Side-note: If you “don’t want your children to see this” stop letting them loose at Walmart and the Mall. π
Psst…
Halloween spider mesh bodysuit by Dolls Kill π
Witches Spider Cap by ROMWE on Shein π
Both sold out but may restock π
One of my favorite new cosplay sets. I feel more myself in this attire and without loads of makeup making it theatrical and whatnot
I’m the real thang π
You can’t burn me legally at the stake anymore π»
So just wanted to see what it would feel like to do a midnight Halloween set without all the makeup and flare
I was wearing vegan flavored strawberry kissy lips and that made for an extra sweet midnight smile set (I can hook you up with a free glam bag on Ipsy) (most products are vegan) (cancellation is easy but I’m staying on for awhile) (I got a free Halloween glam kit for sign-up and love it) (you can adjust the frequency of delivery as well) π
Halloween is my favorite season perhaps π€
Do you like my new set?
How is my petite pumpkin looking? π
“I don’t like your ass when you bend over, it disappears” (something someone said to me in my 20s directly after sex)
Yeah, just like any empathy I ever had for you.
Everyone has had such high standards of how my body should look 24/7 because apparently I’m supposed to be posing 24/7 that I’m afraid to even show my fucking skin because I’ll probably get yelled at for being fucking white anyway
Always told I need to “cover up” cuz they like it too much to “just be friends”
Heaven is empty and I cry a lot lol
I also talk to the dead
I have a budding relationship with John Jones
I also keep having images of him (not John) finding me hanging from a tree
The way he breaks and the strength it takes for him to not look away
To get me down…
I don’t know what’s real anymore
I’m focusing on my blog and OnlyFans for now
I’m sorry I’m not posting more yet on my free one – which I can go live on but I can’t go live on my subscribed one π
The way the wheels turn π
But I’ve started posting playful sensual videos on my OF
And as long as someone wants to support my content I’ll keep going
WordPress just emailed me telling me that I owe them $100 to keep the blog going but web links are broken and everything is chaotic inside the algorithm since they split it into
I need new web hosting and all sorts of cleanup in my life
My blog continues to remain advertising free
All my content is original
Trends make me feel obsolete and always behind
There’s always someone who can come along and do it better, I’m only ever average at anything even when I give it my all
Self-portrait October 2022 (the timeline is wrong)
We can’t stop tomorrow Falling in the center of all hollow Black hole is sorrow Do you have hope to borrow?
And where I’m crawling narrow Do you really care though? Always chasing pharaoh Name sinner sparrow
I can eat a meal with Abraham Or Gideon Fight the city of Sodom Blindsided with no hand
They call me FALLEN Say my name – Never see me crawling Calling poison pollen
His self-worth Is wrapped in numbers and money Thinks darkness is sunny
Swallowed by sinkhole Earth on cruise control Got my spirit low I live on limestone
Love is a feeble and fragile fire Under denial He will still smile Lie while under trial Claim that he misdialed He’s a pedophile
I’m not interested in validation But more of if today I will eat a salad
Maple Blood of the gods Drink it in gobs Amber makes tongue throb Need it a lot Plot for my crop
He can’t believe he crawled into that hole Based on the lies he was presented His death could’ve been prevented He uses me to speak it
Lives are born and never recorded They are important
If eyes were closed His love disposed His blood runs cold Like death decomposed
The worst of all possible punishment Put it on a monument Pay the earth a compliment Nevermind where heaven went Paid with life and not one cent Left us broke to an extent You think dying’s intimate?
Well my hand was drawn at midnight 13 minutes after bad luck Tiny feet kick through sheet rock I don’t give a fuck
He’s glaring attentive The sun burning incentive He stands with attention Will burn through dissension
Better to be a warrior in a garden, than a gardener in a war That’s my rapport Put it on a flag and let’s explore The garden is what I’m fighting for
Photos from last nights try on session (so casual stuffs)
I’m still rearranging my bedroom and my bed is now on the floor and I gave my neighbor my lazy chair recliner because I’m still getting rid of furniture and might be homeless soon thanks to Black Rock dictatorship
You should’ve kept your mouth shut So deep my wound you felt the cut I guess you’d say you bleed somewhat If you stab in the gut
Sometimes I feel rushed The weight of a feather crushed As long as voice is hushed The praise will gush
I’M ACTUALLY NATIVE AMERICAN BROWN WITH SOME ALBINO AND SUN SPOTS FROM THE SOURCE
I bring you gifts Of all the things you hate Kick you from cliffs And blame you for the weight
You’re a savage and a servant You’re a lion and a lamb Lessons you never learned it And regret You won’t feel a milligram
Are you a gap in reflection? A two way mirror complexion? Can you give me protection? Such priceless affection?
I want to disturb the place you rest Uneasy under crest The earth must love you best Won’t let go your chest
I don’t follow the trends They lead to dead ends!
Long ago I was discarded Does faith keep one safeguarded God is brokenhearted Gone extinct his harvest I cry the hardest
Remove the harness Underneath the carcass Decay just a garnish Layer earth with tarnish We all die regardless
Top of the list huh Right next to “she is dumb” So above and below your thumb Better argument and income That’s the mirror you’re seeing from REMOVED MYSELF FROM THE EQUATION
A GHOSTLY INVASION
I can see through hell’s shadow He’s drinks coffee like espresso I removed self from the status quo I KNOW MY POSITION THOUGH
I’m up, you’re down? Quantum entanglement We wear it like a crown?
My gifts come with all the things he hates Open up these flooded gates Love obviates Nothing he appreciates
Tart Like black cherry Contempt he’ll carry Bag overflowing heavy Sin his sanctuary
P.S. I’m not giving up on the dog. We went for two bike rides yesterday. I finally got the bike out of the house. Most of the black neighbors looked like they wanted to run over me and one white neighbor stopped in his car and warned me that they do 90 around the bend and “be careful”.
I’m not racist I swear. (Everyone hates me for my skin color or my soul. I don’t know which anymore but the city IS dangerous and folks being murdered left and right).
They are targeting the disabled and single white girls. FYI (old people and generally anyone looking weak)
I stitched you into fabric Maybe not elaborate Tiny bit of havoc Maybe out of habit
With some twigs and magic Spilled blood and tragic Wind blown erratic Pages blank but classic
Well now I’ve found the warmth Wrapped up in your world From east to north Stepping back and forth
I have been to hell and back Got the almanac Full sins on attack My wings are carbon black
If photons had a clock The clock would never tick Don’t you question it My love for him It’s just physics
I think he is precious Sun burning contentious Heavy metal pretentious Like moon is reckless Tiny little crevice Will appear speckless Diamond for necklace Can leave lung breathless
How to avoid a road to hell? I think it’s where we fell? Should have gone left? What do you suggest?
He’s got a crown and sword I want to fall on
To die tenderly Kinetic energy Your words – Are haunting me
You will find God if you look lower Crawl feet first but slower Remove bad clover Like a whistleblower
My growth has been stunted Under moon words hunted Why you are confronted All my love abundance Love you in hundreds
Sometimes wounds are gutted Jump in holes redundant Forget the summit Pitched in black no judgment My hope is funded
Through your words I’m blooded Heart beats on like flooded I know what you did Whole world screams forbid Death cannot disconnect our power grid
And if your words are a puddle I’d jump in again and again Don’t care how deep it gets Love you from within
I don’t have anything to offer When he can buy it all A narcissist will not suffer Like an angel will fall
Let him run to Paris! Let him have his fun! My name’s Polaris Like lightning from a gun!
Have you been to the petrified forest in North Dakota? Have I lost my quota?
God made galaxies to be seen The calm and serene The moon and evergreen The sun and me
Full moon tomorrow And I’m all sorrow
Mary Magdalene was a whore Who slept with men for honey Wanted bread, not money What’s to abhor?
The homeless are an invasive species Or so the TV tells me As rent continues skyrocketing The problem aren’t the elites
I’m organic It makes the Devil frantic! Hand stitched by God The Devil cannot stand it!
See the full set on my OnlyFans (thank you so much for your support, as I like food a lot, despite the petite appearance…)
11 hours go by 17 make me cry
Why you take so long to respond to me Takes an eternity
Mercury in Retrograde Not like the softness in my tears The way you disappear Demand both sin and aid! God’s not counting years So the moon will not persuade Though full when he appears With only faith to trade God’s not missing here
The King is a fool Burning his confidant of truth
93 million miles away huh (all photography by @poeeternal)
The next time God sends you something with wings It won’t have feathers Looks like bad weather Be damned is what it means I warn of things
When in doubt Burrow Like a fox Make it thorough
Not going in – is what the sign reads (red flags 101) RIP JOHN JONES
Can we start over? Since we never have before? An open shoulder? Not a closed door?
Father,
I have lost all sense of worth I put in the work Darkness was my crutch Jumping cliff to perch Swearing off the church I know Satan’s lurch Full sin born at birth Decades roaming earth Hell, heaven or hearth
Please save me
Freckles galore – kisses from the source (lots and lots) 9/25/2022 (time is bullshite) (Ethiopia is seven years behind. April Fool’s!!!!!!!!!) Stupid Americans!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I fell like a sword Over propaganda I am abhorred God did not abandon Heart can be restored Faith my companion
He treats me like a number in the crowd He’s a puddle and I can’t get out
I found myself a lost wanderer Surrounded in fear With water creeping near But without wonder Year after year I know I am average I am shrinking here
And now, under moon A ceremonial ego death Hard to draw a breath John Jones go left! I wake up in sweat I lost a brother Maybe the best
I am covered in agony One lifeline to heaven please God is feeding me Gave me life and seed Said get creating Heart has energy Blood is poetry
The earth took my blood Water turned bone to stone Earth is my home!
Earth is lying!!!!!!!
AND I MUST WEEP ALONE!!!!!!!
Tiny raindrops pouring down Your energy speaks volumes There in the Bayou Lies who?
Cutting blood ties With moonstone What could go wrong Hissing with his lies Missing is his tries Left to roam alone
I’m not crawling to my doom I take cover under moon My cloth isn’t costume My favorite color isn’t gloom I’m not chasing after you
The baby likely died last Down in the valley Family finale
I’m aware my artistry is waning like the moon (sometimes thangs are better but I always put full heart in)
I hope there was something you enjoyed and there is more content coming! π€ͺ
I got folks coming to my blog telling me to cover up. Last I checked I was a GROWN WOMAN and nudity is NOT A SIN
God made me capable of having children at 13 and I believe I should’ve been allowed to choose a husband while under the age of 18
SOCIETY IS A SCAM
*leaps from bridge*
They want me covered up in jab cuz they can’t control their urges
They teach their children women are to be seen as sex objects only – only nude when servicing man
The guy coming to my blog telling me to cover up is the same guy who supports porn stars and the porn industry and jerks off to porn religiously but then goes to church and drops some money in the tray and thinks everything is OK
Glad he’s enjoying farm life and three meals a day plus infinite snacks
BUT YOU PISSED ON ONE OF GOD’S ANGELS
HE’S TAKING NOTE
I am grateful for your viewship. I shouldn’t have to censor myself on my own blog. It goes against my purpose of full transparency and truthmongering. Sorry not sorry.
“I don’t want my kids to see this”
You mean the same kids you let loose in the mall and at Walmart whom openly sale erotic adult sex toys IN FRONT OF CHILDREN – not behind a curtain π
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THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALLOWING ME FREEDOM OF SPEECH ON MY OWN BLOG
You taste of Judas Iscariot Betrayal you’ll marry it I’ve paid twice for sins Won’t pay again
144 awakening 7th seal opening Judgment hour No hoping (John’s still coping)
One, two See through all of you
Hell hath arrived THERE ARE NO GOODBYES
Oh, Princeof This World They aren’t your gifts to give Heaven rules over all but this God is the Void But Satan rules this world
I am a beggar Crawling eternally
Helpless to stop it Remove self from equation The devil is invasion I’m losing patience! Careful crossing occasion Will get stuck persuading Hopeful helpful information
Nature becomes conscious of itself through you
I NEED YOU LIKE ETERNITY Hell is separation I’M BURNING
If I die here Nobody will know I didn’t want to But nobody will ask you
Fallen Angelic Trying to ascend
Need him more and then Eleven hours spent Not bad omen
Number signs godsend I do listen And then repent
Foreshadowing But if he’s dropping flags I’m walking in Red carpet rolling With a halo full of sin God said keep walking But I want him instead
He turns me SOFT Like the Grand Canyon will flow Paradigm shift halo He owns my soul
I’m sorry he betrayed you A devil said to shrewd I think with gratitude The sun burns the moon I rest in solitude Black as blue But oh so devalued
I do not dream of labor The moon a gaper Place our love on paper He calls – I turn to vapor
We’re reaching terminal velocity Death is nearing Is this the correct speed? Thought you needed me?
He’s wrapped up in deceit Like a sheet Am I a ghost I am discreet
I’m without kingdom Guarding eternity Trident I’m not lying
WHAT LIES Beyond the horizon CRIMINAL EYES But the sun’s still rising AND I’M HERE FOR BLOOD
Touch me So the curse will lift Kiss me on the lip Keep me near your hip
More poetry and photography coming! Thank you for your interest in my content! I work hard at it! I hope you are enjoying the Halloween theme! Lingerie bodysuit by Dolls Kills! π
I just dropped a set on the OnlyFans! 40 photos! Like when PlayBoy did 18 & 36 page spreads! SAME! π€ͺ
I’ve been busy writing and working out! I’ll post behind-the-scenes soon!
It’s BOO season!! πππ
I’m ready to dawn the Halloween costume daily! I wanna go on a hayride!!!! π
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In makeup and filter π€ͺ
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So glad I’m replacing the oversized boy t-shirts with cute crop tops and thangs
I’m muting it tho because I don’t need to be sued by the algorithm – in some distant future – thank you Metallica- greedy fucks
Gotta go back to street teaming like in the old days
Before the millennials were born and before there were cell phones or computers handy
Spyware
Can’t opt out
Gotta flee the city
The Devil he everywhere in everything
Society has been around so long and narcissism has spread everywhere
I’m trying not to self-destruct or get thrown into a rubber room
Detox detox detox
I’m on dose 2 today
2 large doses in
I don’t fuck around π€¨
I’m fighting hard to get better, to not leap from a bridge, for the potential possibility to find a partner
The hubby will produce the feel good hormones
Find your tribe and nurture the fuck outta it
Everything is going extinct
Be careful with adrenaline spikes to your heart
It’s okay to stop for 30 seconds – drink water – get back on
But my first day back rebounding caused me to have consistent chest pain for two days that didn’t go away so I couldn’t do anything
After a 2.5 mile walk, I puked 3 hours later when my body was having difficulty regulating temperature
I felt like that family who died in the valley recently, dog, baby and all
The sun was barreling on me, not much shade
I’d find a tree, rest a couple minutes, drink water, and trek a bit further
I barely made it home
And at one point I almost got kidnapped by a guy who got out of his truck with completely blacked out windows and opened up the passenger back side door
He watched me for ten minutes head both ways
I was prepared to remove his head with my blade
I was fucking dying with a heart complication (and this was recently by the way) but I had to put my water away so I could have both hands free – you know – just in case he made his move
I DON’T LIKE LIVING HERE
And unfortunately, I’ve almost been run over twice on the bike rides… οΏΌ
The beach was getting crazy with tourist and “no vehicles” unless “4×4” because of “soft sand”
I’m not paying that expensive parking
America is a fucking scamοΏΌ
The yuppie shops are selling rotten eggs and milk
That one’s gonna have my asshole tore up for a minute
I did get a small rebound session in – I avoided the high ab jumps this time – kept it to simple bouncing (still resistance training but less adrenaline spikes)
The Army trained me as a medic to run for miles from the enemy
And I did do a full 4 years active overseas
I’m still running from the Devil and I got a strong little heart
It’s still fighting for its life so I’m making it some vegan soup soon
It demands…
The heart gets what the heart wants πͺ
It’s magical stew – big and chunky – heart healing
Got the red cabbage too and rainbow carrots and tomatoes (noms)
One stove top, 1 pot, is all you need (to anyone still eating pizza from a box)
(You can buy electric stove tops or ask a family member if you can have their extra one they use on the holidays)
They come as 1 or 2 (I’d get the 2)
It’s probably cheaper than turning on the big stove top)
I’m downsizing soon
Need a mini oven too
I don’t own a microwave nor use them
But I would like a small toaster oven and a crockpot
I don’t know if I can use my indoor grill anymore because I think it’s made out of that stuff that’s bad for you
I cook the stew in a glass pot
And make my breads and cakes and loaves in glass…
I’m going to start sharing more of my cooking process with you even though I don’t have a fancy kitchen but my rent keeps going up but all the appliances are old
But I don’t use measuring cups, I cook the way my grandmother taught, a pinch of this and a pinch of that…
People think people just stand in front of a camera and that’s it, like no, that’s not it, there’s a lot of posing, camera work involved, lighting, makeup, costume, location/scene/mood. Post editing.
Pretty bias exists
“She has it easy”
This is WORK and it comes from WITHIN and it requires ENERGY to produce content worthy of your TIME
I ain’t out here doing anything to disrespect my future husband
People try to shame me for my content because it is taboo π€¨
My grandmother was married and having babies at age 15
SOCIETY STOPPED ME AND FORCED ME INTO SLAVERY
I LIKE MAKING PHOTOGRAPHY AND DISCOVERING WHO I AM AS A FEMALE AND NOT A MALE SOLDIER
I’m tired of being in my masculine
I’ll never give up the combat boots or training
But that doesn’t mean you get to shame me out of femininity
I’ve broken into too many pieces to collect And sin he is buried up to his neck
A demon ran past his curfew Patience is a virtue Hard work is what I do Truth is taboo
I misinterpret perception The book of hope is deception Misguided direction Waiting for insurrection
I know I’m headstrong I read the data wrong Hang head low on throne “144” on the headstone
I’m tired of the overrule Narcissism How they always ridicule
The banks block the poor from spending hard money earned Well if you transfer this or transfer that They’ll track every move you got And God forbid you have extra dough You’ll be met with a spending limit yah know!!!
Raw + edited photos on the new OnlyFans! I’m still on the leaderboard! π₯°
I dropped a new set last night and I am utilizing the “Story and Hightlight” features as I got/still get penalized a lot by Mark Zuckerberg and at least now I have a safety zone to do drops!
I’m getting a rebound session in soon but I want my morning coffee first today
Yep
I drink water all freaking day and all night, let me have a fucking coffee OK, I’m 5 pounds, I’m gonna have a fucking coffee before I work out
I know that sounds different from what people do but I’m doing things different down here in this timeline
I’m so annoyed that somewhere in the world right now the year is seven years back and I want to jump into that fucking timeline and have a baby
My clock is ticking and I keep asking it to chill the fuck out but it is in overdrive π€ͺ
I don’t want anyone hurting any children
But I started my period at 13 and I should’ve been allowed to get married by 15 and have 12 babies with my husband the way my grandmother did with hers
Immigration absolutely has been a Trojan horse and I’m fucking horny, deal with it
I’m not out there doing anything to disrespect my potential future husband though and if he’s worried about me stripping to pay my bills or to keep a roof over my head, then he’s too vanilla for me
As far as I’m concerned, the OF is as good as therapy
I get to express my art and not get penalized by the dictatorship out there
They did steal 20% of my tip tho π
I AM SO GRATEFUL I GOT A TIP AT ALL
But there will probably be a poem in the future about how the establishment is stealing the tip money of its hard workers
AND I ABSOLUTELY KNOW WHY EDGAR ALL POE DIED
HE NEEDED TO DEBUG
Like apparently the entire population
I already got a load of dishes washing
About to get a coffee going
RELAX
REBOUND
REPEAT
I’m anxious for my LED bike lights to arrive so I’ll probably pump up the tires and make sure everything’s good to go
THE SUMMER HEAT IS NOT GONE
But early morning and late evening bike rides are about to start
You definitely need lights riding in the city and bright colors sometimes isn’t even enough because I’ve been out several times in bright colors and still have almost been ran over several times with one person coming back to acknowledge it and saying “that was really close”
And I was just like “it was my turn” π
I’m gonna try leaving the lions den again
It ain’t safe in any capacity
Which is why I am actively boxing and packing mostly the entire rest of my house and trying to get the master bedroom, closet, and bathroom together, so at least have a little apartment area to not go mad
GILLED AND WITH TEETH. PHOTO BY ME FROM THIS VERY AM. π€¨
A DISH SERVED COLD π€¨
DANGER SHROOMS POTENTIALLY BEWARE (all photography by @poeeternal)
Thank you so much for supporting my content or reading my blog or just being a positive influence in my life overall because I know that I’m toxic and I’m working on that
Rotten fruit falls by itself If you’re compelled Don’t bid farewell
Could you drop good news with the bad? Could you learn happy just means sad? Could you leave but still come back? Or are you ever planning that?
There he goes again Slamming the door! And I still don’t know What we’re fighting for!
Where did your will come from? Was it bought from the sun? What will you become? Is your will firm?
John,
You should have kept your head in the book You should have took a second look You should have chose a different route You should have crossed a bigger chute
I know I’m not what you need That’s why you keep walking away I know I’m not what you bleed That’s why you have nothing to say
Been down a ways Get little praise Been down always Been down always
I made a mess Of these prison walls Out of order The sad owner Of these pitfalls
I am the still of the lake With underwater currents circling The whirlpool in your eye full of hate Forgiveness won’t be surfacing No mercy at the break
Why does weight cause gravity? Like my love for you You will disappear But I am stuck like glue?
Last seen Smoking on the Bayou Got the deep blues Gonna cut loose
Restarted just to leave, Alive just to grieve, Got what you need? Stop bailing on me!
If I could do it all again I’d let you be my influence Blood to pen Influent
Jesus: didn’t you say he left your bed?
Yes.
Jesus: and he won’t share a slice of his bread?
*feather tremble π
He slams the door He makes an entrance He begs for more He is relentless
I don’t think the Mall should be selling adult toys. I went in for a cute hat, now I’m traumatized. Anal plugs and vibrators right next to the Lava Lamps. π
I’m on death number 689832479074357 and still complaining
But I still see no grey hair
Despite being age 500 ish (give or take a century)
I need to accept that I became obsolete to man when I got my period
And I’m alive with a half working heart
You should see my regrets π
I like my lines. I earned them. π€¨
My hair is in between worlds these days. But I ain’t dying it and haven’t for months. Been detoxing it, stripping it, and then repairs. The dead ends should fix up but it’s a work-in-progress. Don’t touch my hair when I die.
There’s only one guy I even want to have my body and I want him to take care of my body in the afterlife, like I want him to be the gate keeper of my body, he can do what he wants to with my body, I want him to take care of my body and if he brings me back in some digital form then that’s between me and him π
I want to donate my body to *you know who* (love of life)
Some people like my nails. I did them. I’m tired. I look dead. I did them anyway.
Am I still fuckable half dead? π
Happy Vampire day π€ͺ
Gravity has been shaping my boobs
TIME AND GRAVITY
But somebody who ignores me now said he wanted to put a baby in me and fill them up
I wanted that so much π
He’s mad at me for having my own place to rent instead of being homeless π
I reckon I’m gonna have to bite the WordPress hook and upgrade my personal plan to the premium plan since I’ve used up all my 6GB of storage space π and just pretend the universe is pushing me to upgrade my plan so I can have more media space to upload photos but also unpack yeti from its box to do soft poetry readings and spoken word
To be fair, I have been dying
But I will also at some point maybe be producing some subscriber only content on my blog/website instead of over on OnlyFans (I don’t do porn or self-gratification, I’m an artist and do nude photography – many say softcore is obsolete, but I’ll be offering it here on my website instead- and if someone could please teach me how to set up subscriptions on WP instead of me having to go figure it out through WordPress that would be great)
I’m already on a plan that allows subscriptions and donations, I’ve just used up all my media space and either need to delete stuff off my website or upgrade and at this point it’s time to upgrade because I’m growing aren’t I? I have over 1000 followers now and nearly 100,000 views!! π
So when I’m not dying and can put my head into the WordPress books I will figure out how to do the subscriber only content (this won’t be for every post, just my random spicer content)!
Not everyone wants to see my exclusive Rated R nude content but I’m tired of giving other platforms my visitors – especially when most platforms I have zero voice as an artist
I don’t want to push people to another platform when they come to visit my website
I was at urgent care yesterday again so I don’t know how quickly I’ll be able to get stuff going but just know stuff is in the pipeline and I would like to get some more nude content out to you, it will be through my own website though, you won’t have to leave or sign-up anywhere else
I’m indecisive on what I’m doing with my Patreon account but I’ve been very grateful for your support over the years!
Because of it, my website has and remains advertisement free (zero spam)!
If you sign up for my blog posts via email, advertising will never be in your email either! Zero spam!
I may be the last place on earth that’s free of advertising π€
But you won’t have to worry about accidentally hitting an advertisement when scrolling or installing spyware or a virus
You can scroll freely without a condom ahem π€ͺ
I’m dealing with heart and lung issues since I got the vaccine – I’m still a weirdo tho and I miss doing the cosplay for you to accompany the rants, poetry and prose!
I will definitely upgrade my plan soon so I can at least start attaching photographs again to my rants and poetry
It may be the new year before I start any subscription only content!
I may do it via donation instead of subscription (like where you can pay a small fee to unlock the post)…
Stay tuned
Dying but not dead…
PSST… I have a free OnlyFans and will be active there when I’m feeling better – thank you for subscribing! My inbox is open there to say hello! I’ll let everyone know when I’m back and active! I’ll be going live over there to show you the beach and things! Softcore π€ͺ
My only visitor is the sunrise Connected to the earth Eternal blood ties Pretending any moment Could be his blue skies Holding in each breath Before the hope dies
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Tonight, I told the moon about you Now, every year, another inch he has withdrew The earth is home to heaven and we thought you always knew So deep inside his crevices, he said he’s feeling blue
Original poetry/ cosplay/ digiartpoetry and digiart by @poeeternal
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I may go live when I do my nails, on Instagram or my free OnlyFans! π€
I’m trying to get over my stage fright so maybe if I do something like at home beauty care, that will feel a little less intimidating and frightening as say going live and doing spoken word or something theatrical
Baby steps lol
But I am really grateful for all the positive feedback I get everywhere on the stuff that I’m putting out so more stuff coming soon and I’ve never had nails like this!
I don’t intend to wear them for a long time but I do want to do them for cosplay sets!
Because, I know you’ve just been dying to watch me apply my nails right π
We’re learning stuffs π
FYI, back in 2005, I worked in the mall at a salon as a “beauty consultant” for about six months selling products. I wasn’t the actual person who did hair but I knew what products to sell you based on your hair type or skin type and things like that!
I miss working out and I’m putting on some weight but I refuse to wither up and die mad naked on the street π
My doctor still has not given me the go ahead to start working out yet and all of my tests have been coming back showing my shit as fucked up so technically I’m still on the bed rest but everything will be happening from my master bedroom
I’m still tired as fuck all the time but the physical pain is less, tho I still have pressure built up in my heart, so I have to be careful (and mostly homebound too)
So appreciate the support, appreciate the feedback, appreciate the views
I’m grateful that I have anybody at all that gives a fuck about me and I do not take that lightly at all
I know I can be isolated but I’m not without gratitude
I do not charge anything else once inside! Zero pay-per-view content ever!
Thanks for your support! It keeps the content on my blog ad free! It keeps the fuse lit and the photography sizzling! I’m glad to be alive and have skin that isn’t ice cold! Not dead yet!
I’m grateful to be on the leaderboard and I’m grateful to have your support, this is an ongoing attempt to remain fair in a pandemic and again, I do not charge for Pay-per-view content. All my content is unlocked inside!
Scroll to the bottom to see the unedited NSFW version π
It’s likely just my evil sister or ex or one of the alike abusing the algorithm system and finding a way to have it removed out of spite or jealousy so here yah go!!! π
I think FaceBook is a dump and the platform is obsolete and he’s trying so hard to stay relevant
It’s a playground for predators and Big Bro is pushing the Illuminati’s agenda of the digital age and selling his crap
I’m getting off the platform for good soon enough
It’s just a back door for advertisers to spy on you
And we gave Mark Zuckerberg permission to tag our faces and now they are using automatic scanning against us
I can’t stand information control
1984 is now
And I’ll be using face tattoos and theatrical makeup in more cosplay sets upcoming just because it’s so very fucking offensive to some and so very appreciated by the rest
It’s actually had a lot of good feedback
Which is why one person out there has their butt hole burning red over my success
It’s eating them alive
So they feel like a big person getting my intellectual property removed in an illegal way (cheating)
But I can’t fucking stand FaceBook and this photo set had positive response on all the other platforms that it’s been posted to so thank you
The entire reason I left android behind is because android was bought out by Facebook and you can’t even uninstall Facebook on android devices now, so that’s why I’m over on Apple!
Mark Zuckerberg has too much control so he can sell you stuff and spy on you 24/7!
If we’re honest, I wish they were filled out with milk π
I’m hormonal and wish I were preggo π
I don’t feel bad my enemy had a safe for work photo removed as “spam” on FaceDump, so here it is without the edit π
And I will be adding some Halloween items to the list very soon!
One item I’ve really been wanting is some wings because I really think that will take my cosplay up to the next level, so I would love to have some wings to include in my photography!
Appreciate the support out there!
Whether it be spoiling me, dropping donations, or subscribing to my Patreon or OnlyFans campaigns, I really appreciate the support!
I ran a lot of people off, I’ve equally lost folks. But many still hang around my social feeds!
But the best way to support my blog and my content, is through subscribing to my campaigns, through donations, or gifts!
Your support keeps my blog free of advertising and spam! It keeps the content incoming! It keeps my belly fed! It keeps the content ad free!!
Stop assuming it’s easy work! I am a starving artist just like Edgar Allan Poe! I have rent (which is twice as high as your mortgage) and student loans and COLA expenses. I don’t live at home with mommy! I pay all my own living costs! I don’t have a husband or boyfriend “paying my way”.
Your support is appreciated more than you know! π
If it wasn’t for your love and attention, I would wither up and die! π€ͺ
And some of you have supported my campaigns for a very long time!! π₯°
You’re better than my therapist! π
I also don’t tell my therapist some of the things that I tell you! π
Deep dark secrets eh! π
Well it is the end of the world and I do love having my own private club! π
Thanks for dropping in or for sticking about! πππ
Some of you say my sets get better and better, I appreciate!
Thanks for keeping me on the leaderboard and from dying naked on the street!
There are people out there who try to make me feel bad for doing nude modeling for art
And film is something I’ve ALWAYS been interested in.
I shot a lot for my dad when I was a teenager – living in Nashville, Tennessee and hanging out on tour buses
Gig life is the number one reason I’m alive
I’ve been behind the camera all my life
It’s just other people were always the subject, not me, so it’s been an interesting journey growing up and getting in touch with my femininity because I was a hard-core Soldier for many many years
I’m making art
I also love cosplay and try to be theatrical in everything I do
I studied Drama in high-school
I still audition for shit and I’ve been doing auditions all my life
If I were making movies and had like an intimate scene with somebody, I would be nude
I don’t understand the big deal or why so many people want to call me a whore but I’m not ashamed
The feedback I’ve been getting has improved my overall self-esteem and how I see myself
I’ve been body shamed a lot in my life because I am not plastic
By men who didn’t even have anything going for them really
And it affected me my entire life
So, I may act a child but I don’t know what it’s really like to be a woman and that’s what I’m discovering
So here’s a little growth chart of my progress and time on OnlyFans
It will be interesting to see how this chart changes when porn is eliminated from the platform and they push their new agenda of pop stars and advertising
Either way, I’m still the little guy!!! Making tiny waves! π
Thanks for supporting my artistic creativity! I’m so grateful for you! You’re helping me grow as a human being! β€οΈ
Development has been hard for me because I didn’t have parents, I had abusers and I joined the Army when I was very young so the only training that I really have is from the Army or the lessons that I’ve learned being in the abusive, narcissistic relationships that I’ve been in and every relationship I was in the men always tried to hold me down so I never could reach my potential and you’re helping me reach my potential as a human being and an artist
Furthermore, you’re keeping me from dying on the street like Edgar Allan Poe
That is priceless
Come check out my content, I’m running some fair deals on memberships and have over 1.5k photos and videos to scurry through!
While my content IS NOT XXX, it is Rated R and from the positive feedback I receive, my nude photography is enjoyed. Thank you!
I used to complain that my hair was thin but then I realized that I was comparing my hair to people with fake hairPeople will say, “cut your ends off” and the answer is NO. It wraps around me and curls. I want it free flowing and messy, just like me!!! Because look how long it is getting and it’s 100% real hair and homegrown directly from my skull πThese are just some outtakes from my newest OF set (wanted to show off my real, silky hair). π Hair is thin but long and heavy (zero grays)!
And to anyone who says running and a tanning bed is better than a Beach is full of shit
It’s easy to say that running is better than a Beach when you don’t have one 7 miles from you
To the person who just joined my premium OnlyFans, thank you! πͺ
I work hard at my writing and modeling.
I work hard at being a content creator.
And the reward is people enjoying my work!
It’s also nice to be able to pay a bill or feed my belly!
Many people around me don’t support me because they think this work comes easy but it doesn’t.
I’m not just standing in front of a camera.
I’m also a natural model and poet, 2 extremely hard fields to get noticed in!
So when someone joins my OnlyFans and tells me that they are a fan of my writing, it means a lot to me. Writing is in my core!
Nude modeling is helping me grow as a human being and photographer.
I get to explore my sensuality on film.
I get to share being a human with you and what it’s like to experience things through my body and my eyes.
Your feedback literally fuels me.
There are many people who have tried to shame me for what I do.
I’m not ashamed.
As you can see, I am still understanding my lessons as a woman and what it really means to be alive! I think my growth as an artist shows! I’m not talking about monetary gain.
I’m learning to be okay in THIS body without any botox or plastic surgery! And with gravity playing its part.
Sure my boobs are saggy but I don’t want boulders that and sit there and never move!
Boring!!!
Jiggle wiggle!
I prefer movement! The universe is made of energy!
And, I’m not removing my sex organs to put plastic where I won’t feel sensation anymore, where I lose sensation and I’m even more desensitized to the world and detached from being an actual human being, no thanks
That’s what the 1% want
I just wanna do my art man
I’m not a cash cow and I don’t milk the people who walk through my door
I always get really scared when someone joins my OnlyFans because I get nervous and think they are going to body shame me like the real ones have done
Anyway, I just want to say thanks!
It makes me feel good good!
More content incoming, as long as I am breathing! You inspire me! π₯°
I really hope I feel good enough to hit the city and beach soon and go live to show you the ocean and things that inspire me π
Because I do have the ability to go live and currently have 14 subscribers to my OF! π
Just yesterday I got a new subscriber there too! βΊοΈ
My OF is slowly growing!
I want to go live but I’ve literally been on bedrest!
The content has been lacking but the growth has kept me breathing! π€ͺ
I love Florida and I’m missing out on summer π«
I love the weather here tho
And the parks and the city life
The nightlife
The park and beach life
I would love to show you my city
It’s so encouraging to have your support
You can scan this QR code to visit my OF profile page
I’m grateful for my blog readers too! π₯°
I appreciate my viewers everywhere!
Even my TikTok channel is getting attention, just yesterday I got a new follower and some love on my videos!
Organic views, likes, and follows
It feels good because I don’t pay for it and it comes naturally, it’s natural growth.
I have lost followers that I didn’t want to lose simply because I couldn’t give them my time or energy.
So, I’m appreciating my growth, and I’m keeping my eyes forward.
I don’t want to look in my rearview.
I also appreciate all the feedback my latest Instagram post is getting! I dropped a small set for my premium OnlyFans and this photo came from that set!
I’ve been very nervous to share any body positive images because I haven’t been able to keep up with my fitness but I have been able to keep up with my diet!
I’ve been eating very healthy (mostly)!
And I was really grateful to get my heart monitor removed July 29th, that boosted my self-esteem significantly.
I’m still hurting but no longer look 80.
I was able to finally take a bath where I could submerge myself or a shower where I could fully submerge myself.
That alone will boost your self-esteem
There’s nothing a bath won’t cure π
I’m dying but people still love my ass π€ͺ
Thank you!!!
Your comments on my Insta post are super encouraging!
Your subscriptions to my OF are encouraging!
My blog views and followers continue to increase, despite a loss here and there!
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