Side-note: If you “don’t want your children to see this” stop letting them loose at Walmart and the Mall. 💀
Halloween spider mesh bodysuit by Dolls Kill 💀
Witches Spider Cap by ROMWE on Shein 😈
Both sold out but may restock 🎃
One of my favorite new cosplay sets. I feel more myself in this attire and without loads of makeup making it theatrical and whatnot
I’m the real thang 🎃
You can’t burn me legally at the stake anymore 👻
So just wanted to see what it would feel like to do a midnight Halloween set without all the makeup and flare
I was wearing vegan flavored strawberry kissy lips and that made for an extra sweet midnight smile set (I can hook you up with a free glam bag on Ipsy) (most products are vegan) (cancellation is easy but I’m staying on for awhile) (I got a free Halloween glam kit for sign-up and love it) (you can adjust the frequency of delivery as well) 🎃
Halloween is my favorite season perhaps 🤔
Do you like my new set?
How is my petite pumpkin looking? 👀
“I don’t like your ass when you bend over, it disappears” (something someone said to me in my 20s directly after sex)
Yeah, just like any empathy I ever had for you.
Everyone has had such high standards of how my body should look 24/7 because apparently I’m supposed to be posing 24/7 that I’m afraid to even show my fucking skin because I’ll probably get yelled at for being fucking white anyway
Always told I need to “cover up” cuz they like it too much to “just be friends”
Heaven is empty and I cry a lot lol
I also talk to the dead
I have a budding relationship with John Jones
I also keep having images of him (not John) finding me hanging from a tree
The way he breaks and the strength it takes for him to not look away
To get me down…
I don’t know what’s real anymore
I’m focusing on my blog and OnlyFans for now
I’m sorry I’m not posting more yet on my free one – which I can go live on but I can’t go live on my subscribed one 😑
The way the wheels turn 💀
But I’ve started posting playful sensual videos on my OF
And as long as someone wants to support my content I’ll keep going
WordPress just emailed me telling me that I owe them $100 to keep the blog going but web links are broken and everything is chaotic inside the algorithm since they split it into
I need new web hosting and all sorts of cleanup in my life
My blog continues to remain advertising free
All my content is original
Trends make me feel obsolete and always behind
There’s always someone who can come along and do it better, I’m only ever average at anything even when I give it my all
Photos from last nights try on session (so casual stuffs)
I’m still rearranging my bedroom and my bed is now on the floor and I gave my neighbor my lazy chair recliner because I’m still getting rid of furniture and might be homeless soon thanks to Black Rock dictatorship
P.S. I’m not giving up on the dog. We went for two bike rides yesterday. I finally got the bike out of the house. Most of the black neighbors looked like they wanted to run over me and one white neighbor stopped in his car and warned me that they do 90 around the bend and “be careful”.
I’m not racist I swear. (Everyone hates me for my skin color or my soul. I don’t know which anymore but the city IS dangerous and folks being murdered left and right).
They are targeting the disabled and single white girls. FYI (old people and generally anyone looking weak)
I don’t have anything to offer When he can buy it all A narcissist will not suffer Like an angel will fall
Let him run to Paris! Let him have his fun! My name’s Polaris Like lightning from a gun!
Have you been to the petrified forest in North Dakota? Have I lost my quota?
God made galaxies to be seen The calm and serene The moon and evergreen The sun and me
Full moon tomorrow And I’m all sorrow
Mary Magdalene was a whore Who slept with men for honey Wanted bread, not money What’s to abhor?
The homeless are an invasive species Or so the TV tells me As rent continues skyrocketing The problem aren’t the elites
I’m organic It makes the Devil frantic! Hand stitched by God The Devil cannot stand it!
See the full set on my OnlyFans (thank you so much for your support, as I like food a lot, despite the petite appearance…)
11 hours go by 17 make me cry
Why you take so long to respond to me Takes an eternity
Mercury in Retrograde Not like the softness in my tears The way you disappear Demand both sin and aid! God’s not counting years So the moon will not persuade Though full when he appears With only faith to trade God’s not missing here
The King is a fool Burning his confidant of truth
The next time God sends you something with wings It won’t have feathers Looks like bad weather Be damned is what it means I warn of things
When in doubt Burrow Like a fox Make it thorough
Can we start over? Since we never have before? An open shoulder? Not a closed door?
I have lost all sense of worth I put in the work Darkness was my crutch Jumping cliff to perch Swearing off the church I know Satan’s lurch Full sin born at birth Decades roaming earth Hell, heaven or hearth
Please save me
I fell like a sword Over propaganda I am abhorred God did not abandon Heart can be restored Faith my companion
He treats me like a number in the crowd He’s a puddle and I can’t get out
I found myself a lost wanderer Surrounded in fear With water creeping near But without wonder Year after year I know I am average I am shrinking here
And now, under moon A ceremonial ego death Hard to draw a breath John Jones go left! I wake up in sweat I lost a brother Maybe the best
I am covered in agony One lifeline to heaven please God is feeding me Gave me life and seed Said get creating Heart has energy Blood is poetry
The earth took my blood Water turned bone to stone Earth is my home!
Earth is lying!!!!!!!
AND I MUST WEEP ALONE!!!!!!!
Tiny raindrops pouring down Your energy speaks volumes There in the Bayou Lies who?
Cutting blood ties With moonstone What could go wrong Hissing with his lies Missing is his tries Left to roam alone
I’m not crawling to my doom I take cover under moon My cloth isn’t costume My favorite color isn’t gloom I’m not chasing after you
The baby likely died last Down in the valley Family finale
I’m aware my artistry is waning like the moon (sometimes thangs are better but I always put full heart in)
I hope there was something you enjoyed and there is more content coming! 🤪
I got folks coming to my blog telling me to cover up. Last I checked I was a GROWN WOMAN and nudity is NOT A SIN
God made me capable of having children at 13 and I believe I should’ve been allowed to choose a husband while under the age of 18
SOCIETY IS A SCAM
They want me covered up in jab cuz they can’t control their urges
They teach their children women are to be seen as sex objects only – only nude when servicing man
The guy coming to my blog telling me to cover up is the same guy who supports porn stars and the porn industry and jerks off to porn religiously but then goes to church and drops some money in the tray and thinks everything is OK
HE THINKS HE CAN COME TO MY BLOG AND SHAME ME
“You’re pretty but cover up”
How about shut the fuck up
I love when they attach “friend” to the insult
Glad he’s enjoying farm life and three meals a day plus infinite snacks
BUT YOU PISSED ON ONE OF GOD’S ANGELS
HE’S TAKING NOTE
I am grateful for your viewship. I shouldn’t have to censor myself on my own blog. It goes against my purpose of full transparency and truthmongering. Sorry not sorry.
“I don’t want my kids to see this”
You mean the same kids you let loose in the mall and at Walmart whom openly sale erotic adult sex toys IN FRONT OF CHILDREN – not behind a curtain 👀
I’ve broken into too many pieces to collect And sin he is buried up to his neck
A demon ran past his curfew Patience is a virtue Hard work is what I do Truth is taboo
I misinterpret perception The book of hope is deception Misguided direction Waiting for insurrection
I know I’m headstrong I read the data wrong Hang head low on throne “144” on the headstone
I’m tired of the overrule Narcissism How they always ridicule
The banks block the poor from spending hard money earned Well if you transfer this or transfer that They’ll track every move you got And God forbid you have extra dough You’ll be met with a spending limit yah know!!!
Raw + edited photos on the new OnlyFans! I’m still on the leaderboard! 🥰
I dropped a new set last night and I am utilizing the “Story and Hightlight” features as I got/still get penalized a lot by Mark Zuckerberg and at least now I have a safety zone to do drops!
I have lost so much weight from detoxing and my little skirt is a medium and I clearly need a size small now (which is fine) but I was panicked and freaking out because I wanted my hair down and I didn’t do my pigtails and blah blah blah – I can always find a reason why the set could have been better but I received my first tip 🤩
So I stopped beating myself up
I’m getting a rebound session in soon but I want my morning coffee first today
I drink water all freaking day and all night, let me have a fucking coffee OK, I’m 5 pounds, I’m gonna have a fucking coffee before I work out
I know that sounds different from what people do but I’m doing things different down here in this timeline
I’m so annoyed that somewhere in the world right now the year is seven years back and I want to jump into that fucking timeline and have a baby
My clock is ticking and I keep asking it to chill the fuck out but it is in overdrive 🤪
I don’t want anyone hurting any children
But I started my period at 13 and I should’ve been allowed to get married by 15 and have 12 babies with my husband the way my grandmother did with hers
Immigration absolutely has been a Trojan horse and I’m fucking horny, deal with it
I’m not out there doing anything to disrespect my potential future husband though and if he’s worried about me stripping to pay my bills or to keep a roof over my head, then he’s too vanilla for me
As far as I’m concerned, the OF is as good as therapy
I get to express my art and not get penalized by the dictatorship out there
They did steal 20% of my tip tho 😑
I AM SO GRATEFUL I GOT A TIP AT ALL
But there will probably be a poem in the future about how the establishment is stealing the tip money of its hard workers
AND I ABSOLUTELY KNOW WHY EDGAR ALL POE DIED
HE NEEDED TO DEBUG
Like apparently the entire population
I already got a load of dishes washing
About to get a coffee going
I’m anxious for my LED bike lights to arrive so I’ll probably pump up the tires and make sure everything’s good to go
THE SUMMER HEAT IS NOT GONE
But early morning and late evening bike rides are about to start
You definitely need lights riding in the city and bright colors sometimes isn’t even enough because I’ve been out several times in bright colors and still have almost been ran over several times with one person coming back to acknowledge it and saying “that was really close”
And I was just like “it was my turn” 😑
I’m gonna try leaving the lions den again
It ain’t safe in any capacity
Which is why I am actively boxing and packing mostly the entire rest of my house and trying to get the master bedroom, closet, and bathroom together, so at least have a little apartment area to not go mad
A DISH SERVED COLD 🤨
Thank you so much for supporting my content or reading my blog or just being a positive influence in my life overall because I know that I’m toxic and I’m working on that
That ain’t no chicken of the forest. And what do vegans say of eating these parasites? 🤨
THE UNIVERSE IS TELLING ME HOW TO DESTROY THE ELITE FYI
I’m on death number 689832479074357 and still complaining
But I still see no grey hair
Despite being age 500 ish (give or take a century)
I need to accept that I became obsolete to man when I got my period
And I’m alive with a half working heart
You should see my regrets 👀
I like my lines. I earned them. 🤨
My hair is in between worlds these days. But I ain’t dying it and haven’t for months. Been detoxing it, stripping it, and then repairs. The dead ends should fix up but it’s a work-in-progress. Don’t touch my hair when I die.
There’s only one guy I even want to have my body and I want him to take care of my body in the afterlife, like I want him to be the gate keeper of my body, he can do what he wants to with my body, I want him to take care of my body and if he brings me back in some digital form then that’s between me and him 😌
I want to donate my body to *you know who* (love of life)
Some people like my nails. I did them. I’m tired. I look dead. I did them anyway.
Am I still fuckable half dead? 😑
Happy Vampire day 🤪
Gravity has been shaping my boobs
TIME AND GRAVITY
But somebody who ignores me now said he wanted to put a baby in me and fill them up
I wanted that so much 😑
He’s mad at me for having my own place to rent instead of being homeless 😑
I reckon I’m gonna have to bite the WordPress hook and upgrade my personal plan to the premium plan since I’ve used up all my 6GB of storage space 🙄 and just pretend the universe is pushing me to upgrade my plan so I can have more media space to upload photos but also unpack yeti from its box to do soft poetry readings and spoken word
To be fair, I have been dying
But I will also at some point maybe be producing some subscriber only content on my blog/website instead of over on OnlyFans (I don’t do porn or self-gratification, I’m an artist and do nude photography – many say softcore is obsolete, but I’ll be offering it here on my website instead- and if someone could please teach me how to set up subscriptions on WP instead of me having to go figure it out through WordPress that would be great)
I’m already on a plan that allows subscriptions and donations, I’ve just used up all my media space and either need to delete stuff off my website or upgrade and at this point it’s time to upgrade because I’m growing aren’t I? I have over 1000 followers now and nearly 100,000 views!! 👀
So when I’m not dying and can put my head into the WordPress books I will figure out how to do the subscriber only content (this won’t be for every post, just my random spicer content)!
Not everyone wants to see my exclusive Rated R nude content but I’m tired of giving other platforms my visitors – especially when most platforms I have zero voice as an artist
I don’t want to push people to another platform when they come to visit my website
I want you to stay here in heaven with me 😇
GIVE ME ALL YOUR ATTENTION 🤩
I was at urgent care yesterday again so I don’t know how quickly I’ll be able to get stuff going but just know stuff is in the pipeline and I would like to get some more nude content out to you, it will be through my own website though, you won’t have to leave or sign-up anywhere else
I’m indecisive on what I’m doing with my Patreon account but I’ve been very grateful for your support over the years!
Because of it, my website has and remains advertisement free (zero spam)!
If you sign up for my blog posts via email, advertising will never be in your email either! Zero spam!
I may be the last place on earth that’s free of advertising 🤔
But you won’t have to worry about accidentally hitting an advertisement when scrolling or installing spyware or a virus
You can scroll freely without a condom ahem 🤪
I’m dealing with heart and lung issues since I got the vaccine – I’m still a weirdo tho and I miss doing the cosplay for you to accompany the rants, poetry and prose!
I will definitely upgrade my plan soon so I can at least start attaching photographs again to my rants and poetry
It may be the new year before I start any subscription only content!
I may do it via donation instead of subscription (like where you can pay a small fee to unlock the post)…
Dying but not dead…
PSST… I have a free OnlyFans and will be active there when I’m feeling better – thank you for subscribing! My inbox is open there to say hello! I’ll let everyone know when I’m back and active! I’ll be going live over there to show you the beach and things! Softcore 🤪
I’m trying to get over my stage fright so maybe if I do something like at home beauty care, that will feel a little less intimidating and frightening as say going live and doing spoken word or something theatrical
Baby steps lol
But I am really grateful for all the positive feedback I get everywhere on the stuff that I’m putting out so more stuff coming soon and I’ve never had nails like this!
I don’t intend to wear them for a long time but I do want to do them for cosplay sets!
And I will show you a picture of what they look like once they arrive- if I decide to keep them and put them on my fingers then I will go live for an at home mini salon beauty routine and apply my black goth stiletto nails 🤩
Because, I know you’ve just been dying to watch me apply my nails right 🎃
We’re learning stuffs 😈
FYI, back in 2005, I worked in the mall at a salon as a “beauty consultant” for about six months selling products. I wasn’t the actual person who did hair but I knew what products to sell you based on your hair type or skin type and things like that!
I miss working out and I’m putting on some weight but I refuse to wither up and die mad naked on the street 👀
My doctor still has not given me the go ahead to start working out yet and all of my tests have been coming back showing my shit as fucked up so technically I’m still on the bed rest but everything will be happening from my master bedroom
I’m still tired as fuck all the time but the physical pain is less, tho I still have pressure built up in my heart, so I have to be careful (and mostly homebound too)
So appreciate the support, appreciate the feedback, appreciate the views
I’m grateful that I have anybody at all that gives a fuck about me and I do not take that lightly at all
I know I can be isolated but I’m not without gratitude
Excited to get and try new new stiletto nails! Will keep you posted!! 🤩
My monthly door price to now get in (without any discounts applied) is $13! 🎃
I love y’all! And I want to keep putting out hot content for you!
When I first got on OnlyFans I was charging $19 to get in my door and some of y’all have been with me the entire time! 🤩
I do not charge anything else once inside! Zero pay-per-view content ever!
Thanks for your support! It keeps the content on my blog ad free! It keeps the fuse lit and the photography sizzling! I’m glad to be alive and have skin that isn’t ice cold! Not dead yet!
I’m grateful to be on the leaderboard and I’m grateful to have your support, this is an ongoing attempt to remain fair in a pandemic and again, I do not charge for Pay-per-view content. All my content is unlocked inside!
Your support keeps my blog free of advertising and spam! It keeps the content incoming! It keeps my belly fed! It keeps the content ad free!!
Stop assuming it’s easy work! I am a starving artist just like Edgar Allan Poe! I have rent (which is twice as high as your mortgage) and student loans and COLA expenses. I don’t live at home with mommy! I pay all my own living costs! I don’t have a husband or boyfriend “paying my way”.
Your support is appreciated more than you know! 👍
If it wasn’t for your love and attention, I would wither up and die! 🤪
And some of you have supported my campaigns for a very long time!! 🥰
You’re better than my therapist! 😈
I also don’t tell my therapist some of the things that I tell you! 👀
Deep dark secrets eh! 💀
Well it is the end of the world and I do love having my own private club! 😈
Thanks for dropping in or for sticking about! 🎃🎃🎃
Some of you say my sets get better and better, I appreciate!
Thanks for keeping me on the leaderboard and from dying naked on the street!
So here’s a little growth chart of my progress and time on OnlyFans
It will be interesting to see how this chart changes when porn is eliminated from the platform and they push their new agenda of pop stars and advertising
Either way, I’m still the little guy!!! Making tiny waves! 👀
Thanks for supporting my artistic creativity! I’m so grateful for you! You’re helping me grow as a human being! ❤️
Development has been hard for me because I didn’t have parents, I had abusers and I joined the Army when I was very young so the only training that I really have is from the Army or the lessons that I’ve learned being in the abusive, narcissistic relationships that I’ve been in and every relationship I was in the men always tried to hold me down so I never could reach my potential and you’re helping me reach my potential as a human being and an artist
Furthermore, you’re keeping me from dying on the street like Edgar Allan Poe
That is priceless
Come check out my content, I’m running some fair deals on memberships and have over 1.5k photos and videos to scurry through!
While my content IS NOT XXX, it is Rated R and from the positive feedback I receive, my nude photography is enjoyed. Thank you!
To the person who just joined my premium OnlyFans, thank you! 💪
I work hard at my writing and modeling.
I work hard at being a content creator.
And the reward is people enjoying my work!
It’s also nice to be able to pay a bill or feed my belly!
Many people around me don’t support me because they think this work comes easy but it doesn’t.
I’m not just standing in front of a camera.
I’m also a natural model and poet, 2 extremely hard fields to get noticed in!
So when someone joins my OnlyFans and tells me that they are a fan of my writing, it means a lot to me. Writing is in my core!
Nude modeling is helping me grow as a human being and photographer.
I get to explore my sensuality on film.
I get to share being a human with you and what it’s like to experience things through my body and my eyes.
Your feedback literally fuels me.
There are many people who have tried to shame me for what I do.
I’m not ashamed.
As you can see, I am still understanding my lessons as a woman and what it really means to be alive! I think my growth as an artist shows! I’m not talking about monetary gain.
I’m learning to be okay in THIS body without any botox or plastic surgery! And with gravity playing its part.
Sure my boobs are saggy but I don’t want boulders that and sit there and never move!
I prefer movement! The universe is made of energy!
And, I’m not removing my sex organs to put plastic where I won’t feel sensation anymore, where I lose sensation and I’m even more desensitized to the world and detached from being an actual human being, no thanks
That’s what the 1% want
I just wanna do my art man
I’m not a cash cow and I don’t milk the people who walk through my door
I always get really scared when someone joins my OnlyFans because I get nervous and think they are going to body shame me like the real ones have done
Anyway, I just want to say thanks!
It makes me feel good good!
More content incoming, as long as I am breathing! You inspire me! 🥰