Bible can be traced back to Asia

You think I’m gonna smile at the Devil!!!

I have fury!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stop micromanaging me!

Stop hacking me!!!!!

Fuck off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have you ever seen lightning on the ocean?

P.S. I think earth was a frozen planet, we maybe hit another planet and was pushed closer to the Sun’s orbit, things melted – but why is this never discussed in science?

And does science take into account that objects are closer than they appear – with those mirrors they use to peer?

I’m telling you, the math is fucking wrong

The darkness can act as a mirror

And the famous speech from the moon happened on earth

Aliens aren’t real

Area 51 is where they rehearsed the moon landings

Aliens aren’t real

It’s American propaganda

Most “alien sightings” happen in America

The dumbest nation

Thanks to China

Ch ch chyna can burn in hell

For all eternity

Our enemy is Asia

And most disease comes from Africa

And white people are less prone to disease

White slavery is real

The Great race war is real

I wanna fuck them up

You don’t know the dreams I have

The nightmares….

I was touched by lightning once

God scares me but the Devil don’t

WEAK CHARACTERS – wake up!!!

Get right with God

The great judgment is coming…

Hell is already here

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Sunk (poetry)

I am absolutely invested emotionally in this lost submarine

So poetry…

All the money in the world won’t save them
And there’s banging from the deep, there’s mayhem
All the prayers for them now, feel like a sunken gem
Who do we fault, who do we condemn?

“It has one button, that’s it”
Says the narcissist

5 are dead or dying
While some are crying
Other’s are denying
Trouble underlying

Remote
Like our love
A breach in hull
Shipwrecked is soul

Crushed is hope
But do you know the scope
An uncertified submarine
Nightmare or dream?

Dark waters turn crimson
But no one will listen
When you hear the cries
The thunder in the skies
The dead have gone missing
They were on a mission
Straight to extinction
Race against affliction

It’s a dead giveaway
You’re going to die today

Sorrows sorrows prayers
The state of affairs
Endless nightmares
Electric chairs
Tell me someone cares

You need to leave but you’re not free to go
The cop combo

Never get on the bad side of a good girl
You will see her form
Like hail in storm
She ain’t lukewarm

I need to focus on the gains
And not the mishaps
Sometimes I think I’ve gone insane
But no one gives a crap

He’s like driving on a floating road
And I ain’t going slow

He’s like riding in a truck without breaks
That’s the speed it takes

Walking in the underground
I’m a ghost and he is the crowd

“Loose lips
Sink ships”

It’s unfortunate
The people who need help
Can’t be helped

It’s always the same color crayon
The same con
The Devil’s spawn
Hanging on my lawn
So they get a yawn
Wish they’d move on
Back to Babylon
Where they’re coming from
Fucking hate them all

I wish I had no father
Why even bother
Poison like still water
I wish I had more honor

Why does the sun
Travel in a straight line
Like your lines
From pen to mind

He hits on his own reflection
He’s gaslighting every direction
He says he loves with affection
He’s in love with his own perfection

Some need more than one chance
To change the circumstance
Don’t want the last dance

Michael Leavitt deserves to crawl into a hole he can’t get out of
As below, so above

I’m just barely existing
Time is ticking
Grave persisting
Death resisting

I don’t want realistic
Fuck sadistic
I’m humanistic
Ain’t optimistic

I must be dead inside
Soul paralyzed
Know not to cry

She’s not me
Still do I slide into her clothes
Like midnight over moon
I am all
And I am none

I start the trends
I rarely follow
I live in pretense
Hard pills to swallow

Til death do us part
We ain’t got the heart
Black and full of rot
We’re both distraught
No grave for plot

I don’t get the physics
Or why he never visits
Says it ain’t my business
Why he acts suspicious

Why are you under my teeth?
Beneath my seams?
Between my dreams?
Light like moonbeams?

Time moves slower in the cold
His heart is indigo
Take me where blue blood will flow
His undertow
The place I grow

He steals the sun and turns it into limelight
His pen will give me frostbite

Collecting comments
Crashing comets
Trashy content
Make me vomit

Demons look like humans
Cheaters look like keepers
Users look like friends
Children look like men
Do not attempt
To understand

I want you well
But not better than me

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Not dead yet (photo from today)

Some thoughts….

I haven’t been able to sleep and my entire FYP is the lost submarine

I actually hope and pray they are found. It would be nothing short of a miracle. However, they sent two subs down (unmanned presumably) that got crushed at 6000 ish meters

I had a comment get over 1600 likes – and got annoyed with all the notifications – so deleted it

I commented a teenager shouldn’t be on board, many said he was 19

I replied NINETEEN – TEEN

And still – they denied

Had to block – got annoyed

I wish we could mute comment notifications but naw

So delete – it just wouldn’t stop getting likes or comments

I’m an introvert I suppose

Sidenote

Apparently the CEO was in a lot of trouble and he was a good gaslighter and salesman to convince those people to die with him – I don’t think a teenager (yes nineteen is still a teen) should be allowed on an experimental submarine dive 12,500 feet below the sea. It doesn’t matter what fancy title you give them.

That CEO stated over and over that sub was entirely safe, “if this goes… “safe”, if that goes… “safe” but sign this waiver

Look, I signed a waiver getting that motherfucking vaccine and I will never trust another doctor or nurse again – I was asking all the right questions but I was gaslit, gullible, and lied to

And even tho the first vaccine fucked me up, I crawled further in the hole, just like our dear John Jones…

It nearly killed me and I’m at risk for Adult Sudden Death syndrome

I cannot stress this enough, adrenaline spikes to the heart is a no-go

I workout but not to the extreme

I fucking ran through the Dollar 25 tree with 2 gallons of spring water and it was a no no and that was recently

I was in my car going, “it’s okay we’re safe now, I won’t do that again”

So I can run and jog but not with added weights

It’s ridiculous but if you knew how far I’ve crawled – to get better, you might be a tiny bit proud

I’m feeling stronger but can’t do adrenaline spikes at all…

And I’m only 108 pounds

I also have to be careful with extreme temperatures, the hot and cold

I’m like Goldie Locks, need everything just right…

I’m not out of the dark yet and may never be…

The light is so much more powerful than the dark

Also, they stated you wouldn’t be able to hear banging that deep down – something about sound not traveling through the cold

I find that interesting

Isn’t space cold?

I hope God can hear my screams…

I do feel bad about them being stuck at the bottom of the sea

Maybe they didn’t explode

Maybe they made up the banging to keep the search ongoing and the $$$$ flowing

A fast death seemed a little less cruel than suffocating in the dark and cold in a sealed up tuna can

Where you can’t even stand…

Or hyperventilate

With only a sandwich and bottle of water

The one window was plexiglass

A freaking fish tank

You couldn’t pay me a million to get bolted in that tin

I need to get back to my FYP and I feel less guilty about buying clothes now – that’s a much better decision than sinking to the bottom of the sea to explore a graveyard

But I was fucking stupid for getting that 2nd vaccine

I’m learning to forgive myself for a lot of things

I have been dying a slow and painful death

And there are people on my black list

Lucky buying clothes is all I’m planning to do…

LUCKY

Cuz the daydreams are filled with revenge tenfold

I promise when I’m feeling better than dead I will post some of my cute clothing

Mostly dressing comfy for now…

And appreciative I have a floor to sleep on

My sister died of Covid age 45

I don’t want to die…

But everything is actively trying to kill me

The water, the food, the air, it’s all been poisoned

I HATE CHINA

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TikTok is going to ban me (poetry)

Content restored
After it was deleted
And just for record
I’m fucking heated

Free speech like sword
I feel defeated
Where’s my reward
Always mistreated

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They ain’t getting another dime from me

Also, I blocked said user & every one they were following

I’m hardcore

*goes shopping anywhere but TikTok for a dopi boost*

K, thanx, bye

T3 Sara mode & Florida no longer requires a carry permit *weapons nearby*
You ain’t getting another fucking dime
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Distractions (easy rhyme)

There’s too many distractions
Can’t even read a book
Unless it is your writings
Then I may get a second look

🙂

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Why does light travel in a straight line? Why does something round move straight? I haz questions.

Free speech below be warned

The way John Jones died keeps me awake at night.

Maybe get some land in Utah. Do a low crawl. Whip out the hacksaw. Call me an outlaw.

I’m still breaking out in hives. I did a 30 day raw ginger detox and hit it TOO hard. I’m not a sweater but first shot broke out in sweats. Kept going tho.

Nearly fell asleep last night until the consequences of John’s action really settled in.

Must be the worst way to go.

He didn’t even wanna be there. Just thought he could show off a little. He was wanting to eat some Turkey. Or maybe dressing.

I’m not gonna be able to rest until somebody pulls him out of that hole.

Recovery mission.

Use a robot, I don’t care!

Get him out of there!

Cuz I don’t learn my lessons well either.

2nd week felt nauseous after every shot and by the third, hives.

Guess I’m preparing myself for the end

I really really don’t want a traumatic ending

My whole life has been a tragedy

So Cracker Barrel has a cancer warning on their website that eating their food will expose you to bad stuff

And when you click on more info, it won’t tell you exactly which foods

This is what happens when other countries rule us and the Great Race war theory is reality

Check the fucking CENSUS

Reports say certain Chinese Americans (how they prefer) identify as “the new white”. They even get common names like John or Michael.

Certain Mexicans also identify as “the new white”

And BLM is up 230%

I don’t know where I’m going, but I can’t stay here

Land is cheap near Yellow Stone

Pros: cheap

Cons: near volcano

People have been boiled alive at the acidic hot springs

They are my favorite natural wonder and the one’s I fear the most

Always wanted to visit but have this feeling it would pop

Many scientists and people have died from volcanic eruptions randomly

I would have been driven mad living with demons inside a cave

Who constantly gaslight

I don’t know if I believe in reincarnation but sometimes I feel like I’m still learning a lesson from 6000 years ago

China needs to take a chill pill

Most of us are fairly fed up

Eating raw salad today

Maybe just need to stick to a raw diet forevermore

Fucking sick of dying a slow tormentious!?! death

You ever be drifting off to sleep until something bad makes your eyelids pop wide?

For me, last night, it was JJ.

I need an old typewriter

I probably could just use pen and paper again

Ink sucks these days

I hate AI

I’m always writing from my phone

One little tap at a time

Constantly correcting the algorithm

It likes to not space

It likes to change words on me

I’m basically sick of the narcissism which is a plague

But any article you read will state, “narcissism is rare”

Believe none of what you read and less of what you see

He was suppose to take the one that had claw marks all above

But he probably was dared or gaslit to go in the wrong one

It was 9pm at night

He should have been in bed

His wife re-married 3 years later

I ain’t been married once

Some people have it too easy

China has the most ridiculous dictator’s who are nihilistic and their own policies have made it hard for them to recover as a whole due to the “one child law” and I hope they fall but they are stealing white man’s identity with malicious intent and purpose and American names…

I’m allowed to be angy….

I’m sick of being micromanaged

And poisoned

Got some more rhyme incoming but freestyled this as soon as I opened my eyes

Couldn’t even brush my teeth first – already rhyming

Brain still foggy

When I was 16, I would break out in hives every night because of the stressors

For several months, I had to take Benadryl at bedtime

I was even put in a rehab against my will for a month solid, wasn’t able to communicate with boys, had to do stupid meetings

Escaped the insane asylum so many times they had to re-write the rules every time

Sometimes locked myself in my room and refused to come out, using my body and feet against the walls to stop them from breaking in

Demanded air time (fresh air) cuz I was on suicide watch most of the time, not allowed to go outside, not allowed to shave my legs

Broke out in hives every fucking night there

Left the leader tho…

Eventually I was released

My parents were the only ones to not show for the final week to do therapy

It was clear who the fucking problem was and why I was breaking out in hives

I wasn’t supposed to be there

The same John wasn’t supposed to be in that hole

“There are things that happened down there that will never be disclosed”

Yeah like what though?

I can still remember the name of the boy I sat next to in 2nd grade

We made up a game

We’d draw little maps of roads and the other would hold the pencil while the other held the paper to “drive”

We did this quietly and after assignments were done

And every time the teacher re-arranged where students sat, we were allowed to still sit next to one another

Cuz we both got angry and probably refused to do assignments lol

I went skating a lot back then

And even at 16, had rollerblades and would go street blading for hours

I bought me a brand new pair of skates at Christmas, but still haven’t been 😦

So I really hope I change that soon

I know I have a valid excuse “dying” but damn

One day we won’t be able to do the things we want, even if we wanted

I don’t want that day to sneak up on me

It’s like I’m still stuck in a hole I can’t crawl out

And no one’s coming to save me

We have to save ourselves

But God does listen

And prayers do come true

Sometimes

Within reason

Or it’s just l-u-c-k (labor under controlled knowledge)

But I still believe in God

And I don’t know how I survived my teenage years

The quarries, the 50 foot bridge jumps, the standing in front of trains

Suicidal yep

Even in the womb….

Didn’t even want to be born

And don’t want to die….

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I gave up weed

So yo

Remember how the state gave me an addiction with malicious intent and purpose

And I regretted voting for medicinal

And the Russian hydroponics was making me MORE suicidal and homicidal

And I wasn’t getting any sleep

And it was making my anxiety worse

But I couldn’t quit

But it wasn’t working

Albeit the CBD did help my heart

But then it no longer worked

And God was like, “I don’t want you dissociating anymore”

And someone where I live was busted with 37k in their car, with fentanyl laced street weed

So I knew I couldn’t/wouldn’t fall prey to the cravings

And it was posted all over the cops social media

So I let my card expire with malicious intent and purpose

And I thought I was gonna die if I didn’t get a drag

And I started looking in places where I knew there wasn’t any weed

And it got ridiculous the places I was looking

Even tho I never hid any cuz quitting

Well, I’ve been off everything for awhile now

The brain fog is lifting

I still get cravings

But then I buy some clothing and get a dopamine boost

Because God said I didn’t have to die broke or naked

And, my closet is nearly full with clothing that fits me

Mostly cotton clothing and not polyester

But now that I’m nearly done with my shopping spree

I can figure out where I’m moving

And hopefully it’s on a plot of land 1-5 acres

So I can leave this moldy infested dump which is actually killing me

But moving isn’t as easy as it once was

And I’m actually still dying

So don’t wanna live in my ride or die

So yep

Officially weed free like 2 months + now

It takes a minimum of 4 months to recover from CUD (cannabis user disorder)

And sometimes I’m looking in random spots

I hopes to find a cartridge

That will never be there

And tossed out my pipes n papers n things

I did buy a jar worth on 4/19 and kinda weened myself

But it’s practically low grade once you’ve been puffing on the 80% thc bits like a bottle

But eventually that too ran out

I tossed out the dirty pipes to not clean the resin and taint my lungs

My lungs are still healing

And my heart from those damn vaccines

So it did serve its purpose

But I knew with the amount I was buying and the amount I was smoking and still not falling asleep that something was wrong

I knew I had to quit

It’s not that I can’t afford it

It was an absolute waste

I was tossing my $$$ in the wind

And just chasing a dragon I was never gonna find

I followed the $$$ trail back to Russia

It was Russian weed

(Stay away from Curaleaf)

(Unless you want to become homicidal and suicidal)

(More than you thought you were)

Also, there are 2 spiders living in my house

1 is unwanted and roams around

The other is stationary and I feed her

She understands me

The other one is fast and jumps and harmless (wolf spider)

The other is unidentified but I help her feed

A few weeks ago she had her web connected to my trash can lid

And 3 times I got in it and she popped down

I told her “no, you’re gonna starve, that’s me, you gotta fix yer web”

She immediately did

Today I told her I was gonna find her a meal, to fix up her web

An hour later I returned and she was working on her web

I have fed her twice now and it creeps me out

She could be a harmless Florida house spider or a dangerous one

But she’s chill

And enjoys collecting the dew when I’m taking extremely hot showers

The wolf spider is scared of me

I tried catching her the other day

She jumped

I nearly died

She’s not dangerous but she’s mobile

And I’m a good/bad witch depending on the day

I killed her mom once and cried for six months

It didn’t want to die and I was yelling “I’m sorry” while murdering her

So I’ve decided to learn to live with them

Wolfy doesn’t want to be relocated

This is her home now

I’m moving out

Come April

If the mold doesn’t kill me before then

I got an air purifier and reside in one room

I should post a sign: No spiders allowed

The one that isn’t dangerous terrifies me

They get mistaken by *im not summoning it*

The other one could be dangerous but she listens to me

I’ve fed her two live meals

It freaked me out to see her go into kill/eat mode

She mostly lingers underneath the top edge of the bathroom sink with her web along the wall and toilet

I have 2 bathrooms but she likes mine

My home isn’t really dirty but it could be better

This place was built ontop a swamp

Sick buildings exist (even new ones)

For 30 years folks were diagnosed with Sick Building Syndrome

Until they forced the doctor to stop doing his job

Maybe I can find a run down place and fix it up

Happy little clouds

And walls

I’m gonna leave this place better than I found it

And I’m sleeping on the floor

As 95% of my furniture and belongings are gone

Starting over but not here

Anyhoo

Tis all

I’m entirely sober

No drinky

No smokey

No escape

Will probably stop buying clothing soon

And keep looking for the escape route

The cop said “all of Daytona is bad” so already know I don’t want anywhere near this county

Need in the country

Of Florida

Would legit feed the gators

And there’s some sort of possum enjoying all the treats I toss out

Spotted her again today 🙂

Worry about them so much

They cut down most of their habitat

Kept hearing cries that bothered me

So started feeding them my trail mixes

And the cries turned into chipping and song

My ark will be land ho

Anyway there’s yer boring update

I live with spiders and fears

There’s no escaping here?

Spiders are animals

I even got a nat to understand me

So either I got some sort of special power

Or everything is sentient

You should see how Squirrel looks at me

She will even eat with her back turned away

She’s trusting

One day I hope a squirrel will crawl on me like a tree

I have goals you see

6th mass extinction

Science is nihilism

Scientists reduced the honeybees lifespan to 50% so they would work harder

Unethical

No one is talking about that when they say “save the bees”

Mold and fungas interchange /shapeshift

They like sugar and starch and nihilism

The Great Filter is alive

It’s the fucking devil

Tell me I’m wrong

They say you have to leave the environment to get well

I’m in hell

No one is saving that forest in Oregon? being eaten by fungas for 2500 years?

Still, I won’t kill the shrooms with teeth when they pop up

I hate mushrooms, never liked eating them

They ain’t yer fucking friend

And I won’t sleep tonight with Wolfy running around

*sigh* spotted Wolfy again

She I needs a new home

New jeans (size small) 🙂

Got some cute pants that quickly sold out! Love them!!!!! Small is almost too big where XS is almost too tight but I have been getting lots of shorts in xs!

They stopped making B cup bras. So bralettes I guess forevermore

Petite people don’t matter

“Eat a burger” they say

I’m like “are you buying”!?!?!?!

All I do is fucking eat

I don’t live in the gym

I’m going to upgrade my rebounder soonish

And still haven’t gone skating 😦

But desperately wanna

I ain’t safe here

I’m gonna hit the rink or skate park soon I pray

I wish I had friends other than spiders….

And ghosts….

P.S. I heart God

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I don’t like Smart Post

Apparently if you have a package shipped with UPS, they won’t actually be delivering it, as they hand it over to the USPS for the “last mile”

More fucking gaslighting

I fucking hate USPS

Now I hate UPS

And it’s not as if I have a choice on who delivers

USPS ruins packages and misplaces them

Not to mention, it adds several more days to your delivery as it gets handed over – to the dreadful USPS for its “last mile”

China can burn in hell

They literally ruined everything

Why did Jesus wear a robe?

Cuz he was ANGRY

But I ain’t allowed to overturn the money tray in church

And now they pass it around more than once

I get agi

So stopped going

I hate everything

But your fucking writing

P.S. I would rather pick up my package from UPS for the “last mile” since they can’t do their fucking job

But that ain’t an option

More hands on my goods cuz China are filthy nosey lil spy cunts

Fuckkkkkkkxufzfylzydzhzkgd

I know I’m not supposed to hate other races but now I despise at least 3

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Stay (rant & rhyme)

“Made in China” and should stay there
Like your feelings, I just don’t care

Kayaking all by your lonesome?
Not cuz you’re wholesome?

Those who play by the rules are the mark
I’ve got out my chalk
Refuse to talk
Right hand my glock
Born out of wedlock
Married to my walk

He thinks she should be paroled
Once she is dead

I’ve spent all my life
In captivity

Love will never blossom here again
Tie the knots
And tie the endless twigs
But love –
It won’t blossom here

Sleep in a cloud of prayer
Like running into a server farm
Have no idea if I have come to harm?
Like sleeping on a prayer
With halo in my hair
I’m so dumb I will sound the alarm

So I’m just baggage
Armed with a camera
Can do some damage
It’s an advantage

Centenarian
Want to live to then

He said it’s safer
In the lion’s den
Like hate is my neighbor
But he ain’t friend

Father,
There’s almost nothing left
My sister is dead
I’m bereft
Sick in the head
Near out of breath
Got money in the bulkhead

Compartments upon compartments
Secret dirty pockets

He’s a no outlet
I’m driving full speed
Like he’s a preacher for me to confess
But he’s a no outlet

Am I walking to the gate of resentment
Where there’s no contentment
I am so relentless
It’s a consensus

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal.

Below: rant and rhyme

Shriveling into nothingness

Weighed in at 108 pounds today despite eating $100 dollars worth of Cracker Barrel over the last 3 days.

My new small clothing is already too big, and the extra small are loose. Extra extra small exists but I’m probably too fat for it.

108 pounds because “my labs are fine” despite cancer eating me alive

Medical malpractice is common

I don’t want anywhere near a hospital when dying

And like Bob, I would call 9/11 and hang up.

I recently did that, after giving my 201? (location) and she had the audacity to ask me the location.

I responded, “I just fucking told you” and click.

Call disconnected

I did not answer the return

And spoke with the cop when he arrived who informed me that “all of Daytona is bad. Move.”

My lease is up in April

I really don’t want to renew

I also don’t know where to move?

I need land (1-5 acres and a down payment of like a lot)

Can you start dropping coordinates

Of potential places

Where there aren’t many faces

I’m stuck in stasis

Skipping over bases

We’re tied just like laces

Let the sign read faceless

Erasing traces

Following the void

God is gracious

But my neighbors are so racist

I ain’t complacent

Need new spaces

(Help pretty please)

I hope TikTok gets banned

I made my account private and uninstalled the communistic spy app cuz I’m in trouble again for sharing LGBT fashion and stating I was boycotting it

My hate extends all the way to “Made in China”

Stamp it

Engrave it

I fucking hate it

The Great Wall of deceit

WordPress too

The phone is dead come September

Don’t want a new

Not dropping $500+ every two years to be punished on social media

Literally ready to just disappear

By Uncle Sam

My parents are still alive but I don’t know their phone or address

Like a kid, I feel helpless

Acting out of will

Guess I’m growing feckless

Avoiding road of reckless

And feeling so desperate

Just need a quiet place to rest

Maybe God’s chest?

I love him the best

God 1st

Fuck AI

Stop training the AI

I will fuck him up

The Chinese will use AI to commit crime as they are attempting to avoid karma

I do not comply

With any change happening

You fucking asshole

You voted for Biden eh

And have the audacity to say “I can’t trust you”

Oh do-do

I can’t be in the same room as a man

Hardly any women

99.9% of the population denounced God

Stop gaslighting you soulless pricks

“I’m not having children”

Yeah cuz you are bad witch

Nihilist

You all went grey in your 30s

Cuz you removed yer sex organs

For plastic

To look like you’re about to have a baby

But you can’t

And are not

And I’m still bleeding

My life was stolen from me

God feels pain

The dog is driving me insane

I know who is to blame

There’s only one name on my blacklist

*insert shit that could hurt me in the future*

So which path do I take?

Revenge or forgiveness?

It ain’t none of your business

Sincerely as your witness

Kisses sealed with suspicious

Pepper sprayed cuz I’m vicious

What if all these freckles on my body are shadow burns from other stars we can’t actually see cuz our own Sun

Like how the shadow of people were burned into the wall when they were nuked

Like an xray

A mirror reflecting the cosmos

If we could really leave earth, we would

Man killed the dinosaurs

6th mass extinction

You’re gonna burn in hell

For all eternity

Reincarnation is another word for cloning

*sigh* I spend so much time fixing the algorithm

And don’t get paid for it

I no longer answer surveys or give my opinions

Unless you gonna $$$$ me

I’m not racist, I just don’t like you

Be someone worth liking

You’re a walking HollyWood soundbar

Propaganda is all you spew

Cox and his cocks, I mean clocks

Science is nihilism

I wish the dog was dead

I want my life back

Sorry not sorry

People changed him

I’m a passive nihilist in recovery

God save me

But the darkened ones in Generica

The majority

I don’t want to save

Would step back from my own family in flames

Have done and did

Regrets? Oh yeee

Going dark for 6 months or so

There are demons running this world

Satan’s domain

I’ve overstayed my welcome

Losing faith but seldom

Sharpening it like weapon

Cuz devil is depression

As above so below

You ever worry about just being ones and zeros

Like Pinocchio hoping for a soul

Like jumping in a hole

I ran out of stories of cave dying

And have moved onto “crocodile’s eating humans”

I’ve done some seriously dangerous shit as a teen

Nothing like jumping off a ship into shark infested waters at night

This one guy wanted to visit the nudest colony in Death Valley

By miracle he was rescued

But opted a second time to go again

HE DIED

There is a pattern with the seconds

Like how I got the second shot

I’m at risk for Adult Sudden Death syndrome

My immune system was compromised

I’m alive by sheer will and the grace of God

If I knew I only had X amount of time remaining

I’d probably exact my revenge

It’s extremely hard walking a path of holy

In the devil’s land

What dimension are we in again?

It’s a proven fact that Gen Y and Z are dumber than previous generations

I can’t relate to anyone but Gen X and him and him

Him and Him – new book name

I identify as a GIRL

Men cannot have babies

Everybody is a fucking pedo

Fuck LGBT

Fuck TikTok

Fuck “Made in China”

The cops: indecent exposure

Me: the clothes make me burn

Cotton or au gratin?

Apparently most cheese isn’t cheese

Why does God spare some and not others?

Potential?

Not an NPG?

Anything that can happen does and will

Possibility?

Both wave and particle

Timeline jumping

I was going at least 80 miles an hour when I moved into the middle-lane at the exact moment thousands of hands of lightning struck my Jeep, all 4 windows down, arm out

“Fuck” I cried as I whipped my arm in and looked through my rearview and side mirrors taking my foot off the pedal

The sound deafening

Lightning touched my arm

The whole Jeep was surrounded by arms of lightning

God is behind every miracle

Deny him three times no never

My love you can never sever

God gave me the cosmos

Man gave me counseling

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Passion of the Christ

Y’all remember Jim Caviezel?

He wants to know where the pope is?

He wants to know if you would lose your head for Christ?

He states, we have to go after the octopus head – not just the tentacles

He also played a role in “the stoning of” (sara?)

Basically a husband was cheating and got his wife murdered by burying her alive – up to her neck – and having her children throw the first stones at her head

This practice is still legal

He didn’t want to pay child support or something

Accused her of a death penalty – something he was doing

Anyhoo

I can still like him as an actor and person

I mean he played Christ

Kinda hard to probably take off that role

Jesus imprinted in him and me

But read the good book full of propaganda and lies?

Uhm no

It’s Satanic

I collect Bibles tho

Some falling apart

Some extremely tiny with a lock

You ever try selling a Bible during end times?

I can’t seem to part with them?

Via donation, sale, or trash

Or is is sell?

I’m selling something

I have a sale

Hmmm it’s nearly 4 am

I’m glad it wasn’t just a role for Jim

“Fighting with all their hearts but don’t have a voice”

He’s talking about me

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRESeVYn/?t=1

“Would you lose your head for Christ”

What does he mean?

Like not deny him?

He states he thinks about John all the time

“What would John do”

Yeah same – different John’s tho – same but not

He did not die in vain

If anything, he’s my compass down here in this hell

We both think about John all the time (same but not)

John the Baptist was always a favorite from the B

Jim might be part of the 244

Somewhere in the 244 is Christ

God is love

You mean get crucified? Fairly certain society shames me for being a light-bringing angel

They want the world covered in darkness – nihilism

6th mass extinction

Narcissism is a plague

Society is a scam

I hope I get well enough to marry a good man

Man has failed me

Searching black holes is nihilism

Segregation from God

Gonna expose you all

Deliver the head of Satan

Toss it at God’s feet

“I’m home”!

Literally got chills

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WTF is growing

WTF is that growing in my pot?

New unidentified bloom on left

Is that a sunflower?

A fungas?

Some other unknown species?

A single unidentified bloom

I did decide to “repurpose” the soil and mix it up and start feeding it to the plants that were surviving

It was risky I know

But the earthquake shook something

That wasn’t there yesterday

In fact, I left the window open yesterday during the rainstorm briefly – and they all had their first rain bath!!!!!

It was pretty exiting

Now they’ve had a rain bath (first) and drink daily spring water (my own supply)

It could be a mystery seed finding its way to the surface?

I should move him into his own pot?

Why does it scare me?

The green stuff growing was potentially edible – but now – I dunno if this pot still is?

More unidentified stuff in my pots

That’s probably the fear – I thought this would be a fun experiment by the library

I’m slightly shaking

Maybe because my last day of weed – but I was fine until I saw that… unidentified plant and a single bloom (and not green)

But if it turns out to be one of the mystery plants I killed, then yah!!! ?

The forget me nots are getting big!

Should they be repot?

And these potential edible thangs?

Check out the glass of roots

Healthy roots?

Healthy roots or not? Wish my soul would rot? Is this your thought?

I have a stone from Colorado that I collected – in this glass jar – and the plant really enjoyed having the rock and the clear glass to grow – but I admit – it’s more of a challenge

Even the roots scare me

I dunno what’s wrong with me?

I fear the unknown. I also jump into puddles not knowing how deep? Had no idea one should not..

We drank from the hose because we were locked out of the house

I’d get in trouble if I told you what I wanted to do to the Boomer folks

So poems incoming soon…

But wtf is growing?

And just for reference – this is this mystery sheet

Nothing is in the big pots yet – was wondering if I could relocate the glass herbs – they are the only ones I never moved – added the rock from Colorado – and then the roots took hold. Now I’m afraid to plant them in a dark pot with soil – and shock them.

I also don’t want them to get root rot and die

But for now – they did experience a wonderful full moon recently – and last night a rain shower.

Would love to put tags on my plants: “Hi. I’m 3 years old”

“Hi. I’m 15 years old”

That way, upon my untimely passing, they don’t wind up at the dump

They are loved, even tho I fear whatever the fuck they are?

Is that a sunflower? Should he get his own space?

I’m afraid to touch it?

Or breathe around it?

Is it safe?

It grew overnight?

A night bloom?

*sigh*

My thumb isn’t green – it’s mysterious

He’s never had a homemade biscuit. I don’t know what a sunflower looks like growing.

Or basil? Chamomile?

I ate chives growing unwashed in the yard

My mom: “why are you eating that”

Me: “it smells like onion, can I not eat it”

Mom: “yes but you need to bring it in and wash it”

Also me: *drank syrup from some sort of flower*

Anyhoo

Growing thangs

Don’t know what

Could be poisonous?

Wanna come over for dinner?

P.S. when I do upgrade my phone, if TikTok isn’t banned, I will show you my cute new outfits. I’m thin as fuck tho. Like “Thinner”. Keep eating. Won’t gain a pound.

Last day of sungrown legal weed.

QUITTING

And been off the super potent vape pen for 2 or 3 weeks now

Lungs about to be freeeeee

It is fucking harddddddd boi

Takes minimum of 4 months to recover from CUD

4/19 was the last day I had access to the medicinal shop

The whole fentanyl laced drugs is a real issue where I live

Not just the city, but my backyard

Someone got busted with $39k in their car

Along with laced drugs

It was all over the cops official social media accounts

I do not use or consume illegal drugs

I’m quitting state issued as well…

Sleeping in the lion’s den with whatever is growing

And honestly, it ain’t gonna keep the lion’s satisfied

I’m living on prayer

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Invalid Date

Nitrogen narcosis
Dead roses
Lost hope like Moses
Wandering desert hopeless
Some nights we’re frozen
Like unfocused locust
We’re losing focus
Gave God diagnosis
Humanity atrocious
I guess this is us?
The depths that we cross?
Tell God all is lost?

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.

Maybe you can access my domain and maybe you can’t.

Listen, I am the Great Anomaly. But maybe not the only.

244.

I’ve reached out to the Happiness engineers – but I’m never really happy (it’s likely also their fault why I never set up the contact page and things because I get stuck on a step and all hell breaks loose)

I’m drinking ginger currently – it’s spicy

All my clothing from Dolls Kill is fitting – and I’m feeling super cute in said clothes –

My OF ID is poeeternal77 I believe

I deleted my TikTok again – maybe for a day, maybe an hour, maybe a month

Gotta keep em guessing

I don’t pay attention to the hits incoming

I just hit delete notification and uninstall

I hope TikTok gets banned

And Instagram

And PayPal sold your identity out TWICE and then had the audacity to list you as my first contact

We’ve never communicated there

It was an anonymous thang

And like X amount of years later – first contact

I almost paid you back

But I deleted my account instead because I’m fucking psycho

And got tired of the outting and the spam emails

And then the cashapp was mutiliated – not long before Bob was

I don’t know how to spell the word and there is no other suggestion

MUTILATED mutilated

Oh well now I got it

Whatever

Fuck it

“Honey, I’m trying to spell something I know I can spell but can’t”

My mother once said watching TV with the subtitles on “is annoying” (which I need) (it’s not about the volume either)

So I no longer own a TV

My therapist says I’m polarized but the two weren’t related

Just an observation – she’s a cunt

(The Boomer mom)

My last words to her were a text message on Valentine’s circa 2017 (maybe) stating I hope she has a painful death and whatever it is couldn’t be near the pain and suffering she has caused me

And I blocked her and never looked back

Then last year my sister died

And I didn’t go say byeeee to her in the hospital

The Boomer mom will be rolling in her grave – if she ever dies

I wonder often these days should I contact the blood folks

My real father wants to know “if I’m happy”

His sister got her head bit off for reaching out to me

I ghosted my father when I was ten

People say you can’t hate your parents – so then I researched and realized that you could – not only hate your parents – but an entire generation

The Boomers

Who hold most of House

Once people die, there’s literally zero reason to hold onto a grudge

I can’t fix my dead sister and she was a psychopath so death was the only relief

“I think I might drop Cain / like Cain dropped Abel”

Because he was a fucking psychopath

She needed an exorcism and even that might not have saved her

It’s not my job to save you

You gotta save yourself down here

Stop being an asshole

I was gonna drop more poetry but I don’t have anything to type from

The phone can’t even type the letters I press

I got a hacker from India inside my phone

My modem was destroyed

I’m not hitting backspace for letters to disappear

I hate autofill – it pops up but changes to a different word

I spend more time correcting than I do writing

I don’t care if I misspell anymore!

It’s the algo, not me!

More poetry coming soon

P.S. these immigrants don’t care about you. They have invaded our borders and way of life. Stay protected! Your life matters! They are attacking females especially and doing so unprovoked! It’s seems to nearly always be a black person attacking. Black lives matter. White lives don’t. Check the CENSUS, it’s not how they are reporting. And not gossip sites but research shows many Chinese Americans and Mexican’s identify as “the new white”.

CONCERNING

Just gonna erase history huh

Wipe us out, take over

The Great Race war is real

I’m brown and white and not dissing my own race to put up another race – slavery started in Africa and is still going on in Africa and not one white person owns a slave – but black people do

White slavery exists and started with a black person owning a white woman and they condition and break us all!!! They hate us!!!!!

I do not hate white people and I’m tired of the slander against us

No one in my bloodline ever owned a slave

Take money from me for it and there will be consequence

Byeee

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I’m so unstable lol

I am blocking folks on tiktok for all kinda of reasons

I only use my main account – so views will stay low – I keep the algo confused, “gotta keep em guessing” – I stay on the go

Anyhoo

I told myself I’d stop scrolling

Only use it to post

*boring*

And many of my good videos don’t make it through – cuz folks block me and then report me for harassment – for lip syncing a Nirvana song “I think I’m dumb” cuz he commented my IQ could improve

I got in trouble for his insult

I was videotaping me lip syncing in my apartment – and he didn’t want y’all to see it

I still think I won?

Fuck so off topic now

The blocking that I do is different

(But how does one get a post removed for lip syncing a fucking song?) (I didn’t even respond) (no text) lol

He all butt hurt

GOOD

Stop phishing for info

My TBI fractal brain is none ya bizz

I know everything and not anything all at once

*God mode off*

*Human mode on*

Nope, not even human yet

Fallen Angel

“Born this way”

Fight me

I haz wings

Under his bed

He stole em

He didn’t really steal them

He collected them from the rubble

Not thinking maybe someone would come

To get the thing broken

He took what was mine and didn’t consider it belonged to another thing

I fucking fell

My first instinct was to find cover

They were my wings but God dismantled them in the fall

Or I dunno, the blazing atmosphere I was searing through

They were left behind

I was probably in shock

It’s an actual medical condition

Not a mindset

“Survival mode”

And there is water in the desert eventually

Dessert twice please (before meal and after dinner like an hour or 3) (not immediately)

(I should not eat after nine but gremlin, need the meal at midnight)

(Even if I eat dinner at 9, I’m like wtf are you growling like we haven’t ate since 5 am)

I already have insomnia, it’s nearly impossible to get through a 5 hour span

So I’ll always be sneaking in the kitchen for a bite

If he loves me, he’ll surprise me with treats awaiting

(And then he gets woken up in different ways yah hear)

I ain’t getting near that thing if he goes putting it in other things

Men especially

Fuck you

Oh who and what things I iz blocking on the TikTok

Someone just had her daddy come help her move a couch

BLOCKED

It wasn’t even suggested content

Just a normal family acting normal

Fuck off

I dunno, random shit like that

I forget…

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Gotta get this off my chest

Someone posted a tiktok of a 911 call – with a man dying and taking dying breaths

Another user commented it “turned him on”

Also Chicago was overrun by darkness

And the local cop here told me I need to move – “out of Daytona”, “all of Daytona is bad” “I hate to tell you to move” “I hate to lose someone level headed like you”

Well, I’m more reckless than anything – but absolutely still serve my country – I ain’t running away – I practice running a lot though – on my trampoline

Gotta make sure I can wind the Devil

They gonna try and shoot you from the back

Zig zag but with skates?

I don’t miss my shot tho

The Army trained me to hit moving targets 500m back

I’m efficient up to 350m but definitely passed all my skill sets

I ain’t gonna have a skill issue

I was only 4 rounds from expert first time on the 9mil

The hubby got a lot of work to do

“I gotta girl / you want to meet her? / her name is 9mm”

90s hip hop yo

Other men dying – turn men on

Uhm, men hearing babies cry, turns them on

Squirrel
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Another weird death

This one shook me

He hung himself in a closet and wasn’t discovered for 8 months, the hoarding was so bad

I’ve never owned my own home but narcissism is a plague

Their house was so dirty, he wasn’t discovered for 8 months

He probably knew

I struggle with daily suicide ideation

Stay in the light

And clean up yo dirty house

He probably knew tho

“It’ll take them months to find me”…

“One day, she’ll open us this door and find me”

“Fuck you”

Bless his heart, don’t know his name or story or if this is even true (I did not verify)

Was reported missing – home searched twice by police – died via hanging himself in a closet – not discovered until he had mumified

Hey boo, did you know mummification was so easy too?

Apparently only 25% of women on TikTok are worthy of marriage material

I’m glad I get comments sometimes like “you won’t last on the market long”

Maybe not all are ageist

My man gotta think I’m hot in the garden dirty and 80

I wanna live to 100

He gotta help me get there

I got goals

Not dying in a closet undiscovered 8 months

Not getting gutted like Bob

Not letting an immigrant get near me

Sleeping in the lion’s den with mold

Helps

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Rags to Riches

From riches to rags
From rags to riches
It must be such a drag
Doing nothing that he wishes

And I’m raising the red flags
Pulling monsters from the ditches
Reminding God of broken airbags
The Great Anomaly comes with glitches

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal.

I found the pot at the end of the rainbow

But I’m still dying

More cute clothes arriving

And organic cotton joggers n tees cuz t3 sarah mode

Gotta be comfys and calm and collect

Revenge is served coldly with a smile

I was double cursed

But Edgar (my daddy) already died naked on the street (been there, done that)

I know why Cleo died

I’ve traveled far through time

I’m not sinking with the Titanic again

I fear those waters for a reason

I know things to happen before they do

Major events

Little events

Been questioning authority from in womb / day 1

Depressed?

You’re not living how I God intended

The Great Judgment has arrived

Get right with me God

I want so many bird houses on my property that I forget where they are

Bring the pressure washer when you visit

I’m sure everything will need a clean

Bring pieeeeee (not poisoned)

(Anything bought is poison)

(Even the expensive vegan things)

(Bring all the ingredients for me to make a pie instead)

“I wanted to bring you a pie but they were all poisoned”

I know you’ve never had a real biscuit before

My memaw taught me to make them

Said, “the only way to a man’s heart is through his belly”

Or was it stomach?

You tiss it when u big enuff cuz you ain’t big enuff yet

She had 5 acres with a 3 bedroom trailer

I ain’t asking for much

She had 12 kids with her husband

I ain’t been married yet

The Boomers stole everything from me

And now BLM have the audacity to ask me why I move where there are black people?

Bitch for real?

I will fucking hang you on a tree

Without remorse

*stay humbled*

I’m only a messenger

ANGEL

When you want to feed pretty bird but also skin a head…
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The Mystery Plants

They basked in the glory of the full moon last night

I have several pots doing nothing at all

And there’s a lot of guilt involved in mistake

And I did clean the windowsills but then spilt the strawberries (which maybe now they will sprout!?!)

These are the ones surviving thus far and needing re-potting

The Forget-Me-Nots – around 7 growing and a few have rot

The Lavender hasn’t sprouted but I didn’t use all the seed (did something right)

The other mystery plants may be dead?

It could take 3 weeks for it to surface

Do you know how much time I have to kill things between then?

I’m like “please grow”

I think I could do better with some land?

The cop recommended me to move today, said “all of Daytona is bad”, “hate to lose a level headed person like you”

Do you think he could be my future husband?

The BLM brought up my skin color and size, said, “you ain’t got one” but like I do!?!

It’s tiny sure. Take it up with God. I’m Angelic.

She was threatening to beat my ass

I said, “they want us living in fear”

She replied, “why would you move where there are black people”

Like OMG

“Why would I move where there are black people”?

That’s an entirely good question

Where can I move where there aren’t any?

But that’s so mean. I don’t actually not like black people lol

“Why would you move somewhere there are black people?”

*pretends I’m a ten like Ms USA*

*plays dumb*

I ain’t got any huh

Then why you watching it shake when I’m walking away

The men don’t mind my tininess

They use words like “fit”

So yeah The plants. The drama. The hellhound. The hellhole. The noise. Interruptions.

Need country

Lots of trees

Good neighbors

“Not born in a barn” type

Also me: *wants a sleep barn*

Also: thanks for 37,000 Likes on the TikTok

Well almost

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Dear God

*need land and a husband*

*please heal me*

2 month supply of detox arrived!

I am my own healthcare practitioner

victoriahealth.com

Found the stuff without the bad junk

No sugar junk

And this came in a glass bottle, the big ticket items

Fighting for my life

Tell God I don’t want to die

*Quarantined not scared*

*selfless service*

*Sacrifice*

It wasn’t worth jumping into the trench

Got my free speech stolen too

*wakey wakey*

111 pounds currently and have detoxed and rebound around 30-50 pounds of the Devil

The vaccine nearly wiped me out

Finally getting rays of my lungs this week – they wanna put me under – no no no

No no no no no no

*takes raw shot of ginger*

*sweats for 2 minutes*

*nearly dies*

X 8 days in a row of 30 days ginger raw shots

HOLY GAWD

*mouth burns*

*face blushes*

*goes through purification process to find husband*

Him: “what’s yer number count”

Me: *ghosts him*

I’m practically a nun and the reason you see a prostitute

You left me fucking behind

“No child left behind” came out after I was left behind

Uhm hello!!!!!!

*sobs*

So, I wanna write poems with different words that sound the same

I don’t recall the lesson here

Same words but different

I wanna start writing code into my poetry like EAP

I did it one time – I don’t regret it at all – though humiliated and crucified

I sweat out years of fast food

GROSS

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OnlyFans pt 3

3rd times a charm?

I’m likely starting the process soon to create a page

I need a hideout

I haven’t moved yet so there isn’t anything fancy to look at

I don’t need your money

I just need to start over everywhere

Edgar died naked for a reason, he was suffocating

You ever seen that movie with what’s-his-face and he was Buried Alive

That’s what TikTok feels like

And me giving him all the wrong clues that he winds up at a different grave

I don’t wanna wind up so stuck he can’t reach me

I’ve examined many ways to die and John Jones still ranks as WORSE

I’m obsessed with ways people die

I’m seeing patterns too

There’s always a “second” involved

“He went back in for a swim”

“They went down for another dive”

“Decided for a harder section after completing an easy one”

“Two rides said no”

“He stayed for a second day”

“He changed his plans”

“They went back in”

Poor Jacob and the Whirlpool, he went back in, back down again, a wee bit further

But the drain was draining and getting stronger (like a bathroom tub draining)

I counted several warnings by Mr. Death himself

I get called ominous for delivering love poems via internets while dying – (it happened one time chill) (humiliation favorite overkill)

But Jacob wasn’t ominous for swimming in a black hole?

His friend edged him on

“I don’t know what else I can do aside from die”

*shrugs*

*hops back in*

*goes deeper*

They found him at the other end of the drain

Oh… and then that guy that went down the deepest part of the ocean, the Trench

Not even fully qualified

I had no idea that the ocean could “push you down” at “incredible speeds”

I wouldn’t have stopped falling, I would have just kept going huh…

Newsflash: we can’t leave earth

We’re grounded to earth

Charged

The sun is electrical

Positive / negative charge

We’re static electricity buzzing

Hair standing on head (it needs the blm lube for “all hair types” that the blm hog in the blm section)

My page will probably be free or ridiculously cheap membership to keep away the kidnappers

I mean, I wanna post some nudes

I’m still working out while dying and 111 pounds despite everything

And now I wanna quit all meat but chicken

I like eggs and sometimes I wanna eat a chicken

I know, but the heart likes beef and chicken a lot

For ethical and moral reasons try to leave most creatures alone

Someone harassed me and I got penalized for it

Makes absolute total sense

“Money won’t buy happiness” it’s true but I’ll be a whole less stressed out in the country where no one can find me

“Do not enter property without secret code or homemade pie”

Him: “I’ve never eaten a homemade biscuit before”

Memaw: “the way to a man’s heart is through his belly”

Me: “you need a proper biscuit with real maple syrup”

I myself haven’t had one since the 1800s but once I get moved from this dumpster

And I got another rent increase incoming

The appliances are also from the 1700s and my electric company knows my shit ain’t updated and I’m being penalized

“This is a man’s world”

Well I don’t want any part in it

Can you come help til the garden tho?

I gotta get a fence up

Coms

Some sort of place to shit

I need land and a realtor I can trust!

I’m injured!

“I think I’m dumb” but not dumb enough to get married to the banks

Can’t have more than 9k on you or the cops will seize it even with proof it’s yours

The government will come steal your gold too

They didn’t cash their silver coin bonds “backed by the good faith of the Chinese government”

“Made in China”

Who owns the majority of bonds

But we needn’t worry

Every new label, every new change, Big China buying America

I got to go

Too far down the rabbit hole

Weed gone

(Half jar remaining and low thc compared to vape pens)

(Been out for days)

(Haven’t renewed card)

(Panicky)

Need some TLC on OF after the TikTok beating

I’d like to post workout videos and peach shots and nudes

Sue me

(Give me the dopamine boost as God intended, thank you)

(Otherwise, you know the fate of Poe?)

(And the ominous is in the blood)

(I might be Cleopatra)

I might be all things

All or none

I was nestled with God in the Great Void

“This is where you find some quiet, huh”

Gonna be fighting for my life until the end (it was stolen)

(Cry so much)

I’m facing future days of not bleeding between my legs and it feels like the end of everything I ever dreamed of

The women who got rid of their ability to have children and “love it” – nihilists

But you don’t look at me the way Squirrel does

I don’t know anything about life at all

Man has failed his part with me (thus far)

It’s like I’m being punished for his sins

But God has answered many prayers in one sweep

I need to find my way

To 1-5 acres

Once I have land, I’ll worry about other thangs

Land = ark

And I have seeds to plant!

I want trees growing until 1000 years of age!

Get off my land!

Unless you got pie?

Or a nut tree to plant

Fruit?

You brought me a chicken! Not to eat! *heart eyes*

Coyote gets fed chicken eggs too! He ain’t getting shot!

Give him a dog house far off!

Figure it out!

I need a pond!

Byeee

If I get enough followers – I can go live so will probably do the free thing and just ppv certain booty post ridiculously cheap?

But livestream workouts and walkabouts

Park adventures

Maybe land buying

“I’m dumb and boring”

But guys are hollering for my attention at my apt complex now that I’m dressing cute and less bum

He wanted me to know Squirrel crawled on him

Ok fool

But do you feed his entire family pistachios and sunflower seeds and cashews and all the top seeds and nuts

Are you gonna build squirrel a paradise?

They swing from the trees like monkeys!!!

Got another neighbor from NZ who don’t have squirrels at all

New Z doesn’t have squirrels I’m told

I’m like “none at all!?!”

No flying squirrels huh

Not moving there…

*crosses New Zealand off the potential move list*

If you could go anywhere, where would you go?

Montana? Utah? Nothing grows in Maine?

I don’t have an address in hell or online anymore

*purgatory

I scored this and I hope it fits. I’ve started ordering xs since small is big on me. Tiny petite thang

It’s 100% cotton too!!! I ordered a small!

They still are running a flash sale entire store!

My phone is broken and outdated

I may go back to regular photography

With a real camera

I hate WP

I miss OF

The short set: https://www.dollskill.com/products/tea-and-secrets-shorts-set

Tea & Secrets

I want that to be in my page name lol

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TikTok heat + Boomer logic

The TikTok is still heating up and Boomers don’t like being called Boomers but they make up most of the HOUSE of CONGRESS

Therefore, I will not comply about referring to them as “politicians”.

One replied that they were enjoying their retirement and I told them congratulations, enjoy. All the Boomers will be gone by the 60s.

He probably never looked at it like that (forest for trees) and the comment remains unliked

They say any traffic is good traffic but I did block someone commenting multiple times

I’m very open, exposed, and raw delivering such heavy content such as “I lost half my retirement but it wasn’t because I was stupid, all Gen X did – so I feel slightly worse.”

I’m backing it up with real evidence tho (just not personal statements tho some comments phish for it)

Boomers won’t admit to any wrong doing, ever (prove me wrong).

Gen Y & Z should back X up in the fight to remove the Boomers from HOUSE

My TikTok is #poeeternal or PoeEternal

Thanks for your feedback here and there!

I love having a place to direct my rage: the Boomers

Cause-and-effect

Have fun love 🙂

I’m the Great Anomaly

WOKE

“Take a pill” – NO

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TikTok heat

Dropping complaints and codes on my TikTok and it’s getting some traffic

I’m not an ambassador and I don’t earn a dime

I normally get penalized

Basically calling out the Boomers

Moaning about the retirement age vs the life expectancy age

Cute clothes from a favorite store arrived

Once I get my hair/nails/facial, maybe I’ll try the clothes on

For now, you get to see how utterly stressed I look

I ordered more cute cotton clothing

I kinda can’t keep up with the 12 comments coming in

(I didn’t actually count)

AND

Not everyone is biting my head off

Some are just learning of the Secure 2.0 Act – new retirement age of 75

Through my TikTok

Just got called a whacko! 🙂

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Maths

The probability that scientists have unleashed adaptations is 1000%

Current adaptation: reducing the honeybees lifespan 50% so they would “be more productive”

Make more honey faster but don’t enjoy the time God gave us on earth

Also, they raised the retirement age to 75 in America, “respectively” and no one cares (but me)

Science is nihilism

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10 things I hate about you

You live on a flat plane on a flat disc
You act like you are worthless
You live without questioning risk
You won’t give me an inch

You run with a circus
Like hell you will surface
Bringing light to purpose
Curled up like a serpent

For this I’m certain
Or simply hoarding
What you’re averting
I know you’re lurking!

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.

“The VA have made a decision on my behalf.”

Makeover part 2 coming soon

Should I get it tattooed on me? Lucky 13?

I need a baptism in a hot spring first (one I don’t accidentally boil in)

I swear once I wash my face, I will look fresher.

Florida has brain eating amoebas and kids and adults are getting wiped out, playing in the splash parks and doing sinus washes and reports from politicians in the press say drinking tap water is just fine, just don’t “wash your face with tap water” “in the shower or the sink” and I thought the splash parks and baths was my last safe haven (the devil be finding me everywhere)

(That’s why Jesus was always with him)

(Restraining orders don’t work)

(He’s obsessed with me)

And I have Savior complex potentially (see poem)

Demons will gaslight you and say “God isn’t real” cuz they are expert faith destroyers

But God made me an explorer…

“Only 13%”

Well, I do always seem to wiggle myself in the tightest places and I’m afraid of tiny dark holes

Riddle me this

I was pushed off a 50 foot bridge at 15 during sunset weighing some 110 pounds – at one point during the fall I forgot what was happening – I sank deep and fast – how far?

How far down was the initial plunge? Cuz I was dropping fast and thought “wonder how long I’ll keep falling” “maybe better go up for air” and started to kick my legs (I felt a shift) and was watching the tiny bit of light thinking “it’s so far” “I’m not going to make it”

And there was no preparing to take a breath before I was pushed

There was no “breathing” during the fall

Must have fell 10 or 15 seconds? What about in water? Another fucking 5 or 10?

Of falling – not ascend

That took another X amount of time to surface

So I dunno how I survived

I swam the Tennessee/ Mississippi more than once?

Without a float?

“I think I can make it”

I swam in a quarry!?!?

I don’t know if I’m alive?

In 2018, I was inside a lightning storm strike – 80 miles an hour – all windows down – arm out – a band of heat light touched me

How am I alive and the car!?!?

I looked in all my mirrors – the entire Jeep lit up all over

It was thousands of arms of lightning

Was it 2018?

What am I?

Why is everything electrical?

The sun is not 93 million miles away and I knew this at age 5

“It’s right there”

“How do we know”

“You shone a light on a wall”

“Why did we change time”

“Who is in charge of what is being taught at school”

“You can’t make me believe that”

“Well then give me a C”

“I will see myself to the Principal office”

*argues with the professors about globalism and inflation*

*barely passes math with a tutor*

*cries*

In hindsight, I know things before they happen

My first and only time at a dog race, I predicted which dog would win, but no one would place a bet on him, or let me, and I didn’t want to be there

Afterwords they wanted my opinion but I wasn’t interested in tapping into my psyche

I knew the space shuttle was going to blow right before it blew

“They’re going after Soldiers who want 100 in ptsd”

Me: “oh yeah”

“I’d like to see them try”

*panics for several months*

*yells at self for crawling into hole*

“We were fine living in the slums”

“It’s better than being homeless”

“We were gutted”

“What the fuck did we do to get here”

*gifts can come with curses*

*gets rid of 95% of everything I own*

And you can keep the jewelry, it’s fake

It really wasn’t the thought that mattered anymore

If the thought mattered, it would be in alignment with my values

*yells at some stranger on the road acting like God* I’m drifting buddy!?!?

*sobs*

Because it’s all I ever do is cry (like in the movie – God literally tells him I’ll be depressed if he ghosts me)

So I’m crying in the streets broad-day and some dude with a sign is telling me “I’m gonna die of a good time down here”

But I don’t know how to grow a plant or be in the same room as a person

And they did not lock me up (thank God)

(Can I file for state and double dip? Yes I can)

(Can I still work and make $$$$) (probably but I’ve not called and confirmed)

(Do I want to be on zoom calls or looking at a monitor all day or talking to people or solving problems or doing maths)

Fuck you

I have thought about other jobs like selling popcorn but everyone be coughing

Me: “why the fuck did you cough in my direction bro”

“Them fighting sounds”

“Why you standing so effin close to me”

Like bros be filming my ass while I’m grocery shopping or getting my ride fixed

I’m gonna kick someone’s fucking phone accidentally and get gutted like Bob

I’m not getting gutted like Bob

I’m going weapon shopping

Trinity mode

I’m hearing all of France is protesting BR

I want to sleep on a bed of weapons

Safety first

Did you know I’m good at using weapons and thangs?

I got the good Army training!!!!

Circa 2001 🙂

I actually married my country on valentines day 🙂

I swore to defend this country on my heart and honor 🙂

I stupidly gave them my dna 🙂

They took hair, signatures, blood

What are they doing to me?

Why do I feel two places at once?

Why do I know things?

Why do I have to get your permission about how I interpret your art?

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For health and healing (recommend)

Clove & Oregano Complex
Daily Immunity
Mega Probiotic ND

They have vegan products and free tracked shipping on orders $100 +

https://victoriahealth.com

Not snake oil

But I’ll let you know how it goes – Amazon is full of snake oil – same with products at Walmart or Walgreens or Dollar General – bunch of added junk that causes cancer

So – found a holistic center in the UK – they have other supplements that may be better suited for your health or dietary needs

Prices listed in your currency

Happy healing y’all